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I've had sex with a group of hot alien girls in a lucid dream. Aliens are dirty af by the way. Careful what you wish for.

I hope you like getting plugged with Alien DMT while as a test-subject. Actually that would be kind of cool.

Nice, one step closer to my hot alien witch girlfriend

DISCLAIMER: I had no intention initially of writing this trip report, but I just had to because of how interesting it was, and for personal documentation reasons too. This post is admittedly crazy, outlandish, bizarre and just plain weird. And I don't want this to start a non duality war. I also don't want this post to invoke judgement on the 'electrobeam' physical avatar (it will happen anyway by God's design (how else is duality possible ) , but I'm just pointing out my intention is not to troll or invoke such a response). I fully appreciate and embrace anyone who believes I'm deluded, crazy, zen devil, etc. I love you all and embrace all opinions that may come of this. I almost know nearly no one will resonate with what I'm about to write here. Maybe one or 2 yogis out in the jungle somewhere. But this post might strike a chord in 1 or 2 of you. Who knows and lets see. Why I wrote this Trip Report During the trip, I wasn't that surprised or valued this trip with any importance. In a weird way, everything that was happening was just normal. After coming down though and reflecting on it again, I just went "hold on, that was actually insanely crazy" I started to feel the significance of what just happened. I felt absolutely no significance, no surprise, at all during the trip. Absolutely no reason to feel alarmed. I even talked to people around me completely normally, and talked to them genuinely with what I was becoming conscious of as if its a normal talking point with people. But afterwards I went "what in the hell was that???". And I regretted sounding like an unusual guy to my flatmate. I was extremely shocked. This humbled me on the come down. And here I am, recording it. Also I dont claim to be enlightened(far far far from it), but I will use enlightenment terms to help with explanation. Intention for the trip So I awoke to infinite love some time ago, and after that I saw the universe completely differently. I basically realized that all suffering, evilness, etc was actually designed to give me a massive loving awakening. It was all done out of love. Just imagine your mum said "sorry I can only give you 20 bucks for your 21st birthday" and then you chastise her, attack her, then on your birthday she said "just joking! I actually gave you a million dollars!" And you find out later that she gave you that million through working 90 hours a week. Can you see how lowering your expectations by saying she can only give you a little, is actually better than if she said "i will give you a million dollars on your 21st birthday"? By lowering your expectations, when you actually get the gift, its a massive gift. Well thats why god invented world war 2, trump, etc. Because he's lowering your expectations so that when you do realize infinite love, you get extremely excited. That's why there's so much self deception, it all increases your surprise. And people on here asking "why is there torture, rape, etc" is like the child chastising her mum saying "why do you only give me 50 bucks for my 21st? You horrible mum!". And how would you feel once you realised that all those judgements of trump was like you chastising that mother? Once you realised trump was you? How sorry would you feel? Knowing all those judgements you did was pure stupidity and ignorance? So for the san pedro trip, I wanted to repent all my sins (all my judgements and hatred) because I felt so fucken ignorant, sad, arrogant and stupid for judging God, myself. And also my intention for this san pedro trip was to simply ask God for how to embody and live a life fully immersed in infinite love. BUT I'm not your typical seeker, I'm extremely/radically open minded, and I'm an extremely curious seeker that loves to 'understand'. I love omnipresence. Absolutely love it. A scientist's/INTPs dream is 100% omnipresence. Its philosophical nirvana. That's what us scientists get wet dreams over. We aren't like other seekers that just want to feel happy, or get over suffering, or just care about feeling good all day. We want to 'KNOW', 'UNDERSTAND' we aren't just satisfied with feeling good, we want to consciously know what's going on here. We want to go meta, again and again and again and again for absolutely no reason at all except because we are curious. And so, I had my intentions for the san pedro trip, but honestly, God decided to reveal some juicy secrets instead, so I just went for that. Drinking San Pedro I drank 30cm of san pedro juice I made up (getting pretty good at this brewing shit now, also my body must be getting use to san pedro because it didnt vomit this time, woohoo!) Trip Report - All the normal stuff that most teachers on here would agree with I think So I came up extremely slowly. Again just like the other san pedro trip report I did a while ago, I did not realise how high I was getting. I was getting waaay higher than I noticed. For me I thought what was happening was just a slight buzz. Nothing serious. Infact I was convinced I did the brew wrong, and I microdosed on this stuff (until later ). So I started questioning, how do I completely eliminate all hatred and judgement so that I can be infinite love all the time. Because I'm 2000% aware that I'm jumping from 1 to 2 and back to 1 again, and I'm doing that due to hatred and judgement. Once judgement and hatred is gone, and I embrace everything, that's it! Game over boiiis! I won! But then of course, being the highly meta, and scientific/INTP mind that I am, I jumped to questioning "wait, why am I even trying to eliminate judgment and hatred all together?". Like a curious question I've had for a while is, why did I, God, jump to duality in the first place. And then I became aware of the play. How we are all actors just pretending. The level of pretending that I became conscious of was insane. We pretend so much that its incredible. Matt Khan is pretending to be a spiritual teacher, that's the level. He's so conscious yet he's still pretending. And of course he isn't actually there and there are no 'others' but what I'm saying is God is capable of pretending to such an extent, that you could be as deeply enlightened as Ramana or Matt Khan and you'd still be pretending. Those teachers aint free of pretending, trust me. They get sucked into the thought story of being a teacher, and don't even realise they are getting sucked into that thought story. You can be deeply enlightened and yet still dogmatic and still believe in stuff and confuse truth for falsehood. This is how insanely large self deception is. Its unbelievable. I became aware of all of my lies (and this was necessary for repenting my sins of judgement and hatred). I had to let go of all lives to fully surrender to god. Then I became conscious for the first time of True omnipresence. I felt exactly, ex-act-fucken-leeee why everything was the way it is (and there is a ridiculously mind twisted answer below in the "off the deep end" section) but for now lets just say that I became aware that God knows everything about me, and before reincarnating as me, he knew exactly