No, the comprehension was purely abstract. It wasn't like a visual nightmare. But that pure abstraction of LOVE will be enough to horrify you all the same because in one fell swoop you comprehend it's cosmic ramifications.
Imagine if you could take pure sugar and concentrated it a billion fold. So that 1 tablespoon = 1 billion spoons of sugar. And then you put that in your mouth. It would be so sweet it literally burns your tongue and make you gag. That's how pure LOVE works. If you became conscious of that much LOVE in one moment your whole human being would burn alive in it until it melted your body and mind into a uniform soup.

Very successful people like celebrities and CEOs are insanely ambitious workaholics, so by the time they acheive their success they are usually so wrapped up and addicted to it that they have no time for serious spiritual work. They have chosen success over God. Elon Musk is the perfect example. He will never awaken because he's too busy working. Of course there are exceptions, but it's rare.
But on the other hand, poor people are usually struggling so much just to survive and pay their bills that they also have no time for serious spiritual work.
This explains why so few ever realized God. Ta-daaa!
In general, having wealth gives you more freedom to take time off from work. This is a huge advantage. However, you have to actually dare to exercise it in the right way, which most wealthy people never do. Wealth, fame, power, and sex are very addictive and corrupting. Most people in life are chasing after wealth, fame, power, sex, or love. Or they are barely able to feed themselves. And so they never realize God.

You have been taught a very poor, shallow version of Christianity. If you actually make an effort to study serious mystical esoteric Christianity you will realize that Christianity means You are God.
It's that simple.
But the Christianity you were taught was just dogma and nonsense spoken by people who never actually had direct experience of God. They didn't know what they were teaching.
As Jesus told you, the kindgom of heaven is within. What that means is is that you are God, if you go deep within.
You need to question and desconstruct every ideas humans told you about God and spirituality. Question everything until you discard all ideas. Then you will be left with raw direct experience or pure consciousness. That's the real God. CONSCIOUSNESS IS GOD. And all ideas about it are irrelevant.

It basically is the problem of Self-Worth.
You are making your Self-Worth dependent on external phenomena such as what people close to you will do to you or say about you.

If you learn total Self-Love and you will see what a divine being you are you will be invincible.

Your girlfriend cheating on you, your parents calling you a shame, NONE OF IT CHANGES HOW PERFECT AND DIVINE YOU ARE. 

And the more you meditate, transcend and realize who you really are, the more you develop yourself, the more obvious it will become to you.

What happens with the solipsism thing is that you spend a lot of time in denial about it. Then you feel depressed and bothered by it. And then eventually you become so conscious you stop even thinking about it and just enjoy being conscious. Ruminating about the downsides of solipsism is a kind of delusion which you must transcend.
Nothing about GOD can be bad. That's AWAKENING.

Okay, I think this is the source of all misconception in Solipsism vs Emptiness debate.

I will try to slowly explain it from my current understanding.

Let's imagine Lucy has a dream at night. In that dream Lucy dreams that she is Mary. Mary inside the dream is a hardcore materialist and therefore she believes that both external world and her own (dreamed) mind is made of matter.

Next night Lucy dreams that she is Jack. Jack is a hardcore solipsist in lower case meaning of solipsism. Jack believes everything is his own small mind.

Next night Lucy dreams that she is Arthur. Arthur is a hardcore buddhist and he believes that both matter and his own mind is made of Emptyness.

The last night Lucy dreams that she is Leo, and Leo is hardcore psychedelic psychonaut, he takes 5-meo which makes him realize that ACTUALLY HE IS LUCY, THAT IT IS ALL A DREAM. THAT EVERYTHING IS LUCY'S OWN MIND. Not a mind of Leo, but a mind of Lucy. Leo realizes that he is Lucy and of course in this analogy Lucy is God. The Mind that dreams it all.
 
Even emptyness and non existence happens inside of Mind of God. Just like dreamless sleep where no world is generated is still inside the mind, because there is all there is.

I think @ardacigin you could argue from your model that in the state of sleepless dream there is no mind and all that is left is Empty Ultimate Reality, because the mind is gone (because it is turned off).

I trully believe that we are trying to point to the same insight, but people from buddhist backround have a bias against using the word mind.
To me personally Mind seems like the best word, because it points to the fact that this Ultimate Reality that everything is generated from is SO CLOSE, SO RIGHT HERE, SO INTIMATELY NOW. God's Mind is ultimate reality. And you are God.

@Leo Gura @Inliytened1 @Sincerity @Breakingthewall Please give me your comments about dream analogy used here.

