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Connor Murphy has Eckhart-style awakening

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2 minutes ago, Forestluv said:

Thanks. I hope it clears out. I miss silence and being able to listen to music clearly. . .  Yet I’m grateful it doesn’t send me into fight or flight anymore. And it keeping me up through the night. That was awful. Now it’s just annoying at times. And I can still go into deep states of relaxation. 

Well that’s somewhat good to hear. I too hope it continues to heal. The fact that it has gotten less bothersome with time thus far is probably a good sign.

13 minutes ago, Forestluv said:

A few days after,  a loud ringing started all of a sudden. I never experienced anything like it. I never heard of tinnitus and didn't know it was a thing. The ENT said he had never seen a case in which intense tinnitus appeared suddenly without some type of ear injury. 

 

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31 minutes ago, Free Mind said:

@ForestluvHave you ever thought of sharing your experiences on some video post or something? That's some insane stuff and it would be very insightful to hear your experiences. It would also be refreshing to finally have an intelligent and highly educated psychonaut with epistemological understanding share such an intense series of trips. There's virtually no one like this who's sharing such experiences besides Leo. But I understand if you don't want to for privacy and safety reasons. 

Look around your surroundings. Now imagine you are are to describe your surroundings to another, yet you only get to keep one inch of your surroundings. Anything you describe to another is just one tiny inch. Someone might say “Why even bother? Any inch I choose is such a tiny portion and it’s not even my surroundings anymore.

Thats kinda like what it was like one day during the second week. There was infinity, yet any contextualization or memory was a tiny dot of that infinity. 

I’ve considered making videos of insights. I had 20+ years of substance free spiritual work before my first trip, I’ve been trained as a cellular biologist and have done over 100 psychedelic trips. That seems to be a fairly unique combination and perhaps I could offer some unique perspectives. 

Thanks for the kind words and encouragement. 🙏 

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1 hour ago, electroBeam said:

yeah you oldies still stuck on AM, have a good sleep

I’m not that old! More like FM

 

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On 26/11/2020 at 1:39 PM, Forestluv said:

I hope newbies can get some group support including people with psychedelic experience. There is a lot of value in exploring solo, yet it can be extremely taxing. There is also value in being within group settings.

This topic would be a cool pinned thread; maybe a list of live facilitators, groups, books that can help you integrate. 

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@Leo Gura @Forestluv

Just want to clarify I respect the substance. However, I am not afraid of it. 

You know... Martin Ball did it like 3 times a day for 7 years.

Forestluv, what was your emotional state prior to the tinnitus? Also, I still don't understand you're insane asylum statements. Are you making a recontextualization of being on planet earth?

My tinnitus also came out of nowhere, I have no hearing damage. It think it is a vein or something. I am not sure I understand its nature. 

Edited by Thought Art

Everything Is Connected Stay Connected. 

Love is the Truth.

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7 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

Consciousness is not all Love and paradise. There are realms of consciousness so horrific and sinister that you will forget that Love or God even exists. There are realms of infinite horror.

Leo why does it have to be this way? I had a crazy nightmare last night I realized what you are talking about. Consciousness can materialize everything imaginable. This is a total mind killer. In the dream I saw how there is no limit to what can be created by consciousness.. Why just why? Infinity fine I get it but still just fucking why?!! Who is controlling this? There is no limit to what can created and experienced.. But why  God is such a fool to use his infinite power to create hell? 


There are no sacred cows. Everything is under questioning. And your absolute facts are next on the table. 

 

 

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 I'd suspect he's still looking through a shadowy orange worldview lens without having properly integrated green, yellow, or turquoise. Realizing such states of consciousness without evolving and integrating your world-view can be very problematic. 

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8 hours ago, The0Self said:

Hmm, maybe increase the dose, change sources, or get LSD-25. Just 110ug (used to require much more; up to 1000ug) of good LSD will get me to such a high state of consciousness that I can barely see the room I'm in, my body feels like it's the size of the universe, and I cannot even remember that I'm a human. Also, quite often, experience inverts -- like I'm God looking in at conscious experience rather than out, from infinity -- I have experienced a similar state just from self inquiry as well.

Were you practicing constant self inquiry, or just as a sitting practice?

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9 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

I don't know, but you don't want to reach that point. Trust me.

What if that's how the ego dies in a psychedelic? What if you are given the choice for permanent ego death?

 

I've been having a dream in which I also felt like I could make the decision to die right now, and it truly felt like I would physically die, stop breathing and my heart would stop. I always fought my way out of it. But I wonder what would happen if I did it.

 

Could be some advanced trickery of the ego to survive.

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Can someone please tell Connor to recover from his insanity, or is he fully paradigm locked as God in psychosis? 

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@allislove Nah man, he messed up his neurochemistry badly. That's scary, you're pretending that duality doesn't exist at all and things can't be bad. He needs a proper physiatrist and phycologist. 

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20 minutes ago, allislove said:

@Red-White-Light it's all good NOW :) 
So, everything is good with Connor too :P 
He just need some time to integrate and perhaps few video calls with @Nahm :D

But Good isn't different to being fucked up. Good includes being fucked up. Or thats what it seems forestluv would say based on his earlier comments xD

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56 minutes ago, Keyhole said:

He is manic atm for sure, love his goofballishness though.

 

Yeah....

This is why people don't take the idea of God seriously anymore.

Gotta be real careful if your mission is to truly awaken people. People are looking for any excuse to dismiss and discredit you already, and you're playing right into their hand by acting like an unhinged lunatic.

In theory, image shouldn't matter. In practice, it's almost all that matters.


You are God. You are Love. You are Infinity. You are Leo.

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4 hours ago, Someone here said:

Leo why does it have to be this way? I had a crazy nightmare last night I realized what you are talking about. Consciousness can materialize everything imaginable. This is a total mind killer. In the dream I saw how there is no limit to what can be created by consciousness.. Why just why? Infinity fine I get it but still just fucking why?!! Who is controlling this? There is no limit to what can created and experienced.. But why  God is such a fool to use his infinite power to create hell? 

@Leo Gura

Would you address this?  I want to understand why it is such that consciousness will dream hell if it's infinitely good and infinitely intelligent? Is it being dreamed randomly like consciousness can't help itself but explode all it's potential? Is there not a choice for consciousness to create only a limited section of its capabilities? Why am I a fool as God to create hell and torture myself? What's the point? 

Edited by Someone here

There are no sacred cows. Everything is under questioning. And your absolute facts are next on the table. 

 

 

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5 minutes ago, Someone here said:

@Leo Gura

Would you address this?  I want to understand why it is such that consciousness will dream hell if it's infinitely good and infinitely intelligent? Is it being dreamed randomly like consciousness can't help itself but explode all it's potential? Is there not a choice for consciousness to create only a limited section of its capabilities? Why am I a fool as God to create hell and torture myself? What's the point? 

What's the point of addressing it? Anything he could possibly say will not be the truth, it will simply be a concept to satisfy your mind and make it certain of one way over the other.

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