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@kalter000 You're welcome ! Feel free to ask any other questions you may have I'm really glad because everytime I ask a questions on the RSD forum I can't get a proper answer and people can't relate, and sometimes I feel like I'm an alien with my whole DEPTH and SCIENCE thing ahaha

It's interesting how many blindspots there are in the average mode of consciousness. One of the main insights that I had when I had my experiences was that I was constantly deceiving myself to protect my ego from uncomfortable truths. Even knowing this now in an abstract way and having a clear memory of this insight, I still make the same mistake on an almost hourly basis. The only difference is that I'm a bit more aware of it. I consider it progress, but a very modest amount of progress. I still continue to struggle against my reality even though I realize that it is an illusion. My ego just won't let things go and tries to control the situation to amplify its own existence. So, in this scenario, I am both the person running away from the alien and the person telling myself that it isn't real. When I was a child, I remember having a dream once that me and all my family members were taking a fitness test. My mom woke me up for school and I told her that I could get up yet because 'Dad hadn't taken his P.E. test.' The mind is such a tricky thing.

I just had the following insight after a few hours of meditation: Let's say you are having a terrible nightmare. An alien is chasing you and you are desperately trying to get away from it. Then I appear in the middle of the chase and say, "Wait a minute now... This is just a nightmare. It's not real." And you reply back, "But if none of this is real, then you're not real either and your very words are not real! Ha! What hogwash! Look at how you contradict yourself!" And you keep running from the alien as though your life depended on it. This is what rational people do when their rationalism is challenged. And so they stay stuck forever. Just a random musing that I felt increased my understanding of man's condition. The mind is so sneaky!

Whats up fellow Actualizationicans, I love the new forum, and it reminded me in structure a lot of Reddit, and got my gears turning on ideas to make this all as aesthetically appealing as possible, and as mobile friendly as possible. I have a genuine interest in the spiritual enlightenment side of things, and want to give back and contribute to the community as much as possible. With that said, one of the big dangers of making something like this is that the community might attract more people, thus more less involved or serious people. I really do believe this can be overcome, and that eventual growth is inevitable. I have some experience in coding, and have begun to work on this just in the past couple of hours, and want to get the whole community involved. Attached is a zip of the open source Alien Blue app files (with the three images in the main folder changed to Actualized.org images), and I chose that as a good template to work with, due to the similar structure of the current in-browser forum and what I hope the app will resemble. If you're suspicious of a potential nefarious download, the original Alien Blue ZIP is open to the public for download and redistribution, a quick google will take you to it. At the moment Alien Blue has a PRO version, but I plan to have that feature erased in the Actualized app. Good vibes all around, and if you make any progress or have any good ideas, use the tags on this post when uploading any files useful for its development. Cheers! Actualized-master.zip

Hello there, I have been doing pick up for a year now, with some pretty amazing results, but there is always a deeper problem I find myself unable to fix. Growing up I was never part of the quote on quote cool people, and never had my first girlfriend until very late. I can easily start and interaction with very awesome and hot girls, even get solid number, and even sometimes dates, but there is a sometimes a moment where it's fucking up. (Be it the interaction after the number, the date itself or even while in the bedroom I'm unable to "escalate" aka, After some self-inquiry I have deduced that : 1) My mind for some unkwnown reason defines my own value partially by the hotness of women I am able to "get". Also, I feel inferior to all the guys who get those hot girls easily, in a not big deal frame, and I makes me feel seriously inadequate and alien, as I am struggling with this kind of problem while I am confident I am an great human being in different aspects, which of course, lowers my self-esteem. The solution of getting some hot girls doesn't work, because I have slept with girls that were quite hot, but not AS hot, and not AS much. 2) I tend to put women on a pedestal, once I believe they are hot enough so that getting them will allow me to feel cool (aka part of the cool kids, and hence socially adequate), and that sleeping with this particular hot girl may unlock the rest of it, since the mind believes sleeping with one hit girl will make the whole hot girl thing normal. The solutions I have found so far are : - Fullfilment, once I am fullfilled I do not care at all, but I only had that at the first stages of taking action, it kinda went away now, and most likely never coming back, because socializing feels really normal now. - The whole It's not gonna change my life (and women are not gonna make me happy/nothing can make me happy) insight, I have felt it at times, but it's not consistent while I wish the whole situation would just normalize. Does someone have any useful insight about solving this problem ?

Hi everyone. First off I'd just like to say great idea of making this forum Leo, great idea! So the question I have summed up in a sentence is: in the Clare Graves & Spiral Dynamics theory (which I felt was so accurate in the first tier) from the perspective as a yellow, what is the transitional dilemma and what is aqua like? So, I'm pretty scared of over-raking myself, but I feel like I am a yellow - I have done a lot of self seeking for years now, and when watching Leo's Clare Graves & Spiral Dynamics, I could follow the system right up to yellow, and I could see in my life how I went from blue, orange, green, yellow. I do associate myself with yellow quite a lot when hearing about their qualities, but as to what might be next seems alien to me, and what aqua could be for me. I want to aim to change myself for the better (obviously), but is there any advice for yellow except to be open minded (which is working really well lately)? I have read about aqua but I'm not too sure about what I read - even the other colours seemed off in their descriptions. Here is my theory, any thoughts? Yellow is like enlightenment.1 in which you realize your ego, gain a strong and real sense of losing the self, seeing life as the pure-experience it is just in this moment. But, at this stage, as to what reality actually is, is still a bit of a mystery - and studying about quantim physics and science in general doesn't help that much. This seems to be where I am at I would say, and although I am learning new realizations steeply (as compared to before), I cannot tell where this is leading, and I just feel a bit lost as to what I should be changing into with these new realizations. Aqua is like enlightenment.2, as a common example, what people say Buddha would have reached. This would be complete connection with reality (I have heard that is a theme). Also, do you guys think there is anything more than aqua or even yellow? The brain should have some physical limit as to its comprehension, there must be a limit somewhere right This was sort of hard to communicate with language but I hope that is clear and all. Thanks in advance for any relpies guys and girls! PS I didn't put this in the Video Requests section, but if Leo made a video regarding my question I'd be pretty stoked