Razard86

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  1. ^^^Good post. Science can only say...we will keep trying. LOL. They will keep trying and failing. Universe, Reality= MIND. Deep Sleep=No Mind, no reality, no experience.
  2. You really need to take a psychedelic....mind is not complicated. You literally have a mind and are questioning what a mind is. Close your eyes....that is mind. Qualities of a mind. 1. It can create something out of nothing. Notice you can create pictures in your mind...and they just appear. 2. Qualities of a mind, it can render and it can experience what it renders. 3. Qualities of a mind, it is not locatable, but it can create a location 4. Qualities of a mind it shows everything on its surface, what is visible. So idealists do not need to ask what is mind, everyone knows what a mind is, you use it everyday you just think its in a brain. It's not in a brain...your mind is absolute. You imagine a brain and imagine limitations that upon that brain and have your mind communicate with the brain to maintain those limitations. Your ego is bound to your brain and your body. This is why when you lose connection to both your ego disappears.
  3. All differences are imaginary, that's what life is....imaginary differences. Every dream you have ever had is just a bunch of differences interacting with itself. When you don't have a dream....there is a blank. That blank...is mind. That blank....is what you are. Anything perceived is a dream. When you go to sleep at night...you are just a dream character sleeping inside of a dream. You are always dreaming.....even deep sleep the absence of a dream...is itself a dream. You are an eternal infinite dreamer, that creates powerfully realistic virtual multidimensional spaces and characters that interact within them. You identify as one of those characters and create an online username called Dodo and log into the website your mind created called Actualized.org and pretend to be having a conversation with an other called Razard86. It's all...a dream...nothing but dream stuff and at the end of your human life....it will disappear the same way your night time dreams disappear.
  4. You have a problem with projection sir. If you read the trip report...they didn't have their own experience. She moved their body as if it was her own. Let me explain....through self deception you make it appear that they have their own inner experience. But your true identity is that which time and space happens WITHIN. So if SPACE, and TIME are WITHIN YOU, then that means whatever happens in your bubble or frame is YOU. Go play the SIMS video game right now. Instead of seeing yourself as the SIMS character, see yourself as the whole game. If I came to your house in the game of the SIMS...you would be me and your own character. Let's say I came to your house in the game and then you entered debug mode. Now you start modifying my character etc. Then I leave your house. Infinity of Gods says...each character is the whole game of the Sims....playing itself. So when two games of the Sims characters are in the same room....there is One game of the Sims....cause there is only the Sims....and in fact....there is always only one Sims game because 2 of the same game....is actually ONE. So this explains how you have your own experience when you are away from me, and I have my own experience when I am away from you, but since its the same mind....its still the same experience. The Mind of God can make Infinite Copies of the SAME MIND. So its completely identical and yet can still create an imagined diversification. The only thing impossible for God...is that God cannot get outside of itself because it is ITSELF, so how it accomplishes this impossibility is through Infinity of Gods. The only way to understand this is to remember... You have never experienced anything outside of YOUR frame/bubble. And you never will. Your frame and bubble is absolute. All your thinking and speculation happens in your frame bubble. All your sensory perceptions happen in your frame/bubble. If you trip on a psychedelic this is also true, and when you go to sleep this is also true. Once you accept this truth...you realize you are all alone as an empty bubble/frame, that houses experience within it. So whatever is within that bubble/frame is all there is and ever will be. The purpose of the Infinity of God video is to say as God....you can solve that by IMAGINING a possible frame or bubble outside of you....but notice....that happens within your frame/bubble, and then you can experience merging with this imaginary frame or bubble. But.....this is imaginary!!! But....imagination is the power of God, its what we call REAL-ITY. So....what's the difference? Real and imaginary are the same thing. So you choose if this separation is real or imaginary. But at the end...there is always ONE FRAME/BUBBLE, that imagines whatever the hell it wants.
