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Well cmon leo, don't be pessimistic. I might incarnate in an alien in an alian sociaty who lives in more unconditional love. By the way, if by your belief im god, i also can choose to incarnate in whatever i want. Right? If you incarnate in an animal. you would not be self conscious of your suffering. right?

A profound realization, which ‘sticks’, is coming. I can feel it in the bones in your regard. Can feel your doneness. Loving it. That is not pain. That is suffering. The difference, at least initially, is you’re causing one but not the other. Inspecting & realizing precisely how you are doing this is the key. Then, you can no longer actually create suffering. Pain, you might encounter, but that is transcend-able too. Ideally, this will be a bit triggering, and you’ll feel into any reactionary feeling....not a single word of that has any truth whatsoever. It’s a sympathetic intention, a story about a you that you keep retelling. It has zero truth whatsoever. If you’re going to continue story telling, tell the story you actually want, that feels good to you. Again, this is a story about a you. You’re made of passion. There are billions of options for friends, and as many common interests available to make them. “I” can not feel lonely. Uncover the label of lonely. It’s a write off, a cover up. A thought being taken to be feeling, but it’s not. Feel the loneliness then, don’t settle for thinking which doesn’t resonate, about it. Feel the feeling so deeply and profoundly, that it is either seen through and disappears, or it explodes into full realization of what it really is. That is subtle blaming. Instead, recognize you’re believing thoughts, believing a narrative about a you. You (can’t say this loud enough) are not actually passive whatsoever. That is a facade of suppression, of an infinite creator, of love yourself. Contemplate - where do desire & passion actually come from? Don’t take that they have a source for granted. Literally - inspect and find the source. Where are they coming from? Your parents? Ha! The sun?? Find the source which shatters every possibility of any doubt. Experience is the point of experience. You’re creating as you go, but yet to notice this. Fascinating life of a world traveler, or bored, passive, Settling for a narrative, blame, complaining, self doubt, etc - up to you. Nobody is coming my man. This ain’t no rehearsal. You’re already free - drop the bringing of the story of a you everywhere you go - and you’ll have fun & friends coming out of your ears, so to speak. Make a dreamboard. Get honest with desire. Shed all limiting beliefs, as reality becomes what you are wanting right before your eyes. Go into & through desire & passion, into The Self. It waits there for you. It’ll unconditionally wait for eternity. It can not do otherwise, as it is eternal & unconditional. That, that is your best friend. Been waiting all this time. Loving you. Knowing you. Wanting all for you, that you honestly desire. You have a conscience. Listen to it. Prior to every word you speak or type, listen to it. FEEL...and then. If you struggle to feel desire & passion, simply remain silent. It is unstoppable, and when thoughts are let go, it floats, rises. That is it’s nature. You’re normal. Bland. Plain. Common. (You know I say this to trigger, so you can feel those limiting beliefs & let them go simply by recognizing how they feel.) Weird is nothing, haven’t even started. Get outta that kiddie pool. Infinite love is mayhem. Love it. Don’t judge it. Yeah, mayhem. Love & understand it. That is transcendence / (trance dance). Lighten up. Loosen up. Laugh it up. Look at the weirdness, the craziness, and laugh. Break the mold of your mind. Don’t expect any one to be like minded. Look to share common interests. You eat, I eat. We’re already