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@Joseph Maynor I did an sds sit about 5/6 months ago, when I hit about the 2 hour & 10 mintute mark "I" stoped fighting the pain Completely & just let it be, at that exact moment without knowing anything whatsoever about chakras or kundalini. (I was trying to attain enlightenment) my crown chakra blew the fuck open! It felt like energy was pouring out of my head for about 2 minutes! I sat in a state of complete bliss, no insights just happiness. The event was so earth shattering I thought I was enlightened (I've heard Adyashanti had an a similar experience) so I got up, shortly after my ego came roaring back in, it wasn't the real deal, but I have never been the same since. Ive been deeling with kundalini ever since that day, my 3rd pulasates all day long, when I do any form meditation I feel like I am spinning, if I don't stop it it'll go for 20 mintutes no problem, my eye lids & chest have uncontrollably pulsated through mediation as well. Many times after I couldn't sleep & no it's not anxiety it's is its own energy. This energy is clearing our chakras. everything is heightened with kundalini, my states of bliss are states of bliss! My anxiety or stress are higher as well, loud noises get more irritating than normal, when I get horny i get very horny. They say once you're kundalini is opened you have a much better chance on enlightenment will see??‍♂️ As or today I've never done an pyscadellic, nor do I plan on doing any till till more people come out say they are full blown enlightened through them, they way I figure it thousands of people have become enlightened without them ?‍♂️But ya never know...

Perfection is what's real. Period because you or anything or anybody else can't be other than what it ultimately is right now. I really want to help ground this whole notion of "perfection" because I see a lot of people talking about spiral dynamics and all the dozens of different lines of development, states, and stages as means to fantasize about creating this perfect person. Particularly people that follow TJ Reeve's relatively small little social media crowd and such people who espouse this whole ideology and just downright fantasy which is quite toxic because of like "I want to have the enlightenment of Christ or Buddha and have the body of Arnold Schwarzenegger (or something along those lines) and the intellect of Einstein or an Elon Musk and be financially free and only then will I have actualized my potential." @CreamCat I'm not saying you specifically are doing this but I see a lot of people wasting their time fantasizing over such ideals. I want you to consider that right now, you, everything in this world as well as everyone in it are already perfect. I'm not saying no one is dysfunctional, everything is all sun shine, kittens, cupcakes, divine bliss. As far as the relative world, hell no. What I am saying is that it can't be any other way than it already is. I remember hearing this great talk on YouTube with Byron Katie in a seminar with someone whose issue inside was this neurotic feeling of not living up to his potential and she was showing him that moment to moment he has living up to his full potential. By noticing this he was able to get out of the way of his own fantasies of what he thinks is his potential and perfect. If you think you're going to live life without regression in anything you're setting up a fantasy. Michael Jordan wasn't the best in the league after he retired in 1998. Father time catches up. Some great thinkers end up getting dementia and all sorts of mental illnesses as they get older. You may get into a car accident or something tomorrow. Regression is inevitable. The question I pose to you is, can you still see the perfection in that regression and still be happy and at peace with it?

I've been doing 1-2 hours of anapana only and 2 vipassana courses since last year. Im going to my 3rd course this January. About a month ago i went to sadhgurus Sambhavi Mahamudra and he shaktipat tf out of everybody and taught us shambabhi mahamudra. I've been doing 1-2 hours of anapana and two 21 minute sessions of Sambhavi Mahamudra for the past month. I've been sharpening my concentration for about a year so I can begin to do vipassana with great intensity. I can really feel sadhgurus effect on me, it feels like a gift was given to me. Im having very occasional tears of joy. I still have to go deep into these techinques and even after a year of anapana and 2 10 day courses, Im still a noobie but sambhavi is like a tool for bliss while vipassana/anapana is dives deep in to the nature of reality and existential truth. Have you tried a 10 day course?

It is a subtle but constant emanation of bliss or more importantly, lack of all disturbances. It feels like as if life itself is made with only one element and that is 'bliss'. right?

