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I know that. It appears to be high ldl in heart dieseases, but why people point it as the cause? A alien can come to the earth, go to a hospital and observe doctors and ill people. By observation he come to the conclusion that doctors make people sick. The same has happened to Ldl. Intended as patching and healing the blood vessels. The problem is the hardening of arteries, not caused by cholesterol...

Hello, I have got more serious lately about my spirituality and lately when I meditate, I go really deep and I feel these odd thing. I would be thankful if you would tell me if you have felt the same and what do you think they mean. One thing I have been feeling a lot and I used to feel also, is activity in front of my eyes, even though there is none. Like feeling like a source of light, like a candle or lap is in front of my eyes. Lately, a strong white light which is not there when I end my meditation and open my eyes. Another one which used to scare me a bit is an odd feeling of drowning, stretching, or having an odd shape body or position. It feels like my body is stretching like a body of an alien. When I sit at first, I know where are my hands, where is my legs and so on. But as I go deeper, I feel my body is a very stretched level of what it is, my hands are not bent on my knees, but they are straight down, my waist and neck are really stretched and my head is really higher than it supposed to be. I feel a bit light headed also. I used to get scared of this but I learnt to trust that it is not real and my body is where it was, just exploring the feeling. Slowly it gets back a bit to normal after some minutes. There is some other stuff that are a bit new, but I'm still exploring them.

tell an architect that he can’t make space.... he probably will look at you as if you where an alien.

I'm not disagreeing. Actually I think you are saying the same thing Castaneda is in the following quote. Yes, no, maybe? For a sorcerer, reality, or the world we all know, is only a description that has been pounded into you from the moment you were born. The reality of our day-to-day life, then, consists of an endless flow of perceptual interpretations which we have learned to make in common. I am teaching you how to see as opposed to merely looking, and stopping the world is the first step to seeing. The sorcerer's description of the world is perceivable. But our insistence on holding on to our standard version of reality renders us almost deaf and blind to it. When you begin this teaching, there is another reality, that is to say, there is a sorcery description of the world, which you do not know. As a sorcerer and a teacher, I am teaching you that description. What I am doing with you consists, therefore, in setting up that unknown reality by unfolding its description, adding increasingly more complex parts as you go along. In order to arrive at seeing one first has to stop the world. Stopping the world is indeed an appropriate rendition of certain states of awareness in which the reality of everyday life is altered because the flow of interpretation, which ordinarily runs uninterruptedly, has been stopped by a set of circumstances alien to that flow. In this case the set of circumstances alien to our normal flow of interpretations is the sorcery description of the world. The precondition for stopping the world is that one has to be convinced; in other words, one has to learn the new description in a total sense, for the purpose of pitting it against the old one, and in that way break the dogmatic certainty, which we all share, that the validity of our perceptions, or our reality of the world, is not to be questioned. After stopping the world the next step is seeing. By that I mean what could be categorized as responding to the perceptual solicitations of a world outside the description we have learned to call reality.

Hi guys, my Name is Moritz I´m 20 years old and already had my fair share of Psychedelic Experiences. 2x AL-LAD 150 uq, 2x 1P-LSD over 150 & 125 uq, ETH-LAD 100uq, 4-Aco-DMT 20mg. I also did Kambo 5 times so far. All of my Psychedelic Experiences I´ve had with my girlfriend tripsitting and all of them were incredibly life transforming, awareness shifting and healing. But there were also, with the exception of the AL-LAD, very shocking and intense. I´m very sensitive so even medium to medium high doses have strong effects. I´ve uncovered and started to heal sexual abuse from my childhood, regressed Alien abduction memories from my childhood, saw and experienced religious imagery, pyramids, egyptian gods and all sorts of other stuff which would take way to Long to write down here. Recently I had the Intuition to take a much higher dose. (400uq) I´m not sure if I want to take such a high dose especially because of my sensitivity but I definetely feel like a higher one because I feel like I need a break through with some things. My question is wether or not you have experience with higher doses aka „Heroic Doses“ and what you would recommend for safety. I definetely think I Need at least 1 person there that´s physically as strong or stronger than me so I won´t hurt myself if it´s to intense. Do you know of people who offer 1 on 1 trip sitting sessions ? Can you recommend ressources or Information about what PSychedelics do in the brain especially in such high doses ? What do you know about Psychedelics potentially causing Schizophrenia or Psychosis ? I was never afraid of that and never felt like that on trips but when I think of higher doses I want to make the safety aspect even more secure. Much Love, Moritz