I never made this assumption. Just like all humans I started my spiritual work with the exact opposite assumption.
It took me 100s of profound and painful awakenings to finally rid myself of the assumption that stuff exists outside my mind.
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You are absolutely wrong.
GOD IS ABSOLUTE SOLIPSISM.
You are not AWAKE and you don't understand what AWAKENING really entails.
There cannot be anything outside your own MIND. Because your MIND IS INFINITE.
If anything existed outside your own MIND then GOD would not be omnipotent nor omniscient. As you soon as you imagine any sense of "other" you lose your omnipotence and omniscience. This is the very mechanism by which GOD becomes not-GOD.
It is absolutely true that all humans are a dream. You don't like to accept that because you will feel lonely and very depressed. Therefore you refuse to surrender the imagining of other people and you blame and project onto me as misunderstanding spirituality, when of course the one who doesn't understand spirituality is you.
You are a perfect case-study of how Buddhism and nonduality leads to self-deception and false spirituality. You have been trying too hard to be a good little Buddhist boy, but none of that will ever be enough to AWAKEN. You must destroy all of Buddhism and nonduality if you actually want to AWAKEN. Pretty obvious stuff.
What you consider my greatest pitfall is just projection. It's your greatest pitfall.
But you are making one even deeper projection. You are literally projecting my existence. In fact I do not exist outside your mind, and as soon as you stop imagining me I will cease to exist.
I hope some day you open your mind deep enough to comprehend me.
Much love.

@Display_Name My only advice to you is to this:
Become very serious about what kind of thoughts you allow your mind to entertain. Take responsibility over your own mind. Do not focus on things that disempower you. If you notice a certain line of thought is consistently disempowering for you, make a commitment to stop allowing that line of thinking into your mind ever again. Just drop it. Let it go. Practice letting go. Watch my video: The Power Of Letting Go.
You are under no obligation to entertain every negative, depressing, disempowering, ugly thought that enters your mind.
Focus your mind on how you can best honor the miracle that is your current life. And stop thinking about bullshit.
Reality is your dream. So if you dream of horror and torture and shit, that's what your reality will slowly become. Until eventually you reach Hell. That's all Hell is.

The point of freedom is to use it to allow yourself to commit to -- and pursue like a motherfucker -- your top values.
Freedom is not for sitting around playing games and jerking off. Freedom is about being free to be highly creative in the way that is most meaningful to you.

Reality is a Mind that dreams/imagines. When you say something is "real", what you mean is, it's imagined by you so deeply that you are not even aware of how it is imagined. And so you call that "real". Whereas if you become aware of how something is imagined, you call it unreal.
You have to realize that this is all a trick of the mind. There is no ground for the distinction between real and imaginary. Because at root all there is, is Mind.
The key is to drop the idea that there exists anything outside of imagination, by noticing that everything is Mind.
How do you know? Consciousness. The only way anything is known. The only solution here is more consciousness, and no other way will work.

That is a holdover from bad teachings I was infected with. In the future I will move away from speaking about ego at all.
Nothing exists but MIND.

This whole notion of "having an ego" is just an imaginary construct. The sooner you drop the whole idea, the better.
There really aren't any egos, just ideas in the Mind.

It's not personal, but it's not mechanical either, and it's infinitely intimate. It's as intelligent as a motherfucker too. Hence it's called God. It really feels like experiencing God, not some dry mechanical void. It's full of life. It's full of love. It's organic-feeling. Like being inside a giant infinite mind. If you took the minds of every single genius human being who has ever lived in the last 5000 years and multiplied them all together and raised that by a power of a million, you would not even have 0.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000001% of its intelligence.
It's intelligence is infinite.
Divinity is the best word to describe it. Nothingness is literally divine. The very fabric of reality is self-seeing.

Well, ultimately you have to discard this notion of "ego mind". It will hold you back.
There really isn't an ego mind, there's just GOD/Consciousness/You -- right NOW.
Ego mind is just some ideas and feelings within your present Consciousness. If you throw all that away you will be left with pure Consciousness.
Ego mind is when you personalize your present experience too much. When you make it all human, biological, and personal. If you strip all the crap away then you're just left with pure reality.
Just imagine that you're so present that you stop conjuring up anything beyond the present moment. No past, no future, no birth, no death, no memories, no ego, no other, no stories, no science, no spirituality. Just PURE NOW.

I am tired of explaining this over and over again when it is so simple.
GOD IS ABSOLUTE SOLIPSISM. There is nothing outside your Mind. Your Mind simply is the entirely of reality.
REALITY IS YOUR MIND. Period.
This is what is true in your experience. Everything else is games.
Your job is to learn to LOVE the TRUTH. So stop playing games and just fall in love with truth.
If you insist on playing games, you will suffer.
Do not create a belief system out of this. Either you are directly conscious of it or you are not. If you are not, then stop torturing yourself with ideas of people being "unreal". Ideas and beliefs are not what is being pointed to. Your idea that others are "unreal" and that this is bad -- is also imaginary. That's not AWAKENING.
If you're feeling bad about it, you didn't get it.
EVERYTHING is imaginary. And that's the best way things could possibly be. So stop worrying about it. All your worry is pointless. Just trust that GOD is Perfect.

