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Reincarnation.

You mentioned it before in another thread but I was hoping for more elaboration. It's funny how before I began doing self inquiry exercises (as per Ramana Maharshi) I really did believe that ego death was possible. I guess it was hope but of course after having some samadhi experiences, I took it more seriously. I don't think the idea of reincarnation is wacky or unbelievable. It really makes sense but I would like to know if it's possible to know if it's true or not. I suppose an important question to ask is why is the answer important to know? I know Buddha is reported to have told devotees inquiring about if God was real or not to not waste their time on things they will never be able to prove true. Those who achieve enlightenment may have different interpretations of it (God-Realization or End of Suffering) but they will know/experience the ultimate truth, that we are not the body nor the mind, but instead the witness (pure consciousness). If I was to never know if reincarnation was real or not, I would still pursue my spiritual path. But if I was to find out it was true, I feel like I would make more progress surrendering. Thank you.

You can not stay in God mode no longer than three to four hours. And there is no way you could ever function in everyday life. When I came back down from some of my biggest trips. Perhaps for 6 to 9 months, I had very few attachments and biases left. But there is no way you could live in this dream without any. Even if you went into a cave for a year or however long. You still would have attachments to this dream and I personally or most probably after some time of contemplation and deliberating would go what the fck am I doing what was I thinking? And yes there are states of consciousness or God mode or to say God realizing God again where you have no biases and no attachments. You become infinitely self-aware you become pure infinite love existence itself. This is not a perception as you may think it is. You don't perceive anything you become it. Infinite love is not a perception or an experience idea or a supposition whatever you might think it is. You are the experience the perception. Don't you know you are the truth? But you must also understand that you can not live in this dream with no attachments or beliefs etc. Of course, you can get rid of certain things and self-limiting beliefs and become less biased and more selfless up to a point. I don't watch the news anymore or I have not watched TV for 15 years and I stopped using mobiles about 3 years ago, not because I deemed them to cause cancer or whatever the beliefs are these days. But that's me it does not mean you have to do any of these things. Everyone wants to awaken I am trying to go back into the dream. And it may take months even years to ground yourself again but with that said you can never fully come back to the dream. If you have very, very strong core values beliefs, and ethics on what you believe to be right from wrong which most of us do or have built up over the years. If you are not careful it could actually send you to the point of insanity for a time if it has not already occurred from just waking up on a fairly high dose of whatever your preferred imaginary psychedelic of choice is. In the end, the choice is yours, yours alone. “When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace.” JIMI HENDRIX When we no longer know what to do we have come to our real work, and when we no longer know which way to go we have come to our real journey. Wendell Berry. All Psychedelics and meditations are part of the dream all are imaginary. Reincarnation is also imaginary and is part of the dream. How can you be reincarnated if you were never alive, or born to begin with? You keep creating ideas and beliefs to explain more concepts within concepts. Kind of obvious is it not? To describe or explain what you are in words is in a way it is an insult. How can one articulate the indescribable? You can not be translated into words. How do you actualize the infinite into words? It's not even what one thinks it is. Though it does add humor to the dream. No, you don't need to suffer to awaken. And no it is not all about how you have to suffer all your life. This is just a belief that you have unwisely accepted just like all the self-limiting ideas you have picked up along the journey.

Since we are on a self-improvement forum, it would be great if the people here who consistently support Israel tried to see the situation from the Hamas/Palestinian perspective, and vice versa. Remember guys, your alliegience to your team is "only" due to your culture, upbringing, life experiences, etc... This is what forms your perspective, but consider that You would have a vastly different view if your circumstances were different. You are not this accumulated web of beliefs and biases. You are God. Imagine this: currently You are biased against Israel/Palestine, but next life You incarnate on the other team and shit on the beliefs You hold right now. Do You see how stupid this is? Rise above it. (The reincarnation talk & assumption of shared reality which one is always born into is purely for the thought experiment.) Try to see all of this more holistically. For your own sake. When You argue reinforcing your own biases, You are going deeper and deeper into this web of beliefs of yours, further deceiving yourself and disconnecting from the truth. Make sure You don't deceive yourselves so much You are lost. It'd be a shame.

Hi Leo, Just a thought. Are you not short selling the concept of becoming a sage or getting enlightened etc. by sticking to "one life" concept? I understand that if this world is an illusion then so is life and death from that angle. But is "getting best out of rest of the life" enough reason to motivate individuals to start this tough journey when next breath one takes could be the last one? Do not you think putting this in some other way like “this is the only way out of this endless hell in which consciousness keeps changing forms forever” may be more motivational? In this case it doesn’t matter how old one is or how long one will live in this body, this journey of self-realization has to be started at some point as there is no other way out of it. And if self-realization is not attained in this life then it will continue in next life form without losing the hard work from previous life. I know no one can claim the truth of this concept but hey this can motivate even if someone is at the deathbed. Yes, actualize.org has lot of similarities to Sikhism. But reincarnation is the central theme in Sikhism like most other eastern religions. Hell is coming back into forms and merging back with the source is the Heaven. I'll really appreciate your response to this post. Thank You.