what was going to happen to me. Every single bit. He knows why I suck at meditation, COVID-19, my reincarnations of past lives, every-fucken-thing. Because the Godhead is a land where you know fucken everything. Its insane. And so when you think you're struggling with meditation and it sucks, and how everyone is better than you, or some other hardship, God KNEW all of that precisely! (to the nearest millimetre, nanosecond, micro moment, including the devilry) before deciding to reincarnate as you. Like in ego consciousness, it really feels like you're here for the first time, and God's doing something new and your the first. That's true. BUT! At the exact same time, God also knew everything that was about to happen. Its sort of like, imagine genes are the Godhead and the phenotypes are your life. Yes the phenotype is happening for the first time, But you knew everything that was gonna happen from the genes, just the knowledge from the genes is different to the experience of the actual phenotype though. So that's sort of what omnipresence is like, you dont experience everything but you fucken KNOW! The image I had of omnipresence was heaps of clouds out in the sky, and a dragon flying through it just looking down. Don't know why but there ya go. I decided to go for a walk because I was convinced I took a microdose and whats the worst that could happen (should have learnt my lesson from the last san pedro trip I did, but I'm God's son, so not learning my lesson is in my genes ) And again, just like the last san pedro trip, I didn't wake up, here I am 100% conscious as God. Just happened without realising it. No ego death, just here it is. And see at this point this is where doing trips to better or improve your life or spirituality goals starts to break down, because once you're fully conscious that everything is God's plan, you realise all your deficiencies are God's plan too. Even what I'm writing now, God knew all of this before reincarnating as me. And so improving spirituality from that state of consciousness doesn't make sense, because its already perfect. Your failure is perfect. At that point its just like, everything is already done. There's nothing to do, or improve on. And you realise, you entering this trip with an intention is itself a persona. Like you've got an intention because you're an actor pretending you're going through a spiritual journey that isn't actually there. But once you take the acting clothes off, there goes your intention. There goes everything. The intention's meaning requires acting as a basis for it to make sense. And so at this point its like, ok well, I'm at the beginning, where I'm trying to arrive at. Now there's no need for an intention...... now what? (meanwhile nearly got hit by a car because I stopped in the middle of the road just to recognise what's going on... oh the irony of being highly micro and macro at the same time) But then consciousness changed its tune. No, I'm gonna pretend again. And when I pretend, we need to change. I need more love. This story has gone through too much suffering, and not enough love, and the story's course needs to balance back to love again. And then I remembered total 100% omnipresence and perfectness. But then I went I know! But I need more love! That's gotta happen! Then God reminded me of 'the beginning'. Where I was before this entire, multi incarnation, multi universe world began. And reminded me that, you've known infinite love all your life. For eternity. This dualistic world you're in now, its new. Its never happened before. And that's amazing. Instead of rushing to where you were when you began, enjoy what this world has to offer. Trip Report: Off the Deep End: This is where I'd imagine the teachers on here reading this like wtf?? Insanity started here (if it didnt already hahahaha) Like stop rushing, and appreciate duality and form. Duality and form is a gift. Its not horrible. Its a gift. And I resonated with that godly message to a certain level, because this world is beautiful, and I am rushing too much to the enlightenment finish line, without enjoying the process. But honestly, from God consciousness, from a non dualistic standpoint, I rejected it. For the first time I witnessed God rejecting his own advice. Saying no to it. I said (extremely sincerely and genuinely and deeply) (as God) I know but, its not fun anymore. What's the point if its not fun? Its getting boring. Its getting too suffering intensive. I want a change to this world. Then an extremely subtle "snap!!!" happened in my brain. So subtle that the devil tried to cover it up. But it felt like I had just communicated my sincere plea for help, for love, to an extremely alien form of my higher self/God. Ridiculously alien. Expressing a need for change to the story I'm pretending to be in. And this is where things start getting trippy. Mind you, during the trip I thought all of this was completely normal. Only after the comedown when I remembered all this did I go, what is the actual fuck was all that about? So God said to himself in a monologue (as I AM God) "you really reject this dualistic life? You're seriously fed up with it? Its seriously not quenching your thirst?" And I thought about that, and honestly the answer was "yes". If I'm extremely honest with myself. I don't give a fuck about being a spiritual teacher, helping others, engaging with anyone in this world, all I want to do is know thyself. I'm super curious, and just want to know what the truly fuck is truly going on. I dont want bliss, or even love suprisingly, I just want to KNOW. To be as One as possible. Fuck the world. (this is in god consciousness, depression and human disorders are so long gone by this point I can't explain. So this is God saying it, not depressed electrobeam). Then God said "if you truly want to know all this stuff, then there's only 1 way". "what is that?" Then I got shown shit that I remembered. It didnt suprise me at all(until I came down). I remember this very very well. I knew this before the big journey. God showed me what true awakening is and said "all of your questions wont be answered, and what you truly want wont be discovered, until you truly awaken. There's absolutely no way to know the answers to your questions without 100% awakening" And what's the cost of 100% awakening? Completely and utterly forgetting everything that happened. Like completely forgetting when you were born, where you were born, your reincarnation's births, dmt machine elf incarnation births, your parents, the entire massive journey. Full on Universal Mind dementia. You'll know exactly what you want to know, but you'll need to completely forget your life to truly get the answer. Complete dissociation and never ever remembering it again, you wont even know this life happened. You (god mind you hahahaha, like the highest of the highest) wont even have a slight clue whether this journey happened or not. (like thats insane). And I went "hmmm that's right, I totally forgot about that" (now that seems insane but yes that happened hahahah; because im a good pretender. lets be real). So there I was walking around the park, contemplating (as God) whether I should completely and utterly wipe out this entire universe and multiverses to merge with True infinite love. Completely forget. And I walked back inside to take a sit on my sofa, because, you know, this is a