friends via the common interest of food. Don’t be picky, see how easy it is. Nobody dictates your acceptance or value. The feeling of Goodness which you are attributing to the actions, words or behaviors of others - is you. Don’t give you away in thought, in that manor. Use a pad of paper. Make a list of everything you don’t want. Then, leave it. For hours, or a day or two depending on how much undesirable emotion arose. Relax and completely allow it to clear. Then, go back to your list and write the opposite next to each thing you wrote. You’ve then derived what you do want, as well as shifted your attention & focus to it. Fell good. Milk the shit out of feeling good as you write the dream on your dreamboard. Let go of every and all thoughts about a future you doing anything. Reality is unconditional and will become it. You’re inevitably realize, this is already and always has been, the actuality. Again - don’t suppress, feel every feeling, so to speak. Be a student of feeling & emotion. Great. Now play in want, without attachment. And even that is not yet to have begun. Monks & no desires is a story you’re believing. Feel your way there. Be honest to where you’re at. You can skip on the path, but you can sip the path. Increase knowledge of spiral dynamics & listen to Abe Hicks. Or don’t. Again, always up to you. Don’t attach to the knowledge, allow it to come and go, to be your now ledge until which actuality unfolds. No past, no stories or narratives dragged into now. No future, and no worrying about it. Now only. Get serious about this attachment to thoughts. Stopping fucking around. Burden is felt. Feeling is telling you you’re full of shit. You’re not listening. Instead, you’re contextualizing & labeling feeling as “burden”. You believe you’re “alien” and lonely....then act surprised when what you pursue is aligned with your beliefs. Stop being so surprised. Start loving you, us, them, it, etc. LOVE unabashedly. Love the ability to see through your own bullshit stories. Love you. Indeed there is. You’re choosing to the delusion for lack of inspecting line. Up to you to let that thought go, or believe & express it. Up to you to hand your authority over to someone on a silver plate. (Again, triggering, loving you ? sometimes only a slap accross the face will do. Keep a look out for me as well. We all need one from time to time). Indeed. There isn’t even an identify or battle. That would still be narrative of the mind hijacking. In true humility, there isn’t a problem, or that story about a problem & solution. Stop underestimating that what is let go no longer exists, and you begin to realize the pure magic of attention & focus. You’re effortlessly creating, effort. Story about a past & a you, appearing now, and being believed. Drop the “Omni” horse shit for the actuality, mystery, and delight of not knowing. Or don’t. Story about a past & a you, appearing now, and being believed. Story about a past & a you, appearing now, and being believed. Story about a past & a you, appearing now, and being believed. Story about a past & a you, appearing now, and being believed. A psychedelic experience is no different whatsoever than the experience of this appearance right now. That there is any difference whatsoever, is just another story about a you & a past which ‘happened’. Wtf is this? Yes. Do that. Inspect from the ground up....sleep, diet, letting undesirable thoughts go simply for feeling, an hour of proper meditation every morning. Not guided bullshit, or thought labeling garbage. Get real with beginners mind, drop “the past”. Music to my ears. You’re great. I’m a Midwest dad & husband. Kids are the real guru’s, keeping me real, keeping me in line. Lol. My approach here, in case it isn’t obvious, is to provoke some catharsis a bit. And maybe to reveal this can be is fun as hell. Up to me.

