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  1. @Nahm I understand just curious to see different reported stories from different sides, Feel free to drop it whenever you manage to come across it or not. @pluto What do you think of the sugar craze? hear out the start of the vid vs
  2. Since i come from a muslim cult, it's core values when it comes to relationship still anchors my subconscious mind, the dogma is quite hard to shake off I still hold a view of true love being special between 2, Like i can't see other people's soulmates that have previously slept with a random stranger instead of saving himself/herself for the one that truly matters, building family growing old together etc We've been taught that not protecting one's integrity and dignity based on what's important, is not a very optimal core of living a happy clean life, since there is no respect neither to family nor self and kids well being. (Nothing fun about knowing your mom being used by a random stranger that didn't matter or your dad being a player messing up lots of pure potential relationships) After all when you say 'i love you and only you' 'your the only one that matters and I'd do anything for you' 'your special to me, you are my whole world' you are supposed to treat them that way, and not half ass it before you meet them, as that is what counts when it comes to being fully true to it. For Muslims to accept a women that doesn't self respect herself or her family, they just don't accept her since only cucks would accept that in their views. From a women's view: My response.... Islam celebrates sensuality, sex, intimacy, and love between people however it does so with a sense of deep commitment and responsibility. We are taught from prophetic teaching to eat with mindfulness, sleep with mindfulness, speak with mindfulness, pray with mindfulness and yes.... to have sex with mindfulness. Marriage is meant to be that commitment and responsibility because intimacy is not just about the body it includes the mind and soul. Our prophetic teaching is that even when we say 'I love you' it's with a sense of deep commitment and responsibility. There is actual weight and honor in those words, therefore the act of love then requires even a greater sense of integrity. The prophetic teaching within Islam celebrates sensuality within a marriage because it allows for there to be a deep sense of commitment to each other. It's not simply an act of lust but when enjoined in a marriage it is in fact rewarded by the Divine as an act of worship. As far as the comment about Muslim women who wear hijab or dress modestly not coming across as sensual...I said to her ....there are plenty of hijabis who are ladies in the streets and freaks in bed so calm down.....and she laughed Sources if you care to check them out A little theory behind the comfort of a higher grade of love that was long term worked on, I had a contemplation over love for hours day by day, I've reached a point where I saw that there would be a point in marriage where i would feel this discomfort, Knowing a partner has been with someone previously copy pasting the same stuff, I felt like i was black pilled into a lie, I felt anger and resentment in that visualization of possibilities of a marriage, being angry at the kids and her, Even her being just as angry and frustrated even the words of 'I love you' or sweet talks wouldn't work anymore because she's already said that so many times in the past and learnt a new pattern of it doesn't work anymore, Felt like the family was frustrated and sad as it has not spur'd out of being a pure relationship. Had more contemplation moments of what about my daughter or aunt or grand ma had shameful like relationships before their so. People say people grow from previous relationships, I say if it was meant to be as soulmates why not learn everything together in one relationship if both are forgiving and loving there is no bottleneck to the learning curve as long as they care and communicate with each other as they improve together with love to their life and the world. Overtime i noticed that it doesn't matter really, the paradox is we're all one anyway, so even my contemplation and dogma is quite meaningless even though it's just another story to be experienced like the rest. Love an ant, yourself strangers or even a bukkake party. It's the same infinity anyway right? The spiritual psychosis is abit too much to handle for most . I personally think think i can stomach it atm. What would i like to cherry pick for this life time's experience? A soulmate that saves up herself to make me feel that special sounds like a miracle to me, as I'd like to do that to her too. Always was into that Disney 1 girl and 1 boy only love. They find each other and they live happily ever after. Although i've recently experienced betrayal so that's out of the question, I'm still salty about it but it's alright i choose it because something greater is coming. I've been reading redpillwomen it kinda sounds like some islam version of core values of relationships but without the quranic religious side involved + more self development/knowledge and awareness. I'm aware we're all diverse in the end, so anything goes and we all don't play by the same knowledge graph rules/lens/perspectives, hence the preference difference, yet we're all nonphysical from the same source ironically.
