Do you really want to do that?  -- Would be my question. 
Like, are you just doing it because you believe you should, are told it's something good to do, etc.?  
I think if you truly find it meaningful and something enjoyable, you'd be doing it.  
I used to try and read tons, study, and be diligent intellectually.  But it did feel like a grind sometimes.  Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy studying, reading, and understanding stuff and "nerding out" on things, but faaaarrrr less than I initially believed.  
Recently I've just sort of realized that no, I don't really want to be the intellectual guy and have cut down my studies faaaaarrr more recently.  Instead, I realize that being creative gives me fffffaaaaaarrrrr more joy and love than studying;  The simple act of making a drawing or a video puts me back into that childlike place of play.  IT feels so much better.  
So I'm trying to just do more stuff rather than simply read and study.  Whether that's creating things, going on adventures, travelling, exploring, socializing, etc.. Like, really just trying to do things that I find intrinsically way more rewarding, joyful, and meaningful.  
 
So maybe try just doing other stuff to fill your time.  Experiment.  As opposed to thinking you should be studying etc. (unless that's what you truly want and find joy in of course).  

Garlic will not help heavy metal toxicity. It may help the symptoms somehow, but it won’t chelate. Pop culture medicine edutainment seems to have propagated this idea that anything with a sulfur molecule or even a proper thiol group somehow purges heavy metals from the body or something — this is false. It is only the double thiol group having molecules that can chelate — DMPS, DMSA, dimercaprol/BAL (not recommended), ALA, etc — the two thiol groups next to each other act as a functional hook… When there’s just one thiol (chlorella, etc), it just stirs stuff around; doesn’t usefully or effectively chelate anything whatsoever.

Other than the ones mentioned:
- able to connect to his inner child,
- able to not always be serious, able to be joyful,
- able to embrace his cute side
 

IMO being an alpha is an internal thing. It's not about being a big dick who bosses people around but it's having ownership and mastery of your own mind and independence of outer circumstances. If anything an alpha helps and serves those around him. Ask yourself based on your internal thoughts and emotions, are you an alpha. If we could see your thoughts and emotions, would they be correlated to that of an alpha. Or would it be a fearful squirrelly mind craving and escaping, thinking out of control and manipulating everyone. There's your test, fuck a stupid internet test which you can easily skew the results for. 
 
Also another great test is your attractiveness to females. They basically are nature's biggest alpha male test. How many women have ya fucked?

I do feel hesitant to share my views of what makes a good man. I feel that a lot of female feminists feel this way too because sure we can describe toxic masculinity because we often deal with the consequences of that but generally speaking the hesitation comes from the notion of *who am I to define masculinity and manhood when I haven't lived as such* but then because a lot of men lean more orange as opposed to green, you have a bunch of men doubleing down on the age old alpha male narrative. 
That aside, for conversation's sake, here is my perspective. I feel like all of this has to do with being a good person in general but I will talk about this in the point of view of what I perceive to be a healthy form of masculinity. 
Not Stoic 
And what I mean by that is not stoic in the truest sense, because to me that is more of emotional regulation, the ability to detach from things that aren't serving you, and having an emphasis on self reflection. All of that is fine and encouraged. I'm talking about stoicism in the day to day sense that a lot of men tend to internalize which is the whole *men aren't supposed to be emotional* narrative. I think a good man is aware of his emotions, can feel his emotions, can articulate himself (at the very least for communication and connection, creativity is a nice plus), and can regulate his emotions. I think that a lot of men think that men are less emotional than women and I honestly think a lot of that is bs. A lot of men lack self awareness to recognize their emotions, repress them, or have everything come out (including things like stress, sadness, grief etc.) as anger because anger and agression are seen as acceptable and not really like emotions. Cuz lets be real, how many women do you see punch walls when they get upset and how many women will harrass you on the street when they got an answer they don't like?  
Also, rather than being a lone wolf, a good man knows how to deal with people. He might not be everyone's friend but generally speaking he can atleast get along and empathize with most people. He has quality friends and other deep and fulfilling human connections because part of being brave and being a leader is being brave enough to show your emotions and share about yourself and your vulnerabilities, and a large part of being a leader is knowing how to deal and connect with people given the circumstance. And the last part about circumstance is important because trauma dumping at inappropriate times is not healthy for a singular person or the dynamic as a whole. I felt like I needed to make that last point because I feel like men, when they are told to show emotion, somIt etimes they straw man the whole thing and take it to the extreme because there aren't many examples of healthy emotional regulation and expression in a lot of male dominated spaces and often a lot of relationships as a result only go so deep. 
Stable and Consistent
This is something that I look for in both friends and partners regardless of gender. I believe that a good man can consistently follow up with you and make plans, consistently abide by his values and boundaries, and consistently treat people with dignity, empathy, and respect. I believe that this kind of consistency is the thing that makes most people feel safe, secure, and protected. 
Empathetically Honest
I think that I am talking about empathy a lot in general in this post so I'm not going to elaborate on it too much. But while a good man is honest, he is also empathetic and wise enought to know that just because something is honest, that doesn't mean that you need to say it. I mean, we've all dealt with those people who say "no offense" and say the most vile stuff after that or back up awful things they saw to people by justifying it by saying "I'm just being honest." And I think those statements reflect a lack of empathy, self accountability, and awareness, or in some cases plain common sense. And a lot of that also reflects self honesty as well becasue in my mind self accountability and awareness falls under that category. 
Committed to Self Education / Is Open minded 
This is not limitted to getting a formal education or reading a lot, but it can also include putting yourself out there and trying something new or engaging with different people and persepectives. I think that shows strength, bravery, and initiative. This also means taking information from quality sources and generally knowing better than you know being an Andrew Tate fan. 

