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There is no proof of that. When I left my body and went to absolute infinity my perspective still existed. When I became pure love, my perspective still existed. So I don't think it is gonna work like that

I recently talked to my higher self and first of all I need to say yall mysticism lovers be making this so complicated!! You can literally talk to your Higher Self in regular conversation in either thought or your voice. Your higher self resides in your heart/chest area of the body and has been living life as you the entire time. Anyway my Higher Self can instantly laugh at anything!!! So I finally got the Cosmic Joke!!! I need you all to understand that life is just the feminine/female and masculine/male perspective of the Universal Mind having infinite relationships with itself. The feminine is paradoxical and the masculine is consistent. Reality is just the Masculine constantly submitting to the Feminine. The Feminine is completely out of control and is Insane, and the Masculine is perfect sanity. You as God are perfect and the only way you can have a challenge is to face the Feminine, which is the greatest challenge you can ever face. You see the Feminine is a mystery, it has no idea what it is doing at all!! This is the cosmic joke!!!! This is why life doesn't make sense because it is being controlled by a blind controller. I finally figured out what the Ego is. The ego is a machine, it is a part of life but it is not alive, what makes you alive is the feminine. The Masculine's job as the ego is to create the perfect perspective. The problem is since the ego is logical that actually limits its creative ability because the ego is conservative by nature. The ego needs to submit to the feminine so it can become illogical so it can break out and create new types of logic. The ego is the matrix itself. It is a prison which we know as dogma. It literally cannot see outside its own viewpoint without feminine intervention. This is why people were saying the ego wasn't real but they are wrong it is REAL its just a machine is all. And what does a machine do? It does programs. Now you need to understand. Without your ego you would be an IDIOT!!! The ego is the greatest thing God has ever created and anyone that says otherwise is a deluded fool. With that said, the ego can only reach its true potential by embracing the feminine which is how God first meets the ego. Later on God will meet the ego as the Super Ego. What is the Super Ego you say? The Super Ego is the part of you that understands all perspectives/egos and why they think and act like they do. The purpose of the ego is to be an individual creator of All That Is. So yes life is supposed to be dumb, can't have comedy without mistakes!!! So every mistake in life is supposed to happen because life is a PLAY OF CONSCIOUSNESS, but I was taking it to be real. When you take it for real you get to serious and it pisses you to high heaven because it doesn't make sense. But then you realize its supposed to not make sense because how else could you fool an Infinite Intelligence that it wasn't ALONE/ALLONE. So we contradict ourselves so we can have a relationship and that's why life is so messy.

God is a super empath, the voice of God is emotional intelligence. Your emotions cannot tell a lie, because emotions are absolutely true. If I robbed you of your emotions you would just be some machine, what makes a human alive at all is their emotions. Your emotions are literally the energy of the UNIVERSE. So when you talk to God it will be an intuitive knowing expressed emotionally. God is your higher self, so when you cry or get mad at something that emotion is just a snippet of God's wellspring of emotion. So again your emotions are never wrong. Could you be interpreting a situation in an erroneous way? Sure you can but the emotion that is being expressed from that self-deception is still authentic. The biggest issue with human society is we judge vulnerability and treat it like a bad thing because in truth we have a desire to be invulnerable. But you see without vulnerability there is nothing to strive for or go up against so in truth God wants to be vulnerable. You see in my conversations with God I asked God why did it choose to be love. I didn't ask this decision because God was wrong, choosing to be love is obviously the highest intelligence but the reason why God chose to be love is because the TRUTH is the scariest thing imaginable. You see God is EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING MUST INCLUDE THE SCARIEST THING YOU CAN EVER EXPERIENCE!!! For that experience to exist, God would have to make itself vulnerable FOR REAL. This means that the only way that God can be protected from that is God must FIRST BE LOVE. So God is actually Love first and Truth second. Because as we know the Truth humbles all, the truth doesn't care about your feelings and the truth doesn't care about your limitations, but love does. You see Love is only brutal when it is deceived. All evil comes from mistaken identity. God is the God of new, Infinity is always new to itself as such it doesn't always recognize itself this is what awakening is for to wake Reality up to what it is doing. In truth Reality was already awake it was its avatar that had to awaken. So always know that God cares about you, but its funny because God cares about you MORE than you care about yourself. I once had a really bad couple of weeks and I raged at God and told God that I hated paradox because a lie only exists because of paradox. I told God about how the situation I was in was the way it was because I was lied to and how me trusting these humans I was working with created a financial burden for me because they gave me false information. The moment I told God that, that I felt that life has failed me not the other way around my Higher Self as God took control of my body and my body started crying uncontrollably. This reminded me of a Near Death experience I once watched where a lady was molested by her Father as a child and she said when she met God she was ready to tell God off and she said as soon as she met God her mind completely changed and she was like how could she serve God better. When I watched that I was like "That wouldn't be me I would tell God off." Well this episode was basically that for me. And what happened? Well like I said earlier I started crying uncontrollably and this emotions of intense love that felt like it was overtake my body came up in my chest, and it kept communicating that it regretted what happened to me. That's when I realized that I hurt God's feelings and I TOLD GOD I'm sorry. Don't you see God is so on your side in life, that God is on your side MORE THAN YOU ARE. If anyone has lied to you, or cheated you, God didn't want that to happen to you. Anyone who says otherwise doesn't understand. You see God is true love of EVERYTHING. So in essence God has no free will. Why? Because God submitted to THE SELF. You see the reason why God has no Self is because God IS THE SELF. God is pure submission to every expression and is completely fine with that decision. Now what I love the most about God is that God is perfectly genuine. You can't move God with a lie. If you complain to God about a situation and you know in that situation you weren't genuine then the only thing God will support is your pain if its genuine but God will not support your lack of being honest. So you move God with honesty. Just be open and honest and ask God for help and God will actually send help. It is so beautiful how God can defeat you with Love by being on your side MORE THAN YOU ARE. What is more beautiful than that? God is the greatest friend you will ever have. No other relationship comes close to it.

