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Yesterday I smoked weed, like I've done so many times before, but it hit me pretty hard. I started hearing a high frequency noise that sounded very Alien that kept going on in my left ear. When I stood up, I fainted and blacked out on the coffee table but got back up. Then I walked up the stairs into my bedroom and fell on the floor and hit my head and back (I assume pretty hard). All of reality became a blur and I fainted. My housemate got me a glass of water and took care of me. This is where the experience started. First, I experienced an infinite loop that I couldn't get out of. The same image and the same words kept reappearing and all these visuals spawned out of itself, for infinity. I had to deny something. If I didn't deny that particular thing / phrase / sentence, fear would take over my reality. By constantly denying this phrase I could reach the light. It was very difficult for me to deny this phrase, whatever it was, but eventually I denied it so many times I escaped the loop. Slowly my visual field kicked back in but it was different this time. I was sitting on the floor in a meditative position and I had the deep realization that that moment was all there ever was. My whole life as a story was complete BS and all it ever was was me sitting on the floor in that position. Every human ever has only ever sat in that meditative position. I was still in childhood. I FINALLY realized the nature of reality. All it EVER was was that. Time was a complete joke ... the funniest joke I'd ever heard. I said to my housemate that I finally understood the comparison between enlightenment and an orgasm because a few minutes of this were absolutely orgasmic. So, what on EARTH should I make of this?

Man... I guess you're right... I mean most of our medical discoveries, especially plastic surgery, came about because of Nazi Scientists in WWII... I guess I do see the "benefits" we have received from it, but it doesn't stop it from feeling so wrong and alien to me... I hate how many people have to die because of greed and fear of one group getting more "powerful" than us.. It feels like there is so much evil in the world and I know it's only like that because of the access we have to all the information online.. Truth is, I think we are living in the best time, so far. Like what would be the alternative? I'm often mistaken for African American so there isn't really any time in the past that would be too inviting to me lol Man this whole thing has my mind spinning guess I'm just too low on the "Spiral Dynamics" spectrum to see the big picture. It just makes so much more sense to just be indifferent towards each other. We don't have to agree of like what others do or believe, but it's their right to do it, just like it's our right. Plus it takes so much less energy to just not care about our differences. I don't know... Maybe I'm just too naive and idealistic....

yes, times when I am emotionally disturbed the changes are integrated differently I've had times where I barely felt could walk straight, having to get used to how my legs feel and move, at worst I almost felt like a lost wild animal in a city, completely losing my composure and feeling like an alien in the city, standing out when I go through changes, its everything at once, new visuals, new body, new senses, new time, new space,for the most of it this happens comfortably actually , Im in a stream most of time, out of thoughts, but during emotional disturbances it can get different but it always ends well this is literally non-duality, I feel people's bodies and emotions a thousand times more then I felt my emotion and body before I began consciousness work Im literally being other people far more intensely then I was being myself in the past the people that I see now are entirely my own perception, their faces and bodies have evolved in rythm with my consciousness and chakra blooming, the human body feels entirely connected to me I do not have an idea what people looked like 2 months ago, even less 2 years ago before all this, if I were to make an honest comparison from my memory, human beings 2 years ago, you can take a kids 2D drawing of a tree, a drawing about the size of your thumb, and put it next to a gigangic real life tree , this is humans now, this is the comparison,not even exaggerating, unimaginable these are the dimensions in which the human body has changed for me, in terms of liveliness, colours, details, volume, the increase in space is seriously the most mindblowing factor so I know what I see is entirely related to me, and I do not have a clue how other people see the world,and in a week I'll be seeing other things, I legitly feel like im looking beautiful mythical creatures,elves and trolls and aliens yet still human the concept itself of other people is starting to sound very vague, if I were to meet anyone on this forum I know I would have the same feeling as the one I do when I look at the mirror in private if anything this forum might be one of the last places where I do not see myself and I feel like there are "others" out there anyone I see I live them as me, ive long stopped meeting strangers, that illusion stopped somewhere along the way online though I cant see you so I cant live you, its not as simple, this forum is seriously the last place where I can meet so called others lol, honestly, its like the last bastion of earthly human beings for me, out there its just full on dreamscape