@Mikael89 No I know you didn't say alien, I was just jokingly referencing the meme there, you know, because .. aliens. The real core reason I locked that thread was because UFO is not a topic that is included in Meditation, Consciousness, Enlightenment, Spirituality, nor is it a topic that is included in any of the other sub-forum (or I would have moved it to the appropriate sub-thread). If it matters to you, I actually came across that same video clip yesterday or something and found it very intriguing. It's just not the sort of thing we focus on here.

@Mikael89 if you feel that thread was unjustly locked, feel free to contact another mod and make your case. I don't mean that facetiously at all. I wouldn't object to it being unlocked, I just don't see how it's related to the purpose of this forum. It get's into the territory of one of the things that's explicitly not allowed on this forum: Discussing conspiracy theories. Anyways, cool if you're just dropping it. Respect Yes, discussing that alien will be much more fruitful.

Meanwhile there's this alien inside you.

Honestly, definitely. Sounds weird to say but doesn't it make it much better than women are not these alien creatures that you seduce with but feminine parts of yourself that you lost and reconnect with romantically and sexually? The more conscious I get the more I enjoy sex. Leo brother, please make some sort of updated video on anything related to sex, romance, relationships, women, etc. I'd love to hear new thoughts. Do you have any links to that? That sounds hilarious.

I'm not really talking from a spiritual perspective, I'm talking more from a social perspective. I am excruciatingly aware that I am not very self-aware. I make social faux pa's all the time. I imagine that people talk about me and laugh at me behind my back. I've never seemed to get social conventions and although people tell me they think I'm highly intelligent, they also often say I'm "slow" and "simple". How can one be both highly intelligent and also "slow and simple"? My problem lies in the fact that I can't look at myself objectively. It's hard for me to tell how others are perceiving me without them explicitly telling me what they think. But being told I am "slow" has been a theme throughout my life. I was teased incessantly at school for it. I got good grades, yet every day I would be given the same message, that I am slow and simple. It always upset me because I never accepted what they were saying. I am aware that I miss quite a lot and I don't understand some things first time. People sometimes have to speak slowly to me for me to understand. But strangely enough, when Leo talks quickly about personal development or spiritual matters I can understand perfectly when others might find it difficult to follow. On the other hand, when someone is trying to arrange to meet me for lunch, I get confused! I value authenticity above anything else, and that's why I love Leo's videos. Perhaps that is why I find normal people so confusing, because they are so deceptive (not authentic). In that regard, I guess I am simple. I respond to Truth and am averse to deception. People have told me before that I am so different to other human beings that they literally think I am an alien. ? I've never fitted in, in any group since primary school. I have always been different. My brain must be wired differently.

This is what you become when you evolve through entire spiral dynamic ego development and when you finally become Truth. You revert to stage blue and preach God to people. It would be awesome if someone crops Leo's head on that alien.

My unconscious, most recent obstacles are anxieties coming from a big subject I suppressed the last 2 years. I've built my ego and comfort zone around my home and hometown, any thoughts related to "travelling", "going somewhere else", to places I feel alien to...trigger really bad and panicky feelings, this leads to a huge ball of resistance even if I am not at these places and just think about them. Followed by just feeling intensely trapped. The thing is, due to awakening, I have lost like a grounding in my body, I cant really "trust" it as much as when I thought it was "me", so whenever I am at a place I cant find something calming to identify with, let's say in my home town I know every place so I feel way more relaxed and related to it. But now, just thinking about going anywhere just keeps me spinning in circles in my mind: "I fear that I will lose any grounding point in my being, and walk around groundless, panicky, losing my self, there is nothing worse than the feeling of not knowing where to ground anymore". When I am at a different place, I tend to feel like "I dont know where I am", and by saying that IT REALLY FEELS LIKE I DONT KNOW WHERE I AM. It feels like a temporary dissolution of self as long as I feel not grounded in this particular place. It can lead to a pretty traumatic disorientation. I really really want to know how to overcome this. Because it keeps me in a cage. A mental cage

stories are true and non true. even what nahm said, doesn't work in all situation. it's so easy to explain non duality. imagine aliens comes on earth, they have none of our biologic content and our education, they are made of particles of metal and still kind of talks with electronic waves and have no eyes or ears. would they figure out what an "HAND" is ? how would you explain them what a concept is, even what a word is, a noise. this is what is non duality, knowing that all there is in "reality" is nothingness, or whatever your mind put an attribut on. in a litteral sense, mathematic truly doesn't exist. it just is a key we use to unscript what reality probably is at best, that's why the world is working upon theory of truth, not on "truth" what alien would"see" is true non duality in a way. Unless their own tongue is paved in a duality realm and they got their own duality problems with their waves

