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people have completely forgone their form I usually like to share how I experience enlightenment, especially in regards of the constant visual evolution, one that is sober, fueled by inner chakra activation or in other concepts the inner dmt release its come to a moment where people look like what I would have imagined an alien to look like, if I ever imagined what I would feel seeing the body of an alien a divine alien body, alien yet human, sometimes fantasy like, it sometimes feels like I'm in lord of the rings, sometimes in a science fiction world, sometimes in heaven the visual rendering of human bodies including my own is constantly changing, intimately tied to the clarity released and remembered every moment, in sync with feelings and vibrations life becomes a movie, a dream, an imaginative creation everything we have imagined in movies, in fiction, the atmosphere, the feelings, the possibilities, the energy, the creations, all that is native to us and once the illusion between fiction and reality evaporates the dream of life reveals, begins that is my personal opinion, my personal experience enlightenment is so vast, there is definitely a lot of joy and excitement and fun in it, and love

I don't want people's opinions, only speak of you have a well rounded, experiential knowledge of the difference between thinking and becoming aware (if there is one). What is it that "awareness" brings to the table (that "thinking" does not) that seems to cause us to wake up from the matrix of our own mindlessness? What is the difference between 'thinking' and 'being aware'? (No strange, alien vocabulary, keep it basic and easy to understand, I'm not familiar with all the existentialist lingo yet.)

Hi, and thanks for taking the time to read this. I'm writing today because I feel very troubled. I've been troubled for a long time, but today is especially bad. When most people use the word "enlightenment" it seems to me they have an idea of someone like Eckhert Tolle or The Buddha, who find themselves in states of such incredible bliss that they're content to sit and stare at the clouds. But I've also read a lot of stories about people who believe themselves to be at least somewhat enlightened, and feel very alien and alone as a result. If I'm at all enlightened I'd fall into the latter group. My entire life I've felt different from other people. Mostly I've always been inclined to think for myself, and it seems to me that the vast majority of people aren't. I've had many wonderful opportunities throughout my life. Most people would say that I was dealt a pretty good hand in life, as far as opportunities go. I had parents who cared enough about me to send me to a good college, though I never wanted to be there, and blew that opportunity. I was fortunate to land a good job in my early twenties, and if I would have stayed with it, I'd be really doing well today, but I found it unfulfilling, and left it. I later went on to develop a successful internet business, where I really had things made, and I threw that away as well. There are plenty of ways I could be making money now, but the truth is that I have no desire to be part of the human world. No amount of money is meaningful to me, and there's nothing I really need. I have very few material attachments; almost none, and I like it that way. I just don't want to be part of the rat race. The more I learn and grow, the less I want to be part of the human world, and that's where I am now. Every day human existence seems more futile to me; I mean the idea of slaving and competing for things that you don't need, and you're just going to lose someday. So I find myself simply killing time, hoping something will happen to change things, but nothing ever happens. I might offend some people by saying this, but most people appear no different than animals to me. They do all the same things animals do, and the vast majority of humans just go along with the rest of the group, like any other herd animal. And very few humans ever really think; once again they just share a brain with everyone else. I could go on about the human race but I don't think that's necessary. I'm hoping someone will understand what I'm saying. It feels like a real curse to me to be someone who's at least somewhat awake, and surrounded by so many people who aren't. It feels like a bad dream I can't wake up from. A question I have is, once you've come to truly understand what's happening here on planet earth, especially as it concerns humans, why would you want to be part of it? Why would you want to be part of an economic system that makes most people slaves...grinding away to provide for their basic needs, while barely getting by? Why would you want to be part of a world so controlled by consumerism? And if you choose not to be part of this world, what are you supposed to do? Sure, you can do good deeds and help to make the world a better place, but as long as so many people remain unconscious (and there are getting to be more and more unconscious people, as our population grows) you're just spraying water on the flames. The key word for me is "alien". I don't literally believe I'm an alien from another solar system, like some people do, but I might as well be, as different as I feel. This leaves me with the perspective of an outsider, watching and shaking my head at the stupid things humans do; as they work their way towards their eventual annihilation. I'm very well informed, and aware of what's going on in the world, and I'm going to tell you that this world isn't becoming a better place. Anyone who believes this world is becoming a better place has their head in the sand. I believe our world is heading for serious trouble, and when that trouble starts, we're going to see just how animal-like homo sapiens can be. In short I feel like I'm trapped on a train headed for a serious crash. I'm alone, amongst billions of people who look just like me, but aren't like me, most oblivious to the reality of our situation. It reminds me of certain nightmares I've had, when I was trapped in hopeless situations, and waking up was the only deliverance, except that in this case, I can't wake up. What I mean is that I can't exit this reality, and enter one more desirable, as one does in the case of waking up from a dream. I've been searching for a long time for someone who genuinely feels the way I do. I'm 100% alone in my situation, and it would be nice not to feel so alone. If you really deep-down understand the angst I'm feeling, feel free to drop me a line (send me a private message), because I'm guessing you could use someone to talk to as well. Thanks, and all the best!

