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@Aakash I´ve never seen an alien eat a brain so it seems more unlikely than likely but what do I know?

@Yousef :') its yes or no! there's no maybe as an option should stop assuming! SO WHATS your answer I am an alien yes or no?

@ivankiss :') i am an alien! the something-verse is so beautfiul!

You are not an alien. The alien is you. Brains are yummy.

You are alien from planet "TO MUCH FREE TIME THAT I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT TO DO WITH"

With each day that passes meditation is becoming more.... I don't know. I don't want to label anything... I'll say. Different to previous sittings. Tonight I practiced letting go. Deeply. I call it 'getting underneath'. I always know ever lasting presence is underneath everything so I go underneath thoughts, underneath going underneath even going underneath the underneath the underneath This eye appeared. This alien looking eye. Staring into my left eye My chest tightened rapidly and my breathing increased. "It IS me" I said. With this realisation it came closer, quickly. It got so close to my eye it evaporated. My breathing slowed and deepened once more. I then felt this pull, In the centre of the pull is a field of peacefulness and nothing, it feels everywhere all around. Thought cannot enter. Nothing can enter. It feels like 'I' am the forcefield. You lose sense of the body, the distinction between your hands on your body and your butt on the bed. All you feel is sensation. Am I experiencing the dark side of meditation? I will re watch Leo's video and remain conscious.

Now bear me with me, I know this sounds crazy and if this is the post that is too much I excuse myself for it Everything that I've felt in my life has been coming together and resonating with this I never believed in god, I was atheist, I never believed in aliens, all these ufo/abduction stories to me sounded like crazy people talk, but now I am here, through my path I've received elements and elements to finally let me form the big picture Various, different sources, dozens of channeled beings confirm this, my personal almost inexplicable experiences resonate with this The earth has been under influence from negative alien agenda for thousands of years and now this is old news, we're being liberated, detoxified, energized by positive galactic societies, our planet is literally ascending getting rid of all this crazy stuff, incoming mass enlightenment and higher vibrational society, contact with galactic families Honestly I seek to convince no one here, I'm not looking to prove I'm right or that anyone needs to believe this or believe me, I just ask those who feel called to integrate this to take a look at the information about the subject this is the best source I've found with the absolute most transparent compiled information on the subject, Ascension https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Ascension How earth was under spiritual attack (https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Alien_Machinery Human dna origins https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Diamond_Sun

Actually when you sneeze there is a short moment when awareness shines through. If moving is disturbing then the state you are in is artificial. Doing meditation is artificial. Nevertheless the 'I' seems to need that artificiality in the beginning to experience calm and no thought etc. Later when awareness has been registered it is more important to integrate awareness and movement. It is impossible to do do-nothing right as it is impossible to do do-nothing wrong. If there is the sentiment of watching or paying attention during do-nothing then there is doing. So the difficulty of do-nothing is this super-relaxation which is totally alien. This super-relaxation eventually will let awareness shine through as a flash of knowing without there being anybody that knows. But do no wait for it or watch or pay attention whether the flash arises because that would undermine the super-relaxation. Once awareness has been registered one may be mindful of being integrated with it or having slipped out of it to re-integrate with it. Before awareness has been registered mindfulness is important to avoid getting carried way by thought or emotions. So mindfulness is always important and should ideally be permanent. This has been my explanation. If you are following Leo's teaching then you should only follow his explanations and instructions.

