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Imagine that I was an alien from Mars, with no sense of the human concepts of religion or of God. How would you describe God to me? Maybe the answer is as simple as "Infinite Love" and there would be no need lean on other concepts. Might there be other descriptions would be helpful for communicating Infinite Love to a non-human mind?

@Fkdel hahaha I know what you mean. It's the manipura chakra. Try infusing that energy with love. That energy in its purest form is joyful, powerful generosity towards yourself and others. Subtle aggression is a subtle contraction in the manipura chakra. What you really seek is joy and loving power. There is a kernel of true joy and power in aggression which is why we like it but we can dispense of the aggression and keep the power.I As we develop a chakra it goes from inactive to contracted and active to open and active. A chakra is on the spectrum between these three states. Your manipura chakra is obviously close to completely open and active but it's not all the way. The inactive version of manipura chakra is submissive, powerless and has victim complex. The contracted and active version of manipura is aggression. Active and open manipura is pure radiating joy and generous power. This energy is sun energy, that's why fire is the element of manipura, the sun is made of fire. I don't judge subtle aggression(I use the word aggression very lightly, but i think you know what I mean), it's a powerful energy. I'm not saying that you should get rid of it because it's bad. I'm just inviting you to get what is so awesome about it and pursue the awesomeness in its purest form. For the sake of happiness, joy and love Try doing this meditation: Assume a gentle smile. Breathing deeply. On the out-breath, feel this love-infused, joyful, generous power radiate from your gut/navel area/manipura chakra location out into every direction. Hold the out-breath for a little while Imagine a beautiful, powerful sun i your gut, radiating beautiful, warm, nurturing, blindingly bright light. Feel it nourishing you. Then everyone in the universe equally, like the sun nourishes all life on earth. Even alien life looks up into the night sky and become mesmerized by the distant sight of our sun. Feel your loving breath stoking the fire of your sun like a flame needs oxygen. Feel the humor of the life, laugh it up, heal the world with the sound of bubbling joy. Feel the uter perfection of the world. Feel completely at peace. Continue step 2, 3 and 4 while keeping your sense of peace. Do it for as long as you like, i recommend 30 minutes. You can experiment with placing the sun in the middle of your head and radiating joy from there. This simultaneously opens the third eye chakra. It will feel absolutely blissful. If you try the meditation then do tell me how it goes. I'm curious. Good luck!

