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I was pointing to the fact that Being is Absolute.

On dmt I realized that all substances including 5 meo are imaginary. All feelings ever are absolute truth You realize you are imagining reality by realizing conciousness is absolute

Leo said he had a traumatic experience when realized he imagined his mom The initial realization is jarring but after integration and realizing it at a deeper level it becomes beautiful thing

Bad addiction?

When I realized there was nothing outside of conciousness / no outside world that was insanity. Because i also in that moment realized there were no others mind. It literally felt like I had lost any and all sanity. It felt absolutely traumatizing. I then went on to have insane peaks because of being able to deconstruct materialism. I was just curious if anyone else had traumatic experience from awakening and what it was and how you handle and intergrated it.

There are infinite degrees of awakening, why do you think so many people agree and disagree on what awakening is? If it was just a binary switch there would be a lot more agreement on what awakening is. Conciousness is Absolute and can become concious of absolutely every part of itself. I would also say that there are thresholds to awakening, you can awaken to life is a dream, self is other, nothing outside concious. And still not have the direct Conciousness you are God. Another one of those thresholds is realizing conciousness is absolute. Also you have never done pyschdelics let alone tryptimines. So how would you know that ? All of this is coming from your current state of conciousness that could change any moment with just a little alteration in your imaginary brain chemistry.

this one good

It would also be nice if they were bookmarked together in groups like metaphysics, epistemology, etc

@Leo Gura Looking at the list makes me want to purchase it. Are the videos indexed like I can search through the list? Also that list is that everything thats posted or what will be posted?

When you realize you aren't there YOU realize YOU are here

All though this is true that doesnt mean from absolute pov of conciousness there are other minds. Others will always be quasi separate.

I apologize totally got off topic

@Leo Gura I feel like a victim to my own imagination which is reality itself.

I also had an awakening that the entire internet is my imagination. I was so concious that anything I wanted to appear on my monitor would literally appear as Truth. I could open youtube and every video is exactly as Imagined in real time. ive had states where literally anything i imagined becomes Absolute Truth. But i cant sustain it and come back down to my everyday state. And its like im locked out of my own mind.

I was abused for years, told it was my fault, and my anger was shamed and met with more physical punishment and negative reception. Im emotionally exhausted just thinking about it