TDLH

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  1. I was walking my dog this morning after putting out a post on the forum and a delightful thought/past experience came into focus. I would like to share it with you. About twenty years ago I was heading north of Toronto at night on Christmas eve to my parent’s house with my 3-year-old daughter, my girl friend, and her son of approximately 9 years of age. We had just gotten off the main hwy onto a road when we got hit with a heavy snow squall. I could not make out where the road was, where the shoulder or ditches were, and was blindly driving slowly along on instinct. Everyone one was scared shitless, especially my girl friends 9-year-old son who was almost at panic state. That is, everyone except for my 3-year-old daughter who, with a smile on her face, held the 9-year-old boys’ hand and said, “Relax Nick, just enjoy the ride”. The depth of that comforting jester from my daughter really hit home today as I was walking my dog. Nick had no control of where the Van was taking him, but he had full control on how he could emotional, mentally, physically and spiritually react, not react, allow fear and the unknown to consume him, or “Just relax and enjoy the ride”. You could also dig deeper and view the inside of the Van as our journey as humans and the world outside the van, the infinite road towards consciousness and enlightenment. It’s endless and infinite, we were never meant to fully grasp the full depth of God consciousness from the physical realm of matter. Yes, we can get a taste of it, a glimpse and feeling of nothingness, or God consciousness (for lack of better words) but to fully Be in God consciousness, well the juries not out on that one! There are more insights that are available from this story, but I leave that for you to explore. Believe me (Pure Imagination) the work you have been doing the last several years is not for “nothing”, (no pun intended) the insight of my daughter’s statement was never really understood until twenty years later. I’m a little bit slow sometimes! LOL Relax and Enjoy the Ride!
  2. A few years back someone shared with me their thoughts on personal, collective, universal, and cosmic conciseness (dream states). This person “believes” there are four levels of conciseness in our physical reality. The first level is; “You don’t know that you don’t know”, 2nd level - “You know that you don’t know”, 3rd – “You don’t know that you know”, 4th – “You know that you know”. Here is the interesting mind bender, these four levels apply for each level of our dream states; our personal, collective, universal, and cosmic dream states. A person in this dimension, (and there are infinite dimensions just within the Earth/human paradigm), would have to work there way through each state at each level individually or simultaneously. Let’s just say a person could have a level 4 conciseness at the personal level of there dream state, but only have a level 3 or less at the collective conscious/dream state etc. Let’s now accept that God is also experimenting with different levels of consciousness beyond the physical dimensions and realities. Let’s play with the idea that God has also expanded into infinite fields of consciousness with limited conscious beings in energy/wave dimensions that are beyond our limited four levels of dream states (personal, collective, universal, cosmic dream states) Could it be that maybe we are limited to expand only so far with our consciousness while we play in the physical dimension. Maybe God is hiding all these other layers of consciousness, dream states and dimensions of beingness because it’s beyond our human capacity to fully comprehend and play in the vastness of God’s full consciousness. Maybe God has limited our consciouness when using 5ME0 DMT or other human tools. Can anyone be 100% certian? Yes, we are God, but can anyone on this planet honestly say they “Know that they Know” in their personal, collective, universal, and cosmic dream states? If they did, they would have full knowledge of all the personal, collective, universal physical states in every dimension which God is experimenting. If they still say they Know, well then, I would love to ask them who AM I? And I’m not looking for standard mindless answer that I often hear on this forum that I am God. That’s to easy! That’s level one consciousness. Here is my take on consciousness, there are a few Humans/Beings in our limited reality/dimension/dream state that “Know that they Know”, but they only Know a decimal/fractal of God’s infinite experiment to discover Self. In my estimation, those that "Know that they Know" only know what God has allowed them to know. Beyond that they either “Don’t Know that they Don’t Know” or they "Know that they Don't Know". Just a thought!