Hello my friends at actualized.com forum, I'm studying the self-help subject for almost 3 years. I watch a lot of Leo videos. read a lot of books and practice techniques like affirmations, meditation and graduate. I have a problem that bugging me and don't give me rest, maybe you will be able to give some good advice. In my childhood people were always laughing at me the one of my eyes is bigger then the other one, even my friends were doing this and gave me some hard insult. The all thing influenced me and made me fall to depression. social anxiety. fear with the other sex and self-hatred. every time that I thought that my depression is gone someone was coming and gave me a nasty comment that will knock me out into depression again. I need you to understand that the real deference between my eyes wasnt that bad, the deference was there but I guess it wasnt that severe like I thought. Bad friends and people made me belive that im so abnormal or an alien When I became 21 years old I decided to change my eyes with cosmetic surgery (tarshorpy if someone heard about it) The surgery went down successfully and now a days my eyes are really symmetric and no one can tell the difference between them anymore I worked on my self and got over my depression and social anxiety I did better with girls and all, but.. from that surgery I got another problem - the eye that was surged got a very little scar on the side of the eye. This scar is driving me insane, for more than 2 years I'm thinking about it for almost every single day. I compare my eye to other people eyes and always remember this scar again and again I need you to understand that no one ever noticed the scar even not my girlfriends, it is something that only I can see. I went back to the doctor and he also told me that the scar is so little that no one can see it, but it didn't help I cant get my self out of thinking about it. I have tried everything in order to deal with it - I'm meditating for more than a year straight without missing a day and im doing affirmations and graduate practice for half a year I tried breathing exercises and talked to my friends. from my work on my self I start getting here and there some peace from this thought for week here and there but this thought is always coming back this cosmetic surgery is reversible so i can reverse it back and undo the scar but then im afraid that I will go back to suffering from the childhood issues and i understand that inner issue wont solve with outer changes. What do you think I should do??? im also thinking that if im doing affirmation that are specific for my problem I will be feeding the "devil" thoughts. Thank you!!!! .

So I was reading this book called the Law of One (Full length PDF can be found here) and I found it to contain some valuable information. It was also an eye opener for me to see how my level of open-mindedness has increased drastically in the past few years, but with that came the fear that I was being too open-minded. A quote came to mind: "It's good to keep your mind open, but not so open that your brain falls out". The book is written in a question/answer format between the questioner and the alien race "Ra" speaking through a woman. This was rather easy for me to accept however I found it troubling that I could never really know for sure, save for some personal experience with channeling or the people involved in the book. The main goal of Ra was to communicate the Law of One which is basically non-duality so in that aspect there was a lot of good information. The part that was really challenging to believe, but equally challenging to disbelieve was when they would talk of the "Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator". Its basically an organization of around (in their words)five hundred planetary consciousness complexes who have gone beyond our third dimension and into the fourth fifth and beyond. Essentially they exist to serve other beings in their process of spiritual development. Ra talks about how they evolved through the second third and fourth dimensions as a "social memory complex" on the planet Venus, as well as talking about many other races and things happening in space. For example they discuss the "Orion group" which is a particularly malevolent group that they claim cause all sorts of problems here on earth. This kind of information is rather abundant, as is information about many other cosmological events. I found it much harder to make use of this sort of information due to the fact that I cant just pick out the wisdom like when they were talking about non-duality. I would first have to buy into the whole alien confederation stuff before I could do so. My gut feeling is that this is a genuine example of someone channeling an alien race, and I would love to use this information to widen my knowledge of the happenings in this reality. Just like learning about what's happening in Iraq, Pakistan, or Palestine, I would think it beneficial to know about what's happening with other planets and other races. Because of the fact that I have no direct experience with this matter I feel like I cannot really make use of this information, as much as I would like to. Come to think of it I really don't have any experience with the events in Palestine either. I guess the main purpose I have in bringing this up is to get some other opinions on what to do when you come across information like this. Should I believe this information just like when I learn about a different country? After all they both seem to be hearsay until I have direct experiences. I understand the acquiring more beliefs is counter-productive to enlightenment work however I am currently at a stage where I find much joy and meaning in figuring out the little pieces of the universe we find ourselves in. If the information contained in this book is factual then our understanding of our place in the universe will change dramatically. Should I proceed as if true and follow my gut (like when I learn things about foreign governments and societies here on earth) or should I dismiss it due to the possibility that it is just a made up story? Does anyone have any experience with Ra? Or people involved with the book? Are there other sources that confirm what the book is saying? Anyway I highly recommend reading this book regardless because it really does contain some valuable information about non-duality and advancing yourself as a human :). I appreciate any feedback anybody has to offer

,the unique essence of people is seen, so interestingly alien yet familiar when I look at people I have that same feeling as when I was a kid and I discovered a new pokemon that mysterious fun wonderful discovery of a creature, of infinity, so different, such fun and odd shapes, such a treat! people look so small now, in an innocent way, it feels like I'm a fantasy world, and sometimes it feels like Im in a science fiction movie, a super futuristic one when I look at a video, a movie or a picture its like its happening right now its a dream come true, and its the beginning I hope sharing this helps make imagination grow

