MsNobody

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  1. Let's go to this Ashram? @JustinS @Dizzy https://www.satyoga.org/
  2. Fits perfectly for the video Leo posted today
  3. @Emerald Hey emerald, I saw you are interested in the iPEC course, I'm about to finish the certification, if you have any questions about the course or the content send me an inbox I will be happy to answer
  4. @Leo Gura Hey Leo, I did the life purpose course and am about to finish the iPEC program but the thing is: I really really hate the marketing part of all of that, I wish I had realized that before taking the course, I'm currently an architect and have been doing the coaching part whenever I have free time, I love interacting with people, at work besides architecture I also do project management, I've realized that the project management part appeals me because I like dealing with people, I'm very interested about how the mind works and especially love being around and interacting with people. I know if my life purpose is really helping people through coaching I will find a way to get over the marketing part but right now, all this hustling on instagram and facebook that I see my coach friends doing is just scaring me, and I may be blind to other paths or ways of dealing with the situation that's why I would like some advice from you Here is some information values: LOVE WISDOM OPENMINDEDNESS SELF ACTUALIZATION HONESTY/ AUTHENTICITY strengths CURIOSITY/ LEARNING HUMOR/ PLAYFULNESS/ ENERGY ACHIEVER/ INPUT ORIGINALITY/ AUTHENTICITY APPRECIATION OF BEAUTY
  5. @Strikr I'm not talking about simulation. Yeah, a while ago I would think I'm going crazy but some time walking this path I see that any experience I have will be considered not normal/ paranormal and what is normal nowadays anyway? I was just wondering if someone would relate. @JustinS That's what I was trying to explain, have you felt this? @Aaron p
  6. So after 5meo whenever I smoke weed I experience glimpses of this state, but lately I've been able to concentrate and maintain it for longer periods of time. Leo always talks about how our reality is not material, and I only had the belief, but lately I've been able to experience it, how non material/ fake reality is, like I'm in my room and everything feels fake, made of plastic even, like I'm in a virtual reality, I have the feeling that there is nothing behind the walls of my room, its quite lonely, cause something switches and I can feel how my mind is creating everything around me, how I literally am creating my own reality, what exists is only what I look at, it's fascinating, like my room is a little cube lost in space or in a black hole, I also noticed that whenever I reach that state my ego feels pretty uncomfortable, like my mind is running away from it, Just wanted to share cause I'm still shocked with the realization. It's been happening not only when I'm high, sometimes randomly I feel it but it doesn't last long. wow
  7. @Leo Gura That would be a great topic!
  8. https://www.ramdass.org/mantras/ that's the actual link, sorry
  9. I'm glad you posted this, I've been so into mantras lately, Gayatri mantra is my favorite of all, it's like I'm giving the monkey mind a job and it leaves me alone, it's easier for me to reach deep states of meditation. I also found this on the internet where Ram Dass talks about his experiences with mantras.. https://www.ramdass.org/mantras-2/ Mahatma Gandhi said, “The mantra becomes one’s staff of life, and carries one through every ordeal. It is no empty repetition. For each repetition has a new meaning, carrying you nearer and nearer to God.” very interesting stuff
  10. @Outer wow I loooove this!! Thank you @Barna Thanks for your part in my journey Barna (L) @Nahm Thank you! love your posts @Viking It was the third time, the first I did 15mg snorting, second time 27mg snorting and third 15mg smoking, I found it easier smoking, the second time I tried was a little hellish to stay with the energy and not being able to breakthrough. @astrokeen I know it sounds airy fairy but ask the universe and will be given, that's what I did. @OBEler What was your psychedelic background? I've done Ayahuasca, LSD, Al-Lad, Mushrooms, Ketamine, regular DMT, MDMA, and 5Meo, before 5meo my most profound experience was 4g mushroom in August of last year, but given that I have a high tolerance wasn't so profound like 5meo, also for learning I found mushrooms to be the best, I'm a very creative person, like to draw, art and stuff, lsd kinds of feed my creativity and enables me to go deeper within myself. Did you have some insights you got from 5meo from other psychedelics before? No, 5meo is like from a different family than the other psychedelics. Were there also some insights wich you needed to correct after 5 meo? No, we are always learning, its like learning from different teachers, I had ego death before on mushrooms but I think 5meo although the ego dies 100% "I" was still there to "see/observe" everything, it was kind of clearer than my ego death on mushrooms, it was really my higher self observing the whole experience, while on mushrooms the ego kinds of go crazy, goes and comes back, what made me feel unable to really make sense of what was going on and see things for what they are, but that was just my experience, could be different for other people. I'm glad you liked it
