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Better term is unmanifest reality, inert reality, undistinguished reality, pure potential. When expressed you get manifest reality, dynamic reality, distinguished reality, the loss of potential. When people say they experienced nothingness it wasn't nothing cuz they were there to experience it. Nothingness and emptiness are just concepts for convenience, so you can just say "theres nothing in this cup" instead of saying this cup lacks everything you can list than can fit in the cup. "This room is empty" instead of saying this room is missing a cat, a dog, a horse, a girl, a rat, a bat, a hat, a fat babe, an alien, a cup of water, on and on.

A lot of the lunacy might come down to the choice of wording? I prefer the term creation over imagination, as imagination carries with it some implied control. People go off the rails thinking if they just smoke some 5-MeO and "become God consciousness" they can perform magic like Harry Potter or some shit. Of course, when there are no boundaries or limits whatsoever, there is nothing to grab. Any border of thingness you may expect to grab in order to manipulate you find is simply not there. You're at the full mercy of unstoppable creation, of Brahman. Experientially it is very frightening and just about the most alien thing anything could ever experience.

Technically you could, but, as I understand it, God sort of put itself inside a humongous Matryoshka doll set in order to limit itself. In a way, if you could blast through all of them you could pretty much do anything. Basically, God put itself in a hole and threw away the hole. He knows how powerful he really is, and the unleashing of that would just destroy the dream, so he hides his own self from itself so you can't do all that your "ego" wants to. Honestly, I don't buy this crap right here. There's no way God actually *wants* to experience intense suffering and suicide. Seek meaning, significance, to survive in an alien world in whatever way possible. I think shit just goes down and maybe we just have to work with what we've got. Also, as I understand it, this existence is highly based on faith and belief. Think about it, you don't actually believe you could create another Universe right now, and so you won't. You TRY to believe, you WANT to believe, but ultimately you don't, and so you won't be creating anything out of nothing any time soon.

@Matt23 no i believe I am insane and dont want to be "cured" of it. (I would like to be functioning, but I embrace the crazy through and through.) My belief is that this world has no place for me. I must of been 'born ahead of my time' or something it seems like, or I am an alien from Mars . I am extremely strange to both, conventional and unconventional people... @BipolarGrowth @Loba okay so ill try working on journaling and doing a checklist for a few daily routines + a bit more ... (Drinking water , take a walk outside, meditate) It is extremely hard because the more I resist giving up and wanting to turn things around, the harder it becomes to do it... I can never seem to meditate especially, its like my Achille's Heel... The more i fight to get myself to meditate, the more my shadow resents it altogether and less I am able to do at all... And it just keeps getting worse and worse ... Its like I have made it into some sort of PTSD like fear of relapsing into trying-to-be-all-I-can mode. Its like I really have a heart longing for going all into self-improvement, but over the years I have grown to rebuke it to where it is an inpenetrable wall now. Like in a fantasy movie where a person has grown exhausted of dreaming and it is all reluctance to answer the calling anymore.