(long post incomming) Day 60 complete! Hooray! I completed my initial goal of 60 days which means I can finally watch porn again! Man, I missed it so much. Here I cum Lana Rhoades! Said no no-fapper ever. I'm building more momentum by the day so I have no reason to quit now. What has changed in these 2 months? First of all, I feel much more energetic. I'm more aware of my body and masculine energy. Sometimes I feel like a FUCKING NINJA WARRIOR and I act like I'm Bruce Lee. Only at home in front of the mirror btw But this feels so great. Its the type of energy that makes you want to change your lazy habits. For me this resulted in taking cold showers, eating and drinking less sugar products (especially ice coffee and chocolate) and reading. There are still a lot of habits I want to change, but this is a good start. Secondly, and this is also energy related, I can feel pressure and tingling sensations along my spine, from root to top. I think this is kundalini related though I'm not sure. During my meditations I experience heavy jerking and twisting joints. Especially my neck. Sometimes it literally feels like I'm possessed and someone is changing my energetic code. Sensations definitely feel alien. People say this could be related to energy purification in the chakras. But the twisting and jerking wasn't something new for me. It happened occasionally before nofap, only during meditation. Now I often experience it outside of the meditative state too, and with a higher intensity and for a longer period of time. I think this is directly related to semen retention. I'm basically keeping the energy in my body and not wasting it through orgasm. I have to do more research on this topic. Anyway, I ordered two books about kundalini so I hope that will give me more I sight on the matterrrrrrrrr Nice. What's next? Female attraction. Ive noticed changes in how women see me, and how I see them. First of all, girls just look at me for no reason. It's not my clothes or physical attraction that they notice, I'm sure. It flipped in just one day. I get so much more looks and stares. It MUST be my energy that they can pick up with their super high tech male energy detection radar sensor device-mechanism. Im not complaining. Conversations go much smoother and I am more in control of myself. Less in thought. More aware and genuinely interested in the other person, which make conversations more fun for both parties. I would love to say that my perception of girls have changed, but they haven't. My standards are still very high and "less attractive" girls are not really interesting to me. I still haven't found the balls to start dating and meet new women. There is still this sense of insecurity. But im working on it by stepping out of my comfort zone more often, and self inquiry. But it is also not my main focus at the moment. My take on nofap/semen retention Nofap is a great tool for If you want to install new habits in your life, or get rid of old habits you don't like. You're using this (sexual) energy to actually do productive things and not ejaculate to a bunch of colored pixels which form a woman's butthole. Try it out. Pause the video and zoom in as far as you can and you'll see its just a colored, poor little square. Poof! That's reality for ya. The girl is illusory! All jokes aside. Doing this thing "only" 60 days in made me feel so much better about myself. By not giving into urges and just silently observing the sexual thoughts I gained more mental strength. Strength which can be used to improve areas in my life. But there is so much more work to do. This is only the beginning. I'm mentally setting a goal for 90 days, but actually it doesn't matter. I do this day by day. Thanks for reading! <3

