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I'm really struggling with this idea of reincarnation. God is an infinite and intelligent dream. It can create whatever it wants out of thin air so it wouldn't be hard for him to make the exact same copy of us in the future as well. But why? And what exactly gets reincarnated? If we are all one and if the only thing different about us is our experience, what is it that gets reborn? Do you know who you are to say that you exist and can get reborn or do you only imagine to know yourself? Because if you are imagining yourself, then what is the self but an illussion? If you have any real proof on reincarnation, post it here. I would like to find out all about it, because that's a radical claim. From my point of view, individual human beings have maximum of around hundred years to live.

Hello guys, Jake here, with my first post to the forum. Basically I want to create my next life in a particular way, assuming there will be a next life, which I am fairly sure of considering the strange fact that I ended up in this life in the first place. I have a very juicy vision for life, to do spirituality, business and conscious creating in an amazing way. However I suffer from several health issues that have deteriorated my quality and ability of life. I know I will relatively soon pass on from this life. However I am seeking for a way to design my next life in the limited time from my current life that I have left. I want to make sure I won't have health issues in this next life and that I will be born in the same world, time and place as my current life for example. I am posting this to see who can help me with this. Who has experience with past life, next life, working and designing reincarnation, you get what I mean. I am open to deep occult solutions. Thank you.

God will go through infinite dreams, each of them infinitely many times. God is outside of time and will dream forever. If it only dreamed a specific dream only once, it would not be infinite. You have to realize that no matter what form is experiencing any dream at all, it is always you, because you are God. To talk about this kind of reincarnation is to wrongly identify with a temporary form you have taken, instead of your true formless nature. Though, even then, there will be an identical dream as this one dreamed infinitely many times, and it would not feel any different from it happening for the first time.

Why are the eastern ideas of reincarnation more true than western ideas of heaven and hell? Where did these ideas even come from?

Human imagination is a weak form of God imagination like human love is weak form of God level of love. If your awareness becomes infinite you can imagine whatever you want an it would instantly appear. The only reason you cannot right now is because your awareness is currently finite. So if you are seeing any visuals, experiencing any feelings that is imagination. Imagination is just hearing, seeing, touching, tasting, and feeling. As long as you have any of this you are in God's imagination. When there is no imagination there is nothing. No you, no memory, just completely nothing. But then the question would be...what is imagination made of? Answer is nothing. So Imagination and lack of Imagination are the same because its nothing. So the Ultimate Truth is God is infinite awareness, made of nothing, that is Infinitely Aware and Infinitely Intelligent, Good, Love and Wise. That's it. But reincarnation is real, if it wasn't.....what would be here? Its just reincarnation is imaginary, evolution imaginary, any thing you can think of is all imaginary. You me and everyone on this forum are all imaginary. Only God is not imaginary, but God is a formless awareness that is nothing. God literally created itself...out of nothing. God created all of existence out of nothing. The End.

All of creation is imagination. Reality= Imagination you aren't getting it. Reincarnation is just as valid right now as you typing on this screen. Distinctions are imaginary, yet your experiencing it. You really do not understand and are getting lost. Is it hot in your room? That is imagination. Is it dark in your room ? That is imaginatary. Reality is imagination. So saying reincarnation is imagining is akin to saying reincarnation is real.

You are exactly correct. Past lives and next lives are imaginary. They are just beliefs .and reincarnation is a Hindu belief but its popular in the new age community and western spiritual communities because they think every idea that comes from ancient Eastern wisdom must be correct. But that's not the case . Past and future are imaginary. Only consciousness/present/direct experience is real.

There is only one God that lives forever. The only difference between me and you is our knowledge. So in reality, you don't learn any lessons, cause you don't need to. What should be learned is learned and what shouldn't won't. The universe already decided what you will or won't learn. A tree doesn't exist in any other moment but one and it won't reincarnate as that same tree. This is like a movie that keeps going on and on forever. An animation that doesn't stop. In the past we believed in heaven and hell and now in new age communities, people don't know how to make the world appear safe and loving other than to use the idea of karma and reincarnation.

