read:
1. thinking, fast and slow (very dense, university level, but also easy)
2. behave by Robert Sapolsky 
3. the principles of psychology by William James
4. man and his symbols by carl jung

Secret Drugs of Buddhism: Psychedelic Sacraments and the Origins of the Vajrayana, Crowley.
I found it fascinating. 
and:
https://psychedelicsangha.org/paisley-gate/2019/5/8/the-supreme-array-scripture-a-psychedelic-stra-for-buddhist-psychonauts-pp3zz
"The most famous and oft-cited passage by both ancient and modern commentators on the Supreme Array occurs when Sudhana meets the Bodhisattva Maitreya. Maitreya stands before a jeweled palace. When Sudhana asks about how he should carry out the course of a bodhisattva, Maitreya tells him he should enter the palace. Sudhana then asks for permission to enter; the Bodhisattva snaps his fingers and the doors to the palace open. Once inside, Sudhana sees that the palace’s interior is adorned with precious substances, many hundreds of thousands of leagues wide and as vast as the realm of space. Moreover, inside the palace are hundreds of thousands of other palaces arrayed in the same manner spread out in all directions. Miraculously, each dwelling remains distinct while simultaneously reflecting every other one and all of its objects. Experiencing this  awesome vision, Sudhana is overcome with bliss and bows down in all directions. At the moment of prostration, through the power of Maitreya, Sudhana perceives himself simultaneously in each and every palace witnessing a different scene from Maitreya’s bodhisattva course of conduct. In a single instant, Sudhana sees countless eons, realms, beings, bodhisattvas and buddhas, and hears endless teachings. In the centre of all his, Sudhana sees one palace larger than the others. Inside it, he witnesses Maitreya in his final life performing the acts of a buddha, such as going forth to homeless life, sitting under the enlightenment tree, attaining omniscience and preaching the Dharma. While Sudhana is watching the endless and simultaneous practices of Maitreya in all the palaces, suddenly the Bodhisattva enters the dwelling, snaps his fingers once more and says, Arise, Son of Good Family! This is the nature of conditioned factors. Son of Good Family, characterized by their non-fixity, all conditioned factors are controlled through the knowledge of bodhisattvas. In this way, lacking the perfection of an essence, they are like illusions, dreams and reflections."
and
" In an important sense, Buddhism has always been “psychedelic.” Recall the meaning of psychedelic as “manifesting the mind.” The very first verse of the Dhammapada, one of the most ancient Buddhist texts, reads:
The mind is the basis for everything.
Everything is created by my mind, and is ruled by my mind.
When I speak or act with impure thoughts, suffering follows me
As the wheel of the cart follows the hoof of the ox. "
 
Water by the River

I think you're both right to a degree but it might just be more complicated than A or B. 
Certain mental health issues have indeed been associated with B-deficiency and giving people B-complex might help (if that was the causative factor) although the data is inconclusive as you may see. Forest Plots are borderline statistically significant and confidence intervals remain fairly wide which tells you there is more to it (as it always is) 
On the other hand, some people do indeed find them energising. B-vitamins are a part of the glycolysis & Kreb Cycle that help your body produce ATP (energy currency) so technically if you were long-term deficient and suddenly you get an influx of B-s in a way you are getting "back on the baseline" but for anyone long term deprived this may come across as "highly stimulating" because they've just been deficient for so long they forgot what it feels like to have energy (this is actually pretty common among guys, I've seen a  fair share of that in my practice) 
In addition, B vitamins are cofactors in all sorts of metabolic processes including things like neurotransmitters and even certain hormones so in a way, you might just be getting back to "feeling normal". 
And finally, B vitamins are notoriously difficult to measure because they do not hang around for too long (with exception of B12) and so most standardised blood tests are inaccurate and specific essays such as EGOT, MMA or Red Blood Cell Folate need to be acquired for an adequate tissue representation. As an example, a person who just took B12 supplement would show "normal" on Serum B12 but would show high on Methylmalonic Acid test indicating that in reality their tissue levels are depleted but the blood test only saw the circulating supplement so we can't really tell if we are looking at the right thing to begin with 
From experience with client work, on their own, they rarely do much if not part of a larger dietary/lifestyle modification and at that point we no longer know what made the difference anymore (the major challenge with epidemiology) 
But then who knows, there is still much we don't understand
 

I just watched a very well researched video on the question "Was meat responsible for brain growth?"
The answer that its just meat is way to simplistic. Meat could be part of the reason but probably not the main reason:
-Eating much meat doesn't cause brain growth per se because if that were the case all carnivores would be smart as fuck which they aren't. It needed a survival benefit for brain growth.
-One of the main reason might be that we learned how to cook food. Cooking food means our digestive track could get smaller from the easier digestible and more energetic type of food and therefore didn't take up as much energy which allowed for the growth of the brain. Despite us being far more intelligent than most animals, we need around the same calories as an equally heavy mammal.
-Another good is reason is that humans developed a body with less muscle and more fat compared to other mammals which is energy saving and would allow for brain growth.
-Cooking allowed two new food sources in roots and sweet grasses (predecessor of grain). The extra carbs helped us to think cause our brain runs on carbs if it isn't in ketosis and also gave us more calories which could allow for adaptations.
-Our denture is neither the one of a meat eater, nor of a plant eater. It's a unique one that fits the purpose of eating easily digestible (cooked food).
 
