You 100% need breakthrough experiences more, and the best you can do is go to a retreat center for a couple of weeks & months as well as combine it with psychdelics. Check out transcendene asn an audiobook.

See, Hear, Feel is also there to prepare you for all possible meditation techniques and retreats out there. 

See what resonates for me top results I got is with just with peak experiences:
Psychdelics + Self-Inquiry & Do-Nothing(Do-Nothing no technique possible as consciouness state is to high) Retreats Zen See, Hear, Feel with expansion & contraction paradigm -> best practical life changes & karma digestiong imo Self-inquiry (interchangeable with see,hear,feel & zen retreats) / Visualization Kriya-Yoga (very difficult to practice) Breath counting Overall, there will be not breakthrough without doing retreats. It's not about meditation sessions it's about depth of experience and that is mostly possible with 3-10 day retreats. A 3 month retreat can save 10 years of practice if you do the retreat for 3 months for stream entry. Just doing things strategically is exhausting as hell. Get a minimum of 14 days of retreats in focus also a bit more on the concentration side of things and what resonates generally. 

I daily get different tastes at least of states and higher emotions, my emotional mastery definitely increased I was even more out of whack 8 years ago, and a lot of trauma got released thanks, also to shadow work type practices. I wish I could have gone a bit slower. 

I am meditating now close to 8 years with 1h - 45 min practice and numerous 2 days (20-30) weekend retreats from Shinzen etc. It's not worth it if you can't sustain the following imo. (As well as 1 zen retreat)
Daily practice 1h minimun to be more "hardcore"  14 days retreats per year at best one stretch (minimum) Psychdelics if you can handle them speeds things up tremendously Be stable in life Have a shadow work & trauma type practice Read scriptures about the path and inspire yourself. Weight lifting man! It stacks up tremendously, yet you have to take retreats my man! Otherwise shit will not change fundamentally, 1h practice accumulates a lot also, I change everyday bit by bit even in the worst of times. 

Definitely do retreats, and be financially save to do them, so you don't become a broke corrupted spiritual servitor, if you are confident in your abillity apply for voluntariy at retreat centers, if you want to save money for bigger things and also exhaust karma man. Go out and fuck girls, trust nobody and give away your authority no matter how painful it is if you don't feel an intutive pull and even then you'll get emotionally damaged. 

Don't trust every cannabis users reports, people who are unstable in life and never interconnected scriptures. Be friend and see what resonates, as well as build a life that can accomdate spiritual practice and retreats and people who resonate with that. 

The point is it has become such a marketing fad, to make it non religious and secular based on science, that most forget what it's truely about. 1h meditation session does nothing, if you attend a retreat and you comeback and you do a 1h sit you notice wow, I never meditated before properly. There are many other things. Yet this is a raw structure, of what would give more peak experiences. Especially how hectic these days are and the new research on psychdelics I can only recommend that if you are stable and 21 y.o and have managed finances etc. are setup in life. 

I am not the best example, yet this is what it looks like, also if you are healthy weight lifting and yes... this is the best case scenario imo, besides doing visualization practices. Also learn from all teachers, it takes longer yet it's worth it that was the advice I was given, if I could I would concentrate more, yet I do better digesting sensory experiences. 

Check also in with experienced teachers and coaches once per year, hire a coach if you're serious and need a little structure & help as well as someone to talk to. You could find someone here also, yet I mostly don't have the best of experiences here. 

Nice thread idea! As someone who is in the middle of something similar and trying to make sales while being as ethical as possible, I can tell you that it feels like crawling naked and bare footed through thorn bushes. Especially when all you see around you are either examples of unethical marketing or bad practice. I've been exploring ways to do it better as a part of my own rebrand and migration to another platform so maybe this will help someone. 
This mostly relates to website content and writing a copy but that's how you make sales as a small business with relatively low audience and website traffic. 
Brand consistency - everything you do, write, create and show to people needs to fall under your branding guidelines. Best work with someone who has done this before. This helps the customer clearly distinguish your brand from the 5 other competitors they saw today.  Brand colours - you can't blast random colours across your web and social content. You need to have a blend of agreed bland colours. Also, be clear on how those colours interact and how they work together, test the contrast (you want AA or AAA rating). Agree on font colours, leading colours, accent colours and special colours (for buttons, frames etc). Also make sure your colours pass the colourblindness test (use Adobe colour tool for that).  Fonts, font sizing, font spacing - absolute consistency across all platforms Logo (used everywhere) - colour consistent with your branding colours  Voice & Style of communication - has to be consistent across all platforms. Always know who you are talking to. Personally, I find this the most challenging part of the branding.  When writing your marketing copy, focus on description rather than persuasion. Simply tell the story of what your product does rather than trying to convince the reader toi buy from you. Deliberately introduce some vagueness and let the customers fill in the gaps with their imagination  A lot of copies are written in a "push push" way rather than simply describing how your product supports the client and helps you remove their pain. The moment you start pushing them to make a sale through buttons , CAPS and all sort of clickbait techniques, you're compromising your ethics and business integrity, in the future potentially even your Google SEO. Same goes for social advertisement.  Not every website visitor is in the transaction stage - some people are just browsing and if you keep pushing them down a sales funnel they will get upset and leave. This is why it is important to have some simple "about" - subpage for those who are just browsing and a more direct sales funnel page for those who are almost ready for a transaction. Transaction page needs to be clear, simple and 100% concise. No bs, no fluff.   Content over fluff - remember that every word on your website (unless your website is a blog) is a sales copy. So treat everything you write as such. Make every word count. Clarity, consistency, simplicity, stay away from technical jargon unless your audience is technical or academic.  Empathy - if you are offering a service that is supposed to make someone's life better, spend some time, before writing your copy, about what state the reader is in when they read the copy. What do they feel? What do they fear? How easily overwhelmed are they? How easily confused are they? What is likely to discourage them?  Create an avatar of your ideal client persona  - self explanatory but not easy to do 0.2 - 2 - 6 second rule - the numbers may be a bit off but basically, people make a decision whether an article is worth reading within a fraction of second. This happens subconsciously, especially if you are trying to speak to people who are generally overwhelmed . Then if they decided that it is worth browsing, they may take another 2-3 seconds to photo reading through (keywords, highlights, words they are searching for, "is this for me?". Once they acknowledge that article is worth reading they will spent about 6-8 seconds reading the first paragraph which is why you need to grab attention immediately, in the first paragraph by talking about the client, not yourself. if you lose them there, they leave. Once they are past 6-10 seconds they continue reading unless it turns out that the article is not for them and about them - then they leave.  Only talk about yourself through the lenses of the client: "Example: I am xyz and I help people who XYZ"  Rather than writing 5 paragraphs about how awesome you are your education, background and why you do what you do. People generally don't care about you, they only care about themselves and their problems (I don't mean this in a negative way, more from a business transaction way. That's just how it is. )  Always assume that your website visitor doesn't know who you are, what you do, how you do it, why you do it  - you need to be able to clarify these things to them immediately. Spell it out clearly without being too pushy Dangerous words & statements in your marketing copy   Patronising - "let me tell you why" , "I'm sure you can do better"  ,  "You haven't seen what XYZ is until you try my XYZ thing"  Being too presumptuous - "I'm sure you've heard , I'm sure you've seen the ..." I assume you've come to this website because...."  Bragging & belittling the reader  Being too rational and too technical  Talking too much about yourself  Trying to sound like an influencer (unless your clients want that)  Mixing tenses between present, future, past perfect, present perfect etc - stick to one  Excessively masculine style of writing (bro language using words like - strategy, tactical, conditioning, workout, dominating, influence, power etc)  Too much fluff & vagueness - turning the sales copy into poetry (Example of a fluff: "I will guide you through a journey of self discovery and recognition of your inner power, helping you rekindle that flame , showing you how to realise your greatest potential" caveat - some softness is good and it helps to empathise with clients and is more accepted by female readers but important not to soften up the entire copy unless your service requires it specifically Bonus: Don't assume that just because your business is ethical you don't need to master the technical side of online business. Even if you don't plan to abuse it, you need to educate yourself on Google SEO basics and the advertisement standards. 
There is much more but I find these were helpful. 

Morality has never been a complicated issue. The complicated issue has been implementing it. If you want a moral code it goes like this.
1. Whichever action maximizes the individual fitness and creative expression for all. 
2. This means all of countries resources should be centered around expanding opportunities for all, free training for all levels for all. Free support for all maladies for all. 
3. Within every human is an understanding of how things COULD look like if we weren't so selfish but collectively we are.
4. Also there is an age old ethic about whether you should sacrifice the few to save the many, the answer to that is easy. You use available resources to try to salvage/save the few but if you cannot save them you have to sever them. It's not difference than if your leg was detrimental to your body and needed to be cut off for your survival. You try your best to save it but if you can't then you off it.
Now the real question would be, when has it become too worse off to save? The difficulty in implementing morality is dealing with the various interest groups which seek to keep their power in spite of how it impacts the whole, and knowing when you cannot save the few who are dangerous to the whole. 
A true morality would lead with compassion, empathy, forgiveness, but also have the capability to be a stone cold killer if needed and would be decisive and swift in that action. Rare is the person/leader, much less the organization with that type of fortitude.
But a true test of morality is your ability to answer ethical dilemmas. So if you want a moral system....create some ethical dilemmas right now and then think up best what is the optimal system. Understand even if you think of the best moral system, it doesn't mean others will be selfless enough to implement it. The most important part of morality, is the developmental level of those implementing it.
When it comes to building and optimizing the moral system from the ground up, studying how the systems of our bodies and other bodies of living organisms and emulating them (while adjusting for the emotional bias component absent from these systems) would be a good start.
Systems thinking would be at the core of building a moral code. The code would be fluid and lead with principles of first do no or as little harm as possible, focus on support and empowerment and the development of autonomy, and then streamlining of resources and communication while supporting creativity and innovation. With the ability to be cold-hearted in times of emergency when you have to amputate the rotten part. 
For an outside the box example of systems thinking in action in nature....here is an example.
https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/brains-are-not-required-when-it-comes-to-thinking-and-solving-problems-simple-cells-can-do-it/
 

I just gave GPT-4 and Claude Opus my YouTube subscription list, personal book list with my book ratings, and the "Me sheet" I created by doing the life purpose course and all its exercises a few times over. They both told me I'm destined to become a way cooler version of Leo. Now I just have to kick back and let the magic happen.

