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Every 22 year old, living in his mother's basement forms an opinion about me without having met me in real life. People know they know something based on their very limited and distorted ability to understand stuff. I have survived on the streets , living in harsh conditions while at the same time maintaining peak physical condition. Meditating everyday without fail. Attending NA meetings & etc. Some of you, the biggest struggle you have faced was that one time you ran out of toilet paper because your mom didn't buy you enough resources. >=50% of you would not survive 2 weeks in my living situation. Your Egoic reactions are just training for me. Have a nice life. See you when Life begins hitting you really hard.

@Natasha Tori Maru No. Unconsciousness and ego bothers me because it has caused me a t r e m e n d o u s amount of suffering in the past from ignorant people. I have a natural aversion to all falsehoods now. I see them as a threat.

Mentally ill:

Yes. I am mentally ill for living here.

@Natasha Tori Maru Nope. I don't do everything i judge in others. (I used in the past). You are just parroting what you heard from others.

People here in this forum who spend the most time, are the most unspiritual and least developed. Its really sad.

@UnbornTao Your assumptions stink. Not my situation.

@Rigel Said the mentally ill one. What i need is urgent financial aid. Not your silly projections.

Today i went to a NA meeting. The 'leader' there didn't give me the opportunity to speak when it was my time. And she kept ignoring and dismissing that it was my time to speak. I complained and then the other bots basically told me to not talk. Inner sanction said 'Leave. Enough is enough'. And so i did. I have been going to these meetings for 14 months. Now it's time to take care more of my survival agenda because me being selfless with these idiots, just ruins my health over time. Key lessons and observations from NA: Most are very selfish, conformist and closed minded. They haven't contemplated much in their lives. They treat the NA book like a christians treat the 'holy' bible. They mostly care about survival. They are not spiritual. Many are heavily addicted to smoking or eating food. Can't stand smelling the stench of a cigarrete smoker sitting next to me. You will not find an englightened person there. They are dogmatic and closed-minded. It's a good program to not die from addiction or loneliness. But other than that it's not profound. You will not be taught about what Leo or Peter Ralston teach there. My higher self seeks something deeper. Maybe i will start my own cult now. I don't know How do you even find a high consciousness group in person? It's almost impossible. Few weeks ago, i attended Mormon church. They didn't let me speak on the mic becauss i am not a member yet.

I also wanted to mention this: Few days ago, a stupid NA member who is 15 years 'clean' and is very dogmatic and quite selfish said "this is not an inside problem, it's an outside problem". Thats a quote from the NA book. He meant that if i dont have to eat thats not the problem of the NA group. But mine problem. I think i said enough.

@Carl-Richard Seems like it.

32 years.

Many people here assume that they are far more developed, more well-educated or something. I don't need advice (from most people). Your advice doesn't do it. The good-hearted advice is appreciated though. On any given topic, i probably know more than the person next to me I need money. And a good mentor. You are not better. You are not worse. You are caused.