This will be a story about my experience with developing psychic abilities. I am only doing this for educational purposes. I do not recommend anything I did. Also note that everything I say is not provable. I am only recounting my personal experience. I am now 22. I have changed a whole hell of a lot. I follow a very heart centered path now. Keep an open mind here. Reality is weirder than you could ever imagaine. When I was about 13-14 I started getting into Black Metal. Which lead me to Satanism. Like many young man I felt weak and wanted something to feel powerful. I was heavily bullied at school and needed something to feel strong about. I do not associate with Satanism at all anymore. My parents are atheist and never taught me about religion. When I realized I was gay my dislike of Christianity grew very intense. I hated religion (but somehow found myself in a even crazier religion - let’s just say I was at stage blue/orange in this time of my life). I started pouring over the Joy Of Satan website. The website looks like it is something right from the 90s. Please note I was not aware of their anti-semitic nature until later in my life. I was more concerned with their spiritual teachings. I do not endorse them what so ever. I would say only look at the site for entertainment purposes. I will not link it here. On their site they had a list of meditation to open chakras, energy meditations, and meditations to open psychic centers. When I found this I went to town on them. I meditated everyday. I erracted a huge Satanic altar and did rituals. I tried to summon demons and open portals. I got very good at meditating and doing the visualizations. Maybe because I honestly believed in what I was doing. Most kids went home to play video games I went home to worship the devil and try to see demons. I at one point tried to literally sell my soul for better musical ability. I laugh at this now. So, through all of this work I was able to see my aura. After many attempts I was able to see a blue energy emanating from my body. I was also able to meditate myself into a highly euphoric state (like that of cannabis use). My rituals were filled with energy. I developed a keen sense of intuition. At first it was interesting and my rituals became more intense. My sister (who also into this stuff) was able to speak to me from a distant without saying a word. She also told me that should could hear bells after she opened her psychic hearing. One day after I came home from school. Something very scary happened. It felt like there was someone else in my head. I felt like I was being attacked. I thought the evil of the world was coming to kill me. I could hear voices that were not mine. This prompted me to stop what I was doing. I had the biggest ego backlash every. I became a hard nose rationalist. I turned away from spirituality. I went on a binge of self destruction that lasted years. I didn’t want to feel like I was part of an unseen world filled with beings that might want to hurt me. I turned to drugs to basically numb myself of these extrasensory feelings. This does not prove there is a heaven or hell. This does not prove that there is alien force trying to get you. This honestly proves very little. Now I am left with some things. I did have a full Kundalini awakening at age 15. I sometimes have the feelings of a presence (ghost, angels, whatever else). I have been able to channel different things. I can occasionally see my aura. My third eye goes crazy sometimes. This stuff is not for everyone. It can be quite intense. I can’t really tell you how it exist. When I did these things when I was younger I was not very heart centered. I was full of fear and powerlessness. I guess I did it for all the wrong reasons and it bit back at me hard. Now my spiritual path is very deep and intense. I have had several profound awakening experiences. I have even experienced my own death several times. I feel the truth is not really speakable. In the silence I know all I need to. I do not pursue this stuff anymore. I work on my chakras every now and then. I do see it as a sidetrack to a spiritual practice. I would say don’t chase after this stuff. It will reflect back to you all the negativity you harbor. If you do so do it out of love. I thank Leo for bringing me back to a pure spiritual path. I am now 22. I am going to college for Sound Design. I am working on being a musician. I am the happiest I ever been. Sober and very health conscious. I blessed to be where I am now. Thank you for reading this. May you be blessed

