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If you want to experience infinite fractal and visuals AND the feeling of leaving your body; floating around these majestic scenes, then you should probably try Ketamine, at a dose high enough to induce these states. A little history about me: I live in NJ which is a huge place for house music and drugs. The typical drugs people do here are cocaine, mollies, and ketamine. I've done a ton of drugs in my day but the one that changed a lot was when I realized how ketamine can be used outside the club scene. Ketamine sends you into a "hole" which seems like an infinite strange loop...its not pleasant if your ego wants to escape it. IF you learn to sit there in peace, you will realize you're at the singularity prior to the big bang. I recall one trip where I was this black orb, forever folding on itself; I could feel the immense pressure and loneliness, until I decided to become everything else via an explosion. The out of body experiences of literally floating around your living room are amazing. You literally flung around, like a roller coaster but without the stomach anxiety, into space, the clouds, and all sorts of different "rooms" your mind creates. Amazing and wonderful PERFECT structures which sometimes resemble gothic cathedrals and so on. In regards to fractals, sometimes you will this language which looks like some alien writing, consntaly being written forever; its the only thing you see. Sometimes you will see basic structures like squares building entire cities, which then your eye zooms out and see an INFINITE plane being built. It is certainly an amazing drug. I am not sure that it serves the same purpose as 5meo DMT, but from what reports I've read, 5meo doesn't have any OBEs. I have done DMT before and I enjoyed it, but I have no access to 5meo DMT. Of course I wish we could ask but its not allowed on the forum so I have to continue to try and find it myself, but ketamine should be easier to find for most people. Anyway, if you haven't tried it or have done it in a club or something, do it at home instead. Take enough and put on some headphones while listening to some new-age or trance-like music. It can be snorted or injected into the muscle. I know the last one sounds like crack-head status, but its not intravenous and that is actually how your supposed to take it for medicinal purposes. During surgery, an anesthesiologist will sometimes give you Ketamine intravenously, but that is with them using pharmaceutical grade, FDA approved vial; so DO NOT take it IV at home, ever. Anyone who takes insulin for diabetes or steroids for hormone replacement therapy should not have any negative feelings about intermuscular injection. Snorting does work, perhaps does last slightly longer, but takes a lot more and has less visuals unless you take a lot. The side effects are a 'clouded head effect' the next day feeling nauseous, plus a nose full of crusty salt that you need to clear out. Intermuscular injection has virtually no side effects and hits faster, but lasts not as long, but the visuals are more potent and will cause a OBE. Anyway, that's my input on this subject.

@bejapuskas that time will come, but not right now. I'm just starting with pick up, I haven't experienced an insight to transcend it. Also pick up makes me feel less attached right now. It's more that I feel like an alien in my college. I know I need mistakes, but I do experience fear of failure which sucks. I do see my overall growth improving, so things will work out naturally if I keep on track I think.

It depends on what you call samadhi. Different people use different definitions, where they make distinctions between stages of samadhi or call those stages some other name and give the label samadhi to the highest experience. If you have had only single samadhi experience then it's hard to pinpoint where it exactly belongs. The whole thing is further complicated by the fact that these experiences come in many flavors. The one samadhi that had happened to me came in a "no-self flavor". That means I forgot my name, who I am or what I think I am and everything became one, then bliss filled the whole space. The concepts of me and mine became very alien, they were perceived like a costume that I could choose to wear or not. I believe it was a lesser samadhi, so others may give you a deeper, more accurate answer of how it feels.

Man what a time for her to bring up something like that, or maybe she didn't realise it would have such a drastic effect. Also, if you hadn't been expecting a trip of that magnitude it must have really thrown you. I'm nervous about trying DMT. I might skip to 5-MeO instead as I don't know if I can handle how warped it is, with all the alien entities etc. For me LSD is strong as hell and I'm only done up to 300ug. Each trip is a life-changing experience and is do damn intense, if DMT is much much stronger than that....well, maybe I should be brave. Have you tried it again since?

past the expiration date. My memory's still scrambled eggs, but I am able to function like a normal human (for the most part). As I write this, I sense that I have nothing to write about. My memory's so gone that I can barely remember anything noteworthy that's happened over the past day, or week for that matter. Perhaps there is one noteworthy thing. My time has expired at this intentional community. I feel like I've learned all that I needed to learn here, and I'm ready to move onwards to focus on my art. I think I'll make a separate post outlining the pro's and con's of living in this community for six months, as it'll probably be a long list. My current issue is finding a place to rent. (I'm not allowed to return to the parents' place.) The Universe is not presenting me with any resonating options, so I've been kind of a sitting duck at the community, somewhat squeamish to leave. Perhaps the Universe is toying with me and waiting for me to be more content with where I am before It presents my next step. Who knows. I'm sure something will surface in the coming weeks. In the meantime, I'll keep craigslist-ing and asking friends and acquaintances. It does feel indicated that I stay in the area for the spring and summer. When it comes to musical performance, I'm not emotionally ready to tackle a bigger town. In 2017 I pushed myself way too hard in a bigger town, and it reflected in my diet and lifestyle. I burned out completely and went into a deep depression, which is why I had to retreat to my parents' small town. Nowadays, I'm respecting my body and cultivating my passion at a slower, more enjoyable pace. That's a natural byproduct of all of the self-love stuff I've been doing lately, too. I feel like an alien with this memory thing. It seems that the "depersonalization" stuck. I still have plenty of triggers and negative emotions, but they're not as heavy as they used to be. I have general sensations of self, but they're all individual strands of a web, and I see that no one particular strand of the web is "me". This stacked with the broken memory, I don't really know who or what I am anymore. It's a total mystery. And the weird part? I'm not that concerned.