I can't possibly believe in reincarnation or heaven and hell that religions talk about so for me personally, it is the fear that not existing, not feeling anything at all even the bad feelings, not seeing anything and just not being at all after death that scares me the most. It is like I have this one life and if I can't have heaven and good karma in it, then it is very unlikely there will be anything after it.

I'm confused by this statement...everything is a dream. There is God, and then there is the dream. So you are either in a state of Absolute Consciousness as God, or you are dreaming. A dream is how God lives as a finite form. So based on this....you have always had past life experiences. So....you are contradicting yourself. When Leo said that reincarnation was part of the dream I was like....yeah of course so is this current life. The ancients say to STOP dreaming you have to realize yourself as God. But the only way to do that is to release all attachment. It all seems to fit to me. Nothing Leo has said seems to contradict any of the teachings. Even Leo's Infinity of God's realization Jesus said in the Bible and the Law of One series mentions. So its all about putting things into perspective. So since you cannot die, because you are existence itself all that happens is you stop dreaming.

Well the most common version of the Self that the majority of people subscribe to in the West is that of the Transcendental-Ego Self. Namely that a seperate 'Self' exists apart from the context you inhabit and apart from the continuity of your experiences. While this is most easily encapsulated in the idea of a Soul, this has become such a central part of our culture that a completely secularized version of this is accepted by many people. And not just in the West, the transcendental ego self is also central to metaphysical systems that believe in reincarnation (such as Hinduism). A good litmus test to see if you subscribe to this notion of a Transcendental Ego is to try and imagine being born in a completely time and place. And then contemplate if that person would be 'you', or a completely different person. The other well trod perspective is that instead of an enduring transcendental ego self, the Self has no independent ground apart from it's embodied context and the continuity of experience. This is the perspective of 'no-self' Buddhism, but has also popped up at times in the writings of certain Western philosophers (such as David Hume). For myself, the latter perspective seems more coherent.

This video ruined my life. How exactly am I meant to function knowing that I'll solipsistically experience every torture imaginable for no reason, for eternity. No intelligent being would subject it self to that. This video gives me suicidal ideations and you KNOW that you don't know for sure if you'll experience every hell fathomable. My life has no indications that I'll experience infinite torture, literally if this is true my motivation for "creating a beautiful life" is zero. What is the point? It'll just end then the reincarnation dice get rolled and I experience being in the holocaust for no other reason than 'love', that's not love that's masochism. Blood is on your hands Leo, even if you are correct, it's one of those things that should be left unsaid for the sanity of normies like me.

It depends on how you consider it. Does the dream have any purpose? It seems extremely deliberate. is the dream evolutionary? Or is the concept of evolution foreign to the consciousness of God? from our mentality it seems impossible for something to be without purpose. you can say that the purpose is to be, but it is already a purpose. be more complex? all traditions and mystics have spoken of reincarnation. continuity, evolution. It seems logical. although your idea also seems to me

@Proserpina That doesn't make any sense, shouldn't the afterlife occur regardless of what I realize or don't realize? Like if someone is totally bought into the idea of reincarnation, would it be completely blank after he/she dies? Do I even know that the afterlife exists?

@Proserpina Is heaven and hell real? Does reincarnation also exist or is it one or the other? How did you f*ck up? How could you go to different realms for the same reason? Is there literally heaven and hell or are the realms something else?

The energy pattern that forms your apparent being, the person you are, has specific characteristics. This pattern changes as your life goes by. reincarnation would be the restart of the resulting pattern after the course of your life. many traditions and many mystics have spoken of reincarnation, I think we should to have an open mind to it

Because reincarnation is part of the dream how can you be reincarnated if you were never alive, to begin with, there is no human you just like there isn't an actualized forum just like I know I am only talking to myself right now hello II this is God talking to God time to go back to sleep.

Sorry, but reincarnation is imaginary.

