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In an apocalyptic scenario assuming WW3 nukes, or extinction level events, then all of life, humans including, would be wiped out. We are too dependent and interconnected to nature that an apocalyptic scenario at global scale would very likely end all of life. In the tech Utopia, I think 25% of society worldwide would be at stage turgoise, 50% at stage yellow, and the remaining 25% would, from biggest to smallest, would be green, orange, blue. Red and purple societies would at this pojnt be very rare. However, at this point it's likely humanity, in this scenario, has advanced genetic engineering and trans humanism, and the majority would have undergone this type of transformation, so I assume what's humanity in this scenario would be different to humanity that we currently are. This might mean that in terms of cognitive and moral development of the population, would be much higher, and we might be able to adjust genetically to counteract more radical or dysfunctional cognitive processes of some impaired individuals, and morally we would be at a higher level in that we emphasize and do those adjustments out of concern, for both the person, and for others in the in group and out groups that would've been effect if this adjustment was not given. I imagine that individuals in this time would be able to switch and maintain more states than we would today, and be exposed to higher and more complex levels of technology and integrated internet that it's possible to accelerate each person's domain of life and domain of mastery due to more advanced holographic training for examole. There would also be stage turquoise and sgage yellow infrastructure to handle almost everg problem, both individually and collectively.

The ending of one's incarnation is equivalent to a candle that burns out. The flame transforms into smoke. Death is a transformation. You put another set of clothes, so to speak.

Man that's a cool thought. So a more expanded form of spiritual bypassing (applied to knowledge in general). Epistemic bypassing? ☺ Is it like when Orange thinks it is Yellow? ? (I'm not sure if this is coherent at all. It's a pretty off-the-wall late-night bed thought): So in the post-metamodern application of epistemic bypassing, the internal transformation would be described using a metamodern developmental framework (e.g. SD), which then would be used to critique a person's level of understanding of the metamodern level of analysis itself (either that very framework, i.e. SD, or a comparable model), so it's interlooping with itself pretty hard. Is this interlooping action what MHC (Commons) refers to by denoting "performative-recursive" in meta-cross-paradigmatic cognition?

I can't seem to stop thinking that it's a good idea to make those whom I love try psychedelics. After all psychedelics was how I first got into this journey I'm currently on with meditation, practicing work, working out, eating healthy, yoga, reading, self improvement, trying to make the best of every situation, no matter what hand I'm dealt, trying to bring acceptance and love to those around me. And I'm loving it every day, even my worse days, I can stand now. I wish everyone would be able to experience this inner transformation phenomena. The perceptions, visions, sound alterations, thoughts etc during the trip itself is magic, completely unexplainable and amazing . But the direction life can take a couple of years later as a long term consequence of the inner change that sets into action during the trip. There is not a word for the thankfulness which I feel for that. But how would I be without it? My life was heading downhill fast. My mental condition was not good, not good at all. I can picture myself working at McDonalds 45 years old, alone, fat, porn addicted, taking hard drugs, playing league of legends 24/7 for 10s of thousands of hours yet still being the lowest rank, telling kids on there they should kill themselves for playing poorly. Dying early from heart attack due to horrible progressed kyphosis and bad food and training habits. OR just from sheer anxiety itself. This is a highly likely scenario from my point of view. Oh what my life would be without my curiosity and open-mindedness toward psychedelics. But if I couldn't make it without psychedelics(atleast according to how I think about the matter), how could most of my friends and my family ever make it? Some of them are doing fine and have things going for them despite the fact. But I can tell most of them are just depressed to a crippling degree and they're not even conscious of it themselves. It is a horrifying thing to bear witness to. The endless self imposed suffering, they don't have the belief systems, open mindedness, they don't have what it takes to stick to meditation for months on end or stop themselves from eating McDonalds daily and start working out. And neither had I before psychedelics. So what if I could make them think it's a good idea to swallow a piece of blotter once, in an educated manner? How would I convince them it's a good idea, is it even a good idea making my friends and perhaps even parents and siblings try psychedelics?

Let's see if I can articulate this sensibly... A lot of what I write about here is shadow work. I don't particularly cling to that title, I mean it's really good old fashioned "working through shit", that is actually a better, more descriptive title. Maybe it's because I have a distaste of clinging to buzzwords that try and make me sound intelligent. Nevertheless, shadow work it is. Off the bat there's already a negative feeling to shadow work. Shadows are mysterious and deceptive, they only give you a sense of what might be lurking around that corner: it could be small and benign or large and terrifying. That unknown is itself unsettling. And so it is. When you start digging around and confronting memories and emotions you would rather not it can be overwhelming and instil fear in you or at the very least anxiety and embarrassment. Maybe most of us are not really courageous enough to confront ourselves. I for one have always consciously tried to have a very non-emotional and direct way of dealing with my problems. But I have found out (to my cost) that most of this shadow work stuff is pure emotion, and has nothing to do with rationality. My rationale in not confronting my problems has mostly been "out of sight out of mind". I 100% espouse this view. If I only have thoughts of a particularly horrific incident say once a year, then so what? What work is there to do here? None. This is what I call - for myself - the frequentist view of trauma. It's only when the frequency of a problematic thought or emotion crosses a certain threshold do you then need to do something about it. In other words, without prompting, the problem manifests enough to affect your every-day functioning. There is a nuance here. What happens a lot is that your shadows can be so frequent that they become enmeshed with your identity: "Hey Harry's a miserable so and so", "Charlotte's always so timid" and so on. Often the character descriptions people give you stick, and you start describing yourself that way: "I'm depressed". This makes it doubly hard to confront your shadows, because you're also having to chip away at your identity. There's this fear that if you were to suddenly become happy and problem free one day (by some miracle), then people wouldn't take you seriously and think you were being fake and inauthentic. No, it all has to happen very gradually and slow enough that people (and yourself) are not surprised by your transformation. Traditional therapy is supposed to be a long-drawn-out process for this very reason; not because it can't be a quick transformation, but because a quick transformation is too unsettling and fake sounding. Imagine a parent dying, you have therapy and three days later you're having a great time and you've never been happier! It's just not socially acceptable and it seems like a wholly unreasonable timescale and worst of all inauthentic. I know from personal experience however, that transformation and removing or resolving shadows can be very quick indeed. In most cases shadows are long lasting only because they're never confronted or understood well enough to resolve. Say for example I have a fear of organising events with friends. This fear stops me from ever doing the things I'm interested in and I end up unhappy because of this. How would you attack this shadow? It seems insurmountable. If you have no clue as to what specifically triggers the fear (and it may actually be lots of different things), then it's going to be impossible to fix. You end up with the label "unambitious" or "uninterested" or "dull" perhaps - maybe especially so in a workplace setting. My point for this post was that it's very easy to fall into the negativity trap. Transformation seems to always be a process of inspecting and then resolving negativity. How could it be any other way? It seems like you have to constantly trigger or deal with negativity within yourself in order that you can be negativity free. Seen that way it's an absurd process. It's like asking a depressive to be happy by going deeper into their depression. But it can be countered with positivity; there is a certain power to positivity. On the whole given the choice between a positive thing and a negative thing, most of us would choose positivity. We have to learn to transform ourselves by crowding out our negativity with positivity. This can seem a bit Pollyanna at first, but if the frequentist view of things is correct then it's very sensible. The idea here is that there is only a finite space for stuff in your mind and body to express itself. If you fill that space with positivity then the negativity has less space to express itself (it becomes less frequent). I literally mean here filling your life with: laughter, joy, connection, purpose, goals, pleasure etc. This has to be an active and conscious process, it takes dedication and stamina and an eye for knowing how to bring that joy in. Positivity is a habit.

