Vincent S

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  1. I once had an awakening so deep, I became so conscious, that Consciousness looped back on itself, so much so that my trip turned in to my reality. I became aware that the highest psychedelic state, or trip, is living you life you are living right now. Constructing the life you desire to live the most. Problem is that, You just see it as normal and overlook it all 😉 Life and your dream is your psychedelic trip. Remove the mundane and realize the extraordinary and imaginary.
  2. Not acting on your truest desire. Not being decisive. Not following your intuition and your emotions. Letting "others" decide your life for you.
  3. This is by far the best thing I have ever read. You basically just described my first 5meo-dmt trip. Thank you for Love!
  4. Thanks Well, what is so interesting that we go through our own journey, learning all these things, and to use that to help teaching others, so many things about the healing process, the journey, the process, the work; just like Teal has for all these years. Yet we fall in to a few traps or call them tests, and we fail to see what we have learned, said and done throughout our journey. And the ego will use that specific moment to hold us by the neck and to use that as our deepest weaknesses: "See how bad you are? See, you haven't changed a bit! You are not good enough!" And sometimes we fall deeply in to that trap, and identify with that and then our whole reality changes to reflect that wounding, or pain or identity. It is like a drama show that keeps creating new scenes for different characters and actors that are playing new roles. If you look at the whole thing from above; Our whole lives, it is the perfect illusion for Consciousness to fool itself in/under. But it looks so real and so convincing as the characters and the identity of these characters/aspects. What I find interesting is that what we have the hardest to embody, is presence of mind. How to catch yourself in the making? To really learn from our mistakes and past conflicts. And to be aware enough to use that in every moment of our lives. Acting under pressure. It's most likely something we realize after we have done something that we regret, that we say: "Oh, I shouldn't have acted that way." And that becomes the next illusionary path we choose walk on.
  5. Author, teacher of consciousness. One of the teachers Leo went to.
  6. Teal is just a representation of our side we are not healing or integrating. Rather blaming, judging and dismissing. She is just playing a role for us to see our darker sides. Ram Dass once said: "When someone passing through and spewing their crap on to us, that is their karma, but how we choose to act or react to that, is our karma." As: If we judge them, that is our own judgment to ourselves. But if we see them for what they do, willfully or not, and if we observe that, then that is our act of understanding towards our different aspects. As much as I want to shame her for it. I can see that I would probably have acted the same If I didn't go through the things I did in my life and seen the things I have seen. But if I were to have that erased and be entered to her reality, I would have been the same. Watching that video when she is telling stories about her childhood (don't know if they are true), but being "forced" to bathe in cow's blood and make out with other kids, at age 6 and being raped and molested. No wonder she is the way she is now, no matter how much healing work she has/hasn't done. By the looks of things, she is just gathering people in her life to show/mirror her different aspects, back to herself, and seeing if she can heal and integrate them. In whatever avatar and life story we go through when we enter this reality. What we get programmed with as a child and in our early adulthood, will deeply affect and shape us in the years to come. Unless we go through a self-deconstruction phase at some point, where we go through so many ego-deaths and have our many layers of identity peeled of like layers of an onion, it is just going to be hard to let those pieces go. And as long as we exist as finite selves, we are just going to have a few or many layers of ego. That is just how we can exist. I don't know if Teal has worked with psychedelics. But going through her shit in her life without any aid to show herself to herself so thoroughly (like with psychedelics) is real ballsy. So I got to give her that. Either way, reality will mirror what it does best, which is mirroring. So she is getting to heal and to work on herself, the way her reality is playing out. Having multiple ego-deaths, and going though phases of self/identity shedding (ouroboros style) will wash us of our different disfunctionalities. But not many are lucky to walk that path/direction. I don't know how awake she is. But as Ralston once said about enligtenment, "Don't expect transformation". I wish her the best.
  7. Find someone that works with Kundalini energy, if it worsens. Clean out your life with proper clean diet, meditation and spend more time with your physical being, clean yourself of your fears and traumas. Heal relationships in your life that have been causing you suffering. Be willing to forgive and forget. Drop resentments and thoughts and patterns that are no longer inline with your present experience. Have a willingness to make things right in your relationship with your reality. A lot of it is just your physical being wanting to release stored up energy that no longer serves you. So, what you can do is to open up and let it, and preferably help the process by being selfless to yourself, by aiding the cleansing of your physical being. It will be different for everyone, so find what it is in your unique being. Try to see this as a healing process. Try to love the Kundalini outbursts. A lot of the time it is actually deep Love entering you. And if you really see it for what it is, then it will be the most beautiful sensations you will ever feel. They will turn in to metaphysical orgasms that can last for hours on end. My first deep Kundalini awakening lasted for 2-3 days. I was home from work, shaking in orgasms on my bed. Also, some substances will be more violent with the cleansing. So maybe try to take something milder. Can recommend LSD, just 1-2 tabs. And go in to them with the intention to heal and to release. Meditate on the bed with some meditation music together with your LSD trips.
  8. Haha yea indeed. Even though I was checking the forum a few times yesterday. It was so peaceful and a day where I felt present with myself. Not a bad idea to take breaks sometimes. Can be quite healthy actually. And if this resonates with you (the reader) I encourage you to do the same. This forum is a blessing, but it can turn in to a crutch. When we separate ourselves consciously from our habits. Then when we come back to them, occasionally, they become so much more meaningful. And we appreciate them so much more.
  9. The Godhead is far from boring I tell you. It is like being in an Infinite Orgasm. The more selfless you are, the less attached you are to the dream; The more pleasurable it becomes. Until the point of your last breath, and then you become it. There would be no possibility to even think a thought like: “This is boring”, when you are in that state.
  10. I’m sorry but this not true at all. If you really broke in to the Godhead, you would have completely chosen to end the dream. You can resist it, which many of us do, but it feels like having the entire Universe on your shoulders, and standing on a ledge, in front of the abyss; ready to throw everything in to it, seeing how Beautiful it is if you would choose to do it. With all that weight on your shoulders, being an inch away from jumping; and then to resist it… It is our own selfishness that brings us back. It is our own sense of unworthiness that denies ourselves to stay in that state. And of course our attachments.
  11. Thank you. It is your own words my friend, you just write them from this avatar to that one. Perfect is only perfect if it seen from every possible angle. Otherwise it is imperfect, but imperfect is still just one of many angles.
  12. @Razard86 I love you so much brother. Your work is amazing and you are doing so much for others that you forget yourself. Most of the times we just do what our being is pushing us to do. And it is always for good reasons, even if it’s hard to see why/what the reasons are, while it is happening. You are just radiating what you want to be and give to others, which is yourself of course. You are like the sun, which is just an endless explosion of Love. And it doesn’t choose or favor anyone whom it shines upon. It doesn’t care if it can be to warm sometimes, because that is how it expresses itself. And when the Love is too much, the planet creates clouds to protect the beings from too much radiation. But in turn, that forces the beings to start seeing/asking/pondering what the light/warmth of the sun actually is, and what it actually does for them. When you or others feel like it can be too much, that is the clouds doing their work. So you through others can evaluate and start to appreciate what you really are, and what you really give. The sun is so warm and so giving, that it sometimes forgets itself, until it realizes itself, and showers itself with her/his own Love. So it can keep on going for as long as it desires. Trust yourself, love yourself, don’t deny what is in you, and trust that others will get it through time. Clouds and shades are always accessible for people when they need it. Balance, Order and Harmony is always valued in Nature. That is what Nature strives for. Trust in the process that drives this whole reality. And realize that you are not only the sun, you are all of reality doing what it does best.