Honestly I don't know if I even want to awaken any more. Sometimes I think I do, but as I start to approach it, it gets terrifying. I want the truth, but I'm also scared of it. Things have been pretty okay for a few decades and it seems risky to try and mess that up. If I'm honest, my desire to awaken mostly comes from a place of scarcity. Fear of death, wanting to figure it out and know the answer before I'm in my last moments and don't have a choice. Wanting to escape some reincarnation cycle if such a thing exists, with the knowledge and experienced I've gained in this lifetime in tact, instead of having the slate wiped clean again. Ego death from the outside seems to me kinda like how teleportation would work in sci-fi. When you go in a teleporter, you don't actually get fully transported somewhere. It KILLS you here and now, the current you dies. Then a new version of you gets re-assembled atom by atom somewhere else, like a clone of yourself. Except even your memories are in tact so it feels like you really went somewhere. I don't know if I want to egoically kill myself to go somewhere else. Even if by all accounts it's better than what I have now. I'd rather cling on to my current self, even if it's just an illusion.

What is the force that cannot be defeated, represented by Kali's unstoppable destruction on the battlefield? This thing all things devours; Birds, beasts, trees, flowers; Gnaws iron, bites steel; Grinds hard stones to meal; Slays king, ruins town, And beats high mountain down The answer is time, or perhaps we might call it the inevitability of death that comes along with the existence of time. Kali is invincible and ruthless in slaughter. The oldest written records of Kali, or goddesses who became synonymous with Kali support this tantric interpretation of Kali dancing upon Shiva. The Rig Veda, which was set down somewhere between 1500 to 1200 BCE from older oral traditions contains a hymn called the Rathri Suktim, which is sung to Rathri, goddess of night, who was understood as synonymous with Kali. This hymn is also sung to Kali. The Rathri Skuktim speaks of a sage Kushika, who perceived the enveloping force of darkness while meditating and thus invoked the name of Rathri which means night as an all-powerful goddess, Rathri Devi, this holy darkness was called upon to free mortals from their fears and their bonds to the earth and like Kali was seen as possessing the all devouring power of time. Worshippers of Rathri sought to manifest this devouring power to overcome fear and any obstacle that they may face. Conceptually, Rathri is very similar to Kali, and other Vedic writings attest to this as well. The Atharva Veda which was likely the last part of the Vedas to be composed, somewhere between 1200 BCE and 1000 BCE, directly associates Rathri with several goddesses, including Durga. Then we have the Mahabharata which was written between 400 BCE and 300 CE, and this text combines the names of Kali and Rathri into Kalatratri and she's very reminiscent of what we saw from Kali in the Devi Mahatmaya. She shows on the battlefield to battle various asuras and villains, her tongue lolls out thirsty for blood and most importantly, she specifically is associated with blackness and the eternal void, like Kali. The Rig Veda also mentions the goddess Nirrti, who is the personification of death, decay and destruction, and who may be either a predecessor to Kali or perhaps just a very similar deity expressing its similar concepts. There is a continuity of thought about void goddesses that we can trace from the very earliest written records of Indian literature, right up to the present. Is it dark already? How light is a light? Do you laugh while screaming "Is it cold outside?" All of this destruction is also linked to cycles of creation and rebirth. And the idea of her driving cosmic time in intended to be paralleled to the cycles of personal growth, which are supposed to come from the studying of the Vedic scriptures. Most religions and spiritual practices are about self-improvement to some extent, and this is true of Hinduism, and Tantric traditions in particular are focused on using meditation to achieve spiritual liberation. The constant battled between the devas and the asuras are therefore generally understood to represent the good and evil instincts within mankind. Any esoteric interpretation of Hindu folklore or scripture presumes this; thus, we can begin to see Kali's relentless slaughter of asuras as representation of what we must do to free our higher selves, our good instincts from encumbrance. We must ruthlessly seek to slaughter any signs of evil or deception inside of us. This is a metaphor to describe the practice of any kind of quest to obtain spiritual enlightenment or righteousness. It's the process of rooting out ignorance, selfishness, illusion and delusion and anything else that causes us not to live up to our values, to fall short of our own moral compass and to fail to reach our own potential, thus Kali represents not only the progress of physical time, but the progress of self-improvement, the