Awesome!!! Thanks so much for your help!! I was so close but yet so far..... it's funny to me how that whole thing unfolded. I will definitely work on holding the sense. It took about an hour or so until I after I sent you that last message. But I was filled with Bliss for an hour or 2 once the fact of what had happened had settled in for me. So there was ultimately a reaction after all.

@Butters remember, suffering has nothing to do rationality but purely emotional. This is good. Your sense of concern is broadening beyond your clan. I actually am starting to feel more of this myself. I grew up in a hard nosed stage Orange atheist house where rationality mattered more. I never grew up with animals and I never understood the whole obsession some people have over their dogs and other pets... until we got a dog. Once we got a dog I understood and felt more pain if I saw or heard about other animals being abused and when I see owners drag their dogs and I feel for that animal. It was weird at first but now I understand. A few months ago I really wanted to take this a step further and actually open up to the suffering more by researching factory farming and that tore my heart out. This has really allowed me to move into Green and evolve out of this selfish concern for just myself and my own worldview of people are what matter and that we’re smarter. This sort of suffering, without all the moralism and ideological crusading that goes with it, I think is good. Orange people and even lots of people who pursue spirituality who never want to feel suffering again and also have trascended suffering don’t understand. It takes a real master to step down off that mountain high of realizing God to be willing to feel both the bliss that you are God and you are untouched and at the same time feel the pain and suffering of all beings. Whether they be people, animals, fish, trees, air, etc. a perfect example of this is Christ. So, yes I’m in that same boat.

@EternalForest At one point i was doing it daily for a long time, i believe this is when i was at one of my highest levels of awareness. Eventually everything becomes bliss The beginning is always a hell of a challenge though especially if you have a lot of baggage.

I don't know, I don't use that term. That which cannot be spoken about accurately If you have to ask, it's not consciousness knowing itself. Consciousness knowing itself does not result in knowledge you can put in philosophical sentences like that. That's the mind. Still, it might be a little glimpse -- the mind's way of translating That. I have my guidelines here. Biggest guideline is to discover and be honest about and pursue what you really want. Discovery happens through a combination of introspection, expression of your emotions in writing/drawing/etc., psychoanalytic/psychodynamic therapy, and action. Enlightenment experiences may or may not slow your mind down, depending on what other conditioning it has. That's why it's important to deal with other aspects of quieting your mind (e.g. psychological). Sure, it's true that the idea of something/someone being conscious is illusory. I use awareness & consciousness as the same thing, but some people use them to mean different things. I don't relate to what Esman says, but perhaps that's some kind of siddhi. What the sages mean by being aware in deep sleep and asleep in waking is that they no longer identify with the individual mind and its different states, but with the Consciousness that transcends those states. Yes, the unmanifest is fine, and in fact probably better than saying that it experiences unconsciousness. In deep sleep, Consciousness can be said to perceive or reflect the causal body (as opposed to the subtle or gross bodies), or pure ignorance, or any number of other theoretical/philosophical terms. Best not to take it too seriously, because actually there can't be said to be a deep sleep state, or really any state, in the final analysis. These are all illusory terms, said only for the sake of discussion. Ananda is simply the sense of total completeness. We know it in our daily experience as the happiness we get from fulfilling desires -- these are glimpses of the bliss of the Self contrasted with pain on either side of the experience. The actual bliss of the Self is not a contrasting experience like that kind of happiness. It is beyond dualities and thus beyond description. It is the subtlest experience -- akin to being absent. It is not a feeling or sensation in the body. It can and cannot be said to be "awareness of" the Absolute; the Absolute cannot be an object of knowledge. Still, yes, we say the Absolute knows itself by itself because there's no other way to talk. And yes, that bliss is part of that. I don't think it'd be helpful to answer this sort of question. Do you have a question that relates to your own search?