pretty big decision, I need to think this through. and my flatmate asked if I was feeling ok, and I said "yeah I think I screwed up the brew because I don't feel anything". And I said that genuinely, I literally didn't feel like this san pedro did anything except for a slight buzz. But then I remembered I'm contemplating whether I'm gonna wipe out the entire universe. So I said "actually, I'm contemplating wiping out the entire universe, so maybe it did have an effect". But then from this level of consciousness, psychedelics are completely and utterly imaginary and everything is happening because of God, got absolutely nothing to do with psychedelics. So I'm like, wtf this is weird, I dont usually act like this off psychedelics, but at the same time psychedelics are completely imaginary, wtf... I'll come to that another day if I dont choose to wipe it out. The Absolute/Final/Total: Not Infinite Love, but infinity itself!!!! Mindfuck, radical open mindedness alert woo woo. I don't mean to offend anyone, but through the process of contemplating True awakening. I became conscious that all of my awakenings (no self, infinite love, everything/nothing, intelligence) were all just 1 dimensional, or all just apart of the matrix! Like I became conscious that the next big journey CAN and possibly WILL journey towards God completely differently to all of my awakening experiences. Like there are infinite different types of awakenings. And all of my awakenings were just 1 fucken type. Like I mean, non duality, and wave in the ocean, its all just 1 type of being. Non duality is just 1 type of being out of an infinite number of beings(at the same level of consciousness. Of course there's lots of types of beings, but I'm saying there's an infinite number of beings with the same level of consciousness as non duality), used to journey towards God. non duality is just a tiny sand spec in the beach. I've experienced infinite love, non duality many many many times before. I know those states very very well. I'm not confusing non duality for something else. I mean it when I say non duality is just 1 type of being, and there are completely different "big journeys" that probably happened in the past that uses completely different types of being equivalent to non duality but completely different. And of course, I had to ask the question. What's infinite love? Is it final? Is it absolute? And God made it clear, to truly know, I need to merge into infinite love and completely forget everything about this big journey. Even forget that non duality is a fucken thing! Because when I truly forget, even non duality wont exist. True awakening is beyond non duality, and the next being might be equivalent to non duality in terms of states of consciousness, but it will be completely different. And this sort of realisation of forgetting, made me realise, that Love also, is just 1 type of being. Its just 1 type of the highest state of consciousness. There are infinite states of Being equivalent to Love, but different! In other words, each big journey uses an equivalent state of consciousness, but one that is completely different to Love. But for you to realise those different states, you need to completely wipe out this big journey and completely forget and dissociate from it. What is God really? But see this is the thing, what is god really? God is pure unlimited-ness. Its not divisions, or energy or even fucken Love. Its pure, utter pure, unlimitedness. Like Ramana Maharshi is 0% aware of how blank the canvas really fucken is. Its extremely blank. The canvas isn't fundamentally made of love, no, no, no. You haven't reached the highest awakening if you're not aware of that. That canvas is made of pure unlimitedness. You can dream up any fucken thing, so much that its terrifying. That's what God is. Its not Infinite Love, that's not final. I know that sounds off, but I know 10000%, Infinite Love is not final. Final/Absolute is pure unlimitedness. Pure dream up whatever the fuck you want. Yes God ultimately wants to merge with itself, to unite with itself, and it does a dance between duality and non duality, but keep in mind, that's not what God ultimately is, beyond that is pure unlimitedness. That's what God actually is behind the scenes. And at this point of the trip, God started sweating a little. Because he just remembered what he actually is, and its terrifying. Electrobeam was fine. He was high, happy, low heart beat. But God was having a bit of an existential crisis. And God wasn't surprised, or shocked, God was like "oh thats right". And a bit of terror. At the fact that he's pure unlimitedness. Because the scary part is not that God is pure unlimitedness. God can do everything. Can dream up anything, but the terrorising part, is the fact that the one thing he can't do, is kill himself. Eradicate himself. Stop himself. You have no choice but to dream everything that you're capable of dreaming because you can't kill yourself. Holy fuck if that doesn't scare you, then I didn't imagine you and duality was real all along. Are you aware that your ability to create horror is unlimited? Youre a fucking supernova on repeat! And your job as God is to control yourself! Woah and I thought I had it tough doing my day job. What is Omnipresence really? Yeah we like to think that omnipresence is knowing stuff. unravelling stuff that's hidden. Omnipresence at the lower levels (in this dimension) is western science. Discovering microbes and stuff. The next level higher is awakenings, like everything and nothing. knowing what God actually is. The next level is revealing devilry and self deception, the next level is total omnipresence, knowing everything about why everything is the way it is... but that's not the highest... the highest level of omnipresence is, accepting, or being fully conscious that you created everything. Literally everything. I used the gene phenotype above in the normal section of my post about what 100% omnipresence feels like. The highest level of omnipresence is realising you made that entire thing up on the spot. You're so unlimited, your canvas is so empty, that everything you could be 100% omnipresent of, is there, not because God planned it, but because God created it on the fucken spot. god doesn't need to bend to any rules to make things appear. He doesn't have to plan. God doesn't have to plan the laws of physics. God is so unlimited, and his canvas is so empty, that he just makes it up on the spot. Your entire life, infinite love, waking up process, etc. Wasn't planned. God made it NOW, by saying "this is what I want NOW". Nothing else needed. Just now. Just this is it now. He doesn't even need intelligence, its beyond intelligence. Its pure unlimitedness. Everything that is to be omnipresent of, is literally just accepting that what you create is what is. In its purest form. And at this stage of the trip, I started questioning "wait, did I just create duality because I was worried about how unlimited I was and I needed to rein myself in?" I felt like God was a wild gorilla, and duality was the cage. Then further I questioned "did I just create infinite love just to rein myself in"? Because its 10000% clear to me that infinite love isnt final. Then I came down from the trip. And reflected on what happened and went wait, what the fuck? I failed to get takeaways for that one, I need to do more trips.

