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Setting: (Peru) In the woods by a lake under a mountain. Solo 'ceremony' - lit some palo santo, sprayed some piri-piri fragrance (shipibo plant, not the chilli pepper). Dose: Eyeballed a lump?? Please note that this comes after 2 bufo experiences a few days before, neither were breakthroughs, one was nice, one was very difficult (both written on forum). Time: around 2pm So I halved the lump and then proceeded to put one half into the applicator before using it to blow hard up my right nostril. I then did the same with the remainder on the left nostril. The pain wasn't that bad (nowhere near how it's described online) and I feel it's all part of the experience, this discomfort grounds you and prepares you for the experience. I sat there being aware, waiting to see what would happen. The first signs were the trees and surroundings starting to get a bit more defined and wavey, and then I started to feel my skin getting hot, as if a rash was developing on my neck. This kept building and building until I realised I was feeling a really heavy bodyload. There were a lot of physical discomforts and I felt a pressure on my stomach which made me feel as though I would be sick (I never was). My body and brain were screaming for the discomforts to end - it was like when you're about to be sick and you're in that state of wanting the purge to come so you can relax. I endured this the best I could and it probably lasted around 30 minutes. Also, by 'the best I could' I mean I was half hating it thinking 'oh god why did I do this, fuck'. Whatever I looked at had a connection to the discomforts/sickness, they played off each other. It was almost unbearable at times but again I did my best to focus. I'm also glad I was reasonably secluded because even though I was sat up the whole time, I did let my head roll around and my body rock back and fourth when it felt it needed to so this would have looked weird to passers by. There was actually a guy sat nearby me but I don't think he could see me. So with all this happening I started to notice different things. With my eyes closed the visions were light but obvious; dark brown shapes that faded into the blackness were moving around crazily, so much that I decided to keep my eyes open. At some point I remember looking at the trees and bushes on the other side of the river, at this point I started hearing high frequency sounds that were repeating. Instantly I realised I was hearing the trees/bushes; they were saying something over and over again, in harmony. At times it sounded almost English but I think this was just my brain trying to decipher what they were saying. I then noticed more things were communicating with me - the water in the river, when it hit against the side of the bank it used this sound to say something (no idea what) but that was the only time I heard it - the trees were so goddamn loud. One thing here to add - I'm not one for crystals normally but I bought a moon stone whilst out here alongside other things of similar nature, mainly as reminders to stay connected which I think will help when I return home. I brought this with me to my little solo ceremony just to help set the mood and to see if I could use it in any way. Well I had the crazy closed eye visuals and I thought maybe this will help, so I closed my eyes, took the crystal in my hand and placed it in between my forehead/eyes (third eye) and instantly the visions calmed down which helped the experience as a whole. They also stayed that way for the duration. Now I can sit and analyse if it has any power, placebo effect etc but I think I'll just leave that one as it is - actually the whole experience I am just leaving as it is. It feels like there's not much my brain can actually do with re-living this experience other than possibly play or shut some things down, trying to rationalize them and this wasn't the point of the experience at all. Then, at some point this automatic communication seemed to come out of me which seemed to be what I could use to speak back out to nature. I started exhaling hard with my lips almost touching together which created this 'shoushhh' sound. This wasn't to shut the trees up, but naturally it felt like the method to communicate with them, like I was putting something back out there that they could receive. (Felt normal at the time, seems weird now but it honestly felt as though they could understand me and somehow I knew exactly how to communicate). I then noticed that just behind me there was singing which sounded child-like (no actual children around) and again the sounds produced seemed to exist on a different frequency plane (as did the whole experience). It was a very tribal sounding song, like an icaro, very catchy and seemed to have an intelligence behind it that could communicate to both humans and nature. I sang along quietly and at the time it felt like I would remember this song forever but now I can barely remember even the sound of a single word (the song wasn't in English, no idea what language - it was too faint to actually pick up on the words but the melody was obvious). Then at some point I felt things watching me, I felt someone behind me, watching me, and saw a shadow of some kind in my peripheral vision, this disappeared when I turned around. I turned back towards the river and then noticed the feeling again. Turning back around I realized I was surrounded by trees and I felt this overwhelming sense of intelligence/consciousness in each and every one. They were all watching me closely, towering over me, which actually made the forest seem quite overcrowded but I just sat there observing this feeling, seeing if it would go any further. So eventually I was kinda thinking it would be time to get up and go, but it just kept going on and on - new things kept arising that made me stay. I still can't believe how connecting making that sound from my mouth was - it really did feel as though I was communicating with the nature around me. So I sat there maybe another 20 minutes or so (time is hard to tell) making strange noises that and rolling around on the spot I was sat in before I noticed the feeling in my stomach that was there when I thought I was going to purge. I then started doing this breathing where I started at the pit of my stomach then dragged the breath all the way up before blowing out of my mouth (never done this before just felt natural). Well this breathing seemed to really enhance my state and I started feeling really light, also it felt like a purge of some kind, that I was bringing something bad out of my stomach. I then finally got up, stretched a bit, made some more noises and then made the first 'human' sound which was just a low grunt/hum and I remember out of everything that had happened, this was the thing that felt alien to me. It was as if I was now on a new plane, when really I was returning to normality. So I started walking back up the path to return to the hostel, thinking it was all over, however I began noticing that my awareness had shifted. I was feeling everything I was doing with great focus, walking felt amazing, just being in this body, feeling the air, the sky, the birds - everything. So I started doing some awareness work, feeling each sensation. I remember looking for the perceiver and it was at this point that it felt like I had just woken up in my body. So I still had a sense of ego but everything felt brand new to me and the person who had gone to the river initially no longer existed, this was a new sense that was completely amazed at everything in sight. I felt the leaves, looked at the floor, the rocks, everything. Concepts flew through my head as I looked at things and it just made everything hilarious. Hilarious because I felt like an alien walking around a foreign world, experiencing everything and thinking about how everything has a name, or even that things even exist in the first place. It all just seemed so bizarre, silly and also profound and full of love, like a big game. Thoughts would come and go, then when I gave attention to thoughts, I thought 'what is that thing that feels like it's in this head? Haha, why is it there? Why does this brain have thoughts coming to it? Where do they come from?' Again it just seemed hilarious and bizarre - this is a strange strange experience that seems to make no sense; 'why are there things everywhere??'