opposite of personal stasis, which is a kind of spiritual death or slumber. This statis and complacency is what we must go to war against, says Kali, through her bloody trappings she is telling us that attainment of spiritual freedom comes only through the elimination of attachment, and the destruction of false consciousness. That's what the severed head represents, false consciousness. The sword represents the knowledge that destroys illusion. This iconography portrays the process of self-improvement as active, bold, tumultuous, painful, a striking contrast to the stillness of Shiva's meditation. In the end, these two ideas are designed to work in tandem, the quiet reflection of meditation should lead to insight, and insight to action and through this process we are transformed. The metaphysical interpretation of Kali dancing upon Shiva, the emergence of reality from the cosmic stillness parallels the metaphysical interpretation of transformative action emerging from the stillness of meditation. There are two other folkloric interpretations on Kali's dance on Shiva, and although they are somewhat different from the Tantric interpretation, they still work with the same idea of self-improvement, or mastery of self. In both of these interpretations, Kali is understood as the destructive aspect of Shiva, when Shiva is portrayed as calm or peacefully reclining beneath Kali's furious dance, he's showing us mastery of his anger, or darker thoughts. He's aware of these darker impulses but remains in control or unperturbed. If we see Shiva depicted as being dead or in pain beneath Kali's feet, that's seen as an expression of Shiva losing control with his dark side, or id, taking power. So, although different, we still deal with the same concepts. Kali and Shiva are basically always working together to describe and depict the war that is the path to spiritual mastery. The iconography isn't all blood and battle, though, Kali also expresses the love of a mother with the hand signs or mudras that she's frequently making with her right hands. In her Dakshina Kali forms specifically, the mudras are abhaya - fearlessness, and varada - blessing, this work says a promise of spiritual freedom and salvation to those who have the courage to seek ultimate truth. There is no real comfort in delusion, so the message here is along the lines of, "only the truth will set you free." One thing I know for certain Oh, I'm pretty sure It ain't over I'm not done Another important avenue for spiritual growth and perfection in Hinduism is reincarnation, with the idea being that the eternal soul is improved upon gradually through multiple lifecycles, and that those cycles of death and rebirth are of course powered by Kali. The garland of severed hands that she wears is specifically tied to the concept of karma and reincarnation, hands are what you do work with, and this collection of hands represents the work of karma, the many lifetimes of work that it takes to achieve nirvana. The severing of those hands, accordingly, represents Kali's ability to bestow ultimate freedom from the binding of karma. By these means, Kali is seen as helping us to achieve enlightenment, not only by being ruthless in the quest to root out evil and delusion, but also by causing our souls to be reborn from the dissolution of death. Kali's eternal existence outside of time, outside of the veil of maya, or illusion, which is the physical world, is what enables her to perform this function. This is the reason for Kali's nudity, she is uncovered by any sort of cloak of illusion, the ultimate personification of indestructible, eternal truth. Thus, Kali is perceived as beckoning us on our journey to find truth from a place which is actually the source of ultimate reality. For similar reasons, Kali is always described as black or dark blue, and again, Kali means the black one, and of course, the link between the great goddesses and the primordial darkness goes back to Rathri Devi in the Rig Veda. These symbolic implications of Kali's blackness thus are of a prime importance, primordial importance, and are spoken of often. The Maha Nirvana Tantra, written in 18th century explains that just as all colours disappear in black, so all names and forms disappear in her. Sri Ramakrishna, an 18th century Bengali yogi and saint, similarly explains that "My mother is the principle of consciousness, she is Acanda Sachidananda, indivisible reality, awareness and bliss. The night's sky between the stars is perfectly black, the waters of the ocean depths are the same. The infinite is always mysteriously dark, this inebriating darkness is my beloved Kali." You can clearly recognize the language of creative chaos here, Kali's darkness represents things from which creation can emerge, like the ocean or space. Kali therefore represents the principle of consciousness that emerges from that darkness, an invisible yet all pervasive and life-giving force. Sri Ramakrishna also describes Kali as the force behind the sun, which is kind of Egyptian concept. The thing is to tap into that force we must first submit to the