More question: Sages say that "bliss" or "happiness" or "peace" is our true nature. Sat, Cit, Ananda are said to be the three main "qualities", if one can use those terms. Sat and Cit are reconcilable, but why Ananda? Is this a feeling or a sensation felt by the body? Is it simple "knowledge" of the absolute - meaning awareness of it?

@winterknight Many sage talk about awareness in deep sleep (not lucid dreaming). Do you experience this? If so, what can you tell us about it? For example, Jan Esman describes it as "waking up in his sleep to bliss out for thirty minutes or so." What does this awareness entail? Is there any content to this awareness and if so are they sense-products? Additionally, you mentioned that in deep sleep, the Self is experiencing unconsciousness. I always preferred the term "unmanifest", as in the Self is experiencing the unmanifest in deep sleep. In your view, are the two terms interchangeable?

You can measure your spiritual enlightenment by how quiet your mind naturally is, and how open your heart feels. The heart is meant to always feel warm like a expanding bubble of bliss. When I did SDS or do nothing it didn’t awaken this, my consciousness stayed predominantly in my head where the ego identification is. Then I gave this up after a year of meditating and practiced Matt Kahn’s techniques to stay heart centered and love whatever arises. This lead to experiences of having no body, and feeling the heart blossom basically. Yet I knew there was more, and then I found other teachers that lead me to feeling the movement of air in my chest cavity which is where I’m at. All practices will ultimately lead back to the heart. It’s the only way to reach full enlightenment. Nearly all spiritual teachers have not reached this place, and still have an ego (one that talks and walks in a spiritual way). So I recommend you give up SDS, it isn’t direct. SDS has greatly increased your concentration levels so if you change your meditation to the rising and falling of the chest for 2 hours you would make massive progress. Let go of your emotions, and thoughts right now. Simply feel the breathing chest. The reason people find this challenging is because a doubt will arise about the technique or a fear; don’t listen to it, keep focusing on the breathe even if it says SDS is more effective. This is the most effective technique. It is the gateway to becoming one with your true self which always experiences a steady stream of bliss and love. Enlightenment and seeking begins and ends here. Don’t limit yourself, always stay in the breathing chest. It will reveal its magnificence very quickly. https://channelhigherself.com/blog/types-of-higher-self-meditation-practices/

As far as my own experience goes though nothing comes close to this. I love piano, but this must be my very favorite album ever. When I tripped once, I plugged in this album and I instantly felt perfect peace and stillness. Next thing I remember I regain consciousness on the LAST NOTE OF THE LAST SONG. I was gone for the whole album. Literally gone. My face was washed in tears of utter bliss in nothingness. Even remembering this brings up so many feelings.

This is pure bliss: And this is for sure one of my favorite albums ever:

I casted your name on my meditations and I'm sure that now your state of bliss is increased by the truth. May the healing of your insight last long

@Serotoninluv Cool. My plan is to start with 2cb low dosages, because it is one of the first psychedelics in the pyramid. One step at a time. I guess the benzos will give me peace of mind, too. Simple and good stuff @cetus56 It is somehow funny because a part from that single episode of breakdown, I don't see much shadow at all. I am sure there is a lot of shadow hidden, like in all of us. But deep down I'm truly cool. I would cry if I had the urge to, I would't hold it back. But I'm mostly filled with bliss, I have way more presence than the "average person" and I can see the beauty of it all. However, there is the 5% monster lurking around, I feel it @Leo Gura I am open to the bad trips. I am open to the power they have of facing the ego. I am aware that bad trips are mostly motivated by the ego screaming for survival, afraid that the house-of-cards illusion will be broken. Still, I can't say for granted that it is impossible for me to have an episode which will send my spiraling down to low consciousness. And people in insane asylums can't do self-actualization. I guess the chances of that happening to me are like 1%, but I just wanted to have the peace of mind that it was actually impossible before using. I would be ok with bad trips, if only it wasn't possible for one of them to end my consciousness path