  11. Dose: 15mg smoked Female, 28yo, have been actualizing for almost 3 years now, was religious most of my life, then atheist and now a believer of 5-meo hahaha, jokes aside, the experience happened two weeks ago and NO WORDS can describe it, what makes it very hard to write a trip report, but I do want to write because everything I’ve been seeking in the last years were all about this experience, the final destination, the void, the place we came from, the place we go when we die, the end of the world, the beginning of everything, god, the universe, Alah, Deus, higher power, the source, etc. “As above, so below, as within, so without” I smoked the substance and covered my mouth so the smoke couldn't come out, then every time my friend repeated, hold on! hold on! hold on! it was like I was passing a dimension, so many layers of it and so fast that it went on and on until my mind was dissolved into eventual nothingness I literally felt like a river of clear bright water was running through my body carrying all the blockages away, garbage, so many fucking things, social conditioning, traumas, beliefs, drama, so much shit, the more I relaxed and surrended to the experience the more my body was being cleaned, the more I let go the better I felt in my body, to the point my body dissolved into that nothingness and emptiness, and whenever I tried to make sense of the situation, whenever I tried to feel my body it was like I was having a full body orgasm, like every cell of my body was vibrating in that same warm frequency, wasn’t good, bad, strong or weak, it was pure perfection, I felt like my body was being embraced by that loving energy, a hug from god all I start saying from now on will for sure sound like a cult if you've never experienced it, and from this point I strangely started to understand how religion had began, how many people had experienced a glimpse of that energy, this is IT. Like my whole life, everything I’ve lived was just to bring me to that moment, that THING very very special, I’ve tried many psychedelics but this was by far my deepest and most important mystical experience, not close to any meditation or psychedelics I had tried, and I see how 5meo it's known to be the most powerful hallucinogen, actually not even hallucinogen cause it's really a sensation, no visuals or anything. I came back from the trip saying to my trip sitter (that btw is someone I met through the forum) eu, voce, voce, eu, that means I, you, you, me, in Portuguese and my first thought was to stop talking because the more I talked the more I separated myself from others, that oneness, interconnectedness was fading away, it was sad but at the same time I was glad to be back because having that feeling for a long period of time is for sure overwhelming and might be fucking hard, I understand how enlightenment comes with a lot of time, effort, meditation, stillness and understanding, my body and mind the way it's right now would not comport such thing, it's not an easy peasy thing, it's holiness. I apologize for my scarcity of words to describe the trip but most important is what stayed with me and below I try to explain the integration to normal life. Aftermath: My voice sounds much softer now, what made me realize how blocked I was before and how much more blocks can be released, I also was kind of addicted to weed, not addicted but I was smoking it very often, and like Leo says addictions are fear of emptiness, so I was smoking weed instead of facing my daily emptiness, after the trip I lost that necessity of smoking, not saying anything bad about weed, it’s an awesome tool when used properly, like psychedelics. How deep the rabbit hole goes: I have the feeling that I could’ve gone waaay waaaaay deeper, I know infinity has no depth but man, I wonder what this can do to me and my body if I do it often, like once per month, I’ve been preparing myself for this trip for over a year, I’ve snorted twice but didn’t breakthrough now I am very excited for what's to come. Theory DOES NOT DO justice: It’s crazy the amount of books I’ve read about 5meo, psychedelics, spirituality, psychology, personal development, science, and nothing, nothing, nothing I've read would prepare me for that, I had so much theory but 0 experience, I realize the trap now, all the theory if not applied is just mental masturbation, this was such a big thing for me, and I see the trap in religion too, how many people had experience 2% of this energy, this god, and created a whole spiritual ego, also given that 98% of those people have not experienced this oneness and claim the whole righteousness of religion just because of EGO, it's just crazy, my feeling right after the trip was to create a 5meo group haha but then I remembered that religion is this cult hahaah uhhhh so easy to join one of those groups, I'm not gonna go into the religion topic but all I can say is I feel them, I have much more compassion for religious people now, and I see how science is too limited to explain or even prove such thing, so in the religion vs science game, religion for sure embraces much much more of the mysterious, the unexplained unknown that is God. Many paths that end in the same place, many ways to reach the same goal, the trip brought me lots of understanding of how religion works and how people go so far because of it. Oneness: One thing is to say