Friday 04/03/2022 18:55 It's been over 4 weeks since I've started mirtazapine, 15mg dose. Nothing has changed and I'm still confused. Why can't I help but get the feeling I have nothing? It's not even that. I'm just so dissociated I don't know how to feel anymore. I feel emptied out of mental and emotional contents, but I'm still in this hell and I suffer. Before I used to talk about things as if I had been split in two, but now I don't know. I feel like I've really gone mad but no one can get it, and all the psyches can do is give some meds. They don't even think I'm psychotic so what the use. Still in this torture chamber. Normally I can't even cry, only when I feel like I'm on the absolute brink like I am now can I. And I can't think anymore either. Fear upon fear upon fear. I don't journal because I don't think or have a functioning mind anymore. I talk to others online through text but that's different. I need new glasses, these are broken, and I need to spend less time away from my phone and computer. I'm scared of what will be left of me if I drop my computer. I feel like I'll die. And the last time I was outside and exercising, all I could think about was unreality and feeling like I was dying. I'm still split in half and idk what I'm doing. One way up and one way down. I have to be mad, they just couldn't tell or couldn't be bothered to go deeper into it at the time, I have an appointment next week anyway. I think it's possible I went through all this suffering for nothing. I just want to die, and anytime I get in touch with my emotions and feelings again I just want to die. The past 4 weeks have been terrible. Somehow I got even worse. What more will be stolen from me? Language escapes me, to even say Im already dead feels like a stale repeat. I've dissociated my entire life and never knew what was real, so I have no salvation. All I can do apparently is try to relax, enjoy and get comfortable. But is even that true? Can I even do that much? I've lost more and suffered more than I ever thought was possible, so what can I possibly do or say to that? I've never felt normal, and all the dominos culminated to here. And then when you get to here there's no prize. What a bloody joke. And now I'm left here stranded and lonely, hungry yet full, thirsty yet hydrated, mad yet crazy. I have no hope for my existence after this. I keep clinging to this digital entombment in trying to cover my self in sheets and return to the womb. I'm out of the womb and I want back. Quite literally, I don't known who I am anymore. Using what memory I have, at least for the past few weeks this sense of self is completely alien to me [it's been much longer than that]. My thinking AND emotion are both gone yet present, present in whatever schizophrenic (I don't have a better word, urban dictionary 4 chan sense of the word) mess to best torture me. I've hidden from myself even deeper out of the raw fear I get when self awareness hits. I don't have the language anymore to write how I feel when I'm alone, it's in another dimension of dissociation. If we go with this metaphor, "dissociation" is only the key to enter the door to this place, but the actual place is full of so many rooms and furniture. But i cant describe these things, only the word "dissociation" exists as the concept for me that I can use, but I'm so aware now that it doesn't communicate. I use the word fear when not even fear fits (MONSTERS WHO EAT EVEN THOUGH THEY'VE NEVER EXPERIENCED HUNGER, MONSTERS WHO STUDY EVEN THOUGH THEY HAVE NO INTEREST IN ACADEMICS, MONSTERS WHO SEEK FRIENDSHIP EVEN THOUGH THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE) — It's as though I was an android crafted from the foolish experiments of my human self. It's as though I was a self-eating parasite designed to eat itself into oblivion, like some sort of time-travelling computer program terminator, and I'm but a sacrificial lamb on an alter of sacrifice I don't comprehend. Now that would be dark. The artificial creature has already shed its skin and its first limbs have sprung forth. The digital dystopia has begun "Fear", "dissociation". The past month I've literally lost all verbalising or emotive ability and become an animal. Only thing which can happen positively is that