@Keyhole how do you make the distinction between demons and positive entities? If you are haunted by alien dreams which seem neutral (there are no positive or negative feelings such as fear, only wonder), can that be an expression of something demonic? It is like the third or fourth time I'm dreaming about this alien thing coming out of my TV and I never have been a huge sci-fi fan. I wonder why the heck I'm seeing it...

Apparently The Amazing Atheist's ass has experienced an alien invasion

Pickup is more limiting than productive (relative speaking). After years of reading, watching and being into pickup ive come to realize most people are better off without it. Pickup is a system. A one way approach to get sex. Pickup is like the hatha yoga for enligthenment. Most ppl dont get laid even after learning it. Is a big business. The problem with pickup in my case has been that after knowing the truth of sexuality, you start to see the conditioning it has done on you. One thinks that if not done exactly as we have been taught, any act will be wrong. Building alot of limiting beliefs. I've come to discover my success rate has grown after not applying pickup. You might start well with a strategy and dont continue or get any result. It pisses off. This calculation and rules are actually bad when seen from a higher perspective. You are better of going just intuitively-compulsive and unconscious of the process than by analyzing anything at all. Ive come to prove this to my self after highly increasing my results on tinder by just going bluntly straight forward from the start as to me being sexual with the girl. But, the thing is you think you need to think. No, you dont. It has to be intuitive. The frame has to be unconsciously persistent from you to her without you being conscious of what you are doing. Everytime you become conscious of an aspect of the interaction it actually interrupts the flow of the frame. Cut off the bullshit from the start. The bs patterns of getting to know each other. If you feel truly sexually confident she will feel it and most of the time follow you. After that you know if shes worth of your time and now you can slowly escalate your way there if needed. If not, you can get straight sex even agreed from the chat. Its an energy game. A game of the subtle bodies (ego). I wish I could explain this better, but its difficult through words just as truth. (Believe me, What ever you feel she will feel, even through text. Timing is huge in texting, so patterns are to be percieved. If you feel anxious through text, she will feel it. If you feel confident, she will also feel it. Even if you dont know how. You dont need to know. Just trust she is feeling you. So be honest to yourself and her. Interactions should not be seen through the lens of "Game". Its very limiting and counter-productive most of the time. If you interact in a hyper aware-calculative manner you wont proceed. Thats robotic. Interactions most Flow unconscious of all the aspects that are normally thought off and analyzed). My point is, become aware, then forget about what you became aware off in order to proceed in true Flow. Im amazed by how fast I can get results now. Just truly feel it and she feels it... No need to do any crappy juggle. If shes not into it, skip and go to the next one. Simple as that. If you want a partner then do all that stuff and slowly know each other. But if what you truly only want is sex, stay on that frame, feel it, embody it and you will attract the right partner in that same vibration. So again, why is pickup limiting? Well like in any topic, some knowledge can be applied in some situations, but in others its just counter productive. After gaining more general knowledge, Truth and Consciousness you start to develop mixups skills, which only comes when you have a good higher perspective of anything. For example, in my case ive stopped liking being over masculine and alpha. It doesnt satisfy me. Neither regular and hyper femenine women. I like really slutty women who have a more balanced energy as to masculine and femenine. It doesnt mean they are masculine, it just means they dont have all of the bs drama and limiting beliefs of regular hyper feminine women. They are harder to find, but most bisexual girls & scorts are like this. And in my case, I like being less masculine and a little more passive. Also, letting the girl have more sexual intitiative (Most girls are lazy & not slutty). This makes me experience my sexuality more complete and deep. Cuz now I can feel the feminine energy and masculine too in sex. Not just active masculinity. Its hard to explain and show this. But, sex is on a whole new level like this. One of my wishes is to find a hot advanced alien slut to get as naughty as possible, lol. What will get you laid: 1-Truth 2-Courage 3-Sexual confidence (This one is tricky. You dont need to get laid a bunch of times to develop this. Get used to being naked. Sleep naked. Watch yourself in the mirror, record yourself, get dirty on cam or snap. This will make your subconcious believe you are sexual, thus making you feel confident. Love your body and sexuality). Note: Dont start chatting a girl randomly. Do it only if you feel it. Awareness of emotions are crucial in interactions, they let you know what you are unconsciously communicating through expression. My only strategy is the following: If on a dating app like tinder. Dont get a bunch of matches. They get nowhere. Only like women you really like. After the first match go unseen and dont do more matches. Focus on one girl. Now, after matching let her there. Only talk to her when you are in the mood. Prepare your mind as to what you want. Thats setting the frame. "Sex". Ok, get into a sexual mood. Touch, watch porn, whatever turns you on. After that, prepare your mind to know you will either succeed or get rejected. Dont try to do any tricks to make her like you. Charge some courage until you feel it. Be honest with your emotions. Ready? Ok, you are now confident in a sexual mood and full of some courage. Proceed your request through some flirty comment on her. Forget about showing interest too early. Dont think. Just feel. Know that there are only two options. She liked your comment? Great, keep going and set a date. She rejected you? Great! Thats exactly the girl I dont want. There you go.