This is my first time writing to anyone so please just one openminded person can read this without thinking about my English try understanding what feedback you guys can give me. Thanks for your time. So where Should i start Since i moved to Sweden with my older brother and my mom from war and terror from the Jugoslavien war. I was about 4 years old when We came here and now im 23. I want to cut to the main Subject put then you guys would't have the correct information to give me feedback so hang on. It would mean a lot to me. We didnt only run from the war but also from my father. This man i never have meet and always hateful from all the stories ive been told. He was always drunk, gambeling, cheating and worse of all extremily aggressiv towards my mom and my older brother, i was not even born when i heard that he was so angry and my brother that was only 5 when i kicked him repititly over and over again like my brother was a full grown man. This had its mark still today and constant reminder of the devil left his mark on my brother. In Jugoslavia the war between bosnia and serbia where cousins where shooting eachother also left its mark to. I would t never ser my self as weak or a victim put the circumstances are to much to handle. I am born in serbia my my native languague is romani also known as gypsys. Yes the one you can dress as a halloween costume and the people who steal and is always lying. My Mother meet my stepfather when they where in Berlin and he was also in search for a better life. So they moved to a smal city in Sweden where people from same country that had war aginst eachother live and are neighbors. The thing is that all around us there are people who really hate us. I dint care but my brother did. It grow a big anger in him that still today exist. When you think the worse part is has been said, its not. My Stepfather is Bosnian. And you think ah thats good? Right? Kind of romantic to hear even in so so much hate, there is love . Yes but not from in my lifestory. Its not that his the problem because of is nationality and well not everything is wrong with him and the opposite, but atleast he dont drink, och or is utterly aggressive. Growing up me and my brother where lost. I was always very playfull and like to have a good time no matte with who, i was i happy kid but not grounded. My brother felt that he needed to protect me and himself because the school that we went where the majority of the kids in school is 80%{bosnian, albanian, gypsy and arabish) the other is other country and only a few swedish people because the swedish people didnt want there kids next to a sober and school full of immigrants. The thing is parents have so strong hold on their children especially of what they are told to believie. Everyone hated us and its wasnt talked behind our back put infront of us. I was to embarrest to say im rom from serbia so i always said im bosnian. Growing up like this was hard for a kid to grasp, to much to handle. The most fucked up part is that my Mother didnt speak to us in romani so atleast We could be with people that We know. So the you can imagine how difficult it was. My brother got beaten and I by guys bigger them him calling him racist things and because of their parents talking about my mom and my stepfather the "taboo" of being with an ortodox rom serbish woman with two kid from another man was a big deal. It was i nightmare.. And he handle it with anger. He starter beating every kid that made fun of us. Even if the age difrence between my brother that was maybe 13 was beating kids that was 17 because he is so strong. He started to train hard and became more and more aggressive. Soon he was hanging out with people who are much older then him and where orten in some criminal activity. Im not saying he is always aggressive he always had a big heart but sometimes too big to handle. So much grief so much pain, stress confussion, lost of idwntity and so on. The thing was that stepfather never played a role of being a father to us and from that my brother noticed and put big boundories between them telling him that even if you are with my mom i will never in my life accept you. For me it was driffrent. I always saw him as a lazy father but when i was like 7 - 9 years he told me to not call him father. Instead his name. It was a terrible feeling.. In class our the Subject of hate where gypsys, serbia people and for me the one that Hurt me the most wasnt that. It was when people would start talking about how their father. My father is best and what a kid would say so Nice things about their parents but i could never relate and The only picture of my father is a drunk abusive idiot who best the shit out of my mom and my brother everytime they wheir in their ways even when she was pregnant and was having me he kicked her in the stomach. He beat her so bad the neighbors would Come and trying to stop it but this was in serbia and people where very old school and The Police dindt really give a shit about gypsys because Hey! Serbian people hate us to. What im trying to say is that all this concicences made brother to a man with very strong emotions, very manipulative, stealing, , very aggressive when he dont have controls ovee others, like a paraiste he clinge to me for i am the only person who always trying to help him but at the same time trying to run away from everything because i am a alien compared to everyone i know. For him losing me is a constant reminder that he dont have anyone and even if he has a kid now and living with a girl that he really drain her energy of all the problems he always make. It can be like something u said put even if you dindt meant it like that he takes very Very Very personal and he is saving all those bad memoriws and talk about them all the time if not that he is taking pills and can act really depressive. I dont know how to say this but what can i do. I really really need help. I can cut him out of my life because i dont have any friends. All my friends are living in other places srätudying and im sittning here still confused of what i want to be and how to fucking live a normal life even if you are not talking to anyone besites my mom and my sstep brother and sister that are to be with. I only have him and he only has me. We are like defenitin of ying and yang but in this storie its diffrent its to much hell, criminal activity, paranoia, hate, confussion and not enough of postitivity, love respect and strong since of self. I Thank everyone who would read this, i am a big fan of Leo and he helped me out with many of the things i needed to deal with difficulties. And I was thinking that i really need someone to write to to reach to. Thank you all for your time. //DN

It has happened many times by now... Sometimes I have very good days when I meditate a lot and I am very aware and present. When I go to rest at night sometimes my mind switches off and for some seconds I become pure floating, boundless consciousness, amazing but terrifying. As I drift to sleep I begin having sleep paralysis, weird dreams where I bounce between infinite consciousness and terrible vivid nightmares. Two fears come to life: I am sleeping and someone is entering my house trying to rob/hurt me or some otherworldly being like a demon/alien is trying to posses me/hurt me. They are incredibly vivid and the fear is very intense, such that many times I wake up screaming. I don't have these fears normally, this only happens if I was meditating a lot during day, it feels like my subconscious opens up to reveal hidden fears. In order to sleep peacefully I have to "numb" myself before bed, thinking of all sorts of things, which is frustrating because if I do that I no longer have the beautiful no-mind, no-self, boundless conscious moments. I wonder if anyone experienced something similar or if you have any advice on how to deal with it. Thank you. (I have to mention I grew up in an abusive home, and lived constantly in fear and terror of my father. There was a lot of humiliation, psychological and verbal abuse. I was not sexually or physically abused, but I witnessed that towards my mother. I did several years of psychotherapy and inner self work (around 9 years now) to solve all the issues I had because of my upbringing. I am fine now, I think I got over traumas and eveything, but these fears that surface only in sleep after an intense aware day make me think there is something very deep hidden and I really don't know how to tackle it.)