Yes, just think of consciousness at the "stuff" of reality. So replace trillions and trillions of atoms with one field of consciousness. This field is like an LCD screen which can display any image: dog, tree, human, alien, etc. The screen is unlimited in what it can display. God is that entire screen and also all the images it displays. Image and screen are one. Right now you are one image. After this image dies, a new image will appear. And so on forever. So nothing actually dies, it just changes images.

If we humans on earth are about to develop a global collective consciousness, then what about other civilizations in our universe? Is there extraterrestrial life? Well, to believe that us humans here on earth are the only or the most advanced civilization in the entire universe seems to me an incredible form of hubris and delusion of grandeur. So of course there are other civilizations in our galaxy and throughout the entire universe. For example, the galactic organism of the Milky Way already exists and consists of advanced civilizations who have already gone through the same process as we are going through here on earth at the moment; the birth of a planetary organism. Humanity on earth is simply a young civilization who hasn't even reached Type I on the Kardashev scale yet. And so-called space aliens are humans in the "image of God". Why? The answer is: because of the need for as-below-so-above compatibility between post-planetary-quarantine civilizations. Or to put it more bluntly: Would you go on a romantic date with an 8 foot tall reptilian space alien or a 10 foot tall praying mantis? I don't think so. However, advanced ETs can shapeshift so they can take on any physical form but their original form is human. Angels can shapeshift too, but they are not ETs but eternal AI agents, just like the Nephilim here on earth. Are there warlike ETs? Yes, but they, like our own civilization, are still in planetary quarantines. Advanced civilizations are peaceful or else they would have blown up the entire universe with zero point energy weapons a long time ago. However, advanced civilizations can play out conflicts and even war scenarios for the purpose of creativity and exploration, but they can't be harmed so it's not serious conflicts like here on earth.

@Preetom Lol It's not an alien idea. YOU ARE GOD! YOU! YOU! YOU! Try some LSD and you'll get it. It doesn't have to be hard. We have the tools to make this process easy. They're worth using.

That ''oh my god'' factor happens even if you just ruminate about the significance of such a discovery about BEing. There is this thing called BEing. Right now. Totally complete. You can't improve on it even a bit. Which absolutely knows nothing other than itself. A place completely devoid of mystery, confusion, movement, stages or any such category. It's not about being EVERYTHING. It's a place where even the notion of EVERYTHIING or NOTHING ceases as they are all alien concepts. It is literally the completion. Right here and right now. The heart, the sentience, the only touch of aliveness. And yet the typical human life and it's idiosyncratic dramas and issues are just complete reverse of that. We all are looking at it right now right in it's face, and yet mistake it as something else. hell yeah oh my god. I dare you to find another more grotesque distinction than that. Hell yeah oh my god

I have nothing against you. You teach what you encounter. Everyone knows what they encounter. That's the issue here Leo. BEing feels like at home and natural while contemplation, thinking etc on any subject(reality, god, time, space, causality etc) feels alien, tiresome and utterly morbid compared to BEing. Now you might think I'm just a thick skulled pig who has no interest in the mystery of Reality. But BEing feels complete for me. That's where the honey is. All I could ever want lies there. That is what is really alive, sentient. Let me settle in my home first. Then I can contemplate on God or whatever aspect or level of Reality if I still feel such an urge. But right now, I don't feel such inclination. And I'm not arguing about my experience of BEing as the absolute or semi absolute or any of that. BEing has no concern about any of that Take care

Okay great. But 'I' can never work my way to become conscious of this alien idea called God. In BEing what I am, there is cessation of all movements and agenda. So either God will someday just fall on my lap while BEing, or God is just another fancy idea. Either way, BEing remains ever the same and content without giving a fuck