@Nahm How understanding or distinctions do you have or make, between suffering, and pain? Suffering are thoughts. Pain is emotion in the body - in my stomach. For example - when I'm lying in my bed - suddenly my neighbor slams his door and immediately I feel physical pain in my solar plexus area and instantly suffering comes - negative thoughts about my neighbor, about my noise sensitivity, about unfairness of life. Thoughts about it, are not at all related to what the actual experience is. Yes. 5 years ago I decided I will do whatever to get enlightened. So I have renounced my "real" life, my business life, stopped meeting with friends, stopped my hobbies. Basically I went monk full-time. A "modern" monk doing only self inquiry, contemplation, meditating and psychedelics. I became more and more stuck in the head. I adopted one big belief - everything is illusory, pointless, and attached to identity. So my plan was to see through identity and after my "enlightenment" I wanted to start a new life based on some final "True Purpose". My past business "purposes" and hobbies were driven by ego - I only wanted approval and money. So I said to myself that I will not do anything business related and hobbies related until my permanent enlightenment. 5 years later - no luck. At the moment - I have no passions, no friends. I feel lonely. Thoughts about loneliness are killing me. So I rationalize them with my spiritual reasoning and stay passive. Tried to transcend them without fulfilling them - no luck. And there were many thoughts about starting new business, but I renounced them as well. And hobbies - nothing interests me... I see all hobbies as pointless. Why do anything... Why travel... Why go to another city - all cities are just concrete, asphalt and glass distributed differently. That's it. When it comes to people in my country... I have not met any weirdos like me... I tried to find like-minded people, but there are just phone zombies "In the streets" who do not like deep topics. So I am here on the forum and finally I feel more accepted/valued I really do not know what would I put in my dream-board... And if I put anything in my dream-board - those items would just remind me a lack of them... My dream-board would be a lack board. Or not? I tried to have no desires like monks do... I have seen futility of material things... I have all that I need. All sorts of electronic devices, apartment, girlfriend, 2 bicycles, and regular income from government. I do not need to work anymore. I am seeing girlfriend for only 1 hour a day. When it comes to loneliness - that is the biggest problem right after "ego" problem ... I feel like an alien. Lonely alien. I actually had an idea how to meet like-minded spiritual people - I wanted to start a you-tube channel/website to attract like minded people to me. In my country spirituality is still a novelty. There are not any spiritual youtube channels in my language. BUT - what holds me back: perfectionism - I said to myself that I will start teaching only after enlightenment. I want to say only perfect and true words coming from my Real Self, not from ego. This burden holds me back. Next thing that holds me back is that all those radical ideas I wanted to teach... Those ideas / truths actually made my life worse... Waking people up and opening their eyes is exciting, but also can do a lot of harm to them. You know... Sweet ignorance ... I consider unconscious people happier than me after 5 years of consciousness work... AND last thing - Who am I to teach them? I am depressed, I have more fears than them, more anxieties... Why would I make their life meaningless like mine... There are actually many people here on the forum who claim their life become meaningless after watching Leo's videos. How does this approach / perspective you are currently utilizing feel? I am deducing it does not feel good. Is there willingness to let it go, and adopt an approach which is rooted in, and entirely based on, feeling better? When it comes to fighting with my identity - I just came to conclusion that fighting is not the answer. This battle can't be won by any one. Today I basically I somehow uncovered my problem - glowing psychedelic experiences gave me a false expectations how everyday life is supposed to be. I realized - because there is no way out of experiencing life - thus I need to humble myself and accept life as it is. Omnipotent psychedelic experiences gave me false hopes of healing my illnesses. That's really sobering insight. Now I need to accept that and somehow move on. Omnipotent psychedelic experiences made me hate my ego. Omnipotent psychedelic experiences made me renounce "normal" life. Omnipotent psychedelic experiences made normal life pale in comparison to psychedelic experience. Omnipotent psychedelic experiences made me hate my humanness. From now on I think i should start working on balancing my life. Being a brute-force monk isn't the way for me... In the last 24 hours I let go a lot of anger... Anger for myself... Anger for my self deceptions. Anger for false hopes... BTW thank you Nahm, You're great.