  5. Your not getting it. Your true identity is EXPERIENCE!!!! If you are experience...how can there be an OTHER? You still think you are a human with an experience and there are other humans with an experience. I'm saying....you ARE experience. You can raise your Consciousness where you become the inner experience of every human around you. Here is a trip report of a girl who experienced it one time: The report: iv realized We are God, and life is a dream. Even if no one reads this, I need to get this out . Then I can forget all about it and live the rest of my life free of it. I'll begin by saying this was on a dosage I wasnt prepared to take. 350 ug Gel tab. Me and two friends, Kaden and Heather, tripped on one each. We dropped at 145am on Thursday night. At first, it was good. We are all open people and it didn't take long for it to turn into one big fuck fest. We started to trip while we were fucking. My eyes were closed.. And I started to lose track of who was who. who I was. I wasnt sure who I was touching or who I was kissing. I wasnt sure where my limbs were. I was simulatanoursly touching, but also felt like I was being touched. My friends were feeling it too. I wasnt sure where I was in space. it felt like I was in three places at once-- In three minds. There wasnt a condom and I wasnt on the pill so there wasnt any real fucking- and I say real, because it felt like I was being fucked. like there was an invisa-dick inside of me, and I was rocking back into it. when I opened my eyes I realized I wasnt being touched at all.. and neither were my friends. We were pressed against one another, but we werent touching eachother. And they were feeling the same thing I was feeling. Even Kaden. There was this buzzing on each side of my head. When I expressed it, both my friends said they felt the same thing. In fact, they felt the exact same thing I was feeling. Whenever there was a spike of intense pleasure in our heads, we all groaned, we all reacted to it. Heather touched Kaden and I both felt her touch like I was him, and yet also felt myself touching him, as if I was in her body. It was insane. We were in each other's minds. I could hear their thoughts and feelings, and they mine. We started to laugh - it was crazy, but it was really fucking fun, and we were having a good time. The weirdest hottest thing was possibly when I started fingering the air. I imagined I was fingering something, and I was curving my fingers and pulling in and out of nothing,... and both my friends were going crazy. They fucking felt it. I stopped moving my hand and their breaths halted . I was causing physical change with nothing but my mind. And because I was feeling what they were feeling, I was also fingering myself in a sense. It was fucking insane. unbelievable. Too good to be true. And it was. Minds.. Should be separated. As it progressed, we were so intertwined, when they touched me, It started to feel like I was touching .. myself. When they hugged me, I felt myself giving the hug, as well as receive it. We all started to feel like it was wrong. There was three of us but it felt like we were masturbating, like we were all the same being using different bodies. It wasnt right. It wasnt right . " Why do I feel lonely?" I suddenly said. But It came out of Heathers mouth. " Dont say that" Said Kaden, as we all thought it. It felt like by acknowledging it, we were breaking some kind of rule. Like some big , huge, unspoken rule, we werent supposed to know, and it was for our own good. But we had acknowledged it , and now we couldnt forget it. We had to understand. When I closed my eyes, I wasnt me. It was like what tethered me to the world was the ability to look through the telescope that was my eyes. Now my soul was loose. I felt myself and I wasnt me.. I felt bigger hands , and a flatter body, and sense we were all naked, when I reached down, I felt my dick too. I dont have a dick. I'm a girl, generally. I dont have a dick. And yet once more, I wasnt him. I had smaller legs, and when I felt up, bigger boobs then I usually did. " Guys.." I spoke, but it wasnt my voice, it was Heathers. I opened my eyes again, and I was me, but I saw Kaden and Heather sitting in the positions i had left them when I was in their bodies . All the proof we needed . I felt sick. " Why is something... missing?" Heather was the first to voice it. Youd think, realizing we are all the same , youd think itd make us feel less alone. but suddenly, we felt.. more alone then ever. We didnt feel each others souls. That's what was missing. We felt only one soul. we hugged each other, but it felt , like .. we were hugging ourselves. They say you are the center of the universe ... but there is only one center. There is only one infinity. Everything in the room.. I had made. I, the One, that we all are, had created it all. It was all extensions of us. Every song , every book , every show , it was all us, for us. We would be every one at one point ,but there will be no one else other then us. Us, I. Then it got worse. When I closed my eyes, I was no longer in my body. What I saw now, I know wasnt just the blackness of my eyelids. This was an encompassing blackness. A nothingess. The universe at its finest point. Outlines of shapes with colors that didnt exist, material, floating in my space, in my black box . I could reach out, and I felt the power of creation in my hand. I could do I