SQAAD

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  1. I can't wrap my mind around acceptance... For example a therapist told me to accept uncertainty . He says acceptance is an undoing , not something you do. So how do you accept something ?? What is Acceptance after all??
  2. @Nahm No, if I calm my mind then everything is peaceful. But many times my mind gets stuck repeating negative events of life, which create suffering to me as unpleasant feelings in the body.
  3. I don't know if my question can be answered in a symbolic way
  4. If I could talk to God I would ask him why there is so much suffering, misery and pain. I don't understand why there has to be so much fn suffering and it bothers me. Fear, mental illness, corruption, Poverty, beheadings etc. I can suffer tomorrow just because someone harms me. I can be born in an abusive home. Maybe I'm so unlucky that my country is at war. It's very difficult for me to accept all the misery and brutality that comes with life. On the other hand I see the beauty and intelligence behind life. My problem is that life will never go as I want it to be. Life doesn't care what I want. I'm forced to accept all the BS that I don't like. I have no say in the matter. I'm like a river with no choices but simply to flow. Wish I had more control. What kind of God am i ??? The powerlessness really gets at me sometimes. I'm forced to constantly watch a movie (my life) with no say in the matter. Just an illusion of control. And I have to deal with all the crap the movie throws at me. So my conclusion is yes life is beautiful but also really messed up at the same time. Nobody can deny the inherent misery and pain that comes along with life.
  5. Leo Why Does it Matter if Reality is Imaginary or not? Isn't this just a word game?? Let's say someone tortures me to death. Even if that is imaginary or not it doesn't make any difference to my suffering and pain.If i starve to death it doesn't make any difference to me if it is imaginary or real. And since Real=Imaginary i don't really see any way that this understanding could change my life. Who cares if the suffering is imaginary when it feels real and causes me all this pain? Any responses from anyone are highly appreciated.
  6. Everyone talks about thoughts & language creating our reality but i would argue that feelings create more reality than thoughts. Why? Because you feel something is wrong. You feel you are ugly. You feel understanding. Understanding without the feeling of understanding probably wouldn't even exist. You feel certain. You feel right. You feel wrong. You feel succesful. Many of the things you hold as true are a bunch of feelings.
  7. This is my 2nd time attempting a 1 year NoFap Challenge. My best streak so far is 64 days but i could have lasted longer if i had a vision. Now i am going to be visualizing for 10 mins every day myself having accomplished this challenge. We'll see how that goes. Besides that i practice meditation every day & a lil bit of yoga. Day 1/365 is 18/11/2019. Why am i doing this? Because i want to see what happens. I am curious. Also because i want to be as strong , focused & powerful as possible. I want to direct my energy on other things. The last reason is quite egotistical but it is because i don't know anyone close to me who has achieved this. It is like an achievement to me. I want to challenge myself. I want to go through hell & come back stronger!! I want to say to to myself yes i endured a whole year without sex and masturbating.
  8. @zeroISinfinity Why? I can say that Love is Everything has meaning. Seems more true to me in my direct experience. Meaning clearly exists for anyone with a subjective experience. We can't deny that. Love itself is a meaning because It means something.
  9. @Matt8800 @Matt8800 How is everything meaningless objectively when all we have is subjectivity?
  10. Your statement in your Understanding Meaning, Purpose & Value video is that Everything is Meaningless & Pointless & that all meaning is relative & a conceptual construct. If Everything is Meaningless then why do we talk about Love, Intelligence, Beauty. Aren't all these just meanings? If Everything has no Purpose then why do you say in your What is the Point of Life video that God wants/desires to know itself? That is a purpose! I understand how all meanings are relative but i don't understand why they are conceptual constructs. Sometimes they are conceptual constructs but other times they are not. For example an apple means tasty food for me. It makes me fool good. That's the meaning of an apple for me. This is a fact, a relative truth not just a conceptual construct. An apple is not meaningless to me. I am not projecting the meaning that an apple is tasty. This is just the truth for me in my direct experience. Even when we say that something doesn't have any meaning that's still a meaning. It means that it has no meaning. So everything means something for a living creature. What do you mean by saying that things are meaningless? I don't get it. I'm confused...
  11. Check this video out. He is a high quality source (for me). He talks about ghosts getting stuck & past lifes etc. Doesn't all this contradict non-duality? Past lifes implies Individual Souls/Selfs but Leo talks about One Self, The Self. I am very confused.
  12. God didn't create anything willingly from a position of free will. That's what i mean.It just happened or you can say it was just there forever. Not even God knows how he did it. It's not like he planned & designed it before he actually created it. And that's the most scary part . God had no choice but to exist. At the same time though he doesn't exist. It's kinda depressing from my current limited egoic perspective. This is what i can recall from my 2 tabs LSD experience two years ago. Maybe i am wrong/deluded. Anyways it was such a mindfuck. Infinity is such a scary thing...And the negative thing about it is that it is inevitable. Anyone has a similar experience?