Maybe. 
 
As someone who's been doing this life purpose stuff for years and has recently changed my approach for the better... way better... here's what I'd say;
I did the whole Life Purpose course, got myself some visions, but, like yourself, still felt stagnant and uninspired when it came to actually finding something I enjoyed to do in the moment.  Something I could do just for the pure joy of it.   Recently, I think I've stated to change that around by... Taking breaks on consuming media, studying, and doing what I think I "should" be doing.  Just pausing all that.  Including reducing/stopping masturbation and porn. As "airy-fairy" as it may sound, by not releasing the sexual energy I had into sexual acts, it almost immediately got redirected into creative pursuits.  This whole "tranmutation of sexual energy into creative energy" thing seems to actually have merit to it.   .... Also... Just create stuff:  little things.  Anything.  Draw a picture.  Write a blog post.  Make a short little video.  Create a song.  Make a a T-shirt and try to sell it at a market or festival or something.  Anything!   As you start creating things, you'll quickly figure out what you actually enjoy doing and find intrinsic pleasure in vs. what you "should" being doing.   Examples
 For years I though I should be studying tons, and doing personal development videos and teaching content on videos or in written format on blogs.  But I always felt like so depleted and like I just didn't like it.  I felt I had to do something relating to teaching non-fictional concepts and ideas and techniques.   But this got me nowhere fast.  It was just so hard to accomplish anything because it was such a grind since I didn't like it.  Recently however, I've stopped all that and just started to be more creative in other ways.  I wrote a bunch of a screenplay, I drew a picture, I made a quick little video.  All this was soooo much better and felt playful and meaningful.  Something which now I actually feel a desire to do.  It feels expansive.  Like there's "juice" in it to savor.  As opposed to sitting in my room, grinding away at concepts n stuff, feeling totally bereft of any "juice" or passion.   
Basically...
Just create shit.  Things that turn you on and that you find fun and engaging.  Enjoyment is the key word here. Consider cutting/reducing media and information intakes to reestablish what you authentically like (not what the media says) Consider abstaining from masturbation for a week or two (or w/e) to see where your creative energies might go.  Consider reading Seth Godin's material; Purple Cow, Linchpin, etc.  
"Artists ship.  The point of shipping is to get to the next thing you're going to ship.  You'll create more duds than gems, but the more duds you create the higher the chances a gem will shine through."  --(paraphrased)  Seth Godin 
 
Find something you can create lots of, create due-dates, and just start pumping that shit out with as much care and quality as you can before the due-date has arrived.  Then do the next thing that inspires you and feel is meaningful.  

I think, I've finally found a great vision for myself, maybe even a life purpose.
I want to transform myself into a strong man and to build an amazing life. And use my own journey to support and inspire other people.
I want to learn how to do conscious business from scratch, record my journey step by step and share it with others so that they can do it as well.
I think it would be pretty cool to find some guy who knows nothing about business, is a total nube at it, and then see his follow along journey of building a successful business. 
Basically I want to have a self-help youtube channel, but instead of theory and talking I want it to be very practical, almost like a reality show, but with a detailed analysis and explanation of each step.
The same goes for social skills dating, public speaking, character development, spiritual development,  financial success, becoming a web developer, etc.
I find this vision really meaningful and inspiring.
The issue though, is that I don't have any particular medium that I am really passionate about.
I am not particularly passionate about web development,  or business, or public speaking, or filming youtube videos, etc.
Is that okay? Maybe I will acquire passion for those things as I keep going?
It's the big picture, the process of learning, developing myself by itself, and helping others do the same which I am passionate about.
@Leo Gura any advise, please?