That's awesome, recently i got my ass kicked with 4g of mushrooms + 66ug of LSD. At first was just pure bliss, i had my first no-self experience, kundalini active as hell, had a lot of direct experience of deep truths i only read about but at some point i started to feel body discomforts/pains (in my belly and lower back) which gave me anxiety, i saw my mood get a little negative, which led to negative thoughts on loop (i had lost any notion of time), the anxiety greatly increased to the point i had to call a friend to babysit me mid-trip lol But was by far the deepest shit i ever experienced before and i am kind of experienced with psychedelics. Next time i won't mix them both.

Well, there are two answers to that question. Less accurate: The Self, whose nature is being, consciousness, and bliss, which is beyond time and space and all pairs of opposites and dualities -- it alone is. More accurate: <silence>

@thehero You just want to experience happiness. That’s why you want to be loved and accepted by other people. Cherished, just the way you are. Firstly there is no human who deserves to be lived more than you. But often, this is not the reality because life is teaching you something that will ultimately lead to a deep seated feeling of happiness beyond anything a person can give you. It is making you suffer, getting people to avoid you, because life wants you to find the peace that is already within you that can be accessed right now. Right this second, your very nature is peaceful and blissful, the goal is to become aware of this infinite, radiant being of light that you are, and have been all this time. The only thing that veils this peace and bliss is your thoughts. Thoughts about how lonely I am. Thoughts about how I am not loved, how I feel this sad emotion, and yearn to be seen and heard by another. Let this whole structure go by making your Heart the best friend you never had or the fatherly you always wanted but which never could provide quite enough love. Here is the most practical solution for you. It is called the Ujjiya breathe and i recommend you do it for 5 minutes morning and night at first, making it longer when it feels right. What you do is sit in a comfortable position, relax all of your muscles and then lightly tighten the muscles at the bottom of your throat. Breathe, and you should here something similar to the sound of waves coming in and going out. Now while making you this sound focus on the rising and falling of your chest; the expansion of love and joy for life, and the return to peace and stillness. Focus on the chest no matter what thought arises or emotion for the given time while making that sound. This will begin to open your heart wide open, and silence your mind. Very soon your desire to be loved will naturally disappear as you see that you were the one you were looking for this whole time. Be very dedicated and let the out breathe flow out of its own accord. It will feel uncomfortable! Keep going! Namaste.

Could Leo give us a step by step process on how to switch '' dreams '' ? If this reality is only one set out of an infinite set of realities then how do i permanently switch dreams? I'd like to personally switch to an all-sugary dream where there's nothing but bliss, where work is not needed and where everyone is beautiful and there's no problem. Basically a heaven-like dream. A kind of dream that is simply too good to be true, where tears can't express how much love there is. A dream where i can summon a vampire boyfriend and life out my wildest desires How Leo?? 5-MeO only let's me see the absolute...

@Inliytened1 Yes, it can definitely do that. Had more than three from what I remember, each one very memorable. The best way of describing it is being hit by "disarming beauty". No matter how constricted your body or mind feels, when it hits, it makes you drop your guard like an armor just falling off a knight. At least that is how it feels to me. The bliss and ecstasy are implicit.