I would advise people to lower their expectations. Transformation may happen when walking the pathless path. But at some point, it will become the choice of the indvidual to let: What has been given to him/her: Transform them in to a more loving and compassionate being. Not everyone will be turned in to a saint. Doesnt really give people the rights to be completely reckless. But you see, even some monks and gurus who have "realized" turn in to devils, rapists and maniacs (Not saying Leo is one lol) Enlightenment, awakening in to reality and all that, doesnt necessarily make you in to a Godly being. It can, but isnt always the case. It will always be the choice of each "individual" To be fair, Leo have been telling us not to keep him to some Godly standard. Even if he goes around telling everyone and him is God <3 True, but for the "worldly" indvidual, dont expect much

After 5 years of personal development i have come to the conclusion that it is a balancing act. I'm all about habits and getting better, but if there isn't time for integration and slow growth, you will just backslide. Many want to 10X their personal development and have rapid transformation, but i've learned this work has it's own natural maturation phase that you cannot rush or plow through. It's actually quite beautifully designed and nice when you can just relax into your own progress without needing to push it or read so many books. Just do like 1-2 hours a day of meditation , reading , courses, whatever and you're set, it's almost impossible to not grow and develop. The key is consistency, vision and becoming keenly aware of what goes into your mind, other people, media , etc. Be like the fucking white house with what enters your mind, maximum security , only the highest quality of books, teachings, friends, even music! It all comes down to lifestlye and mindset I found myself watching these psychology videos and i realized how so many people who study this stuff like triggers, psychology, childhood trauma, many of them really get nowhere in their progress because there isn't love. All these things, pick-up, healing, psychology, improvement, they just point to a lack of authenticity and love, simplified that's all it is.

By the sounds of it, you have had a tremendous transformation. And this journey have made your life vibrant and filled with joy and desire to give back to the world, what you have received, by taking this path. The process is not yet finished, as you are still finding out how. And with time it will come to you. Its just that: When you are in the midst of change and/or transformation: Things can feel very weird, incomplete, and leave you with hanging with further questions. I am almost in the same boat as you. And my coaching teacher once said: You a larvae ? in your cocoon, and you are still growing and changing. It will take time. You will just have to trust the process. If you want to transform in to a butterfly ?. Doubt is natural. But trust is what changes us. But sometimes, it takes time. You know: If all the larvae ? in the world would doubt their process to transform and change: We wouldn’t have any butterflies in the world. We are still in the process of transformation. Although we have grown and changed a lot. But its still a bit left. You could say that we are in a stage where we are neither the larvae ? nor the butterfly ?. We are something in between. Im sure you will find your true passion someday soon ?

Greg: Spirit of guidance, communicate with me. Spirit Guide: Hello, my dear friend. It is good to be talking to you again. Greg: It is! And although we talk all the time, it's been several months since I recorded our communications by the written word. I believe it's time to renew some of my literary skills. Spirit Guide: What is about to unfold is so much more than just a conversation. Do you recall, in your discussions with The Yogi, on the beach, you came to the understanding that you brought that experience to yourself by choosing to follow your heart? And that your Beach Experience was the moment of the transition from one level of consciousness to another? Greg: Yes, it was in late February of 2020, just when the virus first struck. Spirit Guide: Well, what I'd like to add to what The Yogi had said is that the reason this was the moment you altered your state of consciousness was because this is when you moved your ego into your heart. You see, by deciding to “follow your heart” you are aligning the separate part of self that resides in duality (which is your ego) with the part of yourself that is connected to the oneness and resides outside of duality (which is your spirit). That is what it means to follow your heart. And when you become a heart-centered being, you climb one step in The Ladder of Consciousness. There are many such steps, as you already know. Greg: Does that ladder end at some place? Is there an Ultimate State of Consciousness? Spirit Guide: Yes and no. Remember that we're trying to comprehend the magnitude of infinity, of reality, from a perspective that is finite. And, of course, since your Beach Experience you have done a great deal more inner spiritual work. And so you are ready now. It is time for the next transition in your consciousness. Greg: Really? But how? How will that happen? I've been on countless beach expeditions since my encounter with The Yogi and, well, and in none of them have... Spirit Guide: It's not the expeditions that brought you to this point. It was your consistent and repeated choices to follow your heart. As it happened, that meeting with The Yogi was simply the perfect place at the perfect time for you, and indeed for The Yogi, too, to reach a moment of perfect stillness. It came together in divine right fashion for you to touch the heart of oneness and to feel your own eternal connection with All That Is. I remain silent. Spirit Guide: What needed now is another moment of true stillness. You clutter your mind with so much noise and your life with so much activity that it becomes very difficult to allow for these great transitions of your consciousness. Perhaps it is counter-intuitive to you, but indeed it is so that your greatest transformation will always happen when you are at your most still. Greg: So I must... what... meditate? And then? Spirit Guide: Something more than your normal meditation is required of you. You meditate fairly regularly and that is good. But your meditations are not actually the stillness of being that you think they are. Every meditation chases after one purpose or another. There is no fault with that, but something else is required now. You see, it is now time for you to change your mode of being entirely. Greg: What is required? Spirit Guide: Pick a day in which you have no appointments. Set that day aside. It is to be your day of stillness and listening. Tell everyone that you will be non-contactable on that day. Tell those who share your home with you that you will not speak to them on that day and that they are not to speak to you either. It is your day of silence. The night before your day of silence, you must switch off your mobile telephone and all such devices that might intrude upon you. You must switch off your computer, your television and your radio. All devices, which you use to input information into your consciousness, must be silent for your day of silence. On the morning of the day of silence you must allow yourself to awaken naturally. In other words, no alarm-clock. Stay in bed and be still. Listen to your heart. Greg: Okay. But how do I listen? Spirit Guide: For a start, make sure there is nothing else taking up residence in your consciousness, making a noise. Your heart will not compete for your attention! This is why you need to ask your family not to speak to you. It is why you must not engage with reading matter, not check your email, not speak to anyone. No external input at all. But you must also not busy yourself with work or chores or other activities. All of these things create thoughts and noise inside your mind. You must come to total stillness within your mind. And the maximum possible stillness of your hands, your body and your ears will assist this greatly That is the start. Then, when you are still, you must listen to your heart. You can, if you need something to do, just listen to your physical heart beating. That will help you because it is a literal listening to your heart. But then you should seek to still your consciousness and see what you receive. And this is how you should spend your day. Be still. Listen. Wait upon your heart. Your heart might speak to you more in feelings than in words. But, if you pay attention, you will know exactly what those feelings mean. All of Oneness is in there! All of Life is in there! And life will express itself if you will but pay attention! Look around you at the universe, teeming with vigorous activity. Look at the world outside your window. Look at a drop of water under a microscope. Look at the nucleus of an atom. Where, anywhere, is the oneness saying nothing? The oneness is speaking with passionate eloquence all the time. Can you let go of your fears and your excuses and just go and see what is there? Greg: Yes. I'll do this. Tomorrow is Monday, January 31st, 2022. I'll make that my day of silence and I'll see what I get. Spirit Guide: Good. It might be that tomorrow is just a practice run and that you actually need to do it again at some point. You might even need to spend a few days in silence. Be prepared for that. But if you manage, for even a single moment, to get out of the way, to be really still and to truly listen to your heart then, I assure you, you will gain wondrous insights. And it will come to you in your heart such that you know it to be true. Which is quite a different thing from the ideas that you can hold in your head and think about. Knowing and thinking are very different things. And when it arrives, you will have no doubt that it did arrive. It will be a powerful experience. And what arrives will be the basis upon which we will be able to climb higher on The Ladder of Consciousness.

