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  1. @Mikael89 Do you have a job at the moment? Or study? Is there anything you do on a daily basis which brings you a sense of purpose?
  2. Is there any possibility of you becoming a personal fitness coach? I'm pretty sure the qualification only takes a couple of months and isn't too expensive, after which you could work in most gyms. Health and fitness is a growing niche. As I understand you're currently spending in order to do these hobbies. With coaching you could get paid to do them.
  3. I'm moving to a new city next year where I don't know anyone. I've realised that healthy friendships are important to me for my psychological well-being. The last few years I've really focused on self-help and career, and I've lost a lot of friends because of that. I've also had a girlfriend which made me less inclined to go socialise because I'm quite introverted. I find myself feeling lonely frequently because I don't have close friends in my current city that I hang out with. I tend to discuss problems only with my gf, which creates a bit of an unhealthy dynamic. If you: a) were moving to a new city next year where you knew no-one, and b) wanted to make a group of close friends who you would feel comfortable going to with issues/things to dicuss/get a second opinion on/ hang out etc. (as opposed to acquaintances who you know, but would not talk about deep stuff with) what would be some thing that you would do?
  4. That's like saying if you make the flower beds in your medieval village look nice it will stop a horde of combat-advanced barbarians from burning every single building, raping and killing every single woman and child and gutting every single man in the village. There are viruses and bacteria that can do as they please with the human body. You will have no natural defence. They will rape and kill every cell in your body until you are a melted liquid mess on the ground (figuratively speaking). A human without access to modern medicine is like the US without its military and combat technology.
  5. In order for vaccines to work efficiently, immune promoting substances called adjuvants are added. One such adjuvant is aluminium and is added in tiny doses. The reason for adding adjuvants is to stimulate the innate immune system. This results in a better long term response in the adaptive immune system. They inflame and irritate the injection site and are painful - but that is a sign that the vaccine will work better not that the vaccine companies are trying to kill you lol. Think of it like this. Your immune system is a bunch of militia in a town. vaccines are like training dummies - help to train the militia but wont actually hurt the town. With adjuvants, the dummies are still harmless, but now yell insults at the soldiers like "your mom's a fat whore!" which angers the soldiers more and gets them riled up. Next time when an actual virus attacks the soldiers will remember the insults from the dummies which will send them into a fighting rage and they will be more effective at killing off the real virus. TL;DR - adjuvants (like aluminium) make vaccines much more effective. They are there for a reason. To properly understand the pros and cons of vaccines you need at least a second -year university education in immunology. I'm sorry but most anti-vaxxers have no idea what they're talking about. The posts in this thread are full of conjecture, conflating causation with correlation, and just not understanding how basic science works. Yes science has its problems but most anti vaxxers are not scientifically literate, they have not transcended the limits of science and looked back on it - they've not understood vaccines and instead made a strawman to attack. I'm not saying vaccines are 100% risk free but I'm cautioning you to read and learn in detail about what vaccines do. DO NOT take a stand FOR OR AGAINST vaccines based on mob mentality. Take it upon yourself to learn about them from both anti-vax and scientific sources (this is made harder by the fact that not every scientific study is equal in the quality of its design). IN GENERAL, anti-vaxxers make huge leaps in rationalising their position and generally have no idea what they're talking about. The reason for this is that there are many nuances in traps in science which only start becoming apparent after at least a university level education in a scientific field, which most anti-vaxxers don't have. For transparency I am speaking from a position of a bachelors degree in biochemistry (with added education in immunology, genetics, and plant biology) and being half way through med school. Take from that what you will, you can even say I'm biased, but just take the time to make a thorough inquiry before you make a stance. Not pointing fingers, but anyone saying that you can just abandon these things by turning to nature and "natural" remedies is speaking from such arrogance and can only say this because they are standing on the shoulders of the giants enabled modern medicine. Sure it's not perfect but just take a look at history and how close we have been to being wiped out by infectious diseases. The only reason anti-vaxxers don't get ill is because of herd immunity. And by not getting immunised they are putting people who can't get immunised in a dire situation.
