(AI transcribed post from an audio contemplation)
 
There is a truth about spiritual development that very few are willing to articulate plainly.
 
Many people enter the spiritual path with an implicit assumption: that if they do everything correctly — meditate diligently, attend long retreats, practice yoga rigorously, explore psychedelics responsibly, dedicate years to contemplation and inquiry, become a full time monk — they will eventually reach the highest states of consciousness. They assume the path is meritocratic and universally attainable at its summit.
 
But after years of observation and dialogue with serious practitioners, a difficult conclusion emerges:
 
It is extraordinarily rare to reach the highest states of consciousness — whether as stable baseline realizations or as insane peak states — unless one possesses exceptional, perhaps extreme, innate endowment.
 
In blunt terms: unless one is, in that domain, a genetic outlier.
 
The Spiritual Domain Is Not Exempt
 
We accept biological inequality in nearly every other domain without protest.
 
Consider athletics.
 
No matter how disciplined you are, no matter how optimized your training, nutrition, recovery, or psychology, you will not outrun Usain Bolt. The gap is not merely effort-based; it is structural. It is encoded in muscle fiber composition, tendon elasticity, neural firing rates, biomechanics — variables largely determined before conscious striving begins.
 
The same applies in mathematics, music, physics, or art. When one studies the true geniuses — those who revolutionize a field — one finds not merely diligence but profound structural asymmetry: cognitive architecture, perceptual sensitivity, creative intuition, memory bandwidth, abstraction capacity...
 
Why, then, should spirituality and mysticism be exempt?
 
 
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The Myth of Equal Attainability
 
Many practitioners believe they can reach the level of Gautama Buddha, Jesus Christ, or Muhammad if only they practice hard and intelligently enough.
 
But consider what is being claimed.
 
To reach (definition of terms excluded):
 
Serious baseline Awareness 
 
Peak Awakenings into a facet of Awakening 
 
Peak Awakenings into many facets and in conjunction
 
Holistic Awakenings across all facets.
 
Infinity Consciousness 
 
Realization of infinities for Infinity
 
Breakthrough into God-consciousness and God-Mode
 
And from there, further God Facet and Infinity Awakenings 
 
Even a single authentic awakening of those is already a huge blessing.
A few partial awakenings on limited facets are already extremely rare.
Totalized realization across all axes? That is vanishingly rare. Imagine to realise Infinity and God...
 
And yet many assume it is simply a matter of human mechanical effort.
 
 
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The Uncomfortable Implication
 
This conclusion is discouraging.
 
It suggests that many sincere practitioners — even those dedicating thousands of hours to meditation, retreats, yoga, inquiry, psychedelics — may never reach the highest conceivable states in comparison with other gifted individuals.
 
Not because they failed.
 
But because the organism/manifestation has limits.
 
Genetic limits. Neurological limits. Structural limits.
 
The same way no amount of training will turn a very good runner into an Olympic record holder, the gap is quantum, no amount of practice may turn an average nervous system into a vehicle for absolute consciousness, an avatar.
 
Let me ground this in something concrete.
Recently, I spoke with someone who, by any reasonable metric, could be called a spiritual prodigy — what I've been calling a “genetic freak.” He described having solipsistic awakenings at the age of two. At two! Before doctrine. Before philosophy. Before influence. Before language was fully formed.
Throughout childhood and adolescence, he did not need to be introduced to spirituality. He did not “discover” it. He was already living it. He would wake up in the middle of the night to meditate. To pray. To contemplate God. Not because a teacher instructed him. Not because a book inspired him. Not because a forum persuaded him.
Because it was intrinsic.
That difference matters.
 
The Metric of Origin
One of the simplest diagnostics you propose is this:
If spirituality came to you from the outside — from a teacher, from religion, from philosophy, from a figure like Leo Gura, from a book, from psychedelics — then by definition, it was not native to your earliest structure of consciousness.
If, from the very first moment of self-awareness, your primary orientation was toward truth, God, metaphysics, infinity — then something structurally unusual was present from the beginning.
This is not about superiority. It is about origin and understanding the truth.
Some people discover the path.
Others are the path from the moment awareness crystallizes.
That distinction is not trivial...
 
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The Deeper Paradox
 
And yet, paradoxically, this truth does not invalidate practice.
 
It reframes it.
 
Spiritual work may not be about reaching the maximal conceivable state. It may not be about becoming a once-in-history outlier of consciousness. It may instead be about:
Doing your absolute best and bending as much as possible all limitations in the way for higher and more complete consciousness (or whatever your spiritual goals or approach may be)
 
In fact, one might argue that the mature stage of spiritual development includes accepting limits — including the limits of genetics, embodiment, and this particular manifestation.
 