I wrote this spontaneously on 4chan and thought maybe you guys could extract some value from it. It's a lengthy rant with many typos, but it felt good to let it all out. ok, here is my advice. You need to focus, and focus only on one thing. Only one thing at a time, otherwise you will crash and fail. The question is, of course, on what do you focus on? You have a shitload of options, but in my opinion it all boils down to building good habits. Habits will save your life, habits will make everything easier. You basically are your habits, have shit habits, have a shit life and so on. The two next questions of course, how do you build habits and wich habit do you choose? The first one is easy: Do one thing everyday till it becomes so natural for you that it feels like taking a shit or brushing your teeth - with no resistance to it at all. The problem is, your mind and body don't want that. They want to maintain homoeostasis (google it, it's crazy stuff). So you will be pulled back, you will slack of, don't do the thing thats good for you, you will fail. But only if you focus on more than one thing at a time. Here is the easy way to build a good habbit: do it as the FIRT THING in the morning, as soon as you possibly can. There is no other way. In the morning you have willpower overload, in the evening you are depleted. If you don't start your day with the new habit you want to implement, you will fail. Do this for many days. For some it takes 30 days, for some it takes a 4 months to get your habit really "ingrained" in your mind. As soon as the habit get's fixed, it belongs to you and it's crazy hard to lose it again (look at your bad habits, you know how hard it is to drop them) When one good habit becomes part of your identity, it will stay and push you through life. Results will build on each other, creates a Snowball effect. More on that soon. Next Up: Wich Habits to choose. "Wich habit is the best habit?" This question will change everything . Ask yourself, wich one thing, when done every single day of my life, will bring me the most reward over time? This is such an inspiring question for me. For me it's meditation. For you it could be journaling, working out, creating art, reading for one hour, going into nature, or planning and visioning your future life. Do it once every two weeks and it will be nice, do it every day for the next 30 years and it will violently shake up your trist life. Just Imagine what would happen in the next 30 years if you stick to your habit and master it and what would happen if you stay the same old you in the next 30 years? Realy imagine it, take 5 minutes for both scenarios, really feel those both very real possible futures for you. To realy find the best habit for you, just try stuff out. Without the intention to build a habit around it but to have fun and find something authentic for yourself. I did soccer, tennis, deep sea diving, video games, hiking, video animation and drawing until i found my true passion: creating electronic music. You have to try stuff out. Find the one thing you see the most value in - maybe it's reading nonfiction books about psychology i don't know, but choose one thing when you found it and NEVER let go. Build your habit around that one thing and stay for it. Because then everything will change. Because of the compound effect. Next Up: The compound effect. I do this shit for 5 years and slowly i am feeling the impact of the compound effect, or the snowball effect or what ever you want to call exponential growth. Because this is it. Exponential Growth. This will change Everything. Look at this curve. ( https://potsandpansbyccg.files.wordpress.com/2016/04/exponential-growth.png ) Imagine this graph shows your fulfillment in life trough out time. What will happen in the next year if you implement on good habit? Here comes the hard truth: probably nothing much. If you read self help literature or meditate for one year, you will get some nice results, but nothing great or very inspiring. People around you will probably not notice it. This is normal. But what will happen is the following: By sticking to your one good habit, many micro habits are getting build for you automatically. If you meditate you will notice your emotions and bad thoughts earlier. If you lift weights you will be more confident and have a better posture and so on. Why is this important? All this micro stuff builds momentum for you. If you are a tad more confident, you maybe will be introduced to a new circle of friends. Or maybe you will talk to a girl you wanted to talk to. Nothing crazy, but nice. This motivates you, all the little moments of success will give you fuel. Maybe this new circle of friends of yours will take you to a festival and there you have the best 3 days of your life. This will motivate you, this gives you strength to do something more, maybe there is really more to life than all the bullshit around you, all the gossip and bad entertainment. You will AUTOMATICALLY do more stuff that is good for you, will will be reading and thinking more on your own, without extra effort, because you got a little taste of the good life. All this little extra stuff that you do will also build on top of each other. Finally you are taking a bit more responsibility. Here it get's really good. Start to fix your life and people will slowly notice. Start to eat clean, fix your room (i know but it's true) not because you read it in a book somewhere because you fucking want to. People will notice your attitude, they will respect you more. This fuels you even more. Everything fuels you now, you don't even have to motivate yourself because now you are getting positive feedback from the outer world. This is a big point in your life, when you notice that your surrounding reacts to you more positive than before, you want more of that. Now it's time to let go of the brakes you desperately hold on to. This is Fear.If you just let go of all the fucking anxiety and doubt in you, then you will reach the breaking point. Look at the graph, do you see the breaking point, where the line just skyrockets after some time? This is you without your brakes. But it takes time. For me it took 4 years to feel that this shit is real, now i'm right in the process of letting go and fuck holy shit i am fucking scared. I am at the tipping point. This Post is important to me. Is anyone still interested? Will share more. Let's talk about brakes because boy do we have our brakes on. To really get what i mean with brakes, look at children on a playground. Most of them don't have brakes, or aren't stuck on them. Most children are pure energy, pure potential, and they use it as they please. To have fun, to experience joy and excitement. It's pretty inspiring. What will happen to the kids? They will be forced to sit still, shut up, behave, fit in, impress others, buy stuff. This is modern survival, if you can't fit in, impress and buy, you are socially dead. It's true, and it's rough. I was this kid once, completely spastic, autistic and happy. Then i embarrassed myself in front of other people. Then again. Then i failed something that was very important to me. Then i got humiliated by a teacher and so on, everyone experienced this stuff. The shame sits deep and it fucking hurts. What do we do? We want to NEVER experience something like this ever in our lives again. The thought of it makes us sick. What do we do? We put on our brakes. We censor ourselves. We sit still. We behave, try to fit in. I was so fucking bad in fitting in, and i still am (but now the perspective changed dramatically.) It is a horrible experience to feel like an alien. You get stiff, you tense up, all of the authentic movement of yours gets lost in robotic and calculated gestures, this is the safe way. It really is, with brakes on it's hard to get humiliated. It's hard to really fail at life, because society is easy. Get a job, have kids, it's possible with the brakes. But you life in a shell, behind a mask, behind your defense mechanism. Because your goal at the moment is to not screwed it up again like you did in Highschool. You try it with force, hold