destruction of ego. This is the dissolution of Kali into which all names, and forms disappear, and then in terms of reincarnation, we can imagine our soul sort of dissolving back into that dark ocean of Kali, upon death, only to reemerge reborn from that ocean when we're reincarnated, just as the consciousness of the universe first emerged from that same void. The kindling of consciousness from the void and the spark of awareness itself is often liken to a fire, or to a light that blooms in the darkness and Kali is associated with exactly this sort of fire of awareness. The uncompromising truth which Kali offers is often likened to the fire of the sun, which burns away illusion like morning fog, along the same lines, the very first written record of Kali by name associates her with the purifying fire, specifically the fire of ritual sacrifice. We have this idea of purification through destruction and disillusion. This text is the Mundaka Upanishad, dating approximately to the 5th or 6th century BCE and it names Kali as one of the seven quivering tongues of the fire god, Angi, who's flames devoured the sacrifices intended for the gods, thereby transmitting them up to heaven via the rising smoke. Obviously you'll notice the connection between the lolling tongue of pretty much all Kali depictions and the idea of her as a tongue of the consuming fire god. There is also a deity mentioned in a slightly older Jaiminiya Brahmana dated to the 8th century BCE, called Dirgha-jihvi and this means the long tongued one, and this is thought to be an early form of Kali, or perhaps an older goddess whose mythology became combined with Kali over time. Dirgha-jihvi is an ogress who drinks up all the soma produced by the holy yagna ritual of the devas, which causes the devas to become weak. Who is the Alpha? How do you say I'm sorry And there's nothing to be afraid of? Oh, I'm pretty sure It ain't over I'm not done So, you can see the similarities to the slightly later concept of Kali as a tongue of holy fire, which devours the sacrifices intended for the gods. Instead of the soma stealing instrument of chaos from this earlier tale, Kali is now simply consuming, metabolizing and then transmitting the essence of the sacrifice up to the heavens. This concept of holy consuming fire leads us back to the concept of dissolution, which means it's time to talk a little more about Nirti, the goddess of death, decay and destruction, that appears in the Rig Veda, the Sanskrit ford Nirti is translated as decay, and it's derived from Nir which means to separate, think dissolution, and Nirti can also be translated as a lack of order, or a state of disorder. Think of the whirling pool of primordial chaos, from which creation emerges. Nirti seems to specifically embody the dissolution end of this process. The Vedas also used the word Nirti in lowercase form to indicate a realm of nonexistence and absolute darkness. The void, essentially. Like her sister void goddess, Kali, Nirti is described as having dark skin and additionally dressing in dark clothes. There is a Hindu shakta poet from the 18th century named Ramprasad Sen - shakta - he fallows shaktism or the worship of shakti the divine goddess - he is also from Bengal, like Sri Ramakrishna and he associates Kali with the cremation ground, which builds on the concepts of fire and dissolution. Prashad means a ritual sacrifice, usually in the form of a food. "O Kali, thou art fond of cremation grounds; So I have turned my heart into one That thou, a resident of cremation grounds, May dance there unceasingly. O Mother! I have no other fond desire in my heart; fire of a funeral pyre is burning there; O Mother! I have preserved the ashes of the dead bodies all around that Thou may come. Oh Mother! Keeping Shiva, conqueror of Death, under Thy feet, Come, dancing to the tune of music; Prasad waits with his eyes closed." The metaphor of the heart as cremation ground, is a reference to the holy fire of Kali, which burns away all the bad things, false consciousness, illusion, base desires, selfishness and so on. This inner fire that Kali bestows to her devotees has a specific name which is gyanagni, which means fire of knowledge. This is the sun-like aspect of Kali's truth, which burns away all illusion. You can see how all of the concepts behind Kali's symbols complement one another and now you can make sense of all the death and gore that pervades her imagery and her stories. Now you know there's nothing to fear, nothing but the truth, that is. The truth is like a sword, sharp, cutting, inflexible, but which also promises a kind of spiritual freedom. The ultimate spiritual freedom, which can only be won through courage. Kali offers us blessing and courage with her right hands, and offers us the sharp tools of freedom with her left, dancing Kali pedaling her cosmic bicycle, powering the cycles of time, existence and reincarnation, of which our world is made. Kali, the divine mother, who gave birth to all and who waits at the end to welcome us back home, back to the primordial sea from which our consciousness first arose.