Hello ! I have a few and try to keep them simple Yes/No Have your eyes change color from blue to green ? ( Based on observation from older to newer videos ) Have you listened to Black Metal when you were an atheist ? Have you considered the importance of good use of Sacred Geometry in multiple disciplines ? One word answer Horde / Alliance ? What Science Fiction/Fantasy character you empathized with most ? What is alien : thought or material ? Do you think thoughtfully applied Artificial Intelligence will destroy the world or humans will do that job in their blindness ?

the truth of the universe is inside you have never lived outside of it, you have never been outside of it, that is what makes the truth the truth, it is what is regardless of your thoughts, beliefs, world views, concepts, age, whatever it is, it has always been part of the truth when you were taking your first steps as a toddler, the truth is there when you eat ice cream, the truth of the universe is right there with you when you walk outside, going through some thoughts of listening to music, the truth of life is with you when you're with friends or family, sharing a moment, the truth is here when you're on the toilet, peeing, shitting, here is the truth of all things can you look for and find the truth at the end of the universe in a exotic alien civilization?yes at the end of many thoughts and concepts?yes, in your favourite guru? after many mushroom or lsd or dmt trips?yes, yes the truth is everywhere, so it will be there as well the truth is always with you, like your best buddy, perhaps we are unconscious of it, we dont notice it, get to know this friend, that is with you every moment yes, we might not be fully aware of the truth, but its not to be found outside of what we have, no guru or dmt trip can give you whats already there, they could open your eyes more to the fact that its here that you will find truth, still it is up to one to open his or her eyes to what is here the truth of the universe is literally in one of your feelings right now, it is something you know and experience now the truth is very familiar so my advice, when you're out and about in your daily life, take a small moment to recognize and be aware that the truth of the universe is with you right here, right now, it is somewhere here, it might not be felt fully, it might be a small sliver of truth, but it is here, somewhere in this moment, you are feeling the truth of the universe, the connection to all life, to all of creation, the universal beingness somewhere in your feelings, here, now

They aren't a cure-all, but their potential has been waaaay underinvestigated by modern methods. And Leo looks like a Zen devil alien in that picture.

Yeah that was one of the most creepy scenes. Definately a creepy spiritual / evolution / alien / sci-fi movie. It has so many subtle stuff that you may miss and the meaning behind the scenes are vague. This is the kind of movie i would have disliked before I got to know about all the stuff Leo talks about This scene was pretty much spiritual, a fragmented mind: @Quanty Did you notice the subtle things happening with the the ouroboros infinity tattoo?

@metwinn yes i guess so! So Alien is the the other I that you cannot switch roles with it. So the question is, can I switch my role with an existence such as a microbe? I think so. @Preetom Thank you! But i need to contemplate on this more. I want to be skeptical about this. I want to be 100 percent sure, that there is no other type of "I". "The fool who persists in his folly will become wise." World is a mysterious place. You can't find something you are not looking for. @Highest Physical world is not a certainty, but awareness is a certainty? how you know awareness is a certainty? I'd like to know. @Danelius Thanks for the reply. I need to think more about what you say.

There can only be one "I" because consciousness is the substance of everything. Whether you experience an alien, an entity, X dimensions and / or multiverse etc. it shall still be the same. From nothingness to 1, 2 these shall always exist otherwise you'll never be able to communicate between one another. We as people are mere divisions of the whole.

@Samra So by alien I you mean something that has a completely different sense of self?

Oh man. I'm trying, but I'm not very good at explaining. There is only one type of "I" . Even a mosquito is the same "I". Have you ever experienced any other type? No! An alien "I"? And I don't mean alien not from earth. I mean like mother Ayahusaca alien. A completely different entity that you cannot comprehend as your own "I". It doesn't exist. There is only one type of exsistance than I know of.

I have taken 12 grams of dried mushrooms Once. Not really planning to get back to such a dose as it's just not that much more useful than 3-5g well executed trip. Generally the bigger the dose the harder it is to extract lessons from the trip as the mind gets really "unstable". I would say do it if you have built your way up to it with the doses of 2-4-6-8 grams, otherwise the jump might be too big as the experience you get can not be mapped to anything else. Would be the same as trying to read scientific papers in a new language you just picked up one week ago. Trip itself shortly... On 12 grams I felt like some kind of alien intelligence took over my body. I know it sound weird. On higher doses of LSD it still feels like you are in the driving seat if you want to. There is a chance to contemplate, inquire. Mushrooms on the other hand... different beast. Unpredictable, wild. It takes over. It enjoys tripping you. It shows you what it wants you to see.