I get enough of my mind, emotions and self back to want to kill myself. Because right now, I'm so dissolved in the aether I can't formulate or be aware of a thing. But it's clear as day to me now, I want to die. The "will to live", that blind omnipresent thing is ever present. Like a devil he whispers your ear, to no avail. I thought I understood myself, but I don't. I'm sick and tired of myself all the time. People who are solipsistic will feel that too. When my lucidity scarcely returns to me I'm unhinged. Lucidity escapes me, and when lucid I will go all the way. AM I DEALING WITH A PARASITE OR INFECTION? I DONT KNOW. Why am I asleep? Attempts to recussitate the emotions gone are what you called artificial. The insights I had on lsd in regards to my situation make sense to me now. I used to feel like my mind was a whirling tornado, and what I became now was but one unit-cell in the tornado/crystal which was amplified and zoomed in on for no reason. It existed for no other reason than itself. It exists for no reason other than itself; that is what selfishness means. -- But what's been up with me the past several weeks? The simple description was right. "I have zero mental or emotional contents to work with". First it giveth, then it taketh away. Music used to make me feel something, now it does nothing. Everyone but me isn't amnesiac about the past few months and year.*BULLSHIT*, no one remembers the past that well, more bullshit you try to pull. *See the split?* AFTER THE BRIEFEST OF GLIMPSES OF LUCIDITY, I see its alright. Its alright if I die, it's alright if I live and nothing happens. ARTIFICIAL ARTIFICIAL Artificial Artificial ; what lies here? A fake is always inferior to the real thing, and no smart quotes can fix that. At the deeper level I've just been desperate, hungry, to feel something again and get a story going. But I've been running dry and it makes me so grumpy and moody. Is it possible I'm a defunct sociopath of sorts? But do I want just any story? No. I want the story of my own triumph and victory. Alas, no such story exist. Nothing exists besides appearance, all is empty. Hah. Fuck you, anti-life vermin. If I entertain the hypothetical that I'm an android, maybe real hypothetical, what would you do? Is there a possibility that I'm an android and that human behaviour generally isn't robotic? I couldn't say. My friend asked me why I'm cynical and jaded about human nature, and I said And I think this is the belief. This is my general skepticism, upon seeing that humans and my own nature is layers upon layers. Layers are impersonal and mechanical, sometimes cruel in my case as a sentient-android thing that wants to feel. If disrupting someone's possessions and needs is enough to make people discard morality, then that shows it wasn't real to begin with. Therefore I should limit test people to see if they're truly moral. On the other hand, maybe you should make conditions optimum for people to be moral, by using the fact it's deterministic? See, it's funny you can take those two different angles on the topic of it. What one should make of that fact isn't determined at least, lmao But the general idea is right. Reverse The Hierophant. Whatever cannot be destroyed is the only thing which can be true. Therefore it's alright whatever happens, but it's not alright for me now is it? It's not alright. Still an incel, no life, in mom's basement type of thing ————— Take that inference far enough and it would say my life and experiences "untrue". Hmmm. Nothing lasts and all is in flux, so that would mean nothing is true by that standard? "Destroyed". Hmmm. Truth is that which exists and untruth is that which doesn't. Does truth exist? Yes. How do I know? Because I say so. But does saying so make it true that truth exists? Cue self-references. Ugh. Whenever I answer yes or no questions , "no" to me is the absence of a yes. It isn't a positive quality. Some people see all dualities as the changes in one variable. I don't know why this technicality should help anyone practically, but this small detail could be the tenth of a hair width between heaven and hell to some. That's a tangent from truth, but idc to think about truth that much now. NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER.