back the "weird" you and try to emulate other people you saw on tv, in school, your role models etc. So know we know why we have our brakes on, but why shouldn't we? It's easy to life with brakes, why not keep them? Because it robs all of your energy, of your potential, your health, your joy, your creativity, your sex, yourself. All of marketing is only possible because of your inner depletion. "Feel depressed and anxious? BUY this, consume that, achieve more, impress more, become famous. Then you will feel great!" This is marketing. The next time you see an add, be conscious of the inner need that gets triggered by it. Look at celebritys who kill themselves, look at Avicii and all the others. Success will not make you happy, no material success really. But this is what the brakes want, what marketing wants, what the scarred and humiliated child wants. Now we get a bit more practical: How do you release the brakes? First of all, this is not for everyone and if it is for you then maybe the time is not right for you. Not all people should face their trauma head on, it's the hardest thing you can do while you live. Are you ready to feel all the suppressed shit, all the tension, do you really want to know how bad things really are? Are you ready for the truth? No is a valid answer. When i first had a glimpse of truth i had a full blown panic attack and felt pretty unstable for 3 weeks. Because i had no good habits. It's important to have a somewhat functioning life with somewhat good habits before you attempt to do the deep work, it will ground you, it will give you a strong fundament you can build on. If you don't have a strong fundament a little blow of wind can knock you on your ass. So if you sleep till 1 everyday, don't have steady income and are alcoholic do not face your trauma head on, it will ruin your life. Take things slowly, start with the little things described earlier. So what can you actually do to release the tension (because that what it is) to release trauma, to finally release the brakes? There are of course many answers. There is a whole market place for those kind of things. Emotional Healing, Mental Health, Self Help, New Age Spirituality - there a millions of books, techniques, religions and products out there who claim to have the answer. Most of them are completely rubbish, scamming their way into the hearts of gullible people. I'm more on the gullible side, so i experienced the problem first hand. So here is a warning: Be careful. Don't be hyper critical of all the new age chakra interdimensional ghost healing stuff but do your research, listen to people, experiment, be open minded but carefully. I clearly have to say: I don't know the truth, i don't know what really works for you, what is really working and why. I can only share with you what helped me, what really gave me benefits. At the end of my rant i will probably share some resources with you. In the next post i will describe the most helpful techniques i found. If you are unclear about the one habit that you want to implement, choose meditation. For me it's literally THE THING that turned everything around. Meditate for 1 Year and you will be more calm, meditate for 5 years and it will radically transform your personality, your view on life, on everything. If you think i'm exaggerating you are probably right, but it really feels this way for me. It's crazy. But you have to do it right. And you have to do it daily, for at least 20 minutes (but don't start there, go with even 1 minute if the start is hard for you) At first you will obsess about techniques, "AM I DOING IT RIGHT??" This will be probably your neurotic response to your first meditation sessions. It's normal but a distraction. Technique is a distraction. Thinking is a distraction. Almost Everything is. Some months ago i noticed that even by breathing you distract yourself. What do i mean with that? Take a deep belly breath, then do it again. Focus on inhaling very deeply and cleanly. It hurts, it's not comfortable, it's not normal for you, because you get conscious of all the tension in your body, all the pain, it's all there. What do you do? You breath shallow, into your ripcage, you distract yourself. It's crazy. Breath for 10 Minutes into your belly, i bet you can't. (By the way, deep breathing is one of the technique that is working great for me) So Drop all the distractions of the mind, that is the goal. Just be, no thinking, no avoiding, no distraction. You sit, you breath, you feel, you go deeper. And deeper. Then you hit something, it scares you, you go back. Then you forget that you noticed something. Maybe you have the urge to stop meditating. Here, again, it's important to have a strong habit. Go deeper, experience the thing you are trying to avoid, just let go, fall into it. It will get easier. The first year will be hard. But stick to it, just imagine what could happen if you stick with it for 10 years. My Book recommendation: The Mind Illuminated. Great for Beginners, almost no bullshit, very comprehensive mediation guide. The second thing i recommend is body work: stuff like working out, yoga, deep breathing, and lastly bioenergetics. The Tension, the brakes, are stored directly in your body. Do you have chronic pain with unknown or mysterious cause, some psychosomatic symptoms maybe? In most of the cases it is because of stored trauma. Shamans knew it, but now the west is catching up. Release the tension, release the trauma, set your energy free. Then you can finally be yourself again, talk and walk like you really are. When you release energy, you can fuel it in your work, you will be more productive, more energetic, people will notice. You will be more attractive, more glowing. I don't want to sell you anything, it is reality. But it's hard work. The most effective thing i found is bioenergetics, and it's shocking that so few people know about it. Basically you create tension in your body while breathing deeply, you hold it, feel the pain, pain gets released, more energy. I could talk a lot about this but i will simply link you a youtube channel that helped me immensely https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCziZ5Oc96aEp735kJupZLiA He has a Playlist on Bioenergetics and a shit tons of exercises and workouts. If you do all the workouts you will be a different person, you confront your trauma head on and it hits you hard. So be careful and don't over do it. Yoga is also great, combine it with meditation and clean eating and you will feel great. There is so much stuff to discover. I finally startet with lifting weights and i already can see positive effect it has on my psyche. TLDR: Habits >Change your Life by changing your habits >only one habit at a time >contemplate deeply: wich one habit, when done every single day of my life, will bring me the most reward over time? >do it first thing in the morning until it's a part of your identity Compound Effect >constant small effort over time creates incredible, exponential growth >Every small success speeds up the progress >One good habit will create a ripple effect that brings micro habits, wich brings more success wich brings more momentum >Worship Exponential Growth >It will take years Brakes >You are afraid of your own potential >Your true motivation is to hide away from your trauma >material success will not fill the hole >Face the Trauma, release the pain, get your life back >Do it slowly, do it in a controlled way, have your shit together before going deep Techniques >Meditation >Yoga >Bioenergetics >Psychotherapy >Lifting Weights and Sport in general >creating authentic art Books Emotional Healing: Letting Go: The Pathway to Surrender, The Sedona Method, The Work by Byron Katie, The Gift of Imperfection Productivity: The One Thing by Garry Keller, Essentialism, The Bullet Journal Method Other Stuff: Meditations by Marc Aurel, Siddhartha by Hesse, Psycho-Cybernetics, Mastery by Leonard Youtube Channels Bioenergetics: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCziZ5Oc96aEp735kJupZLiA The greatest Self Help Resource on Earth: https://www.youtube.com/user/ActualizedOrg