I’m one with all, we are all one, we are all connected and bla bla bla, another thing is to experience and really feel that interconectedness, I have this feeling now, whenever I look at someone, their suffering is my suffering, their happiness is my happiness, I AM them, they are a part of me, and this makes me feel an overload of compassion that I did not have before, we are all in the same roller coaster, all in this dream, every person with their difficulties, ours egos might be fighting but deep inside we are all gods experiencing itself subjectively in different bodies, also because I'm more aware of the role my ego plays I have a different perspective of my relation with people, when someone is being mean or evil, they are just showing me a little bit of what they are going through, what's going on within them, it's never about me like my ego likes to think. BIG BIG BIG joke: Until a couple days ago whenever my mind started fearing something or worrying I would burst laughing, it was kind of spontaneous and involuntary, god laughing through me about how small and insignificant my problems are close to HIM, I would just laugh out of sudden, super weird. It’s fucking crazy, it gave me a sense of “fuck everything” but in a good way, not in the I don’t care about anything, but in the sense of hurry up, live life, let go of fearing and enjoy life however you want, there is no right or wrong way to do so, a sense of freedom, so much freedom, extreme freedom, radical freedom, terrifying freedom, I realized that we are so encapsulated in our little lives, in our egos, in our little bubbles because in the end what we fear is THAT freedom, we don’t know what to do with so much freedom that we create barriers unconsciously not to experience all of it, we allow ourselves sometimes to feel it a little bit but the amount of freedom 5 meo showed me is extremely scary. Wow I also cry when I try to go back to the experience, I'm very sensitive now, also my meditation is much deeper, I sit for meditation and POW I'm right there into the void, swimming in the black hole, what enabled me to meditate even in the sauna, my body burns there for 20 or 30 minutes and my mind is far far away... very interesting. Relaxation: The biggest thing I've learned in the trip, the more I surrender to life (the same way I surrendered to the trip, where I had to let go of everything for the “substance” to work on me) it's just exactly the same with life, the more we relax and trust the universe (or god whatever you wanna call it) the more the energy of universe runs freely within us, and all the suffering we experience is a resistance for that energy, we want to do it our way, our ego wants it in its way, it’s that old saying, we get what we need out of life, not what we want, BUT every time (even if we consider our experiences as a bad) the universe is working to give us the best of the best, in order for us to grow and evolve, not as a person (ego) but as a group, as consciousness, as a whole, like Ram Dass says, the suffering comes from our attachment to what we think life should be, if we just relaxed life would be much much easier, I also thought about a video that he says we create THICK DRAMA out of nothing, I laughed hard, of how much drama I (the ego) is capable of creating, I SO understand that now, how rare that we exist, how beautiful life is, how magical everything can be if we just let go of everything we think we know and opened ourselves up to what the universe has to offer, but our ego wants to know everything, wants to pretend it knows, wants to find a logic, wants to find the right way to live life, wants to make sense of the unkown, wants to live like one has everything figured out hahaha we literally know NOTHING. State of Not Knowing: “Unaccustomed as we are to not knowing, we don’t understand the freedom that awaits us when we experience life beyond our beliefs.” Quote from The book of not knowing, Peter Ralston, that’s what enlightenment is, insanity, accepting uncertainty, so hard for the ego but liberating for the soul. Wow, I thought I could not write but man I could spend hours talking about IT, I’m super happy and feel lucky AF to have had this experienced, I can’t believe we found a toad that enables us to experience such thing, a TOAD, haha of course a toad, it's like a cartoon, we are living the fucking dream, I see all differently now, the sky is just a big screen we watch different channels every day, a dog barked in the neighbor’s house right after the trip, and the fucking dog was literally inside my head, I was creating the dog barking, the dog and everything around me, how fantastic and fascinating creatures we human beings are. PS: I’m deeply deeply deeply thankful for you Leo, I met so many amazing people here, actualizers are my faaaavorite Thank you if you made it to the end.. Till next time Miss Nobody "Good morning, and in case I don't see ya, good afternoon, good evening, and good night!" fucking Truman show..
  12. @kieranperez Wow I was just talking to a friend yesterday how Marin County is special, I used to live there and moved to Los Angeles, did you know Alan Watts had a Cabin in Mt Tamalpais? and Shugin used to live in Sausalito, the author of the book Mastery George Leonard lived around there too. Terrence Mckenna died there.. many people, such a beautiful place... I miss it.