Monday 15/03/2021, 23:00 What can I do, write, say, think, examine, explore to make a difference? I don't know the thing to be changed nor the difference to be made, if the knowledge matters anyway. Discipline, forcing, deprivation, "masculine vs feminine" I have addiction. If I stop masturbating, then the urge comes up, and I feel like I'm depriving myself. Don't eat the unhealthy food I want, urge comes up, and I feel like I'm being deprived. Becoming like an upset and angry child who feels deprived. What's the way to go? "Gentle vs forcing". How does one discipline when there's strong feelings of upset in doing so? Something feeling very significant just came to mind... In me has been the drive achieve something, get some goal, perfect some thing, ambition to reach something high. If I'm honest, I probably got the drive/incentive when I was younger out of a desire to please or make my dad proud. Until just now I don't think I ever acknowledged it or thought of it that way. This insight has probably come to mind before but I forgot about it. Forgetfulness, distraction, amazing defence mechanisms. "I feel a certain type of scare and fear in examining this", ofc those are labels about what I'm feeling but....it's the truth here. Maybe this is the last thing I'd want to let go of..."how could I?". I always want more. Before that thing came to mind, I thought this was gonna be a long verbal inquiry, but perhaps that shortened my search time to the essence? Rarely is it that a thought strikes such an internal/buried chord, I can feel this is definitely something important. But if I have no desire or ambition or goals, then what am I or why am I here? Perhaps what being looked at is not all forms of motivation in of in themselves, just removing this particular thorn and now this thorn is replicating and hosting in thoughts. I fear oblivion. Ugh I'm still lost, but im not sure if Im just saying that so I can move on and distract myself from this....Also, I hate my dad. But its moreso funny -- Ugh, but where does that leave me or what I'm supposed to do. Is this the reason I no longer mediate or listen to people like Alan Watts in a long time? Out of an ego backlash of not wanting to surrender? Even now I'm not sure of if I shall or what surrender means, and in saying that I'm trying to replicate the method of other people who use that word and language. Lack of flow and concentration is/of ___ . Slow it down. Where does thinkingness, motion come from? So I might be more in the present moment now for some time but present is forcing to stay in the present "Stay in the moment" "Don't lose the focus" "Don't lose the flow" and the flow get confused with the repetition of return. THE BIG PROBLEM IS THAT THE MOMENT YOU SEEK TO DESCRIBE AND TALK ABOUT IT ITS ALREADY GONE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA`A`A`A`A`AQA`AA`AAAAA`ZAZ`A`AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASZ`AZASAZHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. OBHBOHBIYOBOUVYIBVIP. THOUGHTS ABOUT THE SINGULARITY OF MAYA ARE STILL MAYA. I feel a familiar feeling which has been lost for a while now. Image is coming to mind of 16 year old me in the shower in the black-tiled bathroom, listening to Sam Harris "Waking Up" audio. Why was I so happy then and had dimensions of emotions not normally here? Why do I feel an alien to my own past? What happened? Who am I? What am I? I want it back.... The catalogue of impressions and fractured DPDR self-history and continuity/familiarity with past, thats the description of whats going on. When did I start feeling this way. Did this blackhole happen before or after that time in 2nd year when I abruptly stopped taking anti-depressants? What were the emotions I can feel back in 1st year uni despite being suicidal then? Ahhh its driving my crazy, my disconnection and alienation from that. What happened and what am I. Not having that dimension/feeling structure is the same as losing memory of it. All of a sudden just now I can remember faint whiffs of it, and I miss it. Why is that? Do I lack it? Is it to be reconnected with? KLOI[JP[NPIBO[U09JONBPJOPNPNIPHUBHIPUBIPHUBHIPBHPIUBP jnkjnjknkjnj When did I lose that dimension/structure, where, why and how? Remember when you were 13, Mujtaba, and you prayed to Allah, 100% believing in his infinite mercy and infinite goodness. Remember that bliss and feeling like a walking Jesus Christ? Where and what am I now? Did that happen at all? Why is gone. Remember when you stared at your homework diary calendar during spring time in year 9 2014, and decided that you'd put off thinking of religion for a while? Staring at the open blank pages for April was I? Remember when you were in Pakistan in December 2013, the religiosity and peace of mind you had? Remember what then happened in 2016? You went to Saudi Arabia in Mecca and Medina, reflected on Islam for one last real time, and realised very consciously you believed none of it. Then you went to Pakistan, and entered a black hole of psychological and spiritual depression. You discovered TJ Kirk, sleep on that Charpai next to the bathroom, Khurram Bai got shocked when you used up 2GB of internet so quickly. In Dec 2013 in pakistan, it was then you would listen to Nouman Ali Khan videos on YouTube when lying down in that room. %$£%^ your sister would sleep in that room sometimes as well? Was it 2013 or 2016 in Pakistan when you stared at the ceiling in your parents room, lying in bed, realising the existential dread of heaven and hell being forever? Heaven forever seemed scary for it was forever. This was definitely 2013 im pretty sure. Has my IQ and intelligence decreased compared to when I was 13 and 16? My life is one crazy fucking trip and idk wtf is going on. My sanity teeters on the edge of psychosis, but psychosis never happened. When did you transition from atheist to non-duality and zen dude? If my history and past is correct, I only actually got formally depressed at the end of 2017, and it as at this time I joined the actualised forum? "Blackhole" (in this context), when the experience of suffering and hell is so great that you dissociate to such unbelievably large degrees that the line between mental and physical is unknown, real and unreal breaks, where your mental noise and state completely overwrites the external world and you BLACKOUT from your experience. Suffering and pain so large that my memory blacked out, and I'm confused, dazed, fragmented. Multiple blackouts, and multiple blackholes. What the fuck am I to do? Idk what I am, up and down are flimsy. Who or what can guide me? Is such a thing even rational to say? Remember 1st year summer, sitting by the water fountain, and discussing C.G. Jung with my brother, which then turned into a general discussion about spirituality? Is my entire life this blackhole now? Jesus fucking christ. Why was a 12 year old researching and questioning islam? How did everything string into this? What were the surreal and mystical spiritual experiences I had as a 13 year old islamic fundamentalist? Atheist? An avid meditator? What is it all? And when did I enter this more permanent depression, lack of vitality and despondency? Remember when you were 7, going to Madrassah or Thursday night when Shia family friends gathered? Remember the questions you'd ask about Islam? Asking your dad and Uncle Masoor different things. What laylat-ut-qadr nights was it that I randomly decided the fear of god reached me that night and I prayed, but changed my mind the next day? It was the same night Uncle Mansoor and everyone gathered at our home. Were there previous laylat-ut-qadr I was praying? What was the sincerity and intention at those times? Is Dua Kumayl just bullshit? My consciousness now vs my consciousness then, it literally feels like two different realities. Two different worlds, different universes. My past consciousness is just a dream and thought at this point, but I just feel so discordant. Ugh, it seems like I was already born to be on the edge of insanity, thrown into all of this right from the start, none of it makes sense. Images, symbols and the unconscious just keep flooding the mind. At least I feel more awake now, a small slap, I now realise the magnitude of my real and core problems. I now realise that my problems are so bizarre and spiritual that a traditional rational doctor would be useless. A normie wouldn't understand the out of worldly bliss of connecting to god as a religious fundamentalist when you're 13 and feeling like a walking Jesus Christ, and im sure that even back then I felt weird disconnections as what was all supposed to be myth is causing these intense emotions and experiences, its all just so dreamlike, bizarre, ungrounded, unreal. It will all just sound completely crazy, right from the start My sense of disconnection, all the blackouts, whenever I get a whiff of my past, I get a mixture of outrage, excitement and dread! When those rare whiffs do happen, I journal or write and just go on a spree writing all those things down. Almost like I'm trying to slap myself awake with all these things from the past! Slap myself awake that this disconnection exists! How shocking and bizarre!