Why? Whether you are all fooled or you are into this... All this enlightening bullshit comes to opening your body for soul exchange - in common language: possesion by demon/alien/satan- whatever! I neded to be exorcised to get rid of it! Jesus Christ is the way! Dont get fooled! You are manipulated by very, i mean very inteligent beings! They are so smart and sneaky! Theyll start to separate you from Jesus, then they separate you from friends, then theyll try to separate you from those who you love - all this enlightening process is designed to manipulate you so that you allow for this. Then desparately youll be looking for salvation and guess what ‚pursuit enlightement’ - First it feels like you are getting nirvana, then your whole life is getting more and more well arranged, then you are getting spiritual experiences that feels like wakeing up. (Its unconcious devil contract. They are climbing through energetic spine from the base to your brain. If they get into your brain then its ‚game over’ - they got your body (guess). The nirvana feeling is impregnating your spirit with ‚it’ - i guess. If your free will is distorted by ‚something’ then its attached to you! Its not normal. Read possesion syndromes if you have some then pray to Jesus Christ and talk with exorcist. THEY are waching biological pairing to get the right targets since ages. If you or your parents saw light orbs on the sky then be aware of it because you might be the target. They planed to get me before i was even born! Its alien hijacking of conciousness and body! This spiritual notion is mind program to get you all fooled! They want to conceptualized ‚reality’ in such a way that you belive you are god! NO! You you are part of the God! THEY are separated from creation-from God and they want to get back to it using us! This whole awakening process is to separate you from the true God! Cant belive its hapening! Its important - Dont open your eyes when you feel to wake up! Pray to Jesus Christ and get in contact with exorcist-youll not belive what you were holding/or what hold you (i was sceptic too)! They somehow are afraid of Jesus Christ. If you spell his name loud and your body start shakeing vibrainting etc then its like torch getting lit to your salvation - keep it lit and get rid of this energetic parasite through Jesus Christ with a help of exorcist. @Leo Gura i honestly dont know what is in your case since you are using psyhodelics and maybe you werent hijacked, but please reconsider talking about this till it will be to late for all of ‚spiritual developers’. Its very dangerous and you are not even aware of the danger which is very real. There is plenty videos and relations of what i wrote - its real. Please dont play the chosen one by something ‚higher’ - its dumb thing that is propagated unconciously also to fool you. Please spread this message and give your relation if you experienced/noticed that too! Its all alien trojan horse. Be aware of the moon and the grey aliens and their flying orbs! In the name of Jesus Christ the one and only true Son of God that came to bring salvation to us please take this message to your heart till it will be to late in the last days for those who were fooled... I was into this ‚conciousness/new age’ things too so ill understand if you call me crazy or ‚not enlightened’ or Christian beliver - few months ago i would do that too... please be vigilant Christian. If you have no control over your body and you are ‚observer’ then you were fooled.... There is free will!

Ok, so for most of today I’ve felt this weird kinda of refreshing emptiness, it feels weird to feel different in the same places you always are... It seems that I feel differently each time I walk from the studio to the house. There is infinite hope, but pressing acknowledgement of the dissatisfaction I feel towards the level of progress I’m making... I am aware that I ACTUALLY CAN have everything I want spiritually as well as materialistically, but there is an invisible barrier... a barrier that is clearly understood to be emotional (I find this as I meditate) I meditated this morning as soon as I woke up for about 14 minutes... it was strenuous but dude you’ll get there MATE you will one day be meditating for an hour a day, and experiencing the effects. You will be able to EXPECT shit you want to happen JUST like you currently expect to be an awkward fuck, making an alien outta yourself, not expressing your true self. You have the power- and I don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks- to induce happiness in EVERYONE you interact with, by just relaxing. Funny shit comes when you feel comfortable in the situation. What seems to make you feel uncomfortable? (All of which are actually as completely natural and divine as bacon) • Fucking incest. • Engaging in the social hierarchy, actually being the hotshot in the room, and in doing so being able to reveal the true nature of everyone in the room (choosing to boost everyone’s self esteem) • Understanding that at the most simple level reproduction is powering everything everyone does • That I am not actually being arrogant when I have the thought ‘I can make friends with, attract, and have sex with ANY girl in here’, I can actually CHOOSE. Who else but real alphas and rapey betas feel they can choose who they mate with? Even repa’s can only choose females that they can physically access But yeah anyway I’m on the studio couch at the moment, the piss I accidentally pissed on it is starting to rot or what ever, the smell is strong I got my guitar back the other day, so now I can record that song (I could’ve anyway really couldn’t I?) I am wary not set any limit on bad boi davvy dav to: only be a musician, all mastery is, is being able to use something to sufficiently express yourself, like how you become a slave to a devil as it possesses you, fuckin possess the guitar how to find genuine, down to earth musicians? Be genuine and down to earth This means live true to yourself which means you can express how you feel Also- no fap bitch I’m on like 2days, on probably my 20th try, it’s get hard af once your favourite genre becomes alien porn. As soon as I give myself 5 seconds to observe my mind activity it’s just whirring audio memories like the chorus of happy house, and I know there is invisible video memory overplayed of even my keyboard as I type. I am fearful of getting shit I want because I’m fearful of the emotional discomfort I might experience to get it- 2 years ago I would have said shut the fuck up to myself you are fuelling the problem by believing it is integrated into you. What is YOU? Let go of being just this person, there is nothing you are not, you are the smell of piss I am so insecure ^^^^^^ ‘I’??? You’re believing again... human, be freee imagine if I said ‘you don’t have to give a fuck about David anymore, him, his neighbours, his friends and the global population are gonna live their lives and you get to watch’ Meditate meditate ate meditate meditate meditate meditate meditate one last thing- when you truly express yourself, I bet you’ll find that you’ll get people reacting like ‘oh damn, he just said exactly what I was feeling!’ ‘He understands me’. This is because the greatest illusion of all is true: what everyone believes they are... IS THE EXACT SAME (non)THING!!!! a shitty green Volvo and a nice slick black Volvo are both Volvos literally, when you see people walking down the street, the psychological apparatus you are using to be aware of them is identical to what they are using to look out at the passing Volvos Until tomorrow ??