GPT-4:
Based on the detailed information provided, including your "Me Sheet," YouTube channel subscriptions, and book list, it's evident that your interests and strengths are deeply rooted in self-improvement, consciousness, creativity, learning, and teaching. Your values and strengths suggest a passion for understanding complex concepts and a desire to help others grow. Considering these insights, here are some career paths or professions that could align with who you are, where your talents lie, and what motivates you:
1. Educational Content Creator or YouTuber
Given your subscription to channels like 3Blue1Brown, Actualized.org, and Ted-Ed, and your interest in teaching and creativity, creating educational content could be a fulfilling path. You could focus on topics ranging from personal development, consciousness, to complex educational subjects, leveraging your creativity and love of learning.
2. Life Coach or Personal Development Coach
Your values in consciousness, wisdom, and guiding others, combined with strengths in perspective and leadership, suggest a career in coaching. Specifically, focusing on personal development, mindfulness, or executive coaching could allow you to guide individuals towards realizing their potential and achieving their personal and professional goals.
3. Author or Writer
Considering your extensive book list and love for learning and creativity, writing books or articles on topics such as self-improvement, consciousness, psychology, or even fictional works that explore these themes could be a good fit. Your appreciation for beauty and excellence could help you craft compelling narratives that resonate with readers.
4. Academic or Researcher
Your strong inclination towards knowledge, learning, and understanding, along with your list of book subscriptions, indicates a potential career in academia or research. Focusing on fields such as psychology, philosophy, or even the interdisciplinary study of consciousness could align with your interests. This path allows for deep exploration of topics that fascinate you while contributing to the body of knowledge through teaching and publishing research.
5. Mindfulness or Meditation Instructor
Given your value in consciousness and your subscriptions to channels like Moojiji and Sadhguru, becoming a mindfulness or meditation instructor could be a fulfilling career path. This role allows you to directly apply and share your insights on consciousness, presence, and equanimity with others, guiding them towards a more mindful and balanced life.
6. Innovative Leader in Tech or Creative Industries
Your strengths in creativity, leadership, and appreciation of beauty and excellence suggest a role where you can lead projects or teams in creating innovative solutions or products. This could be in tech startups, design agencies, or any field where innovative thinking and leadership are valued. Your ability to envision and execute novel ideas could drive significant advancements in your chosen field.
7. Therapist or Counselor Specializing in Existential or Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT)
Your deep values in understanding the human mind and minimizing suffering, along with a strength in perspective, might make you an excellent therapist. Specializing in existential therapy or CBT could allow you to help clients navigate their paths to self-awareness and personal growth, addressing core issues and promoting mental health.
8. Educator or Professor in Philosophy, Psychology, or Personal Development
Your passion for knowledge and guiding others could also translate into a career in education, specifically teaching subjects related to philosophy, psychology, or personal development. This role would allow you to shape the minds of future generations, encouraging them to explore and understand the depths of human consciousness and potential.
9. Public Speaker or Workshop Leader
Given your strengths in leadership and teaching, coupled with your interest in personal development and self-awareness, conducting workshops or speaking at public events on these topics could be a rewarding path. This role would leverage your ability to inspire and guide others through spoken word, sharing insights on consciousness, personal growth, and living a meaningful life.
10. Social Entrepreneur
Focusing on creating businesses or organizations that aim to solve social problems or contribute to the wellbeing of society could align with your values and strengths. This path combines creativity, leadership, and a desire to make a positive impact on the world, focusing on areas such as mental health, education, or sustainability.
In considering these career paths, it's essential to reflect on what resonates most with your personal mission and where you feel you can make the most significant impact. Each of these professions allows for the integration of your values, strengths, and interests, providing a platform for continuous personal and professional growth.



Claude Opus:

Based on the information provided, including your values, strengths, YouTube subscriptions, and book list, here are some career paths and professions that might suit you well:
Teacher or Professor: Your values of teaching, guiding, and leading, along with your strength in love of learning and your diverse interests, could make you an excellent educator. You could teach a variety of subjects, from philosophy and psychology to technology and science.
Life Coach or Personal Development Consultant: Your strengths in perspective, leadership, and creativity, combined with your interest in personal growth and self-improvement, could make you an effective life coach or consultant, helping others navigate challenges and achieve their goals.
Researcher or Academic: Your love of learning, creativity, and appreciation of excellence could lead you to a fulfilling career in research or academia. You could pursue advanced degrees in fields such as psychology, philosophy, or computer science and contribute to the advancement of knowledge in these areas.
Entrepreneur or Innovator: Your strengths in creativity, leadership, and perspective, along with your diverse interests and curiosity, could make you a successful entrepreneur or innovator. You could start your own business or work for a company that values innovation and creative problem-solving.
Writer or Content Creator: Your love of learning, creativity, and perspective could lead you to a career in writing or content creation. You could write books, articles, or scripts on a wide range of topics, from personal development and philosophy to technology and science.
Meditation or Mindfulness Instructor: Your interest in consciousness, awareness, and wisdom, along with your strengths in teaching and guiding others, could make you an effective meditation or mindfulness instructor. You could help others develop greater self-awareness and inner peace.
Software Developer or Data Scientist: Your interests in technology, problem-solving, and creativity, along with your strengths in love of learning and perspective, could lead you to a career in software development or data science. You could work on cutting-edge projects and use your skills to create innovative solutions.
These are just a few ideas based on the information provided. Ultimately, the best career path for you will depend on your specific interests, skills, and values, as well as your willingness to pursue education and training in your chosen field.

I've been using Obsidian for note-taking for 3 years, and it has been a great app for organizing and connecting ideas and thoughts. 
But recently, I found this plugin that allows you to connect ChatGPT with Obsidian and basically talk to your notes and find insights and connections. It does a great job of finding recurrent ideas/themes or generating new ideas across thousands of notes. 
https://github.com/brianpetro/obsidian-smart-connections
Just thought I'd share this. 

Woodrow Wilson was a strong center-left progressive for his time (1910s). He actually became the very first liberal Democratic president in US history whereas FDR was the 2nd liberal Democratic president in US history. Wilson's New Freedom major policy changes were undoubtedly on the order of Teddy Roosevelt's Square Deal policies (1900s decade) and his leadership was very heroic during WW1. That's why most experts rank him as one of the top ten presidents in US history along with TR.
JFK and his legacy has been widely credited for leading the left-wing in America towards success with the civil rights movement and other historic domestic polices that would eventually become LBJ's Great Society programs before he was assassinated. LBJ's major policy changes were on the order of the New Deal in his own way. Like FDR, he too was a progressive center-left populist and most progressives love to reference him as a badass left-wing activist president like FDR, despite his terrible handling of the War in Vietnam.
Truman has also been widely considered amongst experts to also have been a strong and decisive center-left president who fought hard for his party and the rest of the Truman. His policies dramatically expanded both our military defense and US Intelligence agencies. He was in fact responsible for the creation of the CIA. He also has been has usually been ranked as one of the top ten presidents in US history.
Those were all exceptionally strong liberal/progressive Democratic in their own ways. Teddy Roosevelt was actually the last liberal/progressive Republican president in US History. He was a real badass too.
FDR though has been considered by most to the greatest president since the early 1900s because of his incredible heroism as president during the dark days of the Great Depression and WWII. Also, because of how powerful and sustainable of an influence his New Deal policies had many decades later. His policies amounted to the greatest expansion of both the size and scope of the US government and government intervention compared to the policies of any other president in US history. Yet, even though many Americans have hated the idea of the government not minding its own business, FDR's policies still to this day are still alive. Since the 80s, Reagan and the Republicans have failed to eliminate practically any of the New Deal policies including Social Security. The Republicans have also failed to eliminate virtually any of the Great Society policies including Medicare, Medicaid, the landmark Civil Rights Acts, and the landmark Voting Rights Acts. Just like how Trump and the Republicans failed to repeal Obamacare and totally repeal Dodd-Frank.

Yup we guys like a piece of ass and titties. for some men that's the end of the story and that's fair enough.
 
I've always been intrigued WHY do I find specific things sexually attractive and other things sexually repulsive .  Why am I attracted to ass, titties, a beautiful face and smile, well put together, youth, slim , makeup and color? 
Today I'm excited to share some simple but personally satisfying answers. 
It felt like zooming outside of my human being to become conscious of myself being this chimp, and that this chimp has specific preferences and dislikes, like love for sweet and hate of bitter, or being a bee and realizing the evolutionary reason why I'm drawn to flowers
 
This may apply to males at large but I've noticed that different guys have slightly different preferences, which only makes sense because of different successful genetic backgrounds ( if your ancestors mated with females with "X" traits, and you're alive here today, it means traits "X" work for survival and therefore are attractive to you)
Quick note. All of this is from an non judgemental POV with the sole purpose of noticing and understanding . In no way I'm trying to make women feel worse about themselves.
Second quick note. Since in the scope of our evolution the risks of sex are minimal for men compared to women (besides getting your head smashed in by another male/gang of males for having sex with the wrong woman ) we are more okay with just sticking it in literally any chance that we get and possibly skipping on any of these preferences. 
Women on the other hand get f*cking disabled for a year and they can LITERALLY DIE if impregnated. ACTUALLY LITERALLY DIE. Therefore they are a little more picky.
 
Anyways, from my BIOLOGIES POV, for me to be attracted to a woman she has to display physical traits that mean she can bear children GOOD,  and a minimum degree of mental capacities ( otherwise it would be a turnoff because it signals bad genetic material)
For me personally, I know if I'm physically attracted to a women immediately. At a primal biological level. In a single glance. 
Now since I'm not an absolute chimp, her personality can be a further turn off if it's just not for a pump and dump.
 
This one I found to be the most interesting. And it's the exception to the rule:
Beautiful face , smile, teeth. A symetrical Golden Ratio face doesn't provide much raw survival value or information about fertility. The value of a symmetrical face is a strange loop. It's valuable because we value it.
Beauty is slippery. We love the golden ratio. Beauty is valuable because we value beauty. But a pretty face by itself is not enough of an attraction cue as you may have noticed.
You've got all teeth? Clear sign of youth and health. Showing your teeth in monkey societies signals submission . Perfectly aligned teeth are more of a aesthetic and universally recognized love of Beauty in the abstract, like Greek sculptures. 
Why men/I'm not attracted to chubby / fat women This one I've been racking my mind over the longest, and the Insight came to me watching an Instagram reel of a couple dancing bachata.
It was a before / during pregnancy dance video.
In the initial video the girl was slim and I felt she looked very attractive. Few seconds later, the video was cut to them dancing months later where you could tell she is just a tiny little pregnant, she had an inflated belly and my attraction was immediately killed!!
 
So the Insight is that I'm genetically not attracted to chubby or fat women because it resemblances pregnancy. That their fertile real estate is currently taken and therefore not worth pursuing. Also you can't tell THAT easily if they're pregnant already .
Imagine you had sex with a female thousands of years ago and she was pregnant already and you raised a child that's not yours. It's shooting yourself in the foot genetically. Although you may argue being overweight was pretty uncommon throughout history. I know personally men who are into chubby girls.
On the other hand, easily storing fat would be extremely useful and therefore attractive for species who have to survive in places of extreme cold like Alaska. Otherwise It kind of signals scarcity of food and the need to hoard. Historically Surviving is easier if you're capable of consistently obtaining food from outside of your own fat sources. It's more efficient to be thin.
Make up , Youth , Color An appearance well taken care of is the physical visual equivalent of seeing muscles on a guy . It's a what's called a "honest signal" , which means it's a conveyance of value that can not be faked. You are strong, end of story. Or in her case , you have put time and effort into your appearance, which signals good caretaking , which is essential for raising children. Contrast it with looking like this
A dishonest signal of value would be mentioning you get laid a lot, even if it's true . Because that CAN be a lie and not true.
Make up covers skin signs of ageing. And genetically we're attracted to young women because they're in their prime for bearing children.
I'm genetically attracted to female eye contact, a primal indicator of sexual interest.
Once two attractive women were in front of me. Only one had done her eyes and eyelashes done. It emphasizes her eyes A LOT more.
 
Colorful make up for eyelids, lipstick etc, simply draw attention for humans overall, not just for men. I have been using my smartphone in black and white mode for the last few weeks and it's astonishing how much less distracting app icons are.
Color provides vital information about ripeness of food, time of day, poisoning factor of food or animals or insects, purity of water, etc. Conclusion : color draws attention because it conveys information.
Why the hourglass shape? Thin body with broad hips is the genetic  preference. I didn't know this but broad hips are a big factor on how well the mother can give birth. The mother can literally die if her hips arent wide enough, because of the size of human babies. Nowadays C-sections exist which would minimize the attraction to wide hips, but it's still there instinctually.
Why the attraction to booty? It comes from our monkey times. Bonobos and macaques specifically find swollen buttocks more attractive because it signals more estrogen and fertility
Titties? I was watching  a absolutely non sexual video. Some people were talking . The woman was wearing a loose shirt. For a speck of a second, she accidentally pulled on a part of her shirt and it slightly shaped to the form of her bra. I instantly noticed I felt a primal feeling of attraction. It was so quick I barely noticed it happening, and had to rewind the video to investigate what the fuck had just happened
If she has breasts , biologically it means she is past puberty and ready to bear children. Non sagging breasts are a signal of youth as well.
 