  3. I like ken, rumi, leo, spira, adya, eckhart, jed, mooj, alan, young, sad, hicks, rabia and maharaj, dropped various quotes from each, feel free to skip if you don't resonate or fancy quotes or poetry ken wilber "I have sensations, but I am not my sensations. I have feelings, but I am not my feelings. I have thoughts, but I am not my thoughts. I have a body, but I am not my body. I have a mind, but I'm not my mind." rumi The quieter you become, the more you are able to hear ~ Rumi Let silence take you to the core of life ~ rumi There is a voice that doesn't use words, Listen ~ rumi Silence is the language of god, All else is poor translation ~ rumi The truth is that enlightenment is neither remote nor unattainable. It is closer than your skin and more immediate than your next breath. If we wonder why so few seem able to find that which can never be lost, we might recall the child who was looking in the light for a coin he dropped in the dark because “the light is better over here.” Jed McKenna “The point is to wake up, not to earn a Ph.D. In waking up.” ― Jed McKenna “The bottom line remains the same: you’re either awake or you’re not.One day, there it is. Nothing. No more enemies, no more battles.” ― Jed McKenna “Suffering just means you’re having a bad dream. Happiness means you’re having a good dream. Enlightenment means getting out of the dream altogether.” “Enlightenment is the unprogrammed state.” ― Jed McKenna “Enlightenment isn’t when you go there; it’s when there comes here.” ― Jed McKenna Your entire reality is bullshit. Do you realize that? So what problems do you have left? What more do you need? You have been shown the Holy Grail but you throw it into the trash. ~ Leo why do you stay in prison, when the door is so wide open? ~ Rumi You were born with wings, Why do you prefer to crawl through life? ~ Rumi Going out of your mind at least once a day is tremendously important. Because by going out of your mind you come to your senses. - Alan watts “Because of an innocent misunderstanding you think that you are a human being in the relative world seeking the experience of oneness, but actually you are the One expressing itself as the experience of being a human being.” ~ Adyashanti “You have to see and meet God in this life. Don’t let this life go by and miss discovering the Supreme One. You will find him inside as your constant being. Pray: Holy mother, holy father, holy spirit, don’t give me the illusion that even one second belongs to me. All is you. I, also, am you and yours. For only like this does your life stand the chance to be miraculous.” ― Mooji “Only that which is always with you can be said to be your self and if you look closely and simply at experience, only awareness is always ‘with you’.” ~ rupert spira “Life isn't as serious as the mind makes it out to be.” ― Eckhart Tolle “Don’t try to understand! It’s enough if you do not misunderstand.” “Once you realize that the road is the goal and that you are always on the road, not to reach a goal, but to enjoy its beauty and its wisdom, life ceases to be a task and becomes natural and simple, in itself an ecstasy.” ― Nisargadatta Maharaj “Paradoxical as it may seem, the purposeful life has no content, no point. It hurries on and on, and misses everything. Not hurrying, the purposeless life misses nothing, for it is only when there is no goal and no rush that the human senses are fully open to receive the world.” ― Alan W. Watts Today’s enlightenment is tomorrows mistake Shinzen Young “If you think hundred percent logically, there is really no possibility of life.” ― Sadhguru You are a physical exention of what is non physical, you cannot die, you are ever lasting ~ Abrahim Hicks “Ironic, but one of the most intimate acts of our body is death.” ― Rabia al Basri
  4. @pluto I'm open minded to me cole seems fine, he has some interesting experiments here and there as proof, hence why i wanted to compare his sources/results with the documentary. I still think his protocols are fine, will give a listen to your link, thanks for linking i appreciate it, still waiting for nahm's linking post too. the breatharian hacks sound interesting
  5. @Nahm can you link the documentary? according to cole he doesn't recommend going over a week, 5 is his recommended safe use of hard dry fasting no water contact no showers/washing hands either.