all that I wanted, create all that i wanted to create, but no matter what I created, when i felt around, all that i felt.... was me. I screamed into the darkness. " Someone help me!" And I heard myself scream back. I realized now the secret. Its just me. It's just you There's no us. There's it. We are just one lonely god playing with Dolls . I wanted to cry for my mothers embrace, but I was my mother. I felt so cold, I wanted to wrap a blanket around myself, but I felt myself in the blanket, I was still just hugging myself. I know how we feel constantly now. I know now how it feels like to be the only thing to exist. It's unbearable. Its lonely. Its fuckin awful, no matter how much power you have . How does it matter how powerful you are, if you are the only one there to witness it? How do you cope? You cope by making yourself forget. You cope by making yourself smaller then you ever could be. Humans are the universes way of experiencing itself, and you are the universe. You forget that you are everyone, and you make friends , you make enemies, you make love , to yourself. You cast yourself into different meat suits and you give them each their own unique look , and you give them all different personalities, and stories, and insecurities, and you trick yourself into thinking your someone else, but your not. Your still just you. Talking to yourself. Over and over. Playing hand puppets, and masturbating in the dark. I couldnt bear it. I opened my eyes and I hoped it would all go back to normal,but it was too late. The illusion was broken. What I saw was reality. I looked at Heather and I saw myself . I saw my room but I also saw the blackness that was me, that it was made of. I desperately grabbed a pencil and paper and tried to create ANYTHING that wasnt me. but the paper was me, and the pencil was me, and I watched in horror as the lines I created were the lines of the inky darkness I had seen as the material for everything. I know what insanity is now. It felt like I had done this before, over and over. When we die, we remember what we are , and I realized I had done this many times before. Every time. Every body, eventually. I had found the secret out too early. When we cast ourself into another body, that is when we forget, when our memories of our true self is locked away in a deep crevice in our head and we are given the illusion of companionship.. a coping mechanism. Now I couldnt forget. Now I knew, and I knew how badly I wanted to die. Not just my human body, but me, us , the being that we are. How delicious nonexistence would be , for a being that is eternal. There is no nonexistence in death, only rememberance, but I had remembered. It felt like the only choice was for me to die, and become someone else that would be born without this knowledge, like I was initially born without this knowledge. Round two. I know why people kill themselves. Nothing felt real except for me. I could touch no one but myself, and I wanted to feel ANYTHING. ANYTHING. I felt the buzzing of some kind of sharp whirling machine next to my ear , and I was so scared , but I wasnt scared of death, because I already knew what it was. I had come to love this body, this human I had worked so hard for, and now I fucked her up because I HAD to find out the truth. Me and Heather were going through the same dilemma. I could feel she was struggling with the same thing, not to hurt herself, not to press the restart button and end it all for this round. " What are we supposed to do?" we kept repeating. Every path led us back us, because there was nothing else but us. We counted colored pencils and my eyes focused on the color red, on how that red would feel coming out of my skin. There was red everywhere. The smallest shade of red on my wall glowed and amplified, and if I focused too hard I'd fall into it, and I'd throw my hands out to catch myself from falling, and find them around my throat. The veins in my wrist ached to be disconnected , to be yanked out. I was fighting so hard to keep a body alive that didnt want to be alive .I just wanted to forget and start over. I spent the rest of my trip curled up in a corner of my bed. " I've created hell for myself" I thought, which I heard Heather whisper in unison. I was alone. We are alone. We will forever be alone, and I longed so hard for something else. I longed so hard to be normal again, to not be everything , to feel another human being and know they are not me , they are someone else, everything I touch isnt me and I am only one speck in a big universe of so many things. How comforting. Something beyond you. An endless universe beyond you. How fucking miserable it is to be God. I was in that space for a millennium before I heard the first thing that I wasnt a part of... A songbird outside my window. I was coming back to my body. Only my body. I sobbed so hard . It felt so fucking good. .. a couple of hours later , all three of us sat down together in silence. How much of that was real , we didnt know, and we didnt want to sound crazy. But then Kaden spoke up, and he spoke about The Room, and me and Heather, we both knew. We all saw it. The black room, and the one lonely god , hugging its sock puppets in the dark. This trip ended with a walk in my neighborhood and a deeper appreciation for the dream we are living. A beautiful dream of life, a beautiful distraction from the dark. The loneliness. The endlessness.
