kieranperez

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  1. Not making a statement lol I’m saying the contrast between the prisons we have to the prisons they have his hilarious. The fact that the gap is so huge is what’s funny.
  2. The seeker is the obstacle. What you’re looking with is what you need to see through.
  3. Not angry. I just have no problem robbing you of your fantasies and delusions. There are plenty of people who are legitimately autistic and are good at math. There are schizophrenics who are good at math. Vague generalization based on what you deem "stupid." Groundless. Creativity is a form of intelligence which most most hyper left-brained rationalists are not in touch with at all because they are undeveloped in that area of intellect and understanding. You trying to specify and strip intelligence down into one little type of left brained activity is by definition narrow-mindedness. By this logic, Trump is a genius. Translation: I have this fantasy of intelligence being this way that I imagine and prefer it to be.
  4. There are plenty of people who are legitimately autistic and are good at math. There are schizophrenics who are good at math. Vague generalization based on what you deem "stupid." Groundless. Creativity is a form of intelligence which most most hyper left-brained rationalists are not in touch with at all because they are undeveloped in that area of intellect and understanding. You trying to specify and strip intelligence down into one little type of left brained activity is by definition narrow-mindedness. By this logic, Trump is a genius. Translation: I have this fantasy of intelligence being this way that I imagine and prefer it to be.
  5. Welcome to the Marriott... I mean Halden Prison in Norway... "Guard! I know I just chainsawed my family into New York strip steak but can I get an extra shot of espresso in here? Thanks!"
  6. Leave this in the meditation/enlightenment thread Actually do some research and watch some of Leo's videos...
  7. During the beginning of the video, Leo gave the exercise of feeling a moment of real love from any moment of my past. However, every time I found one of these moments and really tried to feel into and embrace the love I actually started crying. Not from years of joy or love or anything. But it felt almost like the tears I get when I feel guilt or this sense of loss. For instance I brought to mind: my dog moments when I had tears of joy just from being in nature I really struggle with feeling love for myself too which is why self-acceptance is such a hard exercise because every time I try to conjure love I get this distortion where I feel guilty, a sense of loss (hard to explain), etc. In general I really struggle with feeling and allowing myself to feel good. I think it’s a big reason why I struggle with certain questions and exercises in the life purpose course. Is this my shadow? If so, how do integrate it? I’ve tried for example Ken Wilber’s 3-2-1 shadow integration process but I don’t get it at all and haven’t gotten any results with it.
  8. So people who have crippling dyslexia are not intelligent by this “logic”. Yeah and Albert Einstein probably doesn’t have the bodily intelligence like that of a yogi or of a runner who can run a 100 miler. You have a narrow understanding of inteligence. That’s the bottom of this whole. This isn’t you becoming more conscious to these things.
  9. I’m not talking about true selflessness. Life Purpose for example is still a selfish endeavor in the end all be all even if your goal is to impact the world. Unless you’re like a Ramana Maharshi or someone or these more modern sages/deeply enlightened people, everything you do pretty much is for your own selfish agenda. There’s nothing bad about that. It’s just so. This is not what I’m talking about though.
  10. That tactic to me is what I’ve been trying to employ in a certain way but I have a hard time not being honest and authentic with my family (my dad whose a Sam Harris and Jordan Peterson fanatic but doesn’t “buy” into spirtual “woo woo” stuff) and this caused a lot of turmoil in me because I thought the whole principle of honesty was to be authentic and radically honest and to stop hiding and manipulating my own selfish agenda.