Attachment is a very deep subject in both spirituality and psychology and the healing of our core attachment wounds improve both those separate lines of development (not confusing spiritual development for realization). This link stems from the work of Daniel P Brown whose has not only been the lead pioneer in attachment research in the world of psychology and psychotherapy but also an advanced Vajrayana Mahamudra that’s been trained by some of the best including the likes of the Dalai Lama. He’s written works like Transformations of Consciousness with Ken Wilber as well as his groundbreaking work Pointing Out The Great Way. The extent of his work though is really a magnum opus in itself so I won’t really do it justice. Anyways.. Many of you are probably kinda crazy like me. I have a lot of trauma but also was diagnosed with ADHD as early as 6 along and so forth. I notice some of you on here point out that you guys struggle with similar things and coincidentally that shows up as issues not just in day your meditation/spiritual practice but also your relationships and other behavioral patterns. One of the things that’s being found with ambiguous issues like ADHD for example is not just that it’s a multidimensional issues that likely doesn’t have just one source but that it’s also commonly rooted in things like attachment disorders/disturbances based on the 5 pillars that constitute healthy or unhealthy attachment but also things even like trauma and even prenatal trauma. Now trauma and attachment disorders aren’t really the same but they “interact” or relate. This has become an issue for many of us (particularly boys/guys/men) in this day in age due to the transformation that’s resulted in the modern and postmodern family system as it moved out of more traditional family systems prior to women joining the workforce and this children had less attention and nurturance that were too busy working (PLEASE RESIST THE TEMPTATION TO FALL INTO IDEOLOGICAL THINKING WITH THIS AS THATS NOT WHERE I’M COMING FROM). I imagine many of us don’t really notice this stuff because it’s become so normal at this point we don’t really see it unless we visit or interact with families in say the 3rd world like say in Tibet (I’ll get to them in a little bit) that don’t have the kind of neurotic dysfunctional family issues that we have here in the west (particularly in America). To highlight this I want to share some things that might illuminate this a bit more using both Tibet and Tibetan Buddhism. There’s a story from some time ago when the Dalai Lama was at a press conference and a Buddhist practitioner (I think it was actually Sharon Salzburg if I’m not mistaken) asked the Dalai Lama about self loathing. The Dalai Lama stopped the press conference for some minutes to speak to his translator. He then proceeded completely bewildered and spoke how Tibetan people don’t have that and how he couldn’t even comprehend why people would do that to themselves in that it was completely unheard of to him. Which isn’t really a tell tale sign about his enlightenment as much as it is a sign that that truly doesn’t exist in Tibet despite the suffering of many people there. It’s a cultural thing. You see, when Tibetan monks practice Loving Kindness in formal Tibetan Buddhism, you know what their practice is? They visualize their mother as their mother was perfectly loving for them. Those early healthy attachment bonds are in place in those early years and that’s really a cultural thing. Can you imagine how many westerners would struggle with such a practice? I know I would and I know I’m not alone as this is common in todays modern and postmodern world relative to the simplicity that comes within a traditional culture. I even notice the contrast in psychological temperament when I hangout with friends that grew up in more traditional upbringings (particularly eastern but even Christian too). Now, what are those 5 Pillars of Attachment? Safety Attunement (usually with the mother) Delight Affect Regulation A sense of support for being and becoming one’s unique best self. If you’d like more details into each of these pillars you can check out the following text in the following link: https://www.onlyyouforever.com/the-5-pillars-of-attachment/ So what do you do if you have any one of those needs or issues in any one of those 5 pillars? Well, here are some resources for you that stem from the work of Daniel P Brown. The first one I suggest is to go to the following link: https://www.attachmentproject.com/ There you can find therapeutic modules and resources to truly heal these wounds and attachment disturbances. They are incredibly affordable as, from what I recall seeing, being under $60. That’s a great deal in my opinion. The next one is what is called The Ideal Parent Visualization which Dan Brown actually guides that you can find here: https://www.integralsomaticawakening.com/resources The protocol for this practice is to do it right when you wake up. If you have a meditation practice you do first thing in the morning, do it before you start your usual practice. This practice is one that’s serves multiples purposes. First off, it’s of course about healing and cultivating core attachment wounds by visualizing (and you can really include the somatic field of your experience - this is big for me personally - if you’re not the best at visualization) perfect ideal parents that aren’t in the image of your biological parents and cultivate those core aspects in your own experience slowly over the course of weeks and really many months. Ultimately though this also evolves into a deeper spiritual practice where the goal is to eventually merge in union with the perfect parents in your visualization as it really is on par as a deity practice. Oops! Did I give that away?! Don’t worry about that though. That’ll happen if and when it happens. Start where you’re at and don’t shoot for anymore than where you’re currently at. There is so much to really say on healing this stuff. Yes it’s nice that it does help promote greater spiritual development but it also helps with healing those core wounds that were created in relationship to others in our childhood that land us sleeping with people that not so coincidentally are very much like our parents and we relate to in the same subtle ways with them as we did with our parents and getting into the same kind of relationships again and again and again. This is karma. We’re trying to fill deeper needs that we didn’t get early in childhood and unconsciously find people to fill those needs. That’s okay. We’re just trying our best with what we got whether we know it or not. There is a way to satiate these unmet needs though. I highly recommend checking those resources out and of course also getting good psychotherapy that deals with these attachment issues. Generally I hear tell it takes 3-18 months to really heal these kinds of disturbances. If I were you though I’d throw away these timelines. If this resonates with you I highly recommend you give yourself what you’ve been looking for. Take care and thanks for staying with this long post if you’ve made it this far. I hope it serves you.

Come on man.. what are you actually saying? You can surely discipline and change your behaviour, I have been deep into addiction and ive became free from it by perseverence and DISCIPLINE and through doing good and asking for forgiveness for your own sake and being aware of the consequenses of my actions. TAKE RESPONSEBILITY FOR YOUR ACTION! USE YOUR GOD GIVEN WILL! A transformation is messy and you will fuck up more then once but just know that it is part of the journey, you have the power to change, to do better, meditation is valueable in that it clearly shows the ephemeral nature of thought and how it appears, but that does not mean that they are random or useless, they bring meaning and are CREATIVE. It is LOGOS. Just dont take yourself too seriously, and learn to let go when it is needed, but use thought when it is needed as well. Know thyself, know your pitfalls etc, learn your triggers. It is a question of habit with regards to addiction etc, thought patterns which trigger emotions and memory etc. Do not surrender your power is all I am saying, since you are a powerful creator made in the image of God, honor it, use the tools that you have been given. It is possible to free yourself from the bondage of addiction and anxiety but it does not necessarily entail that you have to think that thoughts are random and you dont exist etc. A murderer might have a thought about killing someone and actually acting upon it while another might have the thought about killing someone but will never act upon it, can we say that the murderer should be free instead of in jail because it was just random thoughts appearing and he had no say in the manner? NO! Thought is creative but it is YOU AS ACTUALITY WHICH MADE THE THOUGHT POSSIBLE AND REAL and can manifest it, or else they go back to the field of potentiality. As I said, you form potentiality into actuality. But it is good to know that you have the power also to let go of thoughts and not make a big deal out of it.

@Preety_India Maybe it could all fall together for you @Jacob MorresDoesn't sound hippie at all, sounds like you have a keen eye for things that feel right and wrong. I have found that I got into a lot of ruts of a kind of depressive nihilistic world view by thinking I'll never be able to make the change I want to see in the world, but now I see it as not so much worldy transformation rather than inner transformation - since one follows the other, sure you can do start with worldly transformation but what a mess you'd end up as (trust me) Empathy is a cu** to master

Sure, but he should be wise enough to realize that the things he's talking about require internal transformation. You can't just drop this into someone's lap who doesn't have the development to grok it, the same way that you can't teach a six year old about postmodern theory. That would be like trying to introduce someone to something like Buddhism by just dropping it's most advanced teachings in to thier lap without any context or groundwork, rather than by teaching that person the basics of things like meditation as a starting point...

@Gesundheit2 I highly recommend his 2017 lecture series "Maps of Meaning" and "Personality and Transformation", I absolutely love them. And his biblical series is great! What you personally need to hear? Oh man who knows? I think my favorite lectures are "Phenomenology of the divine" and "Kain and Able". Although to be honest, there are so many good lectures that often just blew me away... If you're interested in psychology, you'll probably find every single one of them interesting, at least it was like that for me. Some I've watched multiple times because of how much knowledge and wisdom is packed in some of them, one time won't do.

Tonight I have ploughed through think & grow rich whilst listening to instrunmental vibrational music, music that blends eerily as the partner in crime to the transformation of my internal vibration, transmuting god level sensation of desire into my mind. I have realized I always wanted to be a genuis, I wasn't born a genuis tho, I grew up handicapped & in many ways I still am. But I always loved leo davinci, & it's completely rediculous to aspire to reach his level, but I always loved his multidisciplinary cross sectional limitless curiousity & passion. I will not try to be leo davinci like an annoying fanboy & I accept my limitations & differences, but I will always hold him within the forefront of my mind, as a reminder to push it as far as possible, in fact no, to push myself as far as impossible, to push the limits, in everything I do. Martial arts? better learn how to beat up 4 opponents at once in less than a minute Langugaes? Better learn it in under 3 months & become genuinely fluent & be able to maintain it with minimal effort Pickup? Better get to the point where all tehcniques tricks & crutches disolve completely & all limitations disolve, where I can take a girl home within minutes after meeting her on a rainy day on a monday afternoon or when she's at her religious mum's birthday party. Soccer? Better be scoring some crazy ass freekicks Writing, explaining, articulation, persuasion : Become so fucking rediculously articulate consize & intelligent that I could break down the most compelx thing right to it's core & explain it to a child with ease. Become so charismatic that people vibrate with energy at my mere presence, that women pulsate & get wet within seconds, Energy : Develop so much energy & solve my health at the root & get so much energy that I permanently cut off 1 to 2 hours of sleep with zero side effects, whereby I can be sharp as a razor & glowing & vibrant after 5 or 6 hours sleep, perhaps a combination of spirituality & health. Power : Become so good at power & manipulation that I devleop a pablo escobar like presence if someone decides to try me, I will be like dumbledoor though & so my powers will be used for good, but I always put myself first as one of the ultimate divine masters of this era. Gotta really push the limits in this life.