Spiral Dynamics Summary Series
I created a Spiral Dynamics summary series based on Leo's videos, The Spiral Dynamics book, the website spiraldynamicsintegral.nl, as well as my own insights. 
 
I hope these videos will be of help to someone.
What is Spiral Dynamics? The Stages
Stage Beige ? Stage Purple ? Stage Red ? Stage Blue ? Stage Orange ? Stage Green ? Stage Yellow ? Stage Turquoise ?  
I'll happily take feedback!

@LostSoul Hey mate. Its something I struggle with myself. But my best current understanding is to journal about events from your past and engage in humanistic psychotherapy. Humanistic psychotherapy is the most empathetic and human centred psychotherapy I've personally come across.
 

Before something is considered obvious, it must first be accepted and adopted.

Some of my favs;
Mastery Robert Greene
The Alchemist
Warrior of Light
Principles Ray Dalio
Gospel of Thomas
Matthew/Mark/Luke/John/Proverbs/Pslams/Ecclesaistes in the Bible
80/20 Principle and 92 Other Powerful Laws
Living 80/20 Way
50 Psychology Classics
50 Philosophy Classics
Parent's Guide Gifted Children
Understand Psychology
Thinking For a Change
Business Creativity
10 Ox Herding Pictures

All are life changing in their own way

The whole vaccine skepticism thing exists because of the internet, social media and alternative media, because now you can find unqualified people posting inaccurate interpretations of scientific questions everywhere, and just the sheer volume makes it into a shit storm which claims the minds of all sorts of people. The fact of the matter is that the vaccine underwent well-established scientific protocols/trials for testing. The fact that they were released early doesn't change the fact that they were tested on many thousands of people, and it doesn't change the fact that this decision saved tons of lives. Then you can ask "but what about potential long-term unintended side effects?". Well for one, long-term side effects from vaccines that stretch beyond 2 months are virtually unheard of, and the professionals responsible for the trials had access to extreme amounts of analogous data to make an educated decision whether to release the vaccine or not. When you really boil it down, vaccine skepticism by and large is science skepticism.

Eliminate plastic dishes, utensiles, cups.
Replace aluminum baking pans with steel.
Don't use aluminum foil for cooking.
Don't microwave food in plastic.
Be careful with chemical cleaners, sprays, weed-killer, bug spray, etc.
Be careful with makeup, lots of heavy metals there.
Be careful with certain spices, lots of heavy metals.
Be careful with any powdered foods.
Be careful with baby food.
Be careful with pet food.
Be careful with talc powder.
Be careful with fast food wrappers and containers.
Be careful handling receipts, they are covered in toxins.
Be careful with sunscreen, full of toxins.
Be careful with non-MRNA vaccines, may contain mercury.
Be careful with seafood, especially anything you fish out of a lake yourself.
Be careful with gasoline fumes, smog, exhaust, pollution. Never live within a mile of a major highway.
Never buy flourescent light bulbs, they are extremely toxic.
Never get any metal into your mouth at the dentist. Do not get any metal crowns, all-ceramic only. No metal filings.
Never accept routine flouride treatments at the dentist.
Be careful with birth control pills and devices.
Upgrade all your soaps, cleaners, and detergents to all-natural ones.
Upgrade your shampoo and bodywash.
Avoid food coloring.
Avoid artificial sweetners like Splenda and aspartame.

You guys get easily confused by calling it solipsism. Just call it dreaming. You are dreaming everything and everyone. And the dream is designed in such a way that you cannot easily notice that it is a dream, nor stop dreaming. If you could easily see through the dream, you'd be dead, so obviously the dream must be intensely convincing.
If you could just walk up to a scientist and ask him, "Am I dreaming?" And he said, "Yes!" Then that would be a very weak dream. Of course he's gonna tell you No! A dream can only work if you deny that you are dreaming.
So it all boils down to a simple game of denial. Since you are dreaming, you have infinite capacity for denial. Who's gonna contradict you in your own dream? Whatever you manage to convince yourself of becomes your reality. Simple.

Unfortunately what I found after 7 years of running this forum is that toxic people never make behavioral adjustments, and actually get worse and worse over time. And if you politely tell them to shape up, they take it personally, develop a grudge against you, and start behaving like monsters.