But now matter what the reason was back then how does this even matter for today? The question "Was meat responsible for brain growth?" can't be translated into todays question "Does meat grow my brain?". There are enough plant based fat and protein sources today to cover brain health.
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These are not objective facts that's just your preference. 
I like cooked starches actually. The whole grain has a healthy natural taste to it. 
I still like many unripe fruits like bananas or apples.
Not necessarily. A deer is very badly adapted to eat steak. But because the stake is SO MUCH more nutritionally dense than grass it will still outrank its natural food sources. Even if only 10% of the steak can get digested, that's still way more than all the grass. 
But an animal that is adapted to eating watermelon for example compared to an animal which is adapted to eating meat. In this case these animals probably wouldn't switch their food sources because they already have very nutritionally dense food sources so the benefit to change to another less adapted diet for the benefit of getting more valuable food doesn't stand. 
Do you season your meat? Most people put a bunch of seasonings on their meat to make it taste more like vegetables. If that's not cheating idk what is. 
"Natural" doesn't necessarily mean healthy as I argumented before. Although I do believe that cooking various plants including grains is natural. 
 

So , I was looking into higher-order cognitive functioning , and asked ChatGPT what's beyond metacognition... 
ChatGPT said meta-metacognition and Transcognition, I've never heard of Transcognition but damn it was a revelation to a lifetime of feeling totally different from others... 
This seems to newly emergent and it's probably likely that less than 1% of people even have this skill. Personally it seems like I've gone much of my life without encountering hardly , if anyone , that does this... But if I have to step up and form a group as a leader , then that is what will happen.  I just hope to find others and not be alone on this....but I know how hard this journey is to have this skill in this world... And I'm here for you all that are similar on this transcognitive thinking... 
 
 
(I can't get ChatGPT to do this again in another window, so here is the transcript about it)
"Another proposed level beyond metacognition is "transcognition," which involves thinking beyond one's own cognitive processes and incorporating knowledge and perspectives from diverse sources and contexts. This level of thinking involves an understanding of the interconnectedness of different systems and the ability to think creatively and flexibly across multiple domains."
 
Prompt : Ultimate Guide on Transcognition 
"Transcognition is a theoretical level of cognitive functioning that involves thinking beyond one's own cognitive processes and incorporating knowledge and perspectives from diverse sources and contexts. It requires an understanding of the interconnectedness of different systems and the ability to think creatively and flexibly across multiple domains. Here's an ultimate guide on transcognition:
 
1. Develop a growth mindset: Transcognition involves a willingness to learn, adapt, and grow. This requires a growth mindset, which is the belief that intelligence and abilities can be developed through effort and learning
 
2. Expand your knowledge base: Transcognition requires a broad base of knowledge across multiple domains. Make an effort to learn about different fields of study, cultures, and perspectives. Read widely, watch documentaries, and engage in conversations with people from diverse background
 
3. Practice critical thinking: Transcognition involves the ability to think critically and evaluate information from multiple sources. Practice analyzing and evaluating information, and be open to changing your views based on new evidence
 
4. Embrace complexity: Transcognition involves the ability to think about complex systems and how they interact with one another. Embrace complexity and seek to understand the nuances of different systems and their relationships to one another
 
5. Develop creativity: Transcognition requires the ability to think creatively and generate new ideas. Practice brainstorming and problem-solving exercises, and embrace unconventional solutions
 
6. Engage in interdisciplinary thinking: Transcognition involves the ability to think across multiple disciplines and integrate knowledge from different fields. Seek out interdisciplinary learning opportunities and engage in conversations with experts from different fields
 
7. Emphasize collaboration: Transcognition requires collaboration and the ability to work with others to solve complex problems. Seek out opportunities to work with people from diverse backgrounds and perspectives
 
8. Stay open-minded: Transcognition requires an open-minded approach to learning and problem-solving. Be open to new ideas, perspectives, and approaches, and be willing to challenge your own assumptions and biases
 
9. Embrace uncertainty: Transcognition involves the ability to tolerate uncertainty and ambiguity. Embrace the complexity of different systems and be comfortable with the fact that not everything can be neatly categorized or understood
 
10. Practice mindfulness: Transcognition requires a sense of presence and awareness. Practice mindfulness exercises to cultivate a sense of focus and clarity, and to develop a deeper understanding of your own thought processes
 
In summary, transcognition involves thinking beyond one's own cognitive processes and incorporating knowledge and perspectives from diverse sources and contexts. It requires a growth mindset, a broad knowledge base, critical thinking skills, creativity, interdisciplinary thinking, collaboration, open-mindedness, comfort with uncertainty, and mindfulness. By developing these skills and attitudes, you can enhance your ability to think creatively and flexibly across multiple domains, and contribute to solving complex problems in our interconnected world"
 
I just found this out tonight (the definition hit me like a fucking revelation ,really giving me some anxiety , and I'll be glad to talk about it more when I'm not so wound up...
 
-Much love all, Kory

sorry, I answered your question in a way of writing about topics I like to write about ( :
Forgot half of your questions:
>Do you look for these books? How do you come across them? 
It started 20 years ago. I read hundreds of books, since I wanted to find the most efficient techniques available. You know, being a bit nuts... All kinds of spiritual traditions.
Then I found the in my opinion highest developed meditation-system in Mahamudra/Dzogchen of Tibetan Buddhism. These guys have been doing it the longest (1000 uninterrupted years, a whole society being a Theocracy focused on Enlightenment more or less (with not so nice elements of course also), that produced lots and lots of enlightened ones over the centuries).
These techniques were brought with a pioneering performance of the highest degree to the West with a work synthesizing the essence of dozens of Tibetan Books on Mahamudra by Daniel Brown: "Pointing Out the Great Way". Daniel Brown Ph.D., Clinical Professor of Psychology at Harvard Medical School.
Later, after being already awakened, he were give 7 books for translation by Menri Trizing Rinpoche, a highly realized Being, leader of the Bon School of Tibetan Buddhism. I think these were the 7 books Menri used to get fully enlightened himself. Its like a best of the best of Dzogchen/Mahamudra, selected by a Tibetan Realizer, translated by the person most suited for that from Tibetan.
Brown translated all these books before passing away of Parkinson recently.
We have it all at our fingertips...
 