Alright… so I got a response from the Krishna temple saying they have a million things to do, and if I’d want to come and help they’ll be grateful for it. Not in these words but the implication. So I did end up getting out of the condo and went to volunteer my time. When I walked in there were two volunteers there and I asked if the wife was there, and they said she was resting. Which I understand because she had a fall a week ago and is trying to rest. So I said alright she told me there are a million things to do and I came to work. What can I help with? They looked at each other as if they were surprised to hear that. One said well she doesn’t know of anything, but she’ll call the wife and see what she says. After she got off the phone she said well you can cut the squash. I started to chuckle and said well I like to cook so that would not be a problem. So the other volunteer showed me into the kitchen and started to get me ready to help cut the squash. I spoke to him a bit more because we were in the same space and so we got a little acquainted. It wasn’t long before I said I am a shaman in training (which gets misinterpreted, but any way) and I work with Ayahuasca. He actually said that he was interested in exploring that avenue as well. We had a few comments where he noticed I had been doing some spiritual work… and I mentioned things that maybe he hasn’t had direct experience with by the words he said. Darn it… I didn’t get permission but I’m not going to say anything to point a finger at him… so anyway he was telling me his interpretation of what they believe and he was focusing on us as humans are souls. We reincarnate over and over again until we become better to where we don’t have to return here to the physical world. At least that was what the interpretation of what I heard him say. He asked if this is something similar to what I’ve received. And I said there are some similarities. I’ll take the stance of my working knowledge of infinite existence. Which I can see how reincarnation can relate to this but my understanding of the physical world may differ since our perception of physicality isn’t so black and white to what most assume. We continued chatting and he happened to mention how we have to bare the physical world and hope to one day make it better. I said or… we are already living perfection but we have to gain more awareness to realize this. He gave a curious look but he shortly left after this. And I knew we enjoyed our time together. He came back for a second to the kitchen to grab something and said. Ok well you didn’t get rid of me quite yet… I said… I never wanted to get rid of you… you are leaving. I was implying that we were having a good conversation and we continue to get to know each other, but he has planned it out to when he was going to leave instead of open and flexible to stay a little longer. But of course it was not our time to continue. So I finished cutting up the butternut squash. I ended up getting a little bit of an allergic reaction? Maybe not really but it had an orange film on my hand and it was drying my hands out and I tried to get it off and use lotion but it wasn’t helping. Later that night I took a bath and got most of it off but it wasn’t until I woke up this morning that it was officially gone. But I hadn’t had that happen to me before and I found out that happens to people from time to time… to next time just use gloves and there’s nothing wrong with the squash itself… hehe… I just hadn’t had that reaction before. But anywho. I took my tools to the sink and went ahead and cleaned all the dishes that were already in the sink. I went back out and spoke to the first volunteer. She was sitting at a table with a lot of flowers. I asked her if there is anything I can help her with? And she said no. I asked her what she’s making. She said she’s making a garland. I asked if they were for Sunday? and she said no just to make them… I restated that I received a message from the wife saying there are a million things to do. It takes me close to an hour to get here by bus and walking… I was hoping to stay here for hours to work to make it worth my time. She said, well the wife will be here but she’s coming in an hour. I thanked her and I started to think well… I’ll text the wife. I was joking with her that there’s only nine hundred ninety-nine thousand nine hundred ninety-eight things for me to do… but she seems to be the only one who knows what those are. I said I’m going to wait around until she returns to the temple in an hour. So I went outside to say hello to the llamas and the peacocks. We had our first snow so I was walking around checking out the beauty from the snow on the mountains and all the shrubs and trees… and it was fluffy and packable. Perfect for snowball fights. I happened to notice a gentleman working in the garden by himself… so I went ahead and made my way to him and asked if he could use an extra hand. He asked if I was a devotee and I said I am not but I’m hoping to help out. He said… so you’re looking for something to do right now? And I said yes, do you have anything for me and he said… well yeah I think I can have you start clearing out the string that are tied to the posts in the garden which was helping support the height of the plants. He plans on tilling and we need to get the garden cleared. He asked if I had a knife, I didn’t but I said I can have one next time. He grabbed one and I started to go to work. He is not a devotee either. The husband actually hired him and he does get paid but he usually only works about 20 hours a week. He’s really sweet but I can tell he’s not too comfortable socially but I’m usually pretty good in these situations because I don’t have to be social. Being quiet especially working in a garden is very enjoyable. He has Native American heritage and he has a big family who have pretty much all left the reservations because there’s not much there for them to live really. I chuckled to myself because he tries to steer clear of the wife… he definitely likes engaging with the husband on matters. He believes the wife likes control and likes to get mad at everyone. He usually gets yelled at once or twice a week by her… so he likes to have less interaction with her as possible. So I finished helping him and he was able to pick up the posts behind me and we put everything into the truck and took it back to the temple. I asked if he wanted to exchange numbers so when he hasn’t something I can help with he can let me know. He didn’t want to do that. He said are you coming tomorrow. I said if they have something for me to do, then yes I’ll be back. but if not I’ll just stay home and relax. He said well you coming on Sunday? I said that’s the only day I cannot come because the buses don’t run. and he said oh… and I said… well I’ll be back and we’ll go from there. So I headed back into the temple. I noticed I got a message from the wife because I wasn’t there when she first arrived and thought I left. I texted her that I was helping the husband’s worker and I’m heading inside to chat. And when I entered we actually got time to chat one on one. Well first I had to get the television working and I was chuckling because I said I don’t watch tv much so maybe I can help… I think I can, but it’s not a guarantee… hehe… but we got it working and she was happy. And then we started talking. She wanted to know why I’m there and wanting to volunteer. There’s a lot into our conversation, but I was telling her I’m spiritual and I’m a shaman who work with indigenous in the Amazon. There aren’t many locations for me to look for fellow shamans. Unlike this Krishna organization where they can travel around the world and visit their temples they know where to find their community. I figured since raising consciousness is their mission, I figured I’d find fellow spiritualist who I can commune with. As we are talking I noticed that I can see why people might seem she’s cold just because she doesn’t have the smiley and laughing personality. She’s got the all business personality going on. But it’s not really cold… I can see she has high expectations and expects we also share in her high expectations. She’s very observant and there are times she chuckles but it’s not something she does unless she’s really enjoying the conversation. But yes… I like her. So I understand why she is hesitant of having a non devotee coming into the temple asking to volunteer… I”m not quite sure she’s hearing me say shaman, but I know I’ve said it… and I know I’ll continue to say it until it sinks in. But she wanted to hear about me. And so I was telling her things I used to do and what I do now.. and just a bit of why I found myself here in Utah. I told her I’m not a traditional spiritualist, but she heard that I’m not structured… which makes me chuckle, but I definitely understand why she assumes that since I’m living a life with more freedom than what she’s accustomed to. So she said she’d like me to come to a Sunday service. She knows about my public transportation so she said that she can offer a place for me to stay for Saturday and join them on Sunday and then stay Sunday night to leave on the bus on Monday. But she gets really weird people coming in there and so she wants to run a criminal background check on me. And she wants me to get character referrals before she lets me stay the night on property. I said I think that’s smart and that it wouldn’t be a problem. During our conversation she made a point that she does not tolerate lies. If it’s found that I have told a lie then she will ask me to leave. I respected that, BUT… it was funny becasue when I woke up this morning I thought… well she told a lie… or a fib… I know she was speaking quickly through the part of them being a non-profit organization and so no one gets paid. First of all I already met a gentleman who does get paid… but honestly I don’t know if she knows the husband pays him. But I also thought when I was looking into creating a non-profit that staff