How do you deal with desires that you will never attain?

[Never_give_up]

desires that get triggered all the time. And I really want to achieve them. If I ignore them they come stronger, if I try to tell myself that they don't matter then I feel like I am fooling myself, if I try to achieve them they won't happen.... I want a happy life, I don't want to deal with this any more  . 

I watch myself suffering all the time for the desires that keep happening when something triggers them. Desires I can never attain.

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I wanted to go to university and I couldn't make it cause of my bad memory (learning disabilities?), I still wish I had a different brain and went to a good university. Whenever I see normal people that went to university which is half the people in my country as far as i know, then I feel like they are superior and I am inferior, that they have a normal life and I am not.

I want to stop my food addiction that gets triggered by my internet addiction. This one is more doable cause I have come with different plans to make this happen, and this is one of the reasons that if I manage to make it then I won't be on this forum too much, cause I will have managed to treat my addiction . That is , if I manage to make the plans work. But whenever I see people that are fit and desire to have their bodies (thin) , I just fall into depression. If I make it , I estimate it will take me 4 years to lose 24kg to become 14% body fat. This is so depressing, it seems to far off.

And how many desires I have that I had humour, or were very good at chess, or very good at drawing, or I had a lot of money, or I had the attention of opposite sex, or that I was tall. And also how do I know I live the right life, maybe I am trying too much, maybe I am trying too little, maybe chase the wrong desires...

Desires / concerns... they destabilize my inner peace and they turn my positive psychology into negative.

Desires not to get old, to have more status, to be a genius (grandiose irrational desires that I get once in a while). Desires I was attractive or famous. All these desires no matter how crazy and irrational they are, they create suffering. Some desires are weak or rare frequency, but others are more frequent and stronger.

And let's not forget my desire for understanding reality. How on earth can someone undestand something that is mysterius and a paradox? it can't happen. And yet my stupid brain gets mad that it doesn't understand reality and want to understand it so desperately. This creates so much suffering in me, it gets exhausting. I don't know what the solutions are if they exist at all....  

I won't go to therapy any longer. It doesn't help me. 

I can't deal with my desires any longer, they destroy my life. I can focus on some simple desires like to become thin, or draw.... but the rest seem to much.

I hope this is the last question I make for a very long time, if my plans of quiting my addictions work (internet,food addictions). If I don't make it I will hang out here for longer. 

[Judy2]

@Never_give_up

Never give up.

who told you you can't get what you want?

 

for example the thing you said about university....i think it takes some flexibility to fulfill the underlying desire there. it can be fulfilled in a billion different ways....self-study, reading more books, God knows what else. i'd like to encourage you to be a bit creative and flexible, see ways in which the fulfilment of your desire for education/knowledge is accessible to you RIGHT NOW. and then do some of that:)

about food: you can pick one small change and commit to doing that TODAY. just one small change. for example: going for a walk and increasing your step count by 2,000, adding in a vegetable or a high-quality protein source, or getting educated about healthy nutrition and recovery from emotional eating (wouldn't that be neat to combine this desire with your desire for education???). it won't take 4 years. just commit to one small, manageable goal this week, and then to another next week, and so on. ...just a gentle suggestion:)

desires don't exist to destroy your life and you are not meant to ignore them. 

[Judy2]

so i think it's a matter of setting manageable goals and moving towards what you want. in small ways. even those small achievements will make you feel better, and you can start from there. the important part is to start somewhere.

[Raze]

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Edited 15 hours ago by Raze

[Salvijus]

The thigh is, what you truly want is forever available to you. Currently your energy of desire is going to distorted places because of egoic influence blocking the channels. Your desire needs refinement. If you allow yoruself fully to experience desire every time it arises, it will refine itself to its original form and you will see - what you truly want is forever yours and nothing can deny it to you. 

And besides, your reality is already a product of your desire. It's just that you're yet to master this power. 

Edited 12 hours ago by Salvijus

[Schizophonia]

4 hours ago, Salvijus said:

The thigh is, what you truly want is forever available to you. Currently your energy of desire is going to distorted places because of egoic influence blocking the channels. Your desire needs refinement. If you allow yoruself fully to experience desire every time it arises, it will refine itself to its original form and you will see - what you truly want is forever yours and nothing can deny it to you. 

And besides, your reality is already a product of your desire. It's just that you're yet to master this power. 

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