mandyjw

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  1. 👍 Ironic that the mind thinks it is bound, and so it creates bounds, "in order to be ok, I must be sane. I must be able to reflect back upon myself as sane." It cannot reflect back upon itself though. It is a thought, and it will create itself anew as another thought. There is no continuum or substance behind the thought. Suffering is really what the healing of mental illness seeks to address, suffering is the only real insanity if there is any. To believe a thought that feels awful to think is insane.
  2. Meditation is detachment from thought. Are you talking about contemplation or meditation? I've mostly been totally spontaneous and free with contemplation. I've run since I was 10 and thoughts would slow and insights and passionate feelings for spiritual things arose. Do what you are inclined to do. You're utterly free. Thoughts say otherwise. We make time in meditation to enjoy our utter boundlessness. Meditation is not contemplation, it's letting go of thoughts. I have a habit in the morning and night to brush my teeth because I like having clean teeth and I don't have to think about it. Build in habits that serve you. Enjoy life and spontaneity around them. Then do as you're inspired to do. Focus on what you have determined through the means of inspiration and feeling that which is important to you. There is no conflict here. I spontaneously journal or write to let go of thoughts and work up through a low emotional state. I do this as needed. It's helpful to carve out time for it, but it's best done when the need arises. Again, fantastic feelings and insight comes out of nowhere. Sometimes it's the most unexpected random things (we would think it to be distraction) that inspire an insight, other times we have to clear everything away to make space, we have to listen and open to receive it. You've got all the tools at your disposal. Practices, spontaneity, it's all at your disposal. It's all for you, all part of you. No conflict, you're just lucky. Meh. We're all just a bunch of idiots on the internet. We're just writing all this shit for you. None of it is valid. You got this. ❤
  3. How is it possible to read a book? Pages of a book, frames of a video. Same dif. You are what does not have pages or frames, or seconds or moments, or beginning or end.
  4. "Opinions are like assholes, everyone has one." "We all have the same asshole." Yeah, I don't know about that. 🤔
  5. Before I attracted a kind comment, I noticed I had verbal diarrhea with my husband this morning, and just everything was coming out of my mouth with no filter, and luckily he's always just too chill to be bothered. Then I thought of something I said in conversation recently and part of the youtube video I have ready to post. And I thought... "I really wish no one took me seriously. " And like... with nonduality, you have to have both, you have to not take it seriously and disregard it and also, it's the truest thing you ever heard. At the same time. So likewise, in my relationships and interactions I reflect this. I Am hollow. I Am hallowed. I am full of shit. I am fertile soil for ideas. I am never the ideas.
  6. @Gili Trawangan Comments are fine, and thank you so much. ❤🤗
  7. I'm jealous or something. I feel like no one gives me any credit. I don't know if I want it. Do I want it? Yeah, I want it. I want some fucking credit. credit (n.) 1540s, "belief, faith," from French crédit (15c.) "belief, trust," from Italian credito, from Latin creditum "a loan, thing entrusted to another," neuter past participle of credere "to trust, entrust, believe" (see credo). Awww. fuck. Trust again? Credit. Trust. Money. That car loan I feel a bit sick about that we took out. I thought these were two different subjects. Alright, what's my problem? I had a problem. Who the fucks knows. I want to feel amazing. I want to teach, like in person, in conversation, actually actively teach. But I know I can't teach. Whatever speaks in italicized font can teach, and it's not separate from me. I want to make money. I feel like these two things are impossible. I don't know why I'm so hung up on it. Oh Vortex. Oh Source. https://youtu.be/ipqqEFoJPL4 I get confused sometimes. Everything I can think, write, attribute is not. And this is the best news I never heard. Shirtless guy in an old perfume ad. A field. My idea of what California looks like. An old clock. A woven chair. The ocean. I tried marijuana. I have too many dreams. How can I shuffle between them all? You can't. All are not subject to time, never a problem, never separate, each serving the other, serving the whole. Are there too many people? Too many animals? Too many trees? Too many planets? Too many stars? I Am prolific, and never divided. Nice to meet you. I'm too lazy to cook and live off rice cakes. What nothing to say? Have you abandoned me too? Too? Sigh. What are you focusing on not being here, that is?
  8. There's nothing serious going on here.
  9. Have you explored how infinite your right now experience is? Looked for your center, your borders outside of thought?
  10. Hahahaha. That's the furthest thing from the truth. I laugh not out of disrespect but because the lesson is still fresh and tender. Fearing for your child and wanting them not to experience any suffering is highly conditional. What's incestious is a relationship with one's own thoughts and beliefs. The feel familiar so you don't dare let go of them to venture out to meet new ones you could really create something with.
  11. @Gesundheit2 He composed, lost his composure and then decomposed. The Romeo and Juliet of the East. I Am Shakespeare, I don't come from east or west. What of love?
  12. To the contrary, how f-ing beautiful that it's still purely on topic. How to feel... Higher, higher, higher. https://youtu.be/dTYOkcRH220
  13. That's all there already is. It's not that it will bring peace, it just is that. But to avoid the recognition/enjoyment/Knowledge of it, you say women are incapable of the "higher" love men are capable of, so you cut yourself off. No need of that. You're free to define things how you'd like, and pay the fines.
  14. @Gesundheit2 All of those are just words for suffering except Wudd. Except the words "bonds" and "for the loved one". Still might be suffering.
  15. @zazen define (v.) late 14c., deffinen, diffinen, "to specify; to fix or establish authoritatively;" of words, phrases, etc., "state the signification of, explain what is meant by, describe in detail," from Old French defenir, definir "to finish, conclude, come to an end; bring to an end; define, determine with precision," and directly from Medieval Latin diffinire, definire, from Latin definire "to limit, determine, explain," from de "completely" (see de-) + finire "to bound, limit," from finis "boundary, end" (see finish (v.)). From c. 1400 as "determine, declare, or mark the limit of." Related: Defined; defining. https://www.etymonline.com/search?q=define So if I were to define love I'd say that it is boundless and unlimited. But only by ignoring the definition of define can I do this, I've totally paradoxed myself.