All of this is just from a primal perspective. Of course modern humans have the capacity to appreciate personality, and for quality couples it's an absolute must.
Hope I shared an insightful perspective about why men judge women that heavily on physical appearance.
Let me know if you want to share some interesting take.
Do not turn this into a gender war post 
 

Hello Everyone! I do an Ayahuasca ceremony once per year in the Spring. And I just had my yearly Ayahuasca ceremony a couple weeks ago. 
To preface this, it has been revealed to me in previous ceremonies that the purpose of my life is mercy. And that I came from a point of God's consciousness that felt totally overwhelmed by the infinite. So, it created Emerald as an imperfect, ordinary, finite being as a vacation for God's consciousness from the perfect, extraordinary, and infinite. And along with these insights showed me that I (and all of the finite) is a precious gem in its eyes as it is through me (and other finite beings) that beauty and meaning can be derived.
Another thing I had learned in previous ceremonies is that there is a generational trauma pattern that goes through my matrilineal line around betrayal. And this has created a dynamic in my mother, myself, and my daughter where we all feel like we have to have perfect knowledge... because we don't trust God, the universe, ourselves, or anyone else. So, we must have the omniscience of God... because of this lack of trust so that we can avoid the betrayal that we expect at every turn (from our mothers and from God itself).
And this presents itself in different ways for all of us... but the trauma is the same.
My mom convinces herself that she's absolutely right and will sacrifice everything so that she can maintain the idea that she's correct and therefore righteous. I am never certain that I'm right or righteous about anything, so I've spent every spare moment of my life compulsively questioning everything about everything ad infinitum in hopes that I can finally find the truth... only to find nothing solid to grasp. And my daughter will never guess at anything unless she's 200% certain that she knows... so it takes here about 4-5 times longer than her peers to finish her school work.
Here is what happened with the medicine
I went in with the intention to forgive my mom for the ways she's hurt me. My mom is a very fabulous mother to children under the age of 8. She's attentive and really sees the child as a special apple of her eye and she will do anything for them. And this was the treatment that I got until I was 8 and she was my favorite person in the world... shy of maybe my paternal grandma.
And that's when I started to develop a mind of my own that wasn't exactly like hers.
And this began to trigger the fear of not possessing infinite knowledge. And (to avoid getting into too many details) led her to become tyrannical and infantilizing at first to try to keep me in her narrative... trying to keep me from growing up. Then, eventually (at age 12) when she saw that she couldn't control me and I was challenging her logic, she cut me out of her life and I went to go live with my dad. And she didn't talk to me for a year or two at a time at various points during my pre-teens, teens, and earlier adulthood.
So, I wanted to forgive her because I'm still angry and hurt by this... given that it was a total rug-pull and pendulum swing.
And I've been expecting that of God ever since... and continuously questioning everything so that I am not blind-sided in case all of reality and everything I think I know was actually a trick of the devil.... and eventually it will be revealed that I've been in hell the whole time and all the direct experiences of God's mercy were all just a trick.
I've experienced God in my medicine journeys many many times... and I always convince myself afterwards that it could just be an illusion... even though I believe it's real deep down. I'm just always spinning my wheels with a lack of trust and constant questioning... expecting a betrayal from God.
So, in this medicine experience... I woke up to God with me as an extension of its consciousness (as it often presents itself in my Ayahuasca journeys).
And it exposed me (as it had done a couple times before) to infinite knowledge. And infinite knowledge in a finite being is hell... and is a large part of why God decided to manifest part of its consciousness as Emerald in the first place because part of its consciousness could not handle the exposure to the infinite mind and infinite heart.
And when I was exposed to the infinite knowing, I had to actively choose to forget the infinite knowledge and to choose to be Emerald again and again. 
It was showing me that the birth of meaning and beauty comes from choosing finiteness. And if you can choose between being finite and infinite... it's wisest to choose to be finite.
And when I was choosing to be Emerald I was going through the labor pains of birthing myself and the entirety of the world into existence as the finite. The labor pain was experienced as part of God extricating itself from the infinite to become finite.
And I had to keep doing this as I would lose connection to the finite and slip off into the chaos of infinite knowing. And I'd have to trust God that it would choose to re-manifest Emerald again.
And it communicated to me (I was also it so it was like another being was talking to me... but also like I was talking to myself)... and it told me that I can choose to trust it. And it was very understanding as to why I wouldn't trust it because the ways it works aren't easy or possible to grasp from the perspective of a finite being with a finite mind. 
But it said that I could choose to trust it. And it showed me how I/it manifests everything in my life with my own permission. And that I could trust myself to not subject myself to needlessly tragic circumstances. And that any negative circumstances that I have decided to manifest thus far have all come for the purpose of manifesting future positive outcomes.
And it mentioned that the reason why some people experience intense tragedies is because it is part of the things they've come to learn and experience in this life... though it also specified that this is not always a compassionate truth to share when someone is deeply suffering.
So, I could choose to trust God and myself (which were one and the same) to not have the universe do a sudden heal-turn and subject me to needlessly hellish circumstances and that I didn't have to be hyper-vigilant and know everything to avoid the heal-turn.
It also showed me that I chose the whole entire dynamic with my mother... and that there was nothing to actually forgive. 
At a certain point in time, it showed me the reason for authoritarianism, bigotry, hatred, ignorance, and other forms of pettiness. 
The reason why is because most people don't value finiteness and limitation. And in lieu of consciously choosing to limit ourselves... we manifest authoritarian patterns that create unequal power imbalances. (my mom's infinite knowing tendency is a microcosm of this... but it plays out macrocosmically as well).
And this works to stave off the chaos of the infinite and the suffering that entail... but it creates the suffering associated with constriction and repression. 
So... it was showing me that sovereignty and limitation are important to incorporate in the proper balance. That way, we don't fall over on one side of the horse and drown in the chaos of infinite knowledge and don't fall over on the other side of the horse and have our sovereignty squelched.
It was also showing me (as it has before) how valuable and precious the finite is from the perspective of the infinite. 
Heavy is the head that wears the crown.
And because God is infinite... the infinite is an infinitely heavy crown to wear. And the reason why God can do so effortlessly is that it has TONS of complex mechanisms for fragmenting itself and distributing the weight of the crown.
This is ultimately where Emerald came from. This part of God's consciousness was overwhelmed by the crown. And so, it manifested Emerald as a very ordinary woman to hold a small portion of the crown from time to time. I'm certain the same is true for all finite forms.
And it had shown me in a previous ceremony the consequences of identifying with extraordinariness and specialness and how existentially heavy and disconnecting that is. And then, when it re-integrated me with the ordinary, it was like all that weight got distributed to all of reality. 
So, in this ceremony it showed me how to hold the crown and pass it around to alleviate the weight of the gifts that I have been given.
And this went from me recognizing that, during my ceremony, I was healing the world. And I proudly wore the crown for a moment.
Then... I realized that I was actually just a side character in the whole story and that the random guy journeying next to me was healing the world. 
Then... I realized that it was actually the Yawanawa tribe that was healing the world.
And I kept dispersing the crown across the whole net of humanity to disperse the weight of the crown... which is also important when it comes to having an experience of being God. You are God.... but then... you are also just a small side character in God's story.
Then, this went on further... and I realized that my whole entire life was as a side character in one of my client's lives. And that all of my life purpose was just to serve that other person.
Then... it shifted to me being a side character in one or two of my other client's lives.
Then, it went to me being a side character in the guy next to me's life. 
And it was releasing all this pressure as I was embracing the anonymity and humility of the experience.
Once I started to come back down where I was more in tune with the Emerald Aspect than I was with the God Aspect... I started to look at all the people journeying around me around  the fire.
And I was overjoyed to be surrounded by all these people. And I felt all this appreciation for all the people in my life. And it was a further solidification of the notion that, it is only through finiteness, imperfection, and separation that things like meaning and beauty and relationship can be experienced. 
At this point, I had totally forgotten the infinite knowledge and saw it was wisest to choose to be Emerald, to choose to be finite, to choose to be ordinary, to choose to be imperfect, and to choose to be feminine. (as I had to keep saying all throughout the ceremony)
To give an analogy... if God is the peacock and I am the peahen... the peahen is drab and dull and ordinary from our perspective... but it is the most beautiful and precious creature on Earth from the perspective of the peacock itself.
And in this sense, all finite beings are the peahens. And this allows us to experience an imperfectly beautiful and meaningful story.
There was also a realization that the line between life and death is slight... and beyond that I could see all these other Emerald-related timelines I could live. And it was clear that I could live as Emerald for a zillion lifetimes if I wanted to as God could spin up my life any time it wanted to. So, that also let me know that I didn't have to worry about ultimate loss and having to die and facing the chaos of the infinite again.

Today, Beckley psytech released initial results of a phase2a (mid-stage) clinical trial for treatment-resistant-depression using synthetic 5-meo-dmt.
To enter the study, participants must have clinical depression in which previous treatment options failed (such as SSRIs). Participants were given a single 10mg dose of 5-meo-dmt intranasally. 55% of patients were in remission at week 4 and 45% of patients were in remission at week 12. 
This is the longest follow-up study for 5-meo-dmt. The sample size is small (12 patients), yet very encouraging. TRD is extremely difficult to treat, since standard treatments have already failed. 5-meo-dmt pretty much cured 50% of patients. Non-psychedelic treatments are nowhere close to this. The closest would be psilocybin - which has about a 35% success rate in clinical trials. Yet this involved multiple doses (two or three).
I find it interesting that a single 10mg dose was able to have such an effect. This seems like a relatively low dose (although it was intranasal, which may be a bit stronger than plugged).
As well, participants did not have to go through any lifestyle changes. They came into the clinic for two hours, received a single 5-meo dose and psychological support. And half the recipients were cured. . . 