Are you an alien girl ? your eyes tell me the contrary, wish to love.

I m an alien playing an human. Take a sit we all fake having a blowjob

I know there is nothing like a "silent mind". but I have full awareness of non duality. Means you go through the real others side of life. to me you're not as enlightened as me, but sure that's an egoic sentence ( hahaha ) Wish to brainscan me. I feel like an alien exploring the human condition thanks for answers

What is God? Part 2... FAQ -Are you saying that I Am part of God or that I Am God? You are God and part of God, it depends what you define “You” as in that sentence. If you think of yourself as a biological creature that was born, the ego mind, that you, is part of God, the deeper you, the one you will discover through practice, that thing is fully God. When you are fully awake, you realize that you are the whole of God. That’s radical statement that exoteric, orthodox, religious teachings do not tell you, but it is the case. When you first realize God, you might experience that you are a part of God but not yet realize that you are the whole of God, that requires doing more work. -If I Am God, why Am I not experiencing it or feeling it? God is a trickster in his very nature, because trickery or illusions is the substance of reality. Reality is possible when you imagine that it’s possible and you believe in it in a sense, you have to trick yourself to experience reality in the solid physical way the way you do. In fact you are experiencing God right now. When you are born as a human being, you mistake God for this physical reality that you are in right now because of the sense of self, the ego that helps you to survive. You are in God all the time but you are not realizing because it is not important for your survival. The substance out of which everything is made is completely irrelevant to you in your everyday life, which is why you ignore it. There is nothing but God, you are not just conscious enough to realize this. -Why is God hiding from us? Why is God so tricky? For you to be born, you need to be born as a lie, as a deception. God is a shapeshifter, it is formless, pure potentiality and can materialize in all forms, it’s an infinite chameleon. The nature the Godhead is pure formlessness, pure potentiality. God is a shapeshifter, it’s difficult to spot because you confuse the form for a physical object. There is actually no difference between illusion and reality, this is how God creates, this is the very mechanism of the creation of anything. Appearance is reality, illusions is all you can have. What we call our physical world is constant never-ending process of forms emerging out of formlessness, like every word Leo is saying. The nature of creation must be tricky. -Why is God invisible? Isn’t that convenient? When you go to rock bottom to what is true, you have to accept what you find. It is actually highly inconvenient that God is invisible, because it makes it challenging but still possible to find it. You believe you are an observer inside the body… What is that observer? Isn’t it some invisible being…? Which of course is God… -Is God falsifiable? Is the Truth falsifiable? God is prior to science and the notion of falsifiability. Theories are falsifiable but God is not a theory, it is pure Truth. God is verifiable, not falsifiable. You can verify what Leo is saying. Falsehood doesn’t exit, only delusions exists. -Can you give me proof of God’s existence? No, it’s a personal journey that you go on, you have to cut through the illusions of social conditioning. It’s called Truth seeking, the spiritual quest, the “Hero’s Journey”. Don’t expect anybody to deliver it to you. God has the power to fully deceive itself and also the power to awaken. -Don’t you exploit the gaps of science? Science works to demystify reality, it succeeds to some extend, but it will never fully succeed because reality is infinite. In fact the more it tries, the more deluded it becomes. Take an apple cut in in half, you get more surfaces, cut in half, you get more surfaces and so on. There are always surfaces, but no substance to anything within reality. The substance of reality is nothing, the gap, the emptiness between the surfaces that unifies all the surfaces into a Oneness. -What do you mean with God is nothing? A nothing that exists and you can become conscious of it. An atheist and materialist have fully bite in to the illusion of physical reality, but also they also don’t recognize that reality is subjective and relative. There is no objectivity. Reality is however you hold it. There are no human beings, human being is the Universe being sentient of itself, God consciousness that you’ve confused for human beings, your parents, your friends are just figments of your imagination. Leo explains he had the traumatic insight that his parents never existed. Reality is alive, sentient and a-mechanical. The sentience, the aliveness that you feel, that is not yours, that’s the universe being alive and you are just a piece of that. That’s a big reframing of how you see reality. Reality is one spontaneous occurrence, therefor you can’t explain it through any mechanical process, it’s instant and direct. Atheists are also missing the importance of love, not recognizing that Being is Love. The physical substance of existence is made of love. Atheists don’t recognize oneness, they think of the world as being fragmented. But you are not really interfacing with the universe through perceptions, you are the universe. Atheists don’t recognize space/time, matter/energy, cause & effect, birth & death as illusions. You might say yes you know that time is relative and so on, but you are not conscious of that… they are all concepts. Atheists don’t recognize higher states of consciousness, and believe that everything can be understood from their currant state of consciousness. If you’d change that state of consciousness just a little bit, all your doubts, fears and concern would change! Science is completely contingent on your courant state of consciousness. Atheists don’t recognize that consciousness is not a by-product of the brain. Atheist don’t recognize science as limited. To understand God you got to use other methods. Can you prove that science can resolve every question? Atheists don’t recognize the existence of paranormal phenomena, at higher states of consciousness you can access various paranormal phenomena. The atheist doesn’t recognize that he as God has created himself. The atheist doesn’t recognize that all dualities and all knowledge he uses to understand the world is manmade or conceptual. The atheist doesn’t recognize that he is God. The atheist doesn’t see that reality has no limits. Outside the physical universe is infinity where anything is possible. -Can God be an hallucination or an illusion? You can trick yourself that you are conscious of God, but when you are conscious of God, that is unmistakable, you become conscious of God through no intermediary, not through language, symbols, perceptions, not even through experience. It’s direct. -Can God be a brain state?If you can experience God by taking 5MEO-DMT, doesn’t it prove that God is just a chemical? No, everything is consciousness, the 5MEO-DMT that you take is consciousness, consciousness interacting with consciousness. When you take 5MEO-DMT, you forget you ever had a brain and the existence of the universe, you realize that it is not brain state, not a chemical, not a neurotransmitter, it is God. God is absolute Truth, there is nothing like it and you whole reality collapses when you realize that. -How can you trust that psychedelics reveals anything true at all? This can’t be explained to you unless you take psychedelics in a sufficient dose that you have a breakthrough experience. You will say “oh that’s impossible!”, you got to stop trusting your mind of what is and what’s not possible. You cannot know what is outside the matrix when you are inside the matrix. -How can you be sure that you’ve been outside the matrix? To exit the matrix is to realize that there is matrix inside of another matrix inside of another matrix to infinity. To realize God is to realize that there is nothing but matrix within matrix. What you’re living right now is just hallucination and psychedelics show you that there is no other possibilities than hallucinations, a meta-truth. -Could there be something beyond God? Could God be part of a computer simulation? You are treating God a s a phenomenon, like seeing some alien. You can replace the word God with “everything” or “totality”, those terms are expendables and goes beyond itself forever, it’s the process of “beyonding” forever by