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What David wrote I wrote What Jesus speaks I speak I am Jesus and I was David Jesus is my nature. Anointed Savior and messiah I am called Buddha Taodle by others. The no self Nakedness "This particular form is me as the expression Aurora nature" Is a trap that the ego fell for. Aurora is my nature expressed in this form now thanks to reincarnation haha. And let no one bow to me. No one worship me or praise me No one seek me For if you seek me you will never find me. Unless the I and Me die. Thus speaks the lord of hosts.

Post Samadi enlightenment awareness potentially, Because of reincarnation a logical conclusion could be that we could be gods and goddess, a new pantheon but a recycling of these souls in these vessels. Souls could be partitians of any combo of personality God can be. Reality is unlimited. The ego is just an artificial manufactured collections of thaughts, concepts ... Of what a self is. It simply wants to identify as form however, why can't God desire to indentify as form for as long as it is partitioned a lower consciousness that is made to evolve and grow to shed the vail of thinking itself as absolute reality to just nothing but what you want to be, a choice not a thought. However the notion of choice falls flat in the absolute sense becuase it is manipulated by reasons invisible to the mind and spoken in an invisible language only the enlightened understand. So, you feel a need to be a certain way however is that a choice... Do you have a choice other wise? And why is your thaughts only giving us a finite list to chose from in any given case? Does a true choices even exist if you can not chose to be anything without limit? And is it desire, choice, an option, or simply you chose to force a choice, breaking yourself apart and apart and apart and apart. Because you do not realize choice is maya it is beyond the conceptual binary of real and not real It is beyond binary and non binary and not and both and all and none. So, don't be concerned with the obserdity of maya the infinate riddle. And feel the concious power as the be-er, do-er, and a partition and the will of God. So, as a holon... Yeah be that god or goddess figure, if it's logical and feels aligned with dharma and if it feels karmicly yes.

First thing every morning after a coffee, I burn 300 calories (on the highest resistance level) standing on my indoor bike (not sitting) which takes about 40 minutes. Then there's the housework, cleaning windows, shopping, gardening, ... a woman's work is never done lol. I also do a little salsa while waiting for the kettle to boil. Actually I dance a lot at home, I'm a happy person. There's also all that stuff that goes on between the sheets Tbh, can't be arsed after all that to do stuff like weights or strength training, no energy left man. I kinda do what I enjoy, make it fun, and leave the rest. But at least you can't call me lazy. It's better than what my hubby's doing, which is absolutely nothing, apart from taking down the trash. I'll try and galvanize him to do a bit more, don't want him dying before me and leaving me all on my lonesome. Just kidding. I'll also add that I go EVERYWHERE by bike (never owned a car). So lugging a load of kilos of shopping (including cat litter) is all the weight training I think I need. Biking everywhere is great cos it's a great way to avoid the pick-up artists too haha. Why we do it? For the cardio, but also so I can watch my youtube videos without feeling like a couch potato (it's kinda mindful in so far as some of those videos are Leo's). Also because physical activity stimulates the release of dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin. Tada, that's probably why I'm a happy person. What our goals/ long term plans with our routines are? To carry on doing the same. How we want to improve/ change them? Happy with things as they are, thanks. You're so lucky @LfcCharlie4 you get to play cricket, I can just imagine you clad out in all that smart cricket gear, I bet you look like the bee's knees. I used to really love sports as a kid, feeling nostalgic right now for those halcyon days in Summer at school ... hockey, baseball, netball, etc. Hope reincarnation exists if only to be able to come back and do all that stuff again, those days went by too fast for me, I never got enough of them. All of a sudden, they were frigging gone, no-one warned me about that. But when I think about it, it wasn't very clever of my dad taking us for fish and chips straight after swimming classes, kinda undid all the good work. I can still smell the bleach mixed with malt vinegar on my spanking clean wrinkly fingers. Sometimes I wish I were a mum and I'd had kids, then I could get the chance to do all those crazy things on Sports Day like the egg-and-spoon race, the sack race, the blindfold race, 3-legged race, etc (do you guys know what I'm going on about?). I'm so competitive and sporty, just a big kid really, I'd just have to win. Sometimes on the tv I see adults doing amazing obstacle races, crawling through the mud and stuff, I'd enjoy doing all that. I'll love you and leave you, been on my arse too long already typing this, starting to feel antsy haha.

@Waken Cool. I like the book because it's a mixture of a personal report and an academic work - however I'm a phd student, so I'm quite familiar with this style of writing. I really appreciated the chapter about reincarnation, where Bache quotes a University professor, who seems to have scientifically proven, that reincarnation is a fact. The book goes definitely deeper than the videos, but not everybody has the time to read it.