I don't know what to make of this, I'm still a bit skeptical. It's most probably bullshit, but I was taken aback because this wasn't posted by some crazy UFO freak's website. This was actually put out by The Hill. Wtf. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Out1h2Iy_p4

@Gesundheit that is the thing, I've never experienced anything that is beyond materialist paradigm or anything different than that, therefore don't ask me to convince myself that is not true, also I don't hold a belief that I "exist" - that might be just a simulation or recalled memory of myself from the past played on some alien's server - there is no way to validate that this reality is "real" as far I as know, I am open minded about it, as you can see I'm destined to continue my "search", until I taste on my own the sweetness of banana @Ananta I know what he is saying at least at conceptual mind level, but that doesn't change my life experience that much

I’m not so sure about synchronicities. I do believe in them but my absolute most harrowing and actually convincing run in with them was while under the influence of a meth overdose where I thought every speck on the wall was an alien camera and I was on a day-in-the-life-of-a-human show broadcasting on some alien planet. It was 18 hours of perceived persecution and actual synchronicities that I still can’t fully explain 5 years later. I chalk it up to psychosis. Also had a similar thing happen without psychosis when combining a dissociative with a psychedelic. I think they could be relative-God speaking with you.

Hello everybody, I am already three years on my journey to awakening and since this spring I have started doing 5-meo-dmt. My approach was to start with low dosages and to gradually and systematically move up to a breakthrough dosage. For me "shit began to get real" only when I moved up to plugging 50-60mg, it's here that I realised it is not a cute little part of me that will die but in a sense my whole being and everything that I hold dear. So after that I decided to gradually lower my dosages, also because I know that 50-60mg is a crazy high dosage (in normal circumstances for the average person). And I am noticing that my trips are not necessarily getting weaker, so I intend on continuing my gradual decline in dosage until I hope that I can have a breakthrough on a more average breakthrough dosage. as of now I went trough a whole packet without breaking trough. Let me describe my trips because apart from maybe the different insights that I got, the overall gist of the trips are the same: The come-up phase involves a lot of fear and purification accompanied with compulsions to puke. In my last trip I actually puked out my stomach acid (I didn't consume anything that day). But all of this makes sense because the ego/body will apply every trick in the book to try to fight the dramatic raise in consciousness. But after the come-up which lasts 10 to 20 minutes comes the high, which always starts with a huge sigh of relief that the come-up phase is over. In the high-phase I always seem to do the same thing: Yoga. This is not some yoga according to established techniques but it is just me twisting and stretching in the way I see fit. The 5-meo induced consciousness already makes all of my muscles super relax. And I notice that all of my exercises revolve around the lower back. So am I working up to a kundalini awakening? But all of the above is just the background for the thing I really want to talk about and that is a dream I had last night, and by no means was this a normal dream. First I need to tell you that a few years ago when I was in bed somewhere at the halfway point between being awake and fully sleeping. At the point where you are not really sleeping but nonetheless have dreamlike "stories" playing out "in the brain". At that point, a certain kind of energy befall me. It was a kind of energy to which I could surrender-to or recoil from. That night I recoiled Immediately out of fear. Afterwards I console my self with an amount of self-love I was not normally capable of and out of curiosity I decided to no longer recoil from this energy but to surrender in to it if it comes back. After all, by leaving me it listened end "respected" my reaction so it definitely has a kind of benevolence to it. By the way, years before that I made a similar commitment with nightmares that I will not recoil and open my eyes but face them till the end. The reason I recoiled so fast from that energy that befall upon me was because I felt it wanted to "abduct" me for a lack of a better word, I even lifted up and started floating above my bed (paranormal style) . Also at that time this energy had a alien vibe about it, I even could hear UFO sounds, the same that you hear in every retro sci-fi movie. And over the years this energy revisited and I surrendered in it the best I could. There was fear and there was love, and so was the case last night. But I think because of the 5-meo and the resulting purifying I have been recently doing, the energy was particularly strong. So what happend: At this point it barely comes into my mind to recoil so again I tried to surrender to it the best I could. The energy lifted me up a meter or two, flipped me and put me back down. this repeated itself a couple of times. During this time all kinds of fears came up. I remember worrying that my mother might see me flip and freak out (even though