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  1. Talk with your doctor. There are many possible reasons for this and a doctor will be in the best position to diagnose the issue.
  2. Be careful. I never said people don't quit. What I said is that a nicotine addiction is for life. Even people who quit and never go back still get cravings for nicotine. In my experience with talking with past smokers, they say that even though they stopped smoking 10 years ago they still wake up craving a cigarette. I'm not saying that it's impossible to stop cravings, I'm just saying that it is not the norm.
  3. I will give you my personal opinion of what I wish I had done/done more of in my late teens (I'm 23 btw). - learn to accept yourself as you are and learn to trust yourself. Avoid allowing the comparison to other people sway your life purpose. - learn about how to do basic adult skills: > personal finance > reading and signing lease agreements for when you go flatting/live on your own > cooking for yourself, buying groceries etc. > dealing with banks, power companies, water companies, internet companies etc. > dealing with lawyers, doctors, accountants, government agencies etc. > dealing with a boss and making money - basically, learning how to go from dependence on your parents to total and complete independence There are a lot of admin things our parents do behind the scenes that we take totally for granted (bless them) and I see a lot of young people can't handle very basic adult things. If you spend a good few years moving to independence, it will serve you well for the rest of your life. Try some good old fashioned self-help before you touch psychedelics (Check out the Actualized.org textbook for this) Also, don't drink too much and don't get into bad habits like smoking weed every day. Alcohol and weed I have personally seen destroy young people's future. Also don't ever smoke nicotine (e-cigs or regular cigarettes), not even socially. A nicotine addiction is for life. It never leaves you and will seriously hinder your progress, just don't touch it. Again, this is just my opinion. It sounded very paternalistic and like basic stuff, but it's getting the basics right that will set you up for life.
  4. Try using alcohol. It worked well for me for this. Get to the point where you are giggly and feel light in your body. Then sit down and just observe. Notice how your body and mind are just being, without "you" having to interfere in that being. Obviously don't do this too often. And you must do it alone, not at a party. Do this as a serious spiritual exercise.
  5. Hi everyone I am excited to announce a little project I've been working on for the past couple of months. The Actualized.org Textbook! I have assembled a document of summaries of foundational Actualized.org videos based on the "Start Here" section of the website. In addition, there are some extra video summaries at the end. A lot of these summaries were written by me but I would also like to acknowledge that a very major part of the work came from the video summary thread and also some YouTube comments. I would like to thank @Juan Cruz Giusto, @TimStr, @Huz, @Nic, @Hello from Russia, @AleksM, and @Dan Arnautu from this forum for their significant and very helpful contributions. I have tried as best I can to standardise the format, but doing this perfectly would take a massive amount of time. So please do note that the summaries are written by different authors with different stylistic preferences, some with English as a second language. Secondly, there are still small mistakes and probably some typos that I haven't picked up. This document is best suited for: -People who have seen the videos and want brief notes -People who are up to speed with the latest videos and have followed for a while, understanding the conceptual frameworks within spirituality For complete newbies, or people who have recently joined, the summaries may confuse you a little so I recommend you watch the original videos. A lot of the nuance and subtlety is lost in text. Also, This is version 1.0 and I have linked word and pdf attachments to this post. You are free to download them and modify them as you see fit. However, if you wish to update this version (i.e. fixing mistakes or adding in more fundamental videos) for the community, please keep a couple of things in mind: - There is a changelog on the 2nd page, so please insert changes made and also update the version number (i.e 1.1 from small fixes or 2.0 when a significant amount of content is added) - Also, please consider that when content is added, page numbers may not sync up so you will have to update them. Think of this as the textbook for the undergraduate course. - Watching the video is like going to class - The textbook is like all your classes in one place in note form. - To get a good grasp and to orientate yourself you will need a massive theory base at the beginning (i.e an 3-4 year undergrad degree) - Taking action and watching the advanced videos will be like post-graduate study - Doing this work seriously and taking massive amounts of action, and going off on your own is like doing a PhD You need to get the basic theory down BUT YOU MUST NOT GET LOST IN THEORY AND CONCEPTS. Orientate yourself, and go take action (a Masters/PhD candidate does experiments in the lab, he doesn't just sit in lecture theatres) My main reason for assembling this is I see a lot of wasted time on the forum (myself included) of theorising and arguing and advanced people not communicating at the newbie level to newbies. Don't get me wrong, the forum is a great place and many people have helped me here (thank you!) This is my parting gift to the community. I saw that I avoided doing the work by visiting the forum too much so I will be leaving to do the work for the next 5-10 years. My main focus is embodying and fully integrating stage orange, green, and yellow, as well as doing the spiritual practices and planning for psychedelic retreats. Finally, @Leo Gura, I'm so sick of hearing your voice. I've probably listened to 20 of your videos in the last 3 days I only now have caught a tiny glimpse of how much work has been put in by you over the past 5 years. Thank you for what you do! I'll still be sticking around for the advanced stuff Actualized Textbook.docx Actualized Textbook.pdf