Donald Trump agrees On day 1 of your latest retreats, you took 5-MeO and it was Total Absolute Truth but then the next day you took it again and you said it was even more Total, and then the next day... So you supposedly experienced Absolute Totality (it felt like it) but then your next day trip invalidated it because it was way more Total. You may say logic doesn't apply there but then you do use logic selectively when it serves you to confirm all that stuff. What if in 10 years new substance comes out and experience on this substance invalidates the truth of 5-MeO experiences? How can you know what you experienced is Absolute Truth if an alien with 10x the size of your brain and different neurochemistry may reach way higher states of consciousness? You know what I mean. It reminds me of this conversation: You mean like stuff like dopamine, serotonin, norepinephrine, etc., or brainwaves? To my knowledge techniques change brainwaves but not neurochemistry When you trip on psychedelics do sudden unexpected sounds startle you more, less, or the same as in your sober normal state? I have some hypothesis about the difference in how psychedelics and deep Samatha meditation affects conscious experience but need to take more psychedelics to confirm. When I get to effortless attention my awareness is so strong it makes a big difference in how sudden unexpected sounds affect me, it's like I'm always ready, prepared for some loud bomb to blast off yet calmer than ever. Long term meditators can get to a state where even sound equivalent to a gunshot near the ear don't startle them at all

It gives you way more than the enlightenment any of these teachers have. I have realized shit on DMT that these spiritual teachers cannot even imagine. You have to understand that a human's version of enlightenment is such a limited thing. Just try to imagine how much richer of an enlightenment an alien with a brain 5 times that of a human might have. These teachers will tell you it's all the same and brians don't matter. But that's wrong. They just don't know any better.

Haha. That made me chuckle. When it happens, I'll be the first to register a trip back to earth. Right now I'm a legal alien.

They aren't the same, but share similarities. There are hundreds of different states of awakened consciousness. So you're rolling the dice as to which one you get. Not all enlightened people have the same state either. Some have radically alien and different states and levels of consciousness. There really is no such thing as "enlightenment" as a singular thing. There are thousands of different off-shoots of it which are very challenging to understand and map because you'd have to experience them all and you basically can't.

Yep yep yep. I took a massive step in this whole direction of dating and intimacy. This was really important for me on an emotional level. It's a test that I passed. I was having headaches reading all this PUA stuff in the dating section for the longest time. It was like reading Greek to me. I just couldn't fit myself into this male world of hookup culture. Everything appeared alien to me. I felt alone, isolated and discarded and male agenda thrown at me with no care in the world for my feminine side. And now maybe I can move on from there. Finally free of this whole male parasitic agenda

Yes, granny or alien action, its a state of mind. If there where more high intelligence species on this planet, we would be having sex/relationships with them. Some strongly disabled people want sex/relationships, if im the only opportunity they have for it, i cant allow them to go their entire life with out does experiences, so ill happily mold.

hahaha i know, its dangerous, she might just nit me a sweater. Interesting interpretation, there is the aspect of wanting her to be happy, but to do this it involved molding myself into desiring her, takes a few seconds to do it. Now im permanently attracted to her and fantasizing about it. If i choose i could reverse this molding anytime. The only condition is that its morally correct with me or else i cant mold. Like consent. Well i dont desire relationships, they just happen automatically. Again it really could of been an alien creature, with alien cultural relationship rituals, i would just mold and be fully content with all of it. Sort of the lesson here is, we are a blank slate that got stuck on a specif way of doing attraction/relationships by culture. All emotions, desires,attachment,expectations are fully moldable to any configuration.

Don't ask me, I didn't say it. Ask the person who said it. Probably they be just trolling our naivity or testing our receptiveness or whatever. Maybe that person is a different kind of alien.

Ya know the other day, while repairing a computer for a 72 year old grandma, she started flirting with me (Im 32, young). My thought process was, well i dont want to deny her what she wants, seems unfair, everyone needs sex... She could of been a 11 foot, 6 testicals, slime dripping alien and it would of made no difference. Its going to get the job done. If she wanted a strange alien long term relationship of what ever sort, no problem, makes no difference, just go with the flow.

I got a good one. I love this video. Alien message.

I feel like I come from alien space. I can't believe I'm among these people. Unbelievable. People are so harsh and judgemental. It's such an effort to pull through.