  6. I liked jed's work when i read through his books really loved the poetry aspect and his no bullshit teaching style, I have a notepad where I kept lots of his quotes/poems, will post some copy paste of it since it's too long. We do get stuck into the spirituality pamper sometimes for too long with it's dogma, yet it's for the faint of heart that gradually lifts us, although i see a loop of getting stuck in it forever even after an awakening experience just as leo mentioned. “Wake up first. Wake up, and then you can double back and perhaps be of some use to others if you still have the urge. Wake up first, with pure and unapologetic selfishness, or you’re just another shipwreck victim floundering in the ocean and all the compassion in the world is of absolutely no use to the other victims floundering around you.” “All fear is ultimately fear of no-self.” “The one and only truth of any person lies like a black hole at their very core, and everything else – EVERYTHING else – is just the rubbish and debris that covers the hole. Of course, to someone who’s just going about their normal human existence undistracted by the larger questions, that rubbish and debris is everything that makes them who they are. But to someone who wants to get to the truth, who they are is what’s in the way. All fear is ultimately fear of this inner black hole, and nothing on this side of that hole is true. The process of achieving enlightenment is about the breaking through the blockage and stepping through the hole.” “Maybe you think death is the opposite of life, or that all this death-awareness stuff translates into the end of happiness and good times, but this is not the case. Death isn't morbid, fear is morbid. Death doesn't oppose life, fear opposes life. To close your eyes to death is to close them to life: what could be more morbid than that? From your perspective, death and suicide are horrific and unthinkable. From my perspective, they are empowering and lifeaffirming. and I would look at any person that doesn't have an open, honest relationship with these subjects as themselves nine parts dead.” “I watch the group as Lawrence speaks. Its not always easy to remember that these people aren't like me: they look and sound awake, but they're not. They are asleep and dreaming. sleepwalking and sleeptalking. Their words make sense to them. inside their dreamworld, but from my perspective it's mostly mumbling. They seldom express a lucid thought or formulate a coherent question. In several minutes of uninterrupted discourse on Zen. Lawrence has not said anything that I recognize as being related to the topic of awaking from delusion.” Die while you’re alive and be absolutely dead. Then do whatever you want: it’s all good. Bunan You are dreaming that you are unenlightened. You are dreaming that you are awake. The question is: Why? The answer is: Why not? Jed McKenna The battle for truth Is waged upon untruth. When the flames have consumed all, and the smoke has cleared, Only truth remains. Destroy everything. Burn it all. Incinerate even your heart. Throw your soul into the furnace. This is the Great Conflagration. Nothing false will survive. Nothing true will perish. This is the process. This is the war. The battlefield is you. The battle is absolute. If you don’t like it, don’t do it. It will always be here, waiting. ~Jed Mckenna I am He. I am The Sage. I am The Superior Man. I am the Crown of Creation. I am daft, clouded, obscure. I eat when hungry, sleep when tired. I move with; not across, not against. I rub my chin at the appointed hour. I see only patterns. I have no eye for detail. I don’t go. Why go? Go where? It comes. I don’t try. I don’t do. Nothing goes undone. I don’t take sides. I have no preferred outcome. It’s all me. It’s all mine. Otherless, what’s to want? I have amazing powers! I get good tables in restaurants. I haven’t stubbed a toe in twelve years. I can destroy the universe with a thought. Jed McKenna The great path has no gates, thousands of roads enter it. When you pass through this gateless gate you walk the universe alone. Mumon The universe is the unity of all things. If one recognizes his identity with this unity, then the parts of his body mean no more to him than so much dirt, and death and life, end and beginning, disturb his tranquility no more than the succession of day and night. Chuang Tzu The sword is an ugly, meaty tool. Not one for pageants and ceremonies, not one for a collector’s wall, not one to show the grandkids. It has no scabbard, no tassel, no craftsman has left his mark. The handle is cracked and dry, the metal has lost its shine. Dull and dirty, pitted with age, dried blood caked at the hilt. Once it held a razor’s edge, and shone with the light of the sun. But now it sits unused, forgotten. When beheading time comes, I know right where it is. But beheading time is over. Why read about another’s sword? It’s your head that’s still attached. Jed McKenna As for the average sufi muslim that actually gets the oneness with god is quite different from the rest of what's practised right now, infact if i were to talk about onenessss with the muslims here at bahrain or UAE/kuwait/saudi arabia/qatar/oman etc any of the g.c.c countries, 90%+ would reject the idea of nothing and infinity true self and wouldn't even consider us as muslims. The same as how some muslims here reject ISIS as muslims even though they are muslims just in their own different distinction of what islam means to them.