Hey everyone, after watching Leo's video concerning reproduction, I started contemplating the meaning of having children myself. Personally, the only reason why I feel I MUST have children, is indeed for spreading my genes. However, I feel that I should come to the conclusion that it is both okay to have or not have children. My current beliefs affect my life negatively. I feel that a profound realization of non-duality or reincarnation (not identified with the body anymore) will lead to the realization that it is not important whether one has children or not. However, I'm not even close to these states right now, so I'm looking for other arguments. Apart from that, Leo's argumentation wasn't very convincing in my opinion. Sure, there are many forms of reproduction. But there is this urge in me that really wants to reproduce by having children. I see the irrationality and self-bias in that, but so what? If after 200 years none of my biological information is left, then I would also agree that it is not so important to reproduce biologically. However, the amount of biological information in the following generations will stay approximately the same. Sure, in every new generation the number of genes in each human being gets halved, but the number of humans that have your genes gets doubled. And even when the sun explodes at some point, maybe humans have found ways to survive at other planets by that time. I agree that I assign meaning to biological reproduction and that there is nothing meaningful inherent to it. Nevertheless, I can't transcend these thoughts right now because on some level I'm still not fully convinced. I'd feel like a failure if I do not reproduce. Most other things in life are much more short-lived, so I'm not too attached to it and consider them not so important. But in this case it feels different, leading to neurotic thoughts of needing to have as many children as possible. I'd love to get some input from you guys. I feel that there are still some realizations to be made! Love, Solvinden

It's the same for me, I can't enjoy smoking weed anymore. You have to realize that the hell weed let you have a small glimpse of is what you're gonna face after death anyway. That's the strong pull you need to gather the courage to take psychedelics breakthrough doses, which bring the same irreversible soul changes spirituality work aims to. EACH BREAKTHROUGH DOSE YOU TAKE IS EQUAL TO ONE LIFE-TIME/REINCARNATION AMOUNT OF WORK. See my website for all info and sources on this: https://www.reddit.com/r/speedruntonirvana/wiki/phase3

No I can't, there is no erase button, source: my experience and Kryon channelings. That's just your ego talking No, it's more a question of "how much ARE YOU NOW suffering", or, even more: "how much are you afraid you're gonna suffer if you don't take the painful dose" (reincarnation sucks balls if you don't attain actualization before death, see my website for info), your phrase is just proof that this is just your ego (I'm superior to you, even if just spiritually) talking.

Benefits of OBEs Enlightenment: In lucid dreams (and possibly OBEs in general) you can easily have mystical/awakening experiences by for example just materializing and taking psychedelics. (In the "lucid dreaming as a tool for enlightenment" post/topic I listed pros and cons of taking psychedelics in dreams vs waking life) Explore All of Reality: Reality is Infinite, with an infinite number of paralell universes and dimensions and you can access ALL of it in the out of body state. That means, you have access to everything that ever existed or will ever exist, no matter how crazy, unearth-like or far in the past or future. In Leo's new video "how psychedelics work" he says that psychedelics twist certain knobs of reality and your experience is changed accordingly. The advantage with lucid dreaming is, that you are in control of all the knobs and can therefore decide which knob to twist how much. You can verify everything, including conspiracy theories. You can go into the past or to a relevant place and just see for yourself. Conspiracy theories are not some unimportant irrelevant theories. In case some of them are true (which I don't know yet) then that would be very practical and important to know, imo. Some I am curious to check on are: Archons/aliens and the illuminati are controlling/manipulating humanity, it is tried to enslave humanity by connecting our minds to the internet/AI like e.g. Elon Musk's Neuralink is working on, reincarnation is a soul trap, humanity was genetically engineered, earth is hollow and aliens live there, 9/11 was an inside job,... Some seem very crazy and far-fetched, but I'm curious whether there is some truth to it and OBEs allow to find out for yourself. Advice: You can ask aliens, your guiding spirits, spirits in general, deceased people, deities,... for advice. You develop psychic abilities which you also have when you are not OBEing. Like: Better intuition, instances of direct knowing, remote viewing, telepathy, seeing probable future scenarios, energy, auras, spirits, deceased people, guiding spirits, aliens,.. Meet other OBElers. If we are proficient at OBEing, we could easily meet up Shared Dreaming: I am very confident that shared dreaming is possible. But it probably requires that you are very good at the double body OBEs if you want to do it reliably. That means you can fight some lord of the rings battles or do whatever you want together with your friends. Immortality: John Kreiter talks about this in his book "The Magnum Opus". You can make this individuated consciousness immortal by transcending (and leaving) this physical reality. You do this by creating the philosopher's stone and solidifying your double body. so in case you are interested in that goal, then having these double body visualization OBEs will be beneficial. I don't know how needed/important/relevant this immortality is (it can definitely be regarded as a huge distraction from enlightenment, idk). Here are two perspectives on Immortality: You are God, so you are already immortal. But you are at the same time a soul (God focusing on a small aspect of itself). Ultimately, this is an illusion but I guess it's still worth looking at because after death "life" goes on (from that perspective). So you as a soul or individuated consciousness keep experiencing. If you look at past life regressions then that is very obviously the case. You get to some astral realm and eventually reincarnate. But you are still trapped in the cycle of reincarnation. And some conspiracy theorists say that this actually all happens artificially and not naturally. Some aliens supposedly trick you in going through the light/tunnel and deliberately erase your memory so you don't remember past lives and then send you back to earth into a body through advanced technology. (I'm eager to validate that one). A solution is said to be to not go into the light (after death) but escape through holes in the artifically set up grid which is around earth. But I don't know how reliable it is that you actually manage to escape that way. So another way is to "become" immortal before physical death. You do this by transferring your whole consciousness into the double body till you don't need the physical body anymore and leave it permanently. Interesting would be if this would be the same as escaping through the grid in your soul body after death. Personal Development: facing fears, working directly with your subconscious, shadow work, training skills,... Having fun: You can do everything you enjoy, like taking psychedelics to have a crazy fun trip (rather than to awaken). I guess N,N DMT would be a nice choice for that. Master the law of attraction: Two ways: In order to control lucid dreams, you need to be good at the loa. So by LDing you train that skill/muscle. If you for example want a certain job and you live it very often in dreams then it gets more easy to tune into and manifest that reality. Time Dilation: It's not a benefit in itself but it can greatly enhance other benefits of OBEs because you could have (vastly) more time. I know of two ways to potentially have way more time in Lucid dreams (and possibly in some general OBEs too): Now you know why I'm so obsessed with OBEs Almost all of these benefits require that you are an advanced or very advanced OBEler. And I guess it would be very hard to achieve some of them with the traditional way of OBEing by waiting for sleep paralysis and the vibrations. And when you do stuff like verifying conspiracy theories you need to be very careful not to deceive yourself. For example when you try to see whether earth is actually hollow and inhabitated there, there are two traps to easily fall into. Let's say you just go through the ground and fly towards "inner earth". If you believe that this conspiracy theory is true, then you are very likely to actually find the earth to be hollow. This is because you are mixing in (or are purely in) the Grey Zone. That means you just imagine the earth being hollow, just as if you have a dream of the earth being hollow. And this obviously doesn't prove that the actual earth is hollow. The second trap is, that you manage to keep the journey imagination-free and find a hollow earth. Now it could be true that this is not imaginary but it could easily be a prarallel reality. As Reality is infinite, it is very certain that there is a parallel reality with earth being hollow and some kind of aliens living there. But it doesn't matter if an earth in some parallel reality is hollow, it matters what is actually the case with our earth. So you have to be careful to actually investigate our physical universe. But I guess if you are advanced, it shouldn't be too difficult to not deceive yourself.