Woah. So it doesnt matter if were living as lizards in the jungle or dmt elves. It doesn't matter if I'm an alien in the worlds of an unknown system. Or if I'm this being right now looking at this screen. Or if I'm a tiger in the jungle. It's all the same being endlessly morphing and modulating the level of consciousness between all its selves. Me and you and electrobeam and everyone else are the same entity. And almost no one knows this. Lots of us out there in the world are missing out on some amazing things. Big thanks leo for the help.

@Loving Radiance You submerge yourself under water, open your eyes and breathe in through your nose. As you come out the water you blow out the water from your nose. It will make you very alert and aware. From there, you focus on an object of meditation, my personal favourite is the beauty of a candle light in a dark room and you focus on that mystical actuality to the point where appearances seem almost alien to you. That's when you'll begin to understand the godliness of consciousness.

@Nahm Can you isolate, point to, and share specifically where the pain is being experienced? It is pain of resistance to What Is. Most of the pain is mental. Pain of believing thoughts. Pain of not being able to "switch off" thoughts. Pain of not being able to flow with life. Pain of constant searching for something... Pain of existing! I do not want to exist. Or at least to "just be" without this nagging "me"... Let everything be... But thoughts are making this scene hellish. I lost ability to see the scene as it is. Somewhere in childhood... Enjoyment was lost... Scene feels "negatively meaningless" . What is purpose of experiencing this dull scene? Scene is fragmented. Thoughts fragment scene. I want to be complete. Not just in psychedelic trip. I want to realize my completeness for once and for all. I want inner critic to disappear. Why am I listening to him? So basically there are 2 problems: inner critic that won't shut up & meaninglessness + I hate my disorders... + I hate my extreme noise sensitivity. I cant sleep properly anywhere because of my noise sensitivity. Even with white noise + high quality earbuds. I still hear even tiny noises from neighbors. Tried everything to solve this but no luck... + noisy neighbors, changed apartment 3 times, no difference. Have you made a dreamboard...written what you do want in life on it...let go of limiting beliefs..? Curious if you’ve done this yourself, and directly experienced it, vs thought or read about it. No. Thanks to my contemplative lifestyle I unveiled many illusions like "success, house, car, trophy girlfriend etc". After a ton of contemplation I am left with meaninglessness. Nothing from vision-board would make me happy. I want happiness from being/existing only. Somehow I know it is possible, and I am striving for that for last 5 years. No success... When it comes to limiting beliefs - yes, there are many in my world. One of my biggest beliefs is that I am still "someone" real that needs to be protected etc. Can you describe the one who is separate from God, making the references? Can you articulate specific properties, and describe the actual separation? He... It... He... He feels like life is "owning" something to him... Some "final" compensation, some treat for all his lifelong suffering and feeling lost... Feeling like an alien since childhood... He (or I?) wants some kind of liberation... Freedom to choose "not believing" thoughts. He's got expectations - scene should be joyful, meaningful, scene should be experienced with 100 percent acceptance and unconditional love. He wants to become the scene itself. He.... He.... I hate him! I want to kill him. He is limit. He limits my freedom. He is prison for my ..... ... for my ... potential. He disturbs my peace. He is idiot and I do not know what am I anymore. There is confusion in the scene now. trying to find him but he is hiding... coward. He always appeared in the content of thoughts... he will appear again... that is sure.

Except that's exactly what I think during my dreams as well. In my dreams I'm also 100 % sure that It's the waking reality.!, It's not so obvious. Don't you see there is literally no difference between the two states? Even If we just say we are in the waking state right now.. Now what the heck is the waking state? What is this waking state? Where did it come from? What is it's context? You could say the context of the dreaming state is the waking state like it is happening inside of it being rendered by the brain or whatever that is... Nice.. But what is the context of the waking state? What is rendering it? How do you know that your whole life is NOT one giant ass dream and that you actually are an alien in some alternative 5 dimensional universe and that we all are just figments of your Dream???? And just to save time and get to the point.. The answer is YOU DO NOT KNOW THAT. So what does this have to do with your question? Well you insist that everyone are aware and then you are wondering why can't you access their awareness. I'm telling you go make sure first that we are aware.. That's the assumption that you need to question first.. Because the reality is as you yourself stated that you don't actually have access to other people's awareness.. That means you don't actually know if they are aware or not. That is what's actually the case not the beliefs and fantasies about "I should have access to other's Awareness because we are all one". You are taking it all backwards. It turns out you dont have access to that nor do you "should".

it all looks nice on the outside. but i dont actually feel that way. there are days where i feel really out of alignment with my life vision, days where i feel like im a total imposter and alien compared to the rest of the medical community. for the most part. i have been struggling a lot, questioning everyday whether this is what im meant to do. theres no real difference between you and me. i have never worked my entire life until i started working as a resident. so before that, we were in the same boat. and we still are in the sense that i just followed the path that was layed out for me. and now i get paid. so i didnt carve out a path for myself either. the pôint is, dont compare yourself with others, because everything looks more glam from the outside. you are doing great and dont stop believing yourself!

