Amandine

Member
  • Content count

    216
  • Joined

  • Last visited

About Amandine

  • Rank
    - - -

Personal Information

  • Gender
    Female

Recent Profile Visitors

2,000 profile views
  1. @Alyosha If I were you, I would avoid those friends and say I wasn't in town when they come, that goes for your brother's friends too. I would make better friends in time that were more "actualized", there's plenty more fish in the sea. If you can't or won't avoid these people, you'll just be perpetuating the same problem, they're unlikely to want to change. I wouldn't worry about your sexual orientation, we're all more or less on the hetero/bisexual spectrum anyway, who cares? The main thing is whether you were properly protected. In the meantime there's absolutely no need to feel any fear or shame.
  2. @Average Investor @Ingit @Strange Loop Thank you all, it means a lot to me that you took the time to read all that, sorry it was so long! I have gone to therapy and talked and cried a lot which was cathartic. One is always left with "survivor's guilt" though, like the proverbial captain abandoning ship. I'm the sort of person who hates giving up on anything, I like to work on something till I've found a solution. But in that situation, it was like banging my head against a brick wall. So in the end I had to let go and let God. However awesome and beautiful I make my own life from here on, I feel though that there will always be a bitter sweetness about it that I just have to learn to live with.
  3. Day 19: Today's weight: 59.9 kgs (131.7 lbs) πŸ‘ πŸ‘ πŸ‘ Weight loss so far after 14 days: 2.3 kg (5.1 lbs) πŸ‘ πŸ‘ πŸ‘ on target (even over Weight loss to go: 4.9 kgs (10.7 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2 kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55 kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2 kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April Today I'm gonna integrate another 16:8 Intermittant fast (7.15am to 3.15pm). * 7.15am Pre work-out coffee 87c Capuccino 87 * Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals * 9am Breakfast (muesli) 321c 10g organic unsalted cashew nuts (623) 62 + 10g Bjorg organic sugarfree muesli (367) 36 + 10g organic sugar-reduced granola (437) 43 + 10g organic oatbran (359) 35 + 5g organic chia seeds (449) 22 + 100g organic fresh forest fruits (55) 55 + 130g organic soy milk (53) 68 * 12pm Lunch (quiche salad) 860c 20 g lettuce (17) 3 + 70g tomato (18) 12 + 15g bell pepper (20) 3 + 35g avocado (160) 56 + 200g cheese and onion quiche (260) 520 + 5g mustard (245) 12 + 5g mayo (661) 33 + 2g fried onions (590) 11 + 388g organic orange juice (54) 210 Recipe cheese and onion quiche = 80g organic wholemeal flour (342) 273 + 50g organic barley flour (358) 179 + 1 (8g) sachets baking powder (76) 6 + 65g butter (900) 585 + 4 (205g) organic eggs (146) 299 + 180g organic cream (172) 309 + 60g cheddar (403) 241 + 5g organic olive oil (900) 45 + 150g onions (40) 60 = 1,997 whole quiche/775g = 2.57c/g (257c for 100g) Total cals so far today: 87c+321+860=1,268c 332c left for the rest of the day * 3pm Snack (tea and cake) 335c 1/8 (268c) + 1/32 (67c) portion organic gluten-free sugar-free coconut iced chickpea cake 335 Recipe organic gluten-free sugar-free coconut iced chickpea cake = 400g jar cooked chickpeas purΓ©ed (119) 476 + 6 (360g) organic eggs (146) 525 + 85g ground almonds (658) 559 + 2 (16g) sachets baking powder (76) 12 + 50g organic coconut oil (900) 450 + 30g organic oatbran (359) 107 + 10g organic vitafiber (202) 20 = 2,149 whole cake/8 parts = 268 cals That last meal will be followed by 16 hours of fasting. Total cals so far today: 87c+321+860+335=1,603c πŸ‘ Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals πŸ‘ Accomplished today: πŸ‘ * at least 8 hours sleep * 20' do-nothing meditation * daily self-love affirmations * no aperitifs, no alcohol * 16:8 Intermittant fast * mindful eating * respected calorie goal * cooking/preparing next days' meals * continuing sorting and decluttering