members absolutely can get paid… especially the president and vice president who the husband and wife are. Now they might not get a salary… I’m not sure, but I feel that’s their choice and their choice not to pay for stay and only have volunteers. But I decided not to bring this up… at least not yet… hehe… but what does she consider a lie. But truthfully after today doing some more volunteer work… I got to like her even more. She has been working very hard to run this temple and I’m sure its tasking working with volunteers who are not there for consistent amounts of time and not necessarily wanting to work. She’s probably found that if something has to be done, she’ll have to do it herself. But she now has injuries. I got the story of why she fell. They have llamas on the property that I’ve already mentioned. They usually keep the males and females separated so they manage their breeding. Because it gets so cold and snowy in the winter here… they prefer not to have any babies born right before or during the winter for safety and the wellness of the llamas. Well I guess sometime last year a volunteer didn’t close the gates behind themselves and the males ended up in the female quarters and they now have two baby llamas. She saw all the females gathering together huddling around each other and so she knew something was up and that’s what they do when there’s a birth. So she went over to see and saw there were two newborns. They were on top of the hill and it was raining.. so she picked up one of the babies to carry it to shelter and she ended up tripping and falling. The baby actually helped prevent her from even more severe injuries but it just got right up and ran away. She however couldn’t. She had broken ribs and couldn’t breathe. Thankfully there was someone with her and they helped her back but for a week now it’s hard for her to breathe but she wants to breathe deeply so she doesn’t get pneumonia. Her energy is low because it’s focusing on healing her.. but it hurts to cough and laugh. She was using her arms and hands more often since she couldn’t really use her core and she ended up fracturing her wrist which was injured but increase with the excessive use. So she’s not in the best of shape right now. I was joking with her that maybe it’s a sign she can use some rest. She said no one will let her. And I was hoping to show her… that if she wants something done, I’ll do it. And hopefully she’ll see I can be very efficient with it as well. She really enjoyed my background with what I studied in college. I was telling her interior design and art with a bit of architecture. She actually designed the temple and she does amazing portrait paintings for the temple herself. So there was a little bit of something in common that was obvious to her. Anyway… she told me that there are projects for me to do if I want to return tomorrow. But to get there early… people will start arriving between 9 and 9:30. I said I can be here around that time it will just depend on the bus schedule. So I went home and relaxed in the tub with a soak. I didn’t feel like I wanted to do any ceremony. I did message a little with my Thailand friend… I said maybe it’s time to actually chat? So I woke up and as I was heading out of the apartment… my neighbor and I opened our doors at the same time to leave. He didn’t really want to look me in the eyes and I just said in a joyful voice… well hello there. He said hello and walked quickly on. I was heading to the bus stop and while I was walking I saw he drove by. Later he messaged me to see if I needed a ride back from Walmart? I said I actually went to volunteer at the temple again and I didn’t know how long I was going to be there, but thanks anyway. So I noticed I wasn’t afraid of him. I also noticed that I’m not really disgusted with him. That’s just the level of consciousness he’s at. Now do I feel this is high conscious action? No… I feel there are far more healthier ways for him to be handling his and his families fetishes.. but I cannot demonize him. He doesn’t know any better or he’d be doing it. I’m still trying to get paid as well… so hopefully he’ll see that I’m not judging them and I’m not scared of them.. and I’ll still treat them with respect and kindness. So hopefully there’s somewhere in his heart he can realize that I do deserve to get paid for the hours I’ve worked for him. So I’m still hopeful. But I have already asked about two different positions. One will be a cook and server at IHOP. And then another one came up while I was volunteering. There was a group there were they live in a group home and there’s a therapeutic company who helps them and they’re hiring. She said they have locations everywhere even in Payson. I looked it up and they’re not hiring in Payson, but its an option. But I’ll see how it plays out actually. Today went really well with the volunteering so I kind of want to see how tomorrow goes. Let’s get back to the morning of volunteer work. Oh I did want to mention how extremely nice these Utah bus drivers are. I’ve had two of them drop me off right at the road of the temple so I don’t have to walk along the highway. And this morning I was trying to use the transit app and it wasn’t taking my payment and I noticed I didn’t bring my wallet so I was like crap. I don’t have time to walk back and make it on time to the temple. On Saturdays they run every hour not half hour. So I went ahead and showed the bus driver my issue and said I’m trying to go and volunteer at the temple and she said that it’s fine for me to ride. She even gave me a transfer until 5:15pm. I was very thankful and she dropped me closer to the temple too. But anyway I’ve really enjoyed my experience with the public transportation here. Ok.. now let’s go back to the morning… So I got there around 9:15am. The WOOFER who arrived the night before was there. She’s from DC and has Filipino decent but grew up in Guam. She’s been in the US for six years now… Four for college and two working for nonprofits. She finished with a political major. We ate lunch together and I got some of these details. I can see she’s a sweetheart and definitely doesn’t know how to handle the wife… hehe… but she was left with me most of the time she was working so she’s in safe hands. And the wife will get what she wants done to be done… so everyone wins. The wife took us outside and was telling us what she wanted done. I went ahead and grabbed my phone to write things down. But I ended up remembering everything. We had to change out the water for the babies and the parents. they are separated from the groups and so they don’t have heated water. There area also needed a bit of mucking out. We went to the garden and we had to wrap up the irrigation hoses that were flushed out last weekend. We needed to make sure there wasn’t any trash, metal, or large rocks in the garden so it’s safe to till the land. There were piles of sunflowers which were pulled. And we were to take it to the side of the property that neighbors a junkyard with ugly fences and she’s hoping to lay the sunflowers along the fence so the seeds can grow and hopefully disguise the fence. She was looking at our clothing and was questionable if we had proper attire. The WOOFER is living on property so I went with her to the place so she can grab warmer clothes and shoes and gloves. I thought I would be fine, and I was. Once I got moving I was going to get warm anyway. But the house was pretty cool. All the exotic birds are inside for the winter and many of them are just roaming around the home. A cat I met the first day was in there and he so super chill… so I loved on him again. I’m not used to birds still and looks like they could be a bit messy to keep around. But they are really cool, and I ran into the grey African parrot again. I was told by one of the volunteers that maybe his name is Ram… hehe. But anyway the WOOFER asked what should be do first? Well I said I was thinking after we muck we’re supposed to put it in the garden to fertilize… so let’s clearing out the garden first and then finish with the llamas and maybe we can spend some extra time loving on them if we keep it for the end. She said that would be fine. I didn’t know at that time that she had agreed to only work for four hours… so she was wanting to work until one o’clock. So we started in the garden. Oh so… even though we were told what to do… we didn’t really get told exactly how to do it and where the tools exactly are… we were told the buildings and hopefully volunteers have returned them. But we both are new to everything the location and the chores given to us… hehe but we figured it all out. We spoke a bit while we were working in the garden. I was asking her about WOOFER and what she’s done with it. This is the first time for her to try it. Normally WOOFERs don’t come for the winter but she spoke to the husband of possibly trying to grow lettuce and possibly cabbage or spinach in the green house. The wife said if she wants to she can give it a try, but she’s not going to have anyone next to her telling her how to do it. She’ll have to figure it out. I told her about the husband’s worker who is familiar with the green house so maybe he’ll help set her up? I did ask him about it and by the end of the conversation he said that maybe he will talk to her… hehe. But again… she asked about me and I told her my spiritual path and she tooo has heard about Ayahuasca. I asked how did she hear about it… it’s not that common even though it’s starting to gain some popularity in some circles. She knows a friend of a friend who has done it. And she also has another friend who studies psychedelic studies. Her friend hasn’t ever tried psychedelics which she finds unusual for her to be interested in studying therapeutic purposes for psychedelics. I kind of explained that there’s a term of entheogen I like to use to help promote the intention of using psychedelics for spiritual purposes. We didn’t get into too much detail but she did say that it’s cool to hear