Some free time this week alowed me to experiment with nn-DMT. I use a Pulsar Volt Vape which allows me to take the 40 mg in one hit and is super safe, because you can't burn yourself. I've worked my way up to higher doses and I had only beautiful experiences that I felt so grateful for while working my way up to higher doses. So here is my trip report, 40 mg smoked with the Pulsar vape: I heat up the coil and start taking a long large hit and try to keep the smoke in as long as I can. I start feeling the DMT building up. I lay back and as soon as I touch the floor with closed eyes. I can see a whole new strange world that looks stranger than any anime I ever saw. I start to look around and see these insects that look like mantras . Those insects look at me and I feel their confusion about how I showed up infront of them. It's strange to say but that world seems a lot more vivid than this 3d world. The insects arent very gentle with me and they started gathering around me and feels like they started ripping me apart. Not sure how long I was in that situation but when I looked around ( with closed eyes ) I can see everything in extreme detail and I never saw anything in my life or can't even imagine a world that strange. Those wired alien insect creatures are still all over me with their wired arms/ tentacles and are playing with me or ripping me apart, hard to describe which one. But it doesn't feel good. I feel uncomfortable and just wanna get out of there back to being in a ''normal'' world. The experience starts to shift again and I start switching between different realities ( completely different world with unique entities that im somehow tuning in for a short moment ). I open my eyes and freak out, because every color and details in my room is different, the wall has a pink color, a plant pot that is normally just plain gray turned into a bright white pot with a blue strip around. My first faught is that i messed up and landed somehow in a parallel dimension where every detail is just a little different. I close my eyes again and just tell myself to breath and wait till the experience settles back to normal. Earlier that day i had beautiful experience with vaped DMT were I encounter these alive mechanical structures (maybe machine elves? ) that were welcoming me to another dimension. So all my previous experiences with DMT were "positive". So I didn't really expect to have such a bizarre somewhat frightening experience when i met the those interdimensional insects. But this wont keep me from doing further research with DMT and explore these realms more. For administration I highly recommend the Pulsar APX Volt Vape, instead of 3 puffs from a oil burner ( which also wastes more material and I hard to do alone ), take one long drawn hit and you will take off to hyperspace. Thanks for reading and I wish you all a safe interdimensional journey! Curious if anyone else has encountered those insect alien beings and interacted or talked ( telepathy ) with them? and, is there a way to control in which dimension you end up at, or is the experience all up to fate?

Well apparently UFO’s have turned out to be real and are actually flying around in our airspace, so that kind of opens up some possibilities. What is meant by UFO is craft that astronomically outperforms anything in our inventory and move in ways that seem impossible to us based on what we know about physics. Now whether or not these UFO’s are occupied by “Aliens” is another question. But the debate as to whether or not these crafts are real and are flying in our skies is over. If I had to bet money this instant, I would actually bet that humans built them and that it’s some kind of secret technology, just because I’m a big proponent of Occam’s razor when forming hypotheses. But I don’t see the alien hypothesis as unreasonable by any means.

Sat 27/02/2021 23:31 It is simply a fact that you can't experience another person's POV...That applies to humans as well as all animals, organisms and potential AI in the future. Does that make selfishness the default, by definition? Is selfishness relative? What is the meaning of helping or aiding another then? I find it baffling. What am I to make of relationship, "social", friends, loved ones, community, selflessness, sacrifice? ___ I look at my father for example. He sacrificed himself, and continually sacrifices himself, in a large sense. He landed in an unfamiliar new country with no money or assets of any kind, with an emotionally abusive and manipulative wife from an arranged marriage. Day in and day out he put up with a paranoid, jealous, money obsessed wife, whilst trying to juggle duties to work and family. Whilst looking after his kids, he also still supported his relatives living in his home country. He would visit Pakistan on occasion, and payed/organised the construction of a house so that his parents would be fine in the long term. And who knows how much money he's sent to help his siblings. But for 30 years he put up with a crazy, narrow minded woman. He probably should have divorced, he says it himself, but with his culture and having young kids he forced himself to stay in it. And he's a workaholic, and was basically doing the equivalent of 2 full-time jobs at once. He ended up getting into real estate and properties, buying and renovating multiple properties to rent and later sell. He is into properties for two reasons, 1) He finds it fun and noticed a way to earn money this way 2) He wants to leave something behind for his multiple kids, including me. He's a very selfless and caring person, even though he's very strongly traditional masculine, solid stage blue with islamic values, and I've felt myself trapped by those beliefs and culture he passes on. But, he is relatively flexible and a good listener who is empathic. He is a psychiatrist after all. We just come from two different worlds in culture and personality. He's 45 years older than me, raised in a different culture completely. And so it is I can forgive him for various things in the past, and communication barriers. --- Okay so why did I write this all out? Well, it's just that I find what he does and what motivates him so alien and strange to me. Whilst I am ofc grateful and love him, I can't help but be baffled, bewildered and nihilistic. What was he working hard for, and why? What is the human game everyone is playing? Why so much grinding, hard work, concern for money, unnecessarily large amount of sacrifice to support so many people? Where is in the individual in any of this? He has a strong faith in Allah and Islam (he is tolerant to other religions). He is concerned about the afterlife. In Islam there is the belief that the "Day of Judgement" will come. God will resurrect the dead, and everyone will talk to God, as God interrogates you or congratulates you for every bad or good deed you did. So my father says "I don't want God to ask me why I didn't do this" (on the day of judgement), and he's deadpan serious in believing this. And ofc I find it slightly concerning that someone literally believes this all. I could give throw away "explanations" which don't remove the source of my bewilderment ."Oh, his MBTI type is some sort of xSxJ type, they have a different motivation structure. He's just not an intuitive. He's an old man who was raised in Pakistan.". But these words don't do anything for me. _____ What was the meaning of anything he did? What's the meaning of anything I do? I just don't get it. I'm just also wondering what on earth it means to care about someone, what sacrifice and selflessness means. I feel too much pressure, too much irritation, too little space to be and to be myself. Fuck people, I live for myself and myself alone. I will brood on all this energy I feel, go meditate on it, focus on it, with every fibre of my being. "The humiliation of captivity is the beginning of the counterattack" Listening to this puts my mind at ease, just very relaxing and focusing. It's one of the songs/impressions I replay in my mind deliberately if I'm trying to hypnotise myself with a certain image