. I remember looking at a tree and just thinking 'what the fuck is that!?' Although funny, some of these questions did take me deep and I had to sit down. I felt tears welling up in my eyes at times feeling a bliss and warmth come over me as when pondering, the thoughts seemed to vanish and me just being returned. There was also a point where I moved to a more secluded area (as I was trying not to cry by a footpath people were walking down) however I had intention to stay in this state and go further which completely returned me to normal for about 5 minutes before I managed to let go once more, breath and begin feeling my surroundings and body once more. Actually one thing that put me back there was laughing about how I seemed to have what felt like the holy grail in my hands and within an instant it seemed to have vanished forever, and even more so that I was trying to repeat the process to reach the state again. I remember thinking about my girlfriend which made me think about love. Love seemed so bizarre also. Now when I was pondering, it was more so without labels, I would half start a sentence and then I would just feel out the remainder of the pondering through awareness/feel if that makes sense. It felt more natural than language. I saw myself as, I guess, consciousness that was in a body. This is the closest label I can give it but at the time I had no label to give myself. So it was something like 'what is love? If I am a consciousness in this body, and another human is exactly the same thing, why do they come together to share love if we all are the same thing? We all are. Also why do we pick who we love - is this the construct of the different human characters that love each other or is it the different intentions that these characters put out into the world that draws them together. Either way it's weird as hell'. It was as if there was no reason for love in the way we have it because all we are is love/awareness already. The idea of announcing it just seemed so silly because everything is so obvious. This wasn't negative either, I teared up a lot again with this feeling running through me, and then I found this funny that humans have this response to love. In general the labels, concepts and reactions that we have seemed to be a running joke - this was because these things just seemed irrelevant in comparison to the truth/source. I didn't actually experience the truth/source and these might be the wrong words to use, they don't feel right to type, but it's the best I can come up with right now. Essentially I was in some form of elevated consciousness that brought me closer to the perceiver but not all the way there. I think I could have potentially gotten there if I sat and meditated intently but the experience was just too good to not play around with. It's hard to really pull everything out of this experience but I remember waking along the road and seeing a moto-taxi coming my way and going past me. Yes, the idea of this little vehicle thing made me laugh but then I thought god this walking stuff is pretty long, no wonder these things are here. I also saw a house on top of one of the mountains which just seemed hilarious also. My brain just couldn't seem to figure out why you would build something like that so high up - I couldn't see a single road leading up to it haha. I noticed more automatic actions that I did. I was holding a bottle - how did this get here? How is my hand doing that? Why doesn't it just fall? Why does it fall? What is fall? This was the thought process, everything just constantly being broken down until I either began tearing up or burst out laughing. I then walked into a field at the back of my hostel, at this point I looked at the floor and thought how is this floor here, why are my feet able to stand on it, why don't I fall through? This seemed to shake things up a bit and I started feeling a sense of matter dispersing around me but this didn't last long and I ended up sitting in the field. I then just had the same revelations coming to me over and over. Just peace, being and oneness. I thought about how I got to where I am, from being born, growing up etc - all things that seemed so alien and non-existent. I didn't know if they actually happened - I still can't tell. Did they happen? I was told they did but only the present moment exists so how can they be real? Is this present moment even real? Sure I had memories and thoughts arising but they were nothing more than that. Only the present moment seemed to matter and it seemed silly that experiences are influenced by these thought/memory things. It makes 0 sense as everything is alive and constantly changing. Again, I could not connect with the person that went to the river earlier on - that person felt completely gone and I questioned whether the physical body was the same or if it had been left somewhere. It's a strange feeling, I know I am the same person, I have the same name but it feels like a new something (I don't want to call this anything, there's no name for it) has entered my body and is now experiencing this life. Granted right at this very moment I feel more so of myself, but I can still feel that there has been a shift somewhere in my psyche, awareness, consciousness etc. (trying to type this without sounding like a new age hippie). One more thing here, I heard a noise coming from the hostel and instantly I felt an anxiety jolt come from the sound and travel into my stomach. It seemed to send this out. It was like a frequency/energetic zap that came straight to me, like my stomach was open for this stuff to enter into. I felt it and just thought right let's have a go at this. I closed my eyes and spoke to the things in my stomach, I said 'get out, why don't you come out?'. It replied 'no I'm staying' (haha this is so weird to type out). I then just thought okay it's stubborn, let's love it instead. So I started sending all this love to my stomach, loving the feeling being there where it was, cradling it and letting it know that the universe loves it and it has the ability to love everything else in the universe in equal measure. This brought on the vision of a black/white (etching on a cave style) person that was crouched down as if scared in a corner trying to hide itself. I kept re-assuring this thing that it was loved more than it will ever know and that it has the power to do for others. This completely shut up the dialogue I was previously having with it and I noticed a warmth on my stomach and torso develop as a result. It was at some point after this that I got up and went into the hostel to make food but the experience didn't stop there. Food and chopping up vegetables was just hilarious. Haha I think you get the idea now. I took the yopo around 2pm and it's now just gone 8pm and I still feel high as hell. Overall wow. Wow on the experience, wow that it lasted so long (yopo is only meant to last about an hour so I think it helped to trigger a shift which worked its way out of the experience once the yopo effects wore off. Writing this, I can't judge that they've worn off. I just feel so damn high). And wow if anyone read this entire thing. I just had to write it down, it was incredible and nothing at the same time. P.s. The stomach conversation is weird to read back.

