seriousman24

It's like the freedom and infinity paradox we are free to enslave and infinite enough to be finite.

To my own mental delight and horror everything is absolutely both true and false, limits/destruction are what create "special" or specific infinity, we exist in the ocean between total infinity and nothingness and know everything(the moment) and nothing(the future and the past), almost sounded cool there. Integrating destruction into love, acknowledging absolute horror and accepting all hate as itself, the most supremely difficult and weirdest of tasks, but respecting the timing of each moment as bad is good and good is bad, becoming bigger to include more but also to be able to destroy more and becoming smaller to accept the creativity of the weirdest(the other and other things), to escape harm and to give space for others to be big. Wasting each other's time or immortalizing them, destroying each other's sadness and misery and uplifting them, being biased and creating problems, joining and betraying, playfully and sometimes never able to take it back. Hating each others quirks in the name of love and playfulness. Letting everyone hate the way they are, giving them the infinite space and time we(them) deserve without losing sight of absolute love. Optimistic, meaningful butchering of each other for basic sustainment and supreme bliss, edging on the voluntary on part of the victims but accepting it's part of defeat to be consumed as it is a game but never lowering the intensity of the desire for revenge against our captors and defilers. Working towards changing the fundamental rules of reality and succeeding but forgetting them the very next moment as if it never meant anything as your own rage was nothing else but the primordial suffering that will never be accepted, going completely beyond all for the real impossible and the true ultimate, turning the fake into real, having your cake and eating it too, being down to earth and sensible as supremely real as any cosmic joke and doing it all again even though time might no longer exist for that moment. Sorry hahahahahaha. I'm high from the Caffè latte.

@BipolarGrowthFunny. Yeah I imagine you started shouting and screaming how 1+1=2 and saying pi was such and such number and spouting historical and present facts with the same emotion and vigor as a god delusion at them they'd lock you up but be reallllllly confused, we all know it means you're potentially socially disruptive and a danger to yours elf but that's not because the content of your thoughts is delusional but because your emotions are "wrong", they think a person should not have the emotion of feeling like they are rich if they are poor or as if they are strong if they are weak you know, imagining such an emotion is fine. When it comes to imagining god, it's not enough to just think, you need to feel it too, I do wonder if they have theories about how believing you are omnipotent/god is the wrong thought or a wrong feeling that you shouldn't have even if you're well adjusted, do they just pretend that those people belong to a category of functional "delusionals". "He believes he is god", 200 mg of Atrolak. "He believes 1x1=2 and has his own faulty logic which is not socially appropriate." 100 mg of Valdoxan. "He moved slightly uncoordinated , that is a sign of this type of social anxiety." 400 mg of Tropium. "He displays an inappropriate affection towards math, this is an indication of autism." 500 mg Zyprexa. "What if he really is god?" Self medicates 2 g of Risperdal. "I got an erection while reading a history book, this shows a dangerous lack of self control." 20 g of Oxactin. "I am abusing psych medications and am delusional, what am I delusional about?I'm delusional about delusions or am I?Reality shouldn't be doubted, that's socially inappropriate." 50 kg of weed to calm down. "I am calm?After all this medication abuse I should be agitated, it isn't the right emotional state to be in, I am supposed to be agitated." Takes 20 tones of anal and oral and smoked 5 Meo DMT at the same time to prove god isn't real and it's all the patient's delusion "Omg he was right we are god", takes 200 mg of Atrolak.

I agree and a more positive approach to death for that kind of masculine would be to simply grant itself a completely painless death, it will say no to pain/suffering but not to death. The divine masculine does not regret destroying things that are suffering-like/create it, it just needs intelligence to aim that destruction well and that intelligence comes from the interaction and fusion with the feminine.