So this experience happened 5 days ago, yet I'm still blown away by the simplicity and power of it. I've been debating whether I should write a full post on it, but I figured that my account could help others on this forum. And are we not on this journey together? I didn't want to wait too long, or I might lose some of the finer details. This story is just as much for me as it is for you. I really hope you'll be able to understand (or at least intuit) the gravity of what's being said here. If you haven't had an enlightenment experience yet, please forget everything you think you know about it. This is it; it probably doesn't get more simple or direct than what I'm about to share here. First off, I'd like you to watch this wonderful video from Rupert Spira. I watched it a few hours before my enlightenment experience, and little did I know, it proved to be crucial for me to have that awakening. In the video, Rupert uses the analogy that we are characters in a movie-- a movie I'd like to title The Search for Enlightenment. Even though we're not aware of it, we play characters in this adventure movie of life, and we're always told by other characters that the thing we're searching for is just over that hill, or just in the next town over. We're constantly seeking for this thing, thinking it's a destination or an event, and that once we experience it, then everything else will be fine. Well, Rupert eloquently explains that the characters in the movie have been duped! That's you! That was me! Enlightenment is not an achievement. It is not a place. It is not an event. So then... what do we as the characters in the movie do? Is there any hope? Well, yes! But that requires you to make a paradigm shift to understand what enlightenment really is. Drop all of your assumptions, fears, and doubts. Your job--as the character in the movie--is to play and enjoy your part in the movie, but to also become aware of the screen that you're being played on. Enlightenment is being aware of the screen. This is a huge meta-perspective shift! Imagine how difficult it would be to convince a character in a movie (assuming they're real people and not actors), that they're not real! That to truly enjoy their life and role in society, that they have to become aware of the screen. Of course they'd say, "What screen?! This is all real, can't you see??" Then they'd laugh you away, and if you were insistent, they'd call you a lunatic! We're talking about The Truman Show levels of recontextualization. After watching the video, I thought, "Huh, maybe it really is that simple. In fact, it makes perfect sense that it would be that simple. Of course enlightenment can't be found in the movie! Duh!" I've been researching enlightenment and watching Leo's videos for a few months now, so conceptually this made sense, and it seemed to fit in with what I already knew. So I thought about it a couple times throughout the day, but nothing came of it. It didn't really click since I was trying to conceptualize this whole movie scenario in my head. However, watching that video planted the seed for my awakening experience during my meditation session later that night. It's late at night, around 9pm. I have this ritual where I do my concentration and meditation practice right at the end of the day. I doubt that's the most effective, but regardless, it seems to always work out that way and I like it. I also like to do these in my living room in complete darkness. So after my 3 minutes of concentration with a metronome, I get up on the couch, back straight, eyes closed, to do my 15-ish minute meditation. Nothing out of the ordinary so far. However, after about 3-4 minutes (that quick??) into my meditation, I find myself in an interesting headspace... I somehow got as close to no-mind as I've ever achieved, probably 90% of my thoughts just vanished, and I found myself peacefully drifting in a sea of awareness. I could pick up on a stray thought every 3 seconds maybe, but I was completely detached, and as such I simply watched it float on by. It was quite surreal. Just that experience alone would have been awesome enough, but it was what happened next that rocked my world... As I'm drifting in the sea, the best metaphor I can use is that the sea slowly turned into a serene lake, with not even my few remaining thoughts able to make a splash or ripple. Then I had an intuition that I should open my eyes... I ALMOST NEVER open my eyes during meditation! But here's what's interesting about the rest of this experience: I didn't really "think" any of this stuff. Usually I talk to myself in my head using English, but not a word was thought. I just felt that I needed to open my eyes, so I did. Now picture the scene. I'm meditating on my couch, legs crossed, in almost complete darkness. Only some faint moonlight from an adjacent room filtering in. I didn't plan any of this out, but guess what my eyes were met with when I opened them? You guessed it, the faint outline of my 50in TV monitor a few feet in front of me! Holy. Shit. Within the span of a couple seconds, I recognized the tv, my eyes shot wide open, adrenaline rushed through me, and tons of intuitions (not thoughts) came into me about the Rupert Spira video I had just watched a few hours ago. There was no reasoning, no thinking, nothing. Just understanding. I made this cosmic recontextualization of my life as playing out on a multi-dimensional and multi-sensory screen, just like the 2d, exclusively visible one in front of me! I slowly looked around the room, and was conscious that it was all screen. I not only recognized my role in the movie, but my True self as being this constant, present awareness of all this sensory dream stuff being interfaced through the screen. My physical body even turned into a screen. And it was all one. I became one with the room. I basked in this completely alien and indescribable sensation, just looking around and realizing that everything I had ever known was nothing but screen. After about 1 minute, my first tangible thought arose. I grin so genuinely and widely that my face feels like it's stretching, and I say to myself, "This is it. It doesn't get any better than this." You might think this would be scary, but for me in that position, I was READY for truth. I had this intuition that it was staring itself in my face my whole life. But I got it; it finally clicked in a sober state, and now I get to carry that with me forever. Since then, not too much has changed. I'm overall a little happier, a little lighter, able to keep things in check. I'm still taking the steps that I already put in place for improving my life. Everything is funny to me, but that was the case for months before then. You have to understand that I've had some INTENSE awakenings on psychedelics over the past two years. I'd imagine that for a normal person with no such experience, an out-of-the-blue sober enlightenment like I just recounted would completely change their life, and it would really throw them off their rocker. But for me, it was like a final puzzle piece snapping into place. I was like, "Oh! This is it!" Unlike many people on this forum, I'm not going to masquerade as some enlightened being. I am not enlightened, and I don't believe there's a line to be drawn in the sand to make such a claim. It is not a title. It is simply the awareness of one's own true nature. After enlightenment, it is clear that my capacity to love is still low, but I know my potential to be infinite. I am ABLE to love everything, but my capacity to show and act that out is still underdeveloped. Likewise, I am ABLE to be happy in every situation, but my capacity to be that conscious presence is still underdeveloped. It's like enlightenment was the last piece in clearing any roadblocks ahead, but the fact of the matter is that I still haven't driven that far. Enlightenment is not a teleportation device. But I'm very thankful that I earned this understanding early on in my journey, so that I'm free to charge ahead.

You are very stuck in the mind and head, this is the reason marijuana feels this way tot you. Marijuana will open greatly your heart space, and if you are not prepared for that openness, you will feel alien to your own body. Slow it down, less dosage or none. Go natural meditation instead.