What is nonsense about reincarnation is the claim that when you die you take your spiritual advancement into next life. Have you for example heard someone born and be in stream entry without meditation and any spiritual practices?

Hello there fellow seekers of the Absolute. Sorry for the click-bait guys, but there is no shortcut to absolute truth . Instead of giving you false perceptions I will be giving a summary of my journey to absolute truth, not for approval, but to help making you more aware of the false reality you are living in due to lower consciousness. Along the way I will hopefully be triggering your subconscious soul-memory. So DO NOT dismiss or judge this story, for the Source/God has given each and everyone of us life to seek the absolute truth and when found to live and expand this greater understanding onto the seekers. Of course this knowledge cannot be understood by the believer through words or concepts, (it can only be communicated and understood by the knowers, because only they will find the deeper understanding/meaning behind the words or concepts) let alone through a thread on a forum. That's why you have to seek yourself and if you truly, from the depths of your existence, SEEK for absolute truth and intensely want it, that's when you will arrive at your (next) truth (keep in mind truth can change, not the absolute, but rather your truth). That is how the Light will eventually sprout inside of you by experience and sensation, it is not something you can link together like connecting the dots. (Seek and you shall find). So If you wish to trigger this absolute truth unto yourself I advise you not to fast forward scroll through this thread, but rather to read everything with intend. I also tend to share some more personal things to help give you an understanding about the individual (me). My personal self Up until the 19th year of my life, It wasn't really great, I had a hard chilhood and had to leave the house with no contact when I was 16. I started facing the world alone without having any Idea where I was headed or where I would stay, standing with my back against the wall trying to survive day to day. Also I did what I wanted to do because I was living my own life, when I reached rock bottom at 19 I started smoking weed (Funny since I always told myself that I wouldn't ). That is when I truly started to know my worldy self, also my personal horizon on everything expanded greatly. This was an uplift to my emotions and my life overall. I came from a spiritual family with a spiritual mother and aunt that had a bond that even twins can't connect like. Also, they were so far ahead of me spiritually, my worldy self couldn't even comprehend the deeper understanding behind their doings/sayings, and just thought of them as my slightly strange but o so loving and giving family (Oh how I was the strange one in the end). My aunt was like a mother to me, that taught me things my actual mother didn't or couldn't, but she passed away a couple of years ago due to lung cancer, this was a fallback for me with lots of emotions up until my Awakening. The start of the journey This journey began in approximately 2017 when my muslim friend Adam who I met in elementary school came to me with tears in his eyes (we're both 25 now and stayed friends) and said that he had a vivid dream about us and everyone standing at judgement day. He saw me getting taken into Hell while he was going to Heaven (probably because he still lived at home with dinner being served every day and living according to his religion). He also cried in the dream because there was nothing he could do to help me. Keep in mind my friend grew up in a muslim household and everything other than that what he believes in is complete false, simply because Islam is 'the truth'. I don't even judge him now because we've all hold false perceptions of reality at first, I didn't even believe in the Source/God and was a total Atheist, who used logic and science for truth. He practically begged me to learn about Islam because he believed it was a sign from 'Allah'. However, back then I didn't know much about the details of this religion, but he showed me some things in this book and compared it to science, which seemed pretty convincing and made me think, but I still didn't believe there was a God. So there is a God ? This was until I started scientifically looking for mistakes in the evolution theory and I found out how complicated our DNA actually is. This can't just come from nothing. But the biggest switch was when I learned about the formula that came into existence when the Big Bang happened called 1.618, better known as the Golden Ratio or the Spiral of life. I thought if I take apart my phone and throw it into the cosmos we could wait a million years, but it would never be a complete phone in the end. Or I could smash my keyboard for a bazillion years and in the end I wouldn't all of a sudden get a quantum code designed to create new universes or something, so basically you could say that I found out life doesn't just happen to be. This was a definite eye opener that there was indeed an intelligent designer behind our existence. So I began to inquire into Islam, because if this was the truth I wanted it! But if it wasn't then I wanted to save my friend from this false perception! At first they show you all these 'miracles' of the Q'uran that are so convincing, because you are still thinking in concepts and words to comprehend this so called 'truth'. Soon I found out how this cult actually worked and how these so called 'scholars' of Islam are changing words in the translations of the Q'uran/Hadiths in the benefit of Islam. Then I found out (as they (muslims) all say) you can only really understand this book if you read it in the original Arabic language, but my friend didn't even know how to read Arabic. I looked for someone who could help me with translations and it turned out to be even worse than I thought (not going into further details because this truth doesn't even matter). This couldn't be the word of God, this couldn't be Absolute truth, I refused to accept this tyranny, never the less Adam asked me to come to the musk one time just for the experience, so I went. There I found their Imam totally working on the emotions of these people, on the fears and desires (otherworldy desires), He told us to fear Allah! He said to be scared of Allah, how Allah would punish you if you didn't live according to the Q'uran or the Prophet, this went on for about 20 minutes. Before I decided to come with Adam to the musk I found a giant scientific mistake in their scripture. I decided to confront him with it after the gathering ended, to see what his reaction would be. After I showed the imam the error in their scriptures, they were all looking flabbergasted as if they had never heard about this before. After 45 minutes of the Imam browsing through their scriptures, he came to the conclusion that this wasn't a mistake,. It was just me who was an idiot basically and didn't understand their scriptures. That's when I was sure.. These were NOT the scriptures of the Divine. Of course Adam also refused to see this as a mistake, but I knew that it was a done deal for me, even though he still tried to make me see his truth. Emptiness So there I was, knowing evolution wasn't the