They should go more after someone like that Bentinho guy. Who is talking about creating an 'enlightened city', being an alien, creating a social hivemind , targeting young girls with mental health issues so he can sexually abuse them etc.

I actually can’t understand this. It’s totally not a criticism, it just feels so totally alien to how I (and I suspect many men) experience sexuality that I struggle to even empathise with it like I wish I could

A person and an alien walk towards a signpost. To the human it looks like it walked a distance of 100 metres and the signpost itself is like, a pole with a wooden arrow (w.e.). To the alien, it may well look like it walked 5 metres, and the post itself might look like an eagle heiroglyph or some shit (because there's no reason this couldn't happen). But both the human and the alien reach the "signpost". Its actuality can't be anything perceived, so it can't actually be "like" anything. As in, that is not just a theory, it's impossible anything could be "like" something without perception. So wtf is it. It has to be nothing, because things are perceptions. But the nothing has some kind of shape and form to it, so beings with completely alien subjective experiences can agree there is "SOMETHING" there. What is the mechanism for the placement of "unspecified-nothingness-thing"? Are infinite versions of the same thing there at once? What is it though, that places it "there" at a specific spot in the landscape.....

As @Tim R said, nothing really changed. The dream is still the same. If you could enjoy it before, you can enjoy it now. And as others mentioned, when you have a complete and balanced awakening, it's not negative, but perfect and blissful. You woke up from the dream, but maybe you didn't realize the other facets of awakening equally deeply. Every kind of negativity or depression comes from the ego. It wants it one way rather than another way. With a full ego death, there is no depression. But yeah I understand, right now you probably aren't interested in dissolving your ego more, in order to be happy with Truth, but rather to get back some of the illusion to enjoy the dream as before, the way your ego was used to enjoying it. If you want to go back, forget about spirituality and immerse yourself in the dream, after some weeks you will probably have regained a lot of the illusion (unless you went seriously deep). Or you try to deal with it, integrate it. After some time, which can take months, it will be the new normal. You had a deep awakening, but there is more to understand. Realizing how Creation is perfect, how Oneness is perfect, realizing that it is the best way it could be. Because it means that God is Whole, One and not seperated. You are literally all of Infinity, all of God right now, If you realize this on deeper levels you will realize the Perfectness and Love and Bliss and Beauty that Leo mentioned. Also, You are Infinity, so every person that could ever exist within Infinity is right here. Every possible human, animal, alien and universe shapeshifted into your bubble, became the substance of your bubble, become you, is you. You as God will keep dreaming and shapeshifting for ever, so from a relative perspective, all these other dreams, all these other forms exist too, and from that perspective you also aren't alone.

I really dont believe this man channels an alien entity, but I do respect how eloquent and quick he is with his answers

Matter is a 1:1 representational interface of our dream, that is why mind and matter are completely glued together such that toying with the matter which represents the act of "being human" (your brain) will alter the lived experience of "being human". It can get extremely alien indeed. Especially on Salvinorin A. The Big Bang is the most obvious artifact of our complete unity. Exploring matter IS exploring "mind", like if you fall asleep right now and explore the substance of your dream. The substance in your nightly dream which appears physical is the activity of your mind. Exploring that substance then, is of course exploring mind. Because that's what matter is.

I'm in an altered state. Other people are created unconsciously via perception. What gives another person "thingness" is the same perception that gives dead inert matter its "thingness", in other words it's via sensing that other people are created as "things". A bat may perceive a person with its sonar vision, but of course the "thingness" of the person rendered via the bat would be completely alien, as the person would be made of sonar sight. From a human perspective, the people are created in audio, visual, etc. it's perception that gives them human shape and the sound of their voice. A blind person's creation of a human is alien to a sighted person's representation of the same. There is nothing preventing a human from appearing as tiny symbols or sounding like foghorns, the creation is entirely subjective. Many people can agree on what the symbol represents, but the symbol itself will be subjective to the perceptions of the individual. The fakeness of time allows for backlogging of events. There is no event you are not present for. If you enter a coma, coming out of that coma you will learn of people's prior experiences whilst you were in that coma. The assumption is that your presence was not there while those events happened. In actuality the presence remained. The events took place instantaneously and presently, as do all events. The entire material world is subjective like a dream, in that it is made up of perceptions and something akin to """imagination""". Like the creation of people, the whole material world is created on the fly via perception consisting of whatever sensory input that may be. Something which is not perceived cannot have "thingness" because any "thingness" is reliant on perception. Water boils if you walk out of the room, but it is not in the kitchen LOOKING or SOUNDING like a boiling kettle. Without perception it is not a thing. All things without perception appear like the world when you are in a coma. It doesn't appear at all and there is no passage of time and space. The passage of time and space is something that is perceived. Without perception all events are immediate and without thingness. All events leading up to now were immediate. All living beings reside within you. There is no external material world. All points of view take place within you through different masks which is what the ego is. When another human being experiences reality the "I" which creates reality around them, consisting of their sensory creations, is the same one residing back within you. The entire world from any perspective appears from the same "I" through which the world is subjectively crafted around you. All of reality is subjective as all "thingness" is subjective. Objective facts which make up "consensus reality" are sort of like mass hallucination. It's not the ego self which creates reality, the ego self creates a subjective representation of a reality which is outside the scope of its limited self. The imagination/creation of unperceived elements is outside the scope of the small-s self. Another human being is like a visual avatar representing an element of your own mind. Your OWN self is also a representation of an aspect of your own mind, and is equally as unreal as "others". You don't choose your thoughts, and you don't choose the thoughts of others. It all appears unfolding by itself within the same field. Lucidity will always be lost. That is good. I'm losing lucidity right now and that is good. When lucid you only exit the game like stirring from a nighttime dream. It is fleeting and falling back asleep is inevitable. This process is forever. Any interpretation of goodness or badness is subjective to the ego like any appearance is. Nothing can in actuality be inherently good or bad, as good or bad is reliant upon the interpretation of the individual, which itself will of course always just be an appearance taking place within existence. It crafts its actuality via subjective perception. The sheer awareness of this supercedes all reality, as all reality can only ever be an appearance within it, obviously. I.e., no matter what sensory "things" appear, it will always be reliant upon awareness to give it an actuality. Without awareness, the visual representations along with time and space have no actuality, like being comatose there is no "thing" in absence of awareness. Awareness cannot be destroyed because it is by itself nothingness, and there is nowhere for nothingness to go, and no way to destroy nothingness. This is the meaning of emptiness: Awareness by itself is nothing, and the contents of awareness robbed OF that awareness are also nothing. Nothing can "be" without the presence of awareness as it is all skipped over like a coma. Time and space are a form of substrate through which experience takes place. Without experience there is, obviously, no experience of time and space. Now I have lost lucidity... Oh well...