  6. The major risk of vaccine is having an allergic reaction to one. And that will happen to 1/10,000. Any other adverse side effect like chronic fatigue has incredibly low chances of happening. Don't take vaccination for granted, this tool is one of the reasons you're able to live without the fear of getting polio or measles or a number of other crippling and paralysing illnesses. My town in New Zealand is currently going through a measles outbreak which is spreading through the metropolitan areas because we don't have 100% vaccination coverage here. https://www.health.govt.nz/your-health/conditions-and-treatments/diseases-and-illnesses/measles/2019-measles-outbreak-information Yes there can be some catastrophic reactions to vaccines in 1 in a 100 million people. But ending that would be at the detriment of the rest of society - especially those who cannot get vaccinated such as those with immune suppression or very young children.
  7. Talk with your doctor. There are many possible reasons for this and a doctor will be in the best position to diagnose the issue.
  8. Be careful. I never said people don't quit. What I said is that a nicotine addiction is for life. Even people who quit and never go back still get cravings for nicotine. In my experience with talking with past smokers, they say that even though they stopped smoking 10 years ago they still wake up craving a cigarette. I'm not saying that it's impossible to stop cravings, I'm just saying that it is not the norm.
  9. I will give you my personal opinion of what I wish I had done/done more of in my late teens (I'm 23 btw). - learn to accept yourself as you are and learn to trust yourself. Avoid allowing the comparison to other people sway your life purpose. - learn about how to do basic adult skills: > personal finance > reading and signing lease agreements for when you go flatting/live on your own > cooking for yourself, buying groceries etc. > dealing with banks, power companies, water companies, internet companies etc. > dealing with lawyers, doctors, accountants, government agencies etc. > dealing with a boss and making money - basically, learning how to go from dependence on your parents to total and complete independence There are a lot of admin things our parents do behind the scenes that we take totally for granted (bless them) and I see a lot of young people can't handle very basic adult things. If you spend a good few years moving to independence, it will serve you well for the rest of your life. Try some good old fashioned self-help before you touch psychedelics (Check out the Actualized.org textbook for this) Also, don't drink too much and don't get into bad habits like smoking weed every day. Alcohol and weed I have personally seen destroy young people's future. Also don't ever smoke nicotine (e-cigs or regular cigarettes), not even socially. A nicotine addiction is for life. It never leaves you and will seriously hinder your progress, just don't touch it. Again, this is just my opinion. It sounded very paternalistic and like basic stuff, but it's getting the basics right that will set you up for life.
  10. Try using alcohol. It worked well for me for this. Get to the point where you are giggly and feel light in your body. Then sit down and just observe. Notice how your body and mind are just being, without "you" having to interfere in that being. Obviously don't do this too often. And you must do it alone, not at a party. Do this as a serious spiritual exercise.
  11. Hi everyone I am excited to announce a little project I've been working on for the past couple of months. The Actualized.org Textbook! I have assembled a document of summaries of foundational Actualized.org videos based on the "Start Here" section of the website. In addition, there are some extra video summaries at the end. A lot of these summaries were written by me but I would also like to acknowledge that a very major part of the work came from the video summary thread and also some YouTube comments. I would like to thank @Juan Cruz Giusto, @TimStr, @Huz, @Nic, @Hello from Russia, @AleksM, and @Dan Arnautu from this forum for their significant and very helpful contributions. I have tried as best I can to standardise the format, but doing this perfectly would take a massive amount of time. So please do note that the summaries are written by different authors with different stylistic preferences, some with English as a second language. Secondly, there are still small mistakes and probably some typos that I haven't picked up. This document is best suited for: -People who have seen the videos and want brief notes -People who are up to speed with the latest videos and have followed for a while, understanding the conceptual frameworks within spirituality For complete newbies, or people who have recently joined, the summaries may confuse you a little so I recommend you watch the original videos. A lot of the nuance and subtlety is lost in text. Also, This is version 1.0 and I have linked word and pdf attachments to this post. You are free to download them and modify them as you see fit. However, if you wish to update this version (i.e. fixing mistakes or adding in more fundamental videos) for the community, please keep a couple of things in mind: - There is a changelog on the 2nd page, so please insert changes made and also update the version number (i.e 1.1 from small fixes or 2.0 when a significant amount of content is added) - Also, please consider that when content is added, page numbers may not sync up so you will have to update them. Think of this as the textbook for the undergraduate