my spiritual journey so far. I mentioned that I’m not sure if my way of traveling down the spiritual path will mesh well with this traditional style of this community. But I also said… I’m in observation mode to see if this is a location I’d like to continue to spend time with yet. We worked well with each other. And I wasn’t completely aware of how the agreement of working were and the wife was a little annoyed that we took lunch during her four hours and so she didn’t actually put in four hours she was suppose to. I understood after the fact and I understood her concern. Of course this doesn’t involve me directly as of now. I’m just here volunteering and see if I can see myself continue helping here. During lunch the wife said there is going to be a group coming in for about an hour. She’d like for us to join them. I said that’s fine I’ll meet them there. The WOOFER and I at the time didn’t think she was talking to her because we had it that she was leaving at one and that the group is coming after that. So I went outside to continue to finish the projects before the group came. I didn’t have a lot of time but I thought I could at least get a large pile of sunflowers loaded into the truck. The wife said that she wants me to supervise the group. I can stop working on the current project and just have this group finish with you. I said ok that sounds good. We were waiting for the group and they were running late which i guess is very common… hehe. But they did arrive and the wife said she was going to greet them and then hand them over to me. It actually went really well working together. She was joking around with the group and I was able to compliment her actions and mannerisms. I noticed the husband was watching us working together from the desk. I notice the wife looking at him… so I know they are seeing how well we’re meshing together. I can be very observant as well… I enjoy being around awareness and they do too. As the group and I were heading out the wife said that I should show them the babies… and so I did and told them the story of how the wife got injured. I split them into groups. A few came with me and the truck to lay the sunflowers along the fence… while the others pulled the rest of the sunflowers out. Everyone in the group was very helpful and efficient. It didn’t take us long to finish the job, and so we went back to the temple so they can get a quick tour. Another volunteer that I briefly met the day before gave them the tour. He wanted to give me a tour earlier when I was eating lunch but I told him I’d rather get my work done before the tour. I had already toured myself and I’ve been listening to him… and he’s a good guy but many of his knowledge is theoretical and not be actualized through direct experience. So I know he was going to tell me all he knows when I know that he doesn’t know as much as he thinks he knows… hehe… so I really wasn’t interested but since I was with the group and we did finish everything up.. so I went ahead and joined them. After the group left I knew I was going to have to find something else to do… I forgot to put everything away… I remembered before I left… but the husband’s worker came in to let me know that I left my purse in the truck. I knew I did, but because I didn’t put things up I thought I’d be returning after the group left, but he came in shortly after. I went ahead and asked him again if he could use a hand. He said he could but was worried I wouldn’t make the bus on time. He said it would at least take an hour… I had two hours and we should be fine. If he’d like some help… I’ve got the time. So he said ok come on then. He was heading to the dump. He goes about every ten days… mostly trash from the buffet. I hadn’t been in that area before and having two people take the trash out… it went quickly. It was set up similarly to how the little Colorado town had it. They seemed to have areas where recycling was separated which wasn’t present in the Colorado station we went to. But we had to fill up a portable gas container for machines on the property. We went to the area where I had went the first time to look at the Bolivian girl’s car which is broken down in the garage. well.. I guess all the houses there are part of the property and they rent them out. Many are vacant or has open rooms available. There was one were a young lady is leaving and had extra stuff she didn’t need anymore so we placed it in the horse trailer we were using. He went ahead and took me inside so I can see how they look. It’s vintage for sure, but spacious. It would actually be cool to have my own place with Elvis… even if we have to share space… even though the birds are cool and also the cat… I’d much rather have our own space. But I didn’t know they had so many options. It gets my mind going… hehe… we returned to the temple and I asked him about the project of removing the sludge from the koi pond. He was surprised I knew about it but I said I was there when they brought it up. So I didn’t know if they decided which day they were going to do it. He said he didn’t know. If he said a day then most likely it’ll change so he’d be telling me something wrong. I asked again if he wanted to exchange numbers and he can just message me and I’ll make my way to help. He said that I can come and help. the more the easier… but he said I’ll be around and I’ll find out when it’s going to happen… i told him I don’t know if I’m going to be returning this week. I’m still trying to figure out my work situation. I said things will work out… I’ll see him again soon. I had about 45 minutes left before I needed to be at the bus stop. I spoke to the tour volunteer for a little bit as I waited. i then remembered I forgot to clean up after myself… so I went outside to do so and the wife was walking into the temple. She knew I’d be leaving shortly for the bus. She said… can you write down your address… she’s going to have one of the volunteers come and get me tomorrow so I can participate in Sunday service. I said that would be wonderful. So I wrote it down and left. She happened to mention that she’ll send a volunteer to go check out Walmart… i told her that I live close to the Walmart in the town I’m staying at. She said well maybe you can just go there for me. I said that wouldn’t be a problem. She said to call her when I get there. She was looking for warmer sweaters to put on the baby llamas. Kids sweaters can be altered to fit them. So I said I can do that as I was walking out the door to get to the bus stop. Well… by the time I got to the stop I checked the app again and it was telling me I had to wait another hour…. So I missed it. So I turned around and stuck my finger out. And it didn’t work yesterday, but today… it did. It didn’t take long for a truck with a father, son, and son’s friend pulled over to give me a ride. I asked if I could be dropped off at the Walmart and he said he’ll take me wherever I need to go. He’s done some hitchhiking himself so he has a soft spot for people who still do it. Well I thanked him and had really good conversation with him. Oh he also had his little Yorkie, Cloey in the car too… sooooo sweet and let me pet her belly most of the ride. He dropped off the friend and started to talk kind of about hobbies. He and his son loves to learn and so they love starting new projects. They are working on cars right now. His son got a “kit” and building it. He’s been painting lately and it’s not as easy as he thought it would be to get it to look right. They also have been learning how to sail. They got an old one so they can practice, but maybe in the future they’ll sail it from Washington state to Alaska. Of course I’m encouraging them. When he was dropping me off he said he’s like a kindred brother from another mother… because there were many similarities we have about creativity and building. I almost asked him for his number… but I don’t know how people will respond to being so forward. I mean I don’t know many here, but I know I’d enjoy hanging out with those two. Shoot even helping them with their vehicles would be cool… and they said I should learn how to sail… and said I’ve already been looking into it. One day… it’s coming. So I went in and sent pictures and videos to the wife. She ended up looking up for herself on the Walmart app and found something she liked but wasn’t at the store. So she’s going to have it mailed to the property. I came home loved on Elvis and cooked my dinner… and shortly after my roommate and her daughter returned. My roommate was coughing and I thought it sounded like she caught a cold over at her parents but she said it’s because of my pipe smoke. Which I have no clue how it could be detected… lol… but it just makes me want to get my own place even more. I feel like I’m making her sick and I don’t want to do that. And I’m in progress of being more conscious with my smoking behavior but to completely stop is not now. Yeah the wife at the temple said she could smell smoke on me. I told her that I’m working on my relationship but I’m hoping to learn from the tobacco plant in ceremony. Again I don’t think she’s really hearing what I’m saying. There are things that I don’t follow in their ways… that’s the unstructured she says and thinks that could do me good. I’m sure some structure could… but losing my freedom to decide whether it’s true or not will not be taken away from me. As long as they’re not trying to convert me… we should all work well together. I hope to learn from them… and hopefully they’re open to learn from me as well. Shoot… I’d love to be able to connect with Spiritual leaders. I’d like to show how shamanism can be effective for spiritual practices as well. So we’ll see how it goes… but I’m curious to see how this all plays out. I think this is good for tonight. I got the sleep mask that my Thailand friend recommended delivered today. I’ll start to try it out for sleeping and see when I’ll be able to do the 24 hour blackout in the future. But I’m getting tired. So until next time…