I live on my own). But my biggest fear was that I would die because I will forget or seize to breath. And while being flipped like a burger I sometime had to wildly grasp for air. I asked my self: did I wildly grasp for air only in the dream or in real life as well? And It is here that I made the insight that "real life" is just as illusionary (or real for that matter) as the dream I am having. When I came down from the flipping and the energy slowly left me. Is saw a shadowy humanoid figure standing in the corner of the room. I think it was my literal (psychological) shadow. While looking at it I evoked love. There was fear but the love and wisdom was stronger. I did not recoil for no coward soul is mine(; The last thing I want to say and my message to you is that working up to awakening takes a lot of purifying yourself which means confronting and letting go of fears. even though this experience may sound very scary and negative, you must know that the mercy of god was always with me as it is with you. Again this energy respected me, so if I recoiled out of fear it would have respected that decision and leave me alone. You must know that the mercy of God is also always with you. In one of my 5-meo trips I made this insight that God plays the Uncle Iroh archetype (from avatar the animation serie). Even though you are a devil that lost his ways. God loves you and is nonetheless always there for you, blessing you in all kinds of ways. His blessings, you take for granted or may slip under your radar. I am a person who says thank you a lot and I usually appreciate other people for example helping me. But nonetheless during one my trips I also realised that I am really an ungrateful little shit (my words not His) for being so blind for all the ways I have been blessed.

@Don Wei You are looking good dude You just lack that sharp/bad boy attitude to fit your style. @Rasheed what about this alien?

@Rasheed lol she looks like a praying mantis. Alien freak

Well, all you have to know for now is that coral is above turquoise. It's the point at which these models stop explaining things. I could say a bit about it but i won't for now. Turquoise probably isn't as out there as you think. I'm 28 and activated turquoise/8th circuit 4 years ago. Tom is 44, so that still makes him much less conscious than me comparatively, unless he happens to be way beyond turquoise. I read somewhere that 36 is the average age of self actualisation, which would be like moving beyond orange. But even when you move beyond it, it's still likely that it will remain the main part. I think the 9-5 work life keeps people from moving past orange until they retire, but people do still elevate their consciousness from time to time. I think. I don't know how far into development Tom would be. His centre of gravity might be significantly below turquoise, or it might be at turquoise. I don't know... listening to Tom talk about aliens makes it clear to me that he is consciously evolved. He seems to have a wider perspective than Joe Rogan at least, judging by what I've seen of the interview. Aliens are a high consciousness topic, really, or at least can be, and Joe seems like someone calling bullshit because he hasnt experienced it. Given that we already know Tom has a high place in government space/alien programs, it shouldn't be that surprising or comical if he has a high level of consciousness.

He has good messages, but then he claims earth is an angel academy for the "Pleiadian" alien civilization, and we are stuck here until we achieve oneness so we can graduate and ascend to a higher dimension. I enjoy his love seminars but the woo angel stuff rubs me the wrong way. I am more of a Rupert Spira kind of guy.

Bit of a weird question. Im an ENFP and I met a cool ESFP chick online (both early 20s) and it was fun texting with her(I have known 3 ESFP girls and they all love texting more than average & blame me when I dont text more often lol), but when we went on a date, I felt really distant from her, like Im talking to an alien. There was no chemistry. She was a bit cold and careful, didnt show any attraction, I guess cuz shes has high standarts, she was beautiful. But she was respectful and she was interested in me. I couldn't really establish a man to woman conversation, I was even having a difficult time to establish a friend to friend conversation so I just started explaining my interests - self-actualization, happiness spectrum, meditation, viewing the world thru models, how math solves real world problems, how MMA works and why I like it. She was curious and tried to philosophize with me, which surprised me. But it was a cold intelectual talk. She liked fashion and travelling. And since it was such a cold interaction I couldnt really be that spontaneous or flirty and make jokes. I felt a bit under pressure. When we parted ways she said she never discussed such topics on a date(meaning they are not date topics) and that it was interesting nonetheless, I told her she shoudlnt discuss such things on a date and she agreed. My question is, if its true that ESFP and ENFP can't date, what is making us so distant? And whether it was actually not related to types, but rather she was shit testing me by being cold and I had to do some bold move? which I dont know how. I mean I dont know whats possible in this situation. Its not like im afraid of rejection, I dont know what can be done. Thanks.