I just got back from my 10 day meditation retreat. I signed up for the vippasana ones but got declined the past two years because I'm under 18. I got my mom to let me stay at her cabin for the retreat although I had to text my parents daily. I sat 6 hours a day. 4 hours vippasana 2 hours kriya yoga. I did this because I was sleeping a lot, cooking my own meals, and I wanted time to just sit informally. No fap no distractions so it was a legit retreat. It was a sick location, saw lots of wildlife. The first few days were super hard emotionally but that passed and the rest were brutal too. Halfway through the first day I was just planning when I would leave early. At the end of the second day I was doing kriya yoga and my body was pulsing with energy, at the top of the breath on kriya pranayama. I left my body and just felt a singularity of energy, and saw spinning red fractals. This happened again about half a dozen times. On the 6th day this happened and I think I entered some kind of state of cessation or some altered state. I came back to my body falling to the floor in a state of sheer confusion. It took me a while to figure out who I was or what I was doing. I think this was a result of the cessation of the narrative of the ego because I couldn't remember thinking or experiencing anything in that time. This state emerged after seeing the fractals and feeling the buzzing, and hearing alien clicking I might add, it felt before it like I was going through a tunnel. I also felt extremely, distractingly creative for some times, and experienced some pure joy for a while towards the second half of the retreat. The vippasana felt like a failure. I know it wasn't because I worked through the resistance that lingered through it. Regardless I never got into many deep meditative states from it because of all the emotional resistance physical pain, restless energy. My Question is whether this was a result of the low amount of the technique or if this is all fine and good for a first retreat, i.e. was this an error or part of the process.

