Dude, it's just like a really strong coffee effect. It's not a trip.

It doesn't really matter because you are stuck with whatever looks you got. So you have to figure out how to get laid looking as you do.
I have attracted much hotter girls than anyone would think I have a right to attract. Model-quality girls.
Basically you need to reach a level of such solid inner game that you simply assume any girl you like would sleep with you. And you never doubt your attractiveness no matter how many times you are rejected or whatever any girl tells you. In your own mind your attractiveness is simply never in question.

Ukrainians and russian do not fight. Russia attacked Ukraine, Ukraine is defending itself. What exactly boggles your mind about it? 
The shared history Ukraine has with russia is of russian abuse towards Ukraine - for example Stalin’s Holodomor that starved up to 7 million Ukrainians to death over the course of 1 year - it basically cleared out Eastern Ukraine of ethnic Ukrainians. It’s that kind of “shared” history Ukrainians should appreciate? 

I attended Rupert's online satsang and asked him directly about his stance on solipsism and recorded an audio of the conversation we had.
IMO Rupert kept beating around the bush, maybe also partly because my inquiry might have been not concise enough.
Apologies in advance if I didn't manage to include all objections that have been made by you guys in the many posts about that topic. I tried my best to get Rupert to give an definite answer to that question.
Here's a link to the audio (12 min):
https://sndup.net/kgy3/

This guy got a girlfriend:
Now shut the fuck up and go talk to girls.

You cant really compare the two. Leo is a relatively young youtuber who makes videos on a whole different range of topics. He also heavily promotes psychedelics as the only way to awakening recently.
Rupert Spira is a older british man in his 60s who has gone the long way via meditation from the non dual lineage under Ramana Maharshi. He only teaches in a very specific non dual way. I like listening to his meditations from his youtube channel. His voice alone commands presence.
Sadhguru is a different beast altogether. I used to listen to him alot back in the days but he often repeat the same stories over and over again. I have no experience with his programs.

Could it be that you have bipolar disorder? 
Honestly a lot of your symptoms match bipolar disorder, similar to my mom. 
You might want to look into it. 
ADHD could be along with bipolar. 
Bipolar is just more than mood swings. 
Bipolar people are unable to hold a job, constantly suffer restlessness, cannot sit still, get distracted easily, massive sleep disorder, boundless amount of energy, insanely creative, outspoken, hyper all the time, impulsive, reckless, keep forgetting or losing things, lose control easily, always tend to doodle whenever someone is saying something, can't be organized, chaotic all the time, can never pay attention, constant mood swings, phases of Delusions, can't sit still, hyper creative. All these symptoms match my mother and she is diagnosed with bipolar. 
She has been taking meds and she is doing better and more organized. 
 
 
With all your symptoms, don't rule out bipolar. There is a heaven and earth difference between symptoms of bipolar mentioned online versus actual bipolar symptoms. Don't be fooled by the internet. 
The internet gives a very basic limited outlook on a mental illness. It is not a whole picture. Relying on internet stated symptoms can lead to massive misdiagnosis. 
Get checked with a psychiatrist specialized in bipolar treatment and diagnosis.
Also visit some specialist for ADHD diagnosis. 
Don't get misdiagnosed. 
This can't be done on the internet. You will need practical diagnosis with a doctor. 
 
 

In a sense I don't struggle with friends because I'm so introverted I don't keep them.
I enjoy my own company more than that of any other human. Many people don't understand such a lifestyle.
The struggle was three-fold:
Simply learning to be social at all Getting over my insecurities and limiting beliefs that any hot girl would want to date me Learning how to flirt and attract women When I started I had big problems with all three.

Lolz
That's your absurd idea of me. You might as well have photoshopped my face onto Arnold Schwarzeneggar's body. That's what you've done in your mind because you idolize me.
The truth is that I have been insecure my whole life, I've struggle enormously with being social and attracting women.
When I attract a hot woman, she has no idea who I am or how much I make.
Yes, I'm 6'2". But... I don't have a square jaw. I'm not classically good-looking. I'm skinny. No girl gives a fuck about my spirituality, knowledge, or wisdom. She has no idea how much money I make and I never tell her. I can be socially awkward. I'm highly introverted and don't like small-talk.
1000s of hours of work went into making me dating-material. And much of it was invested into improving my inner game.