I worked with ChatGPT on coming up with a pretty detailed breakdown of the US political spectrum
1. Far-Left/Radical:
This segment includes individuals and groups advocating for significant social, economic, and political change. They may support policies such as universal healthcare, free higher education, wealth redistribution through taxation, environmental regulations, and social justice initiatives. Some far-left groups may advocate for socialism or even more radical ideologies. Examples of Ideologies: Revolutionary socialism, anarchism, communism, libertarian socialism including hardline anarcho-syndicalism and hardline social anarchism, and extreme left-wing populism. Examples of Groups/Organizations: Socialist Alternative, Revolutionary Communist Party, USA, Antifa, TYT (after they became vitriolic), Secular Talk (after it became vitriolic), Majority Report (though a bit more reasonable than TYT, Secular Talk, and other progressive YT channels), Vaush (also a bit more reasonable than TYT, Secular Talk, and other progressive YT channels), and Rational National (before it became vitriolic). Examples of Individuals: Angela Davis (activist and former member of the Communist Party USA), Richard Wolff (Marxist economist and advocate for worker cooperatives), Jill Stein, Rashida Tlaib, Infrared (Haz), Eugene V. Debs., and Norman Thomas. Left-wing/Progressive:
Progressives advocate for social, economic, and political reform to address issues such as income inequality, healthcare access, environmental protection, and social justice. They support policies like Medicare for All, tuition-free public college, a Green New Deal, criminal justice reform, and LGBTQ+ rights. Progressives can vary in their positions from center-left to left-wing, depending on specific policy preferences. Examples of Ideologies: Democratic socialism, social democracy, progressivism, pragmatic variation of anarcho-syndicalism, left-wing libertarianism, left-wing populism, and left-wing Independents. Examples of Groups/Organizations: Abolitionist movement, civil rights movement, Knights of Labor, 19th century People's Party, People's Party (1971), People's Party (formed in 2017), Democratic Socialists of America (DSA), Center for American Progress, other left-wing think tanks, Socially Responsible Investing (SRI) Networks, Worker Cooperatives and Employee-Owned Businesses, Community Development Financial Institutions (CDFIs), Sustainable Business Networks, Social Enterprise Networks, and other left-wing business networks, Justice Democrats, Sunrise Movement, UAW, Rational National (before it became vitriolic), Democracy Now!, Jacobin, Current Affairs, The Intercept, TYT (before they became vitriolic), Secular Talk (before it became vitriolic), Majority Report, Vaush, Pod Save America, Michael Moore Podcast, Actualized.org. Examples of Individuals: Thaddeus Stevens, Frederick Douglass, Radical Republicans such as Ulysses S. Grant, William Jennings Bryan, Teddy Roosevelt, Woodrow Wilson, FDR, MLK, Malcolm X, Lyndon B. Johnson, Bernie Sanders (U.S. Senator and democratic socialist), Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez (U.S. Representative and progressive advocate), Elizabeth Warren (U.S. Senator and progressive Democrat), Sherrod Brown, John Fetterman, Ruben Gallego, Jamaal Bowman, Ro Khanna, Katie Porter, Barbara Lee, Ilhan Omar, Pramila Jayapal, David Pakman, Brian Tyler Cohen, IRI, Destiny, Michael Moore, Leo Gura, Noam Chomsky, Paul Krugman, Joseph Stiglitz, Mark Zandi, Ron Klain, and Shawn Fain. Center-Left/Moderate Liberal/Liberal:
This group occupies a more centrist position, advocating for pragmatic solutions that balance progressive goals with fiscal responsibility and market-based approaches. They may support policies like a public option for healthcare, moderate tax reforms, and incremental changes to address social issues. Centrist Democrats often emphasize bipartisanship and compromise. Liberals typically emphasize a balance between individual rights and the role of government in addressing social and economic issues. They often advocate for reforms within the existing political and economic systems, supporting policies such as expanding access to healthcare through private or public means, promoting incremental changes to address social inequalities, and favoring market-based solutions alongside government intervention. Examples of Ideologies: Liberalism, pragmatic progressivism, center-left populism, and left-leaning Independents. Examples of Groups/Organizations: Progressive Policy Institute, Center for American Progress, other center-left think tanks, more moderate factions within the Democratic Party, labor unions, the Kennedy family (except RFK jr.), the Warren Court, Keynesian economics, New Keynesian economics, Social Venture Network (SVN), B Lab, Conscious Capitalism, Aspen Network of Development Entrepreneurs (ANDE), Corporate Responsibility Association (CRA), and other center-left business networks, MSNBC. Examples of Individuals: Thomas Jefferson, James Madison, James Monroe, Ulysses S. Grant, Samuel J. Tilden, James Garfield, Teddy Roosevelt, Woodrow Wilson, FDR, Truman, JFK, Lyndon B. Johnson, Jimmy Carter, Walter Mondale, Barack Obama, Hillary Clinton, Joe Biden (President of the United States), Kamala Harris (Vice President of the United States), Pete Buttigieg (Secretary of Transportation and former presidential candidate), Al Gore, Chuck Schumer, Dick Durbin, Sherrod Brown, Raphael Warnock, Jon Ossoff, Nancy Pelosi (one of the greatest US Speakers of the US House in US history), Samuel Rayburn (also said to be one of the greatest Speakers of the US House in US history), Jim Clyburn, Adam Schiff, Alex Padilla, Gavin Newsom, Gretchen Whitmer, Josh Shapiro, Wes Moore, Tim Walz, J.B. Pritzker, Justice Elena Kegan, Justice Sonia Sotomayor, Justice Ketanji Brown Jackson, Jack Smith, John Maynard Keynes, Jason Furman, Larry Summers, Paul Krugman, Nouriel Roubini, Mark Zandi, Claudia Sahm, Paul Volcker, Timothy Geithner, Janet Yellen, Rob Rubin, Gene Sperling, Steve Rattner, Brian Deese, Ron Klain, Lael Brainard, Jack Lew, Antony Blinken, and Eric Holder. Centrist/Moderate:
Centrists prioritize pragmatism and moderation, seeking to find common ground between left and right-wing perspectives. They may support a mix of progressive and conservative policies, depending on the issue, and generally prioritize compromise and cooperation over ideological purity. Centrists often value stability and incremental change over radical reforms. Example of Ideologies: Pragmatism, moderation, bipartisanship, political Independence, centrism-populism, and possibly extreme centrism. Examples of Groups/Organizations: New Democrat Coalition, Blue Dog Coalition, other conservative Democrats, Republican Main Street Partnership, Rockefeller Republican, other moderate and liberal Republicans left today, Independents, Third Way, Neoliberals, Bipartisan Policy Center, No Labels, Problem Solvers Caucus, CNN, ABC, NBC, CBS, PBS, New York Times, The Washington Post, NPR, and the Stone Court. Examples of Individuals: George Washington, John Quincy Adams, Andrew Jackson, Martin Van Buren, William Henry Harrison, John Tyler, James K. Polk, Zachary Taylor, Abraham Lincoln, Rutherford B. Hayes, Eisenhower, Richard Nixon (was in many ways the last liberal president in policy before Obama), Jimmy Carter, Bill Clinton, Al Gore, Joe Lieberman, Ross Perot, Doug Jones (former U.S. Senator known for bipartisan approach), Jon Tester, Susan Collins (U.S. Senator known for moderate positions), Larry Hogan, Joe Manchin (U.S. Senator known for his very bipartisan stance and very heavy influence from corporate donors) and Kyrsten Sinema (known for her extreme bipartisan stance, lack of transparency, and very heavy influence from corporate donors), Josh Gottheimer, Abigail Spanberger, Jerome Powell, Ben Bernanke, Olivier Blanchard, Rob Rubin, Gene Sperling, Steve Rattner, and Merrick Garland. Center-Right/Moderate Conservative/Conservative:
This segment of the spectrum advocates for limited government intervention in the economy, fiscal conservatism, and traditional social values. They may support policies such as lower taxes, deregulation, free-market healthcare solutions, and a strong national defense. Moderate conservatives may be more open to compromise on social issues like same-sex marriage and immigration reform. Examples of Ideologies: Conservatism, moderate Republicanism, center-right populism, right-leaning Independents Examples of Groups/Organizations: Republican Main Street Partnership, Rockefeller Republican, Blue Dog Coalition, other conservative Democrats, American Enterprise Institute, other center-right think thanks, US Chamber of Commerce, and other center-right business networks, The Ripon Society, the Vinson court, the Burger Court, the Rehnquist Court, the Roberts Court (before Ruth Bader Ginsburg passed away and got replaced by Amy Coney Barrett), and some of the GOP Establishment. Examples of Individuals: John Adams, Millard Fillmore, Franklin Pierce, Chester A. Arthur, James Blaine, Benjamin Harrison, Grover Cleveland, William McKinley, William Taft, Herbert Hoover, Dwight Eisenhower, Richard Nixon (also began the War on Drugs and the Southern Strategy), Gerald Ford, Nelson Rockefeller, George H.W. Bush, Joe Manchin, Kyrsten Sinema Ben Sasse, Colin Powell, John McCain, Adam Kinzinger, Mitt Romney (U.S. Senator known for moderate conservatism), Larry Hogan, Lisa Murkowski (U.S. Senator known for independent streak), Charlie Baker (Governor of Massachusetts and moderate Republican), Chris Christie, Josh Gottheimer, Hank Paulson, Jerome Powell, Jeremy Siegel (economist), Chief Justice Roberts, and Justice Brett Kavanaugh. Right-wing/Conservative/Traditionalist:
Conservatives generally prioritize individual liberty, free-market principles, and traditional social values. They advocate for limited government, lower taxes, deregulation, and a strong national defense. They may oppose progressive policies like affirmative action, gun control, and government-run healthcare. Socially, they often support traditional family values, religious freedom, and stricter immigration policies. Examples of Ideologies: Conservatism, fiscal conservatism, free-market capitalism, traditional values, right-wing libertarianism, right-wing populism, and right-wing Independents. Examples of Groups/Organizations: Heritage Foundation, Cato Institute, Hoover Institute, Manhattan Institute for Policy Research, Family Research Council, Club for Growth, other conservative think tanks, most of the GOP Establishment, the Roberts Court (currently), the Hughes Court, US Chamber of Commerce, and other center-right business networks. Examples of Individuals: James Buchanan, Andrew Johnson, Warren G. Harding, Calvin Coolidge, Ronald Reagan, Donald Trump, John Bolton, George W. Bush, Dick Cheney, Mike Pence, Ron DeSantis, Nikki Haley (former Governor of South Carolina and conservative Republican), Mitch McConnell, John Thune, Tim Scott, Lindsey Graham, Karl Rove, Newt Gingrich, John Boehner, Paul Ryan, Kevin McCarthy, Mike Johnson, Pat Buchanan, Justice Brett Kavanaugh, Justice Amy Coney Barrett, Justice Neil Gorsuch, Justice Samuel Alito, Justice Clarence Thomas, Roger Ailes, Rush Limbaugh, Tucker Carlson, Ben Shapiro (conservative commentator and author), Robert Mercer, and other right-wing mega-donors, T.S. Eliot, Russell Kirk, William Randolph Hearst, William F. Buckley Jr., Ayn Rand, Milton Friedman, Friedrich Hayek, Alan Greenspan, Steven Mnuchin, Donald Rumsfeld, Rex Tillerson, Mike Pompeo, and William Barr. Far-Right/Reactionary:
This segment encompasses individuals and groups with extreme right-wing views, often advocating for a return to traditional social hierarchies, nationalist policies, and authoritarianism. Far-right ideologies may include elements of racism, xenophobia, and white nationalism. They often oppose immigration, multiculturalism, and international cooperation in favor of a more isolationist or nationalist agenda. Examples of Ideologies: Nationalism, white supremacy, authoritarianism, extreme right-wing populism Examples of Groups/Organizations: Proud Boys, Oath Keepers, Qanon, American Renaissance, FOX news, OANN, Newsmax, Evangelical/Fundamentalist Christians, and the Roberts Court (currently). Examples of Individuals: A majority of Republican/conservative elites in the US, right-wing mega-donors, Donald Trump, MAGA Republicans, Steve Bannon (former White House Chief Strategist and far-right nationalist), Ted Cruz (U.S. Senator and conservative Republican), Pat Buchanan, Newt Gingrich, Marjorie Taylor Greene (U.S. Representative known for promoting conspiracy theories), Mike Johnson, Lauren Boebert, Matt Gaetz, Chip Roy, Jim Jordan, Vivek Ramaswamy, Justice Samuel Alito, Justice Clarence Thomas, Richard Spencer (white nationalist and alt-right leader), Roger Ailes, Rush Limbaugh, Tucker Carlson, Alex Jones, Charlie Kirk, Robert Mercer, and other right-wing mega-donors.  
There is some overlap with examples of each of these Individuals, Ideologies, and Group/Organizations put in each of their respective categories, but I think this is a good start. Let me know what any of you have to add to this breakdown.
*Extreme/radical centrism actually hasn't been officially considered as being really within the center or anywhere else within the spectrum; however, one could argue that it would be at the very, very center of the spectrum, but it is just as dysfunctional as any kind of extreme/radical left-wing ideology or any sort of extreme/radical right-wing ideology, in its own way. I want to say that both Manchin and Sinema and other right-wing corporate Democrats like them have been contributing to the problems we have today that are usually attributed to radical centrism. No Labels definitely smells like a major contributor to extreme centrism and corporate extremism. Then again, populist movements can also emerge in the center of the political spectrum, advocating for reforms to address perceived government corruption, bureaucratic inefficiency, or political gridlock. Centrist populists may prioritize anti-establishment rhetoric and propose policies aimed at increasing transparency, accountability, and responsiveness in government.
**Given that the use of the terms far-left, left-wing, center-left, centrist, center-right, right-wing, and far-right/Reactionary officially didn't begin to be used until around the turn of the 20th century in the US, we (including the AI) can only make best guesses as to which political figures before around the year 1900 were in which category on the political spectrum. All of them before 1900 were probably either some kind of centrist or barely at the center-left or barely at the center-right, except for James Buchanan, Andrew Johnson, Thaddeus Stevens, and Frederick Douglass. James Buchanan and Andrew Johnson were staunch conservative presidents, right before and right after the Civil War respectively, both of whom strongly opposed civil rights for African Americans. Buchanan in particular was very pro-slavery, and was party responsible for the conditions that led to the outbreak of the Civil War. Thaddeus Stevens and Frederick Douglass, on the other hand, were probably firmly left-wing political leaders as they were fierce social justice warriors who fought like hell to abolish slavery and make the federal government grant all African-Americans American citizenship and every civil right/liberty.
***Nobody really knows what Trump is or what he truly stands for. However, he clearly is striving to be the dictator of the USA and is doing everything he can to escape justice for everything he has done.

