Schizophonia

Rumination comes to an end when one contemplates the fact that it involves the transfer of responsibility for symbolic castration. You attract what you are; there is no separation. There are fantasies but it’s like dreaming at night it’s not serious, nor is it something truly desired.

It is because you’re nearly 40 and you ruminate relularly on the fact that you don’t have young women. FOMO is not rational It’s a delirium that steers us away from what is truly good for us.

Liberticidal logics end up turning against those who promote them.

What do you mean Because it's your persona Since the strengthening of your own position comes mechanically at the expense of mine (because we are mirrors of one another) I defend myself. In this instance I’m being sharp-tongued pointing to the symbolic castration that lies behind the persona; the idea that its assertion stems from an initial deficiency that needs to be compensated for. Naturally bringing that up is humiliating. You aren’t being particularly condescending lol these are just human-gorilla games it's everywhere. Nevermind I’m starting to slop and I don’t feel like putting any extra effort into philosophizing about this right now, so I’ll stop here.

Everything is for me

In French it can be translated as "It's an unattractive dynamic to have periods, imo." 💀

It's normal since you’re approaching your forties yourself if I remember well.

I don't know why you're saying that; I just wanted to point out that men tend to cry less due to their endocrine profile. And I am a man. 23 years of life as a male and several years of experience with exogenous hormones (testosterone, DHEA, Clomid, aromatase inhibitors such as Aromasin, etc.) Men are much less emotional in average yes, or to be more precise the e-motion-al is experienced more as an external object which implies a different set of behaviors.

I totally get it it’s happened to me too; It probably helped develop my paradigm. It’s just that especially right now I’m in wojak zoomer entrepreneur/conservative mode so I view these games rather with a bad eye.

I don't hide from sadness; my life including my introspection is simply structured in such a way that there is no sadness most of the time. Yes of course you know I'm half crazy lol.

No because even if it was unconscious or hidde, there was a subtle desire for power behind your remark specifically to use me as a foil to position yourself as the mature, virtuous one; to put yourself above me. And I’m a gorilla too so I defend my turf by throwing it in your face that you’re saying this because you aren't capable of being as intelligent as I am, and so you're using this roleplay as a coping mechanism. Further proof is that you’re targeting me even though I only make jokes occasionally and you targeted Meta Male, even though he rarely posts and makes jokes even less often. I have nothing against Sincerity, I just said that because I like dissecting people; I do my Inspector Gadget with his magnifying glass saying "Ah you're like that because of this or that which causes this." Like stubbing your little toe on the table lol. More seriously you can suffer from chronic issues like period pain for example but that’s not what we’re talking about here. Also you are a woman and your hormones makes you more emotional; I know it as i am mentally ill I repeatedly used products that caused estrogenic effects and I was emotional and moody in general.

But first you have to have something to repress or express. Someone who is perhaps my greatest "intellectual mentor" once said he didn't believe in a division between "sensitive" people and "tough" people; rather the species itself is sensitive and the spectrum exists simply because of whether or not one chooses to shield oneself. I largely agree; I know that if I look at or think about sad things I can let myself get drawn in and end up crying. However I find no value in that so I don't do it and consequently I almost never cry, because there is nothing to trigger it; there is nothing that needs to be released. Anything that reduces castration anxiety fosters the phallic position. 🤓

Because it means you can't leave yourself alone; you can't help but directly blame yourself for things, or voluntarily expose yourself to things that stimulate your sensitivities like sad music, videos of kittens abandoned in garbage cans lol, or anything.

LSD is consistently more euphoric/"positive" for me.