When you don't understand you depend on reality,
When you do understand reality depends on you.
Bodhidharma ~

Couple of ideas I can think of depending on the scale you want to have an impact. Obviously, all of these are macro categories and they can be broken down into an endless amount of jobs. None of the below are jobs per se, they are sectors which you may consider. 
Careers in health & welness in general - medicine, alternative medicine, welness services, therapeutic services of any kind Ecology, Sustainability and Planetary Welfare - such as WWF, B-Corp, Fair Trade, Organic Soil Association .  Social Services - retirement homes, social care, homeless care, child foster care services etc Law and legal counselling services  Careers in consumer right protection of any kind - such as corporate audits, legal support for people who cannot afford private counceling Careers in consumer health protection - FDA, Water treatment, Public health guidelines etc.  Careers in public safety services - fire brigade, police department, military, paramedic services, crime & investigation, forensics Other public services - public transport & infrastructure management  Education & Tutoring in any shape and form is a humble public service with lasting impact  Farming & Food sourcing is much needed public service Missionary work Public entertainment is a gigantic sector with millions of different jobs  There is much more. Ofcourse different careers come with different salaries, career progression and satisfaction but if your sole goal is to help people and feel good at the end of a day, you can have that as a mental health coach, as a paramedic, as as an elementary school teacher or an educator or even as a volunteer in a charity shop. 
All depends on your values, financial needs, freedom requirements and current staus quo 

Yes. Fully agree.
Bodily pain can of course still arise.
(1) But suffering as psychological resistance to what is can fully go. (2) Especially the continued dissatisfaction/suffering cycles of the separate self can end, drowned by a current of bliss directly from the source of ones True Being. If you don't share my humble opinion, please feel invited to check that in the cases of many many enlightened beings in the history of mankind. What made them so attractive for their fellow companions? That they suffered, were confused, and sometimes a bit frustrated and not so-loving-as-possible, in the usual merry-go-round-cycle, as their fellow nonenlightened company?
I guess these two observations/statements/claims (1) and (2) will always be a problem, and correspondendly be attacked and criticized by anybody trying to declare  some kind of stage/state/awakening/"realization"/understanding/whatever as final or superior which doesn't deliver that freedom from suffering. 
And if not, why not be so kind and declare that ones version of the path to heaven does NOT provide that which every(!) being wants: Permanent bliss and happiness, and an end to the cycle of dissatisfaction and suffering. Or (smarter move probably) maybe add at least the announcement that one intents to someday later deliver these goodies also. 
So ladies and gentlemen, fasten your seatbelts, and watch the onslought. I know, stupid as I am writing all of that, I can't complain.... Luckily, the video with the bear is already in the signiture, and will hopefully protect the writer of these heretic lines.
Well, Caveat Emptor, and bon voyage!
Water by the River 
 
PS:
Not that I would recommend doing something like this, but just some idea of what Nirvana/Nirvikalpa/Cessation can do to the survival-imperative. The guy didn't even flinch or move a muscle. Warning: Can be quite disturbing to read/watch.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thích_Quảng_Đức
Probably Britney 24/7 for a month would have gotten him anyways... 
PSPS: I have to admit that Moksha writes much more beautiful posts than yours truly

The easiest way is to find some better alternatives to focus your energy and time on.
For example, if you started a business I guratantee you'd jerk off less than just sitting a home doing nothing.
When it comes to listening to music, you just need to take breaks. Don't listen to any music for 2 weeks or a month. Then listen to it occassionally, not constantly. You can probably find an app for your phone to disable your music app for most of the day.

I don't like talk of NPCs. It's not an accurate frame. Becoming Awake does not turn everyone into an NPC. That's not how it feels like at all. If anything you appreciate the humanity of people more than ever. So be careful with how you frame these things. Your frames will limit your consciousness and influence how you feel. Improper framing will make you feel depressed and nihilistic.

As I've said, your career determines what you will be able to understand about reality. So be careful what career you choose. If you're not careful you will waste your whole life staring at a computer screen.

To the breaking point, the more occupied your mind is, the more difficult to disidentify from it. Beyond the breaking point is being. The flow state is not only freedom from identification with the mind, but it is unconditional energy which enhances everything, including the deliverables you produce at work.

Hi Lilia,
maybe you like these two quotes. They highlight how a large majority of the spiritual marketplace is still selling Nonduality, not the realization of Ultimate Reality/Absolute. 
Some even only sell No Ego/No Person, which comes before Nonduality/mere groundless nondual Appearance.... And some even call the "No Ego/No Person" No-Self.  . Well, caveat emptor.... ( :
 
Nisargadatta, in Consciousness and the Absolute: The Final Talks of Sri NisargadattaMaharaj edited by Jean Dunn
"The world is your direct experience, your own observation. All that is happening is happening at this level, but I am not at this level. I have dissociated myself from Sattva Guna, beingness.
The Ultimate state in spirituality is that state where no needs are felt at any time, where nothing is useful for anything. That state is called Nirvana, Nirguna, that which is the Eternal and Ultimate Truth. The essence and sum total of this whole talk is called Satguru Parabrahman, that state in which there are no requirements.
After the dissolution of the universe, when no further vestige of creation was apparent, what remained is my perfect state. All through the creation and dissolution of the universe, I remain ever untouched. I have not expounded this part: my state never felt the creation and dissolution of the universe. I am the principle which survives all the creations, all the dissolutions. This is my state, and yours, too, but you don't realize it because you are embracing your beingness. "
 