... After the Shamans sang our songs, I went back to my mattress. I could feel vibrations and the effects of the songs within me. They were working their magic. I started seeing and becoming one with the plant. The plant showed me that my mother is not a human. No ones mother is a human. There is no human. And everything starting going back in time. And everything became one simple plant. He/She said, I am your mother. You are me. Then everything started to go even further into nothingness. And all sensory systems disappeared. I started seeing the original fabric of existence. It was made of two linear lines. Floating and dancing, changing colours, playing with each other. Sometime after that the ceremony ended. I through up right before the last song at the request of the alien within, and it made me feel better. As i walked out of the spaceship, I was blown away by the stars in the night sky. For the fist time in my life, I could see the Milky way. My friend joined me soon after. We picked up bunch of blanket, went on the big porch balcony in pitch black, and slept under the stars for some time. Day 2: In the morning, we all gathered in the same room, cleaning up after our own mess, and cleaning our buckets. We all shared details of our journey to each other and to the Shamans. To my surprise, most people didn't have any visuals. Most people had physical and emotional insights. Some just had a hard night, throwing up violently. That somehow fed my ego. I was proud of myself for seeing so many beautiful things, whilst others didn't. I though to myself ( that's because I am an artist and I have a super creative mind). This ego backlash came to hunt me at night. On this day, I made couple of mistakes in retrospect. I slept in the afternoon, from 1 pm to 5:30 pm. Although the Shamans suggested that, it made me super drowsy. Also I think i ate more than I needed. So by 9 pm, i was still not hungry. I started running around the retreat, trying to burn some energy and feel more alive. Nothing really worked. I went in the ceremony not in a great mood. Like the first night, Ceremony started and everybody had a cup of the medicine. I soon started to feel the effect. However, no visuals. I wanted to see. I needed to see the visuals again i thought to myself. My ego took over, I was in so much control. I was so frustrated at myself. After sometime, the Shamans offered a second drink, no one went for it. So even though i wasn't really feeling high, i didn't go either. An hour later, two guys went for a second cup. It was then that the plant ( or the ego) asked me to for the second cup. I was in doubt, but i heard the voices in me, "i thought you are ready for this. I though you wanted an ego death. I though you wanted to know me. Why are you being a pussy now." So i went in front of the Shaman for the second cup. The Shaman looked me with doubt. But he offered me a little bit. I literally had a sip, half the amount the Shaman offered me. As soon as i got back to my seat, I started seeing visuals again. "Now we are talking!" I though to myself. But the visuals were in pure. They were forced. They were mine, not a gift from the plant. I accepted that and enjoyed my trip anyways. Sometime after that, the ceremony ended, and my trip didn't. I tried throwing up, nothing cam out. I was so dizzy. Everybody left the room. I went to my room to my friend. She had an amazing night. She had cried and felt so much love. And she had seen so many beautiful visuals. I hadn't experienced any of that. Jealousy took over. We went to bed, and my real trip started. I had heard about bad trips before, but i have never really experienced it. I now know what hell is like. I was in so much agony. Physically, emotionally , spiritually. I could see darkness taking over me. My breath became toxic. My blood pressure dropped. I was dying, but not in a nice way. I was fading away and joining the dark forces. Light was gone. And thats when i started getting a lot of insights. I told myself: You have brought this on yourself by being a control freak, you accept the responsibility. Face it all. Face this moment. And i faced all the sadness, hate, suffering. I faced my ugliest form: I am impure. I am weak. I am alone. My parents are dying. War is coming. No one likes me. I have no friends. I have no talent. I am such a mediocre artist. I am a failure. I dont deserve love. I dont know love. I dont deserve a good life. This is all fake. I am so fake. I am such a pity. Nothing matters. No one will save me.... I faced all of myself. I was dying. From inside myself, I called up thousands of Roman soldiers to come to my protection. All these gladiators surrendered me. But a powerful female entity appeared, and melted all the soldiers away. She said there is no escaping this. Face it. So i faced it all. It never got easier. This went on for an eternity. I though i am lost in this madness forever. To be honest, even now, i am still not sure if I totally got out. Sometime past. I was able to get out of the bed. I needed to get the alien out of body. My friend woke up as well. We went to kitchen, and i had gallons of water. Finally something came out. Still feeling dizzy and weak, we went to our room. My friend came to my rescue. She so full of love, lied beside me, gently cresting my hair, telling me it will be alright. I let her go to sleep, and i went back to my own darkness. Around 8 am, I fell sleep. I think i slept for an hour total that night. Around 9 I woke up. Feeling dizzy and weak. But I was reborn. I survived the night of the dark soul. I congratulated myself. Went out of the room. At 10 , we had breakfast and shared our night experience. Most people had a fantastic night. So many insights, so much love. So many beautiful visuals. My night stood out like a swore thumb. I cried and was shaking the whole time describing my experience. Both Shamans looked at me with their wise eyes and smiled. I was so humbled. I am just an old child. Thank you.

