Buck Edwards

Don't invest so much in AI. It's gonna be a regular thing.

I told my family that I don't want therapy.

The feeling of death brings me comfort because it's cessation of suffering.

There are millions who live like me in uncertainty.

I'm torn between my own emotions.

One day I'll die. And my anxiety will come to an end. I don't want to live like this anyway. It's not called life where your family constantly shames you.

I like this video.

Dry days are coming. It will be cold. It will be dry. There will be little hope in my life. There will be little to look forward to. Little happiness. Since the winter has begun, I have been feeling seasonal depression. I don't know if it's my Meds. But I have been feeling somewhat off. My mother can never get along with the new generation. She lacks basic sense and that's a huge frustration. Sometimes I agree with her. Sometimes I don't. I don't like the world either or how it works. How our lives are never secure or ensured? How it's a dog eat dog everywhere.... Home should be a place of sweetness and not negativity. People can be so negative.....fuck it.

Maybe everyone finds closure in the way they find it. That cannot be assumed or questioned or objected.

My sister has mistreated my mom and that angers me.

I should manifest the life I want.

Maybe I'm not that lucky.

Maybe men are more hard wired to look for a solution to achieve something that matters to them. I often tend to express myself and ignore the solution. Because I don't look at problems as something to solve, rather something I need closure on. Expressing it means it probably no longer bothers me. Maybe expression matters more to women than some conclusive solution.

You would have realized what it means to live alone.

Death is the only leveler. Once you're dead, everything is very beautiful. All the emotions are gone. You just don't have to worry about anything. You know. I feel like I'm going insane. I just don't like anything.