Hi there,
TL;DR in bold.
So I am just back from a solo meditation retreat. I wanted to go to Vipassana, but with all the surges in Covid cases in my country in the last weeks I had thought it might not be the brightest idea, so my room it is.
It started out as a mixed Vipassana/Kriya retreat, but slowly evolved into Kriya-based one. Yes, I am no good at sticking to the plan. Typical INFP guy here.
My Vipassana technique of choice was Shinzen Young's mindfulness with labeling, the "See, Hear, Feel" method. I like it more than the body scaning technique they teach at Goenka's Vipassana retreats. Shinzen Young is an inspiring person, too. It's thanks to him that I started to question if I am not undervaluing stuff like insight mediation and should give it more effort.
My Kriya routine is (I have had almost a year of a gap in practicing it and I am just getting back on track since the 1st January, practicing daily):
Preliminary Kriya Supreme Fire up to 20 minuntes Maha Mudra 3-12x SantataGamana's/Mukherjee's Kriya Pranayama with concentration at the Third-Eye 108-144x Self-Inquiry or concentration for 20-40 minutes at the end.  
It takes up to 1 h 30 min to complete.
For Kriya Supreme Fire I use Wim Hof-like technique of doing 30 short, sharp inhales and exhales to oxygenate the body, It's super easy to hit 1 min 30 s or 2 min that way. I remember that using this technique I was able to hold breath for 3 minutes in year 2019. So I think that I will switch to full Kriya Supreme Fire soon after the retreat.
I had a problem with Vipassana. The problem was I had been constantly falling asleep and lucid dreaming or simply dreaming instead of actually meditating. So 2-hours meditation sit was effectively more like a 1-1.5 hour sit. I even had a dream of me meditating in one place and then after waking up I saw that I am in a completely different place. And I was like, "duh, why is it happening to me?"
I know why, it's because I had constantly been laying on the floor with a straight back to give my legs and knees a rest, but it turns out I am godlike at falling asleep at completely flat, uncomfortable floors. But I had to, the knees got such a beating before I started this retreat (I went biking for the first time this year and kind of got carried away), that I didn't want to risk any injury.
That's why I have switched to yoga only. You can't fall asleep doing yoga (probably, haha).
Here is my schedule for the first 2 days:
It's basically appropiated Goenka's Vipassana schedlue. I didn't know what I was doing when planning this up, just went with my mojo and put stuff in there. Too much physical exercise.
I had set up timers on my phone to remind me of the schedule and put it into extra-battery saving mode.
I then went to improve it for the next two days:
This was better, but still not right. The lesson I have learned is that doing Kriya that close before sleep can make falling asleep more difficult, yet I haven't corrected it during this retreat.
The schedule I sticked to the end of the retreat is such:
Yup, that's 400-600 Kriya Pranayamas a day. But I think this was still ineffective use of time. If I had to start again, I would cut physical yoga asanas (Iyengar) to 1h maximum. Do more sessions of Kriya, aiming for 800-1000 a day, no psychedelics. I would also try to all the Pranayamas as early in the day as possible, to crowd them in the morning and early afternoon. That would be it for a Kriya-themed retreat.
I will for sure experiment with other formats, like semi-retreat when I do yoga intensively in the morning and then go about the day as usual, work, etc., for a month. Or do 1-day intensives with 1728 pranyamas on Sundays, for example. 1728 x KP should take about ten hours, that's totally doable.
If anything, I could have structured this retreat so that I had 1728 repetitions of pranayama per day, yet as I have said, I didn't really know what I was doing there, before this retreat I was doing only 72 x KP per day and didn't know if there's a limit. There is no limit, one can go on and on and practice. The biggest obstacle is finding an assana to sit/lay in for ten hours with a straight back. I have heard you can drink water during the practice, preferably with ghee, but that sounds like a hindu dogma to me, haha. I would try to do it in "one sitting" from 5AM to 4PM and then rest.
What I am thankful to this retreat for is showing me the benefits of such a rigid time schedule. I think I will get serious about scheduling my normal days after this retreat in a similar manner. It's something I have never done really, but makes sitting down to do the practice super easy, because you are always well slept, nourished and at the right place when there's the time to practice.
About the psychedelics, I have thought that with so much time on my hands it would be interesting to try different routes of administration for DPT. I don't recommend doing that on a retreat, it's just something I have been curious about and couldn't find a better time to do.
So, vaping DPT freebase is easy, too easy. I have wasted like 200 mg because I didn't know how to vape. First, I have had problems with freebasing it, the stuff is a very sticky brownish oil and it's such a pain to manage. So after managing to put like 15 mg from the original 60 I have puffed it and felt threshold effects. After some time I tried to put a paste of DPT mixed with baking soda inside the vaporizer with a drop of water, it has worked, but the water was a problem, I had to carefully evaporate it at around 100C and don't know if that cooking hasn't destroyed some of the molecule. I don't know because when was about to take to take a puff from the vape, I forgot to empty my lungs. Before I have exhaled the air, the DPT has condensed on the glass and made everything dirty, I have only taken into lungs like 10% of the cloud and again felt light mood enchancement. That's when I gave up the method for now. Too much pain with freebasing it correctly and it leaves a smell in the room.
So oral administration it is. I have taken 200 mg put into capsule and the other day 300 mg. It works, works like a charm. So far the best ROA for this compound IMO. I have bought my DPT at $8 a gram so I don't feel like it's too wasteful to eat that much of it for one and a half hour of tripping. 200 mg is an equivalent of 45 mg insufflated (+ intensity) and 300 mg is similar to 60 mg insufflated or 110 mg plugged (++ intensity, Shulgin's scale), but with no clogged sinuses, bad taste or bleeding from anus. At least with my metabolism. I was scared because of the reports of extra long trips, like 6-10 hours from this ROA on very high doses, but it seems to not be case, it's a standard for DPT 1.5 hour duration, although I can't be sure of what would happen at a higher dose. I don't know anything about tolerance, maybe my 300 mg trip had been weaker because of the tolerance, dunno. Takes about 40 minutes to load when taken in a capsule (might depend on the capsule you have got).
What else I have been up to? Read SantataGamana's books, started Peter Ralston's The Book of Not-Knowing, indulged in the poetry of Ryokan and Rumi when had had a break from the meditation. Poetry totally recommended for a retreat, haha. Cooked some good food, worked on mindfulness in everyday activities, had a detox from the internet, video content, smartphone, messenger, etc.
Results from the practice:
Feeling of a stronger control over the mind and its urges. Slightly elevated baseline level of consciousness. It's not much, but noticable. Learned to do Kriya Yoga well better. Found comfortable sitting postures. Some calm, spontaneus kundalini activity throughout the day. Improved concetration skills. That's it, nothing fancy, no extraordinary experiences.
Here are the sitting set-ups I recommend:

1. For Maha Mudra and sitting with legs crossed/half-lotus. The tilt from the yoga block beneath is very useful and adds comfort by lowering the knees realatively to your hips.

2. For additional comfort, put a blanket on top. It's good for cross-legged postion and sitting on your knees if you like to have knees close together and calfs apart.

3. Put a zafu on the side to sit on your knees and have a support for you butt. This position is just as good as a zen sitting bench or maybe even better. You can put a stiff blanket on top to make it higher, but it has to be stiff, it can't be a soft one, because otherwise you will be sliding to the sides and forwards/backwards.
That's all I have had to share, much love and peace.

Here are some recommendations from me. (* = My top recommendations)
1. Try and run some *PSTEC click tracks. Its an NLP/ Hypnosis program which helps eliminate strong emotions linked to memories. (Bit hard to find online though maybe)
2. *IFS therapy (Try and work with a therapist with a level 2 IFS training or above. Bonus if they also work as a program assistant.)
3. Read *Pete Walker's CPTSD surviving to thriving (Also look into CPTSD in general)
4. EMDR (If you have numerous traumatic memories, or they occurred over prolonged period, would prioritize IFS therapy)
5. TRE exercises
6. Psychiatric medication
7. Journaling
 

I was watching Edward Frenkel's interview and just wanted to share some of his constructive criticisms to science, that pretty much go in line with what @Leo Gura discusses in many episodes. In particular, he points out:
The tendency of experts to try and model the world using exactly the field they've learned (egoic bias as I'd put it -- he alludes to the behavior being comparable to what priests do in stage-blue societies): https://youtube.com/clip/UgkxL4oZCLVMQeMl9oqa2NG2OY1QovtN4ns_?si=nrI8LSmkJ_ie1i4W The dismissal of the value of subjective understanding (he also mentions how Quantum Mechanism and Gödel's Incompleteness Theorem -- proven since the first half of the last century -- have not yet pervaded popular common sense): https://youtube.com/clip/UgkxyuGuzVIcuSI-T1zY-0jFaFcvmwRXeJKG?si=mCAA50AMIFuJerEF In addition, he provides a simple and brilliant explanation of Gödel's Incompleteness Theorem, 100% worth watching.
It seems he's been watching too much Actualized.org

Then that is your deficiency  Some people are so relaxed that dopamine would probably be their only way to become more social. You should see the med student who conducts our brain dissection lab sessions. He is a walking brick wall 😆 (not in an autistic way).
 
On a slightly (un)related topic, I've been thinking a bit about the relationship between neuroticism (in the strictly emotional lability sense) and creativity which we talked about one time. I consider myself way above average in creativity, and I've always been highly neurotic. I'm high in openness too, yes, but the combination with neuroticism and openness I think creates a creative beast. My dad is like that (BP1 diagnosis, arguably the definition of openness + neuroticism). My friend from class is high in openness but comparably low in neuroticism (by my estimation), and he doesn't seem as creative in the strictest sense but certainly intellectually gifted. Same with the aforementioned med student.
Another slightly tangential thought to that, I had a wild idea that maybe sprinters or explosive athletes are more neurotic on average. It sort of makes sense that one's personality would be associated with some deeper biological traits like that. In other words, being able to quickly change your physiological state in terms of muscle fiber recruitment could be mirrored in being able to quickly change your psycho-emotional state (emotional lability). Maybe there could be some co-selection of genes going on there to create the optimal "fast" phenotype. Again, this is of course just wild half-baked speculation. I haven't looked into any potential data on that yet
Also, back to creativity, I say "in a strictly emotional lability sense" because I believe that even though I have severely reduced my more "Freudian" neuroticism (internal conflict, repetitive and irrelevant mental chatter), I still have a mind that changes quickly while zeroing in on a task. In other words, my mind finds more relevant information and faster. So in a sense, it's possible to distinguish between a more generally dysfunctional neuroticism and a more generally functional neuroticism: emotional lability with or without task-irrelevant mind-wandering. Then again, I'm not saying task-irrelevant mind-wandering is by definition dysfunctional; I'm just saying generally (most people in the modern would could certainly benefit to have less of it).
I hope I'm not derailing the thread 😳 (I got carried away, I'm sorry 😣; just ignore everything but the first paragraph if you're not Nilsi. This is what happens when I take breaks from the forum and post at night 🤭).

I suppose I will at some point share my massive Excel Document of Links to Documentaries. 
 