What say ye, o' wise ones? Speculation and total BS 100% allowed.

Name: Asia Prestigiacomo Age: 17 Gender: Female Location: Rome, Italy Occupation: student Marital Status: married Kids: No Hobbies: enlightement, meditation, reading, knitting, sewing with the machine, vegetable garden, animals, cooking, hiking. (Apologies for my elementary english because i'm a learner) My journey has started 3 years ago when i became a serious activist for enviromental issues. I've started to become an authentical zero waster, collecting all my waste in a glass jar, i've also started to raise people's awareness at school, to friends, teachers and family. In 3rd year of lyceum of arts, i met my best friend Valentina, a seriously awakened girl, who suddently became my spiritual guru. Thanks to her i learned about indian spirituality, karma and reincarnation, i became a vegetarian and after a vegan. I read a lot of books of Paramahansa Yogananda and Shirla Prabupada (Hare Krishna founder). My changes with religions were: raised as a christian child, atheist in middle school, agnostic in the beginning of lyceum, Hare Krishna and now spiritual. About 8 months ago everything started to loose meaning and now i am dealing with this problem, because i don't find much more satisfactiom in everyday life and passions, and my mind has an hard time accepting it. Last month Valentina has suggested me actualized.org and i started to watch Leo's lessons. I always say that when i listen to a lesson and it really vibes into me, i'm just listening to words that explains perfectly something that i already knew. I can say that most Leo's videos has caused this situation of "already knew" inside me. Expecially the ones about pratical life, and also something about god, karma and spirituality. Personal challenges I've overcome: - finding my man - eating healty and natural medicine - critical thinking - overcome 'having children to make sense of my life' What I'm working on now: - spiritual awakening - looking for the meaning and the truth - accepting deseases and other's death (- having my own vegetarian farm and vegetable garden to live in an indipendent way)