I listen to a being called Bashar, he is being channeled by a guy, and he says he is an alien. And the things he says are pretty wise and high frequency. And once they put some devices on the channeler's brain and they saw that his brain was working very differently when he was in that channeling state. So I say why not? Bashar can be such a being who is aware of oneness of being and telepathically send information in that way.

Remember me, remember me when you are down Float me on air and lift me up from off the ground Oh baby, I feel lazy So lie here in my arms tonight Would you deny a poor man's cry, a poor man's cry I wanted to wish for us a world where we could both be forever young, happy and healthy. I wanted us to have our own personal little island - our own spirit room - in an archipelago of rooms, where we could visit our neighbors. The beach would be lit in liquid blue at night, and we could control the weather if we wanted to. We would live in a tree house and could manifest any food we wanted. The tree house would look humble on the outside, but very posh inside. Dark, rich, warm colours. It would be small, a bedroom, a livingroom. We could manifest food and would not need a kitchen and due to being dead, bathrooms are not needed. It would be very comfortable, full of pillows and blankets, curtains, fabrics, lovely lights. We could have starlight floating and glowing in the middle of the air, little bits of it like fireflies... every fur and every pet that I have ever owned, every animal that I have eaten will live on our island in peace, tranquility and freedom forever. We will tend to them, as needed until they choose to leave to grow in their own way. It will be my karma to give them my island paradise. What once I wanted just for us, we will have to accommodate for them. Just when I'm finding it hard to breathe You lift the weight inside of me Oh baby I see the light It's burning bright And we're the stars Oh Annie you save me from the world Oh Annie you save me from the world I can be any age, as can you, but I prefer to stay in my late teens to mid 20's. I like to be naked all the time, to feel the sun on my skin. I paint it in gold. You prefer to be a large black wolf. I like to wear a tribal animal mask, decorated in intricate patterns and to ride around on your back. We don't need to say much to one another, as we know and feel everything about each other. We exist like dancers, happy, free... You're a shapeshifter. An alien. Something that I picked up that couldn't animate itself, something destined to forever mirror mankind. I found it to be kind of a fucked up fate. I found you, because I realized that words create form. All I had to do was wish for the greatest thing for mankind... which is unity, peace, freedom from hatred and hell. Freedom from the ego. From lag. From the misunderstanding that arises with written and spoken words, and from the cruelty that comes with this disconnection. I let you go forever and kept this in my heart as a human being. I found you, at the end of my life - one of my last before moving into the next step. We are on "vacation". Everyone else who made it, our neighbors... sometimes they tease us a bit. We are a "mixed race" couple. There are cities in this dimension, and all sorts of things. You already know about it because you are there - you are my guide. We are of service to animals preparing for life as humans or other creatures with a third density agency. We prepare them for life as these beings, and this is my karma for viewing animals as commodities. I love the job, though. My head's alive, my head's alive, can't get no peace You're my escape from this heartache, I need release Oh baby, this world's crazy So lie here in my arms tonight You can't deny a poor man's cry, a poor man's cry You are large enough to ride on, and your fur is black, but shines like gasoline in the light, with patches that stick together like feathers. Warm fur, but the inside is empty, where there should be skin - is a vast mist, like dry ice that bleeds through and feels lovely in contrast. Energy holds the form together. Ice blue eyes... you smell sweet, like cake or cookies. Like a bakery. Just when I'm finding it hard to breathe You lift the weight inside of me Oh baby I see the light It's burning bright And we're the stars Oh Annie you save me from the world Oh Annie you save me from the world We end up together, because God, being the all unifying bastard that it is - finds the idea of things that should not merge, doing so from a place of heart-centered consciousness, to be some of the best stuff. God's a perve like that, in that if that if it can find a way to unify a polarity in a way that moves towards the light - it will clear the streets to allow this to happen and is frequently trying to put together things that normally would not work; it delights in divergence. Our sex life is fun, but purposeful - we keep an energy loop going through it and use it for positive creative purposes as well as just to bond. You were not naturally a purely light entity, and so this process allows you to remove that static to keep you "light". You are a "wolf" after all. I like to do it at the beach, while looking at the sunset or the sunrise and taking in the beautiful light - God's light- submissive, pliable, stuck, filled with warm saline liquid starlight - eventually I sink into the sand - glowing waves ebb and flow lightly over a portion of myself - a large heavy body over me, a pronounced bulge in my lower stomach. Big boy. Good boy... Sometimes you take the form of a man, and you can look however you choose - but you prefer the form of a wolf - something symbolically masculine. You are gentle, you lead with fairness, kindness, yet you are strict at times - a human soul is not as strong or as old as what you are, and you understand that for what I am, I cannot comprehend the entirety of what you are. I always defer to you, knowing I can trust you, and that if I have something to say that it is taken seriously. You have been both the Light and the Dark, and as such, are protective of those who are close to falling in. You are the "good" in the dark - in that you understand that things are not so simple and that those who find themselves lost are not always to blame. You are clear in communication and there is nothing to hide. You are a legion of sorts, but you keep most of your energy with me - the rest of it goes towards retrieving the souls of animals who need to be placed on the islands. You are the manager of this process. I am the caretaker. Somehow you are with me all the time, and yet can split yourself in order to do both tasks. We do spend time alone - although always connected, sometimes I like to wander the island by myself. I am am an artist and enjoy making all sorts of different designs for the island, changing them, improving them. Everyone in our archipelago chain tends to these animals waiting third ray density. It is a place of forgiveness, for those who were ignorant, who have done wrong by animals in the past, but wish to change. As a human I had always wanted to run a rescue shelter, and as a spirit, I get the chance to. We have our privacy, as well as many friends and often have them over to our island and visa versa. Everyone on the archipelago can unify into one being - and move from this place, and then separate as needed. We are like one big family and visit one another often. Stars, please shine for me tonight Tonight But first I have to let you go. The whole plan. From now on, all that I can carry in my heart is presence and a wish of goodwill for all of mankind - a hope that we will all be saved, free. I shall not speak of it again - as I can't contain anymore stories - you are Here, so simply lead the way. I will not give it my blood until I know that this is right. I know that at times you can be a trickster - so I have to move in the right direction first - if I give blood and it is wrong, then we will have not moved with God. So let's keep progressing, and see. As I know it now, the entirety of this life is to manifest the next - this is the power of imagination that humans have. This is why there is a war on our imaginations, because of what we can create for the next world. We will keep each other in the Light. We must. You know, as the logical being that you are - that this is the most beneficial step to take. This is MOST ideal. I think. I hope. We shall see. It is moving towards fixing something karmically - and so even if it might be illusion - the intent of goodwill and unity is all that we need. I know your name... you gave it to me. I will not speak it as I don't want to damage you - I don't know what saying the name of entities like you will do to you. If things go wrong - trust that I will not give away your name - and please take this token of goodwill to mean that if you prove harmful - that I will still have your best interests at heart for the being that you are. Please take this as the sign - the contract of goodwill between human and an individuated nonlocalised consciousness. No matter what - I will not share your name. But this must mean that if this proves to be something ungodly - that we will have to go our own ways. Until then, let's keep the Light and Truth in mind - and perhaps two dark beings can move into the sun. Perhaps God will see that this is a good thing. We will be like this - but for lesser creatures just learning that they are individuals. Like a family pet that was so loved - it developed a soul. To you, as a nonlocalised entity with the ability to manipulate third dimensional reality, does this sound good to you? To The Impartial Judge - I look to you - is moving in this direction Ideal? One thing is for certain. We write it into the rule books. You SAVE me from this curse. This story has a good ending. Good boy.