definition. If you imagine something more is possible, you haven’t understand the notion of totality. A computer simulation is a very finite thing. They occur within God but God doesn’t occur within a computer simulation. -How do you know that the infinity you are talking about wasn’t generated by something else? God can only interact with itself. God has to limit itself for not being conscious of everything all the time. How do you play a chess game alone? It’s like playing chess alone with the right hemisphere of the brain running the whites, and the left hemisphere running the blacks. God tricks himself with false separations and generate the possibility of surprise. -Can God create a rock that he himself cannot lift? The Godhead is infinite potential, it can limit itself in forms, forms have limitations. -Can God destroy himself? Destruction is a concept that make sense within the roam of forms, but you cannot destroy the vacuum of empty space. It can destroy himself as incarnated versions like you, or as a star, it’s the fate of all forms, formlessness itself is the only permanent thing. -How do you know that your experiences of God are not confirmation bias of some stuff that you’ve read? When you have these absolute Samadhi experiences, all your conceptual knowledge flies out the window, you are in truth of it and this is self-validating. You can read about all human beings being unreal, when you have the experience of it, you won’t want to accept it, it is the opposite of confirmation bias. Leo never wanted God to be true, he studied ancient texts -How can you be so that you are right? Shouldn’t we be more humble with our truth claims? False humility is no virtue… Leo is just being honest. Absolute Truth is the nature of absolute Truth, wether you are conscious of it or you are not. If you are not conscious of it, you can’t understand how absolute truth can be possible. It’s a certainty, it’s not like scientific knowledge, you need to experience it to find out. To make the claim that we don’t know what God is a big agnostic mistake, because you are actually saying: we can’t know. -Is it possible to have a false experience of God? If so, how can you be certain that you haven’t misunderstood God? Yes it is possible, to have a false experience, but when you have awaken, you know what awakening is, but even so, you can trick and delude yourself, self deception is still occurring after your firsts enlightenment experience, this is why Leo is always crosschecking with other mystics and texts, continuously studying himself, and even so, he never claimed to be infallible, he is still open for recontextualisation of any kind. But the actual experience of God is not a self-deception. Certain lower degrees experience can be self-deceptive. -If God is all loving, how come there is so much evil in the world? Why is there so much suffering? There is no such thing as evil, it is a projection of your ego mind. From your point of view, you are a limited biological creature and you need to survive. What you call evil is what is threatening to your survival as a limited formed being within this larger universe, you are vulnerable to having your form radically changed… death. You believe suffering exists, because it is a mechanism within you that helps you to avoid dangerous situations. Without suffering, you wouldn’t be alive. When God incarnated itself, it makes itself limited, it obligated itself to play the game of survival which necessitates pain and suffering. From God’s perspective the world is perfect. It’s like looking at a horror movie from the audience point of view or from the point of view of a character of the movie itself. The goal is to not feel too much sucked in the movie. You can’t believe that this actually applies to your life, and it is the most important thing that there is, death is the worst thing there is, suffering feels so bad, you confuse all the suffering and the pain for reality because you are egotistical and selfish, you had to be to experience the universe at all. You are God caught in a bind. As human beings we are addicted to excitement, violence, horror, sex, food, suffering and pain. Secretly you don’t want to give up your suffering to be happy, if you did, you’d be awake a long time ago. -If God is all loving and good, how come he doesn’t care if we are murders, rapists and so forth? It’s because it is so all loving that it doesn’t judge. You as an ego, because you care about survival and have something to lose from it, you judge murder, rape, criminality and war as bad and wrong. You created an identity of being moral, good and upright, viewing yourself as a defender against all the bad guys. But you are full of hatred, you hate murder, rape and war… God loves it all, which is why they exist. This love is too radical for you, you are not ready to embody this love because you have way too much to lose, you have life, your children, your money, your business,…, to defend. You are not ready to be all loving. For you to be all loving, you’d have to be dead, you’d have to be the Godhead, not this incarnation as a human being… or you’d have to be conscious. -If God is all loving, why is it not evenly hateful? Evil doesn’t really exit, it exits only from the ego mind’s point of view. In a sense, God is evil and hateful, but it is doing it through humanity. God loves evil and hate so much that it doesn’t mind living through it as a human being. God wants to know what it’s like to be murdered, getting raped, being a slave or in concentration camp and so on. Hate and evil is visible only from a limited point of view. Do you think God created everything except murder and rape? He created everything included all the stuff you consider evil. It’s only evil from your point of view. -Is there a devil? If so, did God create evil? The devil refers to the mechanism of survival, the ego, separation, illusion and falsehood, not a red man with horns. You are the devil, the thing that is going to die is the devil. God created that, not only created it, but God is the devil. We are talking about oneness, totality. You cannot separate ego or the devil from God. Stage blue people in spiral dynamics looses it right here saying that the devil and God are polar opposite… If the devil exist, then it is part of creation, who created everything? God. The devil is God in disguise. God will incarnated himself into devilish forms, create selfishness and through that, God experience what it’s like to be a devil. -Why is mainstream religion so confusing, diluted and inaccurate? Why don’t they explain it in a straight forward manner? Religion is very tricky and you have appreciate where it comes from. It’s problematic to evaluate old religions from a modern perspective. There was no notion of science back then. They didn’t share modern values. How do spread the idea of God with very tribal people that are not scientifically minded, who don’t know how to read, ethnocentric and racist and so on, you will use a lot metaphors and analogies. This stuff was passed down often times as stories, not even written down. The people who wrote it down and passed it down hundreds of years after Jesus’s death , were not even enlightened. Jesus, Buddha, Mohamed were maybe enlightened but they didn’t have video recorder or even write any books themselves. Back then, what is good and bad what advanced stuff, you didn’t even had countries. The ego corrupts all these teachings. Countries and states, rulers and kings used religions to enroll the masses, justify their own rule, make war and so on… The problem with God is that it is such a personal subjective realization that you can’t spread it through mass means. Some fanatics will only believe the teachings, not doing the teachings by himself, wait until you are dead and then create a cult, an ideology. -Why do all the religions disagree so much? How do you know you study the text properly? They all agree with each other, if you look and study the text properly. You need direct experience, mystical experiences. When you have those, it becomes easy to sort the wheat from the chaff and to see the commonalities. The attitude to try to integrate religions is only a 50 to 100 years old notion. When you don’t see religions holistically, than a lot of surface disagreements will seem as though they run all the way down to the bone, but they don’t. -Isn’t religion responsible for most of the war and evil throughout history? Yes, but technology, capitalism too. People are very tribal, selfish wether they know religion or not -Why use the word God and not “reality” for example? Everyone believe they know what reality is. Whatever word you use, there