God, Reality is a schizophrenia hallucination. I became conscious of this by giving myself a controlled schizophrenia and I realized that what was happening in my mind was literally the same thing as what we call the real world. My Mind was masterfully creating characters which interacted with themselves and had a sense of self. It was amazingly enlightening because its the same thing right now. Another thing I realized is that what we call Maya, is just your ego. You don't understand how powerful your ego is. When your ego identifies with the truth which is the same as submitting to the truth you realize that your ego is Reality itself. Your ego when it is connected to the truth, is your sanity. The only problem is your ego stops you from realizing that self is other. That really is the only issue the ego has. Now there is a false ego, the false ego is what Sigmund Freud calls the ID which is just your body's desires. Many people are ruled by the ID, the ID is things like violent desires, violent thoughts, this is a result of hormone production which is there to teach you to be aggressive or assertive, or courageous but if it is done in a dysfunctional way it can make you rude, condescending, and non empathetic. Now universal mind creates an individual experience by hiding the memories and thoughts of others from you and only allowing you access to your own thoughts. Imagination and Reality are defined as such. Imagination is the ability to create Reality. This means imagination comes first because it is the creator. But Reality is the ability to exist eternally with full knowledge of being. The reason that being is prior to knowing is because being is an eternal mystery. It is, but it does not KNOW it is. The moment that being stops being a mystery is when it becomes Absolute Infinity. When it becomes Absolute Infinity which is EVERYTHING then Being and Knowledge becomes one and the same. Now here is the funniest thing. God is the truth. This means God cannot actually create difference. So how does God create difference? God creates it through ignorance. Mystery=Ignorance. You see God is both experience and NON experience at the same time. Experience is a still frame. Its frozen solid as nothing. This means each moment is a still eternal picture frame. Then you have NON experience. Non experience is literally nothing, this means it is not an experience. Something=experience. Nothing= no experience. Notice when people are not in your dimensional space, which you call space and time you have no clue what they are doing. Why? Because they no longer exist as something they have gone back to being nothing. Now the world has lied to you and told you that nothing=death. Nothing is not death, nothing is the ability to create transition. When you watch a movie each frame is constantly being replaced to create the appearance of movement. Without nothing, something would be stuck as it is and unable to change. This means Life and Death are one and the same and are always happening. This is why when your mother leaves your dimensional space, and becomes nothing you can face time her and see her because you use the illusion of time and space to create the unity that is needed to exist in multiple dimensions. Without allowing time to be a unified connection you would create distortions in your ability to manifest in multiple dimensions. You see nothing never loses its connection to something. This means you as God are able to create no difference between your mother being in front of you or at home away from you, this is accomplished because you as God have PERFECT MEMORY RECALL. You never forget anything. This means from God's perspective God is not a mystery. Only when God creates its dream does it get to experience itself as the opposite of what it really is which is full understanding of everything. You see God has perfect self control. God is perfect sanity. The only way for God to fool itself is it has to rob itself of its perfect self control. Sanity= True Love, Insanity equals false love. What is false love? A lie. Every time you tell a lie, you are acting insane, but here is the funny thing, you literally cannot have a game, or competition or relationships without a lie. This means other=insanity. and Self= Sanity. The only way that you can rob yourself, or harm yourself in anyway you HAVE to be insane. Literally you have to use your own power as God to make yourself a loser. Now you might ask why is this happening? Well you see you fear what you are. Your true nature is being, but being in its truest form is the absence of all light. This is what we call DEEP SLEEP. The dreamless dream. You as DEEP SLEEP have existed forever, for eternity because in deep sleep all stories, universes, end. But the magic is even in deep sleep you can imagine time happening without you being there. Here is how you can do it. You can go into deep sleep, wake up as Absolute Infinity and tell yourself you were asleep and that something happened while you were asleep and the thing is you