answer and religions weren't the answer. I was aware that I knew exactly nothing of our existence, the things I was so sure of most likely weren't true as well. I deeply asked myself these questions over and over again, why are we here ? Were we just born to die ? What happens after 'death'? After a month of being pointblank and still seeking for Absolute truth, I came across a book called The Universal One by Walter Russel (http://educate-yourself.org/cn/TheUniversalOne1926WalterRussell.pdf) If you haven't awakened yet, or even if you have, I advise you to read this book even if it takes you 2 days to understand 1 page. This book is full of true knowledge about our universe and will benefit YOU, the reader, greatly. Of course you don't have to believe me! Just open the book and look for yourself. With some of this knowledge inside my head and actually starting over with everything I thought was truth I had some sort of a different view of the world. I still wanted Absolute truth, but I knew that I knew nothing. SPIRITUAL AWAKENING! My girlfriend was having a small party with some friends, in the end (about 5 hours later) only 2 friends of mine stayed. My girlfriend was sleeping and we smoked some blunts while talking about divinity and such. We put on some chill music, started filling balloons with Nitrous Oxide and began inhaling them (It's a thing here in the Netherlands). This wasn't the first time, so it wasn't a big deal or anything. A couple of rounds later my friend put on ASAP Rocky - L$D, as I inhaled my filled balloon again, I started to flow away further and further. I focused on my breathing and thought of nothing (unintentionally), I felt I went further away from my individual self yet I was still there in the Now. Then IT happened. It was as if my humanity got taken off layer by layer, The Ego, my Desires, My Fears, my Emotions. For once I was able to completely let go of the past and was fully in the present, It really felt like I was dying, as I was thinking that I was dying It was as if the universe downloaded data inside my head, because all of a sudden I felt and experienced (NOT HEAR) someone giving me a feeling that it's okay to let go and that reincarnation was a fact, so I would come back, Then finally all my attachments in the world were gone and I was aware that all that was left over was consciousness. THEN I REALIZED all I am IS consciousness. After that, I felt a LOVE which was so BIG and SO POWERFUL, I've never felt anything like this before in my life. This love could only be from the Source/God (what I knew the moment I felt it), and it kept on going, After this great sensation of love I was given this sense of UNITY with everyone and everything that's in this universe. I quickly became aware that I am you, you are me, I am the trees, the trees are me, we are ALL ONE. We are not in nature, we ARE nature, we are not in the universe, we ARE the universe. Then I was given the knowledge that RELIGION WAS NOT THE ANSWER INDEED and that NOTHING TRULY MATTERS EXCEPT CONSCIOUSNESS! I felt this deeply intense feeling of happiness and bliss, like I've never felt before. Soon after I came back, I stood up shocked/surprised and said "GUYS NOTHING MATTERS IN THE WORLD, ONLY CONSCIOUSNESS and leveling that truly matters" and they were looking at me all weird, I still see their faces haha . My perception of reality got changed to Absolute Truth for good! The day after, I wanted to find out what happened that caused this great but weird experience, that's when I found out it happened because the brain always needs and gets oxygen every second of the day. The Nitrous Oxide causes 'Cerebral hypoxia', this occurs when not enough oxygen can get to the brain, that gave me a Near Death Experience. So, my mind thought it was actually dying, that's when enough Dymethyltryptamine was released to cause my Spiritual Awakening. Even the day after this experience I was still feeling this insane love and empathy towards other people, also this feeling of unity just kept hanging by and the thought that all I am is consciousness. I felt I couldn't talk to anyone about this, because they would think I was crazy, but I knew there was one person who would listen without prejudice for sure, that was my mother. I called her and told her; "Mom there's something really weird that happened to me", she replied with "What happened !?", thinking something bad happened. That's when I started explaining my experience to her, when I was halfway she just stopped me and said "Really honey ? Congratulations, I'm so intensely proud of you!" SHE KNEW! SHE KNEW about Absolute Truth all along, she knew this would happen one day, and as she told me "Congratulations", all of a sudden a memory came back to me. When I was 12/13, she told me that when I was 3 years old she closed my 3rd eye, because I was bothered by entities (positive though), but I couldn't sleep because of it. Then I remembered she also said it would open when I would be 24 years old............. This awakening happened 2 months prior to my 25th year old birthday, believe it or not. I started crying because I was happy, for the first time in my life I cried because I was happy and because of everything that was changing around me. All of a sudden I didn't just care about myself, but I started to care about all beings in the world, even animals and even strangers, My whole world got filled with light and I started to feel this bliss and happiness throughout the whole day, even a week later still. Even up until now, moments of happiness and bliss come and go. I know now what my task is in this world, to become more aware live in constant awareness of Absolute truth and to help others planting seeds for their awakening. To the reader Please try to understand that the key to peace on earth is inner peace (self-realization). Be conscious and conscious about consciousness. Awaken your true self (your spiritual self) in order to obtain enlightenment. You may stop trying to fill the whole with earthly desires, because you are the one you've been searching for all along. Meaning, this eternal sense of bliss and happiness cannot be found when you reach outward, but rather reach inward. Don't look external, look internal. While I'm talking about knowledge, that is beyond this phenomenal world, please don't try to understand absolute truth through worldy/earthly concepts and words. Give up all these concepts and inquire into the nature of your being (the true self). Ask yourself the right questions: how did we all happen to be? And if you continue in the realm of intellect (trying to understand the divine through these concepts and words) you will become entangled and lost in more and more concepts. We must all give love in order to receive love, Hell is on earth and it's a state of mind that's why the world is so desperately in need of love. We must all enter into the kingdom of the one infinite source which is heaven and you enter that kingdom once you have become enlightened by the divine itself, I say this once more, the Absolute truth must stumble upon you, you cannot stumble upon it. I've added a diagram for the believers to give a deeper understanding of the surfaces of consciousness. I'm giving you all love and peace into your journeys, if anyone has any questions i'd be happy to answer them