will be a lot of confusion around it, people will find ways to delude themselves about it. The ignorant mind can’t help to be ignorant. -Why do different religions have different visions of God? Reality is one giant mind that uses different kinds of symbols. Even scientific understanding that you might think is literal, is actually symbolic and metaphoric. Your mind needs to make sense of the formless in a formed way. So the christian will have his vision with a vision of Christ and vice versa with a moslem, a Hindu, and also as an equation for a scientist. Your understanding of God is going to be filtered through your culture. -Aren’t you stealing ideas from eastern religions? No, but the eastern teachings are less corrupt than the western teachings. No culture has a monopoly on God or the Truth. -Buddhism and hinduism are different. Buddhism doesn’t have a God! Buddhism has a God: The Ox, Buddha mind, Mu, nirvana, no-self, the Dharmakaya. The mistake many buddhist and Hindus makes is that they think there is a difference between the “buddhist no-self” and the “Hindu Self”, but they are degrees of awakening. For having consciousness of God you need to go beyond, not just being a self but to realize what is the ultimate self ,what is the nature of reality itself. You need to realize God as the formless but also as the form and unify the two together and that there are no distinctions. Buddhist have a God, but they don’t speak about it in the traditional sense. Buddhist don’t believe in a God per say, but they got practices that get them to the consciousness of your true nature, which is God or Mu, nirvana… -How can God be an experience? A more proper word than experience would be Being or direct consciousness. When you come into contact with the Godhead, nothingness you have to integrate it with the experience that you are having here, see that the pure Void is identical to the sensory feedback you have “down here”. You can recontextualize the experience you are having here to the point that it’s not an experience anymore, that will be absolute Truth. -Why do you cross-reference your sources if God is a direct experience? Because you can trick yourself and become a Zen-devil, which is pursuing Zen practices without reading the scriptures. -Why don’t you kill yourself and become God? There is a reason why God incarnated this life, you are here to experience this life. If you kill yourself, you are going to end up right back here, there is nowhere to go, God is constantly reincarnating himself, you will just have another form. While you are in this incarnation, do the most out of it, do the work to become enlightened. You don’t want to wait until your last breath to realize God and do spiritual practices unless you want to realize on that day what you have missed and be miserable with yourself and others. The point is to live a conscious life. -How can ego exist in the presence of God? God is all powerful and is able to present a situation where it forget itself, it has to awaken to itself. The God’s head incarnated itself into forms it can see the full ramification of what it is. God is becoming conscious of himself, not only as humans but also as animals and bacterias. -What is the point of talking about God? To realize that it’s a possibility, it transforms your life, opens the possibility to live with a true genuine joy, health and well being. To point you to technics to achieve that and point out the trickeries and traps. To inspire you to live it, not only to listen to the possibility. -Will science ever be able to understand God? The way science is defined today, no. It will have to open itself more to mysticism and non-symbolic methods of investigation like first person experience, scientists will have to take psychedelics. The bridge between mysticism and science as we do it today is already starting to happen today by a few pioneers. The line between science and mysticism is a line that the human mind is drawing, it’s not a hard line that exists in the world. -Can’t we give more time to science to answer all questions and realize that we don’t need mysticism at the end? No, it has to include mysticism. Modern science has serious limits, it only works through language, concepts and through the mind and there are aspects of reality which are true and are beyond the mind, that needs to be access through methods that are not equations or rulers and particles colliders and photographs. -Is it possible that science and spirituality work together in the future? Yes, to help to integrate the two together is Leo’s greatest contribution to mankind, laying the epistemic foundation to the reform of science. -If God is alone does it feel lonely or is God sufficient in itself? The Godhead doesn’t have any quality but when incarnated as form, God feels lonely! When you will be awake, you won’t feel lonely even if you are alone. -Why are some people very curious about God and others are not? People are born with different brain types and genetics and also went to different schools. Some people are more interested than others in metaphysical questions. Some people are born more spiritually gifted. Many spiritual advanced people might have been killed throughout the ages in favor of the kings, dictators and tyrants who wanted to rule the world. -By what mechanism does God create things? There is no mechanism, what you see is exactly the mechanism. The entire universe is spontaneously, a-mechanicaly existing, it’s just being. The mechanism only appears to you when are looking through it using the human mind, making sense of little pieces of it, breaking it apart and making it seems like there is a mechanism of cause and effect. The problem is, you are not conscious of it, it is literally one solid miracle. Scientists are pushing the experience down to the point where they can’t explain it anymore (with quarks or even equations being at the source of our experience) and say maybe we will know in a 1000 years what is beyond those. But it is so direct you can’t point to it, you can’t know or explain it, but you can become conscious of it, the pure manifestation of nothingness -Where did God come from? God always existed and will exist forever. The formless Godhead is eternal, but forms needs to be created, so you created your own body and mind. It’s a paradox, it’s both eternal and you created yourself. -Why did God create itself? Because it want to experience itself, it’s a never ending process of self creation and being. -Can God be an alien or artificial intelligence? No, God includes both. -Could God have evolved? No, but at the same time it is constantly evolving. -How do you reconcile God with darwinian evolution? Design and evolution are actually the same thing. When a human being designed buildings this is evolution too. All this happens in a larger context in the mind of God, all that is happening with intelligence and sentience, it didn’t happen through randomness and chaos. -If I created myself as God, why did I create this shitty life? You do have the option to change your life at anytime, feel free to exercise the option of spiritual development to grow yourself and awaken. Imaging what it was like in the roman days where 40% the roman population were slaves. God is in love with any situation you can imagine to be, it doesn’t judge, it lives through any possible scenario that a human can live through, you as God will live through all that, so depression, death, cheating, lying… That’s why the Buddha said that life is suffering, the only solution to that is to awaken. Awakening allows you to deal gracefully with any kind of shitty life. It’s so easy to loose your happiness in life because it is so conditional. -Is it possible to become conscious at all times, not only as peak experiences with 5MEO-DMT or only in some meditative state ? Yes, it is called Sahaja Samadhi, the ultimate state of Samadhi. -How come people realize God and than fall back into duality? The absolute Truth is such a huge thing that you are rarely going to get with one go, you will have to deconstruct your old way of building reality. he illusion is so powerful, it is almost hypnotic in how it sucks you back in, it requires a lot of work to overcome the temptation of going back to your previous state. -Why does it have to be so hard to realize God? Because of the survival drive, it is significant and responsible for everything in your life, it dominates your entire life. God is the undoing of the survival drive. God is the opposite of life, it is death from the ego’s point of view. Ego is also in your genes, forms of life without it must have been erased a long time ago. Changing the mind