  3. While I’m at it, I thought I might as well add another tidbit to the discussion and pass on a lesson I learn on my journey. If you get triggered, judge, condemn, hold on to every word, praise, hold someone on a pedestal etc…. You have given your Power Away.
  4. This has been a really good forum, lots of diversity. What I appreciate most is the raw energy and non-censured opinions and views. I think it is sometimes healthy to get into the mud and shit of life, because that’s where a lot of insights can be found. Speaking from personal experience, Cult or no Cult it really doesn’t matter. It’s all life experiences. For years I gave away my power to spiritual Teachers, Shamans and Gurus, and regardless what anybody said, I had to follow my own path to find out why I was attracted to teachers, Shamans and Gurus. The bigger question was why I felt a need to give away my power to another person. Insecurity, lack of confidence, not enough knowledge, emotionally unbalanced, conditioning, programming, traumas, fear, victimhood, self pity, and the list goes on and on. So, does it really matter if Mooji (Leo) is enlightened, conscious, or awaken? Does it really matter if he is impure, has sex with several women and has a Cult following? Not really! Because you and I will never be able to stop this, and It’s not our place to stop it, or judge it, or condemn another person’s journey. I would not be where I am today had I not gotten into the mud and shit of life lessons, especially the lesson of giving away my power to people I thought would save me, help me become enlightened, heal my suffering, take away my fears, anger, and hatred. Teachers, Shamans and Gurus are here to stay. They helped me to see more of my shadow and gold within. Regardless of how conscious and awaken we and they are we get attracted/attached to people and things that we need the most healing and lessons. Good or bad, it’s the same shit. The Tyrants in life are our greatest teachers, and I am forever grateful for the lessons they have provided me. Not so much the gut-wrenching emotions I had to endure to get to the other side, but that is also part and parcel of the journey.
  5. I feel Leo’s forums are here to help us grow emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually. We all come here with different levels of consciousness and awareness, and that’s a good thing. Do you really want to have a sanitized forum? If that’s the case, may I suggest you go to a Spiritual Temple/Retreat were everything is regulated and filtered from everyday life. The downfall from having a sanitized, regulated and filtered forum or spiritual retreat is that eventually you must return to the game of life were everything goes, and that is were the real growth happens. I have done many retreats, and it’s wonderful to gain deeper awareness and consciousness, but that’s like living in your bedroom playing with a select handful of friends, while avoiding the rest of your family in the house. I put out a post last week about a teaching I received years ago about Projecting Dark Arrows, hoping it would shed some light on how we communicate externally from our internal Self. I feel that this may still apply here in this discussion. Feel free to share your thoughts, but when you do share, determine which arrow you are using when you let loose an arrow into the external world of life that we all play in. Here goes; when we seek emotional approval, mental recognition, physical security, and /or spiritual acceptance from others, we are out of balance and we give away our power. When we give away our power, we pick up one or more dark arrows to aim at the target of life. The seven dark arrows are: attachment, dependency, judgment, comparison, expectation, the needy child syndrome, and ego self-importance. It is the dark arrows that keep us stuck in our patterns of low self-esteem and our negative approach to life and the world. The ultimate battle is confronting our:” Self Pity” that we unconsciously project out into the world using these seven dark arrows. The real growth happens when we become aware of our attachments, dependencies, judgments, comparisons, expectations, the needy child syndrome, and ego self-importance, and this can only happen when our feet are held close to the fire. That is why we have this wonderful forum. (Thank you Leo) Having said that, when we hold someone’s feet to the “FIRE” by participating in this forum, ask your self, “SELF” am I coming from one or a couple of the Dark Arrows, or from one of the Seven Light Arrows of self-awareness, self-appreciation, self-acceptance, self-pleasure, self-love, self-actualization, and impeccability (always doing the best you can whenever you can). When we come from a place of Love, Compassion and Consciousness, our interaction with the world is far better