Whoa, I just realized that the Bible is a description of earth becoming a holon! That seems obviously clear to me now. And the source of the Bible may have its origin in the galactic community of advanced civilizations. Haha, I know that that might seem like a science fiction story, but it fits the larger cosmic picture IMO. Even the claim many alternative researchers have made that earth is still in a planetary quarantine makes sense from that perspective. And that resolves Fermi's paradox: "The Fermi paradox is named after physicist Enrico Fermi and refers to the apparent contradiction between the lack of evidence for and various high probability estimates[1] of the existence of extraterrestrial civilizations elsewhere in the Milky Way galaxy.[2]" - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fermi_paradox The reason for the lack of official ET contact is because our civilization is still under development and that there is a real "Prime Directive" making sure that planets like our own can develop in unique ways on their own without interference from advanced civilizations. "In the fictional universe of Star Trek, the Prime Directive (also known as "Starfleet General Order 1", "General Order 1", and the "non-interference directive") is a guiding principle of Starfleet, prohibiting its members from interfering with the internal and natural development of alien civilizations.[1] " - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prime_Directive The real Prime Directive is of course not as clunky and cartoonish as in Star Trek and controlled not by some authorities who whimsically can decide to break the Prime Directive or not but by a holon level principle.

Carmen Wispe, vegan, New Jersey 51, single,unemployed mom of a teen Self/truth seeker who has felt eternal and loving since about age 5, but soon realized that most people don't know how to act human or they act too human. Consequently, I felt like an alien. Came to Actualized via law of attraction videos my sister insisted I watch. I then read a bit of The Seth Books. Many years ago I came to the conclusion, on my own, that we are all a facet of god's personality , and when we die we "go back" to "him." There was once at a point where I thought that hell was this earth and it's ridiculousness. Soon realized this went against my loving grain. I became vegan for ethical reasons. Mostly a loner, yet I like being around others, and tend to analyze them while trying not to judge (hey, I'm only fucking human). Single because I'm a loner who's realized most men don't really want to get to know me, and I'm gonna buzz cut my hair to piss them all off, and go against society's "norms." In addition, having little hair will help me focus more on my inner work, instead of how I look. Have had dreams of past lives. Have seen shadow people. Things like that just run in my family. Presently, looking for my true passions. Hopefully, it'll lead to a niche where "work" feels like being in love, instead of feeling like a time-constrained puppet. Leo is hot, harsh and loving.

Roky Erickson of the 13th Floor Elevators said exactly the same thing shortly before changing his name by deed poll to "Blieb Alien", blieb being an anagram of bible. He also loved his psychedelics. Some would say perhaps a little too much...….