is a slow process, and it depends on how serious and committed you are. -Can you realize God while having a family? Yes, but don’t try to do it all at once. -How come God can be realize through visualization, shouldn’t it be an obstacle? One of the key to realizing God is concentration. Because the universe is a giant mind, what you imagine tends to become your reality, you can sort of materialize a vision of your deity and merge your sense of self into it and that can be how you realize God. Be careful with your deity like Christ, Buddha, Shiva, Krishna or anything else, as the biggest awakening is not going to have any form to it. -Am I too young as a teen to pursue God? No, if you like metaphysical questions, go for it. But you have take care of solving your survival too. -Can God be experienced at any stage of the spiral in spiral dynamics? Yes, how you experience it will be affected on where you are on the spiral. If you are at stage blue, you will have a very limited, ethnocentric, moralistic version of God. At stage orange you will have a very scientific version of God. The higher you are on the spiral level of development, the easier it will be for you to have mystical experiences and to interpret them properly. So it’s important you evolve to stage yellow or even turquoise. -Why does God needs to self-realize? It doesn’t. God’s whole point is just to be and exist. -Is God personal or impersonal? Both, we can think of the universe as filled with impersonal objects and atoms, but at the same time, as you as a human are part of it, you are the universe, so the universe has human qualities. You are the human quality of the universe. You have to integrate the personal and the impersonal together. It’s a very personal experience when you become really conscious of who you are as God and at the same, there is a sense of no-self. -Does God take an active role in manipulating our lives? The Godhead itself, no. But as everything is moving in and outside your body it is also manipulating our lives all the time. -Does God have an agenda, where is creation going? No, there is no point besides just being, but at the same, that evolutionary process from our human perspective that is unfolding, it seems like it evolves to greater complexity, greater self-awareness. God is getting more and more complex and might one day reach infinity. -Which is more true pantheism or panantheism? Pantheism says that everything, all of reality is God. Panantheism says all of reality is inside of God. Both are true, you might experience them separately but also simultaneously and overlapping each other. -How did mankind first learned about God? Back then, there wasn’t so much distraction so they could have been seating around a lot, meditating, but also through the use of psychedelics like mushrooms around the entire world. Herbalism and shamanism dates back from tens of thousands of years at least. And some people are naturally born spiritually gifted. -Why did God decide to take on my particular human form? God is taking all possible form simultaneously, one of which is particular human form. -Why did God create humans and animals? God is going to take on anything that it can. In comparison with a rock, humans and animals can experience what it’s like to be some sentient entity. Humans are a step above animals in their ability to interface with the universe. -How can the realization of God be used as a human perspective? The ego loves to ask this question, you can become famous and get a lot of sex, but you can also elevate the consciousness of mankind. You can teach, master your emotions, improve how you do science, become hyper-creative, become a better athlete, a better parent, improve your relationship and sex life. Consciousness improves everything do, even business, it can transform your business or your relationship. Awakening might end one relationship and form new ones that will be much healthier and conscious. -Does realizing God gives you special powers and abilities? Yes it can. Magical healing, clairvoyance, telepathic abilities, abilities to see auras and so on, but there is no guaranty. -Are miracles possibles? Everything is a miracle, this very moment right now is a miracle. But, yes paranormal stuff can happen, synchronicity can happen, we can’t know how much from the past is true, if Jesus walked on water for example, but healing can definitely happen. -Is everything in the Bible false? No, but there are racist, ethnocentric, closed minded and factually incorrect stuff. There is also good stuff like when Moses talks with God and he ask God: “Ok, I will go back to my people and tell them that I saw God but what shall I call you?” God answers: you can tell them that “I Am”, my name is “I Am”. Or when Jesus says that the kingdom of heaven is found within, that’s a good pointer, nirvana is found within. But there is a lot of misleading stuff in the Bible, so Leo doesn’t recommend it as a high quality spiritual text. There are much better modern books to teach you the practices and make you realize what the Bible is pointing to. -What is our duty towards God, shall we worship and pray to God? In the greater sense you have no duty, you just have to be. In another sense, your duty is to awaken, raising awareness of the entire cosmos, to participate in this evolutionary game that God is playing. The problem when you pray to or worship God, people are doing it under the presumption of a duality between God and themselves. So the thing you are praying to is exactly yourself. Worshiping and praying is a sort of masturbation. There is nothing to worship but yourself. -What does God want from us? Nothing, be whatever you want to be. But try to be as conscious as you can, try to appreciate your own magnificence as God, otherwise you are going to miss the beauty of life. It’s like going to theater to watch a great movie and not looking at the screen. You can just turn around and look at a beautiful movie. But if you want to sit backward, it’s fine too. -Will following my religion lead me to God, shall I abandoned my religion? Leo is allergic to ideologies, dogmas and fundamentalism, he recommends that you abandon your religion because it’s going to get in the way. It’s brainwashing, you can never lose the only truth that there is, which is God. You don’t need a religion. You don’t need a belief systems. -My religion, already says all you are talking about, aren’t you just rehashing the same stuff? Leo talks from a higher level, the books from the main religions are very ethnocentric, there are not truly holistic, religions try to be exclusive, it is also dogmatic, it is not empirically based and not integrated with modern science. You need to go beyond. We have modern psychological insights, quantum mechanics, chaos theory, anthropology, sociology, economics, linguistics, post-modernism, modern philosophy… there is so much stuff beyond what you learn in the Bible, the Koran, classical Buddhism or Vedanta. You have to adapt your spiritual practice to fit the modern world to deal with new technological complexities and realities. Holy books don’t talk about spiral dynamics, shadow work or psycho-pathologies that weren’t known back then. -What are the most important requirements for realizing God? 1)Lazer focus concentration abilities for hours on end 2)Radical open-mindedness 3)Genuinely metaphysically curiousity. -How can I know that I can trust you? You shouldn’t, you have to validate and verify everything that Leo says, discover what is true for yourself. But don’t mistrust Leo in a cynical sort way too, you have to have open-mindedness to consider this all as a possibility. You can’t be as much untrustful that you can’t run the experiment for a few years. These questions and answers can go on forever, these are just stories, you are not going to figure out God through question and answer because it’s a great way to avoid to do the actual work. Actually, at some point these answers becomes an obstacle. You have to discover those answers by yourself, it’s like discovering the answers at the back of the book of your maths problem, rather than solving them yourself. The only way to understand God is to awaken to God, to become God, to look and feel yourself as God, from that will come all the answers. Remember that you can’t awaken before you awaken. Try to be comfortable not knowing for awhile while doing the practices, trust that one day you will figure it out. One awakening is not enough to understand everything Leo says here, it took him over a dozen awakening experiences to come that far. actualized.org will help you find God with the latest potent and cutting edge stuff.