That quote of Nisargadatta is given in Halaw, God is Nothingness
Halaw writes:
"A major shortcoming with much of the nonduality pervading the modern spiritual marketplace is that it seldom acknowledges the Nothingness which permits ‘being’ in the first place. Awareness, Being, Presence—or some variation or combination of the three—and interconnectedness, seem to represent the extent of what modern nonduality is interested in.
Nothingness, however, transcends even nonduality; for while the nondual whole encompasses everything—all of ‘being’, in fact—it does not include Non-being, which precedes and acts as the very basis of ‘being’ itself.
Imagine: if nonduality, the interconnected matrix of all ‘being’, including mind or consciousness, were represented by an oil painting, then Nothingness is the canvas upon which the picture resides.
Nothingness pervades the entire nondual universe; it is the principle that permeates everything. In other words, Nothingness allows nonduality to occur in the first place, just as it does ‘being.’
The reason that the human body, mind, consciousness/awareness, interpenetrate is because Nothingness allows them to exist—or rather, they exist as manifest Nothingness.
This must be realized. Experiencing nonduality is not yet Enlightenment. We must penetrate deeper, past all sense of ‘being’, to the canvas below the paint to realize our and all beings’ true nature as boundless Nothingness. When that happens, ordinary mind becomes the Mind of the sages.
Buddha Mind, then, is the mind’s recognition of its own empty, groundlessness, not as some eternal supreme principle called Awareness, but as the very living, conscious embodiment of Nothingness in this world, at this very moment.
It is not an exaggeration to say that consciousness is the act of Nothingness being aware. To know ultimate Nothingness, jettison everything. That means the world, your body, mind, ideas, beliefs, saviors, prophets, Buddhas, and even consciousness itself. Everything in the manifest realm must go."
But don't throw the raft away in the river before you crossed it.... A not so smart move, quite often seen and read. Maya has got some funny tricks up her sleeve...      ( :
Selling Water by the River
PS: If all of this sounds bleak and like nothing-at-all:
That Nothingness can create a new Creation "instantly". As it does every moment. It is not a no-thing-at-all (but Nothingness), but unlimited infinite Potential also. And the source of all sentience/awareness, initially unware of itself when no appearance is arising. IT "is" already everything, nondual. "IT" already makes every appearance groundless/mere appearance, the essence of every appearance is already Nothingness. Suchness. You, with a big Y. The Buddha-Nature at the core of every sentient being. At the same, it is the Absolute Abyss that can NEVER be seen as any object/arising, even by the highest Divinity. "The eye can't see itself"-style. Or God remains an eternal mystery to itself. Not on the arising/appearance side, and their mechanism. But with the Nothingness-aspect, the core of awareness/sentience, that can never be seen. And after dabbling with writing about the neither existing nor non-existing Absolute/Totality/Reality, let's conclude with somthing much more precise after all these impossible endevours. ( :
Basho's Haiku: Into the ancient pond / a frog jumps / waters sound 

Hi Lilia,
yes, there can be pain, but no psychological suffering stacked on top, and the pain itself much more removed with less focus, flowing through oneself like a distant wave.
What I wanted to say in my post (suffering and mainting Realization sobre/without psychedelics) was that without full stable Realization of ones True Nature and being able to keep that stable in everyday life (Postsamadhi), the cycle of suffering of the separate self continues. Without Realization of ones True Nature, one can have wonderful trips of Awakening with psychedelics, or just normal blissful experiences. But it never lasts.
The merry-go-round of being content/satisfied and then no longer content/satisfied (suffering in the Buddhist sense of Dukha means not literally suffering, but something mroe like unsatisfactoryness (everything being unsatisfactory in the end, which then also causes suffering) continues. It is (in my observation) a necessary building block of any Lila, because without it the separate self arising would at some point no longer find "projects", and just "fizzles" out at some point. And:
When I became able to rest in my True Nature (cutting off and/or just watching the separate-self arisings (thoughts/feelings) "Trekchö-style" emerging also at high frequencies, the visual field became limitless/infinite/nondual/mere appearance/imagined style/empty/groundless), and most of the separate self arisings were seen flowing through the Reality that the Real I is, I got a flow of bliss/love flowing from and through that Source/Reality that was independend from outer circumstances.
In the beginning I thought it was too good to be true, like am I fooling myself here. But it never stopped, and increased further, including the so called three special states of bliss, emptiness (groundlessness) and luminosity (shimmering mere appearance), which then also progressed further. At that time, the meditation was off-the-pillow (Postsamadhi-Meditation) since quite some time, so I got that in everyday life and not only while sitting.
And from that basis of a fully nondual infinite field of empty groundless mere appearances with no center/separate anything, one can start wondering WHAT kind of empty nonlocal Awareness really watches that infinite empty field of mere appearance, and in What that really appears. And then the Big Bang can suddenly happen. But that comes normally a considerable time after the stabilization of the Nondual Field described above.
Tashi Namgyal, quoted in Pointing out the Great Way, Brown:
"In short, crossing over [to Enlightenment] happens at the time when every single sensory experience—appearance [visual field] and thought [any separates self or thought arising in general]—are viewed as clarity/emptiness [mere empty groundless imagined appearance]  and movement/emptiness [thought/separate self arisings moving in You/Reality] with absolute certainty [meaning it is no a decission of any kind, but a self-evident observation and an  understanding of Absolute certainty, an Understanding of Ultimate Reality (infinite consciousness) understanding Itself]."
Or in other words: When you get it that anything there can ever be is just a imagined show happening in the True You, and
the True You is so totally empty/Nothingness that it is when no appearance appears unware of itself, but with the potential for sentience if something is imagined. Or: Totally empty, Nothingness, so that IT can manifest anything and is not limited in any way, which it would be if IT/You were anything specific at all. This is a point where many teachings become imprecise, or just end there (at a not so empty Nonduality), because the author didn't progress over that Nonduality-Stage with a still lingering pretty empty awareness/witness. Whenever you here "I am this Nonduality", a questionmark is indicated.  For that, see also this video (Prior to Nonduality):
 