  11. One of the things I personally struggle with it seems like more than a lot of other people that has really effected me especially in Life Purpose Course is creating a powerful vision that I'm inspired by that serves others. I recently gained a lot of deeper understanding of why just now. For so long I just thought I was just some selfish asshole that only looks out for himself (which if I'm honest is a lot of what I do for a lot of insecure reasons but that's besides this particular point). However, I personally do like helping individuals (particularly one on one) and actually always kinda have. What I realized though was this life long pattern of how all my goals centered around just my own growth given the fact that I've always been a very serious athlete that's been involved in a purely individual sport (competitive runner) and that's been my primary passion in life since before I was a teenager (23 years old now) up until now. What I realized and also looking a lot of other people is that the reason a lot of people have a hard time visioning big visions that inspire them is because we're so used to having our goals be all about us. Not necessarily because we're so selfish we don't like helping or impacting others. But because we're so conditioned to have our goals and entire modus operandi be about our own growth and we then only become inspired and motivated when our visions in life are in line with that paradigm and man is this a hard thing to shake. You really got to train yourself and override this subconscious process. Just an interesting thing insight I had. Thought I'd share that with you guys
  12. “The best way to successfully not get a mentor is by asking someone to be your mentor.” - Ryan Holiday
  13. You’re using your friend as a smoke screen. Sure, I know lead computer scientists that work at Google that are also very articulate, good with girls, etc. and don’t talk like borderline autistic left brained people but people like that tend to be rare. Being a good mathematician or scientist has nothing to do with how emotionally grounded you are. Whether some of this people are or aren’t are independent issues. There is no such thing as a standard measure of anything because all of that is relative. Just like there is no such thing as a standard human being. IQ is but one test of one type of intellect. Most people don’t have the kinesthetic intelligence I do or most (sub) elite athletes and you better get for the sake of your argument that kinesthetic intelligence is a form of intellect. You can have someone with super high IQ from some meaningless test and have no inflect on how to interact with other human beings. Why? Because he just knows really wel how to be a cold hard computing robot. That person may not have any creative intelligence (which most of them actually don’t). I live in the heart of San Francisco and most people that you argue and seem are truly intelligent are fucking wage slaves because they don’t think for themselves, have any creativ ideas on how to impact the world with their own vision, have their own vision, etc. they just work here at Twitter HQ blocks from me, or Salesforce, or if they’re in an ambitious visionary mood, work for a small startup that probably will fail due to their lack of creative input. IQ doesn’t change the world nor does it serve as any standard of inteligence as a whole.
  14. I want preface though: I do want to impact the world. I don’t want to be some uneducated person but is self realized as fuck. That’s why I’m so inspired by that becoming a sage video. It’s a balance and union of both.
  15. I will admit, I was really excited but also nervous and had little red flag go up in my first email from Shunyamurti after I described my situation and also my financial and he suggested I sell my car, save up, and come down. Here’s my own inner conflict going on with all this: I want to go fully into enlightenment work because I feel like it’s thats call to adventure that I’ve been denying and putting off in terms of a radical turning onwards and going all in. Also because I am struggling to work on my life purpose here at home because my dad is pressuring me to go into real estate, work under him and be his wage slave, making me give up personal development and spiritual practice (he’s a JP and Sam Harris fanatic) and ridicules me every time I’m honest with him (I’m trying to stop lying and be honest with my intentions and desires) about how I want to start a business and that he’s only going to let me work under him if I really want to go into real estate and help him. And I can’t just say “fuck this I’m out” because he holds the purse strings. I live in San Francisco. There’s no way in hell I can find a place here, much less find one any time soon. If you’re not making 6 figures or your parents are paying your rent while you work for some startup or something, forget it and I got nowhere to go or friends I can stay with. I really want to pursue my life purpose but what if it does entail that I have to go fully inward and withdraw from society (like in the monk memoir on the booklist - great book btw)? That’s something I REALLY want in my life regardless of how png it takes however there’s this conflict inside where it’s like ‘I don’t want to start this life mission or purpose only to have give it up to go inward after I’ve already started building it.’ Plus he’s my dad. I don’t want to just be this sneaky son of a bitch he’s helped for a long time (very dysfuntionally and has caused a lot of harm) and I say I’m going to help in his business and sneakily work on my life purpose only to pop in and leave him. I want to do my thing but I don’t want to be an asshole. In the end though, it doesn’t look like there’s going to be a simple pretty answer or solution to this.