Over the last months I have sunk deeper into mysticism and awareness. Just recently I had an abstract experience with 5MeoDMT last week where everything I was aware of dissolved into one primordial liquid, a field of endless possibilities and manifestations, it was both scary and majestic. I stumbled upon the Seth material the other day, a woman who learned to channel a trans-dimensional intelligence who she calls "Seth",, I am not yet entirely sure if thats really possible but clearly the lady knows her shit and its been a fascinating read so far. Tho they place a huge emphasis on the idea of reincarnation and a persistent individual soul. The way I see it, our bodies and experiences share within the same soul, the one god that makes up all of reality. For me, to begin to conceptualize the idea of individual souls would bring conflicts of separation from the one source of it all. What are your thoughts?

I just had an insight into what I think is the universal deepest fear and that is Eternity. I got this idea from watching Sartre’s No Exit play and the Good Place. Eternity robs life of all meaning. Death in a way is our salvation and escape from eternal boredom. I think there comes a point when our soul reaches the “I’m done” moment and wants to experience reality from a different perspective. Imagine that if your consciousness was locked into the human form forever, you as God would get tired of that. God cannot be omniscient if it blocks itself off from experiencing everything that isn’t human. This is why I think reincarnation might be true. Reincarnation is like beating one video game to play another. But eternity goes deeper than boredom. One of the reasons why people kill themselves is because they believe their depression will last forever, which of course is a self-deception. You born and die in self-deception. What do you think? Do you think eternity is our greatest fear? Of course a counter argument is that we wouldn’t fear everlasting, eternal happiness. But I would argue that even happiness would lose meaning without the experience of other contrasting emotions.

Okay. I don't believe in God. I believe there is enlightenment, but there is no God. There are just animals and aliens. I also have a strong opinion that the universe is a dangerous, sometimes very unfair and cruel place. For me death is sometimes desirable, other times it is really scary, the pain of dying and living or the pain of maybe even reincarnation. I don't actually believe in reincarnation. It is hard to believe in it when the fact is that my body and brain will never again exist which makes it impossible for me to exist. I never existed prior to my birth and even then I don't really remember that much. I don't identify myself as God, creator of reality or whatever. For me Consciousness is a form of power that moves everything in existence. Everyone is predetermined and consciousness is not even aware, but it thinks it is. It's just some form of power that moves dreams and people in it. Or consciousness is the dream matter itself, incomprehensible, mystical and magical like the sea. For me being reborn in a worse reality than this is scary, but why? Why does the universe have to be so fucking evil? Made my life the way it is and is gonna make another one even worse? Why not believe in the possibility of getting reincarnated in a better reality? My wishes never even became reality so maybe it is just possible to let reality do whatever it wants without me in it. I don't want to be forced to stay in hell for no good reason. Lastly, I feel abandoned, poor, ashamed, unacceptable, stupid.

