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I'm reaching out for some guidance or shared experiences regarding severe social anxiety that emerges each time my ego reasserts itself after a breakthrough on 5-MeO-DMT. To give some context, I was born during a war, and the country I grew up in never truly recovered from the conflict. My childhood was fraught with challenges, including a possible sexual trauma, an aggressive alcoholic father, and a super-religious Christian mother who attributed our difficulties to a lack of faith and insufficient church attendance. This has deeply influenced my life, contributing to a complex mix of abnormal shame, massive social anxiety, depression, and dissociation throughout the first 25 years of my life. In my journey with 5-MeO-DMT, I've learned to surrender to the intense social anxiety that follows the dissolution of my ego during breakthroughs. I try to open up and allow the feelings to pass through me, as Martin Ball suggested me. Despite these challenges I had in the past I lead a functional life today, with my own family. However, my relationships could be much healthier, I could be less introverted, and sometimes my anger issues are quite severe. My experiences with psychedelics indicate that I still harbor unresolved trauma? Any tips or personal insights would be greatly appreciated. Thank you in advance for your support.

Sorry for the super late answer. I couldn't find such a video. My conversion guide is a compilation of various guides I found online. I input this information into ChatGPT-4 to create a consolidated guide, which I've tested myself a few times before sharing here.

Recently, I've been testing lower doses of 5-MeO-DMT, specifically in the 2-5 mg range. Yesterday, I had a breakthrough experience with just 5 mg, but the onset was extremely intense and frightening. Typically, this is how I respond to 5-MeO-DMT: (I vape it on e-mesh) -2 mg: Visuals of gray spinning cogs, accompanied by a familiar, loud deep background noise. - 5 mg: intense, scary onset as always but now leading to a breakthrough. - 10 mg: I experienced a severe panic attack (I've only taken this dose once). - 12-20 mg: Breakthrough with a smooth come-up. (An infinitely orgasmic celebration, the most hardcore party imaginable, with an endless sense of "what the fuck is happening?") I am not referring to a body orgasm, just lacking the words to describe this I am wondering if other people have smooth come-ups on higher doses? Would love to hear about your experiences. Also, I'm curious if this intense, scary come-up is what @Leo Gura and others refers to as "insanity."

A little late, but happy birthday wishes to you Leo. <3

Well said, mate. I struggled with this for several months until I admitted to myself that my life purpose is unrelated to Leo's work. Although it would be good for my ego, I can't do what he does. Nonetheless, I am really good at other things and enjoy doing them. Now, I absorb his content for fun and because I enjoy it, not because I want to become him.

Is relying on a pH test to determine the toxicity of a substance effective? Can we really rely solely on a pH test to ensure that we don't inhale toxic fumes when vaping HCl in e-liquid?

I was also wondering the same thing about using 4-AcO fumarate in e-liquid. Does anyone know if it's safe? Specifically, is it toxic when inhaled?

In my first 15 5MeO trips, I lost awareness and only felt huge energy but couldn't remember anything. It took many tries and testing doses from 2 to 25 mg (vaped) to find what works. Now, 2 mg lets me breakthrough easily. If I were advising, I'd suggest trying several 2 mg doses over two hours to see how it feels. Another option could be a single dose of 5-MeO MALT.

Losing awareness during a 5-MeO-DMT trip, including feeling non-existent, is part of the process. If you're scared, it shows what you need to face. Welcome this fear; it's key to growth. Getting 'knocked out' or forgetting parts of the trip is also normal.

@Leo Gura I've been searching for a course like yours for months without any luck. It was purely by chance that I stumbled upon it. In my opinion, it's worth its weight in gold—a true masterpiece. However, I'm disappointed that despite months of searching with the right keywords, I only found your course by chance. I strongly believe this course deserves extensive marketing. It's a gem that more people need to know about.

I'm not aware of any autoimmune diseases in my case. Regarding inflammation, I'm curious about how one might identify it. I abstain from alcohol and moderate my habits, including masturbation. However, I've noticed excessive screen time tends to deplete my energy, acknowledging it's an area for improvement on my part. Regarding vitamin deficiency, that's an interesting point—perhaps it's something worth exploring further. Yes, I'm also struggling to understand how some people function with such detrimental lifestyle habits. I always make sure to sleep before my night shifts to prepare, and as soon as I get home, I make my room pitch black to maximize sleep quality. Nonetheless, even with these precautions, I find myself less functional upon waking, which is understandable given the circumstances. Yes, juggling all these responsibilities can be incredibly exhausting, and I've felt my exhaustion reaching extreme levels. My blood pressure did spike during my period on the keto diet, but it's normalizing now. Thank you for pointing that out. My body weight has been pretty stable for many years.

-Yeah, my diet could be slightly adjusted to be more balanced, but it is relatively good. I don't eat processed food nor sugars/soft drinks almost at all. -I don't work out at the moment because everything got super exhausting. 3 years ago, I was able to do high amounts of sport, feeling unstoppable energy even though my diet was terrible compared to what I eat now. -Stressors: Two small kids, working shifts, having a wife, lol. I don't feel particularly stressed, other than the stress that I often got from the lack of energy to do anything meaningful.

-I just measured my blood pressure myself. It doesn't seem great. It was always normal, but as I see it, it is pretty high at the moment: 129/90 with a pulse of 67. Maybe because I measured it early in the morning? -I find it funny that Vitamin D is not listed in my bloodwork since I live in Germany. Good point, I will buy a self-test and then post it here. -My stomach is inflamed when I eat milk products like cheese and yogurt. Could that be something? -I feel almost always tired after eating; is this not supposed to be relatively normal? -Coffee gives me a slight boost, not even worth mentioning. But I will observe my energy levels in the future after drinking coffee and post here if I see anything relevant. I just know that caffeine makes me super aggressive when I do too much of it.

I already started implementing some principles from the Thyroid book on your reading list. But yes, this problem could have 100 causes.

Hi @Jason Actualization Thanks for your insight! I've created a new topic more relevant to my health issues.