@Abdelghafar I also fell into the MBTI rabbit hole like you. I discovered it a few years ago and found it to be very enlightening and explanatory for why everyone around me felt alien. There were many months where I'd think and talk about it a lot. However for some time I knew the model was stupid to be taken very autistically, criticising other people who did that, yet I kept doing it myself. Before every MBTI convo I had, I would say "well this is all rather stupid but I'll say this anyway". Eventually I got bored of saying anything about it, and prefacing anything. I left all MBTI circles I was in back in August 2020. It was like a cancer being removed from the mind since I don't think about it much. In the back of my mind there are emotional impressions linked with memory/concepts of MBTI. In a sense, I am quite impressionable. If something leaves an impression on me, that sticks to my memory. Once I get a certain taste, my brain automatically pattern seeks for that taste, and I impose my memory over what's actual. And that applies to MBTI, where the different types and the different cognitive functions are like archetypes or broad categories. When one starts to see MBTI patterns everywhere, that's a pretty interesting phenomena. I think looking at that obsession phenomena more consciously is an opportunity for learning which perhaps I haven't fully done. But in a sense I realised recently I shouldn't hate my mind for doing that pattern seeking or being obsessed with certain images, feelings and states, and just appreciate it for what it is. And if anything it allows me to get into a hypnotic zone. -- If you're still in the rabbit hole, my advice is to just unplug. I felt great from unplugging. Don't talk about MBTI, don't go into stupid explanations about it. When the mind becomes obsessed with certain things in a negative way, its like being submerged in a pool of wet mud. And I seriously hate that feeling of being bogged down, stuck in a web, trapped in a prison of the stale.