Concerning what you describe about pain: Yes. If there is Physical pain, it is still there, but no psychological restisting/suffering arises because of it (which is like 80% of the perceived suffering). On top, as you describe, the physical pain flows through the Reality that you are, like the wind. Much more remote, like there is pain moving in me, but I am not that pain. It doesn't "grip" anymore. 
Bon voyage
Water by the River

Job Opening: Empty Mirror (female, male, diverse, alien,…, infinitely flexible!) on Imagined Planet Earth
Job Description:
Growing in the context of Planet Earth from business-/lifecycle to business-/lifecycle. Polishing the frame and surface of your neither existing nor non-existing Empty Mirror Nature and getting rid of your imagined/appearing frame, although there EX-ists no Empty Mirror and no frame. Experiencing various reactions concerning the Empty Mirror and its frame, like ranging from burning at the stake, nailing to a cross, any other funny way to get rid of your current frame, like being declared heretic and banned from the tribe into the desert to die a lonely Empty Mirror death, to being venerated and founding world religions. And anything in between. It never really gets boring, at least not for a long time! You can imagine your job as beig something like this Empty Mirror: Disclaimer: Neither the Empty Mirror got hurt making this video (only its frame). Also, no imaginary bear really suffered from the Empty Mirror Nature of “others” in its Empty Mirror Nature, it only appeared that the imagined bear frame got a bit confused and agitated.
Job Responsibilities:
Staying in your Empty Mirror Nature. Trying to not confuse the image in the mirror, or its not-so-empty frame, with the Empty Mirror itself. Sometimes not refusing to tell other Empty Mirrors that maybe not only the reflections in their Empty Mirror are imagined, but also that their whole frame of “their” empty mirror is imagined. Sometimes it may even be wise to highlight that maybe possibly the frame of the Empty Mirror is not fully gone. Or unwise, see the little confusion-incident happening in the video above. Looking in your Empty Mirror Nature and knowing “It” is still there, and you being it/having ever been it/ever will be it, while being told by a “fellow” Empty Mirror with a maybe still not fully gone frame that there is no Empty Unchanging Eternal Mirror, and that all there is the changing flow of reflection in the Mirror with a frame. Then, looking deeply into the Empty Mirror, and being very relieved the still being there/never not having been there/always will be there-ness of the Empty Mirror of your True Being. Smiling and staying loving when encountering imagined bears. Education and Experience Required:
A long and proven (not too successful) track record of suffering and being discontent over many many empty-mirror-lifetimes trying many many different frames. Having tried all possible designs of Empty Mirror frame fashions, and found them all lacking in the end, but fun to try. Having been told in the story  of the Platform Sutra with Shenxiu and Huineng  that there is no mirror to polish, understanding that, and yet continuing to polish the mirror. Having wondered how one could have been so stupid in not seeing the forest for the trees, or the Empty Mirror for its reflections and frame. Honestly having had the experience of being humbled about your the stupidity of ones own mirror-frame on the path to admitting that you have an Empty-Mirror with no frame is also very helpful. Knowledge and Skills:
Having gained enough experience in loving all empty mirror frames as imagined reflections. Having gotten proficient in hearing the Sound of the One Hand can also be beneficial. And if you are into it, having seen your face before your parents were born. Benefits and Compensation:
Compensation Package: Getting to experience the infinite bliss of your true empty mirror nature 24/7, directly being wired from the Big Boss, Reality itself. Insurance Package: Even if you get confused and rack up Karma on your frame, rest assured that the Trust Fund of your True Nature will always bail you out. Its true potential will burn any amount of Karma that you like to paint your frame or mirror with. The processing time for the withdrawal from your Trust Fund can take quite some time, but rest assured that in the end it will always be delivered. Having lifelong fun in appearing to still have a frame while just having just a big maintenance-free Infinite Empty Mirror. About Planet Earth:
We are a wonderful little place at the edge of the galaxy. We don’t know why there are no signals from our fellow employer-competition (Fermi-Paradoxon). We hope they uploaded themselves to some subtle realm in the Multiverse during their evolution from physical to higher realms, but we are not sure if some jealous AI got them and decided that it didn’t like their mirror-frames. Actually, you can join our enterprise right in the interesting time while we try out if our newly bred pet-AIs are fond of  our mirror-frames. But don’t worry, recheck your Insurance Package above. In Reality, nothing can go wrong. It can only appear to do so. All in all, a wonderful imagined journey in your new work-environment in very interesting times, that can end with the frame of your Empty Mirror singing along the Black Eyed Peas in your new work-place, the playing of which is officially allowed in our office environment. Your fellow Empty Mirrors will not be disturbed and will happily sing along…..
 