course. - Watching the video is like going to class - The textbook is like all your classes in one place in note form. - To get a good grasp and to orientate yourself you will need a massive theory base at the beginning (i.e an 3-4 year undergrad degree) - Taking action and watching the advanced videos will be like post-graduate study - Doing this work seriously and taking massive amounts of action, and going off on your own is like doing a PhD You need to get the basic theory down BUT YOU MUST NOT GET LOST IN THEORY AND CONCEPTS. Orientate yourself, and go take action (a Masters/PhD candidate does experiments in the lab, he doesn't just sit in lecture theatres) My main reason for assembling this is I see a lot of wasted time on the forum (myself included) of theorising and arguing and advanced people not communicating at the newbie level to newbies. Don't get me wrong, the forum is a great place and many people have helped me here (thank you!) This is my parting gift to the community. I saw that I avoided doing the work by visiting the forum too much so I will be leaving to do the work for the next 5-10 years. My main focus is embodying and fully integrating stage orange, green, and yellow, as well as doing the spiritual practices and planning for psychedelic retreats. Finally, @Leo Gura, I'm so sick of hearing your voice. I've probably listened to 20 of your videos in the last 3 days I only now have caught a tiny glimpse of how much work has been put in by you over the past 5 years. Thank you for what you do! I'll still be sticking around for the advanced stuff Actualized Textbook.docx Actualized Textbook.pdf
  12. Ask yourself what you would want your life to be like when you're 50/60 and work back from there.
  13. most of the fun parts of college start in the 2nd and 3rd years, were you realise that you can't find stuff on google as easily as before (at least this is what it's like in science fields). The first year builds the foundation, the 2nd and 3rd years can challenge you which makes it enjoyable. Some courses like commerce aren't as necessary to go to college for, cause it's mostly just information. When I did biochemistry we also did a lot of lab classes and used million dollar machines which you don't have access to outside of college. We manipulated cancer cells with different chemicals and would analyse their DNA to see changes. Some of these chemicals can cost around $100-$500 per mL. Yes you are training to do a 9-5 in college, that's what most jobs are like. But if you like your field then that's a good thing - you get to do your practice and master your field without necessarily dealing with the admin and logistics. The important thing is to go to college for a subject you enjoy not to find out what you enjoy. Also be very clear on the career path and job prospects once you finish. will you have to pursue post grad degrees? will you need to apply for internships? are the job prospects good in your area? will you have to move? In New Zealand, we sell milk and lamb to the rest of the world, there are not many positions for biochemists lol. If you feel it it too easy which it sometimes is, then consider adding to the workload by taking more papers than needed (depends on your university), and you may be able to finish a 3 year degree in 2 years or a 4 year degree in 3 years. Also consider building a business while in college, you will have lots of free time. And college will be the best time to make business mistakes - I learned a lot by trying to start multiple businesses in college part time. All of them failed, but I learned valuable lessons. Of course take into consideration the finances. In New Zealand college isn't too expensive, and the govt loans are interest free for now, I hear that's not the same in the US so be mindful of it and do you homework. Alternative would be to move to a college town and work a 9-5 there while you're building a business for 1-2 hours a day and gaming college girls at night . Pretty sure that's what Alex Becker did with his SEO biz. One important thing Alex says is to figure out the absolute minimum amount of money you can live well on and try to meet that. You could probably make enough working 4 days of a 9-5 to cover your basics, leaving you with 3 days to do biz stuff. Once you've built it up you can transition to biz full time. This is the time to take risks, say yes to a lot of things, and have as many fuck ups as possible so that you can grow. At the end of the day you need to meet your needs like finances before you self-actualize too much. Hope that helps
  14. I thought it would be a good idea to make a big list of masters from different fields. It can be really inspiring to see masters in your field of interest. It's also interesting to see the similar meta skills that masters possess in terms of how they approach their art. Please feel free to post any examples you feel are appropriate and use the following format for people to get a quick idea of the person's field(s) of mastery: [Name] - [Field] Here are some of my examples: Buckethead - Electric Guitar Eiro Nareth - Fingerstyle Guitar RSD Tyler/Owen Cook - Dating/Social and obviously, without a doubt, our hero, Lord and Saviour, hallowed be thy name, Supreme Overlord Leo Gura of Actualized.org - sexy witch dating coach, the great withholder of 'understanding emotions pt2', vanquisher of devilish threads, and provider of steroid-infused self-help advice. Also to note: a good marker of a master vs someone who is just good is that the master lives and breathes their art, there is soul and passion for the practice.