Ok, so for most of today I’ve felt this weird kinda of refreshing emptiness, it feels weird to feel different in the same places you always are... It seems that I feel differently each time I walk from the studio to the house. There is infinite hope, but pressing acknowledgement of the dissatisfaction I feel towards the level of progress I’m making... I am aware that I ACTUALLY CAN have everything I want spiritually as well as materialistically, but there is an invisible barrier... a barrier that is clearly understood to be emotional (I find this as I meditate) I meditated this morning as soon as I woke up for about 14 minutes... it was strenuous but dude you’ll get there MATE you will one day be meditating for an hour a day, and experiencing the effects. You will be able to EXPECT shit you want to happen JUST like you currently expect to be an awkward fuck, making an alien outta yourself, not expressing your true self. You have the power- and I don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks- to induce happiness in EVERYONE you interact with, by just relaxing. Funny shit comes when you feel comfortable in the situation. What seems to make you feel uncomfortable? (All of which are actually as completely natural and divine as bacon) • Fucking incest. • Engaging in the social hierarchy, actually being the hotshot in the room, and in doing so being able to reveal the true nature of everyone in the room (choosing to boost everyone’s self esteem) • Understanding that at the most simple level reproduction is powering everything everyone does • That I am not actually being arrogant when I have the thought ‘I can make friends with, attract, and have sex with ANY girl in here’, I can actually CHOOSE. Who else but real alphas and rapey betas feel they can choose who they mate with? Even repa’s can only choose females that they can physically access But yeah anyway I’m on the studio couch at the moment, the piss I accidentally pissed on it is starting to rot or what ever, the smell is strong I got my guitar back the other day, so now I can record that song (I could’ve anyway really couldn’t I?) I am wary not set any limit on bad boi davvy dav to: only be a musician, all mastery is, is being able to use something to sufficiently express yourself, like how you become a slave to a devil as it possesses you, fuckin possess the guitar how to find genuine, down to earth musicians? Be genuine and down to earth This means live true to yourself which means you can express how you feel Also- no fap bitch I’m on like 2days, on probably my 20th try, it’s get hard af once your favourite genre becomes alien porn. As soon as I give myself 5 seconds to observe my mind activity it’s just whirring audio memories like the chorus of happy house, and I know there is invisible video memory overplayed of even my keyboard as I type. I am fearful of getting shit I want because I’m fearful of the emotional discomfort I might experience to get it- 2 years ago I would have said shut the fuck up to myself you are fuelling the problem by believing it is integrated into you. What is YOU? Let go of being just this person, there is nothing you are not, you are the smell of piss I am so insecure ^^^^^^ ‘I’??? You’re believing again... human, be freee imagine if I said ‘you don’t have to give a fuck about David anymore, him, his neighbours, his friends and the global population are gonna live their lives and you get to watch’ Meditate meditate ate meditate meditate meditate meditate meditate one last thing- when you truly express yourself, I bet you’ll find that you’ll get people reacting like ‘oh damn, he just said exactly what I was feeling!’ ‘He understands me’. This is because the greatest illusion of all is true: what everyone believes they are... IS THE EXACT SAME (non)THING!!!! a shitty green Volvo and a nice slick black Volvo are both Volvos literally, when you see people walking down the street, the psychological apparatus you are using to be aware of them is identical to what they are using to look out at the passing Volvos Until tomorrow ??

