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  1. Too much disfunction. I'll have a nice meal instead. Peace
  2. Toxic masculinity is attractive to toxic femininity Violence (and attraction to it) is a huge red flag in men and women. Huge subconscious anger issues.
  3. So advaita vedanta might be right on samsara. I tend to see reincarnation as BS because God seems to know it will recognize itself once the ego dies. That's because during awakenings/glimpses I feel like I have already planned everything. So... My guess is that God doesn't reincarnate in a loop. It might reconnect with its true nature at the end of every ego's lifespan. Why should the ego awaken for God to come back to singularity? God recognizes itself clearly once the false self is dead, or transcended by spiritual work. So... I'm still very skeptical about samsara... Seems like a fairytale. Pretty absurd to create other dreams and other dimensions without coming back home to design them isn't it?
  4. Is this what ancient hindu sages meant with samsara and reincarnation when a person is not enlightened?
  5. What? What do you mean? Why should not a dead ego merge back in the singularity? Once the false self disappears, your true identity should be clear to itself.
  6. It's been several days since I've had this massive shadow work crisis. I'm cleaning up major childhood trauma, and these last days I've been feeling sad and deeply introspective. This is not an awakening episode, it's more of a contemplative inquiry into the nature of the ego self and The Self. Others and the "outer world" are just a mirror of me. This has been noticed over the course of several months, and probably amplified by several psychedelic basic awakenings. As I've seen my ego become more and more positive, pure, peaceful and clean, I've noticed how others and reality has become more like me. But it has always been like me. I have noticed how the violence in the world is reflected inside me (as an ego). I have noticed how my problems are reflected outside in others as well. I have noticed how the world cannot exist without my conscious existence alongside it. This one is especially radical and eerie. There are other aspects of this mirroring of ego self and others, and this mirroring becomes a fusion of ego and others in the unified form of The Self, or Atman. For some weird reason, "I" am playing an eerie play with myself, disguised as billion forms. All connected. All mirrored in some sort of vibrational resonance. I am not conscious right now of being the others. No. But I am conscious right now of how much they represent what I have inside me. The violence, the fear, the insecurities, the desires... I can see how they mirror my egoic condition. I can see how being disturbed by their own hatred and fear is REALLY JUST being disturbed by myself. Yup. It's that creepy. Still, I'm not soberly conscious of oneness right now. Just a simple inquiry Be at ease with yourself, love yourself. I need to love myself. Deeper.
  7. In other words, it's like God created a scripted movie and now it is watching it by also believing to be struggling inside the story And the egoic resistances are meant to keep god from spoiling the fiction.
  8. Yes, but that resistance is just conceptual, because egoic actions are "God-sent". What I mean is that God decided what the ego should look like and what it wants to do. So, in a sense, God wants the ego to act based on unconscious desires, because that's the only way to get an experience of struggle and progression. I totally agree on the ego resisting God realization (because of the death it implies) but the ego is still 100% God's pure will. That means that the Ego's resistance is just conceptual, because emotions, thoughs and fear are just phenomena happening to God, who is observing them, and at the same time believing that it is a limited human. At least that's how I've felt it myself.
  9. What? How are you going to develop the existential concepts and frameworks? Let's take for example advaita vedanta's philosophy. It's full of nuanced and metaphysical vocabulary that it's going to boost your contemplation of reality. Maybe you were just joking
  10. Thanks for the replies, to everyone. Well, I get what you are saying. The Self is the one who awakens inside the dream, and not the imaginary people (my ego is included of course). But what I mean is that an awakened "person" is capable of showing that they are realized. I was just wondering if other people, EVEN THOUGH they are conceptual and not actual, can show this sign of realization once you realize the True Self. I guess it's still a game of duality that my mind is playing. Nonetheless, I found it possible.
  11. I get it, I'm not talking about the core Self. I'm talking about the illusion. Does the illusion become self conscious? Do the people show recognition of their true self? You look at the mirror. Then you recognize that you are the person in the mirror. "oh it's me". The image in the mirror should also reflect that recognition. That's what I mean.
  12. Hey, @Leo Gura, I was contemplating my perceptions tonight, alone in bed, and noticing how other people in photos are just my own perceptions, not real entities. But still I can't feel other people as me, because of survival agenda I have. I can on psychedelics. But i notice during my contemplations that people in photos are just my perception and not real objects. This is my question: Does the game of separateness collapse ON THEIR end too? I mean... You become conscious of being them. And that's ok. At that point do they drop the mask? Do they mirror your understanding? Or do they keep acting unconscious? It makes sense to me that they should drop the mask once you become totally omniscient. Why should they keep the facade up? Sorry for the weird question
  13. It could be useful to hear a more conscious woman's opinion.
  14. If you want tribal or violent/impulsive girls, yes. Generally from stage orange and above girls tend to like personality, humor, authenticity and social freedom. Generally self expression is very attractive to a sufficiently evolved girl
  15. What you believe you attract watch your beliefs as they get mirrored in reality. Attraction is far below Mind in the hyerarchy.