Some Spiritual Thoughts I have been I suppose exercising a nondual train of thought because I feel like I resonates with it me an my values and because of how much peace and empathy it has brought me. I want to describe that a little bit more here today using the context of my processing of the Palestinian genocide. I wouldn't say that I have experienced god myself. I've just been trying this thing out for the past 2 years where I have taken some of the interesting ideas I have heard from Leo and from my class Understanding the Self: Eastern and Western Perspectives in regards to what God and Consciousness is and how I can embody that more. Nonduality and Consciousness We are all part of one consciousness and there is no separation between my consciousness and the consciousness of others. There is this illusion of separation, of duality, because nonduality is all encompassing, meaning it also contains duality as paradoxical as it can seem. The consciousness I have is no different than the consciousness of a Palestinian infant who has lost their family and is the sole survivor. It's no different from the IDF soldier posting thirst traps on TikTok. It's no different from the bystander in Germany who is going about life as if nothing is happening and it's no different from the consciousness of a person in the U.S. who has family in Gaza. And I think embodying this thought more allows me to view everyone as more human and even if they are not human still part of the same on consciousness, thus opening me up to more empathy and understanding because in the end of the day, it is all me. I am not my name, my body, the things I own, the things I experience, or the things I feel. All of that is relative to my material conditions. When you strip everything away, I am the consciousness. And if consciousness is God, I am God. And if consciousness is everything, then I am everything. And when you see yourself in everything, you walk with much more gentleness and empathy than if you were to separate yourself from creation. God is Everything If consciousness is in everything and everyone, and consciousness in each person is God's way of experiencing reality and his creation from infinite perspectives, why does god create atrocities like genocide? It's because consciousness, unlike ego, isn't motivated by survival as it know it's infinite. God created the Palestinian mother who lost everything because it wants to know what it's like to live that life from it's very conception to it's very end to fully understand and embody it. It's also how God becomes/is all knowing, because God lives in all perspectives. It's hard for our human ego to imagine why God would let such atrocities happen and let creation suffer as so because even the best of us have great difficulty to abandon survival fully to where we would be content being bombed indiscriminately in the same way that it's content living in a luxury penthouse apartment. God's desire to experience has no bounds because in nonduality all there is is consciousness. and therfore it embodies infinite forms of love. And if God is everything and is infinite, meaning it is boundless, there is nothing stopping it from creating boundaries and challenges, and individual egos. God loves the mass shooter and wants to experience reality from it's perspective in the same way that God has boundless love towards the victims of the shooting. To love is to take the interest of another as your own and the deepest way to do that is embodiment. And because God is infinite love, it loves even the ugliest parts of existance that is hard for any regular person's ego to accept, much less embody. Reincarnation And the whole bit about how when we die and consciousness stops, there might be a void but since there is nothing else to do, God comes back and continues to experience and embody infinite forms of consciousness, I believe explains reincarnation as well. I believe that it explains reincarnation in a nonlinear way. I might be soos_mite_ah in this life but maybe in my next life I'll be Harriet Tubman. Maybe in my next life I will be born as my mother, my best friend, or maybe a random person 500 years into the future. God will eventually experience every life and then keep doing it tenfold for an infinite amount of times for an infinite duration of time. And this experiences how God is all knowing as well because God has experience every perspective. For example, I can crack open a history book and know the general life story of Harriet Tubman from the point of view that consciousness is experiencing from soos_mite_ah. When consciousness is experiencing Harriet Tubman, it won't know her whole life story from beginnning to end as it did in its past life it experienced centuries into the future. But it will know the day to day minutia and embody the experiences that Harriet Tubman had from birth to death and even the forgotten points in between. Consciousness is all knowing because it has experienced Harriet Tubman for example in everyway possible. Everything in linear time has already happened and is happening simultaneously. It just doesn't seem so because of the way consciousness limits itself to take everything in. I bring this up because I guess a nondual practice I have to experience more empathy is to imagine that everyone I meet is a different part of consciousness and that I have experienced or yet to experience consciousness from their perspective. The thousands of people who have died in Gaza are a thousand different past or future lives my consciousness has experienced. And I imagine it as if I am the one who experienced these first hand atrocities, one because on a certain level I have, but two it helps my ego exercise a nondual mindset. And if that empathy feels like it's too much to bear and that it's too painful and horrific, I remind myself that God wanted to experience this from a high level because God isn't as limited as I, the ego, am with the desire for comfort and safety. And this experience gives me a visceral experience of empathy followed by a sense of peace where even though I haven't embodied God's love, that I get it to a certain extent theoretically. It's very humbling and grounding I would say. The whole point of life is to experience and that is exactly what consciousness does indiscriminantly. And the more we align ourself to fully experience, the good, bad the ugly, and fully embody both being completely present to where we even accept the experiences we have where we're not present, the less resistance we face because we are in line with the one fact in the universe, that consciousness is everything and is here to experience everything. I really hope all of this doesn't sound like spiritual rambling.

Hey All, Again, this is not my personal experience but rather intellectual understanding based on my reading of trip reports and Leo's/Other Guru's videos. Here it is. Leo has been reincarnated. Leo and all those who have had "breakthroughs" on DMT/SHROOM/LSD etc trips. How so? Leo, as well as other people's trip reports I have read say this: "I died." That is how they see the truth. upon their death. Call it ego-death or whatever, but as Leo has said this many times - ego-death vs our normal definition of physical death, are really the same thing. Ego-Death isn't anything less than the "REAL-Physical" death of a person. Now where is the "reincarnation"? Many trip reports I have read, people say that they spent an eternity in that state of one-ness, of eternal bliss or whatnot etc before "returning" back to their bodies. Now people say this also, that when we are born, we "choose" to incarnate in a certain body, knowing all well what we intend to do in that lifetime of the person we are being born as. So what we can say is this, when people who just take these substances have a breakthrough experience where they have an ego-death - they then "choose" to come back to this reality. They come back fresh from having downloaded all those insights in their heads. All the questions answered. and with that knowledge etched in their subconsious, they are usually in that bliss-full state for the 1st few days / weeks after that breakthrough trip. Slowly they integrate back to the earthly life (those who are not on the spirtual path more quickly than the one who has taken the subtance knowing about this) so basically, their previous self before the trip is literally dead. They come back as the "new" version/life of themselves. and this is no different than reincarnation. unsure what mechanism is upon physical-death where the body dies and there isn't anything to return back to... then you maybe "choose" or incarnate near the timeline of ur death... except when we incarte after physical-death, this is done in baby-infant form. where all those insights that we know of, and even the memory of that place, is all lost. even in a fully grown adult state, the experince is barely recalled and whatever is recalled is also said to be a mere pointer and not even 1% of what was witnessed. i feel like this maybe all over the place but yeah, my insight about this is in here somewhere i hope

Awakening is opening yourself to the present moment. It doesn't matter anything else, any structure, knowing if there are others, if there is reincarnation, if this is a dream... it is completely irrelevant. It is only the present, now, deep, alive, limitless, real and wonderful, full of life, of joy for existing. Everything else are just histories

Yes the word is a pattern we created :D. From a cursory glance: From the 1580s, "to make a pattern for, design, plan" https://www.etymonline.com/word/pattern I am still gaining innerstanding of how the cycles of reincarnation are maintained while we are also an absolute being of everything at once. The pattern as I understand it is we relive these cycles perfecting them each time. There is no separation in lifetimes to consciousness, patterns just reoccur. Physics will tell you your body is an energetic pattern, a psychologist will tell you your behaviors are a pattern, an astronomist will tell you about the patterns of the stellar bodies, or a doctor the patterns going on inside you. Observed experiences are a pattern you experience in this life, you can see events and situations you encounter repeating in society around you and in yourself. If you have past life regressions you can see how these patterns were present previously, in different forms. I wonder if part of this is because we want to experience the same positive things we experienced in this lifetime again and again, and learn from the problems we face. To reality there is no separation between lifetimes, it's just another body(pattern) to observe these cycles of experience. When the pattern no longer serves us it is not run anymore.