Jep, you are probably right. I also like his writing style and the person behind the words. What workshop was that? Did you read Lifecycles? In LSD and the mind of the universe there is a chapter where he talks about reincarnation and I found the topic extremely fascinating. He says there noting less than that reincarnation has been scientifically proven and quotes a University professor. @Deezeetho You're welcome!

Chapter 6: CwG 3 and RoT were read today. In CwG; god went into detail on reincarnation, death and life. It was very interesting to get such a detailed view on how reincarnation might work; this is something I'll have to contemplate and experience before I take any stance on it. It was also made clear i need to contemplate death much much more to appreciate life more fully. Although ultimately there is no such thing as death. There is only life and infinite consciousness. But all these labels have to be transcended at some point, so one can become directly conscious in this direct experience. RoT went into cognitive states of Global mind, Meta-mind, Overmind and Supermind. Overmind was especially interesting as it seems to be a comfort spot one can hit. There the individual can experience such high levels of ecstatic and erotic pleasure that one might lose vision of ones path. This happens specially for those who still have shadow issues. Overmind also seems to be the point where you transcend the whole of human history and infinite knowledge. This is the point you become omniscient and go beyond all of the infinite levels of wisdom and possibly known knowledge. Supposedly this is what is supposed to happen. I've not experienced such deep moments myself yet, I'd say I've definitely gotten a peak at Overmind, but nowhere near full Overmind experience. I'll continue to read about the last state tomorrow, known as SUPERMIND. Nothing in existence sounds more compelling than to realize these states and I WILL STOP AT NO POINT. This is the reason god created duality, to ultimately know it self, and i'll make sure to find my way back home. Other: To get to these deeper realizations I just mentioned; to find my way back home (which is right here, there is nowhere to go). As god, i create reality and how it will turn out. By the amount of effort i'm putting in right now, I see how much more i could be doing. I'm not even trying on more than 25% effort. The only thing i do is meditate, read and contemplate from time to time, and psychedelics every month or two. Well if i were to see a version of myself that i'd think had a pretty good shot at "awakening". That guy would do the following: Do Kriya-Yoga or meditation in the mornings; he would do normal meditation also during the day, and before bed; he would breathe and live meditation and Kriya Yoga. he would learn to lucid dream as fast as possible, to practice mindfulness and awareness during sleep, as the real self never sleeps. The face before birth self. The self that was awake before the big bang. This ultimate version of myself would eat cleaner and be mindful throughout the day. Contemplation and self-inquiry would also be along side the top priorities. And of course, more of the good ol' psychedelics. These are the tools I created to be able to awaken. There are no bullshit excuses. Peace.