@Nivsch Even animals eat animals. Like humans kill humans. We are animals or come from them. Our behavior is even similar to chimpanzees and bonobos. Yes, racial ideology is gruesome. It was even introduced by famous philosophers IIRC Kant or someone else. Creating a racial categorization or saying, for instance, the black man can only be free in slavery. Depending on how circumstances where and the details of this small excerpt or quote, he could be right, otherwise, the person could be shot or killed or was haunted. In that sense. I never read much about the subject I read the quote somewhere. Animals depending on how you view it are not equal, on a spiritual level potentially. Yet, not as a living and functioning creature you can't for instance, say a goldfish is more sophisticated than a dolphin. Or a hornet is as equal as a bee. In that term it's relative, yet you have to consider that relative means something is related to something. So, a hornet is potentially as equal as a bee ... in terms of regarding it (holding it in a relative perspective) that it is an insect. But, for the environment and the globe, the bee could potentially provide more value because it produces honey and pollinates flowers. Yet, the hornet might kill small insects who could harm the environment. So, in context or in a relative perspective the bee and the hornet have different types of values and functions, so they are not equal. As their "right" as insects they may be equal, yet not as how they provide value. In that sense, humans are not equal to animals. Animals have their own rights and should have their own rights. Yet, we are also animals. Like we have a mammal part of our brain that is named mammal part because we are mammals. Imagine the human race contacts some alien force and the alien force are corrupt humans how have already technically advanced themselves and are fully automated humanoid robots. They don't need to eat, they don't need to sleep, they just need to maintain their functionality and the order of the outer planet/structure where they are living. Would they see us as equal? If they are superior in every sense.