What's your take on Drunvalo Melchizdek, and his talks about living in the heart, and how one is able to directly manipulate reality (eg. gravitational waves) through the realisation that everything is interconnected "all is one", and reality is one conscious, intelligent mind? Additionnally, that one is able to communicate with other beings through the heart. Bearing in mind that information between subatomic particles travels 100.000 faster than the speed of light: https://www.nature.com/news/2008/080813/full/news.2008.1038.html?s=news_rss Im letting my mind run wild: If all of reality is interconnected and all is one, is there really anything that confines the ability to manipulate reality at all levels? Mentally we know it is possible, but what about physically manipulating. Eg. accessing "other dimensions" gaining the ability to pass information to others, as subatomic particles (/ Ourself) are able to do it? The posibilities of future technology post-enligthenment are literally endless. This is the ideal utopia of a more advanced alien-civilisation, who doesnt need to travel, if they are able to acces deeper dimensions (think about the movie "Interstellar") Here he speaks about gravity: What is your stance? IS this/he bs, or is there something to it?

Chapter 3. I wondered how long it would take before I slithered my way back into journaling. Two weeks. Not bad. This was my first incarnation, at the birth of the forum: That JJ guy had a few awakening experiences and immediately latched onto the spiritual ego like a baby on his mother's breast. He wanted to proselytize everyone around him to join "Group Consciousness," a coalition against all sleepwalkers. He preached from the bible of Neoadvita, using poetic Jed McKenn-an lines such as "There's nowhere to go," "Life is play," and "Stop seeking." Little did he realize, the group leader himself was an unconscious dimwit. Whoops! And then, the second incarnation: After realizing that initial spiritual awakening was not a cure-all for chronically low self-esteem, that JJ guy almost killed himself through orthorexia, an unhealthy obsession with healthy eating. He stopped running from the grief, the shame, and the anger of past hurts - and proceeded to fall apart. Back and forth, back and forth, he oscillated from immense love to immense hopelessness. He was standing at the edge of oblivion, looking down at the gaping hole, pondering about meaning and what to do next. But the Universe found many ways to save his life, whether through a yoga pose, a song, a book, or a few lovely forum members. He thought he wanted to be a musician. But after being immersed in the field for a few years, the motivation waned. Idealistic blinders removed, he made one final effort to publish five songs. And that was that. I haven't picked up the guitar or sang in a few weeks. The musician in me is dead, and I'm currently in the grieving process. Now, it's time to get real. I've had some profound awakening experiences. I have agape moments - those moments where you are so grateful to be alive that it tears your heart to pieces. But I still commit spiritual procrastination every day. I know the path (i.e. real life), but I avoid walking it. Nonono, let's not sugar-coat this with, "There are no such thing as problems, because #nonduality! Just contemplate! DOI DOI!" Been there, done that. Definitely helps to have that perspective, but if I want to be somewhat human again (which I think is preferable to being a nondual drunk-on-emptiness camel), I think it's a good idea to be as honest as possible with myself and re-establish balance in my life. Issues: Chronically low self-esteem. I spent most of my young adult life being bullied and sucking up to others. Now I subconsciously believe I'm unworthy. I also believe that I don't deserve to get what I want. Hence the spiritual ego, hence the desire for purity in mind, body, and spirit. Chronic social anxiety. I'm years behind in my social skills. I notice my subtle body contracts whenever I'm around people. I feel like I'm being judged all the time. Knee-jerk depression. It's 50% gone since I re-introduced meat back into the diet, but I still have some lows here and there. Being an INFJ and HSP, especially in a society that wants everything opposite to my personality. I judge myself harshly and beat myself up for not being like everyone else. ADHD. Again, tweaking the diet's helped a ton with this. Supporting myself financially. Uhhhh, what's a jorb? Body tensions. Improved a lot since starting hatha yoga, but still terrible posture, back pain, and psychosomatic issues. I don't know how to be a friend. No, seriously. I have acquaintances, but virtually no friends. I don't reach out to people, not even my brother. I don't know how. Sexual repression. Likely due to past heartbreaks and weird Freudian shit in childhood. Living in a town surrounded by old retirees as a twenty-something. Desires: I want to feel comfortable in my own skin. I want to love myself as I am. I want to be comfortable around everyone. I want to be as open as possible. I want to serve others. I want to feel joy again. I want to find my place. I want to be able to commit to things and focus without abandoning ship at any sign of failure. I want to choose what I watch on Youtube instead of the other way around. In the meantime, I'd like to have an enjoyable day job that doesn't sap my energy, so I can support myself. I'd like to feel like I'm actually in my body and not feel like an alien. Having a friend scares me and feels too labor-intensive, but I think it would be nice to try. I'd like to try dating again at some point. I want to live on my own again. I likely missed a couple things, but they'll appear later in this journal. Now is the time to learn how to do this adult human thing, one small step at a time. Now is the time to go from point A to point B. Now is the time for a journey to elsewhere.