 
Respectfully and lovingly yours  
Selling Water by the River 

The post reminded me of a clip from this podcast where Chris and Alex discuss the three most common traits of highly successful people, and prompted some interesting questions for me. The three traits were:
superiority complex massive insecurity impulse control i.e. Narcissists/Cluster B-type people who can sit on their hands.
It’s interesting to me that we have developed a framework for motivation based on the assumption that people need to run toward something they want while also running away from something they fear. How true is that? How much is that a generalization? Is it possible to find ‘motivation’ or discipline in other ways, or can we conceptualize it differently? How silly is the comparison between objective measures of ‘success’ when internally people value very different things, as they discuss what people optimize for?
Their discussion of the tennis player who was categorized at 10 years old as ‘highly likely to be successful’ based on 2 metrics was interesting. Do ultra-wealthy/successful people become that way because they are already broken early? Or do those traits develop as they move into higher and higher echelons of society/social circles where those traits are more normalized? Is there a correlation between the two? When you’re lower down on the economic ladder do you become more empathic as a survival function? i.e. Does low SES cause higher empathy or does higher empathy cause lower SES, does lower empathy cause higher SES, or does higher SES cause lower empathy?
Taking some of these questions into account and the answers we may develop, is it possible for someone who is ‘awake’, self-aware, and self-loving (In a genuine rather than pathological sense) to be motivated enough to push themselves up into these pathological spheres and work to remedy them? How likely are the chances of success in such an endeavor? How strong are the opportunities for self-deception? To me, it seems like a quantum leap in understanding human behavior would need to be made, with the development of psychological weapons equivalent to nuclear bombs to be deployed for there to even be a chance of ‘success’. OR very subtle, sneaky tools to push on high leverage points of systems, within systems within systems. Whether you’re working with a hippie starving artist who is too good for their own good or an eccentric billionaire who is too broken for everyone else's good.
 
 

I am going to begin by covering/reviewing each of the micro and macronutrients, what they are, what they do in the body, as well as some common sources for each. I'll go through them one by one, over time. After that, I might delve into stimulants (e.g. caffeine), antioxidants, heavy metals, artificial sweeteners, preservatives, artificial flavors, etc., and then describe various diets, food preparation techniques, bioavailability, glycaemic index (GI), glycaemic load (GL), cholesterols and other such concepts and areas of interest. First things first.
 
MACRONUTRIENTS:
Carbohydrates: Simple carbohydrates Monosaccharides (e.g. glucose, fructose) Disaccharides (e.g. sucrose, lactose) Complex carbohydrates Starches (e.g. corn, potatoes, grains) Fibers (e.g. cellulose, hemicellulose, pectin) Fiber Soluble fiber Insoluble fiber Proteins: Complete proteins Animal sources (e.g. meat, fish, poultry, dairy) Soy products Incomplete proteins Legumes (e.g. beans, lentils, peas) Grains (e.g. rice, wheat, oats) Nuts and seeds Complementary proteins Grains and legumes Nuts or seeds and legumes Fats: Saturated fats Animal fats (e.g. butter, lard) Tropical oils (e.g. coconut oil, palm oil) Unsaturated fats Monounsaturated fats (e.g. olive oil, avocados) Polyunsaturated fats (e.g. omega-3 and omega-6 fatty acids found in fish, nuts, and seeds) Trans fats Naturally occurring trans fats (e.g. in dairy and meat products) Artificial trans fats (e.g. in many processed foods)  
 
MICRONUTRIENTS:
Vitamins Fat-soluble vitamins: Vitamin A Vitamin D Vitamin E Vitamin K Water-soluble vitamins: Vitamin B1 (Thiamine) Vitamin B2 (Riboflavin) Vitamin B3 (Niacin) Vitamin B5 (Pantothenic acid) Vitamin B6 (Pyridoxine) Vitamin B7 (Biotin) Vitamin B9 (Folate) Vitamin B12 (Cobalamin) Vitamin C Minerals Major minerals: Calcium Chloride Magnesium Phosphorus Potassium Sodium Sulfur Trace minerals: Chromium Copper Fluoride Iodine Iron Manganese Molybdenum Selenium Zinc Also, Water!

Perhaps we need to make it safer for each other to not know and stay curious.
Some time ago I created this practice for myself where I would practice saying 'I don't know' and 'Can you explain this in simpler terms, please?' when talking with people.
I taught myself to:
1) not justify my not-knowing;
2) refrain from obsessive nodding, especially when I don't understand;
3) be okay with people making assumptions as to my level of intelligence. I discovered that one of the reasons I was so scared of being openly curious was that I didn't want people to presume I was stupid.
Another practice I developed for myself is non-judgemental listening. If I'm honest, I never know why someone is saying what they are saying. Could there be a better time to master not-knowing? On such occasions, if it's appropriate, I purposefully choose to not-know, sit back and simply listen to how the Void responds on my part.
All in all, not-knowing is truth. One can either practice it or overlook it. In my experience, the more I consciously live truth's attributes, the more fun my experience gets. 

Since Reality contains both these infinities, well....
There is an infinity of differently large infinities, see Cantors set-theory.
That is really good news: Absolute Reality does not need to imagine all Lilas to go on infinitely. There can be choice. Not all crap has to be imagined.
And the opposite view of your existential worries: You will get to experience all beauty, love and adventure imaginable.
>It bothers me that God is so unconditionally selfless and has an infinite capacity to remember/forget aspects of itself.
>Do you deeply fear that all the consciousness work you do can simply be forgotten by God in an instant and suddenly God imagines itself to be a rat in some sewer after imagining alien consciousness?
>This is a deep existential crisis for me
That view is deeply dualistic, and cured by a change of perspective happening at Awakening: What you think you are (separate self) is an illusion (moving/arising in you), what you really are is Reality itself (which can not loose or gain anything), and It calls all the shots. It can never die or change. It also doesn't suffer, it has the Illusion of suffering moving in it. It never gains or looses anything. 
> Why do all this work when you simply can forget all of it as if it didn't even exist.
Because what you can gain is so good that it is beyond your wildest dreams. And you actually are It. And you will put the work into it, get to understand/experience it at some point, this life or one of the next.
It/You (with a capital Y) decides what gets manifested next:
What happens after death, or "You are the only game in town": Francis Lucille "How Is Consciousness Experienced After Death? (Meditation 1 of 24)"
> Has God put enough pointers in the imagination just so that it can find its way back? 
"Ignorance is a bad idea only from the vantage-point of ignorance."
 