For Now I will share a list of channels and playlists that I have come across in this thread. 
Countries List: https://www.worldometers.info/geography/countries-of-the-world/#:~:text=Countries (following the U.N. definition,Dependencies and other territories

Free Documentary: https://www.youtube.com/@FreeDocumentary/videos
Geography Now: https://www.youtube.com/@GeographyNow
Complete Country Playlist: https://youtu.be/ipVw772hCrM?list=PLR7XO54Pktt8_jNjAVaunw1EqqcEAdcow
Playlist From Actualized Member: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLKm7OXaaugYBkh-7bpMXByjUd4eXVgUcc
Indigo Traveller: https://www.youtube.com/@IndigoTraveller/videos
Stop Over - Documentary, Discovery, History: https://www.youtube.com/@StopovertvHD/videos
Slice: https://www.youtube.com/@SLICEDocumentary/videos
DW Documentary: https://www.youtube.com/@DWDocumentary/videos
Free High-Quality Documentaries: https://www.youtube.com/@FreeHighQualityDocumentaries/videos
Geodiode: https://www.youtube.com/@Geodiode/videos

@herghly A much deeper understanding of humanity, psychology, finance, strategic planning and scheduling. General observation of mental health, proficient systems modelling, self actualization and stage yellow mindset. 
In Wake Up, Eben states that "awareness is our most valuable asset" The whole course is about designing a life that frees up our awareness so we can get to work on what matters.
Notes from Leo's Stage Yellow Lecture:
Stage Yellow Values: 
Nuance & complexity  Openmindedness  Perspective  Novel concepts & POVs  Generating fresh insights  Understanding  Systems thinking  Nonlinear dynamics  Sustainability, long time frames  Going meta  Big picture vs technical analysis  Holistic analysis  Synthesis  Connecting the dots  Penetrating to the core of an issue  Identifying & solving root problems  A multi-disciplinary approach  Mixing hard & soft sciences  Creativity, outside-the-box solutions  Ecology  Responsible ways of being  Studying models  Spiral Dynamics  Natural hierarchies  Education, knowledge, research, reading  Reading lots of diverse books  Clean content, concentrated information  Life-long learning  Expertise, competence, experience  Context, learning from history  Developing skills to become an instrument for the greater whole  Independent thinking  Neutrality: Being objective/impartial  Designing solutions for the entire Spiral  Meeting people where they are at  Building bridges  Social engineering  Ecological designs  Reducing the suffering of living systems  Pulling ideas from many sources  Combining different ideas, models, theories  Left-brained  Vision & purpose, being a visionary  Requisite variety, mental flexibility  Self-actualization  Paradox  Uncertainty  Responsibility, independence, autonomy  Being a lone-wolf  Through observing Eben one gets to observe most if not all of the above values.

How powerful of a resource this would be?
Navigating vast field tested experience almost in a research paper like manner while omitting all the toxicity and ego by using a search function based in field reports, maybe even somewhat like Leo's blog Index was  created.
This would be a perfect job for Reddit 
CALLING UPON ALL TECH SAVVY PEOPLE TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN.
The future of the lower end of the masculine gene pool is in YOUR hands

I could be totally wrong but you sound like my twin replica.  (I guess this is what I would suggest to my twin me haha)
Read page 87-89 on Flight (or the entire book - I am actually on the section I just suggested haha but it sounds like a good fit actually):  https://blobby.wsimg.com/go/a7124a00-f63c-4010-bbdc-5020f1cf45aa/Complex PTSD_ From Surviving to Thriving ( PDF.pdf
I've been called a child and then looked this up and found this and then the book above https://www.michaelsamsel.com/Content/Individuals/adult_child_syndrome.html
Also, thoughts all the time could be high ideaphoria - it's a skill/talent/aptitude (I have it too)
I've quit jobs too but meh I think it was for the better and they were not something that utilized my strengths.
It's okay to go from doing a lot to doing nothing.  Sometimes seeking calmness when we feel too chaotic can be helpful - like trying to seek stillness, quiet, peace.  This book helped on accepting that: (read first paragraph starting with "Listen" on page 123 of pdf, 124 of the book text) https://www.perfectbrilliantstillness.org/wp-content/uploads/2018/04/Book-from-PerfectBrilliantStillness.org_.pdf
What has also helped is noticing that the thoughts are not complete and will never necessarily be complete and that we can get trapped in thoughts like when we forget we are watching tv and to notice when oneself is so focused on thoughts and try to back out of that.
Ask yourself - what is going to be the most helpful immediate thing for me and start doing that.
It's okay to have all these different ideas you want to think about.  When that happens to me, I try to write all of them down and then pick one to think about and if I feel I have exhausted that one, I can then go to the next on the list.  Also what helps is typing it so you can write it faster and I guess I like writing because I can see/store the thought and don't have to keep on repeating it over and over again to hold it in my head.  Having a blog (I used wordpress.com, free) can help get those thoughts out.  I've also liked using Microsoft Paint for thoughts as I can use the text function and put them all over the place.  Also its cool to have a large dry erase board and write them on there but note that hand writing will be slower than typing.  Also tools like Scrivener are cool if you want to turn it into a book.  Also, Trello helps (free, Trello.com) for organizing activities and that is a kanban style thing.

Blog Posts for 2023
January 2023 
    •  Passengers 
    •  PBD vs Neil deGrasse Tyson 
    •  Dark Chocolate Filled With Lead & Cadmium 
    •  Rain World 
    •  Exploring Alien Life 
    •  Royalty & Monarchy Is Toxic 
    •  Toxic Masculinity In A Nutshell 
    •  Actualized Quotes #022 
    •  The Topic Of Genetic Freaks - Part 2 
    •  Actualized Quotes #023 
    •  The Genius Of Tracie Harris 
    •  What It's Like To Have Schizophrenia 
    •  Reverse Osmosis Water System 
    •  Are You A Narcissist?
    •  Psychedelics Are Dangerous   
    •  The Church Of Psilomethoxin 
 
February 2023
    •  How Academia Is Corrupt 
    •  The Limits Of Logic 
    •  Explaining Infinity
    •  Actualized Quotes #024 
    •  The Topic Of Genetic Freaks - Part 3 
    •  Actualized Quotes #025 
    •  Where's The Beauty? 
    •  Understanding Geography 
    •  Actualized Quotes #026 
    •  Actualized Quotes #027 
 
March 2023
    •  Israel, Russia, China, Iran - Global Politics 
    •  Actualized Quotes #028 
    •  Understanding Conservatives 
    •  Arnold On Hate 
    •  Actualized Quotes #029 
    •  The Faroe Islands
    •  Actualized Quotes #030  
    •  Actualized Quotes #032 
    •  Equaldex 
    •  Actualized Quotes #031 
    •  Cave Awakening  
    •  Actualized Quotes #033  
    •  Actualized Quotes #034  
    •  Actualized Quotes #035 
    •  What Is Empathy?
    •  Gay Grooming Nonsense  
    •  Actualized Quotes #036 
    •  A Bubble Of Consciousness 
    •  Chris Langan Interview  
    •  Actualized Quotes #036 
    •  AI Art - Part 2  
    •  The Evolution Of AI 
    •  Stealing Candy From A Baby   
    •  Starbucks Shamelessness 
    •  The Case For Shutting Down All AI 
    •  Understanding Disagreeable People  
 
April 2023
    •  AI Art - Part 3 
    •  The Mechanics Of Art AIs  
    •  What Is Post-Modernism?   
    •  AI = Making Distinctions  
    •  Salvia Meme  
    •  Modern Day Slavery  
    •  Thinking Deeply About The Trans Issue  
    •  The Trap Of Pragmatism  
    •  The Wealthy Have Less Empathy  
    •  The Metamorphosis Of My Work  
    •  Understanding Cuba's Economy  
 
May 2023
    •  Why The CIA Only Hires Sociopaths  
    •  How Financial Gurus Scam You  
 
June 2023
    •  Actualized Quotes #037  
    •  Political Immaturity 
    •  At Least 12 Alien Craft  
    •  Actualized Quotes #038 
    •  School Board President's Speech 
    •  Actualized Quotes #039  
    •  How Putin Was Born 
    •  Actualized Quotes #040 
    •  Science Fraud 
    •  Actualized Quotes #041 
    •  Andrew Tate Teaches Sex Trafficking 
    •  I Love Morning Joe!  
    •  Actualized Quotes #042 
    •  RFK Jr Town Hall   
 
July 2023
    •  Problems With RFK Jr 
    •  UFOs Are Here 
    •  Science Fraud - Part 2 
    •  Actualized Quotes #043  
    •  Actualized Quotes #044  
    •  Actualized Quotes #045 
    •  Deepak Chopra On Consciousness 
    •  Actualized Quotes #046 
    •  Kitten Realizes It Has 4 Paws 
    •  Universal Brain 
    •  Actualized Quotes #047 
    •  When You Finally AWAKEN!  
    •  Poor Leonard Suskind  
    •  Actualized Quotes #048 
    •  Is ESP Scientifically Real? 
    •  Actualized Quotes #049 
    •  The US / Mexico Border Situation 
    •  Vegas Prostitutes 
    •  Roswell Documentary 
    •  The Ultimate Guide To Nuclear Weapons  
    •  The Varginha Incident - Brazil's Roswell 
 
August 2023
    •  My Apology 01  
    •  The Vatican's Position On UFOs 
    •  The Highest Penthouse In The World 
    •  Actualized Quotes #050 
    •  Understanding Saudi Arabia   
    •  Life In Mumbai   
    •  Life In Bangladesh 
    •  The Bulwark  
    •  Finch  
    •  Jordan Peterson vs Matt Dillahunty On God
    •  Sam Harris On Assholes   
    •  2024 Will Be A Train Wreck   
 
September 2023
    •  The Man Who Groomed The World 
    •  Inside Taliban Politics
    •  Bush vs Bush   
    •  Roger Penrose vs William Lane Craig 
    •  Can Science Find Mind?  
    •  Actualized Quotes #051  
    •  Molecular Biology Is God  
    •  Godel's Incompleteness Simply Explained  
    •  Actualized Quotes #052  
    •  John Mearsheimer On Geopolitics  
    •  Actualized Quotes #053  
    •  Dr James Tour On Abiogenesis  
 
October 2023
    •  Actualized Quotes #054  
    •  Cat Recontextualization   
    •  Pyramids Recontextualization  
    •  Eastern Europe Corruption 
    •  Iraq's Secret Sex Trade
    •  People With Perfect Memory 
    •  Poison Cotton  
    •  Origins Of Technology 
    •  Profound Quotes #025
    •  Pig
    •  Profound Quotes #026  
    •  Zeolite Nanoparticles For Detox
    •  Profound Quotes #027
    •  Inside A Taliban Courtroom
    •  American Religion 
    •  Profound Quotes #028  
    •  The Hasidic Jews Of New York  
    •  John Mearsheimer & Judge Napolitano 
 
November 2023
    •  Coastline
    •  The Geopolitics Of Oil
    •  Tunic  
    •  How North Korea Makes Money   
    •  Life In Vladivostok 
    •  Leo's Geography Challenge
    •  Somalia  
    •  The Whipscorpion
    •  Building My New PC (2023) 
    •  Survival In Nigeria
    •  Profound Quotes #029
    •  Lessons In Being A Visionary
    •  The Thomas Crown Affair
    •  Iran From Above  
    •  Aleksandr Dugin - From Russia With Evil
    •  What Is Post-Modernism?   
    •  Hypercube Infinity   
    •  David Grusch - Earliest UFO Recovery
    •  Homeless Pickup 
 
December 2023
    •  Consciousness Light Analogy  
    •  Recontextualization Prank    
    •  Carlin On Self-Help    
    •  Gerald Anderson Roswell Interview    
    •  Richard Doty UFO Interview    
    •  Dumb Ways To Die    
    •  Roswell Interviews    
    •  Gaslighting Masterclass    
    •  ChatGPT Demo - Alien Poem    
    •  Why Hollywood Is Not Conservative    
    •  How The Queen Eats Bananas    
    •  George Lucas Explains Star Wars    
    •  Varginha UFO Alien Communication    
    •  Protect Your Ears!   
    •  Do You Believe In God?    
    •  Actualized Quotes #055   