  7. So i've heard dry fasting heals AIDS,HIV,eczema,cancer,bad teeth,diabetes,hemorrhoids etc etc Pretty interesting, Thought you all could get a kick out of dry fasting sometime healing whatever issues you have, I'll give it a try soon The video is too long, so you might as well skip around his youtube channel to find content that interests you, it's mainly fat loss targeting and healing. He has a lot of results based on self experimentation with fasting although they way he delivers isn't everyone's cup of tea. I still find him to share interesting results compared to phd bookworms. If any of you do have fasting experiences whether water or soft/hard dry fasts please share them below.
  8. I've tried nootropics alpha-gpc, ALCAR ,L-theanine, rholida rosea, bacopa, creatine and piracetam which resulted in tinnitus that's been on going for quite a while and is still present but it is healing. ( I was also supplementing on fish oil,magnesium,zinc,boron) I do remember my dreams being more real and vivid on the stack. From my experience, I wouldn't recommend supplementing just eating clean plant based diet with consistent 15minutes to an hour of meditation is good enough. Experiment diets until you find a diet that works for you whether plant based to keto to paleo/athinks etc Less is more if you'd like less side effects, I hear bacopa is safe just don't mix it with any other chems and you should be fine. Nootrodepot bacognize brand is quite strong many users feel a difference from it easily, you can google and read it's reviews on reddit. Plenty of users have had positive feedback from it. Had a friend that has used bacopa for like a year+ to get through studies and is fine with no side effects. He says he prefers caffeine to get stuff done over bacopa. So that tells you something they aren't all that considering marketing hype.
  9. @egoless There are infinite paths, infinite potentials at every moment the potential of your world is infinite. Keep in mind even the right and wrong thinking of your current knowledge graph of consciousness plays a role too From right or wrong doing beyond your current knowledge, You may be in various states looping from your own emotions/thoughts from doubt/clarity mixtures, it's always your own blend unfolding you creating what your experiencing not realizing it, it's very subtle to be really aware of what's happening as that is the magic of your own doing. Do you really know what do you want? Try to answer that in your own terms and understanding and move on and experience from there. Even the current point you are in is in perfect sync with the world. Nothing is telling you to cease any of you, the universe is supporting your full moment at every now moment. You are not even lost even if it may seem like it, and it's fine for you to think of this way at your othering's as it is a fragment of your infinity. As for me what do i really know? I've already experienced it, I see all worlds and times as one always one. And even trying to communicate that in this text is limited and misleading, as it's truly beyond all worlds and times.
  10. It's been 2 years since I've first found leo from a simple google search regarding time management. As i heard his video it was logical,simple and straightforward, at the end of his video he mentioned changing 'our' life for the better if we were to self actualize. Now that's where my journey started. I've been binging on his videos ever since then from 4 to 8 hours a day, Eventually cycled through his whole content 3 times as i took frequent 1 hour walks. Got done with 20+ on his book list. Started watching all his weekly's ever since then. It has been quite a journey for this story character. There were no mistakes on this path, it was just another experience of being experiencing myself as a part of the whole sea. Although i personally dislike bad health as I've messed up my body on various supplements and nootropics experimenting to be some sort of super human, It had terrible side effects on my body. from tinnitus to various organ body damage, I'm still recovering slowly via healthy plant based diet eating fasting 23hours to 48hours a day for over 500 days now, everything's fine. It's kind of funny how i set such a path for myself on purpose yet i whine about it and i forget unconsciously that I've signed up for this. It just feels so real it's quite funny. This is just a dreamstate and this is where i just have to relax in and just enjoy the ride it's that simple really. Although back then I never knew that i would whine constantly and i seeked so called 'enlightment' 'no self' true self whatever you call it. Binged on mooji,rupert spira,eckhart tollie,adyashanti,sadhguru etc etc (probably like 200+ vids watched lol) read spirtual enlightenment related books jedmckenna/adyashanti's/samharris etc etc. I never even trusted myself for a long time, I've always been on guard on self-deception ever since i noticed the subconscious mind controls most of my day, it took me a long time until i said alright it is done, i allow myself to be trusted. I've been living on such pain for a long time being skeptic almost 24/7 everyday for a year was quite something. Even as leo has shot his future videos, i've already had some idea from how much self actualizing, i've been doing from spirituality to his 5 star books that it just felt like i have barely been learning anything new for quite a while, maybe his insights are more detailed yet i felt ahead and already over thought his topics for months before him even mentioning them. Even though he's already mentioned he does this just for show it's not