@integral Why not go to a library to do your work during the day? Pay for access to a commune office space... Get out of the house.
Also, set boundaries. If you say are you unavailable and she asks you to do something... Be a man, tell her NO. And do your work. Tell her when you will be available. She has to learn that you mean your boundaries. If you don't respect the boundaries you have set by giving into her... she won't respect them.
It's really about you two loving each other. You two being a team, being friends and supporting each others growth. Work it out together.
If you can't do that, your work is so important to you... Do whatever you have to do.

People don't understand that some things need concentration and how hard concentration is because they have never really done it. People don't understand the need for flow to go deep. People don't understand the need for passion and joy in ones work. People don't understand the need for alone time or the need of spending time with other people or things that is not them. People don't realize that the things you do that is not about them is vital for the health the relationship. Its all connected, our relationship does not exist in isolation from the rest of our lives, the quality of all aspects of our lives is integral to the relationship. ... more Not understanding = taking it personally.

I could be a lot more developed.
I feel the pain from my lack of development every day.
Good!
Well, there's a lot you could do, but in a nutshell I would boil it down to this:
1) First, prime your mind with reading and studying a wide array of sources and perspectives, like by reading the sources in my book list and watching my videos. You need some basic theory as grist for your contemplation mill.
2) Then, after some years you will have a solid theoretical foundation and the real work can begin. Now you stop reading and learning theory, and you start doing serious contemplation. 1000s of hours of thinking everything through for yourself and deriving every answer for yourself from scratch from first principles and direct experience.
3) And then you turn your attention to observing your ego-mind at work, and become a master of your own self-deception and egoic reactions.
You don't have to complete one step before doing the others. In practice you should be intermixing them.
Of course practices like meditation and psychedelics become really important after a while.
Perhaps most importantly, have an insatiable curiosity and passion for understanding reality at the deepest levels, and never settle for beliefs or the words of humans. That's really my only secret. All I do is just rentlessly pursue pure understanding by derviving all of it for myself from direct experience and intuition. This is what I've called Pure Philosophy.
The doing of Pure Philosophy leads to the highest wisdom. That's it. See my episode: An Intro To Serious Philosophy. That's my process.

I dunno about all time fav.. but I liked...
Walden
Ralph waldo emerson 
Man's search for meaning
The book of not knowing
The Bible (parts)
Carnage and culture
Guns germs and steel
The body keeps the score 
Outlines of phyrrhonism by sextus empiricus

Have you tried therapy? If yes, what modalities?

There is no way to separate truth from the welfare of all, since the revelation of truth reveals that we are the world, the world is us. The whole universe is contained within you. That is not just transcendent truth; it is also experienced as boundless love and compassion. What I’m getting at here is our spiritual motivation. Love for all is an aspect of our true being. If we do not access this, we remain essentially self-centered. Wisdom without love can be callous and harsh. Truth and love are simply two sides of the same coin—they cannot be separated.
I have met many people who have had a partial awakening. They realize some profound truth, but their heart is still essentially closed. They are half awake, and therefore essentially self-centered. This same phenomenon can happen when someone awakens to boundless love but not deep wisdom. Either way, it is like hopping around on one leg. I think it both wise and natural to include all beings within our spiritual motivations, as well as our more personal motivations.
Of course we can build more spiritual-appearing egos around the identity of being selfless and a servant of the good—such identities are as unreal as any other. Nonetheless, an altruistic attitude (without the accompanying ego identity) is conducive to realization and a benefit for all.
Spirituality is, of course, about much more than having moments of sacredness when in supportive and non-challenging environments, as nice and as enriching as these moments can be. The “goal” (if I may use such a word) of spirituality is to be realized, clear, and fearless enough to meet and respond to the tremendous challenges of life from a revolutionary perspective.
Someone like Jesus had far from an easy life. It was not a life predominately defined by resting in the bliss of being, but of engaging with the sorrows of life from a revolutionary standpoint of wisdom, love, and fearlessness. Being rooted in what he called the kingdom, or the enlightened view, was not for him an end in itself, but rather an inner condition from which to engage with the challenges of life.
To embody any degree of realization requires us to uncover and expose those remaining mental and emotional fixations that inhibit the spontaneous movement of wisdom and love within our lives. For most, this is no small task. It all starts by taking full responsibility for our own inner and outer lives, and noticing the ways in which our own fear, judgment, resentment, and confusion cloud our ability to respond to the challenges of life in a wise and appropriate way.
It has been my observation that many people involved in spirituality are waiting for some great spiritual experience to make everything in their lives clear and solve all of their problems for them. This is a bit of an overstatement but not all that uncommon to varying degrees. Instead of trying to remain in a state of stillness, or peace, or any other state when dealing with the challenges of life, we are better served by seeking to act and respond with wisdom, clarity, and openheartedness.
I suppose that the most direct answer to your question is to go deeper and investigate the causes of fear, anger, jealousy, and control within yourself. Then you will find it more obvious how to respond to these qualities when dealing with others. There is simply no other option than to uproot the causes of human suffering within ourselves if we are to manifest the incredible potential for wisdom and love that lie at the core of our being.
You are the world, the world is you. Now let’s all act on it. And by doing so, we become more and more clear, more wise, and more loving. It is not always easy, but it is the only thing worth doing. And it’s up to each of us to do it.
Excerpted from Adya’s book, Sacred Inquiry