A "me" will never understand or digest non-duality. But You can start by watching the "me", and all the thoughts, beliefs, memories that relate to this "me" that seeks non-duality. False self will never, ever, realize real Self. Consciousness "awakens" by unravelling the false identity it is identified with. Regarding navigating reality and adopting more efficient states of mind and emotion - this is about transforming your experience of life. You can choose how to relate to circumstances, and which emotion to produce. This is rather complex work because we adopt so much different ways of relating, and we adopt the self that we relate things to. So inquiring into self-views, beliefs and emotions is about changing your experience of life. Psychological treatment can help with revealing traumatic memories that produce "negative" states, but meditation, contemplation and psychedelics can also reveal deeply and right to the core the rigging of self, mind and emotion. I would suggest doing Enlightenment work and Transformation work together, they supplement each other. Awakening can reveal that You are neither self, nor mind or body, and empowers the possibility of changing them all. Working on beliefs, traumas, depressed emotions can release much of the things that hold you back from having the experience you want.

I feel you, I really do. Most everyone does at some point, but won't admit it. Do you hold it as a possibility, just a chance, that this perspective and view you are having right now is just that - a perspective? And that maybe it is not the ultimate truth? That it is a thought, a belief that is formed around the unbearable suffering you feel and/or see happening in this world? I get why you're thinking this. But this work we're doing is to see that thought and even emotion is not a messenger of truth. It is at most a very very compelling story. But maybe that story is not true. I'm not saying you're wrong. But are you open enough to consider that you are? No reason to think of love and unity and all that if you don't actually experience it. But without being open to the possibility that you're just misperceiving reality, you can't let in what's actually there. Whatever that might be. I just want to say to you, from someone who has suffered and is suffering but is seeing it as an illusion - don't indulge in this thought. It's not true. And beyond, healing and transformation awaits, and although this process is immensely painful - it is the only way to see reality for what it is. And all I can say is, that what I've seen reality to be (and you've seen it, too, maybe just forgotten) - wow... just wow. Beautiful beyond comprehension. All of it. All the confusion starts with the I. You're not being punished. You're called to open your heart and your eyes. From your Self! <3

Update 1 January 10, 2022 . @Marcel missing you. Moosh moosh. ................ I'm trying to have a good day. Looking into makeup ideas. I am thinking more positive these days. A lot of my transformation is because of marcelllllllsecret glow on face instantly. Hehe got a new nickname. You're my sweet crispy creme donut. Kiss..

Hi Leo, this is Diego from Germany I have been following your journey for 4 years now and want to thank you a lot. I managed to use your idea of applying Maslows hierarchy to my life intensely and here I am, coming from depressed pothead to living a decent live, 6 months into running my own business, which looks very promising and I found that there is kind of a gap in your content I would ask you to consider filling. background (buyer persona): Having found an "all-in" self motivation (hardcore b2b stuff, not the typical self help ideas you often see here), I would say the early stages of self development are over now and I barely consume these topics anymore. I went pretty far in nondual topics but decided them to be too early in my life. Right now it is time for burning through karma in business. self realization, healthy ego, success and the whole fun of samsara - so I do not have much place for hardcore spirituality and even reduced my intense tripping to a anti depressant microdose level from time to time without fully realizing it till recently. What I struggle with and what really matches your business claim is advanced personal development. Idea: I would love to see a video series on how to professionalize yourself in terms of work habbits, image building, stuff like that, after having decided for a long term path. I would love to see a part two like your common place book video on business planning for one man companies or ... On building a conscious business environment. By which I do not mean a "friendly" bees and apple pies environment - just an aware-of-what-is-going on-one. On how to determine who to trust in life. On the value of getting fucked by people as way of learning. Stuff like that. This is what I would consider advanced personal development for people who have chosen their way. Also I need to mention, that this is exactly the part I would miss in your life purpose course. Follow through principles are nice. But the intense personal transformation that needs to happen is also worth mentioning. Cheers

Rather than reinvent the wheel, I have cut and paste the following from Lonewolf.com, which in my opinion has one of the best examples of Spiritual Bypassing! LoneWolf.com The term ‘spiritual bypassing’ was originally coined by psychologist John Welwood in 1984. Spiritual bypassing is a term I coined to describe a process I saw happening in the Buddhist community I was in, and also in myself. Although most of us were sincerely trying to work on ourselves, I noticed a widespread tendency to use spiritual ideas and practices to sidestep or avoid facing unresolved emotional issues, psychological wounds, and unfinished developmental tasks. https://lonerwolf.com/what-is-spiritual-bypassing/ To many people, spirituality becomes a sort of crutch used as a way of standing back up again in the face of life’s turmoil – and sometimes this is necessary. We all need support at some time or another in our lives. But the problem comes when spirituality is used as a drug for which we become dependent on in order to bypass the darker elements of our lives. When spirituality is used as a defense mechanism to ward off the gremlins and demons of our existence, it actually becomes our greatest hindrance, preventing us from developing true courage, authenticity, and wholeness; qualities that refine our souls. While the use of spirituality can provide us with a solid wall to hide behind, in doing so it traps us in an all-is-happy-and-perfect jail cell of illusions. The reality is that not everything in life is ‘love and light’ as is the slogan for many spiritual seekers. The truth is that there are many types of spiritual bypassing that we sometimes don’t recognize (or refuse to recognize) in life. I have listed ten of the most common types below: I) The Optimistic Bypass We’ve all come across people in life who love to laugh and smile, yet seem to be forcefully optimistic. “Focus on the positive!” “See the glass as half full!” “Don’t let a frown get you down!” are some of the catchcries of these people who tend to use optimism as a way of avoiding the more somber and troublesome realities of life. The optimistic bypass is often a side product of anger-phobia, or the inability to deal with negative emotions. II) The Aggrandizement Bypass This is a type of self-delusion that some spiritual seekers use as a way of masking their perceived deficiencies and insecurities. The aggrandizement bypass is adopted by those who seek to feel enlightened, superior or having reached higher planes of existence. It is sometimes used by self-proclaimed masters, leaders, spiritually awakened souls, and gurus. III) The Victim Bypass When one becomes a victim of their gifts, or of other people, this takes away the pressure of responsibility for shaping a satisfying life and taking responsibility for one’s happiness – such is the case with the Victim Bypass. This type of spiritual bypass is often used by spiritual seekers who believe they have extrasensory gifts of some kind, but due to their gifts they are unable to feel happy or healthy. Identifying as an Empath is sometimes a good example of this type of bypassing, as it can be interpreted as the fault of other people and their emotions for behaving in self-destructive and volatile ways. Other labels, like being a clairvoyant, indigo child, starseed, gifted healer, and so on, can often fall into the Victim Bypass trap. IV) The Psychonaut Bypass Many spiritual seekers explore the frontiers of the mind, the soul, and reality through the use of psychedelic drugs such as LSD, DMT, psilocybin mushrooms, mescaline, and other entheogens that expand the mind and perception of existence. While this is a fascinating way of exploring reality, entheogens, like any other drug, can sometimes be used as a way of escaping reality and avoiding committing to personal development and soulful refinement. V) The Horoscope Bypass When we frequently look outside of ourselves for help and guidance, as is with the case with Horoscopes and Psychics, we are failing to tap into our inner wellsprings of wisdom and strength and are allowing external predictions to control the outcome of our lives. The Horoscope Bypass is derived from fear and mistrust of ourselves, our inability to make decisions, and our inability to deal with anything tough that comes our way. VI) The Saint Bypass As children, we were conditioned to believe that a “spiritual person” is always kind, compassionate, and saintly. In adulthood, we continue to repeat this story to ourselves, and sadly, it can cause us tremendous suffering. The Saint Bypass is a reflection of extreme “black or white” thinking, promoting the underlying belief that spiritual people can’t have dark sides because that would make them “unspiritual.” This type of bypass is essentially avoidance of one’s Shadow Self (dark side) by overcompensating with the guise of a sweet, heavenly, exterior. Self-sacrifice is a major symptom of this type of bypassing. VII) The Spirit Guide Bypass In some spiritual traditions, it is a God who protects, in others an angel, an animal or an ascended being. No matter who the Spirit Guide is, the belief that they are there to “protect” us is pleasing to the mind but ultimately constricting to the soul. When we place our faith in another being’s power to ward off danger and keep us safe, we are committing a classic spiritual bypass: avoiding responsibility for ourselves and our lives and sidestepping the tough development of courage and resilience. We are not children, but when we think of ourselves as being so we mold our lives in such a way that we fail to develop strength of spiritual character. Spirit guides serve to teach us rather than to babysit us. VIII) The Prayer Bypass Similar to the Spirit Guide Bypass, the Prayer Bypass circumvents personal responsibility by putting faith in a higher being to solve all of our problems and issues. While praying can be a healthy practice, it can easily become limiting and misguided. IX) The Guru Bypass Often it is beneficial to follow a guru, shaman or spiritual teacher to learn and grow. However, becoming too attached to them can rapidly turn into another form of spiritual bypassing. The temptation to begin worshiping (knowingly or unknowingly) these teachers means that we eventually forget the purpose of listening to them: to integrate the essence of their teachings. By treating the words of a guru or master as the irrefutable truth and failing to think for ourselves, we are starved of true spiritual growth and transformation on our spiritual journeys. X) The Finger-Pointing Bypass On our spiritual quests, we begin to see through the lies, delusions, and crazy behaviors committed by our fellow human beings and this can make us angry, downhearted, and frustrated. However, when we get caught up in “everything that is wrong” with the outside world and other people, dedicating our lives to the self-righteous quest of finger-pointing, this can be another form of spiritual bypassing. Finger-pointing instills us with a false sense of righteousness, taking away our responsibility of looking inside and working on ourselves. At its roots, the Finger-Pointing bypass is sourced from fear and avoidance and is a powerful form of procrastination. Certainly, there are many other forms of spiritual bypassing, but here I present the most common ones that are easily observable in everyday life. Just to make myself clear, I cut and paste the above material from LoneWolf.com, the author is "Aletheia Luna". Just sharing a few thoughts, ideas and beliefs! Now "Do the WORK"