received, accepted and appreciated when we hold someones feet to the Fire in this Forum. When we are well established in the Light Arrows, we receive the gift of the Seven Rainbow arrows of illumination, introspection, trust and innocence, wisdom, open heart-to-heart communication, balance of male and female energies, and abundance and prosperity. Keep in mind these words and symbols which are used here are to point towards our deeper connection with the everything, which includes all the participants in this forum, our physical reality, and beyond. The credit for the words and symbols I used here go to Thunder Strikes and Jan Orsi. and Lyn "Starflyer" Hopkins and Shama, Cht, CDC, TDE In Closing, I have a long way to go on this journey of physical reality and I find that I am always battling with my egos need for Self Importance, which I have learned is just another mask of Self Pity. If you are going to hold my feet to the Fire in this forum, please used a Light Arrow. That doesn’t mean you have to be gentle and sugar coat your opinion. It means be respectful, say what you need to say from your Heart, and Try not to come from your self Pity Party and Dark Arrows. Sincerely and with Gratitude, TDLH
  6. I have been observing some of the most recent heated posts and feel this may help bring some awareness to my brothers and sisters when responding or projecting your thoughts on this open forum. I would like to share the following teaching I received several years back when I was studying Shamanism. Picture a warrior with bow, quiver and arrows. The bow is a symbol for you as "self," aiming at the target of life. The quiver, your bag of physical and spiritual resources, contains seven dark arrows, seven light arrows, and seven rainbow arrows. These arrows represent the decisions and choices you make from moment to moment about how you direct the energies of your life experience. We are in the dark mirror when we seek validation for self outside of self, looking for emotional approval, mental recognition, physical security, and /or spiritual acceptance from others. When this occurs in our life, we are out of balance and we give away our power, picking up one or more dark arrows to aim at the target of life. The seven dark arrows are: attachment, dependency, judgment, comparison, expectation, the needy child syndrome, and ego self-importance. It is the dark arrows that keep us stuck in our patterns and in karma, with low self-esteem and a negative, skewed approach to life and the world. We are in the light mirror when we carry within ourselves self-reliance and personal happiness regardless of how others perceive us and react to us. We are now empowered to be all we can be, gaining individuality, transforming karma into dharma, and picking up the seven light arrows in the process. The light arrows are: self-awareness, self-appreciation, self-acceptance, self-pleasure, self-love, self-actualization, and impeccability (always doing the best you can whenever you can, and if you could do better you would). Each time we pick up a light arrow we break a dark one, and through this process of transformation we are gifted with a rainbow arrow. The seven rainbow arrows are: illumination, introspection, trust and innocence, wisdom, open heart-to-heart communication, balance of male and female energies, and abundance and prosperity. We are now fully matured, self-actualizing humans. Source of information: Song of the Deer by Thunder Strikes and Jan Orsi. and http://www.thewildrose.net Lyn "Starflyer" Hopkins and Shama, Cht, CDC, TDE One of the teachings I received on the Shamanic path that still bites me in the ass is: “Self importance is nothing more than a mask for Self Pity”. Sincerely and with Gratitude!
  7. Liger, I can relate to your perceptions/feelings when it pertains to ignorance = bliss/happiness and Truth may = Aloneness. I have been on the path of Truth now for several years, and the more aware and conscious I become, the more alone I feel. Last fall I did a two-week Ayahuasca retreat and during the last Aya ceremony my world got shattered when I experienced and embodied God consciousness. I realized that everything was an illusion. My wife, family, friends, plants, pets, religion, politics, and this world is nothing but an illusion. There is only One “Consciousness”, and I am that consciousness. It was pure Love, and at the same time pure Aloneness. I struggled for months after receiving that awareness, and I still do, to some extent. The piece that is helping me through all this is that I am also Love/Consciousness, which means I need to keep reminding myself that I am Love every day and every moment. When I now see my wife, family, pets, strangers, etc. I get awareness's that they are me, and I am them. And when I do, I no long feel alone anymore and feel some bliss/happiness.