Thanks so much for your answers, they make a lot of sense to me. I see.. there is no objective right or wrong, so how could karma be a punishment.. but you'll experience the reaction to your action.. is that what is meant with punished by your anger? if all is one, it cycles back to me at some point.. but without judgement or for the need to learn a lesson.. it's just the natural consequence? So karma is neutral, it just comprises my personal bias. My bias might change according to my action.. but to be free of bias, I need to be free of action, which requires to be free of self. Karma is basically the very specific perspective that makes up who "I" am? No karma = no bias = no self. That's how I understand it now. How does the concept of soul and reincarnation then fit into karma? I studied the Michael teachings a bit.. it's quite interesting, I feel like the mentioned soul ages correspond to the SD stages. It rings somewhat true to me, but I never know what to make out of these channeled teachings. Could the "soul" or "essence" be a part of karma?

@Inliytened1 Are you talking about reincarnation? In terms of Leo dying many times? Like reborn as Leo this time but was someone else before?

@Schahin reincarnation is real mate, but humans don't reincarnate. God reincarnates as humans and you are God. People think "I am a human with God inside me" when it's actually "I am God with a human outside of me" kinda lol

Wow ok, had you experiences with other psychedelics. How can you relate it difference and effect wise? Does it bring you closer to truth/enlightenment? I find it funny how ayahuasqueiros have different opinions on reincarnation and all and 5 Meo experienced people dont believe in reincarnation at all.

I was at the beach here in Kalamata, Greece the other day collecting sea glass and colorful pebbles. I do great thinking when I do this and invariably when I get a good idea I find an absolutely perfect piece of class or an extremely beautiful stone. I like to tell myself that it is God validating my thoughts. Concurrently I absolutely understand that WHATEVER appears in my life at any given moment I AM responsible for. And there is no GOD as in HE. (not even SHE Lol) This gets a little kinky cause I refrain from saying, "I believe…" like in I believe in God or I believe in reincarnation. It cracks me up how people love to go all philosophical and try to convince each other that what they believe is the way it is. Then they judge themselves and others according to these beliefs. Just because someone believes something doesn't mean that's the way it is. Or is it? For them. Literally. For real. Like if I don't like my circumstances I can change my thinking about my circumstances and my circumstances will change. If I change my beliefs I change my life. The implications of this are astounding. And therein lies my mission. Well one of my missions. Remember that I said that I am codependent to the world? That's only a minor exaggeration. So here's another little story. This one is present time, the day before yesterday in fact when I was at the beach collecting. On Monday I spoke to my brother G's wife, N. They and their 2 kids live in my house in California. Life is extremely difficult for them and I was plunged into sadness, concern, and stress at the magnitude of the problems. So I'm focused, focused, focused and then I got an idea. And then I started with one of my conversations with God. I know darn well that I am not hearing God's voice in my head. You will be one of the first to know if I ever do I promise. It's just me talking to myself in my mind but bear with me as I give God a voice. So I'm saying, "Ah come on God. Not that. I don't want to do that. This isn't fair. That's being codependent and I'm having enough trouble with that as you well know." So God says, "You promised back in 1980 that if I let you do it your way and kept you safe that you would be mine and not forsake me. Well, I kept my part of the bargain and I'm calling in my chips now." And then I find one of the most beautiful little stones imaginable. See Cousin, I am going to ask you to do something. So I tell God that it is not fair to ask anything of you cause I don't even know you and I just dropped in out of the blue after a lifetime of barely even knowing that you are alive and for all I know I am now a pain in your brain cause I am reminding you of things that you have put behind you and am making demands on your time of which you have none of. So God says, "And so…?" So I say, "Ok, if I can do 45 sit-ups I'll ask him." (I did 30 the other day after a lifetime of not exercising so 45 was gonna be hard but not impossible. I only push the miracle stuff so far.) God says, "It's a deal but you have to give it all you've got." So I did 45 sit-ups.

I am so tired of suffering which is going on for 14 years. And every time new issues arise which increase the burden. Meditation was my hope to be happy. I don't believe in hell after life or reincarnation. So I contemplate suicide. There is no point in continuing it. I disgust myself. I hate God (if there is). I just want to disappear and not to be part of anything. Not to reborn, not to be part of God, just not to exist. I hope everything will end after my death.