Here I will be referring to Nibbana (or Nirvana in Sanskrit) mainly in two different capacities. The first will be satisfaction or happiness and the second will be referring to the cessation of perception, feeling, and experience sometimes called phala, fruition, cessation, or within the certain context of progressively reducing fabrication by going through the four formed and four formless jhanas in order to reach cessation which is called nirodha samapatti. The Easy & Predictable Nibbana The easy and predictable Nibbana is that of satisfaction. Satisfaction is a word which is commonly used as a translation of the Pali word sukha. Other translations of sukha come up with things like happiness or things which otherwise contribute to a feeling of general well-being and comfort. In many respects, the core of the Buddha’s teachings come down to dukkha and dukkha nirodha (the cessation of dissatisfaction/suffering) or in other words dukkha and sukha. Nibbana in this sense is as simple as becoming a master at bringing yourself to a state of satisfaction quickly and easily regardless of external circumstances. This type of Nibbana does not require gigantic blissful experiences and complex spiritual understanding, although these things don’t necessarily hurt. Being able to develop the skill of maintaining sati, or mindfulness, of the in and out breath which is called Ānāpānasati and described in the Ānāpānasati Sutta is the most straightforward path to developing this type of Nibbana. The whole of the Dhamma (or Dharma in Sanskrit) can be found in Ānāpānasati when it is practiced consistently enough and as insight into the nature of phenomena and reality is uncovered through this, but there are better meditation techniques for raw insight itself. Ānāpānasati is special because it uses an object of attention, or focus object, for the meditation which is a wholesome object that is accessible in almost all states. When attention goes to wholesome objects such as the breath or thoughts of comfort, safety, and other positive aspects of experience, satisfaction naturally rises. Eventually, this satisfaction and other factors of jhana become the objects of investigation and can be directly raised in a rather controllable way, but the main part of the practice is to develop one’s ability to give themselves a completely satisfying present moment experience. Building this ability is much like building a muscle. Consistent practice leads to increased ease when handling what used to be dissatisfactory in a way that can now be satisfactory. Intentionally slowing the breath to become long and easy in and out breaths slows heart rate and naturally reduces cortisol and adrenaline which contribute to anxious feelings and feelings of unease. Once you become better and better at creating satisfaction and breathing naturally rather than automatically, resistance to reality and the external world is heavily reduced. Previously challenging circumstances become easier and easier to quickly turn into a satisfying present moment experience. With this type of Nibbana, there is no moment of transformation in which you are “permanently enlightened.” Every moment is a new moment to either wake up to satisfaction or stay asleep in dissatisfaction. This practice is as simple as remembering to keep attention on the breath and satisfying and wholesome aspects of experience. An “end point” with this practice would look like having your brain rewired through consistent enough practice that satisfaction is almost always the case on its own and it can be immediately created, or rather found or remembered, in any cases where it might slip up for a moment. The Hard & Unpredictable Nibbana This is the type of spiritual awakening that most modern and western spirituality is often focused around when it comes to Buddhism. An important thing to mention is that many people chase this type of awakening for the purpose of transcending suffering which is something the easy and predictable path to the type of Nibbana mentioned above is quite good at. This second type of awakening and Nibbana is thought by some, such as Daniel Ingram, the author of Mastering the Core Teachings of the Buddha, to occur at the first attainment of cessation or fruition and in subsequent cessations which often happen spontaneously during spiritual practice/daily life or intentionally through going through jhanas 1-8 resulting in a cessation which is called nirodha samapatti. This link to part of MCTB describes cessation and fruition: https://www.mctb.org/mctb2/table-of-contents/part-iv-insight/30-the-progress-of-insight/15-fruition/ This link to part of MCTB describes nirodha samapatti: https://www.mctb.org/mctb2/table-of-contents/part-v-awakening/37-models-of-the-stages-of-awakening/the-cessation-of-perception-and-feeling-nirodha-samapatti/ It’s important to note that cessation is the exact same from an epistemic perspective in both fruition and nirodha samapatti. It’s all simply a complete “gap” in experience, and nirodha samapatti does not on its own unveil any new insights which a close examination of a fruition can’t unveil. It is simply a hard attainment to reach and exciting for that fact alone and also a predictable way of reaching this second type of Nibbana. Reaching this second type of Nibbana, no matter how you get there or if it is fruition or nirodha samapatti, usually takes people years of spiritual practice. It does have quite profound effects and can contribute to a lot of insight which allows one to relate to previously dissatisfactory sensations in a less adversarial light. I call this the unpredictable Nibbana because it is completely unknown when you’ll first reach fruition. The first fruition appears to just pop up at completely different amounts of practice and types of practice for different people. Vipassana meditation techniques are quite effective at getting people to this stage, but many spiritual practices and meditation techniques done enough will lead to fruition or cessation. This type of Nibbana is rather complete, in a sense, because cessation is freedom from absolutely everything experiential. There are no samskaras, hindrances, selves, others, somethingness, or nothingness. There is no consciousness or awareness at all in cessation for any of those things in the previous sentence to appear in. There is no vantage point from which to even discuss nothingness or emptiness. There is no existence “in” this non-state. There’s quite literally nothing to it. This is precisely why this attainment is so transformative. It is the eradication of any possible sense of self while one is “in” cessation. It also shows impermanence by showing one what it truly would be like if existence disappeared and reappeared right before your eyes (your eyes are also part of what disappears and reappears, of course) giving the potential for a great deal of insight into what might have been before the conscious experience of being a human being and what might come afterward. There still feels to be some permanence to the human self structure and experience the way it is now before you see it all get eradicated by cessation. This also gives some insight into the nature of dukkha by showing just how much less suffering no existence or experience at all is compared to even the most rapturous and amazing existence or experience. Reaching cessation a number of times eventually unfolds a process which reveals new ways of perceiving the world. Eventually, the field of perception through all six sense doors gets fused into one sense door, emptiness can be directly grasped in all circumstances, the luminosity of all phenomena is unveiled, the impressions of concepts of things such as a physical body or gravity lose their power over perception, and the sense of self dissolves from an individual human being into the entire field of sensations which may be present at any given moment among many other things. All of these fancy things are helpful to the easy and predictable path to the first type of Nibbana in so much as they just provide more easily noticeable pleasant facets of reality to pay attention to and reduce the patterns of sensations which give experience the feeling of being only a human being with the rest of the world as an external entity which is in some way or another a dissatisfactory enemy to that imaginary self/soul. What should I do with any of this? This is ultimately up to you, of course, but I will say that both of these “types” of Nibbana contribute to the ability to live without the five hindrances and the ten fetters. Although I’m not by any means at the end of the road in regard to hindrances and fetters, it is very clearly noticeable how these two types of Nibbana contribute to one getting closer to that goal which one might call a third type of Nibbana which would be the moment-to-moment experience of an Arahant or in other words the moment-to-moment experience of one who lives without hindrances and fetters. The second type takes a lot of spiritual development to reach, but the first type only requires a consistent training of the mind to focus attention on wholesome objects and notice them with better efficiency. Both of these are very helpful to living a life with less dissatisfaction and more satisfaction. Most people chase the second type because they really just want the ability to feel more satisfied with life more of the time, and they think attaining cessation is the only way to do that. Even worse, people think attaining some experiential “heightened” state of consciousness is the only way to do that. Dissatisfaction can be turned into satisfaction in a much simpler way which is touched upon some in the first half of this post. Become mindful of the breath and the satisfactory parts of your experience by sustaining attention on them right here, right now, and your dissatisfaction will be lessened. Do that a lot in increasingly skillful ways, and you can make lemonade out of any lemons life has provided you.