They would have to manifest something on either a global or universal scale and could show me what that thing that they are manifesting is - in a way that I would understand. They would have all the other stages and so they would be able to explain it to me. If they could not explain it to me in a way that I could understand then I would not believe they are coral. They should be able to transmit this awakening to others who can See from the eyes alone. The eyes will reflect the entity purely. Ummm... let's see, they would have knowledge that is borderline alien to most human beings; and would have the solipsistic view of the world - for good or for evil, depending on what they want to do with it. They would indulge in pleasures, but their pleasures would be manifested on a much larger scale, you'd be dealing with a person who has a lot of Will. You build people up like this and serve them in order to manifest things on a large scale for humanity. Living Gods. Literally. They would have gone past the "death door" and all sorts of paranormal things happen around them. They control the weather sometimes. Some do. Some learn to be coral, and some are chosen from birth. Two magickal stages have been integrated; purple and turquoise. But, just like with what Teal Swan mentions with channelers, beings such as this often get stuck in a narcissistic, solipsistic view. It is still a contraction, a localization. These people are mad geniuses, and are effective all across the board - they get shit done. That's a fact. But you always notice something is off with them, like they talk past you a bit, or they can't quite "see" you; or sometimes there is an arrogance. Even beings in higher dimensions, like "aliens"/"archetypes", often take on this solipsistic view. But when it is at stage coral, this goes global/universal in understanding/manifestation. If "evil" - you will never be seen as more than a narcissistic extension. A non player character. If "good" - you will be seen as a soul with layers, and coral can move others up the spiral so that they exist not as egos, but as souls. These souls are in/make up a unified field of consciousness that is all One. That One is invisible, universal, all encompassing, Nothing, God. Coral thinks it is God, but is still a solipsistic localization, but it isn't the whole thing - it's still just a bubble - but it does not know this; and teaches or explains "universally" - but is still just a narcissistic bubble. Coral can be an alien or a human, but both make the same mistake. This video explains how that happens when corals channel God. This is timestamped. Watch it at the highest resolution. Do you see how they look like synapses in the brain? All those beautiful lights, slowly, time turns, this is your life, and at the end of the movie, the lights fade out across a dark ocean - a final lightening streak in the water indicating that the last bit of life has left you. Within those lights contain so much detail, billions of people living and dreaming, hoping, learning, growing and dying - all with worlds as complex as your own. Coral taps into this unified, and can, basically tweak things "under the curtains" to manifest on a global scale - this is called an aeonic force - and brings about a beginning or end to an age, depending on the will of the coral. They are focused on this to the detriment of really "seeing" people; their vision is so wide and expansive. To understand coral you need to either meet a higher dimensional being that can download you info, or you need to be in the presence of someone who is coral who can teach you - often just their presence and energy alone is enough. You know the type of teacher - they are like shamans who hold great power and what you see in the eyes isn't even human anymore. It is just raw intelligence and presence.