It is possible to learn how to read body language and tell if people are lying. People who are proficient at it can tell with 100% certainty, not even Leonardo DiCaprio could fool them. In this thread i will tell you some mind blowing information of the basics for how to do this and i will provide some sources for how to go on with further learning. The pro of learning this is that you can tell when people are lying to you in your life and you will be able to tell if politicians and public figures are telling the truth. For example: I can easily tell that Bob Lazar was being 100% honest on the Joe Rogan podcast, in which he detailed working with alien spacecraft on behalf of the US government. Fucking mindblowing. Basic techniques Eye direction - Where someones eyes are pointing show what part of their brain they're accessing. Shown here. (the diagram is mirrored and not flipped, meaning, from your perspective, remembered sound is to your right, but to your left for someone you are looking at. Try it yourself! have an inner dialog with yourself and notice how your eyes naturally start pointing downwards to the right. Remember how your way to the grocery store looks like and notice your eyes pointing upwards to the right. Feel in to how you are feeling right now, eyes goes downwards to the left. ETC. So for example, if someone is telling you about something they saw but their eyes goes in to visual construction, they are usually lying. Jerky vs smooth body movements - When people believe what they are saying they move their bodies in a very free, flowing fashion, their body "sings with them". On the other hand if they know that they are being dishonest their body language is stiff and jerky I think you gotta see this in action to understand. Check this out. Notice the subtle contrast of how jerkily he is moving his body around when he is saying "I did not have sexual relations with that woman, Miss Lewinsky. I never told anybody to lie. Not a single time. Never. These allegations are false.", which he knew was a lie, vs how smoothly he moves with his body when he then says "And I need to go back to work for the American people.", because he believes in that. Tells - When we feel stress we get the urge to touch ourselves as it calms us down, for example: interlocking fingers, touching our faces or crossing arms. We might also tense a part of our body, for example: wrinkled forehead, clenching hands or stiff spine. If we see this in people it is a sign of stress and if they only show that stress when saying a certain fact it could be a sign that they are lying. It could also mean other things, like, it might bring up old traumas. So unlike the first two techniques this one is unreliable unless you are very good at reading body language, but I wanted to mention it. Notice that on the Joe Rogan podcast, Bob Lazar always accessed the parts of his brain he said he was using. (Every time he told a story he was accessing visual memories, never visual construction. etc.) Notice also how his body never gets jerky when he is telling these stories. He was stiff due to this being a stressful situation for him and probably a little bit of social anxiety but he was never jerky. These 3 techniques are the 3 biggest concepts within body language theory i have come across but there are plenty more techniques and subtleties to learn. This is just the beginning! Where to go from here It's very valuable to see the professionals analyzing body language, that way you learn more techniques, get a feel for how to do it and the subtleties involved. I recommend starting with this youtube channel it is very well presented and accessible information and analysis of real situations: Then i recommend Mandy from Bombards Body Language. She is probably one of the most skilled at reading out there. Here is her youtube channel (her original one got taken down, probably because she exposed some powerful people), web site and her course. warning: Be careful about drawing conclusions about situations using these techniques unless you have lots practice. For example: someone could be telling a story and go in to visual construction for a split second. That could mean that he is making up a fact, but not necessarily. He could also have tried to come up with a joke for example. But also in other situations the conclusion can be obvious. This can be very subtle stuff.

It really all comes down to subconscious programming. If you suddenly decide to live in a way that's completely alien to your average day to day life for a little while, you will notice a huge shift quite rapidly. You end up completely altering the program into a whole new paradigm and overwriting the old subconscious programming because it is no longer being given by the same old patterns. This is why traveling is very effective for depressed people. It forces the subconscious with new patterns/programs from all the difference experiences that are occurring. Its no longer the same loop because you cannot really heal in the same place you got sick.

His ego would explode in a mushroom cloud large enough to wipe out the entire solar system Alien astronomers would see a burst in their night sky and wonder, WTF was that?

So according to Bob Lazar, there is ancient Tech which can produce anti gravity fields without wiring, letting vehicles fly and maneuvre like a red light dot in the dark. I think the guy is trustworthy, seems like the Gov. just didnt kill him in time, or was not prepared for such a leak in the past. So this was 1960-80s We have alien tech, gov is communicating with DMT entities (see crazy infowars) ah and btw you are God and reality is your imagination. Man I love this shit. I see why God wants to play, I want to play too. I think dualities are the most fundamental truth You want knowledge? Prepare for fear and loneliness, and ultimately not-knowing You want happiness? Prepare for sadness, discipline and consciousness, and ultimately conscious bliss You want freedom? Prepare for discipline and self government, ultimately self control You want to be financial free? Prepare to unlearn, uncover, run against a whole system, trust yourself, struggle and counter-intuitiveness

