onacloudynight

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  1. You may be right. I think I am attached to the feeling.
  2. Let me rephrase that. I am not doing nothing. I AM nothing.
  3. True. I would be homeless though, but I guess that's no excuse to not continue meditating
  4. I never said it was my parents fault. I am lucky that they have supported me, but they don't agree with all the meditation that I am doing. They think I need a job more than I need meditation.
  5. I won't be able too for long. My parents said that if I don't start doing something they are going to kick me out. I guess they aren't content with me doing nothing lol
  6. I'm at this weird dichotomy. I am 21 years old right now and have spent the last 3 years of my life basically going full hermit mode and meditating. Needless to say I became a bit more conscious over the last couple of years. Although I am very grateful for all the consciousness work I have done. I am basically at ground zero with all my lower base needs. I still live with my parents and don't have a good job. I don't even want a job really. I just want to meditate. It is weird because I feel like I have almost no desire for any of the lower base needs or for anything for that matter. My mind is just blank. Almost like I have a mind of a rock. My mind is pretty much constantly in no-mind, so I am not even thinking about wanting a job and then my parents tell me I need to job. Then I forget that I need a job because my mind has been trained to be completely silent lol. It is very hard to motivate myself, when my mind isn't desiring anything. Basically if I am being REALLY honest with myself, I just don't want to exist at all. I want to be nothing. A complete void. A complete blank. I don't want to think or do anything at all. I don't want to be alive, not because I am depressed and hate life, simply because it feels right. I want to be dead. I just want to be empty 24/7.
  7. @herghly Basically I'm wondering if I need to do ujjayi breathing while bringing the energy up to the head during maha mudra.
  8. Does anyone know if you need to do the throat restrictions while doing maha mudra? Or do you just breathe normally when you bring the energy up the spine?
  9. Yeah, that is very true. Thanks. I still wonder if there is some way I could subtly plant seeds in their mind and through that they might come to the conclusion that they do in-fact want to change, but it would be their own decision. I just planted the seeds.
  10. What are some ways I could build a bridge to help stage blue people evolve into orange? All of my family is heavily blue and I was wondering if there is anything I can do to help them. Or is it best to just leave them be and not even get involved?
  11. And why is death such a bad thing?
  12. After you're done with your routine, do you just sit in concentration at the crown chakra? Or do you just let go and be? Like in the do nothing technique.
  13. @Leo Gura What makes Kriya yoga so powerful? As opposed to just meditating. I'm considering getting back into it, because from what you describe, it sounds like a faster path.
  14. @Peo If you're just starting out, I would suggest doing vipassana first, so you can build up your mindfulness skills. Then you can switch to the do nothing technique or do both. I personally do both depending on my mood. It helps to have a baseline level of mindfulness for the do nothing technique, otherwise most of your meditation sit will be just pure monkey mind.