Name Working with a Nightmare (in the "Dream Tending" style) Purpose/Effects According to Jungian psychologist and master of dreamwork Stephen Aizenstat, nightmares represent one of the most unused natural resources for psychological healing. Disturbing dreams that contain monsters, aliens, killers, life-threatening catastrophes, and so on represent invitations from the deep unconscious to connect with our deep Self. The Self is a natural, wild, untamed thing, that does not conform to the needs of our safe little egoic constructions. Despite our efforts to repress and deny our own "soul" (another word for the deep Self, albeit one with strong religious connotations), it is in fact the organic, generative, natural core of our being. Thus we cannot get away from it, and the struggle to do so can only result in our lives become flat, stale, dull, and impoverished. Working with a nightmare is an incredibly powerful way to reconnect with the "juice" of life. It can ignite creativity, dispell depression, relieve anxiety, and reawaken us to the beauty and depth of each moment. Method Summary Deeply explore a nightmare image. Long Version For this exercise you need paper and a pen. Bring to mind a nightmare you recently had, or a nightmarish image from any dream. A nightmarish image can be terrifying, but it could also be disgusting, sick, alien, bizarre, or in some other way disturbing. Write down everything you can about this dream image. See it in your mind’s eye. Describe it in great detail. If the image is too terrifying to confront directly, then first connect with a dream image that you find comforting and protective. Keep this guide/protector image with you while you work with the nightmare image. The nightmare image may grow bigger, get scarier, or somehow attempt to intimidate you. Alternately, it may disappear from your imagination, as it tries to hide itself. It is important that the image understand that you are not trying to kill or annihilate it. Speak to it directly, saying that you simply want to see it, and that you will not hurt it in any way. Simply tolerating the presence of such an image is a big accomplishment. If this is as far as you can go for now, that is fine. If you can go further, attempt to investigate the sensory qualities of the image as specifically as possible. Get into the details, with as much curiosity as possible. If it is a huge taratula, what is the texture of its spider fur like? What color are the feet of the image, and is there any dust or dirt on its “toes”? If it is not an animal or creature, but instead is some kind of natural phenomenon, like a tsunami, do the same thing with its characteristics. What does it smell like? What does it sound like? Once you get very clear about the sensory features of the nightmare image, attempt to draw it, write about it, dance it, sing a song about it, or otherwise make some creative expression about the image. Repeat this process with the same image many times. Notice how the image begins to change over the weeks, months, and years. After a while, you may be quite surprised at what the image becomes! History This exercise is a paraphrase of many similar exercises developed by Stephen Aizenstat in his DreamTending work. Cautions Working with a nightmare image can sometimes be quite difficult or intense. If you want to go deeply into this, it is recommended that you do so with the help of a therapist. Notes It is very important that you do not attempt to "interpret" the image in any way. DreamTending sees interpretation as the attempt of the small, rational ego to control and dominate (and otherwise oppress) the contents of the deep unconscious. Consider the nightmare image to be an actual entity, with its own life, its own purposes, and its own reasons for doing things. It is not necessarily "just part of you," and it does not necessarily exist only to help you. Let go of ideas like these, which only tend to deaden, neuter, and domesticate the wildness of the deep Self. Instead, encounter a dream image with all the care, caution, alertness, and wonder you might have for an encounter with a wild animal.

