Preety_India

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  1. Baby this song is my baby. This song is the anthem of my fucking life. Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight It must have been something you said I just died in your arms tonight I keep lookin' for somethin' I can't get Broken hearts lie all around me And I don't see an easy way to get out of this Her diary, it sits by the bedside table The curtains are closed, the cats in the cradle Who would've thought that a boy like me could come to this Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight It must've been something you said I just died in your arms tonight Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight It must've been some kind of kiss I should've walked away I should've walked away Is there any just cause for feelin' like this? On the surface, I'm a name on a list I try to be discreet, but then blow it again I've lost and found, it's my final mistake She's loving by proxy, no give and all take 'Cause I've been thrilled to fantasy one too many times Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight It must've been something you said I just died in your arms tonight Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight It must've been some kind of kiss I should've walked away I should've walked away It was a long hot night She made it easy, she made it feel right But now it's over, the moment has gone I followed my hands not my head, I know I was wrong Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight It must've been something you said I just died in your arms tonight I, I just died in your arms tonight It must've been some kind of kiss I should've walked away I should've walked away
  2. Now Babloo, this is a gift that keeps giving. Just watch. Watch being stoned. Love made it possible. I don't know it its Devi or Satan who told me to hold love when everyone was hating me. Just love. Let em hate. But never back down. Never give in. This ain't a song for the broken-hearted No silent prayer for faith-departed And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud It's my life It's now or never But I ain't gonna live forever I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life) My heart is like an open highway Like Frankie said, "I did it my way" I just want to live while I'm alive It's my life Yeah, this is for the ones who stood their ground For Tommy and Gina, who never backed down Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake Luck ain't even lucky, got to make your own breaks It's my life And it's now or never I ain't gonna live forever I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life) My heart is like an open highway Like Frankie said, "I did it my way" I just want to live while I'm alive 'Cause it's my life Better stand tall when they're calling you out Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down It's my life And it's now or never 'Cause I ain't gonna live forever I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life) My heart is like an open highway Like Frankie said, "I did it my way" I just want to live while I'm alive And it's now or never I ain't gonna live forever I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life) My heart is like an open highway Like Frankie said, "I did it my way" I just want to live while I'm alive 'Cause it's my life
  3. I ended up with my fingers cut and mutilated and bleeding. I will never deal with a sociopath in me again. Ashamed? Too vile? Too cowardly? Too much ego? Too scared? Too delusional? Too proud?
  4. Satan I have been calm as you told me to be. I remained silent and calm. I did And then storm passed. I took all the humiliation and fall with absolute grace, dignity and calm. I knew what I was doing and why I was doing. And I realized how the inner child in me had been fucked up so hard. But I pulled through Satan, I pulled through.
  5. It's as if Satan is saying to me, "Babloo, do you see now at least, the unfolding of human nature in its morbid glory.... Do you realize that you were prey all along. Do you realize how many mind games were being played with you right from the get go. Do you realize that you were trusting people so much with your Vulnerability. And what was the result? There was a petty error in psychopathic matrix, an error for a day and such a huge price had to be paid, yet you have learned the most important lesson, that you cannot afford to trust others with your vulnerability, no matter how madly you are in love with them. " I'm sorry Satan and I apologize for not following your suggestions. I acted naive, gullible and stupid and for the first time in my life I foolishly gave into the emotions the situation created and paid badly later. Then the wool was drawn from my eyes. Then the truth was revealed to me. Then I woke up from slumber and realized what I had been put through and subjected to, utterly heinous treatment after being told fairy tale stuff. The real faces of the demonic dead came to life. And I think God saved me total ruin miraculously. Satan I'm thankful that you took me under your wings. Now nobody can dare to mess with me. You care, I know.
  6. I quickly gathered myself. It's easier now than before.
  7. Choosing this forum
  8. I was heavily traumatized by the recent chain of events. But I have learned to believe the badness of humanity and not be surprised by it all anymore. It's as if Satan is saying to me, "Babloo, do you see now at least, the unfolding of human nature in its morbid glory.... Do you realize that you were prey all along. Do you realize how many mind games were being played with you right from the get go. Do you realize that you were trusting people so much with your Vulnerability. And what was the result? There was a petty error in psychopathic matrix, an error for a day and such a huge price had to be paid, yet you have learned the most important lesson, that you cannot afford to trust others with your vulnerability, no matter how madly you are in love with them. " That's called gaining self confidence.
  9. The last few days I have been extra ordinarily calm even in the face of wrath. Like I have become psychopathically calm. Don't know what happened to me But major changes in my personality are on the way. One being that I'm definitely going to be even more introverted now. Than ever before. Are these changes in me due to Satan meditation?? Is Satan indirectly helping me? I don't know. But stuff is beginning to feel better now than before Like I don't give a care in the world what people think of me anymore.
  10. This is the first time in my life that I encountered sociopathy in its full form Babloo Babloo Babloo Babloo Babloo Babloo Babloo
  11. One thing that I would expect from a leader is that he should not judge me while I'm opening up
  12. 5 things needed from the leader Trust (leader has to be extremely and I mean it, extremely trustworthy... No abusing, breaching or breaking the trust ever, no playing games. Intimacy (leader has to be extremely intimate with the codependent. Very strong and powerful intimacy) Vulnerability (the leader has to be vulnerable himself and create room for extreme Vulnerability from the codependent) Harmony (leader is in full alignment with the goals, interests and needs of the codependent) Love (leader must provide love, care and comfort and protection to the codependent. No compromise on providing protection)
  13. Continued from above. 5 things are needed in the leader codependent relationship. Trust (leader has to show extremely high levels of trustworthiness. Every challenge will be test of this trait. The leader is in a high risk position since he has absolute authority and with absolute authority comes absolute responsibility and risk. The codependent have handed over their personal authority to the leader with complete faith, trust, loyalty and with the hope that this trust won't be destroyed, and they have relied fully on the leader, that is they are absolutely reliant on the leader for their needs. In such a case, the leader has a high responsibility to not breach the trust placed by the codependent.