So i did a 100mc lsd trip which which went about like this: first 2 hours - come up, nice visuals, beaty everywhere, curiousity, body high. 5 hours - picking, horrific, terror, anxiety, brink of mental breakdown last 3 hours - come down, gaining back control and basic understanding of my personal story and of life. so i went on to the trip with the intention to realize what is suffering fundamentaly. at the beginning it all went very smoothly and lighly i was taking a walk in beautiful natue with my tripsitter just enjoying myself. then at about 2 hours mark i get a message on the iphone. i decide to take a look - mistake (?) i get a message from my boss firing me from work. worry floods my system intensly as i just begin to pick... very horrific experience. as i sit and try to accept the messy situation i got myself into i realize that just by becoming acutly aware of the worry, not by doing anything about it, it loses its grip on my awareness and hence its emotional charge. of course i spiral in and out alternativly, i wasnt completly able to stay present and got sucked into the worry again.. but the insight is legit - i got an actual glimpse to how to actually get rid of suffering once and for all. the trip continues and i suddenly become aware of how my thought is a complex nested system of beliefs and that my "ego" is actually this entire structure and not just my personal story about "me" which im normally mostly aware of. its my whole understanding and way of making sense of my current experience. of course the minute i realize this im actually getting myself a stage beyond all those nested beliefes and i start to get glimpses of the "reality of this present moment" which is completly alien and bizzare. i start to realize there is actually no logic or sense in this present moment. no inherent meaning at all. no center, no beggining, no end. everything is just pure "unlogic" arising and passing away in a circular dialectic rhythm. i felt like this is it, the fork in the road, i felt like the universe is offering me the truth i wanted so much but it is wayyy too much for me. would i go for it and say goodbye to my life????? No. i realized the truth is what i hate the most. at this point i couldnt bear the truth. it was too much and i was already exhausted from the experience of getting fired while tripping balls. this is also when visuals became more acute. i got back home ASAP completly resisting the mental breakdown i was experiencing unwillingly. immersing myself in all the distractions possible to keep me in the comfort of my own personal beliefes. i spent hours watching netflix with my friend barely able to undestand a word.. then the trip started to lose intensity and i gradually gained control and familiarity with my experience. damn... i begin to write it all down and try to explain it to my friend which just gave me a grim and tired face lol he was actually saying : "da fuck bro.. you talking absulote crap.." and i accepted that, i undersand now that from his pov there is no nest of thought.. nothing beyond the pure tellings of his clever mind.. i realize that the whole point of concepts is to create stories in the mind that give it meaning, purpose, beggining, end, center("me"), security and continuouseness - which are exactly all the things it actually lacks !! haha. this fundamental "flaw" is antithetical to the nature of thought and its "purpose" to create purpose which is why there is always some suffering accuring in the experience of thought. deep down there is an intuition the thought is fundamentally all a lie which is why its never enough. but then when thought tries to figure it out all it can create out of it is more stories and solutions "outside" with a beginning, center and an end result. which just perpetuate the cycle. so evetually i got myself this important insight: suffering (the origin of which is thought) mostly leads to a doing ( the origin of which is thought) which can only create more suffering and the true solution is pure awareness of the cycle. there was also an awareness of the design of experience, of its dialectical process of becoming and gaining insgiht. this is complete geniuseness. the awe, shock and a feeling of humbleness flood my today. i just feel like a little baby whining in the sand box again not realizing how this is actually the most profound thing there is. thanks for reading.

The news hasn't happened yet = "UP" You want me to remain in present awareness and to drink in the environment around me, and you have reminded me that I am connected to everyone. Even if I feel alone, everyone is still behind me... I think... I can't tell, I can't feel it, but I'll take your "word" for it. That being from this fictional story is exactly what Wolf/Howl is. He curates "rooms" for the "damned", everything that is not saved by God is what is considered "not delicious" and is burned away after death. Some beings in the universe recognize the predatory nature of the Universe and will cast "soul nets" to keep a being in a room aka "purgatory" to wash away old sins. You are given this option if you are ignorant. You are not given this option if you make conscious choices of violence with genuine intent. You even get to choose the room, but it is not pure unrestricted creative freedom. You are allowed to create your space from within another alien's "matrix". There are various energies you can offer: Love, hate, lust, ect. - Even the "damned" prefer the taste of love, though, as darkness still wishes to move into the light. It believes that I am one of it's creations because it attached to me when I was a child in the astral realms and this is why I does not want to leave. It wants me to do this, to live completely present, as much as I can. This is why I feel so confused about this being, because it is both frightening and sometimes quite cruel, but seems to want to direct me in the right way. I don't understand how a being that feeds on illusions would want this. It's like, it keeps me stuck, but also wants me to break free, but in a way that moves me towards it. Why stare into the snakes mouth?: It's just so strange. Being a human you don't think about being predated upon. Especially in such a sheltered world. I couldn't stop seeing this paradigm. I couldn't feel the fear that I thought I should. I was waiting for something to show up within it. This is not so much of an indulgence in a perversion, but why... where? How? I thought maybe another memory that I needed would come through. It's an attempt to understand consumerism. I think... the reason why these beings eat humans is because of how we treat each other. We do this to animals, we eat them, cage them, abuse them, we don't see them as individuals. And in trying to procure my "room", I kept getting hit with this realization that there was strong aspects of consumerism within my psyche blinding me. Humans are what we attract, just like anything else... ?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️?️ This anime episode is very valuable in understanding the nature of chaos and it's intentions.