OMG! Haha, I did think someone will make a thread like ‘I feel like I can't relate to people my age after doing self development work since I didn’t worry about people judging my childish’. I don’t know, maybe it’s depending a lot on the personality but as an ENTP or some one can joke as Extremely-Nonsense-Thinking-Person, I did feel my interest to my nonsense could have never been introduced to someone as that nonsense could be a something-bad to my ‘mature’. But why? It’s just why?! Because someone could nickname on you as an alien or a crazy one? No, I share with them with all my love for them. I wish a lot that someone can recall back to that and think ‘how about personal development? I can ask this guy’. And that love of that conversation with some people that I am now so-called childish to ask them ‘What are you doing?’. With love, who cannot smile at you back and have a great conversation? Thanks for your thread.

The whole alien thing Tom is doing is really cosmos centric. He also displays heavy blinking (lol) at times, that is hallmark of breaking through into coral.

@Spiral Wizard Around the online MBTI communities I has hanging around, there was this dude who would hop from server to server, finding places to troll but he always got banned extremely quickly. He had his own server though which I joined for a tiny bit to see what this guy was about. He was an odd fellow. I talked to him a bit on voice chat, he was a disgusting person. His version of having fun was pathological lying and provoking. I did manage to have a few "genuine" conversations with him. He's been diagnosed irl with ASPD, seemed like a sociopath for sure, probably a narcissist as well. My first convo was when I was talking to him because he said he was seeking a philosophy that matched his "naturally hateful way of being". I asked him why he thought this was a fundamental part of his nature, why he couldn't become kinder or calmer. He claimed he was incapable of otherwise, and that hate and aggression is his default. I got the feeling that most of what he was saying was bullshit excuses. I asked him if he's tried psychedelics. He said he's tried them before (I remember he tried LSD, cant remember what else) and they don't anything. I recommended maybe trying again but he was adamant they won't help. I don't know to what degree he was speaking the truth or making shit up here. I'm no psychedelic user, and I don't know how it would work on people like this. He started his own community/server so I got to see that side of him. He established cult-like dynamics. Now observations about him as a person in general. He enjoys and revels in making truth indistinguishable from falsehood. It was all just psychological warfare and pointless manipulation for whatever imaginary gains his petty mind conceived of. He was a control freak. In his conversations he needs a very particular power dynamic. The person he's talking to needs to be humble, respectful and somewhat meek. And he's the brash and aggressive one. And in reward for fulfilling this dynamic, he would metaphorically suck your dick by giving you compliments of being intelligent or ascended. He claimed all his compliments were genuine. More of that in the next paragraph now. There is one caveat to what I'm saying. I don't know how much of what he was doing was intentionally manipulative and deceitful. He tried to give off the image of someone who was brutally honest most of the time, and that the lying was all just him trolling and having fun, and it's your fault for being a sucker. And I think that image was at least partially true if not mostly true. He was certainly imitating (or actually was, rather than imitating) , to a degree, what self proclaimed (some of which are genuine and not just self-proclaimed) biological psychopaths on Quora exhibit. What I mean is that he gave off the vibe of someone very un-neurotic at times and there were times when he was serious that he felt "raw" and charismatic. He felt like the real deal. Extremely blunt, logical and pragmatic. Excellent at rational, matter of fact judgement at times. Good at seeing through inconsistencies of emotion/belief and calling out fake shit. First time I met him I felt a weird fear just from his manner of speech and energy. He felt like an alien, and there's the conflicting feelings of intrigue and fear someone feels when encountering a dangerous and unknown entity. In the end though, I mostly decoded it all. It wasn't that mysterious or amazing really. Psychopaths are just people with a smaller range of emotion, and it limits their perspective and what dimensions of consciousness they can explore and grasp. ---- I am currently in a place where I struggle to see low consciousness as being loving and as a part of reality to accept and "surrender" to.