There may be states of consciousness that are simply inaccessible to this organism.
 
And that, too, is part of the truth.
 
 
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End
Don't fall into false equivalence. Some are born already touching the sky — their first breath a question about God, their childhood a meditation, their nervous system intrinsically tuned to infinity. Others must carve their way upward through discipline, study, psychedelics, years of relentless refinement — and still may not reach Holistic Awakenings, Infinite Consciousness or God.
This is the structure of reality. Consciousness, like every domain of existence, expresses itself through gradients of capacity. There are prodigies of spirit just as there are prodigies of mind and body. To deny this is sentimentality. To resent it is immaturity.
 
Your task was never to become the best but to be your best — completely, honestly, without self-deception — whether it rises ten feet or touches the infinite sky.
And that, too as for all Infinity, is God.
I'll leave with this quote: "Even when you struggle to realise God, you're God"

Life is too short for not doing what you love

Hey Leo, congratulations for bringing this into reality.
 
I've been leading underground psychedelic retreat for years. If you want some expert advisory I'm here to offer tangible value.
Consider it seriously, I can assure you there's some blind spots in how you are conducting the psychedelic retreat that can only come from seasoned experience in the field. Leading 20 people as a first psychedelic retreat is no joke, hopefully you're aware of the magnitude coming ahead. 

Only stage Yellow is guilty of that as the whole psyche, worldview and mind is being restructured. It finds itself in epistemic humility and a perspectival integrative approach. Such a recognition must happen for equating the exterior perspective game field as well as ones assumptions and biases. It is only in yellow that one considers seriously the perspective of fascists, rapists, murderers, terrorist, political extremist. All perspective are incorporated like lenses in the yellow mind, yet no proper cleansing, synthesis and merging has happened. Clarity hasn't still been found yet its in the cocoon process. This is impractical on the collective level but as we know in this stage the pendulum has oscillated towards the individual and proper sense making in the jungle of human thoughts and systems.
It is in turquoise when one becomes collectively responsible and keen bullshiter caller. Now the mind can shift into many lens and also into an spherical 360° holistical lense. Different human systems have been integrated and the psyche is built in ever higher holons of complexity and evolution. Now one is what understands, now one has a voice, one is whole towards uniting more wholes to make a more encompassing whole. In this, cancer is called out clearly and stages are seen with their lights and shadows, from a truth-based and loving standpoint.

We need stage green, we are getting there through B-corp initiatives and sustainability awareness. The point is to widen the concern radio beyond money to positive social impact. Most of Europe is getting there, America is too greedy for the moment. And China is more prone to do so because of more collectivistic concerns, but still far away.

I'd like to give another perspective on the tech industry and billionaires. Leo your posts are spot on, but I'd like to give an insiders perspective. I work daily with CIOs of multimillion dollar businesses and the truth is they are trapped inside a ruthless system that forces all that profit obsession onto them. Executives are extremely stressed and overworked, their head is on the line for constantly delivering results, competence is extremely fierce and not playing the game leads to losing the job, losing your friends, the company closing and all your team and employees being fired out.
I understand the fixation to point at names to this selfishness and corruption, but honestly it's more about the system. No individual changes of the tech oligarchs is going to substantially change the system, they are rats inside the system, the best rats with golden chains. A better framework in my mind is understanding why they are forced to behave like that, why the stock market, capitalist system and game theory is engineered to create this situation. The problem is not that X people fill that role, the true problem is that the system creates vacants to be filled as those roles, people are irrelevant if it weren't Elon Musk or Jeff Bezos, it would be other people, it's the law of the current system that creates a strong global inertia towards that.
In my opinion, this is generally a more wise understanding of the situation, by grasping the whole system you realize how all the companies and C-level executives operate.

That's correct.
Langan is intelligent in his physics/science.
Development can be very lopsided.

Because selfishness overrides IQ.
The ego is in charge. Not the IQ.
And selfishness is not very intelligent.
When your CEO is stupid, it doesn't matter how good your engineering team is. IQ tests measure the engineering team, not the CEO. But the CEO calls all the shots.

The more someone trumpets his IQ score, the less intelligence I see in him.
Like Chris Langan. "World's highest IQ", but still a Trump supporter. That shows you just how little IQ is worth in the real world.
IQ makes you feel smart on paper but foolish in practice, as ego will co-opt that IQ against you. There are some forms of stupidity exclusive to high IQ people.

He does hate Greens.
So he is conservative. But Trump is too selfish to be a serious conservative. Being a serious conservative requires a humility and fear of God that Trump doesn't have.
The conservative part of Trump is the part that hates being moralized to and limited by Green conscience.