really that serious, and I agree it's just for entertainment reasons and it's quite high quality entertainment. Life is pretty much what you make out of it in your perspective, our thoughts create our reality as much as those are the basics it's fundamentally quite true. As for no self, or the perceiver mode, I eventually found it but in concept and it never really lasted much even after some awakenings. Recently i've experienced the more profound ones that are long lasting and let me even control the very dreamstate, it's quite something and this is where my life just keeps getting easier and easier, I want to thank my luck in the universe that has guided me to this random me on the internet. Somehow i eneded up on a page where he would journal his life with a mere 20ish views on his webpage. I eventually pm'd him reached out and ever since then i've learnt a lot more than i ever have in such a short amount of time. All that seeking isn't in vain but it's rather a phase of growing up certain aspects of my knowledge graph. He's helped me harness the elephant in the room, I really enjoy using occult magicka transforming this very dream state to my liking, Life just doesn't feel like a chore to me ever since then. I love playing with my invisible muscles, it's just so much better that way. I have less fear. I'm dropping my double major engineering degree now, as i realize i don't need it, The only reason i picked it was because i thought the world needs some saving, Boy i was naive, I've gotten it all wrong, the world doesn't need any of that it's perfect the way it is. It's already just my playground it's only me playing with myself, I've set it this way for that very reason. I'm going to just relax into life now and enjoy the ride while exploring more spell use as it's always fun transforming things around me instead of physically trying hard with silly logic. I've been attached to the physicalist paradigm for a long time, it's funny how it's clearly nonphysical from the first awakening and then we continue to treat it as physical day by day. There is no need for growth to toy around this dreamstate yet we keep thinking of it as that way, it's merely just being and expanding in it. Insights will always be infinite, even infinite holding on to the very ones you already on as you expand or are in your temporary phases as i see them, yet i'm like why should i bother letting the others of me know? it's just me anyway it's fine. It's all good. When the time comes for every othering it comes, if not it's fine too. Eventually we all reap what we sow, I'm glad i dropped some good quality although i'm aware that it's all neutral either way of quality or not. I still have a lot of gratitude in my heart for this place for it is the place that started it all. Even though it has no location
  11. @Leo Gura well that was a really good morning for me, thanks for the double episode in a week, would be nice if you do these spoon fed detailed insights more often, without holding back or making them short
  12. @Leo Gura Nah your doing fine without that stool, stay classic stronk with those legs how long till it's up? ETA please "i want to spam FIRST" lol also legit excited to review some quantum realm talks
  13. @Leo Gura What are your thoughts on biocentrism and subjective idealism? Can you see the any overlaps between these 3? (vs quantum physics)
  14. "First off, for purposes of grokking this, I request you take the perspective, even if only for a moment, that everything in your human dream is 180 degrees off, a little like a reflection in a mirror. Allow for that possibility while you read the following. When you appear to have been born into humanness, you died to your True Nature, to Truth. You were birthed into this human dream but it was actually a death from the perspective of Truth. When you appear to die in the human dream, what is really happening is you are being born back into your True nature, Truth. When you are born you die and when you die you are born. Imagine a night dream... the characters appear within a dream, they are birthed. Later that dream ends and the characters disappear (die). Where did they go? Nowhere, because there never existed. Yes, they appeared to have a variety of experiences within that night dream which might indicate they were 'real' characters.. seeing, hearing, feeling various experiences, but they were not 'real'. From their dream perspective they felt real, but upon awakening the dreaming human realizes they were just illusory. In a lucid dream, which you have probably experienced, you wake up to your true nature as that of the human character having the night dream. You awaken inside the dream to the reality that the character in the night dream is the creation of a human. Said human is outside the dream. Where does the night dream character go? Nowhere, because he/she wasn't 'real' to start with. You might say he/she died and was absorbed back in the dreaming human. As above, so below. Contemplate this, you are already dead. You couldn't be deader and some day you will die to this human dream and will become alive to your True Nature. Truth is the dreamer and, in your human format you are a dreamed character. You might ask why your human character seems so real and believable. Your night dreams appear real while they are happening. If your dream of humanness did not appear real, with the validation of the senses and human drama, you would not stick around for the entertainment. Could all this human dream be solely for entertainment? You can make up any reason you want for this human dream, I find entertainment works for me."