There are many pros and cons to each.
Day pros:
Virtually zero competition Less noise and obstacles, no friends to cock-block. It's easier to have a conversation. Can run into girls who are introverted and/or don't like to drink or party. Higher quality girls overall. Good even if you're alone (without friends or wings) Day cons:
Much smaller volume of girls, your approach needs to be well-honed. Waste a lot of time just standing around. Not efficient. Not so good for building up skills. Girls often have boyfriends You're basically only grabbing phone numbers Can't physically escalate much, your game needs to be much more chill and toned down. Night pros:
Lots more targets. Far more efficient use of your time. Girls are looser and down to fuck Much more likely to be single, less boyfriend rejections. Much better for training and practicing your skills Can get away with sloppy approaches and social awkwardness better Can do rapid and heavy physical escalation Night cons:
Lots of competition Lots of noise and distractions, hard to hear, hard to talk. Messes with your sleep schedule Need to go for one-night stands, forced to close same-night Drunk girls Friends cockblocking Dancing The club can be very intimidating if you're alone. Wings are more important. Lots of dealing with annoying logistics challenges - - - - - -
Over all, day game is awesome. The two serious problem with it are:
Far too few hot girls walking around during the day. The best ones are rarely single Day game is really only viable in certain locations with high volumes of people and hot girls. Such locations tend to be hard to find. Or you can do day game very sporadically as you do your grocery shopping, etc. But this is far too infrequent to be relied upon. It's more of a bonus you get as a veteran of the game. Once you have built up your skills you should be able to execute a solid approach on any random hot girl you see anywhere during the day.

@Hardkill You're not approaching nearly enough.
If you want to get good at pickup -- for a hard case newbie like yourself -- you're looking a 5,000-10,000 approaches.
Move to a BIG city and start approaching for real. Get some good wing men who will keep you company and keep you motivated.
If you're talking about terminal cancer, then you should be prepared to work your butt off to cure it. The good news is, you can make massive progressive with massive action. The problem is, so far, your action-taking hasn't been massive enough.

The most Actualized.org question I've ever read. 

I have done it.
But I can't speak to how detox makes you feel. I don't feel much when detoxing so it's just a matter of taking pills every 3 hrs which can be annoying but doable. I've taken pills right before going into the club and right after coming out. But generally I try to plan my detox for days when I'm not clubbing, like Mon-Wed.

Sigh... these dumb viral pickup videos only mislead people about how game actually works.
Stop watching this kind of clickbait shit. Not only will this not teach you game, this will ruin your results with women.
Learn social calibration and stop saying weird awkward shit to girls. Be normal. But also be a man who pursues what he wants when he sees it.

I lived in Miami for 6 years and loved it. The weather is basically perfect sunshine year round. And the girls are ridiculously attractive, with more of a mix of lots of tourists and locals. You can also easily game there 24/7 if you want like Vegas, but with more potential for normalcy. 
Miami also has incredibly high status, social circle game like Vegas or LA. Celebrities are always around and you can get pulled into some pretty crazy scenarios if you know a few of the right people.

Good, but you're still so far from the ultimate God-realization. This was just a baby encounter with God.
God is you! But it will take you many more trips to realize and fully accept that.
Keep tripping, carefully. You don't need to wait a whole year to face your resistance. Give yourself time to integrate but also don't waste time in avoidance and fear. Fear has to be faced. Reaching the ultimate levels of awakening will involve facing lots of fear, over and over again.

1) Just bite the bullet and go sober forever from now on. Learn to pump up your own state. This is doable.
2) Replace all that shit with DMT vape pen.
3) Combo of both, cycling.
I've never had a single drink while gaming. Never done cocaine although I've been offered it. Never done weed although I've been offered it. I've even been offered ketamine.
One of my wings goes to Zedd's after parties where they pass around trays of cocaine. But his morals are such that he doesn't do any drugs ever. And everyone there knows that. So when the cocaine tray is passed around the table they just skip over him out of respect. All you gotta do is set clear boundaries. If someone questions you why, you tell them it's against your morals.