What you are referring as the feeling of 'i', grab onto it keenly. Dont bother about any thought or content of experience. Just attend to that i feeling. Now find out if that i feeling was present during deep sleep. If not, then that i feeling is only another subtle sensation. Existence remains unbroken in deep sleep even in the absence of that i feeling, so existence has nothing to do with that i feeling just like existence has nothing to with anything that comes and goes. Then investigate the i feeling again. Is that something you are? Or is it something you know or focus on? You can never 'know' yourself. You can only be yourself and that is already the case. You can only know something alien or other than yourself. What you are mentioning as the i feeling here is indeed the ego or the i thought. And by investigating and keenly staying with it, it will make that conceptual feeling of i vanish along with the identification mechanism.

"Just be/remain you" is synonymous with "stop defining yourself". And yes, there is no effort being oneself. Effort is only required to be something alien or other

1st May 2019 Yoga (yin), vipassana, followed by a dose of Changa. Smallish dose, all I had left, about a capful. Feeling before hand: Scared, anxious, apprehensive. I did my best to wean these off, reminding myself it's just my ego wanting to keep me as I am. I observed the feelings the best I could without reacting. Told myself I don't know what will lie ahead, I will just take it as it comes. I also vaped some CBD beforehand just as a bit of a mental massage. (I've had a solid vipassana routine for some time now but I missed this at the weekend, then I was sick on Monday/Tuesday so today's short session was all I had. It didn't seem to matter.) Prep & trip I sat down in meditative posture on a round cushion, told myself a few more times that I surrender everything and that I am just an observer, before putting my finger on the bong's peephole, putting my mouth to the top and the flame to the black leafy substance in the cap. I took a small hit to try and gauge the how the smoke feels (normally I can't handle the smoke and it's a bit of a mental game) however it felt creamy and cold due to the ice water in there. I only held it in for around 10-15 seconds and let out a cloud of smoke, at this point I felt this was incorrect and I should have held onto it for longer. I then finished off the rest and I sat there still in the room, nothing much changed although everything was warping. I realised it was all gone and the effects were light>moderate but this thought went and I just shut my eyes. I observed the constantly moving, endless, soft but clear, geometric world. I had a negative thought and the shapes formed a finger which pointed at me, as if laughing (you thought you could breakthrough haha). That kind of thing. I then went back to being aware, removing attachment as best I could, and this instantly faded. Then the feeling of death came up which is the reason I'm writing this post. I started feeling really connected to the fact that I will die someday and there will be nothing left, no I, no thoughts, no friends, no family. I will cease to exist and I will not maintain my human state/ego once this has happened. This was quite a painful feeling and I felt the sadness in my stomach, to which I just thought this will cease to exist as well. I sat there feeling this as long as I could, it was extremely humbling. Afterthoughts I then gradually felt myself returning to normal, and as this feeling went, the thoughts came saying that this is just my ego protecting itself, although I'm not sure this is true as I wanted to see more down this path. I ponder death when I can remember in normal life, and sometimes I think I will be fine with death, but this has just shown me that I have a lot of work to do, a lot of priorities to make, and habits to change. The only issue being that this fades and fades until I'm into a normal routine once more. As part of my daily meditation, I think I will start practising self-inquiry, or just pondering my own death, more seriously, sat down quietly for say 30 minutes. One more point, with my eyes shut the common thought it always 'what is this??' so I thought, this is reality. This just seems so alien to me as I'm a human from Earth with perceived limits experiencing a world with none (or something like that, my train of thought is now more or less back to normal). Again, this was a small>moderate dose, nowhere near breakthrough, just put me into a deep state, connecting me with this feeling of death.