  15. @mkrksms Go one night without sleep. Watch the sun set and then stay awake and watch it rise again. You will realise there are no such things as days. You do't go "through" time. There is only ever the now. There is nowhere else to go. This moment is the only moment you've every experienced. There is no past or future outside of your ideas of them in the now.
  16. Hi everyone, This post is a quick review of what I experience after having meditated for 1 hour per day for about 2 weeks. Hopefully it will encourage some of you to take this habit up. I recently made a decision to start doing this when I took 100% ownership of my life and saw the long term benefits of meditation (not just the spiritual ones, but also the day-to-day ones). I split my meditation up into 2 x 30 min or a 15 min morning, 30 min lunch, and 15 min afternoon meditations just because of scheduling. For now I'm just doing Do-nothing method, because I've noticed that if I do an advanced meditation or even try Kriya yoga, then my ego backlashes hard, so I'm going to do this for a year before I move to more advanced meditation. At first it is agonising to sit for 30 min, but if you celebrate it by doing a few fist pumps or an excited dance at the end I think you can help yourself by getting a bit of a dopamine hit, which will make to look forward to next session I've noticed way higher abilities to concentrate and to catch myself slipping into bad habits. I feel more energised and the day seems to last much longer. But the biggest side effect I've noticed is my dreams are just so much more vivid and involved. It's like every night I go to bed I watch an 8 hour epic movie in VR. I wouldn't say I'm lucid but I can see how that would be a possibility in the future. They have very involved plot lines and characters and self-consistency. I know this is from the meditation because its the only thing I changed recently, and I started to have these dreams about 4 days in, consistently. Mix a Michael Bay action movie with Lord of the Rings length and lore, and chuck in a murder movie plot line and plot twists and this is what I've been getting pretty consistently for about a week and a half. so if you're still on the fence about it, hopefully this may convince you. I highly recommend!
  17. @Nahm Totally agree. I remember Leo saying how the practices lead to you doing subconscious cleansing when you're asleep, rewiring your brain. Or something along those lines. @Serotoninluv Not lucid yet! They are just extremely detailed and vivid compared to my regular dreams. In the moment I don't realise I'm dreaming but I think that with more consciousness work it might happen naturally. I tried lucid dreaming for a month but I've had no luck either. @Shin No fucks given at all right? I was flying through the air over an escalator that was floating on a waterfall as my sister's disembodied head was telling me not to forget my passport...
  18. I remember watching Elliott when I just got into self help about 4 years ago but then moved on after a year or so. Recently saw this and was wowed: Lots of cult Dynamics that I see. Please discuss
  19. The easiest way to realize this is to stay awake one night. watch the sun set, do something in the night and then watch the sun rise. You start to realize that concepts like days are just an illusion. Existence exists now, the phenomena within it are just changing. When you go to sleep you don't wake up in tomorrow you wake up in now. There is no other place other than now. Tomorrow, next week, 5 hours from now... they are all imaginary places
  20. @MM1988 women can sense you beating around the bush almost instantly. Only someone with confidence can honestly open with "I find you attractive" in a non-needy way. You can say anything with confidence and a playful smile and it'll get them attracted. At the same time you can make up any boring conversation and they'll see straight through it.