You're still so young. See this as a transformation fase. My advice is stop taking lsd and that crap and start working out, go run or go to the gym. Build some muscle and eat healthy. Get a purpose for a year. A goal that you want to accomplish. It can be anything and start working on it (if I could learn anything I would learn this skill.... fill in the blank) and then make a plan. You can also try some stuff if you're not sure, keeping in account startup costs ofcourse, you want to be as low as possible.

101. Summary: Self Image - The Amazing, Absolute Key To All Personal Growth Self-image is one of the most powerful, important, practical tools you can use to transform your life to ridiculous levels. There’s lots you can say about the power of self-image. This episode’s just an intro. Take A Look At Yourself A lot of these ideas about self-image come from Maxwell Maltz’s classic self-help book Psycho-Cybernetics. It’s a highly recommended book on Leo’s booklist. -Maxwell Maltz was a plastic surgeon in the 1950s. He started studying psychology and the concept of self-image, because as a plastic surgeon he noticed some interesting things. Some of his patients had crippling emotional problems because of their appearance. Some had deformities, some thought their nose was too big or that their face was too wrinkly or that they were just plain ugly and unacceptable. Maltz would fix up their appearance, make them beautiful, and patients would react in one of two ways: Some patients would feel radically more confident and go out and change the rest of their life. They’d feel great and be full of self-esteem. Other patients would still feel ugly, even though they were now beautiful. In fact, some patients were so upset with Maltz that they accused him of not having made any changes to their face at all. They would call him a charlatan or a quack. Of course, he had made changes, but the patients had such a strong self-image of being ugly that their self-image still remained even after becoming beautiful. It shows how your self-image is what determines how you feel about yourself and your life, no matter how positively other people assess your looks. This is a really powerful concept. (Some pretty girls (not all) who get put in the "hot, beautiful" or "8-10" category see themselves as average, because they're subconsciously comparing themselves to other "hot" girls. So they sometimes have a self-image of being "average" because they're "average" among other beautiful girls. It'd be more accurate for them to compare themselves to the general population and feel grateful to be pretty at all. It's the same for some Harvard grads. A fair number of them feel like "underachievers" or even "failures" because they're comparing themselves to other Harvard grads, not to average joes who don't have degrees from Harvard.) But What Is Self-Image? Self-image is a subconscious framework for how you see yourself and your life. It’s what you believe and what you think is true about reality. Every belief you have is part of your self-image. Especially beliefs about what you think is possible. Do you think it’s possible for you to earn a million dollars a year? Do you really believe that? If you do, then that’s part of your self-image. If you don’t, if that sounds like some ridiculous fairy tale, then being a millionaire is not part of your self-image. Holding a limiting belief about your potential makes that pathway of reality blocked off to you. Your mind is creating a map or mental model of reality and how the world works. This model is mostly subconscious. You’re not aware of all the assumptions you make about how your world works. Or how society works, how life works, how you work and who you are. You’ve been programmed by your parents, culture, school, your job, your friends and basically every single person you’ve ever come into contact with. Circumstances have also programmed you. Putting your hand on a hot stove programs you to flinch and never do that again. Watching Captain America: Civil War programs you to like good guys with lovely shoulders who have blue eyes with specks of green around the irises (it’s a feature, not a flaw Baron Zemo—duh ?) Those lessons from your environment get seared into your subconscious. It becomes part of your self-image and model of reality. You’re more careful around a hot stove because that burned your hands. You also never want Jared Leto to play the Joker again because that burned your soul ?. Unravel The Thread Your self-image is like a large ball of yarn. There are hundreds of thought strands, all tangled and bunched up together. All the experiences you’ve ever had, all the lessons, beliefs and assumptions you’ve amassed are wound up into that tight ball of yarn. It’s a pretty big tangled mess. It’s all sitting below the surface, subconsciously, so you don’t even see it. You might see a thread here or there, but basically, 95% of your behaviors and actions are subconscious. What’s powerful and important about that is your subconscious determines your results. “But Leo, isn’t having a self-image egotistical?” Well, in order to drop the ego you first have to develop a healthy ego. You can’t just drop the ego when your ego is weak and underdeveloped. It's important to integrate the healthy aspects of the lower stages of development before you can move on to higher stages. (Dr.K from Healthy Gamer has a good segment about leveraging the power of self-image, ego and identity here (9 mins): Maintaining Balance Wanna know why you’re stuck in life? Your body and mind are like a thermostat that’s been programmed to stay at a specific temperature, determined by your subconscious. It tends to keep you in a state of homeostasis and equilibrium. (Ep: Understanding Ego Backlash) So, you get stuck at a specific salary, or weight, or happiness set point, or quality of relationship and so forth. To create big changes, you need to unravel the ball of yarn that is your self-image and subconscious. Self-image is so powerful because you’re going to align your behaviour and actions with what you really believe is true. So, what so you really believe is true? About your potential, your personality, what you deserve, how smart you think you are, how the world works, etc. What’s even crazier is if you believe something is true despite it being proven false, you’ll still behave as though the lies are all true. That’s why the beautiful patients still thought they were ugly after they became beautiful. Your behavior is shaped by what you believe is true, not by what’s actually true. If you believe a lie is true, it will feel true even if it’s ?. There are many things in your self-image that are complete horse shit and illusions, total fabrications, and they’re keeping you stuck in life. If you want to create massive change in your career, your confidence, your relationships, your fitness or anything else, then you have to start digging into your self-image and work on your subconscious. Changes That Last When you start changing your self-image (which is absolutely possible), you start to create lasting changes that are sustainable. They’re not subject to the yo-yo effect. That’s how you can create huge weight loss or massive success with the opposite sex, or with your finances and your business. That’s how you create transformation in your psychology and epistemology and your emotions. It’s how you become optimistic instead of pessimistic. It’s how you tackle anxiety, depression, alcoholism and more. All of those changes happen by working on your self-image. Whether you’re conscious of it or not, you’re sculpting your self-image. It’s why understanding epistemology is so transformational. You get to find out how you’ve been deceiving yourself, which helps you unravel your self-image and subconscious. It’s also why meditation, psychedelics and awakenings can be so powerful. They give you a clear, undeniable experience of who you really are beyond your limiting beliefs and cultural programming, as one with the Godhead. Self-Image Examples Here’s how self-image works on a practical level. There are thoughts about yourself and thoughts about reality. These beliefs create a self-fulfilling prophecy. Thoughts about Yourself You don’t see things as they are; you see things as you are. Really think about the following limiting beliefs. What results would they manifest in your life? -If you think,“my thoughts are what’s real. It’s just how reality is.” You’ll be way less likely to question your limiting beliefs. -How about “I’m a failure”? Just imagine how that thought would play out in your life, believing you’re destined to not win? That thought will propagate itself like a virus and ruin your life. If you think,“I failed in the past, so I’m always going to fail,” you’re less likely to look for evidence that shows you can win and learn. Just because you failed once, or even several times, that doesn’t mean you can’t learn from failure and change your future. If you’ve had several failures, that’s probably because you haven’t unravelled your self-image and subconscious, but you can do that now and create massive change. -Watch out for “it’s genetic” and “I’m naturally like that.” Those beliefs will kill your potential. “I’m shy because my parents were shy and I have shy genes” makes you feel hopeless to changing. If you feel hopeless, what chance do you have of creating a fun, thriving social life? Can you see how important it is to root out a belief like that? -Also watch out for “This advice about self-image isn’t true.” If you believe that, you’ll come up with excuses. You won’t do the work of uprooting your subconscious, cognitive distortions. -There are shocking things about yourself that you believe right now, with a 100% faith and certainty, which are completely bogus and are completely destroying the quality of your life and your potential to grow. -Watch the episodes on how to “Stop Being a Victim” to understand the power of your self-image and subconscious. Thoughts about Reality What if you believed that: “Money is hard to make.” There are so many negative self-image problems with money. Do you think that belief about the “reality of money” will have an effect on your salary and how much is in your bank account? What about: “Life is unfair” or “Life is hard and difficult.” That’s a fairly ugly limiting belief. How would that perspective affect how you interact with the world? What about: “Other people think I’m ugly”? How would that play out in your life? How eager would you be to socialize and approach people you find attractive? These are just some common examples out of thousands. Which limiting beliefs about reality and yourself are you carrying around? Break The Manacles Everyone has limiting beliefs as part of their self-image. Unquestioned, faulty assumptions will perpetuate a low-quality of life. The spooky thing is you don’t even know that they’re there until you unravel them! A lot of things in your self-image are completely illogical, stupid and foolish, until you articulate them and look at them objectively. Take a thought like, “I’m unworthy of love.” Logically you’ll say “everyone deserves love,” but you don’t really feel that way deep down. A thought like that will create a whole host of relationship problems. You’ll drive your partner bonkers trying to get them to give you compliments. You’ll feel rejected, angry and bitter if they don’t lavish you with enough love. You’ll create a lot of stress and drama, because you’re insecure. That’ll drive the other person away and make the relationship fall apart. Then the self-fulfilling prophecy gets fulfilled, which reinforces the initial belief “I’m unworthy of love.” However, you can avoid all that by uprooting your belief of unworthiness, thus creating a totally different chain of cause and effect. One where, instead of draining your partner because you feel unworthy, you instead share, celebrate and magnify love with them, making them happy to be with you. Lift With Your Legs The biggest takeaway is to understand how important your self-image is and how it determines your entire life. It’s real and not some silly self-help buzzword. You need to focus on figuring out your self-image. This is where change happens. It’s like the saying, “if you’re going to lift a heavy object, lift it with your legs and not your back.” If you lift from your legs you’ll have the strength to carry the heavy load. If you lift with your back, you’re just going to hurt your back and maybe drop the box on your toes. Creating an inspiring, flourishing self-image is like lifting with your legs. Using willpower is like lifting from your back. It’s probably the method you’ve been doing up until now. Maybe you say to yourself, “OK, enough is enough. I’m going on a diet” or “I’m starting a business” or “I’m going to read a full summary instead of just skim it .” Then you try to start that new business or that new diet and you quickly fall off, because your willpower breaks. It’s because you’re not using your strongest muscles. Willpower is great, but it’s more useful in short bursts, like starting a habit. For long lasting, transformational change, you need the big muscles of self-image to follow through and maintain a habit. That’s the key to massive change. Let your subconscious and self-image do the heavy lifting. Your subconscious is the power center of your results. It’s where 95% of your action stems from. This involves deep introspection work. Coaching is really good for getting you these insights too.. It can bring up stuff from your subconscious, and get you to realize things you haven’t realized before. Yes, you can change your subconscious. Maxwell Maltz says it takes 21 days to create a lasting change to your self-image. That’s how long it takes for new habits to permeate into your subconscious. It’s actually not that difficult, but it takes persistence.