“The Prime Directive” (PD) is just a fancy term that is mostly never adhered to in the Star Trek Universe. While Picard was more stringent on following the PD- other Star Trek Captains like Captain Janeway from the Voyager series always interfered - Interference produced more interesting episodes IMO However there is one episode I recall from ST Enterprise series *** SPOILER ALERT *** where all married couples on a certain planet use a especially fertile Being to procreate. This Being is not treated quite as fairly as other normal Beings. They do not receive any education or freedoms enjoyed by the Elite, who are allowed to Procreate using these fertile Beings as a surrogate. In this episode this one couple brings along their potential surrogate with them aboard the Starship and it’s clear that the couple simply treats this surrogate like a fly on the wall. One of the crew members notices this and decides to interfere (breaking the PD rules) and converse with and educate the surrogate in private resulting in some interesting dialogue and implications for the couple. Without giving too much away, let’s just say the ending of the episode does not end well of either the couple, the surrogate and the crew member that interferes. In my opinion when walking the PD bridge, you have to thread carefully. You cannot dive in with radical new ideas and opinions that are completely alien to a given individual, culture, society, nation or planet, this will usually always be disastrous. Perhaps your guidance / interference needs to be a small step up from the level on which they stand. In other words don’t introduce Yellow spiral values to a predominantly Blue or Orange culture. And who’s to say that perhaps another extra-terrestrial species is not currently interfering in our own affairs? Screwing up sometimes and sometimes offering some valuable guidance. Time will tell.

It is quite some time, that I have had a deep appreciation for just how diverse human cultures in the world can be. Some cultural worldviews can be so radically different than what we are used to, that they can appear alien to us (think of living your whole life in an uncontacted tribe deep in the Amazon). This has fueled my passion for travelling and watching various documentaries, coz the insights I get help me to be more appreciative of the life I live and expand my awareness of what's possible. One thing, that I've become fond of lately is pondering why certain cultures are like they are - what factors (geographical, demographic, climate, language, historical...) have contributed to the beliefs, ideas, customs they currently possess. The factors of geographical location in particularly is very undervalued, as most people in the west are not aware about just how fortunate for a decent region to live in. There are regions, that experience various natural disasters on regular basis... think of a culture, which has adapted over the centuries to living in an area, which gets impacted by a volcano eruption every 100 years. Could it be possible, that a native americans lost to europeans partly to the fact, that they were not living alongside "filthy animals"? More on this perspective here; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgMa9WMzRP8 Or what about the current geopolitical tactics, that governments apply or problems they are challenged in overcoming? A channel providing a militarist/strategist perspective on countries is this one; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZJFozFsnIU Try to watch a video or two and you will see just how crazy of a role mountains, beaches and other biomes play in impacting the culture! Language is another huge factor... a cultural product, which shapes the cultural worldview (going full circle, tool for homeostasis). There are languages out there, which work in completely different way, have 10x as much words and provide super specific expressions. Examples; "Sami languages of Norway, Sweden and Finland have anywhere from 180 snow- and ice-related words and as many as 300 different words for types of snow, tracks in snow, and conditions of the use of snow." or the Japanese word "Bakku-Shan", which is translated as "a beautiful girl...as log as she is viewed from behind" or the Danish idiom "En sukkergris" - "As a farming country, it’s not surprising that pigs play a quite important role in the Danish language. If you have a sweet tooth, a Dane might describe you as a ‘sugar pig’". Imagine calling your child a sugar pig around your friends... what kind of reactions would you get? Now to finish it off, I'd like you to see an altered global map https://bigthink.com/strange-maps/490-map-of-the-worlds-countries-rearranged-by-population Imagine from one day to another the locations of the countries change in this way. Most likely many conflicts would errupt between new neighbors over strategic resources, positions or the radical differences in worldviews. The cultures would evolve along a completely different trajectory - the language would change, the diets and products sold in the shop would change, etc.

@datamonster @Member just as dogs and cats don't know they are pets, we may never know this either ?‍♂️ But also, you are the alien. @datamonster they are delicious, but yes it's a shame. Micro pigs are smart and so cute!

And it's very interesting how she was describing that she sees the "shapes of paragraphs", that goes to show that there are endless ways a conscious being can experience life and just within our species we have variations. Now let's just imagine what an alien's mind would look like, if they exist (which is likely) their "minds" will probably be so different from ours that they may not even be minds anymore but something even more sophisticated, who knows. It's freaking amazing honestly

@Sombra obviously if I were an actual alien I would try my best to fit in with humans and not try to alienate myself

I've had sex with a group of hot alien girls in a lucid dream. Aliens are dirty af by the way. Careful what you wish for.