You could have at least give reasons why breathing helps to deal with negative emotions.thinking, you sound like alien even to me! Yes, focusing on breathing will help you Hell will not explain anything as he just writes words that make no sense for someone who has no clue why he even wrote it.

Maybe try talking to women as actual people rather than some alien species you don't understand. Women just want to be treated like human beings mostly.

For those of you that are newbies and dont formally meditate daily, heres a simple reason why you should Even if you have an unruly mind that you cant control when you sit down you KNOW that you cant control it hence you are CONSCIOUS of it When you dont sit down to meditate you could have many thoughts or no thoughts but you dont know it because you dont watch with intent hence you are (to an extent) UNCONSCIOUS What happens when you dont know what is happening in your mind? It spins out of control, nobody is guarding it, who knows where you might end up. (This all from my experience, I might as well be an alien with completely different experience than you)

@Anirban657I disagree with many of the people on this site that seem to have the idea that all religions are "good". Usually, that idea comes from people that have been mostly non-religious their whole life and dont know first hand what indoctrination is and what the consequences are. They cherry-pick words in the respective "holy" books and interpret the way they want to try to show some truth when nobody actually in the religion would see it that way. This delusion is fueled by the mistaken good intention of being inclusive and tolerant. Christianity, Islam, Mormonism, Scientology, etc, etc are all brainwashing and delusion. Stating that religion has some truth is like saying a schizophrenic that thinks hes an alien with super powers has truth because he knows what day of the week it is.

If what you imply in #4 is true and you don't have any female friends, then how are you so sure about #1 - #3? You don't have personal experience, so you must just be going by what you've heard second-hand. Where did you hear all of that from? Internet videos and forum posts by guys who similarly have no female friends? If you don't actually have experience with a variety of women from different walks of life, how can you know all these things for sure? I've been friends with extremely sexually undesirable women who have a hard time getting a boyfriend, or even just sometimes getting laid, believe it or not. They do exist. And many times, even when those undesirable women get laid, the guys don't want to be their boyfriends or go on dates with them in public. And I've seen more than one woman get dumped by a guy who lost interest in her or didn't want to seriously date her because she was ugly, too fat, or too old. True that usually the woman has to be super ugly or morbidly obese for it to reach these dire levels, but even for an average woman who has an easier time, finding some sap to date her doesn't automatically mean that the relationship will be good or that it will be what she wants. All humans have relationship challenges, even if they might be shaped differently. Sounds like you've just been filling your head with too much bullshit on the Internet. Go out and experience life. Stop treating women like they're an alien species. Meet some in real life.

Depends. Because if you are awake enough in your journey sleep is not so much of a requirement. I speak from a position when one is able to stay in a meditative state almost all the time. For me per example, many time sleep empairs me in a degree near dormant people. I have more rest in a meditative state than sleeping along a busy street per example. This is me, i know that this will sound alien to the majority here. But transcend and one will not need so much sleep. And the science is based on dormant folk, not awakened.