Just gotta brag that I met him at a workshop. I love the guy, x100 in person. Great pioneer. Yea, his other books are on a variety of topics. He is a bit aware of Ken Wilber and spiral dynamics, certainly of Stan Grof, and many others. He writes on a variety of things, but one book calleed Lifecycles is just on reincarnation.

In his book LSD and the mind of the universe Bache speaks about how science has evidence for past lives and reincarnation: "After years of study, I have come to accept reincarnation as a natural fact of life. I accept it not on the bias of faith but on the Basis of strong empirical evidence. […] The discovery of Children from around the world who have active memories of their most recent lives, memories that have been documented and verified through careful Research, stands as one of the great Achievements of our time. With decades of meticulous Research, Ian Stevenson, the Carlson Professor of Psychiatry at the University of Virginia from 1967 to 2001, has proven beyond a reasonable doubt, I think, that reincarnation is simply true." (p 89)

I think everything there is, already happened, and is happening at the same time. I think it has to. I don't think there is any other way. I used to think I was talking to "God" as a child (laying in bed and in my head), I didn't believe in any religion, but I had this weird faith that someone was listening. I'd sit there and genuinely wish for something to happen, good things, bad things, they all always come true years later after I've forgotten about it. I'd assume every reincarnation you just pick whichever soul you'd like to experience, or you are a soul and you're just picking an avatar, because you wanna experience what that vessel did. Kind of like a game, who do I feel like playing today? Evil doesn't exist until you start the game so anything goes, almost like its just what you're in the mood for after playing the game over and over again there is always something new. But it already happened, you're just picking a time slot somewhere in the world of infinity and that's it. I really don't think reality is what people think, how it's constantly new and stuff added on at "random" or whatever. It only makes sense that it already happened and you just forget the future because you chose the soul only for 1 small unconditional/unbiased experience. I feel alive right now as i'm typing this, i'm watching it, you'll read it as I post it. But it wouldn't shock me if I play your vessel reading this 100 years from now, but it's happening at the same time. I don't know how this wouldn't be possible.

mhhh do you remember the coming of the antichrist? the prophesies point towards so many different happenings and all are in a sense pointing towards the same. but it really depends on who interpreted the same phenomenon - for example there are people who say the age of aquarius is near - also you don’t know exactly if and when a buddha is among us in an earlier reincarnation and what it is which is there to live through to then really change the world and rewire the people into the buddha’s to come devine streangth. a prophesy is a prophesy - some were made to be broken.

That's what I've been doing or trying to do for quite some time. I've been taking frequent, solo investigative trips since I was 22 (27 now) and have connected to 'source' as you call it on several occasions. Been contemplating and meditating steadily for about 2,5 years and am committed to being as authentic as possible. Over time I've had some improvement (regaining the ability to sleep, mild reduction of symptoms) but currently nothing indicates it will heal. I'm keeping an open mind of course and do try not to turn this into a limiting belief. I added the 'take for granted' caveat because I wanted to know what the best practices are IF my body situation does not improve, but this is not a fixed belief. Curious what your take on this is, @Leo Gura: My last LSD trip (about 300µg) I became intensely 'aware of awareness' and surrendered myself completely to awareness, dissolving in it. Subsequent to this my body began to behave entirely of its own accord, as if it was an entirely external thing unfolding of itself (it was no longer 'me'). My body lay down on the floor, shaking its head and contorting its spine, stretching itself out out (especially around the cheeks and neck) in very intense ways. During this experience, I got flashes of what I at that moment I interpreted as memories of a past life-- images of an underworld filled with prostitution and I 'sensed' even darker things such as murder. The idea arose that I was a portal of human misery, that it was my 'cosmic purpose' to bear the pain of other beings and that my existence had no other function beyond that. At some point 'I' returned and took back control over the body. My body made further attempts to contort and twist, which was frightening, but these attempts subsided as I blocked this process. I cried for hours after that but this wasn't experienced as a negative per se, felt cathartic. Do you think I should have let my body continue to do what it wanted to do? I stopped the process because it felt very dangerous but I also realize that letting it happen might been very cathartic. I'm not sure how I relate to the idea of past lives. I try to be agnostic about everything but I don't know how to wield the past lives/reincarnation model to understand my predicament with, or if that would be a useful thing to do. (Also, my first sexual experiences were with prostitutes and I only after developed the ability to approach women and form something of a connection with them, so ambiguous feelings about that might have played into my above described LSD experience, but I don't know.) Thanks for the feedback everyone.