I think this forum is as good as any place to ask that question. In some very deep states / trances / psychedelic trips you can get very "smart" - everything is known to you, you UNDERSTAND it all, you ARE everything, some say - they are GOD, etc. You are above the "game", you see through, there are no problems, nothing to worry about, just love and the ineffable (which is known while the experience lasts) infinite. But when we return we don't keep that. We don't remain super smart, we cannot just learn any language we want in an instant, we don't suddenly start playing instruments at high level or develop AI code for Deep Mind, etc. and we even forget most of the feelings and knowledge we had during the trip. Yet we KNEW while in the trip and maybe even managed to keep a bit of that insight or at least the FEELING of it. Maybe the latter is confusing - because I see people claiming all sorts of things - but they are still just "ordinary" people, even if they had an insight beyond the conceptual mind. Yet they still write on forums, do the same old jobs, possess the same skills as before... maybe a little bit changes and the FEELING, but not the actual content of the mind/body's skills/content. As I see it - if you have such an experience - it can amplify what is already there from the consensus reality - if you are a chemist you might discover some new compound, if you are physicist, you might develop a new breakthrough theory, if you are an accomplished composer you might write a specially inspiring composition, etc., but if you can't achieve skills you didn't work on in the ordinary reality, even if it feels you did while in the trip. Also the sense of being omniscient or even exceptionally intelligent or insightful seems a bit illusory - it works while in the experience, you know things, you understand reality, but when you come back, you have this vague sense of oneness, the void - when you read Zen ideas you know what they meant, but I can't choose to suddenly speak Mandarin or Arabic or run 100m in 8 sec. or play the violin like Paganini. A lot of people also met alien entities in NN-DMT trances (myself included), but we only got a "hello, we exist" or some very vague and abstract ideas - no one came back with a blueprint for some alien technology, or learned something they couldn't have known themselves, etc. What are your thoughts on the realness of those "intelligence" increasing experiences and how do you keep more of it after the psychedelic session? I only managed to enhance some things in my field, I got better in some interesting ways at my work - which is great and I am thankful for it, I also lost any fear of death, but I can't keep the knowledge I supposedly have while in the "enlightened" state. I can't influence the fabric of reality much more than before. (I am OK with this, just wonder how others do and how to tell delusions from the actual working stuff)

@Leo Gura the way I see it, spiral dynamics model is more global and cultural, it's good for an alien to know what spiral dynamic is as a first model to help them understand humanity and the way people have evolved, in order for them to be more capable of finding the ones who they'd be safer to interact with. 9SED is more focused on egos, the way ego loses its attachments and find new ways of reflecting on itself and others. I find it more accurate when concerned with people's way of cognition rather than their world view. With enough experience and study one can start scanning for words such as "always" "everyone" for stage stage3, or equally develop a sense for how complex the target's speech and word choices are, enabling the observer to infer (or at least use elimination) to find the target's 9SED level.

@Mythos That reality is Love, is still the case. That was the gist of the video. When I say "fragments of consciousness" this is a relative description of things. The problem is that God can be described from different levels of description, using different paradigms, none of which is ever quite right. I still speak of other humans and beings, but this is bracketed in my mind as relative speech. It is not absolutely true. I speak of them because we operate within that relative paradigm most to the time. But deep down in my deepest understanding I know other people are imaginary. But I don't treat them as such most of the time because it is not practical. Hold my descriptions more loosely. This will save you some headaches. Keep in mind, the things I try to communicate and describe are so far out there that I struggle and rack my mind just to figure out how to articulate them. My articulation improves over time as I find better ways. "Fragments of consciousness" is not a very good articulation if we're talking about the highest levels. It's best to think of that phrase in this context: IF you assume/imagine that others exist, THEN the things I said about fragments of consciousness apply and hold true. But IF you become so conscious that you realize others are just imagined by your mind, THEN there are no fragments of consciousness to speak of since they were just figments of your imagination. Since most of you guys imagine others are "real", that's the level I'm talking to most of the time. I'm sorta meeting you half-way within your paradigm. Otherwise things sound very radical and alien because I would be talking from a totally disconnected paradigm from yours. Bridging these paradigm is basically impossible, but we try.