the super-secret society for super saiyan woke af individuals. A few days ago, I was endowed the ability to go Super Saiyan. Whenever I turn it on, my hair goes blonde, my clothes morph into robes from a seventh-century kung fu dojo, my voice booms the thunder of a thousand storms, and I can shoot energy balls from my hands. I'm still working on shooting them from my ass, though. That requires some training. Okay, okay, all of that is an exaggeration except for the last part. I had a level 1 reiki attunement that enabled my body to transmit the reiki energy through my hands for self-healing purposes. Now my hands are constantly humming and vibrating with glowy goodness. What analogy would best describe how this feels...hmmm... it's like having two low-power electric toothbrushes duct-taped to either hands, 24/7. I feel like I took the red pill, and now I fell down the energy healing rabbit hole. Even though reiki is a very prevalent modality, I feel like I'm an initiate of this super-secret society for woke af individuals, and I'm not even that woke, bro. This is so cool! I can access this energy at any time when I need it. I can vivify my food with it, balance my chakras with it, and even quicken my bowel movements with it. I'm still learning the ropes, though. I'm like Neo, when he first enters the Matrix lucid and is completely distracted by that girl in the red dress. More on chakra balancing. Part of the attunement process involves a 21-day chakra cleansing - three rounds of seven days, where each day I focus on one of the chakras. That means, I dedicate my yoga practice to the designated chakra, I eat foods that match the color of it, I do a self-reiki session on it, et cetera. I'm currently at the end of day two, and so far so good. I coupled my self-reiki today with a massage and an IR sauna session (I'll dedicate a separate post for that), and I had some pretty intense releases. But the more I do this work, the more I can ride them out with ease. Working on these lower chakras is crucial for me, as I'm finally beginning to feel like a resident in my body rather than an alien who crash-landed in this body. Seriously, that's how I felt most of my childhood. I didn't really "get" this whole human thing, and how to interface with the world. The world hardly felt safe to me. My body was bathed in perpetual adrenaline even though the threats were merely rubber duckies. Though in the grand scheme of things, all threats are rubber duckies. So this Super Saiyan thing is yet another side project I'm working through amidst my million other side projects on this Journey to Anywhere. Everything will add up at some point...it will all come together and I'll see the big picture and see how it all fits together and... Ahh, JJ. It's time to take a break, play with the buzzing of those electric toothbrushes in your hands, and enjoy Ocean for the 239th time.

Yes but (correct me if I’m wrong) even with enlightenment there are experiences, sensations, thoughts feelings perceptions etc... Why these particular sensations? This particular human body in the middle of the visual field, this particular life? (Conventionally speaking) it seems like “my” life could have been absolutely any other kind of experience than what it is. Even unimaginable, totally alien experiences we don’t have words for. How is the infinity of possible realities being... “chosen”... or manifested in this present moment. Why this particular flavor of Reality? Why am I making these distinctions of The Absolute rather than other ones?

There is a big information share amongst various channeled entities through various people that a reptilian alien race has nestled on our planet and has messed with our dna, hence the illuminati conspiracy and reptiles conspiracies They messed with our dna strands to redirect energy for their own use, and they basically fucked life up on earth big time, and many souls didnt sign up for this , life was not supposed to be this way BUT finally as earth is enlightening these reptilians are being shifted out of our dimensions and the damage is being repaired literally

Not necessarily. When it comes to judging other people with regards to their spiral dynamics stage, what I find the most useful is this framework: If you think that the other person is just alien to you, their logic is downright offensive and they seem like they can't even think properly - this means that they can be higher on the spiral, or integrate something that you have as a shadow. If you have been like the other person in the past, you have followed their values and you transcended them to arrive here, then that means that they can be lower on the spiral. The person (1) has to be in a certain sense respectable by external circumstances, like -have a 'good life' otherwise. It does not mean that you should treat every lunatic on the street as coral. It is always beneficial, however, to listen to that person and try to squeeze your frame of mind into their perspective to gain some intellectual flexibility. Even if you do not agree with them (yet). The person (2) is never thought of as just stupid, or a moron. There is always a kind of sentiment to that kind of thinking and understanding of these people is compassionate. It's more like observing a child that has to learn their lessons and not an enemy to be conquered. It is also usually obvious, that the person cannot be talked out of their naivety by presenting arguments. From my point of view, the only valid reason to criticize somebody is to lay down your objections to their perspective in order to understand why you resist them. You can't change other people by talking them out of their nonsense. They have to experience their nonsense first-hand and suffer through it mindfully. Instead of changing them, you should focus on your own suffering and transcend it.

Teal Swan is an alien !!!!!!!! https://medium.com/@bescofield/the-gucci-guru-inside-teal-swans-posh-cult-36168edaf62f This website seems so legit

@kieranperez I have had similar experience probably two months ago, it never happened again. I was going back home from my painting course (which included working with chemicals like oil). Then suddenly as I was walking, I went offline and my experience, life, self, or mind or whatever that is felt like something alien to me. I started wondering ; what the hell! What are these things doing? (I meant people in the markets and streets). I stopped identifying with my human body, it lasted for like 10-15 seconds and after that everything went back to normal right until now. I didn't know what happened and still don't, hopefully someone here could help.