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Thank you for sharing!

And Elan, Bashar's associate. Slightly different style.

Same. I sometimes have very vivid and tactile dreams. And when those get erotic, I wake up feeling like I've actually had a partner.

Of course it is. For me it's been both - triggering and grounding. Most triggering, when I was first discovering all the novel ways to live, for my family to dismiss or misunderstand them. Most grounding, when I was visting them on Sunday, after tripping on acid in my apartment, and losing any sense of stability. Tripping a lot and living on my own for 8 months, made me miss my parents a lot.

At certain point I found Peterson's "12 rules for life" highly inspiring. I was struggling to get out of nihilistic rut. I wouldn't say that it had a deep impact on my life as a whole. It just propelled me further on my journey.

After highschool I was a handyman/technician for 14 months. I had no idea what I was doing. My uncle got me into the company. Currently, I earn supplementary income in clinical trials for healthy volunteers. I live with my family, and try to be as helpful as I can. This is how it's been for 1.5-year. I have no clear plans. I wait for AI and aliens to take over the world

I've had metaphysical intuitions since I can remember. As a child, I would get struck with thoughts like: "All my life and memories could have sprung into existence a second ago, and I couldn't know. New realities can be appearing every moment - reality after reality" "No one can really know me, because my perception is absolutely isolated and internal." I didn't know how to frame it then and didn't even take it seriously, but there was always an urge to fantasize about such stuff. I was raised as a catholic and became obsessed with God and understanding the Bible. With each year I was more and more devout, to the point of going to church every morning at 15-16 of age. Finally, the need to fully understand God, lead to a cognitive crisis. I could no longer adhere to dogma, with my mind constantly set on ultimate questions and deconstruction. At 17, I fell into a 1.5-year-long nihilistic depression, which I tried to break out of with materialism and pragmatism. I've tried to find meaning in modern-day preachers like Jordan Peterson and Sam Harris. At last, completely defeated and confused, I typed "how to deal with nihilism" into YouTube, and I found a clip from Leo's video. Then I spent months listening to hundreds of hours of Leo's content and trying to connect dots. With this conceptual framework, I've tried different psychedelics regularly from age 19 to 20. With Leo's guidance and chemicals, I've freed up my intuition and now explore different perspectives on spirituality, with Infinity as my base.

The first video of Leo's I watched was a clip from this one: I would definitely recommend it to someone going through a value crisis. Other than that, it has to be personal and aligned with the specific interests of the person you are sharing this with.

Actualized Quotes #148 and Grasping Consciousness - Faces Exercise These posts are some of my favorites in a long time.

Maybe I can point out something useful for you. Notice that there were signs and nudges but the choice was ultimately yours. At that time, you had your own reasons to keep going, and you did. There was no set path. You weren't really "supposed to" do anything. The source of guidance that you felt you had allowed you to go on, and for the situation to escalate. If "It" really wanted you to stop, there were infinite ways to stop you. The same mechanism of synchronicity would apply. This feeling is understandable for me. Now, if the infinite universe allowed you to go down this path, why would it now become strict all of a sudden? Why would "It" ignore your choices now? It might happen differently now, sure. The situation did change, and you entered a different phase. So your contact with the source might change its form. Or it might not. Like I said above, I don't know how it works for you. I won't suggest any specific course of action, attitude, or practice. I can promise only this: There are no real punishments in the basic ruleset of the universe. They only exist within a certain mindset. I am not saying this to invalidate your feelings. You will go through them one way or another. I am suggesting that you may experiment with your perspective, and be playful even. You can try to connect with this guidance in new ways. This will also give you a chance to appreciate how diverse "good paths" can be. Even the latest Leo's post points to this. I will too.

@Sadon Hey man, I don't have any specifc advice, since I don't know you and it would need to be tailored to you. There is no universal high-consciousness way of approaching crisis. Neither do I know much about angels and such. But I will share my observations. I do experience "unseen guidance". And it is interactive in a way. "The universe" speaks, and I answer. Then "It" answers accordingly to my behavior. I do not know the exact mechanism, or who is doing what. Could be subconscious, higher self, ancestors, angels, ET's, extra-dimensionals, or all of them at once. From the perspective of my highest realization, it doesn't matter as much, since all is me. For I am Infinity. And there are no rules. So any form of guidance is possible. That's another reason for why I don't have any advice. Maybe for you, it will be a telepathic connection with advanced UFOs. Or angels. The practical point is, that it works. And this mysterious guidance depends on your attitude and responses. And I'd say it doesn't matter that you acted irresponsibly and ignored the signs earlier. The universe will never give up on you. Since you are "It" ultimately. If it is your path to grow through suffering, then so it will be. No amount of "high-minded" advice will replace your personal self-reflection and going through the specific situation. But then, it's possible that you focus on the positive, however banal it sounds, and the universe will respond, by giving you a smoother experience. So one way I would approach your situation (again, I don't know how I would really), is by looking for beauty in it. What new opportunities does it present? What will clear up in your life from this point on? What did you learn? How does it serve you, despite overwhelming negativity? In my experience, once I switch my mind to these kinds of thoughts, "the universe" immediately responds. Sometimes in weird ways. Sometimes with delay. Sometimes differently than I expect it to. Because in the end, no one but you can decide what is this experience for. I know it isn't a very clear advice. But I felt touched and compelled to share. I wish you all the best.

Wouldn't it be interesting for you to arrange a discussion with him? He does private sessions and interviews, you know? As someone enjoying your work and Bashar's, I'd love to see you two dive into more fine details. I get that you won't do it for your Youtube. You could post it on the blog. Or don't release the recording, only write a post about it. That's up to you. What do you think @Leo Gura?

Would you mind expanding on that? I am curious about the ingredients you used, and how quickly your teeth got bad, and in what way.

I recommend that you try out Grok 3. I would be curious about your impression. In the free plan, you have 15 prompts in 2h. I can't speak to the consistent pushback, but I had two long conversations full of details about personal dilemmas. I tried free GPT, Claude, and Gemini. Grok 3 felt significantly easier to talk to. It continued to mention details from the earlier parts of the conversation in a relevant way. It didn't avoid edgy subjects like psychedelics use at all. When the AI was giving positive feedback, it was intelligent and relevant, as opposed to over-the-top unnecessary flattery from other LLMs. As a bonus, I want to mention my observation of its biases. After a short discussion on Open AI x Elon Musk beef, Grok called Elon's actions petty, without a direct push from my side. I think it's an important contrast to DeepSeek's pro-China bias.

You might consider using something with xylitol. It hinders bacteria growth in your mouth. I'm making my own toothpaste: - Coconut oil as a base (also has antibacterial properties) - erythritol, which is similar to xylitol and is also a sweetener - a bit of baking soda for lowering acidity and slight whitening - mint and clove essential oils, for freshness and lowering inflammation