true - and a true yellow thinker would probably understand this. the development to a sturdy yellow is a full integration of green, which includes understanding its complementary though. if a person is red or red/purple in basic behavior, the personality is not yellow even if mental execution seems to execute in a yellow way. maybe the way of systemic transformation of any system is one of the most discussed and most difficult and challenging processes in politics and history which historically does not forgive errors in the long term, therefore a lot of green thinkers are still impulsively red triggered which creates conflicts. although this is why green plays such an important roll in collective stage development, especially in functioning societies green has a massive importance. wars like second world war though for example or even revolutionary wars throws humanity far back in their developmental stage in total in a lot of cases to beige and it’s not sure the system would really change after that phase if aggression keeps the society in lower stages - if criticizing capitalism you really need to understand what’s the alternative. regarding viruses and such i think the development of better medicine and less animal farming is probably working out better in a functioning society.

Insights about Love, Manifestation, Teaching, Reality, Sexuality, Personal Development, Shrooms, and more. December 27th 2021 Dosage: 2 grams of African Transkei strain mushroom, these are regarded for potency and high visuals. So I'm definitely testing it out. Now that I'm writing this in the future, I would say that the Penis Envy Stain is stronger. Taken at 11:21AM as a lemon tek tea, and I also grounded the shroom with a coffee grinder such that it's a fine POWDER. I added the lemon juice, let sit for 5 mins, added water boiled from the kettle, let it soak for 20 minutes, and then strained and discarded the solid bits. Doing it this way makes the trip hit really fast and really hard. My initial Intentions: What is Clarity? What is Curiosity? What is Creativity? Ideas for my business. >These intentions weren't seriously held, and as a result I actually ended up thinking about what was already on my mind. And that led to some different insights that were also very valuable. 17 min Starting to feel the onset 21 min Getting dizzy 24min Yawns, so many yawns. I need to premeditate my intentions for like 5 minutes focus before I take it. >This was me reflecting on my crappy intention setting skills. 26 min Feeling a massive body come up >I get an amazing body high, like a bunch of vines are growing in my body like a parasite and constricting me, taking hold of me. Designs on a Tapestry moving 30 min Heavy body load 39 min Tingling in my fingers and my limbs 39 min Tingling in my fingers and my limbs 45 min Yawning and tired like crazy. You can have unwanted imagination, like looking at your cute dog and imagining it getting skinned down to a skeleton. >Yeah, so your imagination on shrooms is supercharged and effortless in this way. 55 min Giggly >I'd say the majority of the trip lasted 5-7 hours. Duality needs to be created to maximize the love of the universe. I want to love everything that I've created. (as God) >Note that I have zero awakenings or even mystical experiences yet. I have yet to even realize baby insights like no-self. Life is learning about how to love. I teach people how to love their ideal self. To love discipline. To love routine. To love excellence. To love the idea of destroying their perceived barriers between the story of who they think they are now and the story of their ideal self. To love the action of suffering through a very challenging practice routine. To love doing the shadow work they need to do to rid their addictions To love being curious about life in order to find what they're authentically passionate learning about. To love the idea of healing their past and rewriting their story to become their ideal self. etc. I think the archetype of Shrooms is love. I initially saw shrooms as a tool of catharsis, but now I see that the catharsis is a byproduct of the mechanism of love at work. Shrooms fudge your boundaries of reality, which is a collapsing of dualities, which is love. All insights come from love. (When it comes to the topic of manifestation) You ARE IT! YOU ARE ALREADY WHAT YOU MANIFEST! YOU JUST MAKE ACTIONS TO PROVE IT! I understand what they mean now with Manifestation. You are ALREADY the person you ought to be. Imagine this. You are actually someone from another dimension that has already accomplished all the things you've wanted to. But now you've been transported into this body, into this universe, and now you simply have to prove you're already the case. You need to rewrite the books, redo the consciousness work, redo the speaking practice, and you doing this is just you proving that you are already it. It comes from a deep place of love. You become a fountain of love by loving your ideal self much that you are already it, and then from that place, you simply are spilling yourself out, and you transform through that process. That transformation IS the manifestation process. You shapeshift. You have to demand more of yourself to manifest it into actuality. That is precisely how you grow, out of nothingness, you demand more. You summon more of yourself! A visionary leader is someone who demands more from other people. They LITERALLY SEE your potential manifested in this moment right now.a I see you, the reader, as extremely intelligent. I see you as one that's capable of massive love. I see you as one that will accomplish your goals in life. I SEE IT. Can you? The universe if just a manifestation, an illusion of the highest degree, an imagination. Everything in the universe has been manifested. It's not just fucking there. It has been manifested ### ### ### Collection of individual insights You need to enrich and love EVERY MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE, EVERY OBJECT, EVERY PERSON, every idea, every creation, destruction, transformation, birth, death. THIS is how you love your life and spiritualize your life. Learn how to lose yourself more into life. When doing an activity, let go of your mind detaching you from the task at hand, and have the courage to fully lose yourself to the task. When it comes to learning, It doesn't really matter if you're kind of sleepy trying to learn still, if you're still learning, you're learning. THE MOST HARDCORE LOVE IS what is holding your table together. I need to study a book on boundaries NOW! When being a teacher, your need to BE the actor they NEED for THEM. THIS is how you teach people. You shapeshift into the form they want to see, to best receive the message. This is why if you're a christian, God will appear to you as Jesus in order for you to comfortably take in the teaching. God appearing as Jesus is the best MASK for God to manifest such that you best receive the message. So when you are trying to teach someone else, you need to create that persona, that mask, such that people will believe in the authority(illusion) that you've constructed. You shapeshift into person they need to see in order to best receive the teaching. Ask people in your life what kind of person would they like to see in you. That's also the kind of person you need to be to be their best teacher. The backdrop you have demands your attention. Literally how you dress, and the room that you put yourself in. The background you have while speaking influences how seriously your message is going to be taken to heart. The tone of your voice, the appearance of organization and thought-thoroughness in your speaking will demand authority. How deeply and interconnectedly you've integrated your insights will determine how strong your message becomes. When the insight is so deeply integrated it just becomes a part of you. And through that you just have to express you SELF with utmost excellence and vigor, and through that, THAT is what creates a great teaching. How you're perceived affects how you're recieved. ### ### ### Later I had an Insight that had me roll around and flip around on the floor for several minutes going "WHAT THE FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK!" over and over again. So, some more manifestation ruminations. I thought, What would it take for me to be able to talk to Leo everyday? Kinda