The fact that Reality is imaginary doesn't change the dream but you see it for what it is. Imaginary body, imaginary psychedelics, imaginary universe, all states are imaginary because consciousness is a metamorphing universal field which is sovereign to work as it wills. Change doesn't affect being, but being changes at every breath.

A hybrid approach works well: you have a handful of pre-scripted, well-memorized observational openers as backup, and from there you can invent new ones in real time.
If I don't know what to say, I have some old memorized openers and observations as a safety net.

Not really. We don't really care about your preferences.
This issue is about understanding. Bias is a lack of understanding. A bias towards women means that women are not being understood accurately, for themselves.
Regardless of your personal preferences, you should be interested in understanding women accurately, for themselves, not for you.
This is not about whether you like strawberries, but about whether you even understand what a strawberry is. Eating and liking strawberries is different from understanding them.

Right. Which is why what I said doesn't make sense to you. That's not an accident.
No. That's not what I'm talking about.
I've done a lot of socialization. And what I eventually realized is that none of it truly satisfies me. Even when I go really deep with someone, it's still too shallow.
What I'm talking about is a mind that is not satisfied by socializing because it is fundamentally too shallow no matter how good you do it.
Understanding such a mind will be challenging for most humans because they don't have it. Which is the whole point of why I made my blog post. The blog post is actually very profound. The profundity of it might take someone two decades to appreciate. Maybe never if you don't have the right kind of mind.
Depth of mind cannot be about competition, because competition is shallow. There is no satisfaction in beating another human. This satisfaction is for shallow minds.

You are doing it mechanically, thinking inside a box you were taught.
I do not think inside your boxes. Which is why I understand things other people cannot imagine.

You guys are confusing things.
There is extroversion and introversion which drives how one relates to other people.
Then there those specific Jungian functions such as Introverted Feeling or Extroverted Intuition. Those are not what I am talking about. I am talking about how the introverted mind or extroverted mind responds to being highly social. The introverted mind gets exhausted from socializing, finding it stressful and shallow. The extroverted mind thrives on socializing and charged itself up like an energy vampire from being around other humans.
You can measure a mind purely on introversion/extroversion scale, without any appeal to intuition, sensing, feeling, thinking, judging, perceiving. Just pure introversion. That's what I am talking about.
A guy who sits at home for a month and is happy not talking to anyone is a pure introvert.
A pure extrovert is a social butterfly who cannot shut up and cannot be alone.
I am a pure introvert. And I know people who are pure extroverts. And then most people are somewhere in between.

Extroverts literally have shallower minds. That's why they enjoy socializing. That's why the deepest philosophers and scientists are introverted. If you had Isaac Newton's or Tesla's mind you would not care about socializing.
As I said in the post, if you're an extrovert my lifestyle does not apply to you. And that's fine. But there are many introverts who are confused about needing to socialize when it isn't right for them.

That's not a judgment. That is generally the case. Which is why teenagers socialize like crazy and old people do not. Because a teenager doesn't understand anything deeper. A typical teenager has the mind of a rat. To a rat going to a party to get drunk is the point of life.
This has everything to do with why monks become monks.

That's literally the yogi's/monk's position.
I'm shocked that you're shocked by this.
If you won't wanna be a monk, then don't. It's that simple. Some of us like being monks and we don't need your guilt-tripping.
I literally had 2 people today tell it was their favorite post of mine. Then you tell me the opposite. You people are impossible to please. Anything I say pisses someone off. Maybe that's why I like being a monk.

I was being cheeky.
That's a low self esteem issue. Which means lack of Self-Love.
Love yourself!
Check out Nathiel Brandon's exercises from Six Pillars of Self-Esteem.
Or just fucking fall in love with yourself. You are beautiful and perfect.
The only reason you are worried about fitting in is because you don't love yourself enough.

Because my intelligence far outstrips any one-dimensional attempt to quantify it.
In fact, my intelligence is infinite.
When are you gonna realize yours is too?

Personality is genetic. It doesn't change. What changes is your confusion about your personality.
Personality is not just MBTI, personality is more fundamental and unique.
MBTI is to personality as IQ is to intelligence.

Yes

I remember taking the MBTI personality test 4 years ago and now I took it this year. The result was the same. Mediator  INFP-T.
Could anyone answer why or is it constant ?

Nope. That is false.
Not true for me. I can do 10 days and have insane awakenings every time.
I'm telling you: genetics.
If weed is psychedelic for you, you are in the minority. I am not speculating, this is from experience with real people. I interview people for my retreat and ask them about this.
Weed is as potent for me at 5-MeO-DMT, but lasts 5x longer. I can trip so deep on weed that stoners would not believe me.