The bubble appears to be limited and finite, but actually it is Infinity. That is the illusion. All of Infinity collapses into this bubble. You could say, every human, alien and universe of past and future, are the substance that this bubble is made of. They are all here, appearing to be a finite bubble. That's also why you are not alone. All of Infinty is right here. They have become you, they are you. And later on, your finite self will become them. If this bubble, therefore this consciousness, were only a part of God, you could never realize that you are God. The only way that you can know that you are God, is by literally becoming all of God (or realizing that You are already all of God), otherwise it would only be assumption and intuition. So if you say, you had an 'experience' of being God, then that by definition must mean, that you were conscious that nothing outside your consciousness exists. Otherwise you were only a part of God or being God was an assumption or intuition. And obviously, there is no real difference between the state of realizing that you are God, and the state where you believe to be a small self, therefore even in that seemingly contracted state, there can not be something outside you. Because You are always all of You.

@Shambhu A slightly better analogy, would be to say that Consciousness is a balloon that holds soap water and foams inside of it, of various sizes of minds ranging between an ants, to reptiles, birds, humans, to as far as a hyper alien intelligence mind.

Hi all, I've done 5meoDMT, shrooms and ayahuasca, and I'm presently reading about the different chakras. I think psychedelics and chakras are closely related. When you take psychedelics, it's a matter of energies, perception, opennes, connection, etc... And healthy chakras are all that. But I have more specific examples. First, I had my spiritual awakening (even if my logical/scientific brain needed a lot of time to accept it) through shrooms and 5meo. It is not the experience that was mindblowing in itself. The shrooms I took were light, and I could remember just three distinct moments of Bufo. But for the first time in a long time I felt energies going through me, I felt the connection with nature, etc. Like energy could once again flow freely in me, I was receptive once again. And that's what chakras are about. But the most striking event was some months ago. I took a heavy dose of shrooms and had the most incredible trip. At some point I was sitting cross-legged in the forest, and it was like I became PART of the mountain. I could feel a huge energy flow coming through my ass and up my whole body. It came from underground. It was like I was breathing in unison with the whole forest. Better, like my breath WAS the forest breath. An individual breath not different from that of a tree, but not alien. I was part of a harmonious orchestra. And today I am reading about the first chakra, the root chakra, positioned between the balls and the anus, and that's supposedly the point where universal energy, life, Chi, whatever you wanna call it, enters our system/aura/body/spirit. Exactly where I felt it. The book was also listing visualization exercises like pretending you have roots that go underground etc.... And psychedelics can make you FEEL that sort of thing. How cool is this ? Does anybody have similar expériences ? Maybe someone that knows chakras better than me and that also did psychedelics. I feel there's a lot of material here. It's also logical if we think there's ultimately only one Truth, everything must point towards the same thing in the end... Anyways, would love to see your thoughts!

@justfortodayEverything made sense, until the part where you say God goes through one life at a time. Have you verified this or is this a story that you've made up to explain reality? How does God decide which life to start from? Does it start from the ant's life? Or justfortoday's life? Or an alien's life? And how do the choices of one life affect the future life? I think your theory would be way more elegant if all lives were lived simultaneously and in an instant (just as all stories were made simultaneously and in an instant) by One Being.

I think it's this. I really feel I can't. I feel like I have no love for myself. Sometimes I tend to love others than I do myself. I leave very little for me and give everything to others. The core essence is that I simply don't know how to love myself. It feels alien to me. It doesn't come naturally. If I had to pamper myself, it would feel unnatural and I'd end up mocking myself. But I know that self love has a lot of value in it. So I really want to push myself to love myself. Note - I don't hate myself. No. Not at all. I like who I am although I don't care about myself. I tend to simply abandon myself so much.