Hey guys, I thought that this might be interesting for ya'll, so I wanted to share my experience from yesterdays involuntary Weed trip. I've never been into Weed as I view it as a distraction, however yesterday a good friend of mine asked if I wanted to chill out in the park and smoke some of his "best stuff". So we did. I took about four hits (no tobacco, approx. 0,15g max.). First thing I noticed was that I instantly relaxed. All the tension in my body just melted off. Quite similar to a mushroom trip. Then the Oregano went off... When looking at the plants in the park my perspective shifted inside out. I literally was that which I was looking at when I looked at it long enough. Not like "focusing on it". It was like "I am everything all at once". It felt like a switch being flipped. My body was just a part of everything. Like something carved out of consciousness. It even felt a little alien. It felt like I was everything that I could sense and my body feelings where just "in the mix". No separation. It could have all been a painted picture. No thing as empty space. No three-dimensionalty. Just all made of the same stuff. And kinda wonky too. And when my friend said something there came a small thought like "Oh, now it would be appropriate to say something... so put on your human hat for a second". That was rather surprising, not even shocking... more like "how could it be otherwise?". Interesting to note is that my breathing stopped completely when I was in this state. To get into it I just had to look at something for 5 seconds and then the switch flipped. I had to remind myself to breathe cause I was worried I might die. Also I was completely still. No movement at all. I think this was because Weed kinda dumbs down the senses and makes everything slower. Quite the opposite to "real" psychedelics but still far from your regular state of consciousness. Another thing I noticed was that I could feel my chakras ALOT. Later that evening I was lying on the couch and thought to myself "Hmm, I haven't done my 2nd meditation of the day... so I might as well do it now.". So I went into meditation just lying there and visualizing my chakras opening one by one. I could feel every single chakra immediately. Might be bc. of Yoga/Meditation but this was very surprising to me. I also learned a bunch. Here are my takeaways: I carry around ALOT of stiffness (walking, talking, being). If I want to be more comfortable with ppl. and have more fun in general it's crucial to get loose. I go hard all week with my practices, yoga, business and dayjob... sometimes it's good to just relax and be in a vegetable state haha. When you want to improve your talking skills get rid of tension in your body. Especially in your jaw and throat (tension is unconscious, relaxation requires consciousness + work on your throat chakra). If you're a little stiff when talking to ppl. RELAX. Get loose. And especially: Lower your standards of what you say out loud. Just talk and amuse yourself. And when it's time to listen and connect, listen and connect. (This was a big one for me as I invest most of my life's energy into work and self actualization. Having fun is important as well haha). My favorite insight: Every single instance of your life is a little adventure and journey. I was sitting with my friend in the metro and it just came to me that we were both just 100% in the moment, not giving a shit, having fun, cracking jokes, talking about life and it just felt magical. Not even because we were together. It would have been the same if I was alone. It would just have been another kind of adventure. I felt like a hobbit from Lord of the Rings lol. Every instance and even the most ordinary moments are magical. Our ego just drowns it out. I realized that this is one of the prime directives in my life: Make life magical again (If anybody got practices for this, let me know!) Material life kinda sucks. I imagined myself having a trophy wife and going to a fancy dinner with another couple. All stiff, glammed up and talking about boring business stuff. Holy lord... this would suck SO bad. You can have so much more fun spending tim in nature, deeply connecting and just being. Be spontaneous. Listen to what your emotions are telling you and then just go with it every once in a while (maybe even all the time, once your intuition is sharp). The power of SOFTNESS: This one sums it up for me. Softness is a much more fun and effortless way of life. As a guy I always unconsciously thought I had to be alpha, stiff and keep my shoulders back and chin up. This is a fucking joke lol. Once I commited to softness I felt literally a shell break in my body. It was about a centimeter below my skin. It was hard and thin and then it broke. After that I was just completely loose. Not resisting. Just myself. We talked to some girls and spent the evening with them and I just felt no pressure at all. We just talked, had fun and enjoyed it. I realized girls don't want that stiff gym rat. They want to be silly. Like kids. Just like a real man So all in all this was quite a journey. The peak was about 40 minutes, then it went down but lasted overall for about 5 hours. I'm still not really a fan of weed. And I will stick to the "good stuff", however don't underestimate it... Hope you enjoyed! - Cheers

@Dodo when I say Alien, I mean an unknown entity/ being/ consciousness. Be mindful of what you consider an alien. Some people have fear of the world alien because of cultural background subconscious. And it's real to my experience. What do you call real? It's not real as your grandmother. It's another level of reality. Reality have so many layers, and none of them are totally true . The totality is the truth, not the individual. All I say to you is that it's not creepy. It's so loving and motherly. You don't need to do it. You will get a calling when if you are ready one day, and you can choose your path. There are many paths. There are many teachers. And yes, it did left me. We have a mutual understanding. She/he/it is not there to harm me. She is here to teach, heal and make you remember.

@Samra So there was an alien who went inside of you and sort of like possessed you? If I understood correctly. Was that alien only part of your imagination do you think or was it as real as I would say my grandmother is? That sounds creepy as hell. Do you think, if it is a real entity, that it has left your system? Sorry im a newbie in this area.

That's mostly advice for guys. Guys we are not born with sexual abundance like hot women are. A woman who is hot like you, you go out tonight with a pretty little dress on and some make-up and you are going to get fucked by a guy who is atleast 8/10 attractive if you just make it a little bit easy for him. 100% guarantee that will happen. But let's say me, I am not a bad looking guy, and I got some game. But it's in no way a guaranteed that if I want to have sex tonight I will get it. Between 7-14 days from now, yeah I would say it is guaranteed. (Considering I have to go from scratch at this point in time.) But tonight? No way is that guaranteed. It's a very different thing. I think it's hard for both a guy and a girl to really walk in each other's shoes on that point. It's like Alien.

@Xenomorf I am not offended or discouraged at all. I don't quite understand what you mean by managing love or the subtleness of believing in good/bad to the extent that you sacrifice too much. Could you please elaborate? From a dualistic perspective, I do believe that humanity, nature, and earth should continue to grown into a singular organism. Society should begin to function as well as individual living organisms already do. We are the cells forming a more macroscopic organism, we just aren't cooperating as well as the cells of our own bodies. Surely we aren't the only organisms in this Universe on the same path. Maybe organisms grow into infinity both micro and macroscopically. Maybe we'll merge into an even higher organism with an alien organism. I can only dream... haha. I really admire your mission to unify Science and Spirituality. I think science has turned a blind eye to the intuitive side of things. Yin needs Yang and vice versa. Humans usually find some sort of truth before science is able to explain it in any materialistic capacity. I don't have enough experience with nonduelism yet to deeply grasp spirituality. Just some hints of experiences. Yeah, I am a programmer. Actually I am focusing on AI. I want to be part of using it for good and mitigating its dangers, because whether we like it or not, it's already impacting our society. It will be the most powerful tool humans have found. Maybe, eventually, even the new brain for our Earth organism .