This is a story within The Story. This is a digital expression of what is happening. It is meant to paint a picture. It is meant for Ivan to find Love and Peace. It is also meant to be a container for all of Ivan's concerns, insecurities, contradictions, unease, sarcasm, delusion, victim-hood, narcissism, arrogance and ignorance. It is a place of unconditional love and acceptance. It is all-inclusive. So beware, kind reader. This might be exactly what you have no interest in reading, at all. THE STORY SAYS: Oh Lord! Heaven is on Earth today! Ivan achieved the speed of light. He gained control over his own. And he did not do so by applying force. Well, besides the force of Love, if one can call it that. Ivan is now merging with his Story, and he's loving it! Fear is still knocking on the door. The echo is still loud. But Ivan... Ivan is not paying much attention. He is in the heavens. He is still, he is calm. He is the Moon, he is the Sun. Oneness came to be this day. Effortless like dawn. There was a special vibe in the morning air, one could say. It had a special purpose. Ivan now knows everything has a special purpose. He knows how to recognize the purpose. Ivan now knows what is the source. He came to love the reflection in the mirror. He sees through the mirror; behind the mirror. Ivan is slowly becoming a mirror himself. Oh, the endless joy and bliss. Ahh, the never-ending ecstasy. Ivan is here now; yet he's not at all. Magic caught his sight, finally. Ivan woke up today feeling fantastic. He turned around a few times in his bed. He was dreaming awake, dreaming asleep. His eyes rested long enough. He slept for centuries. There was no need for more sleep. There was no need for getting up either. In fact, there was no need at all. Ivan desires to express himself now: I knew Fear is getting tired of chasing me. It cannot compete with Infinity. Eventually, Fear will give up completely; it's time is running out. Soon, Fear will merge with Love and the two shall become indistinguishable. Soon, the Echo will merge with the Voice. I am running out of words for what is happening. But I want to try. Ivan has the desire to do so. He deserves respect. He made this happen. Thank you, Ivan. Thank you so, so much. So I woke up. I had no idea nor who I was, nor where I was. There was no need for such questions to arise. I was home, and it was so obvious. Sweet, sweet home. I was swimming in the endless ocean that was my bed. I was melting in bliss, but I couldn't melt away. Paradise. Diana was up before me this morning. I heard her in the kitchen. I also heard our two ever-hungry companions. They never get tired of meowing. As soon as there is movement in the kitchen, they let us know exactly what they want; more.food. Joy and Zeudi are getting very close. They also sense the presence of Love; inviting everyone in. Unity is spreading it's wings now. We were waiting for Diana's mother to send us the rent-money. I knew there's no rush to get up. The money couldn't possibly arrive before 2 'o clock. And the fridge was still empty. Haha, man, nothing can demotivate me anymore. Nothing can't demotivate. Even if I cannot afford food, it's way to obvious to me now; there is no such thing as "lack". It is a concept, an idea. It is a sign one is not paying attention close enough. It is a sign one is not here. So I was waiting, turning around in my bed for a while; letting the Breath decide when and what to do. Letting both God and the Devil paint onto the canvas. Who am I to judge any of them? Precisely nobody. It is clear now. THE STORY SAYS: Saying that Ivan was enlightened this day would make no sense. But he desires so much to hear those words; so the Story shall please him: "Ivan was enlightened as fu*k!" In fact, Ivan was so enlightened, enlightenment is all there was. He sees way beyond words now. He knows the importance of non-importance. He knows he IS to paint. He knows he IS to be. Ivan now knows he can choose both nothing and everything. He loves this sweet spot. "There are no requirements to meet. There are no courses to complete." After he got up, Ivan went straight for the balcony. There's no better place to be in the morning. The scenery there never seizes to amaze. Diana was hopping around the apartment, giggling and singing like the happiest little angel. She was radiating love and excitement. She is a Goddess. She is a Queen. She is the woman of every man's dream. She is the dream itself. Ivan sat down and started reading the digital expression of what is happening. Ivan desires to express himself now: I noticed the tendency to be "annoyed" or "distracted" starting to arise. This would happen often in my past. While I'd be doing something that requires my attention, I could not focus on anything else. And I could also not ignore anything that is "distracting" me. Especially if I was playing my instrument or reading. This would usually create a sort of paralysis and my mind'd go: "error.error." So I almost acted upon this tendency; in fact, in a way I did. But I did so as kindly and as lovingly as I could. I told Diana that I desire silence and I'd like to fully focus on reading. I know I could've added even more love to the statement, but I also could've blew it completely and cause negative feedback. She was kinda annoyed by it for a brief second, but she accepted and hopped on towards the living-room, singing, not letting her good mood to be shaken. I do want to perfect my ability to express stuff like this. I know I have the right to do so. And I ain't a weirdo for liking to be completely immersed in what I do, and be fully conscious of that, and that only. Maynard of Tool once stated he is unable to walk and chew a gum simultaneously. That may be a bit weird, yeah. The read was awesome, still in love with what I have going on here for myself. This journal is one of the best decisions I made in a while. Or maybe it's right there with every other epic decision, not sure. THE STORY SAYS: The money finally arrived on Diana's bank account. Dinusha, the housewife, was patiently waiting for her rupees. Ivan had to walk to the other side of the town; Kaluthara South. The couple had no rupees left what-so-ever. Not even for a bus ticket. So Ivan was looking at an approximately 5 kilometer walk. This