But at the end: You need an Awakening of what you really are to fully understand that. But don't worry, the real You can never loose or gain anything. In reality it is all a big joke. And the joke is literally the illusion-separate-self you imagine yourself to be. One day you will laugh, and be fearlessness itself.
By knowing what you really are, ever have been, and never can not be. And by knowing and understanding the structure of the "you" having these fears.
Hint: What is the you that worries to loose its Awakenings or Enlightenment again? Illusion-arisings (feelings and thoughts) of a separate self moving in that which you really are. You can not fake this understanding, nor just think your way through it. You need an Awakening into what You are, and what Reality is. All of what I have written above is prelimary to that. 
And also a very true perspective: "Though the view should be as vast as the sky, keep your conduct as fine as barley flour". Why? Because in Lila Karma holds. It can bite back, it is still valid. Cause-effect. Reality is smart, way smarter than the small separate self. So if you think as separate self "Ah, its all a big joke, I do what I want, who cares", bad bad bad idea. If a separate self thinks that, that thinks cause-effect or Karma doesn't hold... It will suffer, and not get to liberation or even relative happiness, until you correct that specific ignorance. Either you have realized what you are, or you better don't fool yourself as separate self "nothing matters"-style.  Suffering, or something has to rout you back home.... Its either suffering or understanding.
Luckily, at the end, You are It, so you can not avoid going home.... and then, if You want, on another adventure again to express your love.
Selling water by the river, "the wave fearing to loose knowing to be river-water"-style
 
 
 
 

Chogyal Namkhai Norbu, The Supreme Source:
"I am the teacher, pure and total consciousness, whence everything manifests. Pure and total consciousness is the supreme source, it has created the Buddhas of the three times, from it have arisen the beings of the three worlds and the whole animate and inanimate universe. [... ]
Pure and total consciousness has created everything and has not created anything. It has created everything because it has created its own nature, pure and total. It has not created anything because within it there exists no need to create. When my nature is not understood and the phenomena that manifest from me become the object of judgement, desire and attachment give rise to the creation of concrete vision that is impermanent and destined to vanish like a magical apparition, and one becomes like a blind man who does not know what is happening. [...I"
"As I transcend all affirmations and negations, I am beyond all phenomena. As no object exists that is not myself, I am beyond meditating on a view. As there is nothing to keep apart from myself, I am beyond a commitment to observe. As there is nothing to seek other than myself, I am beyond obtaining the capacity for spiritual action. As no place exists outside myself, I am beyond a level of realization to surpass. As I have never encountered obstacles, I am beyond [everything] as self-arising wisdom. As I am the ultimate unborn nature, I am beyond [everything] as the [true] subtle ultimate nature"
"I am called "the perfect condition" becauseeverything is contained in me. I am called "the source" because the teacher, teaching, and disciples arise from my three natures"
"I am the essence of all phenomena; nothing exists that is not my essence. The teachers of the three dimensions are my essence. The Buddhas of the three times are my essence. The Bodhisattvas are my essence. The four types of yogins are my essence. The three worlds, of desire, of form, and without form, too, are my manifestation. The five great elements are my essence. The six classes of beings are my essence. Everything inanimate is my essence. Everything that lives is my essence. All the habitats and the beings living therein are my essence. Nothing exists that is not my essence because I am the universal root: there is nothing that is not contained in me. The unborn, the wonder of birth, and the manifestation of energy are the three aspects of the three teachers: this is their condition."
"As the three times, past, present, and future, abide exclusively in me, all the Buddhas are in the same condition: this too is my essence. As I transcend the dualism of subject and object, like space I am allpervading, and I constitute the fundamental substance of all phenomena: my essence is pure and total consciousness. I, that am the source, abide in the single state, and in this same authentic condition the practitioners of the "four yogas"
"Realize my nature, the supreme source that is pure and total consciousness. Teach that all the phenomena of existence are only myself! If you transmit my teaching, all your disciples will realize my nature and will become this very nature.
"If my nature were to be compassionately displayed to the beings of the three worlds who have originated from me,....  Thus I, the supreme source, disclose my nature, displaying it to myself."
"Nothing other than this exists; none of the Buddhas have ever received a higher teaching than this from me, the source. Aside from this condition of equality beyond concepts, I myself, the supreme source whence everything arises, have absolutely nothing whatever to display to myself."
"Listen! As all of you are created by me, you beings of the three worlds are my children, equal to me, the supreme source. You are me, inseparable from me, so I manifest to you and through the five teachers of my natures I teach the single state of the five essences [of the elements]. I am the single state, I, the supreme source: you too are, you must become certain of this!"
"Listen, Sattvavajra! I will show you your own nature. You are me, the source. I am and have always been pure and total consciousness. What is pure and total consciousness?"
"Among all things existing in the animate and inanimate universe, there is not one single thing that has not been created by me, nor is there a cause that does not derive from me. Thus I am the essence of all, and nothing surpasses me. I am superior to the three dimensions, to the Buddhas of the three times, to the Vidyadharas, to the Bodhisattvas, to the beings of the three worlds, to the whole animate and inanimate universe, because I am the maker of all. Before there was any other teaching I, that am the source, pure and total consciousness, disclosed the teaching of pure and total
consciousness."
 