Once a full openess is restored, experience of existence is even multi dimensional and sphericaI. Yes, bla bla bla...., It's beyond limitations of a tool of human mind and its subtool - human language. Therfore all pre-experience discussions about concepts of solipsism or reincarnation are somehow... pointless. And even after, it's still pointless😄. You are creator of your beliefs, assumptions, worldviews, your reality.

I had a psychedelic trip where there was this sense of rebirth and death over and over again in different lifes. I took 400 ug of 1P-LSD and locked myself in a completely dark room for about 6 hours and did nothing. Honestly I have very blur memories of the experience because it was a lot of shit to process. But there was this recurring theme of rebirth and death over and over again, also my personal identify took some radical shifts to the point I wasn't even myself anymore. At some points I thought I was insane to the point of no return. This was about a month and a half ago and I still don't know what to make of it. Anyway, any thoughts on reincarnation or any useful sources to investigate more about this topic? or are this just traps of the mind. Thanks for any reply!

Today I got a response from Dignitas. I feel like I could get everything good in life, health, financial independence, security, love, and all. But this is better than nothing. Even if there is no reincarnation, which I'm choosing not to believe in for the purpose of making a sound choice, I would still want this now because, hey, it's people. They can be monsters. The biggest monsters on earth live around me here. Because of them my life is as it is now and was as it was. I can't wait for death to help me escape from family, society, poverty, abuse, injustice, disease, and so forth. I can't wait to die with dignity. I might be exempted from paying basically over 12000 franks and maybe I get this. What do you think? I just have to sign some papers when I am able to leave the country. Finally, God and Freedom is coming faster than I thought I would have to wait for them to come:')

@Hojo You actually don't have to push it further, look to the animal kingdom, plenty of infanticide, and killing if infants by predators, and plenty of rape. Even look at other hominids, and early man, plenty of evil shit happens especially in tribal wars and in history, plent of examples of people doing evil anyway. Good reason why incarnation and reincarnation exists.

See my journals regarding this topic. Wealth of information in there. I talk about nightmares. Just yesterday I had one. It was a doorway into my subconscious and I also think a part of it is related to my past life. I have karmic burdens and debts and I made some karmic connections in this lifetime in the romantic sense that have caused me great personal injury and harm. I'm trying to get closure on that since a year now. Also I'm dealing with demons, psychic attacks, negativity. Leo talked about psychic attacks. I don't remember the post. He was talking about negaity entity removal and things like that. These things are disturbing, violent, rapey. I get very disturbing nightmarez due to pedophile abuse. I don't know if it's present or past. They unravel during sleep rem. Also if you are stuck in hung mode where you can't find karmic closure in this birth. Read about reincarnation. It means unfinished business. I'm trying to resolve my karma but this is not an easy path. I recommend self exploring in zen state. Sorry for the typos.

What is a soul? How to best define it? Does a soul have a personality of its own? What I mean here is, just like people are different at the level of their mind dew to their learning and personality, are two people different at the level of their soul dew to certain traits? What is a spirit? The difference between soul, spirit and pure consciousness. Why are we born? Is reincarnation true? If so, why are we reincarnated again and again? Do moksha ( end of reincarnation ) a true? Thank You.

Let's start a discussion of this post here: https://www.actualized.org/insights/zionist-self-bias On a relative level, is this conflict similar to the European/Spanish settlers vs the Apache/Comanche conflict, over territorial expansion? So, the greater the nationalism, ethnocentrism, and religious identity and ego attachments, the greater the self deception? If true, then is this why Samskara/reincarnation exists, so that most of the self deluded souls corrupted by others' lies can try again to realize deeper and broader truths, not just god realization? Was this also why Jesus Christ ended up getting killed, for trying to expose these deep leveled hypocrisies? Albert Einstein did warn them about nationalism. No arguing or heated exchanges. Let's be as non-judgmental and good faith as humanly possible.

Informative article on Dr.Brian Weiss and his evolution from a conservative and skeptical psychiatrist to a believer in reincarnation. https://lifestyle.inquirer.net/165945/skeptical-psychiatrist-finds-proof-of-reincarnation/

A lot of new age content make it sound like you are ascending; it’s incredible, we’re getting upgraded to the fifth dimension. But from what I can tell, wether you call it spiritual awakening, mid life crisis, a existential crisis, dark night of the soul,... it is pointing to the same thing, and has been there since the dawn of time. (See Joseph Campbell’s Hero’s Journey). There comes a time in the life of a man where he needs transformation. There is no upgrade, you didn’t choose to incarnate right now because it is so cool to awaken, you won’t get caught in another 17000 years of reincarnation if you don’t upgrade your vibration right now. I can’t believe I adopted these silly beliefs for a while. It is ridiculous. There is only a transformation, a return to the Self.

Samsara = Nirvana, as they say in Buddhism. Once you realize that the endless cycle of reincarnation IS the kingdom of God, you will have found the paradise that guys like Jesus have been pointing you towards.