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I am not trying to "troll" your thread I promise.. but I really feel this way.. I don't really care about material things nearly as much as people's consciousness these days.. so Home to me is more of my brothers returning. Without that I am "Homeless" in this world.

Being too awake to care about the test.. I'm kind of serious about that one.. But ofc if you needed it for something you might ace it too.

That's bullshit. A big chunk of my awakening journey can be attributed to music (playing and listening) and really feeling them or become it. Basically every artists carries with them a level of frequency with their music and they can help you awaken if they are ahead of you. Do the opposite.

It's not true that you are just bound to fall asleep again, a lot of that is in your control and the more you awaken the more control you have over this. Yes if you haven't awakened much then yeah you're bound to come back almost "uncontrollably". But even then every awakening carries with you into your future lifetimes if you choose that. You can also remain as spirit and not come back here this is your choice. Anyway I hope you are okay because the way you started your post kind of worries me.

I know what might cure me but it's not up to me.. is if more people reached my state. I know that sounds like a baseless claim but that's just what spirit tells me and as well through brief moments when someone was able to share their light with me I experience improvements. Anyway, I'm doing fine mostly. The point was just about speaking for people with these "weird/invisible conditions" and the kind of hurdle they face. Basically if almost no doctor can either help you or take you seriously and there's also no support/assistance for basic survival even temporarily, yeah you could see how that pushes someone to become suicidal..

There was probably something else he was not saying on the forum.. like perhaps he needed help to survive. I know what fibromyalgia is like, at the worst times you really have trouble doing regular tasks but you still look normal as hell to people so almost every doctor will gaslight you and suggest you're lying. I have been gaslit so many times by bad doctors that I have little to no motivation to try again. When I tried to get some kind of disability support again I had trouble finding a single doctor who would take me seriously. The government/disability department also doesn't take it as seriously. My symptoms get worse when the stress of survival becomes seemingly an impossible task so it's like a negative feedback loop. It improves when I have some backup. You know the funny thing is? At best disability support will give you something like 1000 bucks a month which isn't enough unless you lived in a tent or van. And even then the people in charge try to nickel and dime, deny the people who really need it. And this is in Canada one of the better places, who knows what was happening in his country.. I'm just lucky coz I currently have some support. But if I didn't I'd be almost just as screwed.

@mmKay I've been living in my van since spring this year. It's mostly not bad and if I really needed to I can find an Airbnb temporarily. Partly it is to save but also to use the money I have to pay visit to places where I live or use it in other ways that's fitting. I will be going back inside for the late fall and winter and may repeat again next year. Yes it doesn't have to cost much I think something like a caravan is the most economical way to go about it (compared to the larger commercial vans).

Kingdom of Heaven, which I tried to describe in the other comment there.

Prior to the "big bang" is Me . I can try to describe it but it won't be the same as experiencing it. Grandeur, golden/white rays, mechanoid, holiness, glory, perfect Love, protection, perfection.. ("Colors" are mostly gold and white as mentioned above).

You're not taking my questioning seriously. I am basically saying, before you awakened, did you honestly have a choice in the matter of "being a human" or being awake? I mean yeah if you're utterly asleep and really think you're a fking cat then you're gonna protest and resist when someone tells you that's not your true being. Oh.. you don't wanna know how much I know about "cats". Maybe you're talking to one right meow. That's why I used air quotes "". Again you're not taking my line of questioning seriously and diverting the real issue. You know when I say "big bang" I mean the creation of this universe/dream, with your mind that is.

That's an assumption though. If the cat doesn't know or remember what it was before it became a cat it literally cannot decide for itself right now, it has no clue to decide or even know if such a decision exists. Imo you cannot say the cat has "freewill" to make the decision as to continue to being a dream character or awake when it has long forgotten what awake is. At best you could say during the "big bang" there was some freewill to become a cat but after that and the dream is set this freewill was gone. And there's also a difference between an awakened cat vs non awakened cat. Which one would you rather be?

I don't agree with that... I have 99% certainty of where I'm going and going to be.. because I'm basically already being it with some limitations (like not the full magnitude because of body but the state will be very similar). Actually.. I don't really think I can leave this body until I choose to at this point. I have a feeling I would be able to live a very long time here if I chose to for my "teaching/divine purposes". Though you know.. I don't wanna start making claims if I haven't proved it yet.. it's just what it seems to me at this point. @Something Funny I'm sorry that it came off as a guilt trip..that wasn't the point. I'm sure people would understand you were suffering. I am just pointing out this inevitable effect on people.

@Something Funny My response would be.. since you haven't awakened enough from my view it's better to do that than "suicide". You could find out more or less what you are going to end up being "on the other side" with some mushrooms for example.. The other thing is about love, anytime someone commits suicide it has a ripple effect on the people around them. There will for sure be people saddened by the loss and your presence/way of leaving this world. Though yeah technically I think most people basically "suicides" when they leave here when their body is at its "end use" or some other karmic determination.. but it's different to me when a young ish person tries to do that especially if they're still healthy. That would be a circumstantial thing more or less that could be improved.

I mean it's interesting your mind even mentioned this if you really think there's no truth to it.. I could help you but.. if your mind has already decided I am deluded or untrue or unreal then I can't help you. So it's a chicken and egg situation where if you reject me you won't ever find what I found..

@Keryo Koffa You can from a higher baseline level switch to something lower if you wanted. It just generally doesn't feel "pleasant" for long and mostly for me it would be a teaching tool to try to meet the other person where they're at. I don't think you can just "forget" where you currently are though in the same lifetime if your baseline settled down more. It sounds like maybe you're integrating some awakenings if that's the case.