Javfly33

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  1. SDS can hurt the body obviously , for example the back
  2. 👌👌👌👌 👌👌👌
  3. @Nahm thanks 💙 It does feel bad these stories and it def would be nice if there is no self as you say. @Leo Gura "Just shut up" Lol you always so hard with me Leo. But I get your point I need to stop fucking around with my mind. I think the microdose made it worse in this case. I think I'm putting psychs for a long time now and focusing on results and material goals. Approach, socialization, and go out for a whole year each weekend and just shut the fuck up and only contemplate until one year has passed of doing this. Yeap.might be a good idea. @PurpleTree I feel emotionally drained but at least i feel yesterday broke through approach anxiety a lot.@Raptorsin7 And what would I do? I have done a lot of instrospection this last years, some trips here and there, and they haven't really solved the root thing. At the end of the day the root problem it's imaginary, so I will keep going out and try to focus on what I want in life. (Even though my fucking mind tells me each second that there's something wrong with me) @Nahm I don't think my life is that unstable. I've always felt like fucking shit most of my adult life while socializing with most people and of course with girls. Nowdays I'm just honest lmao
  4. I'm afraid taking the microdose might have been a bad decision and might have traumatized myself tonight.
  5. Girls doesn't get attracted to looks that much bro. You might get online dates but when you show up in real life you better not behave like a pussy if you actually want to get laid
  6. @The0Self That's right, I'm not sure I understand you...
  7. I'm broken after nightgame session. It was the night I approached by far more women, and I was on a microdose of lsd (I don't know if this was a mistake or not). I was pushed by (finally/thankfully) a experienced wingman. Took a lot of rejections, felt the creepiest of the creepiest, and felt the worst guy ever. I think I just hate myself Yeah, it's that, I'm having constant thoughts of self hate. How the fuck I am going to be attractive to a nice girl if meanwhile I'm saying things to her I'm thinking whatever I'm saying is shit and bad? Can just please somebody tell me ITS POSSIBLE TO GET OUT OF THIS NIGHTMARE, I think my anxiety/social anxiety and my problems with dating stuff sex, women so on , it's all intertwined into one big mess of hate inside my body. How the fuck I beat this monster. Please tell me it's possible. I don't mind the pain, I mind not knowing if I'll ever be free of this shit
  8. Because its death. Reality stops being real. Who would want to accept such a thing? At least the ego doesnt.
  9. Entertainment for monkey mind
  10. I've started meditating again after so much time. Not because of spiritual purposes But for relaxing/letting go. I've already noticed a subtle overall positive effect on my calmness and ability to let go through the day. However I've also noticed something concerning. I wake Up each day with my mind Racing. First thing that i do i find scrolling through social media and emails, But once I've finished, Im left with this overall sensation of "edgyness".
  11. Then its all Love 💙💙💙
  12. Not this complex. They are way more simpler.
  13. What you mean when you say "everything is imaginary" or "you are imagining everything, including, people, tress, sounds, etc". I can see that as possible, when i am meditating and i become conscious everything is happening in my Consciousness. For example i hear the lift sound because somebody clicked the Button, and i can become aware What IS true IS the Sound + the thought "that sound IS coming from outside my experience where exists a physical lift". So i can become aware of that difference and open my mind to the fact that i might be imagining the lift, (and the Sound) However What about when i walk around budy downtown. My city has a very busy downtown, lots of Cars, peoples, stores. On a saturday night its really nuts . This is when i find VERY DIFFICULT to accept that God COULD BE SO TWISTED to try to deceive me by creating SO MANY TYPE OF SOUNDS, COLOURS, PEOPLE MOVING AROUND, DIRT, CLOTHING, CITY LIGHTS, ETC !!! WTF? That would be such a ridiculously complex imagination. Cmon. This have to be Real. I can accept i am imagining my whole room, the lift, the chair, and my body. Ok. But not the REAL CITY, with REAL PEOPLE.
  14. So What does that mean? That if you are not responsible and mature and cautious you are a bad person ?
  15. So being inmature is his fault? I thought there was no ego un the first place. Who you are you guys judging because of being inmature?