  4. 1. Avoid them as much as possible. 2. Failing that, confronting them and standing up to them if there's only one of them. 3. If there's more than one, I'd probably go to an authority figure and expose them. I hate bullies, they're some of the biggest frigging cowards. Luckily I've never been bullied in my life. I guess it's "easy" to give advice when you're not in the actual situation though.
  5. Day 18: Today's weight: 59.9 kgs (131.7 lbs) πŸ‘ πŸ‘ πŸ‘ Weight loss so far after 14 days: 2.3 kg (5.1 lbs) πŸ‘ πŸ‘ πŸ‘ on target (even over Weight loss to go: 4.9 kgs (10.7 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2 kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55 kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2 kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April Today I'm gonna integrate another 16:8 Intermittant fast (7.30am to 3.30pm). Also wanna continue cracking on spring cleaning my house (and de-cluttering) as much as possible. Did the bedroom and terrasse saturday, the lounge sunday, so today will be starting on the kitchen. * 7.30am Pre work-out coffee 87c Capuccino 87 * Indoor bike (39 mins) burned 300 cals * 9.15am Breakfast (muesli) 321c 10g organic unsalted cashew nuts (623) 62 + 10g Bjorg organic sugarfree muesli (367) 36 + 10g organic sugar-reduced granola (437) 43 + 10g organic oatbran (359) 35 + 5g organic chia seeds (449) 22 + 100g organic fresh forest fruits (55) 55 + 130g organic soy milk (53) 68 * 12pm Lunch (croque monsieur salad) 710c 100 g lettuce (17) 17 + 50g tomato (18) 9 + 25g bell pepper (20) 5 + 25g cucumber (14) 3 + 25g onion (40) 10 + 1g olive oil (900) 9 + 10g avocado (160) 16 + 75g organic gluten-free bread (260) 195 + 15g organic cheese (374) 56 + 10g organic chorizo (498) 49 + 10g nori algae sheets (300) 30 + 10g mustard (245) 24 + 10g mayo (661) 66 + 2g fried onions (590) 11 + 388g organic orange juice (54) 210 Total cals so far today: 87c+321+710=1,118c 482c left for the rest of the day * 3.15pm Tea-time (coffee and biscuits) 440c Latte macchiato 80 + organic gluten-free reduced-sugar lemon biscuits 360 That last meal will be followed by 16 hours of fasting. Total cals so far today: 87c+321+645+440c=1,559c πŸ‘ Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals πŸ‘ Accomplished today: πŸ‘ * at least 8 hours sleep * 20' do-nothing meditation * daily self-love affirmations * no aperitifs, no alcohol * 16:8 Intermittant fast * mindful eating * respected calorie goal * chapter 3 of "As a Man Thinketh" : Effect of thought on health and the body * part 3 "Love is letting go of Fear" Lesson 1: All that I give I give to myself * working through chapter 4 of "Codependent No More - How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself" by Melody Beattie : Codependent characteristics * a lot of spring-cleaning and de-cluttering; today start on the kitchen Cleanliness is next to Godliness
  6. I feel the powerlessness is a big part of the trauma. Your sister's younger than you, isn't she? What age was she when she was going to call the cops? The NLP sounds really interesting. πŸ‘ I'm wondering whether to do it now, reading your journal. Do you just do it alone, from a book?
  7. You're doing really great! πŸ‘ What's denationalization disorder though? It sounds very exotic, did you make it up? I couldn't even find it on google, haha. You'd be a great coach, you even invent new terminology, awesome buddy.
  8. Day 17: Today's weight: ? kgs (didn't weigh-in today) Weight loss so far after 14 days: 1.5kg (3.3 lbs) πŸ‘ on target Weight loss to go: 5.7kgs (12.5 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2 kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April Today I'm gonna integrate another 16:8 Intermittant fast (6.30am to 2.30pm). Also wanna continue cracking on spring cleaning my house (and de-cluttering) as much as possible. * 6.30am Pre work-out coffee 87c Capuccino 87 * Indoor bike (39 mins) burned 300 cals * 9.30am Breakfast (muesli) 321c 10g organic unsalted cashew nuts (623) 62 + 10g Bjorg organic sugarfree muesli (367) 36 + 10g organic sugar-reduced granola (437) 43 + 10g organic oatbran (359) 35 + 5g organic chia seeds (449) 22 + 100g organic fresh forest fruits (55) 55 + 