Probably not, they would've told you about your aura energy. When i was in my highest consciousness state i achieved it naturally by knowing and finding things on my own, this made me do god like things/ materialisation because i fully understand how "it" worked to achieve it. This was during clinical psychology interview, i was seeing everything in the world different. After this highly consciouss state i had an awakening and started researching/reading alot and now im gonna do my first psychdelic next month mahavatar babaji has been reincarnating for many thousands of years , haidakhan babaji was his latest reincarnation from 1970 to 1984. People all over the world flew to see him, i have seen too many highly awoke people from different countries describing him. Based on my research he's 100% an avatar or not born from earth.

"He who masters resistance masters this physical time space reality" -Teal Swan Enlightenment requires my concentration but just how long can I focus on spirituality? If external interruptions never applied, could I concentrate on a wall for long periods of time (even if it seems silly)? What about on a question or excercise? How do I know when to move on to the next one? This is crucial when it comes to Leo's enlightenment questions and excercises. I try to get up early not only to prevent external interruptions, but more so, to prevent interruptions from myself. I also need to learn how to take better notes on what I am reading to read important material for longer periods of time. Also, do you know this game called Lapse? It's basically a game in which you are the president are your goal is to escape the infinite time loop you are in by finding someone for this mysterious person (I'm still trying to find out who they are). To survive long enough for that to happen, you need to balance the environment, the happiness of the population, the military, and the economy. Why am I bringing this up? It feels like each day is like an infinite time loop unless I radically change myself for enlightenment and a life worth living. This loop can last until I die (and beyond if reincarnation exisits). Will I need to control my state of consciousness for me to stay focused, or would I already be awake? When Leo says become conscious of _______, is it something that simply needs to be done, am I missing something, or was I only in a temporary high if I did become conscious of what Leo said? Also, I am not saying that I cannot have fun, if spirituality is boring, then I'm doing it wrong. If I'm being indescisive on how to go about it, then it will backfire and so will not seeking enough options.

Stage Blue (which is about much more than just authority), and particularly Christianity, are fit for the death of humanity because like you say they emphasise stale authority and conformity. After all, children hate conforming to stifling rules and regulations! It is senile old farts who like to do everything by the book; Christianity just allowed them to do it by the Book! It is absurd to me that Stage Blue belongs to the pre-individualised childhood of humanity: even according to “ma science”, humanity had already been around for hundreds of thousands of years before Stage Blue emerged! Materialism is like rigor mortis because once the spiritually animating principle has departed (God in the Christian context) all that is left is the physical body. The so-called advances in philosophy since the Renaissance have basically just been progressive phases in the realisation that God (in the Christian sense and as the spiritual principle which used to animate such societies) is dead. These are the various Stage Orange ideologies of materialism which have been accompanied by the general expanse of the mercantile machine of production-and-consumption. It is just like a body in which the soul and spirit has departed. Relativism, deconstruction and anti-logocentrism are like the body decomposing because they are a denial of survival and the necessity of difference and distinction. Isn’t defunding the police just like the immune system finally giving in? Isn’t open borders just like the cell walls collapsing? Isn’t the proliferation of anarchy and chaos within Stage Green just like the diseases which invade the dying body? The contrast within Stage Green between a superficial “love” and “unity” and the actual situation of putrescent inequality and exploitation is also very much like the body rotting beneath the surface of the skin. Finally, the new-age spiritualism of Tier 2 is like the final evaporation of the body because it is a compensating retreat away from the accretions of materialism towards the spiritual. Seeing the one-sided and limited nature of the new “earth-bound” and materialised world order, more and more people are drawn to shift off this earthly coil and escape to a new world of psychedelic phantasms, neo-Advaitan non-dualisms, Shamanic escapades, pagan cult revivals, occult deliriums and so on ad nauseam, whilst the majority devolve into a form of existence which is entirely collective and truly sub-human. This is exactly like the paths that are available to the human being in death: either to escape the wheel of existence for good (which is what a few people will manage to do through these new-age experiments) or to dissolve back into the collective substance for a further reincarnation (which is what the overwhelming majority are doing). This model fits the reality much better than some Spiral Progress nonsense! A very ironic appeal to authority! I agree that human history is a reflection of the individual human on a massive scale. Like the ancient Corpus Hermeticum says: “As above, so below”. Yes I should have worded this better. What you are describing would be a postmodern sort of argument, “every analogy is equally valid”, which is not what was intended.