Yesterday I smoked weed, like I've done so many times before, but it hit me pretty hard. I started hearing a high frequency noise that sounded very Alien that kept going on in my left ear. When I stood up, I fainted and blacked out on the coffee table but got back up. Then I walked up the stairs into my bedroom and fell on the floor and hit my head and back (I assume pretty hard). All of reality became a blur and I fainted. My housemate got me a glass of water and took care of me. This is where the experience started. First, I experienced an infinite loop that I couldn't get out of. The same image and the same words kept reappearing and all these visuals spawned out of itself, for infinity. I had to deny something. If I didn't deny that particular thing / phrase / sentence, fear would take over my reality. By constantly denying this phrase I could reach the light. It was very difficult for me to deny this phrase, whatever it was, but eventually I denied it so many times I escaped the loop. Slowly my visual field kicked back in but it was different this time. I was sitting on the floor in a meditative position and I had the deep realization that that moment was all there ever was. My whole life as a story was complete BS and all it ever was was me sitting on the floor in that position. Every human ever has only ever sat in that meditative position. I was still in childhood. I FINALLY realized the nature of reality. All it EVER was was that. Time was a complete joke ... the funniest joke I'd ever heard. I said to my housemate that I finally understood the comparison between enlightenment and an orgasm because a few minutes of this were absolutely orgasmic. So, what on EARTH should I make of this?

@Alien Same. But for me Spirituality is an English-only thing. Contemplating or talking about any of these concepts in German feels just wrong and even kind of silly tbh.

@Nahm Im not looking for a way to enter the Now. Maybe this is not the right discussion board. I can let my "why" go, its not bothering me. Im just having fun with my mind here. Like Leo had in his last episode about context. Where he challanged the context with the fun example of alien life feeding on human emotions. What you are telling me is, that we can never experience or understand why infinity exists, in existence, because the question becomes redundant/can not be as soon as you experience infinity?

Man... I guess you're right... I mean most of our medical discoveries, especially plastic surgery, came about because of Nazi Scientists in WWII... I guess I do see the "benefits" we have received from it, but it doesn't stop it from feeling so wrong and alien to me... I hate how many people have to die because of greed and fear of one group getting more "powerful" than us.. It feels like there is so much evil in the world and I know it's only like that because of the access we have to all the information online.. Truth is, I think we are living in the best time, so far. Like what would be the alternative? I'm often mistaken for African American so there isn't really any time in the past that would be too inviting to me lol Man this whole thing has my mind spinning guess I'm just too low on the "Spiral Dynamics" spectrum to see the big picture. It just makes so much more sense to just be indifferent towards each other. We don't have to agree of like what others do or believe, but it's their right to do it, just like it's our right. Plus it takes so much less energy to just not care about our differences. I don't know... Maybe I'm just too naive and idealistic....

yes, times when I am emotionally disturbed the changes are integrated differently I've had times where I barely felt could walk straight, having to get used to how my legs feel and move, at worst I almost felt like a lost wild animal in a city, completely losing my composure and feeling like an alien in the city, standing out when I go through changes, its everything at once, new visuals, new body, new senses, new time, new space,for the most of it this happens comfortably actually , Im in a stream most of time, out of thoughts, but during emotional disturbances it can get different but it always ends well this is literally non-duality, I feel people's bodies and emotions a thousand times more then I felt my emotion and body before I began consciousness work Im literally being other people far more intensely then I was being myself in the past the people that I see now are entirely my own perception, their faces and bodies have evolved in rythm with my consciousness and chakra blooming, the human body feels entirely connected to me I do not have an idea what people looked like 2 months ago, even less 2 years ago before all this, if I were to make an honest comparison from my memory, human beings 2 years ago, you can take a kids 2D drawing of a tree, a drawing about the size of your thumb, and put it next to a gigangic real life tree , this is humans now, this is the comparison,not even exaggerating, unimaginable these are the dimensions in which the human body has changed for me, in terms of liveliness, colours, details, volume, the increase in space is seriously the most mindblowing factor so I know what I see is entirely related to me, and I do not have a clue how other people see the world,and in a week I'll be seeing other things, I legitly feel like im looking beautiful mythical creatures,elves and trolls and aliens yet still human the concept itself of other people is starting to sound very vague, if I were to meet anyone on this forum I know I would have the same feeling as the one I do when I look at the mirror in private if anything this forum might be one of the last places where I do not see myself and I feel like there are "others" out there anyone I see I live them as me, ive long stopped meeting strangers, that illusion stopped somewhere along the way online though I cant see you so I cant live you, its not as simple, this forum is seriously the last place where I can meet so called others lol, honestly, its like the last bastion of earthly human beings for me, out there its just full on dreamscape