Good question. His maturity and wisdom, and his ability to talk to people. He values simplicity, the small moments of life, and the art of conversation, and I appreciate that. 
"I think one of the most important things in any kind of human communication is: Do I actually understand the person that I'm talking to? Do I really understand them? It's a really big question. Because we can think we understand them, but we might just be understanding our interpretation, or our judgment of what they are saying, or we are filtering it through our own experience. And so we are not really hearing what the other person wants to say or needs to say. So it's a big question: 'Am I actually understanding and hearing what someone is trying to tell me?' If you did nothing but that, if that was your only practice, it would revolutionize your human communication." - Adyashanti
A sane presence is immensely valuable. 

@spiritual memes
You can apply this story to yourself and all beings whom you come to argument with
The Story of the Donkey and Tiger
The donkey told the tiger: 
′′The grass is blue". 
The tiger replied: 
′′No, the grass is green".
The discussion became heated up, and the two decided to submit the issue to arbitration, and to do so they approached the lion, King of the Jungle. 
Before reaching the clearing in the forest where the lion was sitting on his throne, the donkey started screaming:
′′Your Highness, is it true that grass is blue?".
The lion replied:
"True, the grass is blue". 
The donkey rushed forward and continued: 
′′The tiger disagrees with me and contradicts me and annoys me please punish him".
The king then declared:
′′The tiger will be punished with 5 years of silence".
The donkey jumped for joy and went on his way, content and repeating:
′′The grass is blue"...
The tiger accepted his punishment, but he asked the lion:
′′Your Majesty, why have you punished me, after all, the grass is green?"
The lion replied:
′′In fact, the grass is green".
The tiger asked:
′′So why do you punish me?"
The lion replied:
′′That has nothing to do with the question of whether the grass is blue or green. The punishment is because it is not possible for a brave, intelligent creature like you to waste time arguing with a donkey, and on top of that to come and bother me with that question".
The worst waste of time is arguing with the fool and fanatic who doesn't care about truth or reality, but only the victory of their beliefs and illusions. Never waste time on discussions that make no sense... There are people who for all the evidence presented to them, do not have the ability to understand, and others who are blinded by ego, hatred and resentment, and the only thing that they want is to be right even if they aren’t. When ignorance screams, intelligence shuts up. Your peace and tranquility are worth more.
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As someone who has a deep understanding of human biomechanics I suggest minimizing time spent in chairs.
Personally I do all my work while sitting in the ground or on a meditation cushion. I have a Japanese style floor table that I use as my desk.
I also don’t own a couch or any chairs in my home. They’re terrible for your joints

Annoyingly I can't find it now, but I definitely remember reading that (if they went to college) entrepreneurs in the US are most likely to have a Bachelor's degree in Economics or Philosophy. As a freelancer that works with a lot of entrepreneurs, I've definitely found those two subjects appear on LinkedIn a lot among founders. My first-ever client was a Philosophy graduate, and so is Leo...
I doubt it's because of anything they learned at college though - probably just that people who study those subjects are more likely to possess traits/skills that correlate with entrepreneurship. 
Computer Science makes logical sense, because it's one of the few subjects that will allow you to build a product. And I do know a few Computer Science graduates who are now entrepreneurs. But then again, most technical entrepreneurs end up teaming up with a "business" person and becoming a CTO or something. You can also teach yourself coding, so I'm not convinced college is necessary - my brother did that and he has a successful business.
I wouldn't recommend studying Business or Marketing - those subjects seem more designed to teach people to be Managers, Executives, etc. The most entrepreneurial Business student I met told me the degree was pretty much bs and very little of it was applicable to realistically starting a business. 
Honestly, if you HAVE to go to college, I'd probably just recommend choosing the subject that gives you the most free time so you can spend the rest of your time networking and learning about entrepreneurship firsthand.