How Socialization Makes You Stupid - Problems With Conformity & Group-Think
https://youtu.be/gaI1OXly7EE
The dangers of conformity and group-think The speaker's experience with socialization and observations about its effects on their mind The speaker's struggle with socialization and realization that it goes against their values and interferes with their authenticity, original thinking, and pursuit of truth The idea that it is possible to socialize while still maintaining values and being authentic, but that it requires effort and may have hidden costs The concept of "socialization brainwashing," in which socialization pressures individuals to conform to certain values and beliefs Examples of socialization brainwashing, including the way schools and mass media promote certain viewpoints and the way social groups influence individuals' beliefs and behavior The idea that socialization can make individuals "stupid" by limiting their thinking and inhibiting their ability to think critically and independently The importance of maintaining a degree of independence and critical thinking in order to avoid being swayed by group-think and conformity The potential consequences of blindly following social norms and group beliefs, including the suppression of individuality and the potential for harm to oneself and others. On average, women are more social creatures than men Intellectual geniuses of history tend to be reclusive men (example given of Einstein, Newton, Tesla) Socialization takes time and energy away from intellectual pursuits When socializing, you become the average of the minds you are socializing with Even if you are socializing with intelligent people, you are subscribing to group think and conformity Socializing has a cost and trade-off, and it's important to understand and make a conscious choice about whether to accept those trade-offs It's important to find your own balance between socializing and solitude, and this balance may change at different points in life Being more social means more social conditioning and less original thought, and being more solitary means more time and space for original thought It's important to find a balance that works for you, and to be aware of the trade-offs associated with socializing. Groupthink occurs when people in a group do not think independently and instead bounce ideas off each other in an echo chamber This happens because it is difficult and stressful to think independently, and it is easier to follow the herd and trust in a leader Humans survive in a herd and construct self-serving narratives together, creating a synthetic augmented reality that becomes indistinguishable from physical reality Survival is shaped by the herd or tribe one is part of, and this can constrain and limit one's mind and intelligence, but also provide benefits such as education It is important to consider the costs and constraints that come with positioning oneself within society, such as working at Starbucks or becoming a professor at a university It is important to think about how one's position in society will impact their values and priorities, and to consider alternatives to traditional career paths One should strive to maintain their individuality and autonomy, and not be afraid to think and act independently It is important to be aware of one's own biases and the biases of the group, and to actively seek out diverse perspectives. The social matrix misdefines intelligence Intelligence is often equated with success, survival, socialization, academia, and left brain calculation abilities The speaker wants to redefine intelligence to include wisdom and love The speaker believes that if an action is not wise and loving, it cannot be considered intelligent The speaker believes that intelligence should align with infinite intelligence, which is wise and loving The speaker believes that society's current understanding of intelligence does not include this connection to infinite intelligence The speaker believes that true intelligence includes selflessness and the highest intelligence is love The speaker believes that society's current definition of intelligence is incomplete and needs to be revised to align with infinite intelligence Developing mastery of the mind requires practice and cannot be achieved solely through shutting off the mind or accessing non-dual states The mind is a powerful and dangerous tool that can be mastered through practice Other minds and culture can influence and affect one's own thoughts Avoid parroting phrases and ideas that are not your own, especially within the spiritual community Notice how the need for social survival can pressure one to conform to group think Engage in practices that allow for original, high quality thinking Cultivate deep intelligence by understanding things deeply and properly Develop the ability to jailbreak the mind and understand high levels of abstraction and relativity Practice meditation and mindfulness as a means of improving thinking processes Modern society offers a lot of freedom and tools for creators and innovators However, it is also easy to become distracted and conform to the "social matrix" To avoid becoming a "zombie" and to live a fulfilling life, it is important to think original thoughts and spend time alone thinking Reading books and watching videos, and listening to gurus can be helpful, but it is not the same as thinking original thoughts To practice thinking original thoughts, try picking a subject and thinking about it from scratch without consulting external sources Make a habit of regularly setting aside time for original thinking It is important to balance socialization and alone time to live a fulfilling life Contemplating God is important, but it's also important to have fun and be silly sometimes Don't use deep intelligence as an excuse to judge or criticize others for having fun or being social Don't rely on God to solve problems like loneliness, instead take action to create connections in your life Distinguish between shallow and deep non-conformity Shallow non-conformity is when you join a group or movement without thinking independently Deep non-conformity is when you pursue things you genuinely love and don't compromise your values and priorities Be careful not to demonize the mainstream or subscribe to conspiracy theories Don't turn Actualized.org into a trap, it's meant to be a resource for personal growth and development, not a replacement for original thinking

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The Tricks of Using Affirmations to Transform Your Life What Should I Do With My Life - How To Find Your Passion For Life Peak Performance - How To Hit and Maintain Consistent Peak Performance In Life How To Stay Healthy - The Psychology of Maintaining Consistent, Effortless Health Overcoming Adversity - How To Handle The Most Horrific Life Challenges Ever How To Become A Vegetarian - Practical Steps You Must Take To Succeed How To Control Anger - The Shocking Truth Behind Your Anger Problems Positive Psychology - What Is It & How It Can Transform Your Life Self Control - How To Develop Self-Control To Create An Amazing Life How to Be Happy in Life - Happiness Bottlenecks How To Relieve Stress - Scientifically Proven Stress Relief Techniques How To Be Attractive - The Ultimate Attraction Strategy Overcoming Fear - How To Slay Your Greatest Demon Why Am I Depressed - The Shocking Truth Behind Your Depression Profound Quotes 001 - All Of Humanity's Problems Stem From Man's... 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Enlightenment Experience Explanation & Key Lessons Self-Deception - Part 3 Hitler Reacts To Nonduality Enlightenment - FUNNY! 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How To Relax Your Body What Is Love - Advanced Spiritual Explanation 35+ Subfields Of Self-Help What Is Actuality - Distinguish Direct Experience vs Concept Mankind Is The Bullshitting Animal Nootropics - Top Supplements For Increasing Mental Performance The Radical Implications Of Oneness (Halloween Edition) 65 Core Principles Of Living The Good Life What Is Perception - The Metaphysics Of Perception Spiral Dynamics - Important Insights & Nuances The Ten Ox-Herding Pictures - Zen's Stages Of Enlightenment Explained The Counter-Intuitive Nature Of Life Understanding Ego Backlash Spiral Dynamics - Areas Of Application How To Do Self-Inquiry Cult Psychology - Part 1 - How Cults Work Cult Psychology - Part 2 - The Big Picture What Is God - Part 1 - A No Bullshit Explanation For Smart People What Is God - Part 2 - Clear Answers To 70+ Commonly Asked Questions Aztec Nonduality - Profound Life Lessons From Aztec Philosophy Leaving On 30-Day Solo Retreat Becoming God - Insights From 13 Back-to-Back Awakenings Understanding Duality - Part 1 - Master List of 250+ Dualities Understanding Duality - Part 2 - Scientific Dualities Understanding Duality - Part 3 - Existential Dualities Life Unfolds In Chapters & Phases The Power Of Asking Questions What Is The Point Of Life - An Advanced, Life-Changing Explanation Understanding Survival - Part 1 - The Metaphysics Of Being Human Understanding Survival - Part 2 - Advanced Insights About Survival Understanding Relativism - Part 1 What Is Reality - A Radical Explanation How Authority Works - Where Does Truth Come From Conscious Politics - Part 1 - The Deepest Political Analysis You'll Ever Hear Conscious Politics - Part 2 - Foundational Insights About Political Ideology Conscious Politics - Part 3 - The Core Principles Of Conscious Politics Conscious Politics - Part 4 - 100+ Specific Policy Proposals Self-Bias - Why All Worldviews Are So Skewed What Is Truth - The Definitive Answer The Power Of Letting Go - How To Overcome Clinginess, Attachment, OCD What Is Love - Part 2 - The Brutal Nature Of Love How Fear Works - Part 1 - The Ultimate Guide To Dealing With Fear How Fear Works - Part 2 - The Ultimate Guide To Dealing With Fear Understanding Impermanence - Why Reality Is Always Changing Announcement - Actualized.org Launching On Patreon + Vision For The Future The Many Facets Of Awakening - List of Top 30 Enlightenment Insights How Corruption Works The Dangers Of Spiritual Work How To Discover What's True - A Deep Inquiry Content vs Structure - Going Meta Is A Super-power What Is Death - How Immortality Works Self-Love - The Highest Teaching In The Universe Division vs Unity - The Engine That Runs Reality Why Reality CANNOT Be A Simulation - A Clear Answer Reproduction Is An Illusion - Why It Doesn't Matter If You Have Kids Total Awakening Live In Real Time - Part 1 Total Awakening Live In Real Time - Part 2 Explicit vs Implicit Understanding How Psychedelics Work - Making Sense Of Psychedelics How Society Evolves - Introducing The World Values Survey I'm Leaving To Pursue Awakening & Healing - March 2020 Outrageous Experiments In Consciousness - 30 Awakenings In 30 Days How Openmindedness Works - Exercises To Open Your Mind Life Advice For Young People - Part 1 How To Forgive Anyone Who Hurt You - A Powerful Trauma Release Exercise Learning = Making Distinctions - The Secret To Rapid & Deep Learning Life Advice For Young People - Part 2 The Ultimate Structure Of Reality Explained Understanding Democracy & Authoritarianism Why Libertarianism Is Nonsense - Deconstructing Freedom What If Reality Is Nothing But Perspective Why Is There Something Rather Than Nothing Spiral Dynamics - Stage Red Spiral Dynamics - Stage Purple The 9 Stages Of Ego Development - Part 1 The 9 Stages Of Ego Development - Part 2 The 9 Stages Of Ego Development - Part 3 The Trap Of The Toxic Life Purpose Developing Introspection - The Solution To The Problem Of Self-Deception The Sneaky Psychology Behind Conspiracy Theories What Is Actualized.org - The Big Picture of Personal Development Guided Exercises For Understanding Infinite Consciousness Deconstructing The Myth Of Science - Part 1 Deconstructing The Myth Of Science - Part 2 Deconstructing The Myth Of Science - Part 3 Should You Go To College - Common Traps & Mistakes What Is Goodness - Good & Morality Fully Explained Guided Exercise For Realizing You Are God What Is Wisdom - The Ultimate Guide To Wisdom What Are Holons - Understanding Holism - Part 1 Holism & Holistic Thinking - Part 1 Holism & Holistic Thinking - Part 2 What It Means To Go Meta Is Actualized.org A Cult What Is Integrity - The Role Of Integrity In Life How Survival Shapes Who You Are Launch Of New, 2nd Actualized.org Channel Is Gender A Social Construct - A Profound Explanation Making Sense Of Jordan Peterson - The Big Picture An Advanced Explanation Of God-Realization The Dangers Of Misapplying Spiritual Teachings Understanding & Coping With Nihilism How Modern Branding Exploits & Abuses You Expose Yourself To More Experience Not Everything Can Be Explained Simply Why God Forgives Devilry & Evil How Your Mind Interprets Reality Relative vs Absolute Truth The Social Matrix - How Society Is A Mass Hallucination The Top Dangers Of Using Psychedelics The Root Solution To People Pleasing & Loneliness Satisfaction Meditation - How To Make Meditation Enjoyable! What Does Awakening Feel Like Everyone Acts From Good Intentions Why Valuable Things Require Development Over Time Understanding Bias - Bias, Love, & Mind Explained Life, It's All A Mind Game! 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▶️ Leo’s Blog: Videos, Summaries and Interviews ▶️
(Most blog videos are 45-60 mins, some are 2 hrs (of course )  Videos are listed in reverse chronological order, for the most part.)
 
