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  1. @Leo Gura In practice, does committing to meditative practices "full-time" amount to becoming a monk or living like an ascetic? Can one live like a monk in modern society? Is full time commitment compatible with life purpose?
  2. Thanks for the review. Yeah guided meditations have their pros and cons I suppose. I've sometimes used guided meditations when I'm too afraid to face the emptiness of myself and need some sort of audio stimulation to put me at ease, if that makes sense.
  3. @CreamCat haha it really be like that. It's one thing to "know" that everything is just in one conciousness theoretically but when you deeply feel it, it really shatters everything, even if it be for a short while in some state.
  4. Alan starts off the book by explaining two main paradigms that westerners have gotten themselves into. The fundamentalist religion paradigm, which tailed into the materialistic paradigm of the universe. He then goes onto to describe that both belief systems are essentially the result of man’s search for meaning/security in an apparently meaningless universe, and questions why it is we seek such paradigms to buy into. The book goes on from there, questioning the very deep foundational assumptions we have that cause our confusion. We are constantly looking for ways to isolate and divide a “self”, which can stand apart and be fixed in a universe of constant flux. When we say life is meaningless, what we really mean is that we cant find some static concept/abstraction/idea/belief to make sense of a world in flux. Alan is amazing with metaphors and is perhaps the best articulator of non-duality I’ve ever seen. The book is quite upbeat in tone, in contrast to some other teachers who’s style is more dry. He articulates with great precision how the attempt to sustain and create an ego is a contradiction. It amazes me that despite this book being written in a more Christian traditional/religious era, Alan could still see with great clarity the issues that are inherent to typical rationalist views of the world. https://antilogicalism.files.wordpress.com/2017/07/wisdom-of-insecurity.pdf I personally prefer having a paperback.
  5. Hopefully Leo makes an MBTI video. I personally find mbti to be something I misuse, by essentially clinging to the "sensors are dumb" stereotype.
  6. England, Midlands
  7. I've been having this deep fear emotion located in my stomach which I find difficult to fully explore. Its the emotion I found when inquiring into my misery, loneliness and suicidal thoughts. Today, it's still here. But for just a few moments occasionally, it has a different form. The feeling is then a complete deja vu of how I used to feel in high school sometimes. I haven't meditated on what it IS, but it's definitely associated with this weird longing and melancholy. The type of longing and melancholy someone who's love stricken has. I felt this feeling strongest when I had a crush in high school, but the feeling has somewhat mixed with other things. I have a hunch this is related to past emotions of alienation during teenage years, and those initially non-harmful emotions have changed form into something causing psychological hell. All these developments that I try to do or make happen, and the end of the day it's boiled down to consciousness practices. And technology is my way of turning my attention away from deeply negative feelings, fluctuating between strong and subtle, in my 24/7 experience. So clearly that has to be addressed.
  8. Alan Watts was quite inspired by J Krishnamurti as well. He says things so directly and plainly. You might find it hard to act on what he says when he at least superficially criticises all these practices like yoga and meditation, renouncing all forms of authority (including himself, if you look at his personal story you'd see this) and religious groups or organisations which promise salvation. But then all the while, he is emphasising what those practices want to achieve most. It's actually extremely funny. So meditate, do yoga anyway. I love this guy so much. I have to make notes lol.
  9. @Serotoninluv Everyones met a person or two like Trump lol. If you're on their side they shower you with unbelievable amounts of praise, the second they think you're not on their side they go back to their malicious behaviour. They will literally refuse to admit that they've lied until the end of time, even when presented with the truth. I don't know how to deal with such a person, since my family member is one.
  10. I can't believe it. It's literally nothing. Why am I so happy but so melancholic at the same time? Everything I see and touch and feel its somehow nothing. wow. Im surprised I can even exist with everything thats here. It's as if a bubble popped. Is this even me anymore?
  11. For whatever reason, there is often a gap between our understanding of our topic and the extent to which it can be put into words. Put the issue of the map is not the territory to one side, as that is not what my focus is. It is so often the case that “we know” something but then you hear someone else put it into words so well. It’s as if another person has come to you and magically pulled out that which is on the periphery, subconscious levels of your reality and brought it into direct conscious recognition. There is an inherent healing property in putting into direct awareness chains of thought which were always in your experience, but the chains of thought were background noise that had an identity which was not precisely known. The awareness from articulating something clears the fog of it being a background chain of thought and brings into the light of your awareness. It’s why people like journaling, writing diaries, to do lists, talking therapy, and etc. There are fuzzy, background chains of thoughts which are messy and aren't in a form which is easily moved into direct recognition by your awareness. So there is a benefit in being good with words.
  12. Alan Watts certainly uses the medium of speaking well. I've consumed Alan Watts audio plenty so I prefer reading him.
  13. @Koyaanisqatsi Yeah Alan Watts is good Read a book of his. https://antilogicalism.files.wordpress.com/2017/07/wisdom-of-insecurity.pdf