Manusia

Trying the letting go technique from David Hawkins' books, it helps me a lot to process my unresolved emotional past. I can say I am different now after reading that book and practising alone. What has actually been lifted? Obsessive thinking patterns, huge social anxiety and negative beliefs about the world were somehow lifted with the letting go technique. It's also easier to get connected to positive people. Negative people in my life are also dissolving, naturally. And also it's my first time in my life feeling safe within my body, content. Now I don't need to cope a lot when negative emotions arise.

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Hahaha, I thought it would be easy for me. Especially in my kratom, I bought the premium one.. so the OD effects are mighty.

Kratom Variant: 2 big spoons of Premium Kratom How I Made It: Used 1.5 small cups of hot water How It Tasted: Bitter, like leaves. First 30 Minutes: 1. Things looked brighter 2. Body felt lighter 3. More aware of my body 4. Mind felt calmer 5. Didn't worry as much 6. More confident and relaxed 7. Felt a warmth coming from my body, a kind of aura. 8. Easier to focus 9. Felt kind of high 40 Minutes In: The effects were much stronger. 50 Minutes and After: 1. Almost too much 2. Felt sick 3. Just wanted to lie down and sleep 4. Like being super drunk 5. Weak feeling 6. Cold sweats 7. Vomit several times. Trippy Effects: Almost none - 2 big spoons is a huge dose. I don't recommend to start big. Start with 1 or 2 teaspoon -

Hi guys, I have been accepted to Lund University, Sweden. I was accepted into the Master of Service Management, Tourism. But there is a problem that I encountered: I didn't get the scholarship and I don't have any money to pay the tuition. As Indonesian, the tuition fee is very expensive. Do you guys have any information about the source of funding? This was holding me back. Many thanks..

Watched it. This is a cool one. But newbies in facing negative emotions might be overwhelmed with the spiritual dictionary.

@halfknots what??!

@Yimpa

How it feels and affects you?

For me, embodying masculinity leads to a better sense of self. As a background I am repressing so much my masculinity because of childhood conditioning that says a narrative of "being a man always creates evil", I also don't have any healthy masculine figure in my environment. Some benefits are: that I can be more assertive and certainly won't hold back myself doing what I need to do to achieve the goal in mind. I can assert dominance and leadership if I need to. My whole body is also more grounded, I can feel all my body as ever before. I am not as arrogant as before (I am not sure why), but certainly I am more courageous. I am more at ease. My body has some kind of warm aura (I never felt it before). As Emerald says before, it makes me more whole. Literally.

@Davino I am still playing with the dose. As far as I know, every kratom in sale has a different potency, and I think in my case.. the potency is high. I assume that if I have the dose low enough, it will work fine. For now, I have had 3 trying times, the best one is the second one.. but the mild fear remains consistent in every dose, I might lower the dose in the future.

Ahh, I see now.

And the weird thing is that, after I take the kratom, the wavy dizziness (mild) is not worn out even after a week. Can anyone explain about this?

In my experience, it is not addictive at all.

I get the light mood and the euphoria of it. But fears always come up after the high. And the fear was very absurd