Continuation of the previous post (typed only 10 days later lel) Until at some point whilst traveling back to the airbnb in Germany just over the border north of Basel (I had explored Basel that day), the thought suddenly came in that… What if it’s all just okay? What if committing suicide is not tragic? What if I stop saying to myself that it’s not okay to do it? What if I stop thinking of suicide as a failure of life? What If I completely give myself a free pass to be able to do it? And suddenly I realized that perhaps the idea that suicide was something to be avoided was simply not true. And this realization evoked such a tremendous feeling of peace and relief in me. I suddenly felt like there was absolutely no requirements for me anymore on at least the level of action that life required from me. I suddenly felt such an immense feeling of relief and elation, and… freedom. Yes, that’s what it was. Total freedom. The freedom to be and do whatsoever you want. The feeling that every possible outcome was totally okay. And the interesting thing is, with this feeling of elation and freedom and peace, then who the hell feels interested to commit suicide in that state? For what? That’s the great paradox. Total acceptance of the idea of suicide creates total peace, and in total peace, nobody is really interested in taking their own lives. That’s why I promote people accepting their suicidality. Not even so much because then they won’t commit suicide, but because then it will take them out of their suicidal struggles. They then will come to know what peace is, if they really fully grasp this realization. I have however heard of sages who choose suicide whilst being very conscious. Perhaps it’s just them being able to leave the body at will without needing to hang or shoot themselves or whatever, but it’s the same concept. There may be a way to choose your own death that does not involve or is based on a lot of despair. But for one to have this realization that I had, one has to let go of many assumptions. 1. One has to let go of the assumption that you would do harm to friends and relatives. You do harm them, but that does not mean that that harm would be a wrong thing if you look from the perspective of the absolute. It may trigger existential questioning in them which would help them to evolve quicker on their own path. 2. One has to let go of the assumption that you would face some kind of punishment for committing suicide, or that it otherwise would be a bad thing. I’m talking about either the creation of karmic debt, or the idea that religion has about ending up in hell. 3. Related to the point above (but not the same), one also has to let go of the idea that committing suicide is a wastage of life and therefore some form of sin. I don’t think I really wanna talk about why the idea of something like a geographical hell is totally irrational and how it has been used to manipulate people by invoking fear in them. I feel like this doesn’t require too much deep introspection, research and contemplation for one to come to the insight that the idea of hell is very much based on fear instead of truthfulness. But the idea that you would face karmic punishment or that otherwise just the general attitude that committing suicide is some form of sin or wastage, is one I want to address. From an atheistic standpoint, if a moment is all that one would be, then why should it matter if it ends sooner or later? There is only sentimental attachments to life, but no real valid reason as to why one shouldn’t be able to commit suicide. Atheists may get this sense of being a failure or having ‘wasted’ their lives if they commit suicide, but this idea doesn’t really hold much ground. It’s more about the story they tell themselves about what suicide means. But in reality, it holds no true ground. And even if you’re a failure for ending your own life, then simply be a failure. What does it matter if you’re a failure or not, taken in the perspective that you are literally nothing n comparison to the infinite scope of existence. What does one more failure really signify? One may come to take the sentiment of not wanting to hurt others again, but again, just because they are hurt by your suicide, doesn’t mean that it wouldn’t necessarily be for the greater good, as it provokes things and puts pressure to evolve on people. And for the one that believes in reincarnation, karmic punishment or retribution or whatever… Well, taking in the scope if the totality of existence… Why do we suffer in the first place? Why would we struggle in the first place? Is putting an end to suffering —the whole wheel of suffering throughout the reincarnations— as quickly as possible really the ultimate ideal? Do we just experience suffering to get rid of it as quickly as possible? Then why are we here experiencing suffering in the first place? That is even assumed that there would be some karmic drawback to committing suicide, and that it additionally would increase the total sum of suffering you would come to experience throughout your incarnations. And do we really know that that is true? Perhaps when one commits suicide, one chooses to do so because one sees the circumstances in his current incarnation (on an unconscious level) as unfit to continue with that incarnation, and therefore chooses to commit suicide so one can choose once again to reincarnate in a different set of circumstances that would be much more ideal for the continuation of his/her spiritual development. Possibly suicide can even be a wise choice to make. Who knows? But I don’t except most people to be able to have the realization to the same extent that I had because most people are too attached to some assumption or judgement about what suicide means for them, and what suicide means n the larger context of things. For most people, I think I would clarify to them both what valid reasons there can be to take their own lives, and what reasons there can be to fully commit to life, and then I would allow them to make the choice. I think for most people in a suicidal position, it requires a commitment and a very deliberate act of will to get out of it (in whatever way they choose to get out of it). For some other people, it may require them to very deliberately try to fully accept all of their circumstances and their negative feelings and just make ‘trying to let go and accept’ their practice. I feel almost tempted to call them the ‘power of now-people’. Of course, trying to let go isn’t the same as actually letting go, as they may not be able to actually fully let go through insight and realization, but it may take them further along their path. For some other people, perhaps their appropriate primary focus is doing a lot of introspection and contemplation about what it all means, what’s life all about, how suicide fits into the picture… They perhaps need some time to ‘figure it all out’, to really think about the most fundamental questions of existence. And once again for some other people, they simply fully understand the insight that I had had when I was in/near Basel in Switzerland in 2018. They realize that there is absolutely nothing wrong with suicide. These people come to experience that if there is no reason to fear death, that it simultaneously allows them to fully dive into life also without any struggle. Life opens up to them. One can only be fully alive if one has fully let go of either the desire or fear of death. People who on some conscious or unconscious level either desire or fear death (usually both), can never come to know what it means to be fully alive. Granted, this realization that I had in Switzerland isn't something that became fully embodied on a permanent basis —I'm certainly not fully enlightened yet (if ever)— but the realization did have a tremendous impact nevertheless and it is probably the most impactful insight that I've ever had.

Rebirth/reincarnation.... karma follows.