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Heck, no alien's for me! I have enough trouble figuring humans out.

@Hotaka I don't know. Let's see if you can relate: I always come out of thought into the crown, or third eye. From there I can shift between the two down to the throat and no further. It is stuck at the throat and if I leave it there, it silences the mind. It feels like a blockage, because I cannot move it down below to other areas. It can also be interpreted as an excitement of the throat because of a constant flow downwards. It doesn't seem to be directed towards anything below. As if the capacity of spaciousness of the chest was too great to be filled with this flow. When I let the crown go through the throat, I can simultaneously focus on the breath. With the throat active, as I exhale, I can 'pump' the spaciousness through my spine downward, towards the root (anus?). As i do this, I feel pleasant vibrations throughout the spine. It feels as if the space reached the root and reversed, shooting upwards. I wonder if I can reach the heart this way, or there needs to be a third movement, irrespective of the throat and breath. At the early stages of my meditation practice, I felt two movements of this space that I can relate to now. Both felt as if I was a superconductor for the space. One was like the space shifted through me downwards. It felt as if I was infinitely heavy. Pinned down to the ground. It did not even occur to me to move in this state. It was like I was eternal, like the space itself. My whole body, every inch of it, became aware of the movement down. The other experience was when the space moved upwards. It felt then, as if I was weightless. As if my body didn't exist. This body feels like a gland of the space, yes. It is a way to pump it. It feels as if I was an organ within the cosmic body that influences this space. The cosmic body being me. It is not something other/alien, but me. I can shift from the mind-perspective into the body-perspective that I just described. I have come here by developing the mind-perspective to the point in which it became similar to the spaciousness. This is how it was possible to me to cross the body-mind barrier. This barrier is what I call the identity. Psychology operates on this boundary, where the mind and the body meet. Yes. Everything about me is arbitrary now. The self-story is a matter of choice. It all became an intertwined mess of events with no apparent causality. I don't see auras per se, but I can recognize forms of energy in non-scientific terms. People seem to have problems with funneling some forms of energy into other. Like connection with people into money, or money into understanding. We're too heavily grounded in objective perspective and cannot deal with money properly. It stagnates and builds up. I haven't thought about the space-time correspondence in-depth yet. From the body perspective, everything is here and now. There is no time in this domain. I think that you will find this graph useful:

Ayahusaca Trip report : June 2018 I arrived in Lisbon, Portugal on a Wednesday and met up with my friend who has flown from Canada. We had lots of fun exploring the beautiful city of Lisbon and catching up. Next day, we rented a car and drove three hours to our retreat. We met with all the other super interesting people who were there for the ceremony. There was a total of 12 of us. I had an interview with one of our Shamans. She asked about myself and my intentions, as well as any previous experiences with any drugs or psychedelics and all the other important details. Around 9 pm, we all gathered around in a beautiful glass room called Spaceship for obvious reasons. We had our Purge ceremony. Basically, you drink a horrible Tobacco medicine, and after some time, you drink gallons of water, until you throw up. It is not pleasant, but after you are super clear and you have this amazing sensation. Bunch of us gathered in the backyard, and talked about ourselves and intentions and experiences. I made couple of lovely connections which i will never forget. Next day, we had a very healthy breakfast. No salt, no suger,.... We had an even simpler lunch at 1 pm. Around 3 pm, me, my friend and bunch of other people went to a beautiful beach near by, high above the cliffs. The beauty was mesmerising. I sat on top of the cliffs, and meditated and contemplated for a while. Once we got back to the retreat, I found another glass meditation room and just stayed there by myself, trying not to get tangled up with conversations with other people. Most people were doing the same thing. We were all preparing for our journey. Around 9 pm, everyone gathered in the Spaceship. The Shamans told us were to sit. The had paired people up for based on some sort of logic. The Shamans who are a couple, had a very interesting of singing their Icarus songs. They each sing a different song with a different beat. At first it was very confusing, but soon it made my brain do a funny thing. It would split my consciousness and brain activity in two. I got to love it by the end. After an hour of taking the medicine , I still couldn't really feel anything. People were already throwing up, so I though something must be wrong with me. I was getting frustrated and thought maybe i am not worthy. It was then when the Shamans called for anyone who wants a second cup. Almost everyone got up. I managed to go as well. This was quite surprising to me, since i had a very hard time last year. It seemed that my body and mind have become much more tolerant and stronger. Within minutes of having the second cup, the plant started talking to me. I started shaking and feeling pain all over my body. I felt an alien going through my veins. It was a horrible pain. I realised this must be how a heroin addict must feel like. And I learned compassion. The plant told me if i can't take it, I am allowed to through up. I told he/she I am ready, so Bring it on. Right away, a light burst out of my chest, and I saw a portal opening, and the alien entered my being. It took control. I started seeing a lot of visuals. Beauty, destruction, death, life, horror, pain, fear, love. Everything was visual and sensual. I was in bliss and pain at the same time. I asked her what is my purpose in life? He/she said why don't you become a Shaman? And i said no way. Im not strong enough. And she said fine, then i'll give you an easier purpose. Just draw me. Just paint me. Show people my beauty, and that will alone will bring light. And he/she showed me all her incredible beauty ( which i m already starting to forget) . She also told me that she is not only light, but the opposite as well. And all this dark forces appeared. So powerful and masculine. I was terrified. But she said accept. So i did. There is beauty in horror. He/She has no preference, and so I should learn not to have a preference either. And then I here the Shaman calling my name. I walked in front of him, and my friend was called by the female Shaman. Then they Sang a song specific to each of us at the same time. I was blown away. Sharing this experience with my friend is priceless. To be continued ...

wow, I'm deeply impressed. how is that even possible.. and they even want us to believe that veganism is somehow deficient. incredible. <3 there really is something alien about Victor...exotic. so open, calm and joyful, like it's a play. wow, I can feel his energy through the screen. I wonder how it must be to talk to him in person have you tried living as a breatharian,@pluto ? I think I've read that in an older post of yours?

Wow this guy seems amazing. He seems like an alien to me. How can it be possible not to eat and to drink? Does he ever get sick? A friend of mine told me a story that he met a girl who did't consume food aswell while participating an Ayahuasca retreat . I don't remember if she didn't cosume liquid too. My friend told me she was speaking with him and told him that she can see that he is not grounded. I guess these people get superpowers after not cosuming for a long time. Are there any publications from science about this topic? Everything speaks against scientific research. It's almost like a bad joke when you tell somebody that you live from air and love :-D

There's definitely something alien about him. He looks androgynous, has a strange way of communicating and his eyes are so damn hypnotic... There really are some hidden gems out there eh...

No one's found anything on Korean, Japanese or Chinese blue people? These countries still remain mostly alien to us.

Remember that he who claims to be Jesus will be someone from the Greater Community of intelligent life (alien), a hybrid, connected to the collective mind of non-spiritual races in the universe. Jesus will come in the Knowledge today that still exists within You. www.alliesofhumanity.org

Indeed...Virtue of those who are holy embody order. In that order manifests itself physically and psychologically making for a life of physical/psychological vigor and longevity. Also, when we see that there is no division between oneself and another, we see that one individual is influencing the stream of human consciousness and physical evolution of mankind as well. Each one of us influences the way in which man kind lives and interrelates with themselves, others, and the world. In this mankind will collectively live more holistically integrated and physically robust lives. Anyone who views themselves as an “independent entity”(ego), that will die and enter into the “the kingdom of heaven” as an isolated and alienated spirt is bound to live an unholy life and betray the gift of the present moment. When fear dictates every action in ones life, one will remain moving and acting according to the divisive notion of the i and other. When one acts in accordance to the false idea that one is an independent entity who is alien to the world and others, one will continue to put off incarnating now in this life. Do we see the importance to incarnate now, instead of “next life” ??? When we see that the “next life” is another movement of time/mind, and a dualistic assumption that only an ego(thought) conjures up, we then see that now is all the ever is. The beauty of death which is life, is to incarnate now. As now is all there is. Anything not of now is of the imagination.