I've been following Leo's works for years and have done dozens of LSD trips. After having some profound mystical experiences here and there, I still feel like there is something more to discover. So, I finally got myself some 5-MEO-DMT. So far I've done total of 7 trips. The first three trips (10mg, 20mg, and 30mg) were complete failures though.  It's because I plugged way too deep into my butthole. I thought the deeper, the better, but clearly, I was wrong. After some research and trial and error, I learned to plugged only halfway and finally had some profound experiences on the next four trips (20mg, 30mg, 30mg, and 40mg). They all worked like a charm which was so epic that it blew my mind. However, the trip that I'll be mainly emphasis is my 7th trip at 40mg. Personally 40mg would be considered my breakthrough dosage, but keep in mind, everyone has a different tolerance level and generally I don't recommend people trying more than 30mg! And always start with low dose and slowly build it up. Anyway, without further ado, let's dig in.
Substance: 5-Meo-DMT in Fumarate Salt Form
Method: Plugging
Dosage: 40mg
Setting: My bedroom
Time: 7:50 pm 3/24/2023
Trip report:
  Yesterday, I finally had the courage to try 5-meo at 40mg. Since 30mg only produces moderate trip for me, my intuition told me I needed to go higher. So after plugging at around 7:50 pm. I calmly sat on my bed and waited for the effects to kick in.  After 7 or 8 minutes, the effects finally kicked in, and I started to have an uneasy feeling of nausea. I wanted to vomit, but as my consciousness arose in a speed of light, I became too conscious to even care to move and vomit. I just lay down on my bed from seating position and closed my eyes.
  As soon as I closed my eyes, time stopped. I suddenly became conscious that time does not exist. Time is just imagination in this present moment, and this moment is all there is. This moment last eternity. Time is just one of the many elements that make up our human life. There is never time; there is just now. However, this was just the beginning. As I watch my consciousness significantly increased, I became conscious that all my sensory fields are literally made of consciousness. I don't know how to put it into words. I just felt like all my sensory fields started to collapse and merge into each other in a spiral way, and this was a nonstop force that I, as ego, couldn't control, which finally started to made me afraid and worried. Combining with the uneasy nauseous sensation, in my first time during trip, I begged to stop. It just became unpleasant, but weirdly amazing at the same time. I wondered how this could all be possible and was surprised that I never had experienced anything like this during an LSD trip.
  The fear came. I wondered where all this would lead me. This is too much! Then I realized the only thing I can do here is to surrender. So what is actually the act of surrendering? The act of surrendering is just to face the fear, face = give attention to = aware of = conscious of. So I simply became conscious of my fear, the sensation of fear. Then I became conscious that fear itself is also part of consciousness. It's one little facet of consciousness! Everything is consciousness! The only reason I was afraid was that I didn't understand who I really am! I'm not this human self. I'm consciousness! Fear is there as a necessity for the existence of this ego to fool myself into thinking I'm an ego, and fool me thinking that there is really something to be afraid of so I could stay alive. If everything is consciousness, including fear, my sensation, my current room, my breath, my hands, my thoughts, tree, animal, people, drug, psychedelic, etc, then who am I really? I started to wonder.
  As I had this realization, my conscious and sensory fields were merging into each other more and more. It was like a never-ending spiral. It was quite amazing to watch all of this happening, and it felt like it would last for eternity. Finally, the spiral of consciousness consume every part of me, including the image of myself, my memory, my body, and, lastly, my fear. I gave up. I totally gave up. This is the most amazing and yet the most terrifying thing. I died, I literally died. I'm gone, but consciousness remains.......
  Then I realized what all of this collapsing of my ego, the dying process, is all about. This is the process of love. What is love? Love means I'm willing to fully experience suffering, experience fears because these are a part of my consciousness. The only thing that prevents me from realizing love is my fear and my escape and avoidance from fear. Love must be total! Love must be a totality! If you don't accept all the things in this world you hate, you cannot love! What every human being is most afraid of is suffering, fear, torture, and ultimately death! If you can't accept or love these things, you can't really love! By loving suffering, fear, and death, it literally means living through these moments, fully experiencing them until the point you realize you are them because you love them. Love is just the total embrace of everything that is in the consciousness, whatever that is good or bad to your human sense!
  And finally, this spirally emerging process completes. Everything has finally emerged into each other. And what remains is oneness. What remains is just this conscious field. I'm One!!!!!!!  if Me = One, then who am I? Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! As I scream those words out loud! I'm God! I'm God! I'm God!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe it! I can't believe it! I screamed my lungs out in pure joy and happiness. And while I was realizing I'm God, my my consciousness started to spirally emerge again! However, this time, my consciousness field imagined orgasm, and the sensation of orgasm told me "I love you." Then my whole consciousness field is suddenly filled with orgasm and starts to merge into each other!
It's literally like this picture below:

  Imagine each little black circle in this picture represents your most amazing orgasm during sex you ever had, and during this moment there are literally infinite numbers of orgasms merging spirally into one. It never stops! This is literally the best possible pleasure you would ever encounter! Infinite high! Infinite orgasm! Infinite love!
  Oh my God! This is infinite love! I'm infinite love! I screamed again. And THIS is my PEAK of realization, my peak of the trip, my peak of pleasure. And it lasts for eternity........ I became Love. I'm Love. Love is infinite orgasm........
 While it literally felt like eternity, and it IS. As my trip end, as my consciousness started to go back to my base line. I fell back into my ego self. Everything slowly returns to normal. However, it left me completely speechless. I'm happy like a child. And I cried. I was lying on my comfy bed for quite some time and just stared at my ceiling, thinking: I'm God. I'm Love. This is the surest thing I know. Not only do I understand I'm God, I become it. I am it. And God is Love.
  So these are all the things I can say about the trip I had yesterday. And now I realize how foolish I was. I had contemplated for years, listened to Leo's content for years, and did a lot of self-development work and did a dozens of LSD Trips. I thought I knew something, but in fact, I knew nothing. The only way to truly know something is by experiencing this crazy realization yourself and coming back. Then you might know a little better.
  Intuitively, I know that this realization of myself as oneness, as God, as love is not the complete God's realization. It's not even close! I have only touched the fingertip of God. This journey has just begun, and I'm optimistic about it all. Now I understand why Leo teaches what he teaches. Now I know why Leo needs to behave like a jerk sometimes on the forum to warn people that they are self-deceiving and foolish. Leo does it for truth. Leo does it for love.
  In short, There's more to become conscious of. The 5-MEO-DMT is truly the God molecule. And my journey toward true God-realization just begin. Thank you, Leo. Thank you for showing me 5-MEO-DMT and for your teachings. I literally listen to your episodes ever day. And they are the solid foundation for me becoming God yesterday. So it's not just the power of psychedelics that matters, but also what you do when you're not on them matters too.

You can build up your imagination so much that you can create a realistic alligator in your room than you can completely see, travel to realms that are completely realistic with their own rules without sleeping or draw stuff in the air that other people who do a similiar practice in similiar doses can see and tell you information that you didnt tell them and they have no way of knowing it,
Also you can make yourself have hyperreal dreams about things you want to happen and they will then happen in this reality.
Do a multiweek kasina retreat where you spend all day doing it. Learn basic magick. Have fun.

Here's how I deal with having a sort-of-nice work situation that I dislike. It works very well but it's a crutch:
So, this might not be the most healthy solution since it's basically a crutch but since you probably don't want to do it your whole life anyway, here's what I do when I have to do work stuff that feels like I'm wasting my days away (I do mostly programming and other IT stuff freelancing while also trying to do well at university):
- small dose (mostly 1/4) armodafinil up to 5 times per week (this really removes any sort of emotional resistance you have to your job, so it's great if you already know what you're doing). Also I meditate for the duration of the comeup which mixes the effects of meditation and moda very nicely for me.
- LSD microdosing 3 times a week, HHC (legal in most places) small dose edible 2 days (assuming you work 5 times a week). If you don't have access to LSD then LSA (legal in most places) in small doses does the trick (I've tested that :P)
This really takes away any sort of emotional resistance to work while also creating a nice mental space to have productive, strong contemplations when there's not much work load so you kill two birds with one stone. It also allows you to tune it down if it's getting in they way of anything if the doses are small enough.
The main downside is that you won't build discipline and might even lose some. Which could be countered by fasting for a few days a month.

You must let the beauty of consciousness penetrate you.
If you are not overjoyed with your own consciousness then it's not awakening.
The highest consciousness is so delighted in itself it is in endless joy. God needs nothing outside itself to be endlessly happy and satisfied.
If you feel incomplete or something is bugging you -- if lack of other is bugging you -- that just means a serious lack of consciousness. So you ain't done with the work.
Awakening is the realization of Absolute Perfection. Nothing at all is wrong or missing.
A hallmark of full awakening is zero fear. You are too conscious to fear anything.