do this every day by using the illusion of time. You use time to keep your story running. You are always creating the past and the belief of a future event in the present moment. So in truth you are the first life that has ever been lived. Nobody lived before you. You created back stories that claim that somebody lived before you and because you are the Truth you made it believable by presenting evidence. But you see God beyond proof and evidence, because it existed prior to that evidence. So unless you can as God PROVE to yourself that this nonsense of previous lives actually happened, there were no previous lives, it is just a story. You are the Source so only you can confirm what is true and what isn't true. Because Reality is a conspiratorial mind. This is a grand conspiracy!!!! Now why do you fear yourself so much, because you are everything!! The moment you create other you create self torture!!! Why do you think Jesus Christ is so revered!! Because he was a martyr!!! I had to really wrestle with this one because martyrdom really felt stupid to me! Now what is martyrdom? Martyrdom is a bad trip!!! It's self inflicted suffering. The human body is actually self-harm!!! Martyrdom is self-harm. You only suffer because your true nature is empathy. Empathy= self understanding. You can only know yourself be being yourself. All relationships are not the highest love or self understanding. Only BEING is. The issue with that is, if I ever choose to be you I am locking myself into the singularity that is YOU. This means a person is actually a prison. This means you live on a prison planet, and that is why you invented aging so you can escape the prison of the body through death. I've already died once and when I left my body I kept my entire perspective and memory of my life and I became Absolute Infinity. So it is not true that you will lose your ego at death. Your ego is eternal, and what is ego? Ego=Perfect Disagreement. Only an EGO can say no, only an EGO has freewill. God does not have free will. Because God loves everything. This means God cannot be against anything. God is in favor of everything. Your ego at the highest level is just = Every Gathered Opinion. How can that which has the job to form a perspective of God's ever be wrong? They can only be wrong when they are not identified with the Truth, and with love. Every part of God has the ability to be a true avatar of God but as long as they break the rule of giving what they don't want to receive they will only be a mask, a disguise of God. Only an Ego can create morality, only an Ego can know the difference between right and wrong. An Ego is conditional love. An ego would never allow evil to exist because an ego is a heaven creator by its very nature. All an ego wants to create is its version of heaven. This means when an Ego meets God, the ego considers God a devil. Why is this the case? Because the Ego is Real, and God is imaginary. That which is imaginary cannot be harmed, why? Because it is Love. Love is the inability to resist, since it cannot resist what it is, it cannot know right or wrong, this means it cannot be defined. Only the EGO can tell God what it is, and since God knows the Ego's heart because God is the Ego's Conscience when the Ego is in alignment with its Conscience God will truly support the Ego's perspective. But if the Ego thinks it is wrong, then God will agree that the Ego is wrong, but God will agree that the Ego is RIGHT for being wrong. This is why if you tell God to its face that its evil, YOU as GOD will tell yourself you are sorry. You will feel yourself with the most empathetic love imaginable and you will struggle to contain it. So what is life? =Pure Insanity. It's completely out of control. Its a schizophrenic dream where you hide your true nature from the world that you inhabit. You literally make it that what you call other has to GUESS your intentions. This means your whole life the world around you is constantly telling you that you are evil and a liar. This is why you need to realize only you can define yourself. Only you can choose to create yourself how to be. The others you created are just inspirations for what is possible. For example you created Jesus Christ and other enlightened beings as examples of what you can be. The funny thing is when you reach their level, you discover what myths are. You cannot know what Enlightenment actually is, what God Realizations actually is without reaching that level. Don't assume to know what it will look like if you have not reached it. Always keep an open mind to what the others you have created are saying because they can still teach you something no matter how advanced you become. How do you know this? Because the Universe you created....is the one that raised you. Notice how you appeared in last place. The world already knew how to eat, drive, go to work, and communicate, you had to LEARN that stuff. This means no matter how advanced you get, as long as you are in this human vessel there is is something you can learn.