Part One Warning this will be a long thread Congrats to anyone who sticks it out till the end “I give out Atlas Shrugged as Christmas presents, and I make all the interns read it. Ayn Rand, more than anyone else did a fantastic job of explaining the morality of capitalism, the morality of individualism and this to me is what matters most” - Paul Ryan So I’ve got myself a notebook and pen, and I’m going to going through Leo’s new video in its entirety and posting my notes and thoughts as I do, I consider myself a libertarian. So as I go through each of Leo’s points I’m gonna make some notes on what I think, hopefully this is helpful to anyone reading, show my thought process too, as a libertarian, and hopefully get you guys insight and or meta insight on this as well. So far as I’m writing this I’m only 20 minutes into this 4 hour video and there’s already a lot to unpack. So I’ll keep watching the video, making notes and adding addendums to this post throughout the week. What I’m going do is when I write out Leo’s points I’m going to put them in italics, to separate from my own thoughts, and any questions that I have I’ll put in bold. Here’s the video :- 0:38 “Libertarianism is an ideology” Leo talks about dropping ideologies, inherent to ideologies is dogmatism and Leo compares ideology to a mind virus. Leo says that one should always think through their worldview, and that libertarianism and ideologies are a worldview. Leo says ideologies hold you back from advancement. Leo says that he’s made a list of epistemological and metaphysical problems with libertarian ideology that he will go into with greater detail. But his critiques aren’t coming from an ideological place. This reminds me of some Terence McKenna quotes “Ideology always paves the way toward atrocity” “I think ideology is toxic, all ideology. It’s not that there are good ones and bad ones. All ideology is toxic, because ideology is a kind of insult to the gift of human free thinking.” Ideology by its nature precludes its believer from believing its opposite, so you deny the opposites reality, ideology is firmly rooted in ego But isn’t everything I just said in the previous paragraph ideological, my ideology is that I don’t like ideology, ideology is a part of human experience and to deny that is to deny the truth, I don’t know it seems paradoxical to me. Question are these How can you decide to opt out of having an ideology? If you take an position that’s ideological. Leo’s says that his critiques aren’t coming from an ideological place but how? How can you me any ideology is wrong without you yourself having an ideology? Believing in right and wrong is a truth statement which in it of itself is ideological? Which Leo later attacks Libertarians later for, for being too idealistic (I’ll come back to this point later). Anyways Leo continues from 0:38 - 4:02 4:02 Libertarianism Defined Leo uses the wiki definition, here it is… “Libertarianism (from Latin: libertas, meaning "freedom"), or libertarism (from French: libertaire, meaning "libertarian"), is a political philosophy and movement that upholds libertyas a core principle.[1] Libertarians seek to maximize political freedom and autonomy, emphasizing individualism, freedom of choiceand voluntary association.[2] Libertarians share a skepticism of authority and state power, but they diverge on the scope of their opposition to existing economic and political systems. Various schools of libertarian thought offer a range of views regarding the legitimate functions of state and private power, often calling for the restriction or dissolution of coercive social institutions.” Leo goes into talking about how there’s a range of thought among Libertarianism. In the degrees in which the support government. But goes into identify what he says are the core pillars which all libertarians share, Im gonna list what I’ve wrote down so far here, and the cover them point by point. There’s nothing to be said here as so far it’s just defining terms. Note I’ve only watched 20 mins of the video so far. Core Pillars 5:14 1# Most Libertarians believe freedom is an absolute good. 2# They treat freedom as an ultimate goal in it of itself. 3# That taxation is immoral. 4# Hold personal responsibility highly. (Cancer patient analogy) 6:51 5# Individualism is good and collectivism is bad 8:10 6# Monopoly of Force 10:16 7# Strong notion of inherent alien able rights 10:50 8# Remove Bureaucracy 11:05 9# Smaller government is better. 11:20 10# Unlimited free speech / market place of ideas 11:55 11# Work there way back from their ideals and principles Okay so there are the core pillars that Leo will address in greater detail further in the Vid. I’m going to address them point by point now. Before I do that I’m gonna list what Leo refers to Libertarianism as. 12:51 Libertarianism is… Immature Juvenile Naïve Arrogant Entitled Ahistorical Utopian Self Biased Ideological Masculine Biased Selfish Okey dokey So I’m now gonna cover these 11 point one by one

I think I once had sex with an alien. That was pretty fucking weird.

I generally think all the videos and talks of Leo are very inspiring and meaningful. I follow him for past three years and they helped me through some very dark times. Right now I see this forum especially the relationships one... Makes me feel scared somehow. Like are people on this platform too deep into self-actualization?? Some discussions sound very alien to me.. like there was someone writing they had sex with God? Like wtf is that?? If I go too deep into the practices, this is how it is going to be?? I am not judging any on it but would like to know what is it all about. Really curious!!

Like a video game renderer, you create whatever is on screen right now. So right now you are creating the thought of an alien in some other galaxy. But if you get on a space ship and fly to that galaxy which you imagine, and meet that alien which you imagine, you will be creating that galaxy and that alien. Whatever you see is PRECISELY what you are creating. Nothing more, nothing less. Precisely!

when he says "create" he means "imagine" , that these two words are the same My understanding of Leoist doctrine is nothing exists all is imaginary So you can imagine an alien in some other galaxy and it exists as this imagination thought and if you burn your hand on a stove the pain is imaginary as well and the stove and the flame, these are all the same, illusions of the mind, consciousness, created in that sense So if you are sitting in a room now and you look at a wall there is nothing on the other side of that wall unless you decide at that moment to imagine there is in which case it is an illusion of the moment. Your friends and family don't exist until they walk through the door and when they do they are just illusions. And a tree falling in the forest without you being able to hear it can't happen unless you are there or imagine it. If you are sitting in your house eating chocolate chip cookies , forests and trees don't exist unless you either go there and experience it or imagine them , both being different types of illusions not existing materially just as illusions

@Leo Gura This is what I'm trying to understand: 1) It is often mentioned that I create the Universe, the Moon and every creature and object and every hair on my body, and infinite amount of forms etc. While at the same time you say that: 2) "When you are aware of it, you create it" So something exists ONLY if I am aware of it? Did I create an alien in some other Galaxy? But I am not aware of the alien or any Galaxies. I am only aware of a thought about an alien. Which means that the alien exists only as this particular thought? But why then mention other creatures, objects, planets, humans and everything else that I am not aware of and say that I created them?