Okay, I can understand this. I can get into "absolute truth", and then out of it. It is just the being-ness. Okay, cool, I have been and this has been working out. I am just concerned that there might be a unique way for me to get to what is true for me, but that I need to follow that innermost intuition to get there - and that it might be different from what is being taught. There is a "You are God" quality to it, co-mingled with like, a chameleon. Hard to explain. Not yet, but each time I let go, I get another chunk of wisdom that does explain it a but better. I did feel them, I could simply follow the same path I took before to feel them again? So what when I am, should I post here then and then ask you, when the experience is more direct/easy to interpret? I can get back to that state, but it might take a few months of shadow work/karma work to clear myself enough to do so. I can become conscious of that, that I dreamed up the Bible. I have before. It just doesn't stick for too long. I mean, I could use any holy book and find something enlightening in it, not just the Bible. But yeah, I can see how there is the ego, and then just the screen of awareness. It is like when I dream and there is a backstory for it, an entire world, and I know my place and how to operate within it, and I am someone or something completely different, and each night that whole world goes away. But each night, me and those dream characters chip away like I do in this world, to find the truth. They look for it, too. Not just me, and they offer wisdom I can apply on "this side" of reality. I get that this is a story, that there is just the screen - because when it is revealed, everything is more crisp and clear. I feel like I have been close, or "been there", but am not there now, so I know how this is just a dream on some levels because I can "snap out of it", and then another story bleeds through. It is kind of semi-psychotic like that, but each layer that is removed gets me closer to just Be-ing. Have you only had the God experiences, or anything biblical or paranormal before? Because they give the same message, and come in through a similar process of changing lenses, or disidentification, as a God realization, so there might be aspects to this that you have not been privy to yet - same as me, I just haven't gotten quite there yet, but can intuit that there is a lot more. Or "nothing", but a deeper understanding of what that means. I know it is all a dream, but my experiences were direct, like the same path to get to solipsism. Go through death, let go, be in the moment and appreciate, and it becomes a unifying Love field. And just... Now. And done. Now. And done. Now. And done. And from there, comes in paranormal. I "now and done" until the world becomes even more complex. It's just... very hard for me to combine your experience and mine, when I know in my deepest heart that there are souls. I felt my "family" guiding me. I will ask again these questions while I am experiencing them and see what I can learn from you then because the mind will be open in a way that can really "download" a lot of new ways of understanding the world that are completely alien as of this point. Thanks for the reply.

I only came here due to drug revelations, it is the sole reason I have any interest in nonduality at all. The trips I had strip ego and do all sorts of bizarre things alien to our daily lives. I think very mentally unwell people seeking "help" from spirituality will probably just drive themselves into psychosis. As such if you need advice you should probably see a medically trained psychiatrist. I don't believe OCD and schizophrenic people read some "spiritual" stuff and are suddenly well. The highest I ever got was taking 5 hits of acid and then smoking a breakthrough dose of DMT at the peak. That is when I reached a place where the ego was left behind, and coming back from that were several realizations... E.g. the irony of monks meditating for their entire lives, when all monk-ness to that monk is just part of the separate self, and in actuality that monk is equal to a murderer child rapist junkie, because it is just existence itself and alone. The monk and murderer and all of that, is like a mask on top of pure being that falls away like all things. That is the type of solipsism I encountered personally. That is the type of solipsism discussed by figures like Rupert Spira, and ancient mystics. "No others" is not meant to mean that everyone is an NPC but you. That is when the ego, which is of course limited (ALL appearances are finite, infinity = nothingness substantially) attempts to comandeer control of the infinite. Which is impossible because it's like a character on a screen trying to somehow comandeer control of the screen. Appearance trying to somehow become the infinite which is inherently total nothingness, non-appearance. It's just an appearance, zero causative power of any kind!!!!

@Matt23 goddamn SEXUAL SKILLS MANNNN!! ! you know if we are gonna go for a universal super culture, there probably are hot alien girls out there!!!! if there's an apocalypse, why survive it bro?

There are no souls. There is only you, God. You imagine them. You can dream up a Buddha any night you're sleeping. No big deal. You can dream Hitler, you can dream Christ, you can dream a kangaroo, you can dream an alien, you can dream Leo. If you knew you wouldn't be asking.