You pull to the biggest and closest place. So ideally a place with 2 beds. You never split a set of girls who are close friends, they will refuse it. Just pull them both.
Pulling 3 girls with 2 guys is gonna be very challenging. You basically need one of them to drop off, leave, or fall asleep. Or you can try to grab a random guy to join you two. Or you can even call a wing to come join. Once you got a contact list of local wings, you can text them and say, "We got an extra girl who needs company. Come to my place."
Another thing that's possible is you pull all 3 girls to your place for an after party. As you party with them and have fun, you take your girl by the hand and lead her to the bathroom and go quick sex there. This is a good option when there's just no way to properly isolate. Just make sure she don't regret sex with you. Make sure she wants it.
Another good option is to party with them till the dead of night, till everyone is dead tired and start going to bed. Then just follow your girl into her bed. Often her friends could fall asleep early, giving you privacy with your girl.
You could also take her to have sex in your car if you got one. Or even outside in some dark alley.
One of my old wings literally fucked a girl in Austin under a bridge.
You gotta be creative. Again, make sure she's into it.
I've had wings fuck girls in restrooms, parking lots, cars, bridges, rooftops, ice rooms, and even in the middle of the dance floor at the club. You can even fuck in an elevator.
The other option with a 3-set is do it solo so the other 2 girls can entertain themselves while you eventually walk off with your girl at the very end of the night. You just stick around with them an be social until your girls to bed and you follow her into her bed.
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Just keep looking for better wings. Yeah, sometimes wings can be very immature or inept. But you will eventually find great wings, especially in a place like Toronto.
A great way to find wings is to attend an RSD Free Tour event when it comes to your town. The best wings tend to show up to those.

It's really a no-brainer. Humans are not meant to eat wheat. It's empty calories with no nutrients, it's hard to digest, and all modern forms of wheat have been genetically engineered to be extra-resistant to bugs, so they are even harder for humans to digest. Many people allergic to wheat amd don't even know it. Wheat makes you sleepy and lazy.
If you don't eat wheat or sugar, it's almost impossible to get fat.

Well, you see... there is no difference between anything. At all. Like, at all....
That is awakening.

Dude, Toronto is one of the top cities in the world for game. So none of your BS excuses.
You can find tons of wings and you can also game solo. But solo is very hard to start with so look for wings. Fuck your values for now. You don't need these wings to be your spiritual gurus. Their only purpose right now is to get you laid. Later you can be more picky.
The dude from HonestSignalz YT channel is from Toronto. Watch him game.
You are not going to find enlightened wings. PUAs are all around stage Orange and they are obsessed with one thing: getting laid. Which is what you need right now.

LA isn't failing. What are you smoking?
Homeless in LA exist because the weather is nice, because house prices are crazy (from success), and because of capitalism.
California is the most successful state by far. It could be its own country it's so successful.
What's failing is West Virginia & Alabama.

I don't know what that means. You can keep developing your self/mind forever.
I think it's far more realistic to embrace your desires and indulge them as long as they aren't crazy toxic like the desire to shoot up a school. Obviously shouldn't indulge that. But if you have a desire for porn, for example, I would indulge it. And I do
Honestly, after my deepest awakening, it's made me embrace my desires more. I am more honest with myself about my animalistic desires. I have no problem being hedonistic at times. I've dropped the spiritual act of being above desire, and this is actually growth.
For example, in the middle of my deepest awakening I got the desire/vision to start a love triangle / threesome with 2 girlfriends. And there was zero shame in that. I'm not saying I'm acting out on it, but I'm also not saying I would not. Basically, I allow myself whatever pleasure I want which doesn't harm others much. My range of future behavior is more open than ever, but also I have less need to act selfishly because I'm more conscious than ever. And still, I allow myself to act selfishly too!

I didn't just create websites, I launched websites, marketed them, and made lots of sales through them.
I earned lots of money doing that. Way more than a salary job could ever pay. Game designers are not paid very well. I was making $45k/yr as an entry level game designer in Boston. I was making $150k-$200k/yr off my website(s) and my partner was making that much as well. So actually the gross of our site was close to $400k/yr at its peak.
I'm not going to get into that.
It worked for me, but it came at significant cost to my mental well-being and it's not easy to pull it off. Internet marketing has changed A LOT in the last 10 years since I stopped doing it. So I cannot say what works today. The stuff that I did 10 years ago will no longer work. The internet is a different beast. But of course there are always new opportunities to make lots of money online. I just can't help you there.
But you can also make a shit-load of money in games. If you know how to develop great games.
Huge money can be made in almost any industry. Pick whichever you love most.
It's possible to make a game that earns $100 million in profit. See Stardew Valley as one example.
Minecraft made billions.

Good decision.
Being so disconnected and unable to respond on the same contextual level of the question is the opposite of being conscious or awakened. 
Being conscious means that you are conscious of the present context and know how to navigate it while perhaps alluding to something greater, being responsible for everything you say, how you say it, and how it will affect or be perceived by whoever asked.
In the same way that if you want to help someone climb a mountain you don't always show them your great pictures that you so proudly took of the sky and the horizon seen from the top,  you instead give them the gear necessary to climb and survive the weather, a map, and perhaps some words of encouragement.