So I smoked weed with my friend today and as I was walking back home ( I was still high ) I started feeling like theres a presence and feelings or vibrations that you tap into when youre high that you can't access when you're sober, I get this feeling a lot when I smoke weed, it feels like how I would imagine I would be if one thing was different about our planet like a different amount of different gases or the size of the earth was a bit smaller or bigger and it made humans evolve into me ( like our ancestors have hadthe best genes so survived and created us ). I don't know if it makes sense to people who don't smoke weed Basically, it feel as if I'm an alien or like I have different eyes. Something about my experience whilst I'm high feels very raw and fragile, i know how crazy this sounds btw lol. So then I figured hold on I'm getting these messages in the form of my own thoughts, only it didn't feel like it came from me. I felt as if there was some sort of presence that I tapped into. And my consciousness/ experience was very raw here like a snake shedding its skin in this state. It told me things. Like " It's not eaten with a spoon ". My natural reaction to this was that it's reffering to enlightenment. You cannot eat it and feel good from it and it's not done using the conventional ego desire system in our experience. So, you can't consume enlightenment and it cannot be eaten and cannot be grasped by our human domination on the earth with tools. Am I making any sense? Also it told me "you choose the voice in your head" So my thoughts and beliefs are in my control so I better make positive ones. I felt as if related to my social anxiety and negative attitude and neuroris in general. Then when the weed was coming down I felt like it was an angel talking to the ego mind from god. This sounds weird I know. Maybe angels are thoughts or that voice that tells you to meditate or when you have a realisation about reality and your experience( possibly a kensho experience ) And the devil might be the enticing thoughts and energy and desires that keep you attached. So far the devil has won. Anyone had experiences like this? Lol I felt so crazy whilst this was happening lol :DD Edit: Also this was sparked after I left my friends to go home. I started thinking that they weren't really my true friends. The guy I was with most of the day was a dickhead to me like making fun of me and shit and Idk didn't seem like there was love there you know between people. He seemed very acidic to me. I think this because he kept calling me a retard whilst i was making jokes and shit and kept saying i need to slap you. And when he was on the phone to my friend he was talking bad about me so I just started looking at it like hold on, why am I spending time with people who don't give a fuck about me? People that don't love me? I'm not saying like homosexual love, but just friendship acceptance and support. It became very clear that I shouldn't spend time with people like that. Also it told me that when I'm taking drugs like alcohol, cigarettes, caffeine, porn, masturbation and weed I'm running from reality. But there's nowhere to run lol. So I should just chill out and be with it. Edit:.. Also I made a joke I thought was genius. What sexuality is a spliff ( joint )? Bisexual because it's 50 percent fa* ( tobbacco )

the truth of the universe is inside you have never lived outside of it, you have never been outside of it, that is what makes the truth the truth, it is what is regardless of your thoughts, beliefs, world views, concepts, age, whatever it is, it has always been part of the truth when you were taking your first steps as a toddler, the truth is there when you eat ice cream, the truth of the universe is right there with you when you walk outside, going through some thoughts of listening to music, the truth of life is with you when you're with friends or family, sharing a moment, the truth is here when you're on the toilet, peeing, shitting, here is the truth of all things can you look for and find the truth at the end of the universe in a exotic alien civilization?yes at the end of many thoughts and concepts?yes, in your favourite guru? after many mushroom or lsd or dmt trips?yes, yes the truth is everywhere, so it will be there as well the truth is always with you, like your best buddy, perhaps we are unconscious of it, we dont notice it, get to know this friend, that is with you every moment yes, we might not be fully aware of the truth, but its not to be found outside of what we have, no guru or dmt trip can give you whats already there, they could open your eyes more to the fact that its here that you will find truth, still it is up to one to open his or her eyes to what is here the truth of the universe is literally in one of your feelings right now, it is something you know and experience now the truth is very familiar so my advice, when you're out and about in your daily life, take a small moment to recognize and be aware that the truth of the universe is with you right here, right now, it is somewhere here, it might not be felt fully, it might be a small sliver of truth, but it is here, somewhere in this moment, you are feeling the truth of the universe, the connection to all life, to all of creation, the universal beingness somewhere in your feelings, here, now

Hello ! I have a few and try to keep them simple Yes/No Have your eyes change color from blue to green ? ( Based on observation from older to newer videos ) Have you listened to Black Metal when you were an atheist ? Have you considered the importance of good use of Sacred Geometry in multiple disciplines ? One word answer Horde / Alliance ? What Science Fiction/Fantasy character you empathized with most ? What is alien : thought or material ? Do you think thoughtfully applied Artificial Intelligence will destroy the world or humans will do that job in their blindness ?

They aren't a cure-all, but their potential has been waaaay underinvestigated by modern methods. And Leo looks like a Zen devil alien in that picture.

Yeah that was one of the most creepy scenes. Definately a creepy spiritual / evolution / alien / sci-fi movie. It has so many subtle stuff that you may miss and the meaning behind the scenes are vague. This is the kind of movie i would have disliked before I got to know about all the stuff Leo talks about This scene was pretty much spiritual, a fragmented mind: @Quanty Did you notice the subtle things happening with the the ouroboros infinity tattoo?