Psychonaut

I don't know what happened but I have become aware of numbers and colours a lot more than usual. Also the discounts I am getting online and the prices that I pay in the store just end up containing lots of repeating numbers that kinda freak me out. Unfortunately all these numbers have a meaning to me.... I am seeing a lot of 33, 55, 77, 69, 96, 969. Even just basic ones like 11, 22, 44. Unfortunately also some 8s from time to time... Also my house number and the house number of my parents ends up in there quite often, to the point where its just so in my face that I can't ignore it. I also have become hyper aware of colours and their meanings.... It is extremely overwhelming to me to go to stores with lots of peoples as I can't switch of my awareness - I am just flooded and then need to lie down at home. The programming has become so blatantly obvious in the stores and how they are trying to guide people to make certain purchase decisions. It is not just the classic the cheaper products are at the bottom, it is the whole eco friendly blablabla we need to save the planet shenanigans. Also when I sleep I wake up automatically at freaky times, like 5:35am, 4:20am, 3:35am and I honestly don't know what to do as I can't talk to anyone about it. They just think I am crazy, but I can feel the universe is trying to communicate with me and I can read the messages. Problem is also I have an extremely deep knowledge about security, programming, technology, engineering, a little electrical engineering, machinery, cryptography... To me it just seems like the matrix is glitching for me and I am trying to stay on the human side, while I still feel the pull to the other side.

@Leo Gura Wait a 2nd? Your birthday is on the 24.04? Have you experienced any shifts around your birthday this year? Because I have and I feel like I am starting to loose my mind

Thanks! I'll check it out, love the animation

I like this This is key And stress, traumatic experiences like death / separation from parents in early in childhood Because nobody has reached it yet ;-)

Thanks! That helped me a lot

Well let's just that, I guess....

Has anyone played around with local LLM models? I need a local model for use in medical products. I have played around with some 7B models and have had some good results, but my hardware is not strong enough to run 70B models which I would really like to do. Models from America are not trustworthy as they can disable access at any time.

Thanks I like this answer a lot.

How can I self-assess my current level of spiral dynamics? Are there official tests? Most tests only give me SD-YELLOW as a result, it seems like the tests don't support higher levels or I am just answering the questions using pure YELLOW.

Hey is it possible to use Claude-3 OPUS in Germany? It seems like its blocked for some reason.

I don't have a problem living in a psych ward.

What are the consequences of skipping levels in the context of spiral dynamics? I feel like a lot of suffering occurs in people because they skipped one level and got "catapulted" to a higher level that they can't handle yet. For example SD-BLUE =Drugs=> SD-GREEN SD-ORANGE =Even more drugs=> SD-YELLOW SD-YELLOW ==> SD-CORAL is that possible?

I find that the clash between SD-BLUE and SD-YELLOW can lead to major misunderstandings and from my unqualified understanding that was the main reason why I landed in the psychiatric ward: You can't talk to SD-BLUE when you are in pure SD-YELLOW. It feels like you are talking to a computer program. You can't tell the program that it is a program, because then it is "insulted", because the program is not a program, but it is attached to a human being, that believes its programming has value. From pure yellow the programs that the blue person is running are worthless. I am having big trouble communicating with people when I am in pure SD-YELLOW. Not sure if anyone else is experiencing this?

Is it possible to fix a blue system? I feel like blue is trapped in such a crazy movie that its almost impossible to reach the people. The language has to be coded and everything needs to be **proven**, **certified** and **whatever**. I find it really frustrating to work with systems that are too blue.

How would you classify South Africa both in terms of SD levels and 1st/2nd/3rd world countries?