I copy paste this without edit. I had no idea prior to this what "nonduality" was, and had no religious inclination whatsoever. This is exactly as I recorded it and attempted to interpret it without the aid of ANY knowledge gleamed from researching nondual tradition. I found such tradition via searching "monism" after the fact. This was vaped n,n-DMT on the peak of 500ug of acid. --- BLAST OFF It was on my second inhale of DMT using my Mighty vape that it hit the fan. I closed my eyes and experienced a complete out of body trip to heaven with visuals... full color visuals, intricate and detailed. To walk through from the beginning, first of all imagine you are a Matryoshka doll (those Russian doll things). The innermost doll. Well what happened was, my human vessel which was this innermost doll was left down below and I was launched/sucked away from myself and upwards. And as I kept going up it was like outer shells of dolls were shattering as I broke into higher and higher realms of reality. Like going from the smallest doll in the set to the biggest all-encompassing doll. Rather than a tunnel of light going towards heaven, it was more like I was being sucked up from my human self into heaven - I was watching my lower-level-consciousness-selves as I was propelled higher and higher up. The visuals were very vivid and intense, but difficult to explain... It was like I had a collar around my vessel (whatever was being launched up into these planes of reality), and the patterning was on this collar, like perhaps yellow vibrant squares for example (but these weren't just random shapes on the back of my eyelids, these were like, fully lucid visions of an alternate dimension) - and I was being sucked upwards through the middle into higher realms of reality and I'd go up through these layers of visions higher and higher. Until I reached the ultimate reality. I reached heaven. It was not heaven in the sense that it felt blissful or anything. That's the thing, it didn't feel anything, it just WAS. But it was heaven in the sense of being the ultimate reality. When every layer is peeled off that's what's left. I was in heaven. I have visited heaven. I saw spacetime itself form shape: Outside the boundaries of what I was seeing was void - colorless nonexistence. I had wondered what possible layer deeper I could have possibly gone except by dying; but then I realized that dying would not do it - because non-existence does not exist, and it's not possible for anything that exists to NOT exist... "I" or "you" may """die""" (quote unquote) but we will never get to not exist, we will *ALWAYS* exist... I can see where people get ideas about reincarnation... A tree can sprout many leaves - we are the tree... We as in "you" or "I" might THINK we're the leaf, but that's just an illusion, a subsection of the whole which is the tree that we ACTUALLY are. We are all existence, anything that has existed cannot ever NOT exist because non-existence does not exist. WE are existence. WE are spacetime. WE are eternal. WE are all there ever was and all there ever will be; always "were" and always "will be". The alpha and omega. We are unstoppable because we are existence itself. WE are EVERYTHING. ... I also did speak to a divine being or something of that nature but my recollection of that is incredibly scant. I think between my visions through heaven I opened my eyes and spoke to the deity and asked what it wants me to do (I think?) and if it wants me to bring back the experience and tell other people, something along those lines. I don't remember the specifics but definitely something along those lines happened... I saw a large female deity's face across my ceiling briefly, I recall. But the "divine being" did not feel more powerful than me, us, you, WE... That was part of the thing - that everything was one and the same, everything in existence was one. Nothing exists but existence itself. Whatever this presence was, was simply a manifestation of a part of US that was helping facilitate my journey... I in fact felt like I had gone even further *beyond* the realm where this presence existed. Using the tree sprouting leaves analogy, perhaps these presences are like the branches. One step above us "leaves" but a step below the ultimate reality of the tree. I feel like I reached and reunited with the tree. I consider this to be a legitimate religious experience, along the lines of Buddhist/Monistic belief (I never had any religious belief prior to psychedelic use). This was not getting "high" this was literally a religious experience, a deeply earth-shattering spiritual/religious experience. --- Everything that I write since, and everything I have searched for and researched, is due to this trip. Which I now cannot recall experientially aside from perhaps a miniscule memory of visuals, which is also just a vague fascimile. I have never reached that state of being ever again, albeit other trips after were still "enlightening" when not just random alien rave scenes or panic attacks. I never came back from that trip... I've been trying to make sense of it since.

If your life is good right now, why roll the reincarnation dice?