I hope you like getting plugged with Alien DMT while as a test-subject. Actually that would be kind of cool.

Nice, one step closer to my hot alien witch girlfriend

@Keyhole how do you make the distinction between demons and positive entities? If you are haunted by alien dreams which seem neutral (there are no positive or negative feelings such as fear, only wonder), can that be an expression of something demonic? It is like the third or fourth time I'm dreaming about this alien thing coming out of my TV and I never have been a huge sci-fi fan. I wonder why the heck I'm seeing it...

Apparently The Amazing Atheist's ass has experienced an alien invasion

I generally think all the videos and talks of Leo are very inspiring and meaningful. I follow him for past three years and they helped me through some very dark times. Right now I see this forum especially the relationships one... Makes me feel scared somehow. Like are people on this platform too deep into self-actualization?? Some discussions sound very alien to me.. like there was someone writing they had sex with God? Like wtf is that?? If I go too deep into the practices, this is how it is going to be?? I am not judging any on it but would like to know what is it all about. Really curious!!

@Gesundheit that is the thing, I've never experienced anything that is beyond materialist paradigm or anything different than that, therefore don't ask me to convince myself that is not true, also I don't hold a belief that I "exist" - that might be just a simulation or recalled memory of myself from the past played on some alien's server - there is no way to validate that this reality is "real" as far I as know, I am open minded about it, as you can see I'm destined to continue my "search", until I taste on my own the sweetness of banana @Ananta I know what he is saying at least at conceptual mind level, but that doesn't change my life experience that much

I’m not so sure about synchronicities. I do believe in them but my absolute most harrowing and actually convincing run in with them was while under the influence of a meth overdose where I thought every speck on the wall was an alien camera and I was on a day-in-the-life-of-a-human show broadcasting on some alien planet. It was 18 hours of perceived persecution and actual synchronicities that I still can’t fully explain 5 years later. I chalk it up to psychosis. Also had a similar thing happen without psychosis when combining a dissociative with a psychedelic. I think they could be relative-God speaking with you.