  6. Ask yourself what you would want your life to be like when you're 50/60 and work back from there.
  7. most of the fun parts of college start in the 2nd and 3rd years, were you realise that you can't find stuff on google as easily as before (at least this is what it's like in science fields). The first year builds the foundation, the 2nd and 3rd years can challenge you which makes it enjoyable. Some courses like commerce aren't as necessary to go to college for, cause it's mostly just information. When I did biochemistry we also did a lot of lab classes and used million dollar machines which you don't have access to outside of college. We manipulated cancer cells with different chemicals and would analyse their DNA to see changes. Some of these chemicals can cost around $100-$500 per mL. Yes you are training to do a 9-5 in college, that's what most jobs are like. But if you like your field then that's a good thing - you get to do your practice and master your field without necessarily dealing with the admin and logistics. The important thing is to go to college for a subject you enjoy not to find out what you enjoy. Also be very clear on the career path and job prospects once you finish. will you have to pursue post grad degrees? will you need to apply for internships? are the job prospects good in your area? will you have to move? In New Zealand, we sell milk and lamb to the rest of the world, there are not many positions for biochemists lol. If you feel it it too easy which it sometimes is, then consider adding to the workload by taking more papers than needed (depends on your university), and you may be able to finish a 3 year degree in 2 years or a 4 year degree in 3 years. Also consider building a business while in college, you will have lots of free time. And college will be the best time to make business mistakes - I learned a lot by trying to start multiple businesses in college part time. All of them failed, but I learned valuable lessons. Of course take into consideration the finances. In New Zealand college isn't too expensive, and the govt loans are interest free for now, I hear that's not the same in the US so be mindful of it and do you homework. Alternative would be to move to a college town and work a 9-5 there while you're building a business for 1-2 hours a day and gaming college girls at night . Pretty sure that's what Alex Becker did with his SEO biz. One important thing Alex says is to figure out the absolute minimum amount of money you can live well on and try to meet that. You could probably make enough working 4 days of a 9-5 to cover your basics, leaving you with 3 days to do biz stuff. Once you've built it up you can transition to biz full time. This is the time to take risks, say yes to a lot of things, and have as many fuck ups as possible so that you can grow. At the end of the day you need to meet your needs like finances before you self-actualize too much. Hope that helps
  8. I thought it would be a good idea to make a big list of masters from different fields. It can be really inspiring to see masters in your field of interest. It's also interesting to see the similar meta skills that masters possess in terms of how they approach their art. Please feel free to post any examples you feel are appropriate and use the following format for people to get a quick idea of the person's field(s) of mastery: [Name] - [Field] Here are some of my examples: Buckethead - Electric Guitar Eiro Nareth - Fingerstyle Guitar RSD Tyler/Owen Cook - Dating/Social and obviously, without a doubt, our hero, Lord and Saviour, hallowed be thy name, Supreme Overlord Leo Gura of Actualized.org - sexy witch dating coach, the great withholder of 'understanding emotions pt2', vanquisher of devilish threads, and provider of steroid-infused self-help advice. Also to note: a good marker of a master vs someone who is just good is that the master lives and breathes their art, there is soul and passion for the practice.
  9. @mkrksms Go one night without sleep. Watch the sun set and then stay awake and watch it rise again. You will realise there are no such things as days. You do't go "through" time. There is only ever the now. There is nowhere else to go. This moment is the only moment you've every experienced. There is no past or future outside of your ideas of them in the now.
  10. @Nahm Totally agree. I remember Leo saying how the practices lead to you doing subconscious cleansing when you're asleep, rewiring your brain. Or something along those lines. @Serotoninluv Not lucid yet! They are just extremely detailed and vivid compared to my regular dreams. In the moment I don't realise I'm dreaming but I think that with more consciousness work it might happen naturally. I tried lucid dreaming for a month but I've had no luck either. @Shin No fucks given at all right? I was flying through the air over an escalator that was floating on a waterfall as my sister's disembodied head was telling me not to forget my passport...
  11. Hi everyone, This post is a quick review of what I experience after having meditated for 1 hour per day for about 2 weeks. Hopefully it will encourage some of you to take this habit up. I recently made a decision to start doing this when I took 100% ownership of my life and saw the long term benefits of meditation (not just the spiritual ones, but also the day-to-day ones). I split my meditation up into 2 x 30 min or a 15 min morning, 30 min lunch, and 15 min afternoon meditations just because of scheduling. For now I'm just doing Do-nothing method, because I've noticed that if I do an advanced meditation or even try Kriya yoga, then my ego backlashes hard, so I'm going to do this for a year before I move to more advanced meditation. At first it is agonising to sit for 30 min, but if you celebrate it by doing a few fist pumps or an excited dance at the end I think you can help yourself by getting a bit of a dopamine hit, which will make to look forward to next session I've noticed way higher abilities to concentrate and to catch myself slipping into bad habits. I feel more energised and the day seems to last much longer. But the biggest side effect I've noticed is my dreams are just so much more vivid and involved. It's like every night I go to bed I watch an 8 hour epic movie in VR. I wouldn't say I'm lucid but I can see how that would be a possibility in the future. They have very involved plot lines and characters and self-consistency. I know this is from the meditation because its the only thing I changed recently, and I started to have these dreams about 4 days in, consistently. Mix a Michael Bay action movie with Lord of the Rings length and lore, and chuck in a murder movie plot line and plot twists and this is what I've been getting pretty consistently for about a week and a half. so if you're still on the fence about it, hopefully this may convince you. I highly recommend!
  12. I remember watching Elliott when I just got into self help about 4 years ago but then moved on after a year or so. Recently saw this and was wowed: Lots of cult Dynamics that I see. Please discuss
  13. The easiest way to realize this is to stay awake one night. watch the sun set, do something in the night and then watch the sun rise. You start to realize that concepts like days are just an illusion. Existence exists now, the phenomena within it are just changing. When you go to sleep you don't wake up in tomorrow you wake up in now. There is no other place other than now. Tomorrow, next week, 5 hours from now... they are all imaginary places
  14. @MM1988 women can sense you beating around the bush almost instantly. Only someone with confidence can honestly open with "I find you attractive" in a non-needy way. You can say anything with confidence and a playful smile and it'll get them attracted. At the same time you can make up any boring conversation and they'll see straight through it.