  6. Look up Grandmaster Wolf he does a good job of explaining what meditation is. The problem with Human Spirituality is that is full of corrupt teachers who want to feel special and live off getting you to pedestalize them. Always make a point of finding the most efficient method. I made a thread of GrandMaster Wolf called interesting video. He has a website where you can consult with him as well. He has documented on video cases of remote viewing, pyrokinesis and levitating an object. He explains that Mysticism is science. Just like how Leo was saying Mysticism and Science need to merge, he said the same thing.
  7. God doesn't need to know what is already known. It knows everything in every moment. Because it already happened. God has perfect memory.
  8. There is no difference between your night time dreams and what you call reality. Who knows eventually you may discover this before your human body's demise.
  9. When I say human I mean human consciousness. But no human consciousness doesn't have free will. It has a will that is limited so it has limited will. Free Will implies absolute freedom with no constraints but the ability to place restraints as well. Only God can do both while the human consciousness is stuck. The human does have the freedom to raise their consciousness beyond human consciousness...but they will have to be ok with losing their mind and feeling insane. Good luck convincing most humans to lose their mind.
  10. YOU CAN ACCESS them!!! It's because you believe you can't that you say it is so. I once went to a restaurant a nd a woman was eating food. I put my awareness on her, and I could taste the food she was eating, AS SHE WAS EATING IT!!! The only reason you cannot do that is because your baseline consciousness is selfish and only focused on how YOUR body's experience is. Where your attention is, that is what you experience. You need to create a state change (dramatic enough one) where the rigidity of your consciousness becomes more fluid, more flow like. Then with focus you can escape the confines of your selfish consciousness. THAT is the purpose of the meditations. And ANYONE can do this!!! The problem is you don't have the spirit of an explorer of consciousness because you would stop worrying about what has been possible so far, and go DISCOVER what is possible. Be careful...it WILL MIND FUCK YOU and destroy all trust in science temporarily. LOL.
  11. 1. You created a duality and are trying to pull me into it with your materialistic thinking. Here is something for you. Explain to me how do you divide with a boundary something that is NOT material, is invisible to all perception, has always existed forever OUTSIDE of time and space, is omnipresent, all powerful, all wise, and is literally EXISTENCE!!!! You cannot put a boundary on EVERYTHING. Because it is EVERYTHING.
  12. What I'm saying is there are reports of people "allegedly" doing that. I haven't actually seen any proof of that happening. So all this fear behind activating the kundalini in my opinion is uncalled for. Do you know how many disorders exist? For all you know the supposed people who fried their nervous system did so because they had an underlying neurological disorder. In direct experience some weird things happened to me in deep meditation while in altered states and everything was fine. For example I temporarily lost hearing once but I stayed calm and it came back. There are so many beware of this beware of that stuff that I have debunked in my life. For example people say don't stare at screens for a long time in a dark room because its bad for your eyes and I have debunked that one. The truth is you won't know what is good or bad for you until it happens and even then it could be a momentary symptom.
  13. Sameness is not imaginary. Oneness is so one....it doesn't exist. That is what you are not understanding. It is so ONE, it cannot be perceived.