Hello everybody, I am already three years on my journey to awakening and since this spring I have started doing 5-meo-dmt. My approach was to start with low dosages and to gradually and systematically move up to a breakthrough dosage. For me "shit began to get real" only when I moved up to plugging 50-60mg, it's here that I realised it is not a cute little part of me that will die but in a sense my whole being and everything that I hold dear. So after that I decided to gradually lower my dosages, also because I know that 50-60mg is a crazy high dosage (in normal circumstances for the average person). And I am noticing that my trips are not necessarily getting weaker, so I intend on continuing my gradual decline in dosage until I hope that I can have a breakthrough on a more average breakthrough dosage. as of now I went trough a whole packet without breaking trough. Let me describe my trips because apart from maybe the different insights that I got, the overall gist of the trips are the same: The come-up phase involves a lot of fear and purification accompanied with compulsions to puke. In my last trip I actually puked out my stomach acid (I didn't consume anything that day). But all of this makes sense because the ego/body will apply every trick in the book to try to fight the dramatic raise in consciousness. But after the come-up which lasts 10 to 20 minutes comes the high, which always starts with a huge sigh of relief that the come-up phase is over. In the high-phase I always seem to do the same thing: Yoga. This is not some yoga according to established techniques but it is just me twisting and stretching in the way I see fit. The 5-meo induced consciousness already makes all of my muscles super relax. And I notice that all of my exercises revolve around the lower back. So am I working up to a kundalini awakening? But all of the above is just the background for the thing I really want to talk about and that is a dream I had last night, and by no means was this a normal dream. First I need to tell you that a few years ago when I was in bed somewhere at the halfway point between being awake and fully sleeping. At the point where you are not really sleeping but nonetheless have dreamlike "stories" playing out "in the brain". At that point, a certain kind of energy befall me. It was a kind of energy to which I could surrender-to or recoil from. That night I recoiled Immediately out of fear. Afterwards I console my self with an amount of self-love I was not normally capable of and out of curiosity I decided to no longer recoil from this energy but to surrender in to it if it comes back. After all, by leaving me it listened end "respected" my reaction so it definitely has a kind of benevolence to it. By the way, years before that I made a similar commitment with nightmares that I will not recoil and open my eyes but face them till the end. The reason I recoiled so fast from that energy that befall upon me was because I felt it wanted to "abduct" me for a lack of a better word, I even lifted up and started floating above my bed (paranormal style) . Also at that time this energy had a alien vibe about it, I even could hear UFO sounds, the same that you hear in every retro sci-fi movie. And over the years this energy revisited and I surrendered in it the best I could. There was fear and there was love, and so was the case last night. But I think because of the 5-meo and the resulting purifying I have been recently doing, the energy was particularly strong. So what happend: At this point it barely comes into my mind to recoil so again I tried to surrender to it the best I could. The energy lifted me up a meter or two, flipped me and put me back down. this repeated itself a couple of times. During this time all kinds of fears came up. I remember worrying that my mother might see me flip and freak out (even though I live on my own). But my biggest fear was that I would die because I will forget or seize to breath. And while being flipped like a burger I sometime had to wildly grasp for air. I asked my self: did I wildly grasp for air only in the dream or in real life as well? And It is here that I made the insight that "real life" is just as illusionary (or real for that matter) as the dream I am having. When I came down from the flipping and the energy slowly left me. Is saw a shadowy humanoid figure standing in the corner of the room. I think it was my literal (psychological) shadow. While looking at it I evoked love. There was fear but the love and wisdom was stronger. I did not recoil for no coward soul is mine(; The last thing I want to say and my message to you is that working up to awakening takes a lot of purifying yourself which means confronting and letting go of fears. even though this experience may sound very scary and negative, you must know that the mercy of god was always with me as it is with you. Again this energy respected me, so if I recoiled out of fear it would have respected that decision and leave me alone. You must know that the mercy of God is also always with you. In one of my 5-meo trips I made this insight that God plays the Uncle Iroh archetype (from avatar the animation serie). Even though you are a devil that lost his ways. God loves you and is nonetheless always there for you, blessing you in all kinds of ways. His blessings, you take for granted or may slip under your radar. I am a person who says thank you a lot and I usually appreciate other people for example helping me. But nonetheless during one my trips I also realised that I am really an ungrateful little shit (my words not His) for being so blind for all the ways I have been blessed.

Bit of a weird question. Im an ENFP and I met a cool ESFP chick online (both early 20s) and it was fun texting with her(I have known 3 ESFP girls and they all love texting more than average & blame me when I dont text more often lol), but when we went on a date, I felt really distant from her, like Im talking to an alien. There was no chemistry. She was a bit cold and careful, didnt show any attraction, I guess cuz shes has high standarts, she was beautiful. But she was respectful and she was interested in me. I couldn't really establish a man to woman conversation, I was even having a difficult time to establish a friend to friend conversation so I just started explaining my interests - self-actualization, happiness spectrum, meditation, viewing the world thru models, how math solves real world problems, how MMA works and why I like it. She was curious and tried to philosophize with me, which surprised me. But it was a cold intelectual talk. She liked fashion and travelling. And since it was such a cold interaction I couldnt really be that spontaneous or flirty and make jokes. I felt a bit under pressure. When we parted ways she said she never discussed such topics on a date(meaning they are not date topics) and that it was interesting nonetheless, I told her she shoudlnt discuss such things on a date and she agreed. My question is, if its true that ESFP and ENFP can't date, what is making us so distant? And whether it was actually not related to types, but rather she was shit testing me by being cold and I had to do some bold move? which I dont know how. I mean I dont know whats possible in this situation. Its not like im afraid of rejection, I dont know what can be done. Thanks.

@Don Wei You are looking good dude You just lack that sharp/bad boy attitude to fit your style. @Rasheed what about this alien?

@Rasheed lol she looks like a praying mantis. Alien freak