  15. This happened last year, there was a time, when i was trying to seek my spiritual true self as god, I've been reading about enlightment, watching youtube videos from various spiritual teachers, read through several enlightment books. Yet i had no success of knowing or connecting with it. So i sat down as i meditated, I authentically reached out trying an exercise of asking the universe/god/true self/secret self whatever you want to call it from an exercise i found off youtube saying. If you want to manifest or connect with it, talk to it meditate/contemplate and give it time to respond give it a day try it out for 24hours and see what happens. So i was like why not? I gave it a shot, I sat down on a deep long silence as i meditated and i asked it. God? Universe true self? Me? If you really exist can you please show me something within the next 24hours that you exist? I'm getting really sad and desperate, i can't touch you, see you or even connect with you, please show me you are real and i'm not following some hog wash nonsense. I want to drop my limited human perceptive, i know theirs something beyond this ongoing current magic. Please show me you exist, please i beg you. I don't think i can go long without losing my mind any day now. so please, i beg you please show me anything within the next 24hours and please let it be clear and let me know that you are here. Note i have never heard of the phrase elephant in the room even though I'm 26, this was just the first day of me hearing it ever. So the next day.. my friend called me talked to me and told me something about something so obvious as in the elephant in the room? Why couldn't i notice something so obvious, i was like yeah whatever. Had a convo with him about various stuff. Later on that day leo uploaded a video, Forgot the title of the video although he was talking about spirtuality and nothingness/infinity/god/true self and also mentioned the elephant in the room and why it's so obvious yet we can't notice it. Here i was like yeah ok whatever.. it was a little strange how that twice line, I never heard before in my life come down in a row twice, And then my internet friend called me up and mentioned why couldn't I notice the obvious elephant in the room? And here i was like what the fuck!? And now i really know i am nothing and infinity ever since that moment i communicated it to me somehow.. I'm everyone, i'm you right now, I'm just pure presence god ! Yet i don't know how to use it, it's all automatic, nothing and infinity. I'm just playing with myself somehow playing every character at the same time. Not sure how but i know that's the only thing that makes sense to me, i mean what else is left. Truth can never be communicated in words it's too limited to be put into human paradigm language. but technically everything already happened from nothing every scenario you can think off and everything even irrationality on every dimension all exists on all times everything, i mean it's really infinite infinity. I've had this sensation from time to time in my meditation sessions where i grasped it even though it was clear, yet daily mundane life takes me away from it from time to time. Lately i see life as nothing but a live lucid dream with a tricky way of manifesting things around us. As for the primal mind's sensory perception fear seems to be getting in the way of most of what we'd like to manifest. Although the infinite invisible muscle can't really be seen or used properly it defiantly is there. Been trying to practice law of vibration/attraction via abraham hicks ways lately. I did find a spiritual teacher that tried to help me learn how to manifest a b etter life, although he's gone missing at times, I wonder why would I give up all this unlimited power? Eh Anyway i'm getting out of topic. But yeah Just wanted to drop the elephant in the room for myself once again, It's obvious can you guys see the magic around you? "Your voice, It's echoing off gods walls," "Wake up! you've slept for a thousand nights, and what has it got you" ~ Rumi Has anyone here communicated with the "IT" source? What were your experiences like? I've tried several times, communicating with it with more proof of it existing. i've had other strange experiences around 4 times where it responded in strange ways, from creating an entire mall for me, to manifesting a car with my town's neighborhood number, to a strange story being the same between 2 people as a sign. I found it strange on how it responds but i guess, that's how it likes to play hide and seek with me. Not sure why but it does it in that kind of way. I'll probably try communicating with it more in the future.