                Epistemology ⁉️ 🤔 💡
• Apr 21, 2021:     Sherlock Holmes' Brain
• Mar 21, 2021:    Why Debates Don't Work
• Feb 25, 2021:     Learning From Partially False Perspectives
• Aug 23, 2019:    My Critique Of Zizek's Critique Of Buddhism
• Aug 19, 2019:    Why Are My Videos So Long?
• Aug 15, 2019:    How To Test For Self-Bias
• Jun 27, 2019:     Sense Organs Are Imaginary
• Oct 22, 2018:     Skepticism & Nonduality
• Sept 16, 2018:   Metaphysics vs Epistemology
• Sept 4, 2018:     All Understanding Is Metaphoric
• Oct 3, 2018:       All Understanding Is Metaphoric - Part 2
• Dec 21, 2017:    Changing Perspectives Destroys Reality (note)
• Dec 9, 2017:      Understanding Better Than Academics
 
                Enlightenment 🤯
• Feb 29, 2020:   What It's Like To Smoke Salvia Divinorum (note) 
• Feb 5, 2020:     Explaining God For Dummies
• Dec 17, 2019:   Miracle Awakening
• Dec 15, 2019:   Ego-Collapse Awakening
• Jul 17, 2019:     Infinite Love Awakening
• Jun 21, 2019:    DPT: The Other God Molecule  (Summary)
• Jun 11, 2019:    Total Omniscience Awakening
• Nov 29, 2017:   Absolute Infinity Demo (10 mins)
 
                Life Purpose 💪 😤
• Aug 23, 2021:    Extra Insights About Good Intentions 🤯 (Summary)
• Feb 28, 2021:    Guerilla Business Advice   (Summary)
• Jul 22, 2020:      Requisite Variety & Creative Laziness
• Jul 11, 2019:      Tapping Into Collective Consciousness 🤯
• Oct 8, 2018:      How I Started My First Business
• Sep 10, 2018:    Why Get Rich Quick Schemes Don't Work
 
                Society & Politics 🌎 🏛️
• Nov 26, 2020:   Conscious Capitalism BS
• Jul 8, 2020:        Deconstructing Property Rights
• Apr 17, 2020:    Why Bernie Sanders Lost (note)
• Aug 21, 2019:   Rethinking Human History
• Oct 23, 2019:    Why The Media Is Corrupt
• Oct 7, 2019:      The Big Picture Of Global Politics
• Jan 23, 2019:    My Political Awakening (Essay)
• Sep 6, 2018:     Inside The Mind Of Trump
• Jan 10, 2018:    Life Lessons From "Life Below Zero" (note)
 
                   Yoga 🧘🏼
• Mar 6, 2018:    Sitting Posture For Yoga & Meditation (9 mins)
• Mar 6, 2018:    Don't Half-Ass Yoga (note)
 
                Leo’s Health & Life 🍎 🥗
• Feb 18, 2022:   Explaining Take-Down & New Awakening
• Apr 9, 2021:     Water Fast Ends, Carnivore Diet Begins
• Mar 17, 2021:  14 Day Water Fast
• Feb 5, 2021:     Back From 2 Month Break, Updates   (Summary)
• Jul 21, 2020:     My Health Situation
• Jul 7, 2019:       Do I Doubt Myself?
 
                   Retreats 🏝️ 🧘🏼 🍄
   Leo’s Retreat at Home: 🏡
• May 31, 2018:   May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 1
• Jun 4, 2018:       May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 2
• Jun 8, 2018:       May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 3 💪
 
   Leo’s Retreats in Hawaii: 🌺
• Apr 26, 2018:    Second Hawaii Retreat Intro (19 mins)
• May 1, 2018:     Hawaii Late Night Insights 🌃
• Apr 22, 2018:    Conclusion: Mindfucked In Hawaii 🍄
 
• Feb 25, 2018:    First Hawaii Retreat - Feb 2018 (8 videos) 🌴
 
   Leo’s Retreat in Arizona: 🏕️ 🏜️
• May 7, 2017:     Solo Retreat Videos & Insights (10 videos)
 
                Interviews with Leo 🎙️
• Sept 20, 2021:   The Theories of Everything Podcast interviews Leo
                             — Ego Death, God, Reality vs Dream, TOEs, and an "Ask Me Anything.” (Part Two)
• Sept 7, 2022:   The Theories of Everything Podcast interviews Leo
                             — Infinite Consciousness, God Realization, Free Will, and Love (Part One).
• May 7, 2021:   The Charlie and Ben Podcast interviews Leo
                             — Deconstructing Reality, Psychedelic Enlightenment and Spiral Dynamics.
 
• Nov 20, 2016:  Leo Interviews Martin Ball - Using 5-MeO-DMT To Become Enlightened. (ep.#283)
• Nov 9, 2016:    Leo Interviews Peter Ralston.
• Nov 2, 2014:    Leo Interviews Tripp Advice - How To Be An Attractive Man. (ep.#176)
 
                Articles ✍️
• Leo’s “20 Dream Killers” article.
• Leo’s "Personal Development Blueprint.”  (covers over 100 Self-Help concepts)
 
                   Viewer Compilations 🥳
• Incredible, Powerful Concepts on Life & 5-MeO-DMT 🤯 
• Building a Passionate Life 
• The BEST Strategy to Attract SUCCESS 
 

Loving Radiance posted this in the summaries thread .  Reposting here since it’s for one of Leo’s blog videos.
 
Blog video. Back From 2 Month Break, Updates (upload February 5th 2020)
Balance of Creative Work & Rest
Possibility of getting oversatiated from over consuming personal development / spiritual content to the point of just consuming it
this results in not living life anymore as to not experience the whole range of life because the mind is still immersed and is not truly resting resting allows getting conscious & self-reflective of one's work by recognizing limitations from a detached birds eye view because of the contrast of work & rest Pacing oneself (resting, and working with the right endurance & speed) serves long-term sustainability of creative work output
all areas of life are better to be seen through the lens of sustainability ("Is this area of my life sustainable? If not, how can I make it sustainable?") undogmatic sustainability includes exhaustive unsustainable work in one area while neglecting other areas (temporary) Looking at one's life to be an apple tree:
apples are results result-oriented approach isn't healthy as only caring about the apples neglects the roots, trunk, branches, leafs... other parts of the tree are other areas of life that get neglected when one only focusses on the fruits of the work Creative work -:
is counterintuitive to manual work.  Being pragmatic & deadline oriented eats up creativity one is most creative (getting ideas & inspirations) when nothing productive is being done directed with deadlines gets practical (perfectionism is restricted) seems to be balanced when done in cycles of: working on a project finishing the project time off & resting work with less creativity needs smaller cycles (diurnally and hebdomadally rather than biannually or annually) Innovation
That what worked before will not be that which brings your work to the next level being stuck in your old ways of doing creative work will get your work outdated by the competitive innovative work of other creative people True Spirituality informs & transforms all areas of life like the way of doing creative work Role of requisite variety (RV) in life
Definition from Wikipedia, "If a system is to be stable, the number of states of its control mechanism must be greater than or equal to the number of states in the system being controlled." there is not enough RV used when one is stuck on any problem not enough RV manifests in a narrow uncreative approach troubleshooting with try & error has to be so much done that success is inevitable (through lateral thinking & trying out a wide range of solutions; there's now equal/higher RV than the problem) upholding identity is something that often holds back RV find root problems in your life and apply RV - one solution will work by chance Working on projects
requires focus  (eliminating all distractions, creating a working environment)

(D'oh, some of the links didn't work .  I can't edit the original post, so I'm reposting the list.  Good times !!!)
 
Actualized.org Blog Videos
     Society & Politics
[] Inside The Mind Of Trump
[] Why Bernie Sanders Lost
[] My Political Awakening
[] The Big Picture Of Global Politics
[] Why The Media Is Corrupt
[] Rethinking Human History
[] Conscious Capitalism BS
[] Deconstructing Property Rights
[] Life Lessons From "Life Below Zero"
 
     Epistemology
[] Why Are My Videos So Long?
[] Metaphysics vs Epistemology
[] Understanding Better Than Academics
[] Changing Perspectives Destroys Reality
[] Why Debates Don't Work
[] All Understanding Is Metaphoric
[] All Understanding Is Metaphoric - Part 2
[] Skepticism & Nonduality
[] How To Test For Self-Bias
[] Learning From Partially False Perspectives
[] My Critique Of Zizek's Critique Of Buddhism
[] Sherlock Holmes' Brain
[] Sense Organs Are Imaginary     
 
     Enlightenment
[] Absolute Infinity Demo
[] Explaining God For Dummies
[] Total Omniscience Awakening
[] Infinite Love Awakening
[] Ego-Collapse Awakening
[] Tapping Into Collective Consciousness
[] Miracle Awakening
[] DPT: The Other God Molecule
[] What It's Like To Smoke Salvia Divinorum
 
     Life Purpose
[] Why Get Rich Quick Schemes Don't Work
[] How I Started My First Business
[] Requisite Variety & Creative Laziness
[] Guerilla Business Advice
 
     Health
[] Don't Half-Ass Yoga
[] Sitting Posture For Yoga & Meditation
 
     Leo’s Health & Life
[] Do I Doubt Myself?
[] My Health Situation
[] Back From 2 Month Break, Updates
[] 14 Day Water Fast
[] Water Fast Ends, Carnivore Diet Begins
[] Things I’ve Been Wrong About
[] Fat Leo (I had to add this because it’s adorable)
 
     Retreats
[] Solo Retreat Videos & Insights
[] Hawaii Retreat Intro
[] Hawaii Solo Retreat Feb 2018 Videos
[] Hawaii Late Night Insights
[] Mindfucked In Hawaii
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 1
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 2
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 3

(Here's all of Leo's recordings from the blog.  I'll update as more come up.  Enjoy !!)
 
Actualized.org Blog Videos:
     Society & Politics
[] Inside The Mind Of Trump
[] My Political Awakening
[] Rethinking Human History
[] My Critique Of Zizek's Critique Of Buddhism
[] The Big Picture Of Global Politics
[] Why The Media Is Corrupt
[] Why Bernie Sanders Lost
[] Deconstructing Property Rights
[] Conscious Capitalism BS
[] Life Lessons From "Life Below Zero"
 
     Epistemology
[] Why Are My Videos So Long?
[] Metaphysics vs Epistemology
[] Understanding Better Than Academics
[] Changing Perspectives Destroys Reality
[] All Understanding Is Metaphoric
[] All Understanding Is Metaphoric - Part 2
[] Skepticism & Nonduality
[] How To Test For Self-Bias
[] Learning From Partially False Perspectives
[] Sherlock Holmes' Brain
[] Why Debates Don't Work
     
     Enlightenment
[] Absolute Infinity Demo
[] Explaining God For Dummies
[] Total Omniscience Awakening
[] Infinite Love Awakening
[] Ego-Collapse Awakening
[] Tapping Into Collective Consciousness
[] Miracle Awakening
[] Sense Organs Are Imaginary
[] DPT: The Other God Molecule
[] What It's Like To Smoke Salvia Divinorum
 
     Life Purpose
[] Why Get Rich Quick Schemes Don't Work
[] How I Started My First Business
[] Requisite Variety & Creative Laziness
[] Guerilla Business Advice
 
     Health
[] Don't Half-Ass Yoga
[] Sitting Posture For Yoga & Meditation
 
     Leo’s Health & Life
[] Do I Doubt Myself?
[] My Health Situation
[] Back From 2 Month Break, Updates 
[] 14 Day Water Fast
[] Water Fast Ends, Carnivore Diet Begins
[] Things I’ve Been Wrong About
[] Fat Leo (I had to add this because it’s adorable)
 
     Retreats
[] Solo Retreat Videos & Insights
[] Hawaii Solo Retreat Feb 2018 Videos
[] Mindfucked In Hawaii
[] Hawaii Retreat Intro
[] Hawaii Late Night Insights
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 1
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 2
[] May 2018 Solo Retreat - Part 3