Myioko

They're letting you down easy as well as protecting their physical safety of not wanting to upset you. Your probably don't come across as particularly sweet or not sweet, it's just a polite thing to say, so it probably isn't personal! Please just remember to be respectful to them and not make them scared you'll attack them, you're the one stepping into their personal space.

I keep on having tripping-dreams to a much lesser intensity than the one I had a few days ago. They seem to be confronting my fear of death and solipsism/the idea of it/no clear identity, as well as practicing letting go of attachment. I'm very attached to my life story being real, as well as people in my life and wanting to remember them and not let go of memory. The dreams re-play the many various aspects that arose in my mind when tripping irl, but now in story form/living it out in dreams

My go-to food ingredients are: -Beans, lentils and bean pasta (for stews or just eating alongside veggies/rice, I also love roasted chickpeas) -Mushrooms -Tofu -Avo -Apple juice or oreos for low blood sugar -Brown/wild Rice -Broccoli -Spinach -On rotation: Bell pepper, bok choy, basil, carrots, green onion, micro greens, cauliflower (cauliflower gnocchi is fun to make) (oh and fruit, I go through phases of not liking sweet things, but: Apples + peanut butter, berries (esp frozen), orange, peach) (oh and kale. I used to avoid it because BUGS but I've learned that triple washed kale bags are usually good.) -Zero carb tortillas (for being diabetic) -Steel cut oats -Dark chocolate -Soy milk -Wheat bread -Cashew butter on occasion for pasta -Herbs and lemon for seasoning (cumin, nutritional yeast, powdered onion, italian herbs, celery seeds) Recently I've been obsessed with jack fruit

Hi, ~How is your day to day life satisfaction? ~Do you feel like you have room to act out your desires, and what is your relationship with desire? Which ones do you act on vs let go? (like desiring to go to a place, have a thing, learn something, have a relationship, create something, eat certain foods, experience things, feel and act out a particular emotion, etc). ~How has your relationship with relating to other people changed? Thanks

What is disturbing about the dream I had this morning is that my sense of time collapsed/compressed into a tiny amount of time and measuring time became really really subjective/meaningless/groundless

Oh interesting. To me it feels like something fractal-y/mathematical in the shape of my experience (that has infinite zoom) but experience it in different formats

Has anyone ever experienced this before? I just woke up from an infinity dream that felt particularly experientially vivid, it felt 100% like tripping intensely on weed. (I've tried weed a few times but haven't had it since June. It was on the borderline of too much for me/borderline traumatizing/ego death so I promised myself never to try it again.) So the only thing that DIDN'T feel like tripping and falling through infinity and endless time distortion was that I was connected to my physical body the whole time - aka no physical pain in my dreams, like regular dreams. No racing heartbeat, clammy hands and shivers, etc underlying the tripping; and waking up sober. What frightened me after I 'woke up' irl and said holy shit and sat up in bed, is that before that all of my infinity dreams didn't have time distortion. So I told myself 'at least I don't experience time distortion, it's just my brain processing the intensity and trauma/fear around taking weed, they're just dreams and will slowly go away.' I think one of my peak fears, is that I don't know which point in time I'm in, and the thought of physical pain/torture is very frightening to me. I'm afraid of somehow veering away from the dream of my body, to a dream that has physical torture, even though I've been safely encompassed in my body this whole time. The last time I was on weed I could feel my physical sensations like I was feeling them with a microscope - like I remember an air bubble traveling up my throat and was shocked by how much of that I felt. I was afraid that I would get a panic attack, because I couldn't fathom how painful and frightening that would feel at that level of intensity. I thought my infinity dreams were ebbing down and that I was getting over and processing my fears, in my last 'peak' infinity dream (which was falling through challenging/mentally torturous situations as well as physically falling through various things, spaces and substances and dying over and over again) by the end of that dream-series I 'woke up' in my dream in horror to 'remember' the reality of my situation (I lived in some very shit living situation somewhere cold in Europe in the 1940s in that dream) and was just screaming and crying in the dream, so disappointed this was real. Both times I 'woke up' in my infinity dreams I felt like I had just re-remembered and became lucid of my 'real' life. And I never am able to wake myself up from the dreams like I do in regular nightmares, because in the dreams I am not lucid of my waking life. Anyway the dream I woke up from felt just as real as real in the moment And mentally felt like it lasted about 3-4 years long, at least that's the story/memory/experiencial feeling I had in the dream when I was trying to describe my experience to the dream-anesthesiologist while tripping who was doing surgery on my left foot. Seriously scary, bizarre, interesting stuff

Hi, and no worries - being social/writing/on social media can be quite tiresome! I'm doing well thanks

I was thinking for a title for a potential journal, and this radio came to mind and fits the mood! A few years back I was having dreams and abstract states of feelings/states that had a lot of energy and information stored in them but were hard to decode or understand, especially because I was always half asleep or asleep - the kind of feeling where you're tossing and turning but not quite awake, the brain is very active and it feels profound, but then you wake up and it's lost. In one dream I traveled too far out into the universe and fell into the center, caught in it's net, it was this pit or web of an abstract invisible shape that glowed red in my mind. It was beautiful and terrifying! Anyways I've been having a bit of a recurrence of that energy lately I've been loving the late summer weather, and opening my bedroom window at night to feel the cool wind and listen to crickets. I don't like to listen to anything before going to sleep, but if I were and had a radio maybe I'd put this on.