130g organic soy milk (53) 68 * 12.30pm Lunch (croque monsieur salad) 649c 100 g lettuce (17) 17 + 50g tomato (18) 9 + 25g bell pepper (20) 5 + 25g cucumber (14) 3 + 25g onion (40) 10 + 1g olive oil (900) 9 + 10g avocado (160) 16 + 75g organic gluten-free bread (260) 195 + 15g organic cheese (374) 56 + 10g mustard (245) 24 + 10g mayo (661) 66 + 5g fried onions (590) 29 + 388g organic orange juice (54) 210 Total cals so far today: 87c+321+649=1,057c 543c left for the rest of the day * 1.30pm tea-time Snack 537c Latte macchiato 80 + [1/8 coconut iced chickpea cake 294 + 1/32 coconut iced chickpea cake 73 = 367c] + lemon sugar/gluten-free biscuits 90 That last meal will be followed by 16 hours of fasting. Total cals so far today: 87c+321+649+537c=1,594c πŸ‘ Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals πŸ‘ Accomplished today: πŸ‘ * 8 hours sleep * 20' do-nothing meditation * daily self-love affirmations * no aperitifs, no alcohol * 16:8 Intermittant fast * mindful eating * respected calorie goal * chapter 2 of "As a Man Thinketh" * part 3 "Love is letting go of Fear" * working through chapter 4 of "Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself" by Melody Beattie * a lot of spring-cleaning and de-cluttering
  9. @Patrick Lynam stick "myers briggs" in the search motor of this site and you'll find at least 4 pages of discussions on it. I have done the free test on the Personality Hacker website twice now (varying my answers slightly sometimes due to not being sure of the answer !) and both times I get the same result : ISFJ
  10. Bloody beautiful, bless ya boyo
  11. Day 16: Today's weight: ? kgs (didn't weigh-in today) Weight loss so far after 14 days: 1.5kg (3.3 lbs) πŸ‘ on target Weight loss to go: 5.7kgs (12.5 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2 kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April Today I'm gonna integrate another 16:8 Intermittant fast (8am to 4pm). Also wanna get cracking on spring cleaning my house (and de-cluttering) as much as possible. * 8.30am Pre work-out coffee 87c Capuccino 87 * Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals * 10.30am Breakfast (muesli) 345c 10g organic unsalted cashew nuts (623) 62 + 10g Bjorg organic sugarfree muesli (367) 36 + 10g organic sugar-reduced granola (437) 43 + 10g organic oatbran (359) 35 + 5g organic chia seeds (449) 22 + 100g organic fresh forest fruits (55) 55 + 200g organic soy milk (46) 92 * 1pm Lunch (croque monsieur salad) 713c 100 g lettuce (17) 17 + 50g tomato (18) 9 + 25g bell pepper (20) 5 + 17g cucumber (14) 2 + 17g onion (40) 6 + 1g olive oil (900) 9 + 7g avocado (160) 11 + 80g organic gluten-free bread (260) 208 + 18g organic blue cheese (361) 64 + 10g mustard (245) 24 + 10g mayo (661) 66 + 14g fried onions (590) 82 + 388g organic orange juice (54) 210 Total cals so far today: 87c+345+625=1,145c 455c left for the rest of the day * 4pm Snack (latte and chickpea cake) 447c Latte macchiato 80 + [1/8 coconut iced chickpea cake 294 + 1/32 coconut iced chickpea cake 73 = 367c] That last meal will be followed by 16 hours of fasting. Total cals so far today: 87c+345+713+455c=1,592c πŸ‘ Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals πŸ‘ Accomplished today: πŸ‘ * at least 8 hours sleep * 20' do-nothing meditation * daily self-love affirmations * no aperitifs, no alcohol * 16:8 Intermittant fast (8am to 4pm) * mindful eating * respected calorie goal * chapter 1 of "As a Man Thinketh" * part 2 "Love is letting go of Fear" * working through chapter 3 of "Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself" by Melody Beattie * a lot of spring-cleaning and de-cluttering
  12. I wouldn't even think of visiting India, let alone live there. I'll boycott the place till they do something about their animal sacrifices, all in the name of frigging religion. πŸ‘ŽπŸ‘Ž Tons of thousands of animals sacrificed during the Gadhimai festival and not even used for food at least. All that just to please the goddess Gadhimai, thinking it will end evil and bring prosperity, wtf?! β€œThe greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated” Mohandas Gandhi