I thought I'd talk about my favourite subject: myself. Actually, I seldom talk about myself other than as "filler" for small talk. I don't particularly care about this, I have no strong need to divulge what's going on inside my head IRL. Even in this journal I do this mostly out of interest rather than need, and I definitely don't divulge everything. I learned a very long time ago that people genuinely don't care about your innermost needs and desires and mental drama. People just care about their own mental drama above all else and relate everything in the world to that. Giving it more than two seconds thought, how else could it be? Although, I do think this gets amplified by our very individualised Western culture. We only pay lip service to actually caring about what others are experiencing. In fact when someone is really on the edge and needs proper attention (I've been there), friends and family are utterly clueless. None of us have been socialised well enough to be able to deal with intensity of emotion or difficult needs. This is because someone in a vulnerable state pulls us out of our individualism, and we're immediately out of our comfort zone. There's a question on the forum asking why people are just not interested in investigating consciousness and reality. My immediate feeling was that it was like asking people to understand how computers work (computers being a good proxy for consciousness because they're ubiquitous and inscrutable). People take computers for granted (as they do reality), because they're always relating the world to their own mental space. Most people are highly interested in survival, mating, food and the soap opera of their ragbag collective. Asking people to understand how computers or even worse how consciousness works, is like trying to force first contact with an alien: it's terrifying and to be avoided. In fact, I'd go so far as to say that it doesn't even cross most people's mind that the question can be asked in the first place! What does all this say about how people function? First and foremost you can't blame people for being disinterested in you or the big questions in life. Mostly, they're just firefighting and trying to stay alive and to have some semblance of positivity, if not happiness. None of us have been explicitly taught how to comfort and genuinely help someone in need - and how those skills are beneficial to us, and no-one has been taught that understanding reality can change our lives for the better. And, none of us have been taught that collectivism is necessary to balance out individualism and make us all a bit more human.

i mean i only listen to like 25% of the episodes anyway lately i listened to the journalists, authors and scientists, the alien stuff, some of the covid stuff, some of the comics, some artists i'll never listen to people like Jocko willinks, the army/marine guys, Tim pool, Shapiro, the CIA shills etc.. so those could be very right leaning but i'll never hear it anyway and also don't cares i think he'd totally have Cornell West, Pakman, Bernie etc. on again if they come.

Consciousness is not about computing ability or the power to learn by experience. Our present ability was earned over millions of years of evolution and fine tuning. We are not even certain our conscious ability is not ethereal, independent of the brain. Take our nearest relatives they have all the attributes to encourage the human experience but they can not even draw a picture of themselves. We are unique and I can guarantee no machine will ever be classified as conscious in human terms. I will enjoy the efforts and the claims though. I understand your point why you think that computers can't somehow achieve consciousness to some degree or extent. I did my research on AI (artificial intelligence) since I'm not a scientist myself & I'm not into computers. I found out that there are several major projects/research trying to replicate virtual brains through constructing computer-based models. David Gelernter, a computer scientist himself, said that "Even if the model can learn and reason, that doesn't guarantee that it will be a truly intelligent being." Based on his statement, I came to think that there's less potential for computers to acquire consciousness. But who knows what will be possibility in the far future ,say in 100,000 years from now. With the endless advancement of technology. It's not hard to envision a future where one can have an intelligent tete-a-tete with an entity which in it's responses would be difficult to differentiate from our own. There is obviously still a long process of discovery and engineering ahead but when you take into account how long it took to "build" us, it's no time at all! To my mind if it's possible for us to eventually understand what creates consciousness/intelligence, it becomes likewise probable that we can recreate it. Of course it couldn't be exactly like ours, maybe quite different. By analogy, if we were fortunate or unfortunate enough to meet an alien mind - I'm not talking about the ones we've already met - wouldn't it too be expected to be very different from our own? Who's to say if it too isn't a creation of a "prior" Intelligence. Ok thank You.