Doesn't she think she's an alien or something? If so, that should be a red flag right there.

Oh boy, this one is a hard one for me. But the more I do personal development work, the more I do wonder if some of the most basic concepts we hold are healthy. Perhaps empathy as a whole isn't bad- and as we progress further into enlightenment it takes a different form? In spiral dynamics, I have noticed empathy means radically different things at each stage. And have been pondering if this is true to in general- at different stages of our lives, empathy does evolve and take different shapes. Or is empathy conceptually flawed? While we are at it, does anyone think the societal view and concept of friendship/family is flawed? Empathy is largely a by-product of being social creatures, and we are among the few who can (as far as science knows anyway) feel it; so in large part, it is a niche, very human phenomena. Could a-let's say alien- physically incapable of empathy, reach enlightenment? Is empathy crucial for Enlightenment? Or must it be let go? I'd love to hear all of your perspectives! (In retrospect I realize this should have gone in the spirituality section- I hope you will still humble me with your wisdom even though I made this mistake!)

@28 cm unbuffed oh it wasnt anything strange that caused me to make a account just wanted explain why that was my first post in case trolling is assumed with new accounts. As for any suggestions Im not at all saying you should try and replicate my experience, just threw it out in case any of it can help inform your own individual path. It seems you have a good connection to your intuition so just keep your awareness open and feel your way through it letting any additional knowledge inform but not dictate. As for the weed question things like that are not objectively stable in how they effect people and what I mean is the experience it offers changes based upon the person it interacts with and that can change across time for a individual. There were times in my life where it was a helpful survival strategy for a messed up life I was too ignorant to fix, other times where I had outgrown it and utilizing my old relationship with weed as a crutch and nothing but a obstacle and complete abstinence was the right choice, and the relationship I have with it now which where it acts like a more convenient psychedelic but requires I remain very aware and intentional or risk backsliding and wasting time towards my goals which im still feeling out wither that risk is worthwhile. So just follow your intution on that one, but your current plan seems perfectly fine lsd will almost certainly be more effective for consciousness exploration anyway with less risk of becoming a obstacle although still possible ( In my own case I would have preferred lsd anyway its just difficult for me to get my hands on). As for your thoughts towards venting the sexual frustration id definitely not suggest repressing that stuff and a technique I find very helpful is to get very curious about my own feelings and desires like a scientist studying something very alien, so if that urge keeps raging to the surface make a compromise with that part of your self and the part that seeks truth and knowledge. let yourself indulge the desire with the the requirement that it be done in a honest manner and that you focus on being exetremely mindful and curious while you do so, like really emphasis the curiously like you truly have no idea where the desire stems from or what it means. Doing it truthfully just to bang means finding someone who is in the same position so no manipulation is required so a one night stand bar situation may actually be just fine since you dont want to trick someone into thinking its about the relationship when you just want to bang. Maybe the other "soulmate vibe" girl could sense that neurotic impulse slightly interfering with authenticity towards your connection to her ( not saying with her it was just about sex but small signals from that part could have been completely unconscious to you) and now thats why your intuition is pulling you to investigate that drive, I have no idea if thats the case of course just throwing it out there.