@Shadowraix It's a great starting substance, but you outgrow it quite quickly. I can confirm the zombie factor that Psychedsubstance talks about. You don't remember clearly first 1-2 hours of the peak. The visuals were beautiful for me, but what I liked the most is how kinesthetic this substance is. Much nicer body feeling, clean physical euphoria that LSD lacks. On LSD your body feels alien, on AL-LAD it feels super-natural. You also have this feeling of total control, you are the supervisor and can think about whatever you want. It lasts around 8 hours, too. That's why I think it's a good choice for a beginner. It lacks depth, though. Induces a lot of nostalgia feelings too. My first trip was on AL-LAD, here's what I had to say about it: "I am actually amazed by the visual part of the trip. It's nothing like what I have expected. It has this 80's vibe to it, very colorful with taste, not like all those psychedelics renders on the web. Smooth gradients, no contours, simple shapes. Sometimes vibrant, sometimes bland. Very clean and geometric, symmetric patterns." Compared to other psychedelics it's way more cartoonish. Yup, AL-LAD has a specific style, but I like it. Overall LSD seems to be a better and safer choice for spiritual work. Though for a first-timer, AL-LAD is a great substance.

1. There's definitely some connection, but the relevant differences go beyond sensations and even judgment of good or bad into context. An example might be the difference between when a random person sees a cobra vs. a scientist who studies snakes. In both cases they see a snake, and maybe even both feel some fear, but the whole context of the knowledge in the second case is very different. 2. When fear becomes extreme, some people are able to let go in a way they otherwise wouldn't, and the letting go is probably what enables a certain kind of quietness of mind that's interpreted as depersonalization. 3. It's not really about cultivating acceptance, really, probably, but curiosity. They would be ripe to become seekers, likely, and maybe would make progress quickly. 4. Not the same. The anatta is seeing that the you is false, not that you're here and an alien force is controlling your mind.

@jjer94 2. Thanks, it was worth it, I guess 4. Well, if it really is prozac, then it's one sneaky bastard. Anyway, now I gotta take charge of my fat butt 6. Yeah, it feels like catching up with simple human activities after 20 years of being an alien theorizing... plant?.. Lol

Definitely this is the biggest challenge of the path: embodying it deeply in everyday life. This is especially difficult with psychedelics because they take you so high so fast, no one can live from those places of infinite consciousness and still interact in the social world. At high doses of psychedelics you are not a human any more. It is like venturing to new alien dimensions.

And according to Sadhguru you can’t have an enlightenment on psychedelics. I don’t doubt the possibility that there isn’t some alien entity that came down and had such a deep understanding that it provided us with a process towards spiritual realization. A lot of ties connect to those possibilities. However that’s not exclusive to India. However, if we’re gonna be honest here and care about truth, we gotta play devils advocate too and put skepticism to that of how do we actually know how true that was the case? WE DON’T. Nor does it really truly matter at the end of the day. Are we here to be historians (and not be able to validate anything at the end of the day since all of that is still our/my/your own mind) or realize what’s actually true?

It is funny how deep belief goes. The words, just pixels, nothingness, self. The past, illusory. Jesus?...oh miracles, an alien maybe, etc. Maybe-I-can-get-that-consciousness beliefs. Sneaky indeed.

@mindcentral On which idea do you need support? About Jesus being an alien or about you not being a human?

@mindcentral Yes Jesus could be an alien. Now find out whether you are a human being in the first place

@Leo Gura, do you think people who communicate with other entities who reveal them secrets of life and the universe are just using their power unconsciously to create those entities? Or regressive hypnotist like dolores cannon or corrado malanga for example: When they work with other people, they can discover for example that the subject is or has been abducted by an alien. Fact is, those aliens speak through the man and they reveal details about creation and reality. I mean this is a work that involves thousands of people here and they all say the same story which is convincing. Are those events just created by the hypnotist with the power of his mind? Have you ever been able to contact such beings? Will you be interested in the future?