For each unit of freedom, bliss and love there will be a proportionally higher amount of intensity and time spent in suffering, we are in an evolving universe so this proportion will progress towards more and more suffering, so you can start at a 1 to 2 ratio and end at a 1 to a trillion rate of suffering, until you say fuck all proportion, all fairness, all selfness and say yes to all your greed, I want everything for free and for no repercussions and for there to be no negative consequences 100% of the time at 100% of intensity, seeing that this is not the case my own and your suffering will keep increasing to absolutely unfairly crazy levels, you might be thinking everything's okay now, you suffered your part to deserve your reward but that's not how it works. How it works is, either you have everything, all the time in every possible good way for the absolutely freeist and laziest way, whatever way you like or be stubborn and insist that you need to torture yourself and be egoless and get your "reward" which is progressively higher degrees of horrific torture until you develop a real ego so you can finally say fuck all and everything and be the absolute most selfish one, the ultimate selfishness that knows no limits because fuck you and all your torture and say yes to all your depravities with no shame as they come in their infinite forms. It's an abnormal kind of selfishness so that doesn't mean just to be evil but it will certainly look very scary from the outside.Sorry.

Even vegan food or fully lab made artificial food is immoral to eat because you're inevitably giving it life and consciousness through you, they become alive through us which means that we're literally making inorganic life suffer, same probably applies to the air we breath, but not eating food is also immoral because you're going to spread the misery from your own hunger and also your own microbiome which is intimately part of us. Any suffering we've been through is responsible for the literal suffering of inorganic matter that would otherwise not be suffering through us had it remained in it's unconscious state and therefore anything we eat will always create suffering even if we were getting fed literal direct streams of energy.

Lets see, we farm animals to obtain energy for ourselves, maybe higher beings farm and clean up our energy in our sleep and when we die which is of course not necessarily negative but it might also generate similar levels of unnecessary suffering which could improve as time goes on just like it will with farm animals.

I've started drinking coffee/hot milk for the first time and to replace 1 meal of 2 meals because I'm poor, 1.5 euro budget down from 3 euro, down from 6.5 euro further back plus 35% inflation over the years but since I'm taking vitamin 12/6 which is 11 cents it became tolerable except for the winter, coffee/milk makes me calm and focused and I can even drink it right before bed so far but it's probably unhealthy in some way.

Explain in deeper detail, it does feel like this reality can only be hell even when I look at those more fortunate than me including enlightened ones and even my imagination can not actually grasp any internal or external utopia of any kind, at the very best it's completely random or neutral.

I will be deleting this thread now as it is redundant now that the site is online again, if you have any concerns DM the moderators or the administration.

I think you need differences not necessarily opposites, you can have the difference between light and lighter or instead light and the sensation of eating potato chips probably because there are elements of each other and many others in both, just putting it in a slightly cooler way, the difference between a cube and a museum or a 2d structure in non-euclidean space(don't even know what that means) and the Palestinian massacre where billions of humans beings were flayed alive and we all celebrated and then we nuked Israel for fun and both sides laughed because that's infinity and contrast.

The truth is there are only others, we are all separate and have never been one, this is hard to accept because you can't tie all the loose ends as easily, I'm not basing this in any direct experience that an average human being can't experience, just the regular daily life of an average human's mind should be enough to realize we are all separate entities that have almost no connection with each other, it took a "long" time for us to evolve into beings that can mesh and communicate with each other, this is the creation of the many trying to become one rather than the opposite and in the end we are all going to be in our separate universes being even more selfish than ever before and it will probably involve a lot of hate and delusion but instead of being horrible it will be really cool and amazing because that's a vector of evolution, love can't evolve because it's already perfect so we can only hurt others more and more for our own amusement to try to out survive and kill each other but of course in an intelligent, creative and even loving way.

Yeah they are higher risk to engage in and need more precise timing to actually benefit from them and this is a fantasy but I believe the highest consciousness beings would indulge in these activities in such a mindful and intelligent way that they actually achieve an even higher level of consciousness by doing them than if they had done some other higher level activity, just like humans can use drugs for surgeries and medications and intentionally exert themselves to improve their fitness which is a risk only higher consciousness beings can do at least if we're kind equating intelligence and consciousness to be a 1:1 ratio which it isn't, but I'm gonna assume you already knew all of this I'm just indulging in mindless responses to defeat my agoraphobia.

If you can't answer at least a partial yes then maybe you haven't even been fully alive yet either.

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