was not the first occasion of it's kind. It happened before a few times. There are ATM's that are closer, but they request provision. And the couple need every cent now. Ivan is a fast walker. He builds up a momentum and effortlessly keeps avoiding all obstacles, no matter the shape or size. People here are in no rush. And there are many. Ivan certainly "stands out" by the speed of his steps. Sometimes he walks slowly as well, but there then usually is no destination. Ivan desires to express himself now: I was sweatin' balls. It's freakin' December and I'm sweatin' like crazy. Don't think I ever experienced this much Sun during "Winter". In fact, I'm sure I haven't". It's funny, this transition. There has been nearly 6 months of Summer for us now. It should be freezing and snowing by this time. Weird, but I like it. Winter would slow us down now. At least I think so. My shirt stuck onto me, the Sun was directly above my head. There was a nice wind to my momentum though; that kept me cool a bit. I was freakin' flying. Nearly everybody was staring. They scan tourists from head do toe. And I'm standing out even more; nearly running. I smiled at everybody. In fact, I was smiling at myself constantly. For myself, by myself. I was radiating Love, I was satisfied in beingness. I enjoyed my roll. I stopped in a bike-shop on my way. An extremely sexy motorcycle caught my attention several times before, here. Stopping seemed completely and obviously right. The bike is gorgeous. It's a big, black beast. I asked the guy who worked there if he could tell me the price in dollars. It's a bit over 400K rupees, which is around 7K dollars - he clarified. The registration is very cheap, apparently. Not even hundred bucks. I know I'll be able to afford a bike like that any time now. I'm just not sure if I'd be down for getting the driving licence. Seems like a long process. We'll see. A dog passed by me. Nearly brought me down on my knees. It had an open wound; a massive one. His one leg was nearly detached. It's not unusual for stray dogs to be hit by cars or even attacked by other dog here. In fact, if they're damaged, there is an even bigger chance of them being attacked. Others can smell the weakness. Nevertheless, the dog seemed to be happy and smiling. Hopping on his three healthy legs, making his way forward. It was so meaningful. Tears were near to the surface. There's also a lot of homeless people. They usually beg on narrow, crowded streets or in front of temples. I don't always give money to them. When I sense the calling, I do. This day I decided not to feel bad about not giving anything to anybody. Every cent counts now. Self service is no different from service to others, when truly understood. I know I'll be sharing and giving for the rest of my life. There's no need for negative thoughts. THE STORY SAYS: After picking the money up, Ivan took a bus back to the North of the town. This time it was barely crowded, which happens rather rarely. There was a plenty of space to sit down. And so Ivan did. He sat by the window, enjoying the cool wind blowing in his sweaty face. He was admiring the beautiful scenery that was passing through awareness. Once he arrived, he did not go to the super-market. He merely stopped briefly in a local shop to buy a few minor things. He also went to the beach-side to buy "wisdom-weed". As soon as he arrived home, he paid Dinusha for their rent. She was happy to receive the money. Ivan apologized for the delay. Upstairs Diana was waiting for him. Ivan desires to express himself now: I immediately needed to take a shower. It brought me back to life. Diana prepared us coffee and rolled a joint. It was a nice reward after the marathon. We were both feeling phenomenal. We even had a beautiful non-dual conversation. It was highly synchronized and effortless. She is my reflection and I am hers. We are mirrors reflecting each-other. It was obvious. It was smooth. It was pleasant and creative. I love her and her ability to grow so fast. She's absolutely and ridiculously perfect. I was not feeling like doing much. I wanted to entertain and be entertained. I wanted to have fun; to enjoy myself. I also had the desire to interact with everybody who's alive. Those who dream awake, those who dream asleep. I spent some time on the forum, leaving a few comments. Even some jokes and riddles. I was completely aware of the fact, that my words reflect back onto themselves. That I am constantly having a monologue - so to speak. Each question is asked by me. Each answer is given by me. And so it seems to all Mirrors. I felt like a non-dual troll for a while. It was hilarious. My every cell was laughing. THE STORY SAYS: Afterwards, Ivan decided to lay down for a bit; do nothing, think, not think. He was in a state of constant ecstasy. Diana felt the same. Ivan intended to trade when he gets up. He was not in a rush at all. He now knows that the only time he's able to make money is Now. He had an hour or so, until the "London hours". At this time, the market is usually on a move. Ivan was not giving a single fu*k. Ivan desires to speak now: Yesterday I lost a few euros. I was not bummed down at all. I knew exactly why that happened. My entries were not precise. I was not here and now. I made them from a place of hesitation and still a bit fear. And I also got distracted by focusing on what others are doing. Joining the webinar was both crucial and completely meaningless. I got the message and I know I have to watch the mirror closely, patiently. I must not be distracted by the mirror's illusive nature. Today I recovered my losses and made some profit as well. I did so effortlessly and care-free. As care-free as I can be at the moment, to be honest. I noticed Fear wanting to take over. I won't fight it anymore. I won't run anymore. I shall use it as a compass. As a navigation system. Fear will help me become a millionaire! How freakin' awesome is that? I acknowledged the mind needs time to get used to non-duality and the mirroring nature of existence. It also needs time to fully grasp the fact, that it can achieve any-fu*king-thing now. The mind needs time. The mind creates time. It needs love and appreciation. The mind is awesome. It is spectacular.It is updated. It is flawless. It is now.