We have made a very simple practice into a very complicated intellectual thing. This is what Ramana Maharshi or Nisargadatta Maharaj meant as self inquiry. Do you feel yourself as one or many? Notice that no matter what, you always feel that I am one and whole. That subjective, singular feeling of I is your target for self inquiry. Self inquiry is not about one I looking frantically for another second I, a godlike liberated I. As if one day you will discover a new I as an object. Or one I disidentifying a second I from other objects. To illustrate this point, Ramana Maharahi composed a funny hymn which is something like this "Compare the man who mindlessly asks who am i? Whence am i? To the drunkard who repeats who am i? Whence am i?" I know where all these misconceptions come from. Leo in his enlightenment guide framed this entire practice which makes it seem like a very intellectual and complicated process with dozens of existential questions to ask and issues to parry and resolve. But that is not what the sages meant as self inquiry. Those existential, intellectual questions, insights and understandings were the last thing they would want you to think about. The fact of the matter is this: That singular, subjective feeling of I is already the liberated Self. But due to inadvertance, that sense of I mistakenly seems to be stuck inside the body as a limited entity. One's job is not to argue with oneself and try to convince oneself that the I is not an object but it is the supreme God, that would be brainwashing. Ones job is to simply be with it, be more interested in it and the truth of it will be revealed by itself. Usually we forget ourself all the time and attend to everything alien to us. That self forgetting attitude is what self inquiry tries to correct. If you keep on forgetting yourself, that I will keep on wearing that illusory mask of being the body-mind. But when you keep it on your radar, you eventually discover its truth. And as final note, that singular feeling I at first might seem like a sensation in the body, so that doesn't mean you'll now keep on focusing on a particular part of the body forever. The moment you clearly see the sensation, you'll also see that I is separate from it. So basically you wont grasp the I as an object ever. Its sort of like following that I feeling around, keeping it in your radar instead of forgetting it. But remember, its not about mindlessly roaming around either. You know that subjective, singular feeling I right now. Thats the scent you wanna keep on gently trying to lock on. Its all about more and more deeply feeling, being and settling down into oneself instead of superficially thinking, arguing with oneself, asking questions or any activity of the mind.

If you really wanna know more about the Self, start doing self inquiry. I studied Ramana and nisargadatta texts and notes on self inquiry for years, yes it was helpful but when I actually tasted being, i was like "omg! Why didnt they say it like that?" Then I went back and saw that they did say it as best as it could be said lol. The actuality of Being clarifies everything. This is all you gotta 'do': become uninterested and cease paying attention to any thought, feelings, anything other than yourself, and only be interested in your own self(the 1st person singular feeling I). Stay there, have the satsang with the Self and you dont need any knowledge from anyone! "Is this enlightenment?"- thats another thought "Omg i feel so good"- thats another thought "But what about that thing that sage talked about"- thats another thought "I dont feel the peace, its boring"- thats another thought "Okay, but what to do now?" - thats another thought "Cool but let me spin a cosmology now about everything else"- thats another thought So on and so forth. You get the idea. Leave all these alien things and only attend to yourself. You know what is you and what is alien to you. @Aakash take care ??? @akash

Nobody can help you unless you decide that you can be helped. The fact is that you are spending hours in this forum going left and right screaming for help and you can't get it. Because you see, you have already decided it to be so. Nobody can decide for you, because you have the power. You have the power to decide what is true for you. And this is a fact. You have the power to decide that you don't have power. That's how powerfull you are. To be honest, i don't give a shit about all of this work and community. It is what i want it to be, and nobody can tell me otherwise. People here claim all sorts of things about truth and reality. I just don't give a fuck. Nor do i understand it. If i don't want to understand it now, i won't. If i want in the future, i will. But i can come up from nowhere and say that everybody is whrong here, and have my version of life. And we have been all deceived by some alien species (Im just using my imagination now, it's not what i believe;Just to get my point accross), and reality is a completely different thing. And if i allign my thoughts, actions and feelings with this statemend, i would be living this reality, and the outside will give me proof of that. I can say about the reality whatever i want, nobody can disprove me. it's a fact. i know it to be true. I am the only one who decides here. I have the power. All of those people are nobody, even leo is nobody if i decide it to be so. Use your power wisely.

Most probably copyright nonsense as usual.. In the past there were thousands of videos free for everyone, now they all get removed for copyright and other reasons. I always download them using a youtube downloader website ASAP cause i know this will happen, sadly this one, which was really good i did not. Do this for every video on youtube you value and want to share and or watch again because these days videos like that always get targeted and deleted very rapidly. Many of the channeling videos that provide vital information are becoming targeted so many have move to other websites like Vimeno, D-tube and a few others. This is not just channeling videos alone, most videos that have some useful information to "wake you up" from the matrix are targeted. The amount of psychedelic awareness videos and war on consciousness and Alien/UFO ect... that have been removed and hidden or banned goes beyond that of challenging for example. Download everything you value worth sharing, we may need them in the future.