  21. An idea crossed my mind a few days ago of whether it would be possible to train dream lucidity and then alter the passage of time in a dream and do personal development in dream time, and whether that would transfer to "real life" results. I.e. train meditation and concentration within the dreamscape. I've been focusing on inducing lucidity in dreams for the past few nights and have had some success. It's also becoming apparent to me how "real life" is indistinguishable from a dream. My dreams have become more and more vivid and I became lucid for a moment last night. The techniques I use are dream journaling, listening to 432 Hz binaural beats for 20 min before bed and listening to a recording of myself saying "focus" on repeat for 10 min. I became lucid because as I was standing in a warehouse full of boxes in my dream, I heard "focus...focus...focus...focus" in my head and I realised I was dreaming. I will post more here as I progress to see whether there is a possibility of setting up a place to do personal development in my dreamscape that I can go to when I go to sleep. If there is anyone who has been successful in doing such a thing please feel free to share
  22. Update: I've come to realize that there is a huge difference in quality and vividness of dream when I do some form of meditation or breathing before heading to sleep. Relaxing the body and mind and staying focused rather than going to sleep while being stuck in monkey mind as you drift off makes for much more detailed and long lasting dreams. I had a very detailed dream recently and it felt like I was in that "world" for three days. I think this is crucial if I am to gain lucidity - I need to spend more time in the dream world in order to observe the differences between it and the "real", waking world. Also, I've been considering that it might be possible to be self-aware (as consciousness), while the body and mind is in deep sleep (not dreaming). I remember reading someone's post here on the forum about that. In terms of spiritual work it may prove useful to play around with sleeping conditions so that such a state could be achieved - it may be the case that ego drops off when the body/mind falls asleep and non-dual consciousness may be more apparent without the illusory phenomena arising within it being a distraction (i.e. you will be aware of yourself as a void of nothingness, in "deep sleep"). All of this is just speculation so I will see what I can do and report back.
  23. This one question always keeps coming back to me so I thought I'd ask on the forum. From my understanding of epistemology, everything perceived outside of direct experience is a story. For example, I have never experienced the earth being round, I've only experienced it being flat. I personally assume that the earth is round because I believe that science has shown us that it's round, but if i dig deeper, then I know that this is just a story I believe. In truth, it could be flat, it could be round, I can't really say. The reason I ask is that we discuss epistemology on this forum but also there are instances where conspiracy theories are shunned. Now I know that all of this is a distraction from spiritual work but I am asking because I want to know what is correct epistemologically. I can believe that the earth is round, I can believe that the earth is flat. From my direct experience, the earth is flat, so I feel like it would be further from the truth for me to believe the earth is round because that is a belief rather than direct experience, I only choose to believe the earth is round because it sounds rather plausible. But at the end of the day it's the same as a religious person believing in an anthropomorphic god. Here's another example. In my direct experience I've probably ever seen maybe 10,000 people over my life. Science says there are around 7 billion. Epistemologically, (if I understand it correctly) direct experience is king compared to stories or beliefs. Which one is more true in this case? Is it true to say that I have only seen ~10,000 people but I choose to believe that there may be more? I think I might be misunderstanding a part of what Leo says but this point has been coming back to me over and over as a source of confusion.
  24. @Serotoninluv I just did this now and it appears to me that "knowing" is a word that we use to reinforce an idea in mind. the thought "I know ....." reinforces the mental model of whatever "....." is. For example, I know that if I touch the table in front of me it will feel like the texture of wood. But "knowing" and "texture of wood" are part of a "non-physical" space which feels different to the "physical" feeling associated with touching a wooden texture. The thought "wooden texture" is a symbol for the feeling of a wooden texture, but they have nothing in common. Like the word cat has nothing to do with the animal associated with that word. Thus it appears that thought is self-reinforcing, i.e. the word "know" is a symbol which reinforces "wooden texture" which is another symbol, both occurring in thought and not related to the phenomena they symbolise. "Not-knowing" appears to be similar in the sense that it is a symbol. But this symbol reinforces symbols which are contextually different from the symbols that "knowing" reinforces but phenomenologically the same. I.e a thought arises: "I don't know if my mother is in the living room or the garage". Contextually, "garage", "living room", and "wooden texture" are different, but phenomenologically they are all symbols arising in mind, pointing to "things" that are not them ("cat" =/= the animal). Experientially, I can use "knowing" as a thought symbol to confirm other phenomena. I can think: "I know that I can see the table" as I'm looking at the table, but again this thought is itself distinct from the visual perception of the table. However, both the visual perception and the thought occur in awareness of the two.