Your world is being “visited” by several alien races and by several different organizations of races. The Extraterrestrial Presence in the World Today http://alliesofhumanity.org/alien-races-earth/ The author, Marshall Vian Summers from a multi-racial, extraterrestrial group of individuals who refer to themselves as the “Allies of Humanity.” They describe themselves as physical beings from other worlds who have gathered in our solar system near the Earth for the purpose of observing the communications and activities of those alien races who are here in our world interfering in human affairs. @Hotaka Most of members on this forum don't believe in Extraterrestrial life !

overcoming one's inner ego is the first step next is dealing with the outer ego,the ego of other people, the ego's all around you with higher empathy (which leads to telempathy) that you seem to have you are very aware of other people's ego and this is the next step, overcoming the ego of someone else, dealing with the ego of another you're already sensing the effects of your vibration on other people, because you know there will be attention involving light emotions and attention involving dark emotions. Ill tell you right away you will be famous, people may not know consciously whats going on but subconsciously they will feel it, to enlighten is to embody the light of a star, you literally carry a fuckton of star energy, its physical and when you pass by its like a electrical current passing by, people are literally inside your electric field, and this happens all the time with everyone,we're all inside each others electric field all the time, we dont notice this connection because most people are tuned into the approximate same range of vibration so when someone who's on the enlightened path pass by and the energy is a thousand times stronger,its fucking physical,literally, they feel it and they know something is up Ive entered spaces with people where I felt like an alien visiting because I could feel how far my vibration is from the medial unaware vibration this is not some removed subtle light little feeling shit, vibrations are physical Ive passed people by and I saw their face instantly light up , their consciousness awaken, as if blinded by the sun, ive seen people be in fear, that start to race, ive seen some look at me with an expression of "???wtf is this, this isnt part ofmy reality?." some rebel against you suddenly comes someone with power as great as a living star captivated, magnified,their attention pulled like a black hole into the presence of a complete stranger. some resist, instead of letting them get inspired by the magic and power of life, which aims to teach them to how to do this themself, how to have that for their own life and being, they refuse to let another human being bring this gift of energy to them, theyd rather maintain their ego some will turn to fear to hate,to envy, to rejection,rebellion, sabotage Do know that people who are open-hearted and accepting will not be disturbed, they will gracefully receive your higher energy and will be able to immediately use it for their own vibration and well being, for their own lives, to them this is not a battle of maintaining the ego but a refreshing shower of love I will tell you this my friend, when you throw someone into envying you or hating you some people carry a lot of negativity, it should not be tolerated though, ever, the desirable outcome is for the person to swallow their own envy and hate, take responsibility, and transmute it into positive energy. even better is to let the highenergy not go to negative emotions but to positive emotions right from the get go, your scholarschip can inspire many people around you, can bring love and joy to many around you, and make a real difference in their lives to be proud is good, and healthy people who see someone else being proud will see the truth of life, they will be inspired and motivated by you those who are not willing to put their ego down will funnel negative energy towards you, not you personally, but you are an embodiment of a belief that they do not want to accept, the belief of unity of life ,for most have the belief of separation, that we all survive by ourselves, so they refuse to let someone else deeply inspire them, they refuse to feel this love the only way is zero tolerance, absolute reflection, you never attack someone, but you absolutely reflect if someone wants to funnel negative energy your way you let them know, its their absolute right to know that negative energy creates more negative energy, so you reflect that back with zero tolerance and and they will taste what they're serving,thats the truth of life, you get what you emit once you start to enlighten you are a guru to many people the same way there have been guru's to you,whether they know and/or accept this subconsciously or not there is male and female energy, we are allowed to take action and create what we want, and there are moments where we must submit, those that refuse to submit, to lay their ego down when it is called for, THEY WILL PAY THE PRICE, we are as much kings over life as life is a queen over us chose my friend, will you back off being afraid of envy and hate, or you will you go forward, caring about the people that you will inspire, the real positive change that you will bring to this world? your high energy events will help many many more people then the ones who will rebel against you