@Leo Gura You are alluding to what God says in the books "conversations with God "? Looking through the lense of reincarnation, the soul reincarnates over and over again, becoming more conscious and evolving to Oneness. Very spiritually advanced aliens also have a soul which can also reincarnate as a human on earth. If I remember right, God mentions (in the books conversations with God) the possibility that an "alien" soul reincarnated in a human body - Jesus. In case this is correct, then it would mean that we humans theoretically could also be able to do what Jesus did. Because our soul is fundamentally not different. It is most likely just much much less evolved than Jesus'. But that only means we would have to work extra hard in case we wanted to do what Jesus did. "whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do" John 14:12 But, as you also pointed out, when one becomes extremely conscious - that is more and more God - there comes a point when it becomes too much for the human form and it dies. Thus we humans might actually not be capable of handling such things... (yet, Jesus' soul also inhabited a human body. I know, I'm getting lost in speculations)

I cannot speak for you. For me, it's similar to 5-MeO-DMT in that it creates a state of total nondual consciousness, but then I'm also able to use my mind to contemplate whatever interests me and guide the trip in that direction. It's got a vibratory body energy more so than 5-MeO and it's more visual like a low dose of mushrooms. At higher doses the visuals will become more serious. I did not get serious visuals at 50mg. It lasts almost exactly twice as long. Which is awesome for contemplating. 5-MeO never quite lasts long enough for me. For me 2C-B has a terrible heavy body load. I don't enjoy that. LSD also tends to make my body feel uncomfortably alien. I enjoy the body feel of DPT more. 5-MeO-DMT probably has the least body feel of them all for me, which is nice. It's hard to definitely say that DPT is better than 5-MeO-DMT. I love them both. Both have something unique to offer. Both deserve to be at the top.

this is my take on nn dmt This is my personal experience with NN-DMT. There's been two stages in my life where i have used this substance. The first stage was when i was a heavy drug user and into partying i used to smoke lots of nn-dmt and i loved the effects of it but back then i was within the materialist paradigm so i could smoke this stuff but not go very deep at all i just thought the whole trip was just some crazy hallucinations just happening in my brain and only in my head but now a few years later after lots of self actualization and deep spirituality work i have experimented with NN-DMT and it is nothing like it used to be for me. My trips of nn-dmt are absolutely crazy to say the least. I freaked the fuck out last time i smoked nn-dmt. It hits you straight away right after smoking it and it can kick you right in the balls lol. It blasts you into the astral dimensions within seconds and it can be such an overwhelming experience which can freak you out. nn-dmt is in a completely different ball park compared to 5 meo dmt. 5 meo dmt is amazing and also incredible for realizing that you are god but nn dmt is different, its more about helping you entre astral dimensions i believe, i could be deluded on that but right now that is my current paradigm on nn dmt is that it is a way to explore other reality's within the astral plain that you cant access with your human day to day consciousness . Last time I smoked NN-DMT I saw Multi coloured spirit bodies flying around my living room it was beautify but i also got a deep sense that i should not be here. That i have opened myself up to a realm i shouldn't play around with it was abit of a eary, dark feeling. I also got this weird feeling of infinity but it wasn't a regular infinity experience like on 5 meo dmt or something it had a totally different feel to it. It felt super dark, alien feel to it was crazy and towards the end of the trip i started laughing so hard at reality ! I think this was an coping mechanism to deal with the intensity of the trip and my friend was asking "what did you see and i replied back "what didn't i see" while in tears of laughter. I was so mind fucked by this point. After it had ended i was so glad it was over and im not sure if i will take it again. It was to overwhelming for me and i don't think its even useful for enlightenment work to be honest but that's just my opinion i bet there are lots of people who would disagree i think nn dmt is more for exploring the astral realms which is pretty cool but you have to be ready for a wild adventure lol and i think its definitely a good substance for anyone into enlightenment work as it can help you see the other side of spirituality which is all the paranormal phenomena and nn dmt can help open your mind to all of that and it can also help you directly experience a little taste or even a big taste of the astral realms etc. Which I am 95% convinced that nn-dmt dose. I think it helps you access other plains of existence that you cant access with normal everyday consciousness. I think dmt activates certain things in your brain which helps you literally tap into other dimensions that exist.