Folks, when one has tapped into the 6th sense beyond the logical, beyond the left brain, it is so alien to the normal mind that your entire life will not be the same. Apart from that there will be no more praising stupid concepts and accepting everyone's BS and opinion. It is so different from what people know it is, that you keep it for yourself and laugh at noobs.

Yes, agreed it can be a bit of fun, it's a point of view etc. Totally agree that Joe Rogan is a brilliant interviewer. I would just like to keep this forum out of the rabbit-hole of far fetched alien conspiracy land - without getting into any debates about the legitimacy of this stuff. Unless you're in the secret government department of Alien Comms, let's just say it's not really relevant to the average self-actualizer. There's plenty of this kind of material elsewhere on the internet for those who want to indulge.

The human drama. No matter how much perspective I have on it, I cannot understand it. In the same way that I do not understand the words I type here. It is a mainfest of desires and circumstances, both alien to the human being. To be happy, we need a story. Because happiness must be something that has to be achieved, to be created out of nothing. To create it, we have the story. A counterpart to happiness is necessary in the form of despair. Could you be happy without accepting the ideas of the world, without creating a story for yourself? Can you move the world without moving yourself? The evolution of humans required the evolution of social complexity and social constructs. That created an ability to self-value, and the ability to create a story of life. A description that goes beyond the mundane existence of beasts. Or has it really gone beyond that? I really doubt that ants know their own form. The nature of suffering is linked to the nature of desire, and the manipulation of the world to fulfill it.

@Salvijus your arguments sonds like D O G M A to infinity (alien started to teach it thefore you need a guru) WTF??? (based on possess, scarcity, power, urge to belonging, and exclusiveness ) typical things to manipulate people I don't mind learning from others but none is from a different claw therefore what one man can do another can do

Who exactly is looking ahead an infinite number of moves? No one? You are I am God, but I understand nothing about my grand plan. Perhaps, a super-intelligent alien in the future might understand God's plan.

Proven in my own (and hundred of people on this forum) experience, so unless you're an alien or have specific brain disorder, You can too.

yes paul is just an alien

@Leo Gura Thank you Leo, May I ask what are your thoughts on one that doesn't feel the need to have a romantic relationship or be in one ? I feel like that desire of mine has died (even though for most of my life, I felt like it was a desire I had and felt "normal" socially for wanting a bf/wanting romantic love). It's been a year or so since that desire has practically died/vanished and I feel very alien to others because of that. And now in a way, I can look at everything from the outside and see all this hunger and rat race that people are going through whom are desperate for love and being loved by others... I want to add that I'm a very, very friendly person and it's not so much that I never was a social person but more so that I don't want to have social interactions anymore really...much less dating or pursing a future partner. It's very odd. I feel less like a woman for it and less human because of this. It's quite heartbreaking because even if I push myself to date or go out...my heart is not really there and it all would feel like an act just to please the outside world. It would not be genuine or even wanted. I've been in Therapy for Depression for the last 1.5 years and although it helps in some aspects...I feel like my Therapist is saying that "this too shall pass" but it doesn't feel like a phase, more like "I don't see the point anymore in love/relationships" and so I am more secluded than ever (which is also an experience, solitude can be a gift too sometimes).

No, I don't think so. The "physical laws" are held in place because they are necessary to have these kinds of human experiences we are having. Maybe if God wanted to be a 10-dimensional hyper-slug it wouldn't hold our physical laws. And that probably happens. But so long as you are human, to be human is to play within our physical ruleset at least to some degree. Otherwise you stop being human and become some kind of hyper-slug alien thing. But in a certain sense it does because evolution slowly weeds out devilry. That's its whole point! There is a Grand Design at work. I don't see God giving devils unlimited power. There are constraints on devilry. An unconstrained devil would turn all of creation into an ugly shitshow, spoiling the Beauty and Perfection of the Grand Design. You can't exactly allow Osama Bin Laden to materialize a nuclear weapon with his mind. At least that's my best guess so far. God's creation has exquisite balance. Perfect Divine Balance!

I don't agree that I have to feel remorse for the suffering of others, or the suffering I inflict on others. Hear me out. I do feel remorse and I will never hurt another being knowingly. But there is no rational argument for it, even if you are a buddhist. Lets say you are going to be reborn as the person who suffererd under you. So what? I will curse myself and die? That's all it amounts to. With time the pain will pass, with death the memory will vanish. The only reason I feel remose is because of my ability to put myself in that situation and have my brain tell me "oh that's not what I want to feel". But that "want" is wrong, desire is wrong, clinging is wrong. You cannot desire to not suffer. Also, the one doing the suffering is not outside the system. If you believe that you are somehow an alien that can make others suffer, you are wrong. Everything you do is intentional. Even if the world kills you right now, its an intentional act that you do on yourself. So why feel guilt for doing something to yourself? Also, another point that Alan Watts raises is that too often we believe that "doing what we want to do" is something new. That no one else in the history of the universe thought to himself "I can do whatever I want with no consequences". I am sure there are kings that actually could and did do whatever they wanted. And where are they now? Who are they now? What happened to all their actions, their lives, their memories? All returned to dust. Only I exist now. And in another reality only you will exist.

So an alien who is on ayahuascha trip 24/7 and a guy who claims to levitate (but cant do it when asked) and claims the ability to change the weather are worth following? Good luck.