But I don't know if that comment still holds:
You are  asking "God-realization the way Leo teaches it". Since I have a hard time following what the latest definition of the God-Realization-Awakening of Leo is, I am not the authority on what fits his current definition of God Realization.
There seems to be sometimes an update on the Awakening to the the Timeless Unborn (Capital Letters). 
 
-stolen from @GLORY- :
"No they can be awake
Or maybe even Awake
But they are not AWAKE™"
 
I personally can't agree to claims to why there is no Final Awakening or Enlightenment in which
everything (including all appearances and thought/understanding-arisings) appears/is imagined in You, the small separate you is fully seen through, including seeing ANY feeling of any kind of Subjectivity/Individuality watching any kind of Infinity arising in you as more illusion. Just One Infinite (potentially sentient) Reality/You in which everything (n+1) appears/is being imagined/Mirage/Show, and Tat Tvam Asi. And of course that includes
imagining/manfesting all (just appearing/imagined) stories of Buddhism, (any spiritual system), your history, your past, your parents, n+1 (which means WHATEVER/Anything possible, or n+1). EVERYTHING is imagined as a big Illusion Show in the Real You (Capital Letters in case when talking about Absolute Reality). Or in other words: The ultimate Mindf*** (pardon my French). Or the ultimate joke. How could it be any different? Of course you can always have more Understandings/Insight on the appearing/relative arisings "stuff/realities/dimensions/Lilas". And since "It" is infinite, you can go on understanding these forever and ever and ever ... infinitely. As long as you have fun doing that, and don't suffer: Perfect. But I wonder how one does the "not suffering" part when one is sobre and then not stably resting in the above described Realization. 
[Warning: Karma still holds. "Although my view is higher than the sky, My respect for the cause and effect of actions is as fine as grains of flour."  Padmasambhava. So as long as a separate self thinks it can do what it wants since all is just imagined, the only outcome with mathematical precision can only be: suffering. With best regards from Maya, trying to guide you back home].
I have not seen one description from Leo of God Realization that is not covered by Full(!) Enlightenment into Reality/Your True Nature, fully understanding of what Reality is or what You are (please don't beat me ). That includes understanding that all and any manifestation arising in You/Reality is an empty, groundless, imagined(!) arising in you. Of course including the whole you, its history, n+1, EVERYTHING. And like I wrote above, if that is not the most tricky, twisted Illusion/Mindf***, I don't know what is. But the Magnificence and splendor of it ..... 
Maybe Leo can comment on that? What is the special thing about your definition of God Realization? I am honestly just respectfully asking, and it would be nice if the answer would a) be polite (not that my imagined self-worth suffers) and b) something with content, and not Glorys statement above in different wording + broomstick. Thanks a lot, and Namaste .
 
And for getting "there", among other books: "Pointing out the Great Way, Daniel Brown". And Psychedelics as a preview and along the path of course...
respectfully yours
Selling Water by the River
 

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That might be the same elsewhere but think of the long term possibilities. A cashier is unlikley to be promoted and change her income over lifetime. Junior dev can be promoted to more senior roles and exponentially have their salary increased over time. I don't know the first thing about IT development but I'm sure with more seniority the amount of stuff Chat GPT can do as well as human diminishes. It is good at the basic tasks but it has no mastery in anything, it is just an information platform. 
Turn yourself into an expert in the field and you will attract better opportunities. There is, of course, always the possibility that this is not the right thing for you and that you should be pursuing a different area of expertise altogether. 
If you hate Spain, why not try living elsewhere? Germany, UK, Austria, US - all offer plenty of opportunities to young people with ambitions. Moving countries is the easiest it's ever been and with EU Passport the Europe at least is your playground. 
UK (post Brexit) & USA will be a bit more difficult but you could get invited and transferred over by a company (if you ar good enough). If you are young, flexible and (I assume) unmarried without kids, then this is the perfect time to do it. You can always come back to Spain in 5-10 years with a pack of new experience - worked well for me and many others who did the same. 

Narcissist cant see that he is in wrong, because he has so much shame in him that he must resort to gaslighting,shaming,blaming,being a victim etc.

if I would know a rigorous answer to that, I would probably be one of the smartest person alive. This is one question a lot of people struggle with and the concept of an antirivalrous world is about. As I said before, debating about it won't be sufficient enough, because debating is structurally limited for this, and here is why:
 
Debating already assumes an already agreed upon goal/goalpost where we will try to move towards during our debate, unless this is not established, we will talk past each other and we won't settle/get anywhere. Debating is about using logic to get from A to B. Morals precedes logic and  sometimes if we have foundationally different morals, we won't be able to agree upon the goal/goalpost, therefore we won't even be able to begin our debate and won't be able to settle our disagreement(s) by debate Therefore the argument would be , that we need to have a common set of foundational morals that we can all use and agree upon  (religion) and just after that we can start talking about debating certain topics. Once that foundation is established, that will give a structure to our debates and we can then debate about how to move towards certain goals within that structure.
You might say "yeaah, but there never was a universal religion that everyone agreed upon, and we still managed to survive and to move society forward" - that would be a good point, however the next part of the argument would be , that even though in the past we somewhat managed to do that (because we weren't that depended on each other and in the  past we could use might to get what we want), in the 21st century where everything is interconnected and we are depended on each other, some of these disagreements (that are at foundational moral level) needs to be settled to be able to solve some of our global problems and to be able to not live in constant fear that the other party will use their might (justifiably from their perspective) to defend their morals.
The weakest part of this argument is obviously about the "how". How could we get to a universal religion without war and actual fights? The answer to that question is incredibly complicated and I am not educated enough to talk on that, however, first we have to agree that there is a strong need for it, and then we can talk about the "hows" (notice that here we have to agree on the goalpost to be able to have a debate about it and to be productive).