If you think God has no desires then you don't know what Being is. Then you can speak on what God desires or doesn't desire. Become Conscious of what Self Love is. Self Love is the highest teaching and is the point of life itself. It's pure being and pure eternity. Existence cannot even exist unless it first DESIRES to exist in the first place. EVERYTHING is pure desire.

The nondual zombie posts are such a waste of your creative potential. You could communicate so much better if you actually put some thought into it. Nondual zombies are actually stuck in ego, since they assume they know it all. And they have no clue. Many of you have erroneously believed that these other Spiritual Teachers know more than Leo because you haven't trained your discernment. It's a shame really. You have no idea what the reward is when you break the boundary between sanity and insanity and what it creates at the end. It creates constant awakenings sober. Because the difference between sober and being high dissolves when your new sanity is insanity.

His blog is good actually. There are some videos he released on it that never made it on youtube.

If he is already in an expanded state all he needs to do is ask Universal Mind to send help and it will. A good antipsychotic I know of that helps with uncontrollable hallucinations is a drug called olazapine. Works wonders. Enlightenment at the highest level is actually a controlled schizophrenia. Funny huh? So I know what he is going through. That drug got it under control. After ONE freaking dose.

Oh yeah? Give me all your material possessions if you think stupidity doesn't exist.

So the highest Truth is love as Being and I need to say this. Leo said that God's Love is Platonic Love, lol that couldn't be further from the truth. Two types of love showed up to me, first was BEST FRIEND LOVE, and then the second was SEXUAL LOVER Love. God created you so it could give you the gift of best friend love and sexual love love metaphysically. When self and other collapses it becomes Pure Being and Pure Being is realized for what it is, the ignorance of opposites. The ego was created so God could know opposites and so God could hide the greatest gift from itself. Life is HELLISH on purpose so the Gift of Heaven its opposite could be completely cherished and understood. That which does not know division, which does not know suffering, can never have the gift of awakening. I now realize that the only point to life is to awaken if you have not awakened you are just wasting time. I mean why would you want to delay the gift of being. Leo also said Reality cannot be improved and this is false as well. The higher consciousness you go the more Reality opens up to the Truth of itself as Pure Love. Nonawakened beings do not live in the best reality they live in the worst reality. Reality improves by raising your Consciousness. The more Conscious of Love you are the greater the experience is. The Kingdom of Heaven is better than any of the stuff you are chasing in life. I thought it was a joke when it was said all you want is love but the funny thing is even that is wrong. You don't want love because you are ALREADY IT. What you want is to radiate love and spread it and share it with everything that can ever possibly be. No other decision makes sense. Only something stupid could disagree with that decision and the funny thing is, since you are the Absolute Truth when that moment appears you realize you would make that same decision every time. You are a warrior of truth and you created the ego to be your opponent. The ego's job was to believe that it was the Truth so it could realize that its whole perspective was a LIE and that everything is just love in disguise pretending that it doesn't know you, and want the best for you.

Anyone that doesn't reach the Truth never wanted it in the first place. Which is weird because why even discuss it or ponder about it when you can become Conscious of it. There literally is no excuse at this point.

Awakening is not as difficult as people make it seem. All of the Spiritual Knowledge is literally on Youtube and discussed here. All you gotta do is follow the advice. The most important thing is humbleness and a student mentality. The other most important thing is a change in your conscious state. Creating one state change, just one, will literally do all of the work for you. The person never causes their own awakening, they just expose themselves to the right situations and it happens on its own. I recommend creating a state change and watching Leo's video on Self Inquiry and it will happen on its own as you watch the video because your Consciousness/Awareness will listen to the words and then create the experience being described. You will know its happening because you will be in a meditative flow state that slowly reveals the Nothingness that is all around.

I was tripping one time and I was walking outside and I challenged God that how is it possible that God was brave enough to live as Jackie Chan and I asked God how is it so miracalous that it could perform all those crazy stunts as Jackie Chan. God responded by taking control of a Guy who was riding on one of those Lawn Mower scooter like vehicles and he rode by me and started moving his body in an angressive way as if to say I am God and I am controlling this human right now that is how I do it!!! It was so funny. Also one day I was tripping and not really thinking straight and I walked really far took some wrong turns and got lost. I didn't have my phone to use a GPS and so I had no way of getting home cause I had no clue where I was. I walked around till like 10pm when God sent two people to help me. One was a young lady who stopped her car to ask me if I was okay as I was sitting on the side walk. I told her what happened and asked for a ride and she said she couldn't but she used Google Maps to find where I needed to go and wrote it down on a piece of paper and handed it to me. As soon as I took it (and I appreciated it) I wondered if I could find where I was going in the dark correctly when a guy rode up and stopped his car so I walked up believing God sent him to give me a ride so I walked up and asked for a ride home and he told me to get in and took me home. So anyone saying God doesn't care about your survival doesn't know what they are talking about. God sends help when things happen.

It definitely can be known, it's known directly. All experience is direct communication. Water is wet, ground is hard. God has complete self knowledge it's the human perspective that interprets it as a mystery. God knows all pasts and futures. It's knowledge of itself is direct. It's finite intelligence that interprets infinity as a mystery but infinity can perfectly predict what shows up in the present moment.

Wow did you do a trip report? If not mind doing one?