Once the illusion dispels suffering is faced in its final form A suffering that has no root in reality, a spiritual suffering, a resolving of all karma, a seeming depression, a pressure that seeps through everything, unloading its weight on your reality This is a heavy process, but only when one can see that suffering does not have its root in this reality, can he face it, and can she realize that bliss and happiness will not have its roots in this reality either, it will not be dependent of everything, meaning that you will be envelopped in bliss and happiness no matter where you go or are, no matter what happens Suffer no matter what happens, to ascend to being happy no matter what happens

Were you scared at all? I had such bliss/love/adrenaline while at the same time my ego was acting like it was in a plane that was crashing. I couldn't stop laughing at how big of a bitch my ego was after it was all over... Low key wondering what other people's experience after just smelling tracks/seeing the ox is like

@Matt23 If your heart is seriously calling you to do it, then follow your bliss. But, start with a baby test dose. Do a 10 day solo meditation retreat and then evaluate how you feel. You don't want to jump into giant life decisions without testing the waters. You want to have a realistic idea of what you're getting yourself into. The reality of living alone in the woods for a year are probably way different than your mind's fantasy of such.

I actually have some more questions now 1. What are the benefits from further developing through the various degrees of enlightenment to society as a whole? 2. If it were an option, would you do this journey again by being reborn? Or would you never go back into the life that we live even after an eternity of bliss? 3. Does it make it difficult to teach people who suffer how not to suffer, when you aren't suffering? Is there an advantage to teaching that comes from being in the same position and delusion as others? 4. Is there a path that can benefit humanity and raise the consciousness of society as a whole more than enlightenment?