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  1. STAGES International is a developmental model that speaks to this in-depth. https://antoinette555.files.wordpress.com/2019/08/the_stages_matrix_roadmap.pdf
  2. Who are the modern day (currently alive) spiritual teachers who most embody that felt sense of love/devotion/Bhakti? People like Matt Kahn, Ram Dass (recently deceased) and Richard Rohr come to mind. Anyone else you'd recommend?
  3. This article is all about Yellow online communities and podcasts: https://www.joelightfoot.org/post/the-liminal-web-mapping-an-emergent-subculture-of-sensemakers-meta-theorists-systems-poets
  4. A film I co-directed for the Bernie Sanders campaign in 2016. A great example of Stage Green values. http://tuckerwalsh.com/project/voteforus
  5. Yes great monologue as always from Bill. He's essentially pointing to the fact that most young people are still in Stage Orange and conforming to that worldview and lifestyle. When Stage Green comes online more and more, the materialism he's speaking to will begin to go out of fashion, no pun on words.
  6. @Gili Trawangan @mandyjw Thank you. Appreciate these very helpful and constructive responses
  7. @Fearless_Bum Ayahuasca ceremonies almost always start in the evening and last all night. I'm not sure exactly why, but it's the traditional way and has been maintained even in modern ceremonial circles.
  8. @BipolarGrowth Thanks so much for sharing this! Was really helpful to read. I skimmed chapters A&P through Conformity, and I sense that the stage I'm at is Equanimity, though I would need to read the book in more detail to know for sure. That said, the bliss/rapture/ecstasy states in A&P certainly have a lot of overlap with my psychedelic experiences. I pretty consistently have ego death experiences these days, even on relatively small doses, and often dissolve into what I can only describe as Infinite Mind where insights about Truth create a cosmic orgasm-like experience. Except it's not happening to Tucker and to a physical body (as those no longer exist in these states), it's just this abstract bliss that feels like God endlessly ejaculating (in a cosmic not physical sense lol). This last for hours until Consciousness slowly recreates a physical body and ego mind in which I as Tucker come back into form. Often the bliss remains for hours after I'm back in my body, and intense surges of energy course through my body as if Spirit is dancing me. Everything is in perfect harmony and flow, even my ego thoughts which can be witnessed and unconditionally loved. I mention all this to say that I suspect the "Dark Night" feelings are from going from Nonduality to Duality again, and from experiencing Bliss to Equanimity again. Put more bluntly, going from God to Tucker is a bit of a letdown hahaha, although within a day usually a sense of Equanimity returns. Perhaps this is the "Dark Night of Equanimity" that the writer briefly alludes to. My sense is that all these maps and models for meditation and awakening need to be researched and reevaluated through the lensing of psychedelics, as I suspect (though am no expert) that the the progression of insights and embodiment happen in unique ways that may not fully align with traditional awakening models. Let me know your thoughts, brother, and appreciate you taking the time to share your wisdom!
  9. @BipolarGrowth @Flowerfaeiry Yes, all of my ayahuasca experiences were in ceremony with highly experienced facilitators from Peru and Brazil. But what I'm describing takes place after the ceremonies when everyone goes home and there's usually little support.
  10. I recently participated in a two day Ayahuasca ceremony, and like my previous experiences, during the actual journey I felt pretty much nothing but pure bliss, rapture, ecstasy. It feels like Spirit is dancing and moving my body and sending me off into cosmic orgasms. It's incredible, until the next morning, when I'm back as a regular human and met with feelings of sadness and disconnection. It's almost like the sensation of getting off a rollercoaster - it's so exhilarating during the ride but then when it ends life feels kind of blah again. The contrast is so intense that I think it magnifies the darker polarities. This usually last for 1-2 days, and then I catch up on sleep and spend some time alone, and I feel back to normal equilibrium again. I'm just wondering if others share this experience and if so what can help with this "post-trip blues"?
  11. @PepperBlossoms Perhaps what we should “do” cannot he conceptualized via rational thought rather we can be moved via the spirit/heart/love into action, as if we are an empty vessel for something larger than our individual body/minds with an infinite intelligence that created the very idea of there being an us and an infinite intelligence.
  12. @Rilles I'd recommend the books Conversations with God vol 1-3. They're on Leo's book list. Neale Donald Walshe talks a lot about this concept of our soul choosing everything that's happened to us in our lifetime and the perfection of everything that's playing out. Those books helped me immensely when I was going through a pretty deep depression. Wishing you luck on your journey, my friend.
  13. @asifarahim Yeah, her name is Terri O'Fallen. It's all in the PDF.
  14. @Rilles I recognize that this is all just a story and another dream within the Dream, but on a very practical human level this mindset and belief system can be extremely valuable and reduce suffering immensely. In my experience, it truly does take life situations and moves them from the "victim" box to the "empowerment" box. We can rewrite the story of whatever happens to us to see the positive and the opportunities for growth and evolution. So much power in that process.