like in a way of a great talking to a great. Like if you wanted to hang out with Socrates, you would have to be at his level. Sharing insights and shit. I then thought "well I would then have to be at his level in consciousness and understanding". (Even though on the deepest level you can only get the deepest truths from yourself and not other.) And, yeah, I know that this comes from the my selfish part of my ego that idolizes Leo because he is a really good teacher and I want to be one of the best teachers in the world myself. Anywaayyysss... Then, I REALIZED that I could ACTUALLY get there. I saw in myself, a deep realization of my potential to manifest as much Consciousness as Leo. Like in my mind, this was extremely possible. That I could make Leo my peer in terms of level of understanding. This is what made me go what the fuck. I was like "HOLYYY SHIIITTT!" Maybe my confidence is just the peak of Mount Stupid in the Dunning-Kruger Effect. But hey, it felt GREAT! And it gave me a massive confidence boost! Here's a powerful question. What would you need to become to befriend your teachers as peers? As equals? What would need to become of you? What would you need to do on a day to day basis? What actions would you have to take? There I was, rolling around on the floor, just experiencing high amounts of joy at the realization of actualizing my potential. Meanwhile, while this is happening, my buddy beside me is lying on my bed, on 6 grams of shrooms, fighting his demons like he's playing dark souls. But he did so very silently. Basically it was all an internal battle. Haha! I asked him later about it and he said that my excitement and rowdiness didn't fuck with his trip, so that was good. # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # Theme song of this part of the trip, reader, if you want, play this song. I was having the crux of this insight during this song. I curled up into a ball lying on my bed, snuggling an extremely soft blanket, feeling loved and feeling cuteness. I spent what felt like hours just enveloped in the love. I was hugging my super soft blanket, with an AMAZING body high, making everything comfy as fuck. I was biting my lip for a long time in a total state of erotic energy. I was fantasizing about LOVE. Fantasizing about sharing love with a male! At least a very specific feminine man that was supposedly crushing on at the time. It was a mega positive experience. Later I am hugging my blanket on the floor, still thinking about love. I'm loving the massive gift that life that God gives us. A lot of times during the trip I was saying "WEEEEIIIIRRRD! WEEEEIIIIRRRD! WEEEEIIIIRRRD!" >I was learning that on a very deep level, I want to love absolutely everyone and I know that when I realize I'm God, and when I realize I'm everything, I will be able to learn how to deepen that love. I want to learn how to maximize the love of the universe. I was also massively deconstructing the boundaries between loving everyone, on a deep emotional level. Like, what does it actually mean to love people? What really are you actually loving when you say you love someone? I have awakened to mega feminine energy over here. Also... I'm Awakening to bisexuality. I want to be feminine and seduced. I want to be masculine and be seductive. I LOVE feminine energy. (Side note, I'd probably love 5MeO MALT) I can find it in women. I can find it in men. I love the idea of putting makeup on to be more feminine when I want to embody more femininity. >I was learning that the gay side of my sexuality is expressed in a very differently navigated way than my Straight side. They're not the same at all! I also learned that liking the same sex comes with a whole new set of collective societal baggage that suppresses, demonizes and denies homosexuality. Coming out of the closet it not merely just simply accepting yourself and loving yourself, but it is also learning how to navigate in this reality in order to maximize the amount of love in the universe. Coming out of the closet literally means that you are learning how to navigate the oppression in society such that you can exercise love for your homosexual self, but yet at the same time, still look after your physical and social survival such that you are not one to be killed physically and demonized socially. >How you do this is becoming so sure about who you are that you're not attached to how people think you are. What manifests as bisexuality for ME, is probably very different for another person that identifies as bisexual. What you think bisexuality literally means for you, means a different thing for me. Like I don't like men in the same way AT ALL in the same way that I like women. The way I like women is HARDWIRED into my brain at a deep core level, whereas, the homosexuality that manifests in me comes from what I literally call a "gay fetish". This was imprinted into me from a young age as a result of homosexual experiences I had when I was younger. (Like age 10.) And for years I've denied and demonized the part of myself that liked that because I identified as straight. AND also at the same time homosexuality was VERY GROSS! But over time I found abstractions with fantasies like drawing of pornography, drawings that fudged the duality between male and female. (I can go into more detail of what I mean by this if requested). "My homosexuality" was in a way manifested because I loved a A SMALL part of myself that had a fantasy or two, and that part I explored more and more. It was years in the making. It was manifested over YEARS. It wasn't there, it was something that was nurtured and grew a life of its own. (I can literally go into detail step by step, each domino that had to fall to get to this point.) >But ANYWAYS, part of coming into my own is me letting go of YOU understanding my story that I've constructed over here. >In order navigate this new part of myself, I will study a book on boundaries, as well as contemplate what boundaries are. Also what is a relationship? >So just to clarify, in the end, right now at least, as I write this, I'm still unsure about what exactly my sexuality is, how Bi I really am. Like, do I just like feminine boys? Like twinks/femboys or whatever, and do I just like them physically(sexually) or am I able to love them emotionally too? Am I able to love a masculine man? Am I able to love masculine energy? or just feminine energy? >This trip allowed me to massively process tons of fear around taking action that would create further clarity. So now I am more confident to take even more action into developing more clarity into my sexuality. ### ### ### Additional Insights What is Courage? Courage is a perceived leap Beyond first perceived boundaries. Courage is biting off more than you can chew. Courage is willingly throwing yourself into a place that you KNOW you're going to lose control. Where you are not even sure if you're going to be able to handle it. Contemplate, What is control? Control vs Freedom. The light of God's love is so bright that whatever it touches it burns away any impurities. I need to practice spending money on highly valuable personal development resources. Like a life coaching package. Ideas hold the power of the universe. Which is why Epistemology metaphysics are important as FUCK. When it comes to buying shrooms I learned that a cube is a cube as they say, just buy some cheap b+ and forget the other strains. Just take more and you're there. You can't really fuck with the quality of shrooms. (Like I mean vendors usually sell really potent shrooms.) You can love fear. I am a DMT jester. That's the energy I hold. I am like the circus, I am expressive, I am chaotic, I am a clown, I am the actor, I am the laugher. That's also what I look like with the colorful clothes that I'm wearing that I call my tripping uniform haha. ( I haven't even done DMT yet lol) ### ### ### Integration: Study a book on boundaries to help navigate all my relationships in life in a way more healthy manner. Such that the love in my relationships have an opportunity to deepen and work at a higher level of synergy. Have a conversion about my sexuality with my Mother, as I spill everything about myself to her. As this is part of the process of facing my fears. (By the time I'm writing this, I already did it.) Take action toward deeply integrating this part of my sexuality. Explore myself. Thanks for reading!